"Why are they here" - is what was asked by a older sister at the lgbtq supporting methodist church concerning me and my husband post bible study today - new bible study my husband had told me (he is the one that get's the bible study e-mails not me)..................
I was already not feeling like I was like "fitting in" but I never feel like I "fit in" like never. never. never. never.
I have a real problem
people know I am a jew oftentimes
I'm only sometimes passing as hispanic, sometimes I'll hear at stores Buenas Noches, Buenas dias.......
at church I wear facemasks to keep people from getting sick
well guess what I look like wearing a facemask - a jew
a lot of people don't like jews they don't like us
and I can't control how many babies and people are being killed in gaza I don't have any control over that!
my husband says I shouldn't quit the methodist church over this cause it's only 1 bad incident and that I shouldn't quit the methodist church due to all the rest of the "positivity"
but I didn't feel like I fitted in anyways that's the thing
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so when you already don't feel like you fit in
and then
your um singled out for merely ATTENDING A BIBLE STUDY WHICH IS A THING MANY PEOPLE DO AND THEY PEOPLE MANY TIMES A WEEK AT MANY CHURCHES ATTEND BIBLE STUDIES AND THEY AIN'T SINGLED OUT
MANY PEOPLE
EVERYWEEK ATTEND BIBLE STUDIES EVEN FOR THE 1ST TIME AND THEY AREN'T SINGLED OUT LIKE ME AND MY HUSBAND WERE TODAY
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JESUS COME BACK
I CAN'T
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I want to go back to the mega church
more people my age there at the mega church
it's all older people that I have a hard time relating to at the methodist church
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I DON'T FEEL LIKE I FIT IN
AND MY HUSBAND CAN'T UNDERSTAND WHAT I'M TRYING TO TELL HIM
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