There are "1,306 lyrics" with my maiden last name in them "Ruby" don't you think there's a reason for that world??????................

There are "1,306 lyrics" with my maiden last name in them "Ruby" don't you think there's a reason for that world?????? 
  You can scroll through all 1,306 lyrics right here if you want to https://www.lyrics.com/lyrics/ruby
  One song mega stands out for me..........

   Think on this people a song about a lady called "Ruby" who is a angel!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo am I really coo coo for coa coa puffs?????????????
   There is a abundance of song evidence out there to suggest I'm telling the truth.
  I don't like being called nuts, or even to look nuts, for people to think I'm nuts, my family thinks I'm completely insane ----------- probably other people do to.
  I'm warning you all right now earth. The anti christ will have "two horns like a lamb" Revelation 13:11 "And I beheld another beast coming up out of the earth; and he had two horns like a lamb, and he spake as a dragon." The anti christ is not your traditional "wolf in sheeps clothing" He will actually for reals have "two horns like a lamb" 
Matthew 7:15 "Beware of false prophets, which come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves." - he will NOT be a matthew 7:15 situation, he will actually literally have "two horns like a lamb".

  And if lucifer wins armageddon ----------- which I'm a believer "it ain't over til the fat lady sings" Mark 9:23 "Jesus said unto him, If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth." Faith is powerful for anyone, as if only us followers of christ can believe and make something happen --------- that's not the case! 

  If lucifer and his followers just believe enough, I think it's possible a armagedon win................I am considered nuts so I'm talking. 

  If armageddon is won by lucifer..........................the anti-christ would be I believe made into the "new christ" ------------- I'm talking about a real overthrow that could actually happen. 

  The anti-christ is a man with "two horns like a lamb", that will be able to call fire down from the heavens! 

Revelation 13:13-14 "And he doeth great wonders, so that he maketh fire come down from heaven on the earth in the sight of men, And deceiveth them that dwell on the earth by the means of those miracles which he had power to do in the sight of the beast; saying to them that dwell on the earth, that they should make an image to the beast, which had the wound by a sword, and did live."

  Now I don't know what is so special about this first beast, he don't have "two horns like a lamb" -------- he didn't have "the goods" in my mind. 

  He didn't even don't look like did any miracles? He was wounded and came back to life................that's it. 

  But when you are dealing with a anti christ that has "two horns like a lamb" --------------- let it be known world, your going to want to believe he is the lord. Matthew 24:24 "For there shall arise false Christs, and false prophets, and shall shew great signs and wonders; insomuch that, if it were possible, they shall deceive the very elect."

  The first beast appears to do some baaaaaaaaaaad stuffs on this earth. But the anti christ himself, he's going to do I believe some good things "two horns like a lamb" on his head!!!!!!!!! 

  This is all the "insider" info I have, that I'm about to talk about at this here moment in time. I gonna talk more when the time is right and it ain't time yet. 

  If I'm nuts, and done lost my mind...........well that is some quality 1,306 lyrics in various songs with my maiden last name in them nuts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

(somedays I try and look for wrinkles, and convince myself I'm growing crusty old.............I have a horrible time convincing myself. Now I know there are people that also look young out there, jennifer anniston, drew barrymore, etc. But their skin on their faces, is usually not the skin of a babies butt like what you see on my face. - I might could die though don't kill me please I want to live!)

   Aging is a normal part of life, you are supposed to age, though I do not believe it is a sin to try and age less, for the bible does say your body is the temple of the holy spirit. (1 Corinthians 6:19) I use vitamin E oil on my face, I lately use a teeny bit of emu oil in some cocoa butter lotion for my whole body. I drink shungite water. I don't drink alcohol (that can really age you), I lift weights which is key. 

 I really believe time froze for me...............I don't want to age. But I am pretty 100% I'm actually literally not aging anymore. Nobody believes me I don't think. 

 pppps.........................went to bible study last night had a great time.  It is good to "love the brethren" (ladies at bible study in this instance) Life it is not meant to be a "alone walk" we need each other!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

 -------- ps I love the lord, I love fellow christians a lot. I just don't like hell, I don't like the idea of people burning forever in pain and eternal torment.................I'm not into the whole hell idea. I think it'd be much better if god made giant jails, like what we have on earth. Where prisoners have nice toilets, and get meals, and maybe walks through a courtyard so their legs don't cramp up to much. I don't believe that god ever makes garbage, and in jewish language the people of hell are going to gehenna which literally translates to the garbage dump!!!!!!!!!!! http://www.patheos.com/blogs/formerlyfundie/what-jesus-talked-about-when-he-talked-about-hell/
Even if you don't think gehenna means garbage dump................what do you do with garbage all to often do you not burn it??????????????????????????

  How do you treat garbage, is it not considered something to burn?????????? I would say so! When you decide to burn a human, in my estimation you are then deeming them trash! 

-------------- so even if you think gehenna means something else then garbage dump.................it's still people being discarded into a burning inferno forever!
  ppps...............I believe god and jesus and everybody in the bible is trapped in the story!!!!!!!!!!! John 1:1 "In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God." I really believe John 1:1 a slew...............if in the beginning was god and the word and the word is god...........well god isn't going to deviate from his ownself now is He cause then He wouldn't even exist anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  And lucifer he didn't have no option to not be the devil -------------- lucifer had 0 choice but to be the devil there was nooooooooooo other option for him! And noooooooooo other option for all the angels that fell with him.................and further noooooooooooooo other option for all the people that are not writting in the lambs book of life! I do not deem it "criminal" to care about their plight. Jesus is lord, and jesus does save..............he's trapped in the story and did allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll he could do I believe.
  And I know jesus loves everybody. He's not a hateful to vindictive guy at all.......1 Peter 2:22
"Who did no sin, neither was guile found in his mouth:" The "guile" didn't come out of his mouth, cause he never let that enter into his heart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 If jesus was mega super wronged by someone he went and he prayed 1 Peter 2:23 "Who, when he was reviled, reviled not again; when he suffered, he threatened not; but committed himself to him that judgeth righteously:" My family who is calling me nuts a slew, I been praying for them!!!!!!!!
  It's fair for them to call me nuts, this isn't none of this what would be deemed "sane" ----------- unless I'm literally telling the truth! Which I believe I am!

LOVE

My family is calling me nuts a lot, they are 100% I'm completely crazy BUT WHAT IF I'M TELLING THE TRUTH WORLD (and I believe I really am).....................

My family is calling me nuts a lot, they are 100% I'm completely crazy BUT WHAT IF I'M TELLING THE TRUTH WORLD (and I believe I really am).
  It's not good for me my family calling me nuts all the time like this. And I told them today in a e-mail, that they don't even appear to know for sure what race they are. Nobodies mental health is going to be doing well in a family that doesn't even know what race they are!!!!!!!!!!!! I've been told to take a dna test to find out what race I am, and my mom told my brother he might be jewish and he should take a dna test. This is a pretty large family, they should know what race they are!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  This is the melting pot america is, but I was sure I had my dna profile all figured out..............irish, native american, and jewish (with a bit of swedish sprinkled in).
  I knew talking on my blog I might be called crazy but I couldn't handle not talking about who I believe is my real husband on my blog. I want to be me, the real me. All of the real me. Is what I'm saying really that far fetched???????????????
   There is a "queen of heaven" there are several bible verses about her (aka the person I believe I am). Jeremiah 7:18 "The children gather wood, and the fathers kindle the fire, and the women knead their dough, to make cakes to the queen of heaven, and to pour out drink offerings unto other gods, that they may provoke me to anger."
  Something that seems "new" is about to happen on this earth. Something that is so out of the ordinary that people are going to literally say to themselves "this is new". And it ain't new..............Ecclesiastes 3:14-16 "I know that, whatsoever God doeth, it shall be for ever: nothing can be put to it, nor any thing taken from it: and God doeth it, that men should fear before him. That which hath been is now; and that which is to be hath already been; and God requireth that which is past."
  That add's up people, finding out oh the prince of darkness has a wife, that would seem "new" wouldn't it??????? Wouldn't that seem fresh to you all?????????
   I think that would!
  Now a fallen angel I guess could've implanted memories in my head somehow?????????? I don't know how you implant a lifetime of memories in a person like that????????????? I do not know if the amount and level of memories that I have had could be "implanted in my brains"???????? Maybe if aliens abducted me and did a real good job.......................

What if I'm telling the truth though? I believe I am. I could be something "special" on this earth. I could've been abducted by aliens - sure. But I could be actually something special on the earth. I believe I'm telling the truth. 

  The bible says, speak the truth to one another. Ephesians 4:25 "Wherefore putting away lying, speak every man truth with his neighbour: for we are members one of another." I believe we all are very much so "members one of another" --------- god wants all of us saved! 

   The truth is good to hold onto! Hold onto the truth in your speech to the very best of your ability is my advice..........and in your heart! 

  You will hear "lies" in these last days, for the bible says that in the last days many false prophets shall arise. If you happen to hear a lie..............don't hold onto that. Read you bible!!!!! 

  The bible is the truth! 

2 Timothy 2:14-16 "Of these things put them in remembrance, charging them before the Lord that they strive not about words to no profit, but to the subverting of the hearers. Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth. But shun profane and vain babblings: for they will increase unto more ungodliness."

  That's how you show yourself "approved unto god" people, read the bible, study, study, study!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

  And try not to be about "profane and vain babblings" -------------- """""""""for they will increase unto more ungodliness""""""""""" 

  The bible!!!!!!!!!!!

   I guess I asked for my family to call my crazy finally talking on my blog. I think I felt like "well things are bad anyways". I told them they could end up feeling really bad soon, cause I could be telling them the truth!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  I believe lucifer is going to get in a fight that he hasn't gotten into yet. 

Revelation 12:7-9 "And there was war in heaven: Michael and his angels fought against the dragon; and the dragon fought and his angels, And prevailed not; neither was their place found any more in heaven. And the great dragon was cast out, that old serpent, called the Devil, and Satan, which deceiveth the whole world: he was cast out into the earth, and his angels were cast out with him."

  I really believe at this moment in time lucifer is up in heaven, accusing the brethen. There is a bible verse about that................Revelation 12:10 "And I heard a loud voice saying in heaven, Now is come salvation, and strength, and the kingdom of our God, and the power of his Christ: for the accuser of our brethren is cast down, which accused them before our God day and night."

  How could lucifer accuse the brethren before god "day and night" if he was clean cast down to this earth what right after jesus's death most of the body of christ appears to believe.........but that's ok that you all believe that, you are not the "queen of heaven" so you do not even have the opportunity to know some of the bible as well as I do. 

   And the bible says, in the last days this earth will be as in the days of noah...........well in the days of noah there were fallen angels on this earth, that came down and married women and had giant babies.Genesis 6:2-4 "That the sons of God saw the daughters of men that they were fair; and they took them wives of all which they chose. And the Lord said, My spirit shall not always strive with man, for that he also is flesh: yet his days shall be an hundred and twenty years. There were giants in the earth in those days; and also after that, when the sons of God came in unto the daughters of men, and they bare children to them, the same became mighty men which were of old, men of renown."

   Now you all could label me crazier then a coo coo puff like my family has. But I believe there is a huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge difference between "having memories" like I have............and being nuts. I had real memories, memories of melchesedek telling me lucifer was talking with god and that I should go make sure hubbies doing ok. And I went and hid behind I bush I remember that, I remember everything that was said (well I remember and then I black it out again cause I can't handle that memory). 

  I remember flying, up in this huge ring of angels and lucifer standing in the middle of this ring on the ground, telling us "the plans"

  I remember adam and eve. I remember I was the one that often told adam when god had made a new animal for adam to name, and then I went and got adam. 

  What if these memories are real?

(I could not be nuts world)

And if they aren't real..........then I believe I have been fantastically "demonically" attacked, and I believe I'm basically completely sane either way. My family has been mega quick to label me nuts 100% it's not nice of them. It's not nice, to have to open e-mails from my family and every time nearly they are going on about how crazy I am. 

  And I guess I need to fake being 100% white now, and I ain't sure if I can???????????? You are what you are sometimes in life. 

  And I'm 100% taking back the word "crazy" cause crazy people can get counseling, they can go on medication, they can get help. None of you should do what my family is doing aka calling someone "nuts" all the time.........that's not nice. Rather love each other. Pray for each other! 

Matthew 22:36-40 

36 Master, which is the great commandment in the law?

37 Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.

38 This is the first and great commandment.

39 And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.

  I don't think I sound like a "nut" right now I really don't. 

 Somedays I just want to fly away...................

Have a great week earth!

LOVE

For a identity in christ jesus THAT THE GATES OF HELL CAN'T EVEN RIP AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!..........................

For a identity in christ jesus THAT THE GATES OF HELL CAN'T EVEN RIP AWAY!!!!!!!!!!! For those who are new to my blog, not long ago my sister got a dna test, said she was not jewish at all, then my whole family decided they are completely white. (even though my sister is a half sister, and my dad and her never got a real dna test done to see if they were really related they just assumed - the ancestry test she took is only accurate fully via a son the type she did take) My brother told me that all my "christian jew" talk was crazy, that I ain't a christian jew he says.........that I'm completely white, and am more crazy then his ex wife Randy he told me for thinkin myself to be a christian jew.
  My whole life I was told, my great grandpa was a full jew, who gave his life to jesus, changed our last name from Rubenstein to Ruby -- to me all that at least opens up the possibility for me to be a christian jew. 
  Though my family has gotten me sitting around thinking.........well am I really supposed to just be white right now??????????
  They all believe they are 100% white I guess?  My half sister recently put up a old family photo of us on her facebook..............................MAYBE IT'S ALL PROOF IN THEIR MINDS THAT WE ARE 100% WHITE PEOPLE??????????.........................

  I will alot, that when this photo was taken I was looking white. (I'm the 3rd person from the left - counting my youngest daughter who was hiding behind me in the photo). Bit after I had my daughters, and still had that post pregnancy extra flab on my body ----- I think that extra flab added to my white look. My mom is the grey haired lady to the right of me, who is actually white (native american to, but my family is obsessed with whiteness so white).
   Ya my half sister has three african american kids, in the photo above. And my cousin melinda is married to a latin man (front center of above photo) and they live in spain and have kids.
 Also in the above photo, it was very very sunny out as you can see, I know my family loves this photo right now, my sister probably just posted that up recently on her facebook for a reason. This is one of the "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh look at the ruby family so white it's so nice" ----- photo's. I'm chill with white people (I'm part white I know that, I'm just saying I'm not trying to be some white hater right now or nothing) my family is gone to extreme's with this white people are better then everyone stuffs. I like being a christian jew!

  But anyways, if you note here.....note, my skin is darker then the latin man's jose who is standing in the center front row. 

  That is a 100% latin man, who lives in spain right now................and in the above photo that I guess is my family being white all kinds my skin in the above photo is darker then a latin mans!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's a real latin man who lives in spain 100% latin!!!!!!!!! (far as I know he's full latin)

  I have almost lost my mind. My skin is darker then jose's in the above photo..................that's clear..........and that is on a mega sunny day, and me looking whiter then I had looked for a long time. Me right....................................not being in the sun when this photo was taken hardly at all..................cause I was watching 2 small kids very buisy, much to buisy to go get a tan................having darker skin then a full out latin man!

  This photo is solid proof people!

  But back to my blog post................my family has been hard at work to rip a great deal of my identity from me right. There is a identity we can have all of us that nobody can rip away in christ jesus!!!!!!!!!!!! Matthew 16:18 "And I say also unto thee, That thou art Peter, and upon this rock I will build my church; and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it."
  I have a identity as a christian, they can't take that away from me! People out there have I believe have lessened me in christ ------  the public at large has it appears decided I am a regular person just like them and popular and everyone likes me, that is the official "script" these days. But I also potentially forfeited my vocation a great deal - I needed help, if you don't feel like any humans either can help you or are qualified to help you, you sometimes ask for the help that can! (so I tried to pray real hubby with me, and he was right there turns out, waiting for me to pray.......................everyone thinks that's just crazy stuffs and I realize that plenty ------- I'm just a white girl that everyone likes real pretty "the script" if you aren't clued in that I hate the script "clues dropped").
   Worse, worse I've tried to be that, I wanted to be that, I WANTED TO BE MARILYN MONROE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Who wouldn't, who wouldn't want all the guys paying attention to you and money, money, money, and not having to work all the time and getting to sit by pools etc. etc.
  But that ain't me. And it's better, there is a better identity for me in christ jesus. (((((((doesn't involve pools, every summer our family just has a above ground pool, that is like 3-4 feet tall, it's alright.............not the lifestyles of the rich and famous at all though))))))))))))
  Why I hate the label "pretty popular white girl" ---------------- I loath any label, that would reduce me down like that. We are more then our labels. We are souls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Souls with eternities!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  But how much so many of us out there love to stick the labels on each other! "Oh he's a ------------------------" "Oh she's a ------------------------------" That's what people like everyone in their nice little files in the index card box of life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well world happens to be I sometimes like to listen to PINK!

oh yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

(cough, be a radical for jesus is bestest though 

- that's goals #goals)

Update on my life, and how to combat emf's and 5g radiation, with simple air diffusers that release what is called negative ions..................

Update on my life, and how to combat emf's and 5g radiation, with simple air diffusers that release what is called negative ions. I've been worried about 5g, but I've decided the best way to stay healthy, is have more negative ions in our houses via air diffusers (and to not do the tinfoil hat thing).
  This is a issue for everyone right now as it is, right now we have most all of us, tv's, and microwave, and refrigerator, and computers, and cell phones, many electronic devices in our homes that emit emf's, which in excess is not good for ones health in my estimation.................unless you combat all of this with a air diffuser or two!!!!!!!!!!! (I have 2 air diffusers, and one massive vicks air humidifier that basically works like a air diffuser that I have on all day and it air diffuses my whole house, the thing is massive)
  
  Update: e-mailing my family............but not having much to tell them, and they seem to be more supportive of me wearing a tichel (but I'm not sure if they really support me, or if they are just hitting the like button on my instagram account to look good?????????) They really do believe, that to succeed on this earth you must be white, or at least my parents do, but I think they have convinced my brother and sisters.
  Well if that be the case, what the anti christ doing then sitting in the temple in jerusalem someday????????????? Matthew 24:14-16 "And this gospel of the kingdom shall be preached in all the world for a witness unto all nations; and then shall the end come. When ye therefore shall see the abomination of desolation, spoken of by Daniel the prophet, stand in the holy place, (whoso readeth, let him understand:) Then let them which be in Judaea flee into the mountains:"
  I'm pretty 100% Matthew 24::14-16 is talking about the anti christ sitting in the rebuilt main temple in isreal "stand in the holy place". If it was soooooooooooooooooooooooooo horrible to be anything but white (my family believe anybody that isn't white is at a spectacular disadvantage on this earth) why would the anti christ stand in the main jewish temple which is not owned by white people!
  Ya I'm aware that there are some people that are white supremacists out there, that hate other races. I just don't want to fake being fully white everyday. It doesn't work out for me anyways.............I look like marilyn monroe without my tichel on................I completely don't look modest without my tichel on. Somedays the only way to look modest is wear that tichel.
  How did I get so good looking??????????????????????????????????????????????
  It's the burden I must bear. 😂 hahahahhahahahahahahahahhahahaha
 Anyways, my husband told him I'm happily married to him til the guy that I believe is my real husband comes to get me. That is the truth! I find go with the truth. You had amnesia like I did, and you were married to someone before...............tell the truth. You go with the truth, things have a way of working out --------- or at least they do for me via telling the truth.
  And if people don't like you or hold "the truth" against you after you done said the truth ----------- then that's on them! (in that event they stink)
  Ephesians 4:25 "Wherefore putting away lying, speak every man truth with his neighbour: for we are members one of another." Or in some cases as much of the truth as you recall. Cause sometimes a person won't remember all the details.
  The truth, I'm a big supporter of it!
 Even when the truth is uncomfortable it is better then a lie, for example..................Galatians 5:23-25 "Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law. And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts. If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit." I do not believe many people out there want to "walk in the spirit" out there, if my family is any indicator of the masses at large (maybe they ain't though). But a few members of my family were very adamant that I stop talking about the word of god in e-mails no more "bible babble" they called it.............WHICH IS JUST ME WALKING IN THE SPIRIT LIKE THE BIBLE SAYS TO DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There's people in my family that hate that a lot! And so I've had to try really hard to not talk about no bible verses in e-mails to them which is really hard when you are actually walking in the spirit!
  And crucifying ones flesh....................................keeping my flesh down is a J - O - B. Being honest, I go to the mall and somedays I want everything!
All my brain be's thinking at the mall somedays is....................
"oh that's cute"
"oh that's cute"
"that is cuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuute"
These are the words I literally say at a few stores in the mall.
  -------------- We only go to the mall every now and then though, so that stuffs is limited. Clearly christians can shop at the mall, but I believe don't be about it. 1 Corinthians 7:31 "And they that use this world, as not abusing it: for the fashion of this world passeth away."
 Update on my knee's: Lately they are doing much much better..............very clear that people are praying for me, thank you! They are doing so much better in fact, I do not believe I will need to go to the dr. (my left knee hasn't been locking up anymore at all!!!!)
   That's all the latest!

Have a great week earth!

LOVE

I dig being a bit jewish this bit of the bible speaks about loving the truth...................

Zechariah 8:19-23 "Thus saith the Lord of hosts; The fast of the fourth month, and the fast of the fifth, and the fast of the seventh, and the fast of the tenth, shall be to the house of Judah joy and gladness, and cheerful feasts; therefore love the truth and peace. Thus saith the Lord of hosts; It shall yet come to pass, that there shall come people, and the inhabitants of many cities: And the inhabitants of one city shall go to another, saying, Let us go speedily to pray before the Lord, and to seek the Lord of hosts: I will go also. Yea, many people and strong nations shall come to seek the Lord of hosts in Jerusalem, and to pray before the Lord. Thus saith the Lord of hosts; In those days it shall come to pass, that ten men shall take hold out of all languages of the nations, even shall take hold of the skirt of him that is a Jew, saying, We will go with you: for we have heard that God is with you."

 None them verses indicate it's a bad thing to be a bit jewish to me. 

 I read just fine to!

Even if my family was right, and white people are all that have any success in america. It still can't be bad to be a bit jewish. 

  And love the truth, that's so important, why will jewish people (aka my people) why will we be in demand...............not I don't believe cause we are "jewish" ------- but that many of us have such a love for the word of god, I believe that is the real reason we will be in demand someday. 

xoxoxoxoxo Isreal

sending Isreal some extra kisses and love

https://youtu.be/5d1nRj66Qss

Following jesus (though I stink at it, saved by grace) it works out. I wouldn't know what to do with myself if I was mega popular (I'm going to have to figure that out though)...................

Following jesus (though I stink at it, saved by grace) it works out. I wouldn't know what to do with myself if I was mega popular (I'm going to have to figure that out though).
  I have been for MONTHS, shocked that I am not more popular on instagram in particular, not only can I impersonate marilyn monroe real well, I can SING LIKE HER, and talk like her. My grandma on my mom's side of the family was 3rd in the world one year for yodeling, I have the extreme vocal range that marilyn monroe had! I could be of that "dubious vocation a person could be called to ------------ you know the really earth scirgey one"
  Mark 13:13 "And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake: but he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved." Bible don't appear to be saying that many of us are going to be liked.............though I do believe some in the body of christ are liked a lot cause in the bible there were people liked seemed to be pretty much, joseph, abraham, moses, david - I deem them all significantly liked by the world at large. (jesus was liked for awhile anyways, he was pretty liked - the lord wasn't a "earth scirge")
   Certain "shock factor" in my mind, literally looking like marilyn monroe, and talking like marilyn monroe, etc. --- nobody hardly going to acknowledge that?????????? You'd think that'd be it, nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww now I will be very popular! --------------------- nope 😂
   I'm having to "old school" things these days, and literally open my bible (went most my life, being given fancy messages from god/holy spirit, didn't have to read my bible often). Could be though that my life, the speed of life on this earth is soooooooooooooooo fast, that I'm having a real hard time lately listening to that "still small voice" 1 Kings 19:12 "And after the earthquake a fire; but the Lord was not in the fire: and after the fire a still small voice."
  My kids are having early release days and seems more days off to me these days, and then they so involved in their schools which is great, but there is always stuffs going on at my house, it never ends. (and I've been greately worried about my knee/knee's lately..............my left knee sometimes locks up some - not full mobility in my left knee anymore all the time...................but lately it's my right knee that is in agony)
  But anyways, fellow christians, if you aren't liked, if you ain't getting job promotions etc. etc. don't worry, it pry means you doing something right (and that doesn't mean you won't be promoted or liked in the future..............GOD IS IN THE PROMOTING BUISINESS! 1 Peter 5:6 "Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time:").
   I'm going to keep up putting marilyn monroe pics on my instagram, cheers me up, how can you not be of a cheery mindset looking like this???????????? I pasteled my room, and I'm in a pastel wig in this photo (pics on my instagram "marilynmonroefan") I'm a huge believer that jesus wants us to be happy! Cheery! John 16:33 "These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world."

  I'm unmighty, but god is mighty!

Have a great week earth!

LOVE

Faith without works is dead so I'm getting buisy : ) if your faith feels dead at any point in time (less fire, less zeal then usual) get buisy that is my advice!..........................

(bag of candies I'm taking to church tommorow - dollar tree zeal and fire for the lord is real 🔥)

Faith without works is dead so I'm getting buisy 😊 if your faith feels dead at any point in time (less fire, less zeal then usual) get buisy that is my advice!
  James 2:19-20 "Thou believest that there is one God; thou doest well: the devils also believe, and tremble. But wilt thou know, O vain man, that faith without works is dead?"

   Tommorow my church has people giving candy for the church easter egg hunt (they are filling 100's of plastic eggs with candy, this year it will be at 2 schools and opened up to the nearby communities), I am about to go to the dollar tree and buy a few bags of candy. (I have no good deed plot for the rest of the week) But I'm zealous 👍

  I relate to the soldier part of this video.....................11:50 into it............................

  I greately theorize I got used to be babied, by church, by my family, by alllllllllllll kinds of people. They meant well by babying me. 

  But there is a time to I quote movie Encino Man, to "be a man esse"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2 Timothy 2:4 "No man that warreth entangleth himself with the affairs of this life; that he may please him who hath chosen him to be a soldier."

  I often feel like I am in the army ---------- well I am in the army of god! And soldiers do not fear! 

 Have a great week earth!

LOVE

I totally have a vision for my future to, I had visions many of them (clean been to my future, there is a room I'm going to go to every evening in my future I could draw out the details of this room to the "T" ------------- A REAL ROOM THAT I AM GOING TO EVERY EVENING FOR ALL OF ETERNITY, long as I make it to heaven). There's maybe 5 steps leading up to the door of this room............one slightly larger then twin sized bed towards the right, on the left side there is a dresser, and there is a massive window about 20 feet high and 30 feet wide - big, and giant curtain made of a expensive velvet material - heavy velvet - held open at the sides by giant ropes. More to this room then that, but it's not time for me to talk. (told a handful of people about all this and the bible verses that apply to me.................pretty safe to say they pry think I'm nuts) But if I was nuts how would I know about the room and all the details.........the room is spoken about in this song.......................which is me pretty much talking to much.....where Patrick Stump sings "and we can pull the black out curtains down".........

 I will give my whole life to the lord forever for this vision to happen! I had amnesia for a long time and I regained my memories, I remembered. 

  I don't know what sort of future the rest of the body of christ has in their minds for like eternity???????????? 

    I pry need to stop my instagram account really stop the marilyn monroe scenangans.........cause that ain't my "vision" my vision is one where I'm living for the lord, and loving people and doing much good. And not only in this life, but in the next! That is my idea of a happy eternity, one where I love people and am loved, and serve people. 

  I don't want to be this "look at me I'm so gorgeous" person (I think I feel pressured by society, that and I am very insecure of my weight and I use that marilyn monroe look alike stuffs as a crutch....................there was a time I was alright with my weight but I am extremely insecure about it these days) The ketogenic diet though is totally working for me, it's just slow going. Being vegan for 6 months or so, I gained weight, and I learned my body doesn't work on the vegan diet. Every persons metabolism is a bit different I have learned. 

  The greatest in the kingdom of heaven will be the least and the servant of all!

But greatness just to be great isn't a good plan..........I really do find value, in humbling myself, and serving others. 

The people out there with the richest lives/eternities aren't the ones that just take gorgeous pictures of themselves.......it's the people that lay their lives down for their friends. 

  Besides, even if you get lots of fame and money..........that just ain't where real life is, it's in "family" - family being a lot more then just blood relatives. 

  I'm done with living in fear!

(besides probably the whole earth will just deem me as having a big imagination that I didn't have any visions at all about my future that were real - which is just fine world)