How the goodness of god lead me leading me to repentance......................

  I don't like to eat food so much these days, my will to live is less, well cept last night I ate like 2 pieces of pie but that's pie people let's not get crazy! Everybody pray that help is on the wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. update --- one my friends has talked me down from the ledge (but uh I will like still not eat somedays cause I kinda enjoy it from time to time - jesus came for the sick)

Ya my testimony never ends hahahahahahahahaahahahahahahaah................Romans 2:4 "Or despisest thou the riches of his goodness and forbearance and longsuffering; not knowing that the goodness of God leadeth thee to repentance?" So like one night I was being attacked by a demon (common fair for me - they get physical with me and everything rather violent little buggers!) they've figured out what scares me --------- I don't even know how they even accessed that info in the abyss of my soul like that????????????? And eventually I couldn't take anymore............I yelled out "god please help me" BAM that demon was GONE. At that moment I felt god's intense love for me, really got to me, that and He was clearly I could tell He was there waiting for me to call out to Him, like a parent seeing that their kid is about to fall off the bike and getting ready to run up and rescue their child! That's what's going to keep me out of the occult - thinking on god's love for me. I don't need the demons I don't need satan............I have god/jesus who love me much and want good things for me (not a dark tortured little hole!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
These verses catch my eye to.......................
Romans 2:9-10 "Tribulation and anguish, upon every soul of man that doeth evil, of the Jew first, and also of the Gentile; But glory, honour, and peace, to every man that worketh good, to the Jew first, and also to the Gentile:" That's like present tense "tribulation and anguish, upon every soul of man the doeth evil" ya that's how it is for me when I'm stupid and in the occult TRIBULATION AND ANGUISH. And what is "worketh good" I think this my take : ) loving people being decent to each other, not not having to do with the occult, walking the straight and narrow doing like not the evil. So like theoretically I theorize staying in jesus's jail..........I should eventually obtain "glory, honour, and peace" that's the plan : ) in jaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiillllllllllllllllllllllllll
There's another verse in the bible somewhere talks about being under the wrath of god also on this theme Romans 1:18 "For the wrath of God is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men, who hold the truth in unrighteousness;" See those is christians people with the word of god, but they's up to no good!!!!!!!!!!!!! You up to no good out there BESTEST STOP THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Crud love people, freakin do as much good as you can do in a day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Don't want the wrath of god on ya!!!!!!!!!!! OH NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO NO NO NO! Hey god, ya I be's after yer brownie points : ) being real good in jail : ) ---------- I'm still a complete punk and last night in particular I was on a roll - it's was bad bad bad bad, went up to a fellow punk not wanting to be out punked like a punk santa with punk presents in my sleigh to dole out. I'm gonna try harder, I totally want god's brownie points for sure!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And His brownies : )
  This verse super spoke to me today to Ephesians 4:1-2 "I therefore, the prisoner of the Lord, beseech you that ye walk worthy of the vocation wherewith ye are called, With all lowliness and meekness, with longsuffering, forbearing one another in love;" Where it says "with all lowliness" love it, I got the lowliness thing in the bag ROCK N ROLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sheri that's obnoxious --------- I might be a punk for the rest of my life...........determined to be jesus's punk : )

  Dyed my hair jet black, have decided this is my shade : ) I am a punk let's not pretend otherwise shall we............

Hey myself, hey keep that there cat in the bag ok, do yourself 1 favour, keep that cat in the bag, stay a prisoner of jesus K

confessions of a tortured soul a addict not drugs I'm addicted to but a addict................

Update 4/8/2024 Don't worry about me america, I know you are all starving right now - I'm not joking I'm fully being serious (where I live there might be more homeless then people in houses, and then the people in houses ARE ALSO STARVING WHERE I LIVE MANY OF THEM). Things are so bad where I live, most summers schools have "free lunch programs" where I live!!!!!!  

https://www.clarkcountyfoodbank.org/

what my fridge looks like 

hey but go to a foodbank ok today GET FOOD you need to eat!!!!!!!!

it's a touch of a mess at the moment

this is basically what my fridge always looks like condiment city

the pantry actually looks better

I suvive off of eating potatoes - OH FOR REAL and rice

Millions of US women, children risk hunger without more aid funding, White House says

https://www.reuters.com/world/us/millions-us-women-children-risk-hunger-without-more-aid-funding-white-house-says-2024-01-11/

america according to the cnbc video above is 22nd country in the world as far as starvation goes with you know the number 1 ranked country being the most hungry - we high up in the ranks in america with starvation!!!!!!!!! FOR REAL REAL

This blog post was written before, I solved my problem. I have since solved my big problem in life........(ya I went "cross and skullbones" for the lord edition in the year 2013 😁👍💓💓💓💓💓💓💓) 
  I am a addict no doubt about it, not to drugs but a addict to something!!!!!!!!!!! YIKES, that this song is apparently having to do with recovery, fitting..........
"All of my devils are free at last
And all my secrets revealed
And your permission is all I
Need to heal"

   A person can stay in the sickness, or get better!!!!!!!!!!!!! I relate to these lyrics from sixx a.m. song to.............

"I wake up in the morning, and it comes back to you I breathe in I breathe out, it comes back to you
I stare up at the ceiling, and it comes back to you
I step out my front door, and it comes back to you
The end of my driveway, it comes back to you
Brakelights on the highway, it comes back to you
I could die in Los Angeles.
It would come back to you."

  Comes back to god for me, look up at the ceiling - yep. breathe in breathe out - yep. I'm a addict. Stoppings so hard. 

  I think non-addicts, ya they have issues and pain, but they must have like some coping mechanism -------- we don't have!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm not doing drugs....................naw my addiction is elsewhere................................same result I get from it................removes me from the earth......................I go somewhere else. Far away from here, from reality, this place where people die, and people sin and like don't care and like are like much many going to hell they don't care, a place of pain pain pain, even the saints experience pain, so much pain................makes a person just want to check out (I'm saying it's not so crazy the idea of someone wanting to go to a bar for instance and drink til they can't see straight)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I went to like 1 AA style meeting and pry should like go to more, realizing I have a addiction.............that's pry worse then drugs. And I also realize that I could go into using drugs with ease.................I'm in continual danger of that.............being already in that mindset. But I don't think any drug would get me, where my addiction gets me..............I'm sayin my addiction get's me higher then any drug would a actual high. Here I am I want to stop, and I still catch myself doing it - well it's a addiction then...............you can't just stop often cold turkey................all sorts of underlying issues that put you in that addict diseased sort of mindset to begin with. 

   Can't even enjoy life in it...........life more abundantly John 10:10 "The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly." Freakin smell the flowers! I've like tried to say on my blog that drugs are from the devil he comes to steal and kill and to destroy. Jesus wants you to have life, a abundant life, a happy life, not one in a tortured little dark hole.

  I might go to more AA meetings............trying to set up some counseling right now (god needs to work with me here)........to get better ya gotta all talk it out n'stuffs I know. """"""""if you work it, it'll work for you""""""""" 

  I have gotten good at hiding it skilled in it, crazy skilled. Isaiah 29:15 "Woe unto them that seek deep to hide their counsel from the LORD, and their works are in the dark, and they say, Who seeth us? and who knoweth us?" Least I fess up to god, He's watching, He's see's, anything you alls be's doing in the dark He sees!!!!!!!!!!!! Bestest ya go fesser up!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

  No snort He don't notice, none under the radar.  mourn, mourn that's my new thing mourning Ecclesiastes 7:4 "The heart of the wise is in the house of mourning; but the heart of fools is in the house of mirth."

  Locked myself up in jesus's jail real good, threw away the key, threw it away GONE..............so that's the good news : ) see I ended this blog post on a real cheery note : ) maximum security. 

black roses, black roses, black roses, black roses, black roses, black roses, black roses, black roses, black roses, black roses, black roses, black roses, 

  

   

    

no party in the usa DON'T DO IT shut down the clubs........................

no no no no no miley cyrus you need to go to church common!  

I am definately bought with a price, I not 100% what that all means to me but I sure am................and all christians are bought with a price us of jewish lineage heart soul extra bought, but mainstream christian also (god got the receipt on my butt, I done wrote it out printed it out whatever and handed to him on a silver platter) 1 Corinthians 6:20 "For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God's." God wants me to put up this verse to...............1 Corinthians 7:23 "Ye are bought with a price; be not ye the servants of men." you can serve men by like kissing up to them for earthly gain n'stuff or flat out serving them for what you can get from them god don't want us doing that, just serving Him. In everything you do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
   For the gentiles out there...........................let me translate how us of the (christian) jewish persuasion/heart/soul read a lot of the bible......................Leviticus 19:28 "Ye shall not make any cuttings in your flesh for the dead, nor print any marks upon you: I am the LORD." this is the kind of receipt god has of my butt............................I read this like AND YOU WILL NOT DO THAT NAW NAW NAW and whenever god is especially not messing around with the jews he'll add in the bible "............I am the lord" as in NAW you will not be doing that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The fools of my people's uh uh YOU WILL NOT BE DOING THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -------------- me writing out the receipt handing it to god
   There's benefits to being completely bought and owned...................writing out the receipt to my butt and handing it to god is not the worst thing that could happen to me by far.
  This world, people look like they are doing great, and many them out there party partying by the way partiers it ain't going to go well for you in that 1 Corinthians 6:10 "Nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor extortioners, shall inherit the kingdom of God." The party it is going on hanna montana sings "it's a party in the usa" it's allllllllllllllllll going to catch up with them someday not now no, not now but someday judgement day.......................bestest ya also out there write out a receipt on your butt and hand it to god!!!!!!!!!!!!....................1 Peter 4:2-3 "That he no longer should live the rest of his time in the flesh to the lusts of men, but to the will of God. For the time past of our life may suffice us to have wrought the will of the Gentiles, when we walked in lasciviousness, lusts, excess of wine, revellings, banquetings, and abominable idolatries:"
 Reading the bible to my youngest tonight while she took a bath..............these verses AWESOME I can kinda testify that this is the case!..................
Job 5:7-11 "Yet man is born unto trouble, as the sparks fly upward. I would seek unto God, and unto God would I commit my cause: Which doeth great things and unsearchable; marvellous things without number: Who giveth rain upon the earth, and sendeth waters upon the fields: To set up on high those that be low; that those which mourn may be exalted to safety."
 I'm in the lowest place possible, my vocation alone is some visibleness of god raising up my lowly self, seems the lower I get the higher god raises me, I am pretty severely low in all ways right now. To this day I mess up entire days I'm not a squave as the rest of the body of christ not so able on my own, less god be's strengthen me a lot stuffs just don't get done, whatever small good stuffs I be doing I annoy god with remembrance of it, stuffs you all would just do and forget about that you even did that good thing. I'm in such a low place I gotta mark whatever good I do with a flourescent marker in heaven clean across the sky!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  My lowly self is just going to stay camped out with god/jesus! : ) NO PARTY HANNA MONTANA NAW!!!!!!!!!!!!! NAW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO PARTY NO PARTY IN THE USA FORGET IT CLOSE DOWN YOUR CLUBS PEOPLE STOP IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! people are surely going to read that and laugh at me (old me would've laughed at that)

My entire life I have identified as a christian jew (but after my grandpa died who told me in the 8th grade that Jack Ruby the assinator of the assinator of JFK was my great uncle, and that I also am a distant relative of marilyn monroes THAT'S WHAT HE TOLD ME) after he died my family swears on my dads side that they are just white people though I have a cousin fully passing as a Spaniard and her kids don't look half white either they look Spaniard and after grandpa died who used to bible study with me they said he molested 1-2 or maybe more of my aunts - I've wanted a tattoo for so long and I just can't get one................

Us white people the only hope we have to get blessed by god is donating to the jews................(YA I BELIEVE I'M A JEW).............................

My family believing themselves to be white has caused so much "mental strain" (my mom says she "wont let me go" won't let me leave the family ------ FOR MENTAL HEALTH REASONS I TRIED TO LEAVE MY FAMILY) -------- a family that identifies as white fully and 1/4th native america and irish my brother and sister and mom identify as - my dad identifying as fully british with the last name of Ruby which what kind of brittish name is that? but there are brittish jews, so having a brittish last name being from brittian don't mean my dad ain't a jew my family has some fancy way of hiding that they are jews probably!

BUT IT IS BAD

FOR MY MENTAL HEALTH

TO BE TOLD I'M JUST WHITE LIKE THAT

CAUSE I LITERALLY OFTEN I TRY TO KEEP THE SHABBAT

I ALSO HAVE CELEBRATED JEWISH HOLIDAYS BEFORE

I HAVE BEEN SPINING DREIDELS SINCE HIGH SCHOOL

WHEN I WENT INTO THE OCCULT BAD IN HIGH SCHOOL

I WENT FULL JEW NEARLY

(STILL KNOWING JESUS WAS LORD BUT PRETENDING TO BE JUST JEW)

I WAS LIKE

GOD I DID THIS BAD TODAY THIS BAD TODAY THIS BAD TODAY AND THIS BAD TODAY

BUT I KEEP YOUR COMMANDMENTS AND OBSERVED YADDA YADDA JEWISH HOLIDAY - YOU CAN'T KILL ME RIGHT NOW COMMON GOD (THAT'S WHAT I'D TELL HIM) TELL HIM HE'D LOOK SO BAD AND SO UNMERCIFUL IF HE KILLED ME, CAUSE I KEPT THIS COMMANDMENT AND THAT ONE AND THAT ONE AND THAT ONE ETC.

----- I REALLY DID

LIKE BASICALLY EVERY NIGHT FOR MONTHS

My entire life I have identified as  a christian jew (but after my grandpa died who told me in the 8th grade that Jack Ruby the assinator of the assinator of JFK was my great uncle, and that I also am a distant relative of marilyn monroes THAT'S WHAT HE TOLD ME) after he died my family swears on my dads side that they are just white people though I have a cousin fully passing as a Spaniard and her kids don't look half white either they look Spaniard and after grandpa died who used to bible study with me they said he molested 1-2 or maybe more of my aunts - I've wanted a tattoo for so long and I just can't get one................

THIS A NORMAL WHITE PEOPLE NOSE?????????????

NORMAL WHITE PEOPLE SKIN???????????

NO SUNLESS TANNER ON ME, FACT HAVEN'T GOTTEN A TAN IN A LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG TIME

common people you all know you love a little Hava Nagila : ) hahahah oh geez sheri you are the dork of the earth um ok : ) 

I'm a christian jew, this me coming out the dredel spinning closet : )................I've wanted a tattoo so bad for so long, many tattoo's I've sat and fantasized about, I can't do it!!!!!!!!!!! Leviticus 19:28 "Ye shall not make any cuttings in your flesh for the dead, nor print any marks upon you: I am the LORD." I'm the type god says that ok, that's that!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't know what kind of kooky stuffs I'm confessing to the earth I can't do it, I can't get a tattoo for the life of me, it's against my beliefs, if you were to tie me down and tattoo me I'd go get the tattoo removed it's against my religion. (not that I haven't fantasized much how great it'd be to have various tattoo's, there's been a great many tatt's out there I have looked rather longingly at!!!!!!!!!!)
  ------------- look at my nose people, jewish, I be a part of the rubenstein family!!!!!!!!!!!! no joke!
  The latest bible verse in my bible study to super speak to me Deuteronomy 8:2 "And thou shalt remember all the way which the LORD thy God led thee these forty years in the wilderness, to humble thee, and to prove thee, to know what was in thine heart, whether thou wouldest keep his commandments, or no." Where it says "..................to humble thee" that super spoke to me today............that god so loves his people, so wants us to not just pray really like draw near to Him he wants that so much, so much love He has for us He had it on his heart to "....................to humble thee". That's what god did with me to, and is doing with me, He humbled me greately and I'm thankful He did/is I rather be in this lowly place I thank god that I need him like this, and jesus in my life everyday like this............that there is a cry on my heart out to god daily in prayer I thank god for that. That I want to draw near to god, draw near to jesus, that I have that need. If I was proud, if I was so self sufficient and I don't know confident in my own flesh ------- I wouldn't pry need to pray like I do --------- but it so much more then that.........God humbled me cause He loves me that much!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Have a great week earth : )

Original post me talking about a ear infection but reason this post is popular is what I said about LGBTQ. America what happened? "Life, Liberty and the pursuit of happiness" - that's supposed to be all people LGBTQ INCLUDED!!!!!!!!!!! And here I am on my blog being JUDGED for wanting a better life for myself (money ya you can judge me all day long and many of you do for wanting MONEY) THIS IS AMERICA THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE A PLACE WHERE YOU CAN WANT A BETTER LIFE!!!!!!!!! LGBTQ INCLUDED!!!!!!!!!!!!!...........................

Original post me talking about a ear infection but reason this post is popular is what I said about LGBTQ. America what happened? "Life, Liberty and the pursuit of happiness" - that's supposed to be all people LGBTQ INCLUDED!!!!!!!!!!! And here I am on my blog being JUDGED for wanting a better life for myself (money ya you can judge me all day long and many of you do for wanting MONEY) THIS IS AMERICA THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE A PLACE WHERE YOU CAN WANT A BETTER LIFE!!!!!!!!! LGBTQ INCLUDED!!!!!!!!!!!!!...........................

PPPS..........this ear infection in 2011 was mega bad........mega mega bad......................

 "(like many gays and lesbians bestest I add that in - pry dreamt this cause I watched a you tube video of this gay kid that was christian and wanted to go into the ministry my heart really went out to that particular kid - what you know about being gay or lesbian sheri? nothing but I do know what it's like to be looked down upon for a impediment not 100% in my control)..............and I was in love with their white palm tree's they were the only people with white palm tree's, and at one point of the year I had to deal with moths that resembled mickey mouse that were especially not nice..........and mushrooms. aka I need prayer! This ear infection is nearly gone, I gotta be at the tail end of it."

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The greedy pesticide industry is putting monarchs, people, and our planet at risk. Fight back and donate $10 to Friends of the Earth today.""" - Frends of the earth. 

Sheri speaking.........................loveing one another isnot only be a defender of the rights of the LGBTQ --------------- it's caring about the planet AND OUR BUTTERFLIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Romans 13:8 "Owe no man any thing, but to love one another: for he that loveth another hath fulfilled the law." - AMEN ROMANS 13:8!

I haven't pelotoned biked in 2-3 days my allergies are through the roof right now. Maybe today my asthma will be better????????????????????

This article is saying there's no more apostles or prophets vocations to be "called to" THEY HAVE BEEN COMPLETELY WIPED OUT IN THE BODY OF CHRIST IN THE YEAR 2024 https://davidandersontheauthor.com/2021/11/07/no-more-apostles-and-prophets/ all you have is pastors, men, and baby makeing of no value women......................

yep marilyn's goth today, it is the way to be I believe in a world where women are deemed "less then" (((((((((unless they are married to a ---- Gomez Adams ----- I SPEAK THE TRUTH MOST MEN VIEW WOMEN LESS LESS LESS LESS THANKS TO 1 Timothy 2:15))))))

there is hope ladies all it takes is 1 Gomez Adams 😁

Update 4/6/2024 in 2011 or so, I was told I was a apostle I BELIEVED IT. In 2024 I don't believe that anymore, I've been told "vocations" to be called to, or the vocation of apostle DON'T EXIST ANYMORE (several pastors have said that, that's the "common belief" held by pastors and therefore christians in general in the year 2024 https://www.blueletterbible.org/Comm/stewart_don/faq/the-various-gifts-of-the-holy-spirit/08-are-there-still-apostles-today.cfm). 

This article is saying there's no more apostles or prophets vocations to be "called to" THEY HAVE BEEN COMPLETELY WIPED OUT IN THE BODY OF CHRIST IN THE YEAR 2024

https://davidandersontheauthor.com/2021/11/07/no-more-apostles-and-prophets/

all you have is pastors

men

and baby makeing of no value women......................

I'm not treated "special" anymore, so why would I believe I'm anything BUT DIRT?????????????????

A LOWLY WORTHLESS GIRL..................

1 Timothy 2:15 "Notwithstanding she shall be saved in childbearing, if they continue in faith and charity and holiness with sobriety." - Baby maker that is it, in my own religion, in christianity I am taught that all I am is a significantly less then baby maker and that that is all I can be. That "vocations" especially that of a apostle, are never like how it was in the bible times many pastors have told me............that that vocation doesn't exist anymore basically they say. That we are in a "new dispensation of grace" they say,  one where I guess there's no vocations at all????????????????

men have all the value in the body of christ it's been that way ever since the kings james bible came out in..........whenever it came out?????????????????

I ain't even fighting that

I can't win

tired out

go ahead and attack me for your "lord jesus christ" as people do these days all the 1000's and 1000's and 1000's of people going to my blog everyday ATTACK ME IT'S WHAT YOU NEED TO DO FOR YOUR LORD "JESUS CHRIST" TO MAKE HIM HAPPY CAUSE THAT'S MY EXPERIENCE PAST FEW YEARS WITH CHRISTIANITY I GET ATTACKED............

              "You Can't, You Won't And You Don't Stop"
My left ear has blistered I need prayer, it's like not going good for me right now (the meds I got last night supposed to clear it up in a few days --------- it's looking to be a ruff next few days for me).......................and satan if this be's some way for you to retaliate against me there's no stopping this "You Can't, You Won't And You Don't Stop".............Come And Rock The Sure Shot (sure shot being jesus)
"I'm That Kid In The Corner ((((((((((((ya I'm that kid in the corner : ))))))))))))))))
All Fucked Up And I Wanna So I'm Gonna
Take A Piece Of The Pie, Why Not, I'm Not Quitting
Think I'm Gonna Change Up My Style Just To Fit In"
Lyrics the beastie boys.
Ephesians 6:11 "Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil." Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh the wiles of the devil............note to satan I've watched every episode of "the road runner" several times (you know the one w/bugs bunny) just sayin! The road runner says................Isaiah 40:31 "But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint."
Devil he does put roadblocks in our way I believe it, to try and get us to give up, or maybe not run so fast to jesus --------- I know your "wiles" satan. DON'T GIVE UP NEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I tell yelena all I got to do is stay jesus's prisoner for the rest of my life and I know I'll be saved, it's going to happen..........Matthew 24:13 "But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved."

Bye, bye coyote!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

https://www.donorschoose.org/

Mrs. Flores's classrooms fundraiser is now fully funded 😁 But there are many more classrooms with many more needs at donors choose................

Going to salem fellowship went well today : ) aka www.brunstad.org "smith's friends"................

Update 4/4/2024 (if people are going to this blog post a ton, on some search to "find proof" that I am a horrible worthless b word like my attackers call me often enough over the years on my blog without saying the b-word but that's basically what they are calling me.................that's sad) I literally donate on my blog near everyday to help fund schools - YOU CAN'T CARE ABOUT THE KIDS AND BE A TOTAL B'WORD YOU CAN'T!

This is the church where I 1st got understanding of the bible and the narrow way. Since then though I've decided the "narrow way" isn't 100% about how you look - aka costume jewelry but how you live. I got proof of some sort....................

Matthew 7:20 "Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them."

If every chick that weared makeup and jewelry was headed to the pits of hell then MATTHEW 7:20 WOULDN'T NEED TO EXIST.........BUT IT DOES. And I know none of you will believe me that Matthew 7:20 exists becuase you alllllllllllll like to hate on makeup wearing jewelry wearing ladies and label them jezebel trash. 

also

Mark 9:23

Jesus said unto him, If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth.

 When guys go to work do they often wear trashy clothing - no they don't -

well guess what

I work in the realistate industry have for years

the jewelry and the makeup is part of my professional "work look"

Going to salem fellowship went well today : )  aka www.brunstad.org "smith's friends"................pic is of the inside their main meeting hall and their band........my daughter said that she was having a hard time hearing the people sing to know what words they were singing ---------- I noticed that to............they got a lot of people playing music up there and it's kinda overpowering  everyone singing in the church (I think they just need a few sisters or brothers to sing into the microphone for every song ----------- I can sing -------- just sayin!!!!!!!!!!!)
   Definately felt the love today : ) Brian accidentally ordered me a snickers candy bar coffee ---------- it wasn't as good as the milky way candy bar coffees they have!
  Definately a step in the right direction for me going to salem fellowship today and working on loving them.
   Sat and chated with yelena, she remembered that I requested their cement turtle to be left in their playground, it's still there : ) I still like the thing : )
   I feel like I need a bible verse to make this blog post all official --- John 13:35 "By this shall all men know that ye are my disciples, if ye have love one to another." Love one another that's my exhortation for the entire body of christ.............I have a lot of love for a lot a lot a lot of christians from like many churches out there I'm glad I do.
  1 Thessalonians 3:12 "And the Lord make you to increase and abound in love one toward another, and toward all men, even as we do toward you:" That's all I got for today............got a cold it's ruff, sore throat. Have a great day earth!

https://www.donorschoose.org/

Mrs. Ponce's classrooms fundraiser is now fully funded 😁 But there are many more classrooms with many more needs at Donors Choose................

I'm thankful I need jesus in my life everyday...................

only you jesus 

Just got done listening to my other churches "faith grows through dieing" sermon http://www.livinghopechurch.com/sermons I myself spent a good part of my life, going to church - then running away and doing my own thing - and I really thought with myself well I went to church I'm a great christian (and often said a nice little prayer in the evening). God does want more then for us to just do church on sundays, he wants a relationship with us, I've found to "give my life to the lord" is so much more then just saying one sinners prayer and then walking away and doing my thing ---------- this is going to sound crazy ----------- but I thank god, I can't make it without jesus in my life! If I hadn't of fallen so far, so so far.........maybe I wouldn't of even needed christ! Mark 2:17 "When Jesus heard it, he saith unto them, They that are whole have no need of the physician, but they that are sick: I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance." There's somebody in my life who isn't "sick" and I really worry about him, cause he ain't given his life to christ and I'm not sure he ever will cause he's not sick! I thank god I am sick - I am sick - there is Romans 7:18 "For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not." that I need christ in my life like this everyday!
   There's people out there that they go to church every sunday ----------- they do a lot of good a lot, a lot lot lot more then my demented sad sap butt ------------ but they ain't given their lives to jesus and someday...................Matthew 7:22-24 "Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works? And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity." And some you out there are pry not completely sick like me completely in need of the dr. that is jesus --------- pray PRAY that's my advice, PRAY I believe everyone anyone can give their heart/life to the lord!
   If I wasn't completely "sick" I pry wouldn't be with jesus everyday like this - I completely wouldn't of been, I would've been one those christians going to church every sunday with a nice outward appearance but without having given my whole heart and life to jesus. I would've been one them. So it's actually a good thing I am this "sick" that I need jesus everyday I thank god I need jesus everyday in my life.
   It wasn't a abundant life for me, being locked in darkness like that, being um in bondage to a lot of not fun stuffs there's a definate price to be paid for sin Romans 6:23 "For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord." I've reaped that in the past that death, at one point I was attacking the body of christ -------- and it was so bad --------- I hated myself so much after I said the things I said to christians I knew were pry struggling anyways here I was attacking them w/the help of the devil --------- death living in death it's no way to be.
  I pray stupid prayers to god these days the stupidist ever ---------- if that's all ya have to pray some dork stuffs on your fool heart - PRAY THAT - reach out to jesus today. Get some peace, get some rest for your soul Matthew 11:29 "Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls." As much rest as I can have hahahahahahahhahaha I did "bite the last bullet in the sand" just like I said I did in a previous blog post hahahahaahahahahah sad face : ( hahahahahaha uh scirge of the earth myself ok ya done said to much already end it there!
  thank god I'm sick!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank god I'm in need of jesus everyday.

"It's time to run from the lies of the beautiful people" nikki sixx.......................

  "It's time to run from the lies of the beautiful people" nikki sixx AMEN I'm feeling this song.............open any fashion magazine LIES the pretty house, pretty car barbie doll dream I DON'T BUY INTO IT 

 if you empty inside IT'S ALL USELESS (jesus is what it's all about for me)

And also I think to chase after that barbie doll dream ------------ it can cost a person a lot ------------- Mark 8:36 "For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the wholeworld, and lose his own soul?" IT'S NOT WORTH IT!
   I don't think the masses are going to run from the lies of the beautiful people, they should, they pry ain't going to do that...........but I give nikki sixx extra kudos for singing about it, it's a beautiful song he made there.........I'm definately a fan of his.
   ------------------ on a sidenote, so like my bible study started up.........man this is a good one.............."one in a million" by priscilla Shirer talking about the "perks" of sin.............that satan can sometime's make sinning seem awefully great and like something you don't want to give up. This question stopped me nearly in my tracks................"Why do you think we get so attached to the perks the enemy gives while developing spiritual amnesia about the hardship involved?"
my answer...................."for me the """"perks"""""" are so intense I don't notice the """"hardship"""""""" til I'm 5 inches away from the gates of hell."
   So many days god could've snuffed me out and sent me flying to hell fast...........I believe god is love!!!!!!!!!!!!! He waited for me to repent.............not that I would want to ever go back I completely don't.............I've became so sure of god's love for me...............I don't want to be away from jesus/god no more.
  Sin all to often leads to bad stuffs ------------ Romans 6:23 "For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord." Choose life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
------------ I feel the need to add a bit more............I am so convinced this world is off course Psalm 82:5 "They know not, neither will they understand; they walk on in darkness: all the foundations of the earth are out of course"...........and a lot of it is all due to vanity 2 Kings 17:15 "And they rejected his statutes, and his covenant that he made with their fathers, and his testimonies which he testified against them; and they followed vanity, and became vain, and went after the heathen that were round about them, concerning whom the LORD had charged them, that they should not do like them." How the world do? Ya it do's vanity!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It do's vanity!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WAKE UP AMERICA god isn't for you doing drugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....................

  Blessed Be Apostolic Christian Church of America 

may Jesus Christ our Lord accept your repentances 

and usher you into his beloved and may you dwell in green pastures for all the days of your lives. 

Jeremiah 26:3 "If so be they will hearken, and turn every man from his evil way, that I may repent me of the evil, which I purpose to do unto them because of the evil of their doings." my going theory is that god will clean sometimes penalize someone for their evil doings - if not kill them - penalize them some way! I know the bible says god has 0 turning of shadow and that some would think well why would god allow evil to happen on this earth, why would he allow earthquakes that kill many people...........................but it also says he's just, well really it ain't a turning of shadow it's a just god casting judgement Deuteronomy 32:4 "He is the Rock, his work is perfect: for all his ways are judgment: a God of truth and without iniquity, just and right is he." Not that innocent victims don't get hurt or die............but that there really is 0 turning of shadow with god his ways, HIS WAYS "are judgement; a God of truth and without iniquity, just and right is he". 

  I'm convinced there is only 2 ways to be on this earth, in the blessings of god, or NOT! 

 Jeremiah 18:8 "If that nation, against whom I have pronounced, turnfrom their evil, I will repent of the evil that I thought to do unto them." SOS UNITED STATES OF AMERICA what evil you doing out there please PLEASE TURN FROM THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I read a article in like Time magazine about the mexico drug trading crisis going on (lot's people dieing over there) page 27 from the July 11, 2011 time magazine it says................."Americans consume $65 billion worth of illegal drugs annually, roughly what they spend on higher educations, and most of those drugs are either produced in mexico or transit through it" said Tim Padgett/Durango here's the link to the article page 2 of it where the words $65 billion is located http://www.time.com/time/world/article/0,8599,2080608-2,00.html

   Sit and think about that for a sec...........$65 billion worth of illegial drugs annually!!!!!!!!!!!! Well no wonder we are in some economic slump!!!!!!!!!!!!! A just god isn't going to go for that..............I'm way with the apostolic christian church of america in that it's best you all not even smoke a cigarette..........................1 Corinthians 6:19 "What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?" 

   If this country was all so very upright..............god would keep blessing it I really believe that. Whether this country stops it's drug obsession or no, god's word stands..............................

Deuteronomy 28

 ¹And it shall come to pass, if thou shalt hearken diligently unto the voice of the LORD thy God, to observe and to do all his commandments which I command thee this day, that the LORD thy God will set thee on high above all nations of the earth:
 ²And all these blessings shall come on thee, and overtake thee, if thou shalt hearken unto the voice of the LORD thy God.
 ³Blessed shalt thou be in the city, and blessed shalt thou be in the field.

amen god amen!!!!!!! That's 500 billion percent how it is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't know about you all but I want god's blessings to "And all these blessings shall come on thee, and overtake thee," I want god's blessings to assault me, not just be blessed, be real blessed OVERTAKEN with blessings from god!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You doing drugs out there ------------- it ain't to late to stop doing your drugs and get blessed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GET BLESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Drugs are from the DEVIL and he only comes to kill and steal and DESTROY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

   Now I'm bout to go sit and drink some coffee and watch my chickens : ) Have a great day earth!

free 80's suspender dress crochet pattern..............

take t-shirt cut off sleeves like this, then w/a regular sewing machine sew the yokes onto the neck edges 

(I sewed two times per yoke rectangle)

for the dress in this pic I just sewed a rather wide skirt using t-shirt type fabric

 but on the top I didn't sew no hem just attached the suspendors

I used a size H hook
(takes a half a scene of yarn)
rnd 1 --- Ch 21, sc in 2nd ch from hook, sc across, ch1 turn
rnd 2-5 --- sc across ch 1 turn
rnd 6 --- sc, *ch 5, sk 5, sc*  (**across), sc in last sc, ch 1 turn
rnd 7  --- sc in each sc, 5 sc in ch 5's across
rnd 8 --- ch 121, sc in 2nd ch from hook, sc total of 20 times across, ch 1 turn
rnd 9 --- sc, *ch 5, sk 5, sc*  (**across), sc in last sc, ch 1 turn
rnd 10  --- sc in each sc, 5 sc in ch 5's across, ch 1 turn
rnd 11 --- sc across ch 1 turn (repeat 3 times) FINISH OFF
rnd 12 --- reattach yarn at opposite side of current strap ch, ch 100 make sure neck ch's are untwisted attach w/slip stitch the ch to the other side of other neck ch at the other end
rnd 13 --- sc the inside of the chains and across the yoke top edges all the way around FINISH OFF

(neck straps could be shortened up for a totally different look ---------- I was inspired after watching a 80's bannanarama video got a little bit zealous : )