Just got back from IKEA one thing I've learned in life (and my life has been hard, not the hardest but hard very hard). Positivity is powerful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I went on ikea website (wanted to move garage junk into youngest young adult child's old room that is my computer room as well right now) ikea had what we need, only $230 pics of our garage right now it's a mess below. THE POWER OF POSITIVITY IS REAL! Philippians 4:8 "Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.".................

Just got back from IKEA one thing I've learned in life (and my life has been hard, not the hardest but hard very hard). Positivity is powerful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I went on ikea website (wanted to move garage junk into youngest young adult child's old room that is my computer room as well right now) ikea had what we need, only $230 pics of our garage right now it's a mess below. THE POWER OF POSITIVITY IS REAL! Philippians 4:8 "Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.".................

This is the wall we are about to put the garage storage type shelving above at.............it's a wall that could have better storage..............this plan will work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.................

When our oldest young adult child moved back home from college, our garage ended up a gigantic mess..............now I realize that's more shiz then what can fit on the ikea shelving above.........but I recogn some things will get donated, that chair and table pry will stay in the garage and be part of the "finished garage living space".........................it's going to work out I GOTS A PLAN!..................

going to build walls with insulation, and there's as you can see a rug on the floor - pry get rid of that or get a carpet steamer cause it needs to be carpet steamed badly...............which we could do. 

tiles or wood flooring on all the floor in the garage

then the rest of the plot

is to get a carport a metal real carport in front the garage (we never parked our cars in this garage that never happened)

a carport near does it all (we have a camera recording 24/7 so there's safety to our cars being parked outside from theft) carport protects the car! 

people that are suicidal

they pry at least some of them - went into the "downward brain spiral" to much pry bad things did happen to the suicidal, suicided, and/or people with bipolar etc. I theorize.................the depressed.................not saying positive thinking could cure everything

BUT POSITIVE THINKING PRY WOULD HELP MOST

👍👍👍👍 ikea 

their vegan hot dogs are tasty to

I want it to be known I am not mocking god, I have already listened to the bible today (sure somedays I have gotten to buisy AND EVEN NEGLECTFUL to god and his word) BUT NOT TODAY GOD NOT TODAY I NEED THESE "GENERATIONAL CURSES" BROKE which is called "generation curses" PLURAL, this isn't as christian of a nation as people pretend it is usa ain't -------------- I NEED FRIENDS I NEED FAMILY THAT LIVES NEARBY THAT WANTS TO HAVE ME OVER TO THEIR HOUSE TO HANG OUT WITH I NEED BLESSED ASAP GOD!...............................OR AS FAST AS POSSIBLE PUT A FEDEX ON THAT GOD WITH THE FAST SHIPPING PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...................

another door painting 

(I'm going with lucifer when he get's here) but this'll be nice for brian's ladies after me.............or men if he decides to go that way...............it ain't about brian either - I NEED TO GET BLESSED BY GOD - BLESSED. It ain't about brian, or my church or any churches in the past or anybody on this planet besides me and god and GOD NEEDS TO BLESS ME!

(brian likes being low income he digs that per his words he likes being "a cog in the wheel") - that's great for him

not what he was saying the 1st few years of our marriage when we both were hanging out with big time writers, and he was talking to them about the books he plans to write. He used to talk about some big plans. 

 I want it to be known I am not mocking god, I have already listened to the bible today (sure somedays I have gotten to buisy AND EVEN NEGLECTFUL to god and his word) BUT NOT TODAY GOD NOT TODAY I NEED THESE "GENERATIONAL CURSES" BROKE which is called "generation curses" PLURAL, this isn't as christian of a nation as people pretend it is usa ain't -------------- I NEED FRIENDS I NEED FAMILY THAT LIVES NEARBY THAT WANTS TO HAVE ME OVER TO THEIR HOUSE TO HANG OUT WITH I NEED BLESSED ASAP GOD!...............................OR AS FAST AS POSSIBLE PUT A FEDEX ON THAT GOD WITH THE FAST SHIPPING PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...................

for those not knowing what's been happening in my life I have tithed for months out of desperation for god to bless me. 

 I recalled some my family at my mom's native america families main home talking about slaves, theorized that might be the "generational curse" - my mom don't want to speak to me again now

and she theorizes curses upon me, my brother and sister because they moved away from us 24 or so years ago...............

But that isn't what the bible mentions will bring curses upon a person........it's family members in the past or recent past HATING GOD.................

Numbers 14:18 "The Lord is longsuffering, and of great mercy, forgiving iniquity and transgression, and by no means clearing the guilty, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children unto the third and fourth generation."

  But also in my current consideration of why I feel know more then feel know I'm cursed of god right now............................

Galatians 6:6-8 "Let him that is taught in the word communicate unto him that teacheth in all good things. Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap. For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting." If I want/need to be blessed by god BIG TIME, I need to be in his word, especially probably if I'm trying to the "big landslide blessings of god" WHICH I AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Malachi 3:10

Bring ye all the tithes into the storehouse, that there may be meat in mine house, and prove me now herewith, saith the Lord of hosts, if I will not open you the windows of heaven, and pour you out a blessing, that there shall not be room enough to receive it.

JUDGE ME ALL YOU WANT I'M TIRED OF BEING POOR

I'M TIRED OF SCRAPING BY MONTH TO MONTH AS IS THE TYPICAL AMERICAN USA WAY OF LIFE

I WANT/NEED GOD TO BLESS ME SO BAD THERE AIN'T ROOM TO RECEIVE THE BLESSING OF GOD POURING DOWN ON ME!!!!!!!!!! 

AND I NEED A YACHT..................

the water is calling me

I need to boat

real boating

not tee hee style

but right now we fixing up a trampoline style sailboat and learning sailboating

but what I need is a SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIP

AMEN CHRIS JANSON

off to eat some potatoes

It's amazing that my mom got so mad at me she told me to never speak to her again basically (kicking me out of the family again - a few people in my family enjoy kicking me out of the family for their lord jesus christ A LOT) for merely surmising that maybe I'm cursed of god (tithing hasn't been working for me - I've tithed FOR MONTHS) that maybe a memory hearing what I thought I heard them talking about my mom's great grandma and grandma owning a slave plantation that that would indeed cause me to be cursed of god (per Numbers 14:18). That ain't even their "big secret"....................I DON'T WANT TO DIE I STAY QUIET ABOUT THAT.................not only what happened on you and dad's move to florida a few years ago (they don't live in florida anymore though) - but how that ties into what I saw at the age of 2-3 years old I AIN'T TALKING. But lucifer saw, jesus christ the lord ALSO SAW......................evp video time below lucifer you can hear him talk mom and dad let's see if he's going to tell the world "the truth"....................I replayed the video lucifer's evping galore, but quiet when I ask if he's going to "spill the beans"...................BUT YOU BETTER TURN UP THE VOLUME HIGH MOM AND DAD TO MAKE SURE LUCIFER ISN'T GOING TO "SPILL THE BEANS".........................LISTEN TO IT A FEW TIMES MOM AND DAD TO KNOW YOUR SAFE.............FROM "THE BEANS" BEING SPILLED........................

(but I noticed your still instagram friends with me mom and dad - good plot you wouldn't want to look to suspicious ; )

God will bless me I believe He will...........................it's only a matter of time...............

 It's amazing that my mom got so mad at me she told me to never speak to her again basically (kicking me out of the family again - a few people in my family enjoy kicking me out of the family for their lord jesus christ A LOT) for merely surmising that maybe I'm cursed of god (tithing hasn't been working for me - I've tithed FOR MONTHS) that maybe a memory hearing what I thought I heard them talking about my mom's great grandma and grandma owning a slave plantation that that would indeed cause me to be cursed of god (per Numbers 14:18). That ain't even their "big secret"....................I DON'T WANT TO DIE I STAY QUIET ABOUT THAT.................not only what happened on you and dad's move to florida a few years ago (they don't live in florida anymore though) - but how that ties into what I saw at the age of 2-3 years old I AIN'T TALKING. But lucifer saw, jesus christ the lord ALSO SAW......................evp video time below lucifer you can hear him talk mom and dad let's see if he's going to tell the world "the truth"....................I replayed the video lucifer's evping galore, but quiet when I ask if he's going to "spill the beans"...................BUT YOU BETTER TURN UP THE VOLUME HIGH MOM AND DAD TO MAKE SURE LUCIFER ISN'T GOING TO "SPILL THE BEANS".........................LISTEN TO IT A FEW TIMES MOM AND DAD TO KNOW YOUR SAFE.............FROM "THE BEANS" BEING SPILLED........................

I agree though on what happened mom on your and dad's "move to florida" your accessment of that

bestest never tell kevin, or aimee, or amber any of that mom and dad

tell kevin and aimee and amber I'm even more evil then you already have, and more of a liar really build that up for aimee and kevin  and amber nevermind that I'm tithing, volunteered at the foodbank last week, and also the coming week and probably the week after that as well at least if not more weeks...................we don't need the truth do we mom and dad..............no not at allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll

that wouldn't hide "secrets"

pursue peace and holiness with all men without which no one can see god one day

I stay quiet 

my parents "big secret"

Hebrews 12:14

Follow peace with all men, and holiness, without which no man shall see the Lord:

no stopping Jesus Christ and/or Lucifer from blabbing someday ---------------- if they wanted to. 

  Looks like your lucky mom and dad, that lucifer also is going to stay quiet. 

man that's so much luck

until judgement day then

that's be a ruff day for you 2

brian's treating me much better

lucifer has only improved my life and he ain't even here yet

looked at old pics of myself and family pics

I was fat

but I was in "survival mode" still am, still like most americans scrapping by paycheck to paycheck takes a tole often on people's bodies that does, the stress of that............then you add the stress of being judged and hated by most people that's stressful to

.......................got a steam sauna machine for my sauna to try and unclog my ear (my current sauna was infrared) my ear feels better, and I can breathe better

I think I like steam sauna's the best - I add aromatherapy drops to the steam it's relaxing

--------- might steam sauna 2x's today though...............my ear is badly off

(Video post I am feeling like a "ascended master" today I don't feel rage or hatred or anything for my family it's some them burning with rage and anger towards me, I'm over here chill at peace my family needs prayer bad but so does this world it's full of angry people and we all know that ain't a "fruit of the spirit") HEAPING FIERY COALS UPON MY MOM'S HEAD AS THE BIBLE SAYS TO DO................Romans 12:20 "Therefore if thine enemy hunger, feed him; if he thirst, give him drink: for in so doing thou shalt heap coals of fire on his head." Memories and lies are not the same thing, even if I "mis-remembered" and let's say they were talking about some other friend of theirs that had slaves - TO ME I REMEMBERED IT THEM SAYING IT WAS GREAT GRANDMA AND GRANPA to as far as my actual "memory of what was said" goes I AIN'T LIEING.................but according to my mom I'm the most worst horrible lieing sack of shit to ever live on the earth..............according to her all I do is lie and that I'm the worst piece of shit...............and she never wants to speak to be again for her lord jesus christ and my families lord according to them jesus christ...............

I tell  you what it feels damn great to be embodying full today Galatians 5:22 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

Galatians 5:22 "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith," I hope you all can also someday fully experience Galatians 5:22 and experience then the "ascended master experience" it's niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiice 👍👍👍👍👍👍💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

(Video post I am feeling like a "ascended master" today I don't feel rage or hatred or anything for my family it's some them burning with rage and anger towards me, I'm over here chill at peace my family needs prayer bad but so does this world it's full of angry people and we all know that ain't a "fruit of the spirit") HEAPING FIERY COALS UPON MY MOM'S HEAD AS THE BIBLE SAYS TO DO................Romans 12:20 "Therefore if thine enemy hunger, feed him; if he thirst, give him drink: for in so doing thou shalt heap coals of fire on his head." Memories and lies are not the same thing, even if I "mis-remembered" and let's say they were talking about some other friend of theirs  that had slaves - TO ME I REMEMBERED IT THEM SAYING IT WAS GREAT GRANDMA AND GRANPA to as far as my actual "memory of what was said" goes I AIN'T LIEING.................but according to my mom I'm the most worst horrible lieing sack of shit to ever live on the earth..............according to her all I do is lie and that I'm the worst piece of shit...............and she never wants to speak to be again for her lord jesus christ and my families lord according to them jesus christ...............

I will message my mom I sent her this item and then fuck off from my family as they want me to do for their lord Jesus Christ.........because according to them unless I am in a vegtable state every memory I have is a lie and I am a desperate liar according to them. 

EVEN THOUGH THEY CLAIM THEY AREN'T JEWS NONE OF THEM AND I HAVE A JEW NOSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND ALSO I BELIEVE THERE IS PROOF 

I'M 3RD - 4TH GENERATION CURSED OF GOD CAUSE I HAVE FACTS TITHED FOR MONTHS THE HEAVENS SHOULD'VE CRACKED OPEN FOR ME BY NOW OVERFLOWING WITH BLESSING - NOTHING HAS HAPPENED

Malachi 3:10

Bring ye all the tithes into the storehouse, that there may be meat in mine house, and prove me now herewith, saith the Lord of hosts, if I will not open you the windows of heaven, and pour you out a blessing, that there shall not be room enough to receive it.

besides my christian mom who don't go to church has told me to please quit emailing her for her lord jesus christ because according to her I'm a lieing sack of shit

COME TO MY AID SATAN LUCIFER THE DEVIL

I AM OUT NUMBERED

MY ATTACKING CHRISTIAN ATTACKERS THAT HATE ME ARE ALL AROUND ME

I AM SURROUNDED WITH PEOPLE HATING ME AND ATTACKING ME ALL DAY AND NIGHT FOR THEIR LORD

OR AT LEAST CONSPIRING WAYS I MIGHT DIE TO PLEASE THEIR SOULS FOR JESUS

MEMORIES AREN'T LIES MY MOM ISN'T CORRECT, EVEN IF I REMEMBER "WRONG" AS I STATED ME HAVING A MEMORY OR SEVERAL AIN'T ME LIEING 

I AIN'T LIAR

come lucifer please

(I wasn't even trying to start a fight with my mom she wants to fight me her style of christianity is - I was merely trying to figure out what evils did my ancestors do or potentially do THAT I'M CURSED OF GOD BAD THAT MY TITHING ISN'T GETTING 0% BLESSING FROM GOD MONTHS OF TITHING it's not bat shit crazy of me to wrack my brains what do I remember evil hearing of evils in my family as a kid) Looks like I'm kicked out of my family now for real...................for jesus christ of course.........................Because me having a memory isn't me having a memory according to my mom it's me being despicable lieing FILTH THAT NEEDS TO BE DESTROYED FOR HER AND MY DAD AND MY FAMILIES LORD JESUS CHRIST IMMEDIATLY.............................only hatred for people is christianity duh myself you suck you don't have memories of shit myself your a lieing sack of shit sheri......................................bitch die for the ruby families lord jesus christ now BITCH...............YOU DON'T REMEMBER SHIT SHERI EVERY MEMORY YOU HAVE IS LIES YOU BITCH OF LIES GO BACK TO HELL FROM WHENCE YOU ARE FROM AND DIE BITCH..................

Choose to have a door painted in our 1970 something ranch style home (all the doors but one has original paint pretty sure on them - they in need of paint bad)

I will add "after pic" when I get to it. Painting the door frame to it's a whole mess (pic is leading to garage, which is GARAGING.........YIKES).......................

I requested that a door be painted today over going garage saleing or doing anything else................I value instead taking the time making our house nicer.......................

the door now with a fresh coat of paint on one side it's so much better looking now...............brian says this door needs to like dry all night etc. - fine...................this was better then going garage saleing for sure.............now I'm jazzed to get all the doors in our house repainted (that'll make a big difference)..............

that door fully painted and the door frame, it's weirding me out though it looks like a different door, I know it's the same door. Maybe that's what the blood of jesus does to us eventually?

 (I wasn't even trying to start a fight with my mom she wants to fight me her style of christianity is - I was merely trying to figure out what evils did my ancestors do or potentially do THAT I'M CURSED OF GOD BAD THAT MY TITHING ISN'T GETTING 0% BLESSING FROM GOD MONTHS OF TITHING it's not bat shit crazy of me to wrack my brains what do I remember evil hearing of evils in my family as a kid) Looks like I'm kicked out of my family now for real...................for jesus christ of course.........................Because me having a memory isn't me having a memory according to my mom it's me being despicable lieing FILTH THAT NEEDS TO BE DESTROYED FOR HER AND MY DAD AND MY FAMILIES LORD JESUS CHRIST IMMEDIATLY.............................only hatred for people is christianity duh myself you suck you don't have memories of shit myself your a lieing sack of shit sheri......................................bitch die for the ruby families lord jesus christ now BITCH...............YOU DON'T REMEMBER SHIT SHERI EVERY MEMORY YOU HAVE IS LIES YOU BITCH OF LIES GO BACK TO HELL FROM WHENCE YOU ARE FROM AND DIE BITCH..................

my reply I copy and paste...................

that mean you all hate me and I'm kicked out of my family now?

did you all unfollow me from tiktok?

if I had a memory THAT'S WHAT I RECALL I AIN'T LIEING OVER HERE - having a memory and lying aren't the same thing mom - if I remembered recalled something being said --------- THAT'S A MEMORY THAT ISN'T ME TELLING A LIE

NOW YOU ALL MIGHT OF BEEN LIEING ON YOU GREAT GRANDMA AND GRANDPA SEVERAL DAYS

but I having a memory 

me remembering what was said ISN'T ME TELLING A LIE

YOUR LIEING ON ME TELLING ME THAT MY MEMORY IS ME BEING A LIAR

MEMORIES IF YOU REMEMBER SOMETHING OR EVEN BELIEVE YOU REMEMBERED SOMETHING BEING SAID THAT ISN'T YOU LIEING THAT'S NOT A LIE THEN

this is crap chrstinaity you doing to mom

but god bless you mom

Mark 13:12 "Now the brother shall betray the brother to death, and the father the son; and children shall rise up against their parents, and shall cause them to be put to death."

Young people not wanting to get married have kids etc. ARE LOOSING OUT ON THE BLESSINGS OF GOD POTENTIALLY. Marriage is supposed to be a GOOD THING. (more for the men then women in many respects) Because a godly women will move a guy way up to the creme de la creme of society PER THE BIBLE Proverbs 31:23 "Her husband is known in the gates, when he sitteth among the elders of the land." Brian if only shhhhhhhhhhhhh secret is a near GOD AT CHURCH! AS HE IS SUPPOSED TO BE PER THE BIBLE! I believe christian women can do "good works" so much so that they are their own leader of the town/towns of high rank AUTOMATIC 1 Timothy 6:18 "That they do good, that they be rich in good works, ready to distribute, willing to communicate;" SISTERS CAN DO IT FOR THEMSELVES I'M SAYING!!!!!!!!.................

All the traffic to my blog drastically suddenly down, everyone quiet, so all I can do is "guestimate" when """""""extreme christian likely rage happens"""""""""".................well when talking about men and women I try and be fair, I try and be more then fair, it wouldn't be fair of me, if I said "oh this is the patriarchy and men rule the world for sure". 

 Or that only men kill women and children, cause that's not the truth sometimes WOMEN KILL........................I STILL BELIEVE PATRICK CLANCY IS GUILTY AF - even if he didn't kill the kids - he did - but even if he didn't he neglected his wife and that's guilt right there!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

honest i dont know why people mad at me (besides they know i aint like them i dont want to repeatedly rip lucifer to shreds again and again for all eternity =like it appears to be most christians do)

Young people not wanting to get married have kids etc. ARE LOOSING OUT ON THE BLESSINGS OF GOD POTENTIALLY. Marriage is supposed to be a GOOD THING. (more for the men then women in many respects) Because a godly women will move a guy way up to the creme de la creme of society PER THE BIBLE  Proverbs 31:23 "Her husband is known in the gates, when he sitteth among the elders of the land." Brian if only shhhhhhhhhhhhh secret is a near GOD AT CHURCH! AS HE IS SUPPOSED TO BE PER THE BIBLE! I believe christian women can do "good works" so much so that they are their own leader of the town/towns of high rank AUTOMATIC 1 Timothy 6:18 "That they do good, that they be rich in good works, ready to distribute, willing to communicate;" SISTERS CAN DO IT FOR THEMSELVES I'M SAYING!!!!!!!!.................

Proverbs 18:22 "Whoso findeth a wife findeth a good thing, and obtaineth favour of the Lord."

God has said lucifer can't won't have honour I AM BOUND AND DETERMINED TO LITERALLY CAUSE GOD TO TAKE THAT BACK..................I AM CONVINCED LUCIFER DESERVES MUCH HONOUR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lucifer evping below as near almost always............................(ya satan, the devil, turn up the volume to hear him)..............................

I can tell you what's happened on this earth - with marriages, to many women still having children and then also expected to work (as I did but mostly small "side gigs" over the years) 

I can't make men understand and they seem to have a hard time most them understanding.................that women aren't supposed to be the bread winners AT ALL THAT'S SUPPOSED TO BE THE MANS THING (MOSTLY..............it is expensive out there and I don't think there is anything wrong with a wife having a side gig or even full time job if bills are that high) but thats a problem with the entire economy if both people have to work to pay the bills

that's a entire economic disaster then

there's no much "benefit" for women to get or be married if they gots to work all the time full time etc. 

1 Timothy 5:8 "But if any provide not for his own, and specially for those of his own house, he hath denied the faith, and is worse than an infidel." Men right husband right are supposed to work.............and then their wives are supposed to get some that money!!!!!!!!!!!!!! --------- THAT'S WHATS SUPPOSED TO PER THE WHOLE IDEA OF 1 Timothy 5:8 that's what's supposed to happen. 

  But what you got out there is things are so bad economically that hardly any maybe 2% of guys are able to provide for their families they just can't they aren't able to provide for their families fully most of them can't ------------ pay isn't enough ------------------- inflation to high. 

  Well at that point

if ladies can be single not have kids

they can then PAY THEMSELVES LOTS OF MONEY theoretically if they have roomates for example and thereby don't have to pay so much rent

so I theorize THAT THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT MOST USA YOUNG PEOPLE ARE DOING THESE DAYS. 

the ecomony just needs to get better to all "cure" things ya donald trump is going to have to force land lords to make rent cheaper etc. 

so that it's again a "good deal" or good enough deal for ladies to get married

right now

it's bad for them

having little kids and working is hard.................having a baby and then pumping breastmilk and working long hours I DID THAT FOR AWHILE IT WAS MISERABLE

in my estimation it's a patriarchy with a wink out there 😉 women should have value on earth it should always be patriachy with a wink 😉 (I mean the wink in the beyonce song above way : ) 

off to eat some sugar free ice cream

I will keep tithing I am determined, to get out of my families curse of god cursing them because my mom's great grandparents owned a slave plantation. And vancouver heights united methodist church (me and brian's church not only is it pro lgbtq which is good) lot of black people go there, and the pastor is black IT'S THE RIGHT CHURCH BOTH FOR ME TO GO TO AND BLESS............................................that the curse god has on my life finally leaves, who knows how long I'll have to tithe maybe years??????????????? It sounded like the slave plantation had 100's of slaves that it was a big rich people style plantation but they lost all their money somehow - cause my native american relatives (they half irish) besides my grandpa he had 5 other siblings none them got married just my grandpa and they lived their whole lives in a middle maybe lower income house..................................IT WASN'T NORMAL - IT'S NORMAL FOR FAMILIES TO ALL GET MARRIED GO HAVE KIDS Numbers 14:18 "The Lord is longsuffering, and of great mercy, forgiving iniquity and transgression, and by no means clearing the guilty, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children unto the third and fourth generation." GOD WANTS US TO HAVE ZEAL IT'S SOMETHING TO BE ZEALOUS FOR TO FINALLY BE BLESSED BY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!! THERE A BIBLE VERSE THAT SAYS "the latter is better then the former" I find it wait...............US CHRISTIANS I SAYING WE AIN'T SUPPOSED TO STAY STUCK IN "CURSEDNESS"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!......................

Update 8/28/2026 my mom is trying to say there were no slaves owned by any of her family ever. 

I distinctly recall while at my mom's native american relatives house talk about great grandma and grandpa owning not just slaves but having a whole plantation - THAT'S A REAL MEMORY I HAVE. 

I know what will happen my mom will tell me what she always tells me I'm bat shi- crazy and to go on meds..................but if I have a memory and I'm telling you that's what I remember that's what I remember, I didn't enjoy it.........................I didn't want to even believe it was true. 

but after being cursed for years 

AND BEING CURSED HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MOM AND DAD MOVING AWAY FROM ME THOUGH THEY THINK THAT'S THEM CURSING ME TO DEATH AND MY BROTHER AND SISTERS.....................

(BUT NOT THEM DOING WITCHCRAFT)

FOR THEIR "LORD JESUS CHRIST" THEY CURSED 24 years ago me, my brother and sisters for their lord Jesus Christ

it's got to be more evil then moving away from me for god to curse me YOU GOTS TO HATE GOD BAD AND DO A LOT OF EVIL

OWNING SLAVES (no my parents owning slaves I believe my mom's grandparents owned slaves I RECALL THEM TALKING ABOUT 100'S OF SLAVES) -------- THAT'D DO IT

I HAVE TO BE CURSED BY GOD THERE HAS TO BE EVIL FAMILY MEMBERS IN MY LINEAGE OF DESPERATE GOD HATING EVIL I HAVE TITHED FOR MONTHS NOW ------ NOOOOOOOOOOOOOTHINNNNNNNNNNNNNNG HAS HAPPENED

(I don't count me getting good grades on exams of medical career I don't want to jinx and talk about - I STUDYING HARD TO PASS THEM) 

nothing 

nothing

I've tithed for months NOTHING

I'm still hated, bells clang loud either when our car gets in the church parking lot, or when I get out my car, sometimes right before we walk in the church CLANG CLANG CLANG WARNING PURITANS OF THE MAYFLOWER THE REPENTED WITCH IS HERE

I will keep tithing I am determined, to get out of my families curse of god cursing them because my mom's great grandparents owned a slave plantation. And vancouver heights united methodist church (me and brian's church not only is it pro lgbtq which is good) lot of black people go there, and the pastor is black IT'S THE RIGHT CHURCH BOTH FOR ME TO GO TO AND BLESS............................................that the curse god has on my life finally leaves, who knows how long I'll have to tithe maybe years??????????????? It sounded like the slave plantation had 100's of slaves that it was a big rich people style plantation but they lost all their money somehow - cause my native american relatives (they half irish) besides my grandpa he had 5 other siblings none them got married just my grandpa and they lived their whole lives in a middle maybe lower income house..................................IT WASN'T NORMAL - IT'S NORMAL FOR FAMILIES TO ALL GET MARRIED GO HAVE KIDS Numbers 14:18 "The Lord is longsuffering, and of great mercy, forgiving iniquity and transgression, and by no means clearing the guilty, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children unto the third and fourth generation." GOD WANTS US TO HAVE ZEAL IT'S SOMETHING TO BE ZEALOUS FOR TO FINALLY BE BLESSED BY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!! THERE A BIBLE VERSE THAT SAYS "the latter is better then the former" I find it wait...............US CHRISTIANS I SAYING WE AIN'T SUPPOSED TO STAY STUCK IN "CURSEDNESS"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!......................

though I been trapped forever, I'm in my 50's and STILL CURSED BY GOD!

Job 8:7

King James Version

7 Though thy beginning was small, yet thy latter end should greatly increase.

i GOTTA GO I WILL NOT GIVE UP!

I CAN DONATE TO BLACK PEOPLE CHARITIES AND I AM DETERMINED TO DO THAT AND TITHE AND GET BLESSED!

I AM SUFFERING RIGHT NOW FOR THE THINGS MY ANCESTORS DID

BUT MY GREATER GREATER MY LATTER END IS COMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (OF GREATNESS I'M SAYING OF BEING BLESSED BY GOD FINALLY) 

THINGS BAD FOR YOU 

YOU WANT TO SUICIDE, GO TO GOD HE CAN BLESS THERE IS HOPE FOR US ALL!

HE IS MERCIFUL AND GRACIOUS GOD IS (LUCIFER CHANGED THE SIZE OF THE TYPE THAT TIME : ) - i LIKE IT : )