Good news, helping one our realistate buddies out this week and about to earn extra money just in the knick of time cause I badly need to buy a boat FOR MY SANITY. I need to get away from people I'm starting to loose my grip on sanity again, the neverending being judged because I'm to fat, or if I'm to skinny, or not "saintly enough" or maybe judged cause I look demon possessed, and I also believe I am with a fallen angel BUT I LIKE IT, and judged if I'm to pretty, or not pretty enough and IT NEVER ENDS AND PEOPLE ARE NEVER HAPPY NEVVVVVVVVVVVER (especially they aren't happy with me if they is christian, but some non-christians appear to hate me to wazuu as well)..........................................

 Good news, helping one our realistate buddies out this week and about to earn extra money just in the knick of time cause I badly need to buy a boat FOR MY SANITY. I need to get away from people I'm starting to loose my grip on sanity again, the neverending being judged because I'm to fat, or if I'm to skinny, or not "saintly enough" or maybe judged cause I look demon possessed, and I also believe I am with a fallen angel BUT I LIKE IT, and judged if I'm to pretty, or not pretty enough and IT NEVER ENDS AND PEOPLE ARE NEVER HAPPY NEVVVVVVVVVVVER (especially they aren't happy with me if they is christian, but some non-christians appear to hate me to wazuu as well)..........................................

Even if your not a men pleaser which I clearly ain't a men pleaser.........its exhuasting always being hated for jesus christ. 

Matthew 10:33-35 "But whosoever shall deny me before men, him will I also deny before my Father which is in heaven. Think not that I am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword. For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law."

we all should love each other MUCH MORE especially in usa

we have a bacteria over most usa most usa has neverending diahrea right now

we have inflation

we have people unable to afford rent THAT WORK JOBS and so they are living in cars 

data centers sucking up towns after towns after towns of water

  I need to boat it's a calling I feel

I feel lead to boat

some people don't feel when they out on the water in a boat "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh this is where I belong" 

but "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh this is where I belong" is what I feel when I'm out on the water. 

it's been like that for years for me now

maybe the "negative ions" in the air when boating charge my soul????????????????

I am over 1/4th native american counseling does 0% for my mental health

boating does everything for my mental health in my estimation 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

And facts..................

I'm native american ok over 1/4th to me 45%-50% suicide rate that makes going to counseling a worthless activity in my mind

I won't even pick a school online unless is has a 80% pass rate or higher many the online schools let you know the pass rate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you all think 45%-50% of people going to counseling of the suicide people's like dieing that that is a good rate - good value for your money??????????????????????

I suspect many a people would do better doing something OTHER THEN COUNSELING FOR THEIR MENTAL HEALTH

or maybe do counseling cause it might have 50% benefit for 50% of people??????

and do gardening

paint

maybe even become a stripper?????????????

DON'T SIT AROUND KNOWING "IT'S NOT GREAT MY HEADSPACE AIN'T" AND DO NOTHING

DO SOMETHING OTHER THEN SUICIDE ABOUT THAT IS THE PLOT I FEEL

cause even if I wasn't "saved" let's play that out in our brains still I'M USEFUL I'M GOING TO TALK SOMEONE INTO "KEEPING GOING" 

IF I TALK 1 HUMAN INTO KEEPING GOING IN LIFE THEN I HAVE PURPOSE 

YOU HAVE PURPOSE AS WELL KEEP GOING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For comfort and reassurance: "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." - Isaiah 41:10 [1]
For a promise of companionship: "Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, 'Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.'" - Hebrews 13:5 [1, 2, 3, 4, 5]
For when you feel unseen: "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." - Psalm 34:18 [1, 2]
For a prayer in isolation: "Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted." - Psalm 25:16

(video in this blog post, turn up volume to hear evp's from Satan, Lucifer, the Devil) bestest to love people (in particular lgbtq, various races of people, women - men don't have no "plight" this is the patriarchy they run EVERYTHING), cause they ain't coming to jesus less they are drawn - UH OH FOR YOU ALL CHRISTIANS OF CHRISTAINITY I FEEL THE SUDDEN URGE TO READ MY BIBLE AS I DO XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO John 6:44 "No man can come to me, except the Father which hath sent me draw him: and I will raise him up at the last day."................................EVERY LGBTQ THAT HAS EVER GONE TO CHURCH WAS DRAWN BY GOD........................

(video in this blog post, turn up volume to hear evp's from Satan, Lucifer, the Devil) bestest to love people (in particular lgbtq, various races of people, women - men don't have no "plight" this is the patriarchy they run EVERYTHING), cause they ain't coming to jesus less they are drawn - UH OH FOR YOU ALL CHRISTIANS OF CHRISTAINITY I FEEL THE SUDDEN URGE TO READ MY BIBLE AS I DO XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO John 6:44 "No man can come to me, except the Father which hath sent me draw him: and I will raise him up at the last day."................................EVERY LGBTQ THAT HAS EVER GONE TO CHURCH WAS DRAWN BY GOD........................

THIS IS THE END 

BUT FOR SOME OF US - IT'S JUST THE BEGINNING

YOU KNOW 

THE ONES KEEPING THEIR HEADS

Revelation 20:4 "And I saw thrones, and they sat upon them, and judgment was given unto them: and I saw the souls of them that were beheaded for the witness of Jesus, and for the word of God, and which had not worshipped the beast, neither his image, neither had received his mark upon their foreheads, or in their hands; and they lived and reigned with Christ a thousand years."

 I'm keeping my head, I'm going with Lucifer and accept fully Jesus Christ as my personal Lord and Savior. 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

I am not from "middle earth" like you all are - no hate

tommorow I am gaming brian bought me a headset

we still ain't heard from the state of washington on what exactly online courses will meet their criteria for the career I want to move into (medical field career they only except certifications from certain places)

above Revelation 20:4 "And I saw thrones, and they sat upon them, and judgment was given unto them:" and judgement was given unto them many want and do judge TODAY JUDGEMENT HASN'T BEEN GIVEN UNTO YOU YET!!!!!!!!!!!!! YET YOU WANT TO CONDEMN ME AND LGBTQ ETC. BECAUSE OF HOW WE LOOK WHICH HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH WHETHER WE ARE GOING TO CHURCH

READING OUR BIBLES

IN GENERAL 

BEING DRAWN BY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

John 6:44 "No man can come to me, except the Father which hath sent me draw him: and I will raise him up at the last day."

PEOPLE GO TO MY BLOG TO GOSSIP I'VE ARMED THEM PLENTY LOOKS TO BE SO NOW THEY AINT GOING TO MY BLOG THEY OFF CHATTERING ABOUT THE HORRORS OF ME (or at least the members of the apostolic christian church of america since how their leader in silverton or what was their leader maybe he ain't anymore called me "the worst ever" ------- well the church chatter ain't been in my favor then has it????????????????????)

One of lucifers people really "sent me" recently bishing so harrrrrrrrrd about christians being racists pieces of ---------- (which in many cases might be true). I made a song since how they need their christian baby to be born soooooo bad because they are in such pain agony AND TRAVAIL - lucifers people are and everyone is Romans 8:22 "We know that all creation is still groaning and is in pain, like a woman about to give birth." I'M TRYING TO NAP HERE...................LET A COOL BREEZE OF THE DARKNESS THE THICK DARK OF THE BLACKEST NIGHT HIT ME REAL GOOD SOFTLY OF COURSE WITH NO NOISE CAUSE THAT'S HOW IT HITS A PERSON REAL GENTLE LIKE A NICE LATE NIGHT KISS (I know what I'm talking about) """sheri this is to goth to near worshipping satan dare you to walk in a church right now chickita""" hahahhahahahah......................

One of lucifers people really "sent me" recently bishing so harrrrrrrrrd about christians being racists pieces of ---------- (which in many cases might be true). I made a song since how they need their christian baby to be born soooooo bad because they are in such pain agony AND TRAVAIL - lucifers people are and everyone is Romans 8:22 "We know that all creation is still groaning and is in pain, like a woman about to give birth." I'M TRYING TO NAP HERE...................LET A COOL BREEZE OF THE DARKNESS THE THICK DARK OF THE BLACKEST NIGHT HIT ME REAL GOOD SOFTLY OF COURSE WITH NO NOISE CAUSE THAT'S HOW IT HITS A PERSON REAL GENTLE LIKE A NICE LATE NIGHT KISS (I know what I'm talking about) """sheri this is to goth to near worshipping satan dare you to walk in a church right now chickita""" hahahhahahahah......................

sheri your bishing to

no I ain't 

not often

everyone has a bad day or two

but mostly

I gone "non human" 

oh ya

non human

HUMANS HAVE TO "FIT MOLDS"

AND THEY DON'T BREATH FIREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

My brain works different then the rest of the body of christ cause the Jezebel story, she did horrible stuff jezebel did, but what I noticed she had so much more power then the men cause Elijah was a big time "big time" in the bible "big time" in the patriarchy 1 Kings 19:3 "Elijah was afraid when he got her message, and he ran to the town of Beersheba in Judah. He left his servant there," IF JOYCE MEYER JUST WEARS A LITTLE BIT MORE MAKEUP IT'S OVER FOR YOU MEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...................... - NO HATE................................................

 My brain works different then the rest of the body of christ cause the Jezebel story, she did horrible stuff jezebel did, but what I noticed she had so much more power then the men cause Elijah was a big time "big time" in the bible "big time" in the patriarchy 1 Kings 19:3 "Elijah was afraid when he got her message, and he ran to the town of Beersheba in Judah. He left his servant there," IF JOYCE MEYER JUST WEARS A LITTLE BIT MORE MAKEUP IT'S OVER FOR YOU MEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...................... - NO HATE................................................

  Off topic - but um I'm like going back to school (online classes). Cause I got a CNA certification right, but decided that job wasn't for me.

   Well, I don't want to say "what" I going to train to be next, but that this career is the one safe to say, plenty of room for me to advance in this mystery field.................and it's dealing with medical terminology I already know some of it. 

  I need to get out the house more I need this career change. I'm looking forward to studying for this new career I am a geek.......................I sometimes enjoy school...........................................

  Found a boat I like - but not buying it...............might actually start this new career earn a lot of money and buy a even better boat then the one I currently am considering. 

Feminists boggle my mind what they haven't just rannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn with the jezebel part of the bible, cause that lady had POWER. And men must be afraid of that ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh how they preach about the horrors of the "jezebel spirit" 

also what boggles me

is no sermons about men with power besides lucifer and him falling from heaven

no sermons really about the horrors of men having power

yet we have men in power that have molested kids in churches!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Well Jezebel didn't molest kids!!!!!!!!!!!!

JEZEBEL DIDN'T MOLEST CHILDREN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SHE TOTALLY DIDN'T DO THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

..................lot of things on earth totally mysterious

proof...............but I believe there are likely men right now in churches leading churches molesting and raping children - I'm very big on "statistics".......................................
Years of ignored warnings freed a children’s pastor to sexually abuse girls, lawsuit says
Long before an Assemblies of God pastor was convicted of rape, children told church leaders about hidden cameras, drugged drinks and abuse, a new lawsuit says.

https://www.nbcnews.com/news/us-news/arkansas-pastor-tony-waller-abused-girls-assemblies-god-church-lawsuit-rcna346310

Pride definately comes before the fall, I know a few people that believe themselves to be BIG TIME "whoop to do's" a few of them just because they think they have money............lucifer convinces many people it looks to be that they are rich and better then everyone else..................(said people that think they are rich are soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo delusional, they couldn't even buy a $20,000 yacht COMMON) COMMON. But anyways these people have FELL BUT I DON'T THINK THEY EVEN KNOW THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TO ME THAT'S SUCH A "HORROR" THING HAVING FELL AND YOU THEY DON'T EVEN KNOW IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Proverbs 16:18 "Pride goeth before destruction, and an haughty spirit before a fall." Because I tell you all people don't want to be around "braggadocious" types THEY DON'T.........................

Pride definately comes before the fall, I know a few people that believe themselves to be BIG TIME "whoop to do's" a few of them just because they think they have money............lucifer convinces many people it looks to be that they are rich and better then everyone else..................(said people that think they are rich are soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo delusional, they couldn't even buy a $20,000 yacht COMMON) COMMON. But anyways these people have FELL BUT I DON'T THINK THEY EVEN KNOW THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TO ME THAT'S SUCH A "HORROR" THING HAVING FELL AND YOU THEY DON'T EVEN KNOW IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Proverbs 16:18 "Pride goeth before destruction, and an haughty spirit before a fall." Because I tell you all people don't want to be around "braggadocious" types THEY DON'T.........................

ITS ALL LUCK ANYWAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ecclesiastes 9:11 "I returned, and saw under the sun, that the race is not to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, neither yet bread to the wise, nor yet riches to men of understanding, nor yet favour to men of skill; but time and chance happeneth to them all."

  People could brag all day and night about their home, their cars, etc. etc. they lucky - they lucky even if they made a pact with satan and killed many people as a offering to lucifer THEY LUCKY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  I recogn lucifer might make some more successful then others............or only be able to launch some people "so far" 

 Prince sings about not letting the "elevator" bring him down (the elevator is lucifer)......................though technically the elevator could be god in this song to.......................

remember "things" can be nice

but you are a soul

nothing changes that

fame doesn't change that

money doesn't change that

how much you think you is a whoop to do doesn't change that

and god

well

HE A JEALOUS GOD!

Exodus 20:4-6 "Thou shalt not make unto thee any graven image, or any likeness of any thing that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth. Thou shalt not bow down thyself to them, nor serve them: for I the Lord thy God am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children unto the third and fourth generation of them that hate me; And shewing mercy unto thousands of them that love me, and keep my commandments."

   I'm glad my ministry which once was boiling on fire, has "popped and fizzed" quite a bit.................I WOULDN'T WANT TO THINK I'M GREAT!

Psalm 138:6 "Though the Lord be high, yet hath he respect unto the lowly: but the proud he knoweth afar off."
Proverbs 3:34 "Surely he scorneth the scorners: but he giveth grace unto the lowly."
Proverbs 11:2 "When pride cometh, then cometh shame: but with the lowly is wisdom."
Proverbs 16:19 "Better it is to be of an humble spirit with the lowly, than to divide the spoil with the proud."

 I wear jewelry 

and makeup

and these things are lowly

and they lowlyize me 

and I am GLAD ABOUT THAT

am I hated by everyone - looks to be

but I am in a lowly place and that is perfect for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mark 13:13 "And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake: but he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved."

  But I am determined to get a boat and brian plenty knows it, not a expensive one. I dragon boated 3 years, most people don't dragon boat that long. I need to boat. Boating feeds my soul. I feel close to god out on a boat sometimes - IN NATURE. 

  Sure holy spirit is in churches plenty of churches which is - GOD. 

  but I often feel the closest to god in nature, in the quiet, far from the city or at least not so close to city buildings

off to make a matcha tea

(I know that means I'll be up late - I hot flash so much I don't have "high prospects" of going to sleep early these days anyways) usually at night I hot flash, just whole nights, I don't know why my body likes to hot flash at night for????????????????????

my body like saves up the hot flashes for the night

well one dreadlock fully nearly formed several inches long today with me doing 0% to make that happen.............so I'm about to anger black people nomadder what cause this is the "scenario" of my hair, it appears I'm the only non-black person on earth with this problem. I need all the black people on earth to stand in front of me and the united nations to witness, and I need all black people to give me the special "golden ticket" of being able to wear dreads have dreads have any black hairstyles cause I HAVE HAIR TEXTURED BAD LIKE THEM...................I HAVE HAIR TEXTURED BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD LIKE THEM NATURAL CURL BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD..............................................

My garage sale find last weekend, it's giving me joy everyday I walk past it. It was only $1 and I use the carousel pole to put bracelets on, though only like 1 bracelet at the moment on it, wait a minute......................

 I am beyond 100% sure, I have been receiving e-mails from lucifer, satan, the devil from https://www.tut.com/  (like a portal lucifer created, I could be wrong, but this seems "more then coincidence" like all the tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiime). Today the day after I posted this blog post this is what was in my inbox from www.tut.com..........................(I like it though this is great 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓)................................

hinting that black people the it's over 50% of them that have been mean to me in portland they been giving me dirt looks when I wear dreads and saying mean shiz to me even

looks to be lucifer telling me they gonna be nice to me soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's good they should do that my plight is real!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

I need dreadlocks that's what I been trying pleading with all black people, trying to get them and people to understand my plight!!!!!!!!!!! My hair dreads up everyday nearly IT'S BAD!

well one dreadlock fully nearly formed several inches long today with me doing 0% to make that happen.............so I'm about to anger black people nomadder what cause this is the "scenario" of my hair, it appears I'm the only non-black person on earth with this problem. I need all the black people on earth to stand in front of me and the united nations to witness, and I need all black people to give me the special "golden ticket" of being able to wear dreads have dreads have any black hairstyles cause I HAVE HAIR TEXTURED BAD LIKE THEM...................I HAVE HAIR TEXTURED BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD LIKE THEM NATURAL CURL BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD..............................................

ok sheri but that song choice will get black people hating you more

well the whole thing is ridiculous - it's a nice song

why they gots to harsh my gig so hard bro's????????????????????????????????

and I already read the bible today

ya I know this blog post "spiritually" stinks STINKS PRY

but god

he likes a poor and contrite spirit THE BAR IS LOW FOR GOD IN HIS MIND

Isaiah 66:2

For all those things hath mine hand made, and all those things have been, saith the Lord: but to this man will I look, even to him that is poor and of a contrite spirit, and trembleth at my word.

The apostolic christian church of america the main elder told me I'm the "worst ever" 1 billion times while I was crying on the church floor. Vancouver Heights united methodist church (not everytime, sometimes when I get out the car the chime the pretty style chimes I like) but sometimes swear they didn't like some my blog post and did clang style chimes as soon as I got out my car!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm not dinging humans for wanting a "high standard" for each other ---------------- I'm moreso saying god

he likes a "poor and of a contrite spirit" ---------- "and trembleth at my word" ---------- 2nd part of that I don't really encompass. 1 out of 2 is good 👍👍👍👍👍👍

CHEER UP less then a 10 sexy people.....................attractiveness I find after being on earth for over 50 years............it really is some "aura" you put out. I think a mix of "I don't give a -----------" - but I do give a "------------" cause I hate it that there are so many homeless suffering everywhere, and I believe a love for art and books and theater makes one sexy....................................

 CHEER UP less then a 10 sexy people.....................attractiveness I find after being on earth for over 50 years............it really is some "aura" you put out. I think a mix of "I don't give a -----------" - but I do give a "------------" cause I hate it that there are so many homeless suffering everywhere, and I believe a love for art and books and theater makes one sexy....................................

I think lookin around there to many men and women they look like they gave up in life

they let themselves go

have hope things aren't that dire probably not!!!!!!!!!!!!

added some indigo to my hair today 2 like heaping teaspoons worth with a thing of yogurt

left that in only like 15 minutes (I'm pry doing it again tommorow want it a littleeeeeeeeee more bluer) and darker black cause indigo will dark out black hair..................

Song of Solomon 4:7 "Thou art all fair, my love; there is no spot in thee"

I love my hair everyday since I split dyed it

my hair is like nearing mid back in length ----------------- I think long split dyed hair is the most pretty I really do

off topic................

we have people adamantly against going to chruch that's it they done

me -------- I'm hated so in some way it's useless to go to church in the "make friends way" but praising god STILL WORTH IT

just because I'm not blesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssed to the level I thought I'd be -------- don't mean I ain't blessed

I have a loosing weight problem in a country with food that's blessed!!!!!!!!!!

Psalm 47:1-9 "O clap your hands, all ye people; shout unto God with the voice of triumph. For the Lord most high is terrible; he is a great King over all the earth. He shall subdue the people under us, and the nations under our feet. He shall choose our inheritance for us, the excellency of Jacob whom he loved. Selah. God is gone up with a shout, the Lord with the sound of a trumpet. Sing praises to God, sing praises: sing praises unto our King, sing praises. For God is the King of all the earth: sing ye praises with understanding. God reigneth over the heathen: God sitteth upon the throne of his holiness. The princes of the people are gathered together, even the people of the God of Abraham: for the shields of the earth belong unto God: he is greatly exalted." - If anything I think christians and jews both should sing praises to god not for what He has already did but what He's going to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

playlist I'm listening to now, whilst eating popcorn.................