Today shabbating.........sermon was about making no room for the devil (in the kick that guy out of your life way some of the sermon was alluding to) and that I don't disagree with that idea FOR EVERYONE ELSE ON EARTH BUT ME. But that bit of the bible in context fully is saying don't stay mad at a person etc. so that you "don't give place to the devil" to tempt you to sin SO I AM HEEDING ephesians 4:26-28 while SPEAKING TO LUCIFER DAILY I'M STILL HEEDING THIS BIT OF THE BIBLE WHICH IS PROBABLY DRIVING YOU ALL INSANE...........Ephesians 4:26-28 " Be ye angry, and sin not: let not the sun go down upon your wrath: Neither give place to the devil. Let him that stole steal no more: but rather let him labour, working with his hands the thing which is good, that he may have to give to him that needeth." I agree with the idea very much so, don't steal (storage unit auctions are fair people quitted paying on their storage unit then it went up for auction), don't be mad, show mercy etc. etc....................

Today shabbating.........sermon was about making no room for the devil (in the kick that guy out of your life way some of the sermon was alluding to) and that I don't disagree with that idea FOR EVERYONE ELSE ON EARTH BUT ME. But that bit of the bible in context fully is saying don't stay mad at a person etc. so that you "don't give place to the devil" to tempt you to sin SO I AM HEEDING ephesians 4:26-28 while SPEAKING TO LUCIFER DAILY I'M STILL HEEDING THIS BIT OF THE BIBLE WHICH IS PROBABLY DRIVING YOU ALL INSANE...........Ephesians 4:26-28 " Be ye angry, and sin not: let not the sun go down upon your wrath: Neither give place to the devil. Let him that stole steal no more: but rather let him labour, working with his hands the thing which is good, that he may have to give to him that needeth." I agree with the idea very much so, don't steal (storage unit auctions are fair people quitted paying on their storage unit then it went up for auction), don't be mad, show mercy etc. etc....................

it's not "guarantee'd" that me and lucifer will do the "requireth" 

but from my side of things green light 👍

Ecclesiastes 3:15 "That which hath been is now; and that which is to be hath already been; and God requireth that which is past."

  "time and chance happeneth" to all but I do with me and lucifer would renew our wedding vows aka "the requireth" on earth. 

Ecclesiastes 9:11 "I returned, and saw under the sun, that the race is not to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, neither yet bread to the wise, nor yet riches to men of understanding, nor yet favour to men of skill; but time and chance happeneth to them all."

  Maybe that was a 1 time thing the day I heard lucifer praying for my salvation, with such a heart for me that was a real day it really happened real prayer lucifer prayed that I was able to hear THAT HAPPENED. 

 brian is "non-demonstrative" and "low libido" so far we going on 4 months no "late night activities" and he isn't concerned about that. 

  Meanwhile I'm often nearly battling yeast infections (like often on the fringe of getting a yeast infection the war is real) near menopause with no help from brian. And I battle feeling ugly a lot. He's left me feeling really insecure I'm talking the entire nearly 26 year marriage, cause he was a normal seeming guy at the beginning but shortly after we got married he started not paying any attention to me etc. etc. 

Since I prayed lucifer into my life in the year 2013 he's been 24/7 in my life

24/7

for real

24/7 

always

that's helped me

helped me stay sane

have a "sounding board" I ask him if things are a good idea or not I SURE DO

I do lucifer!!!!!!!!!!!!!

brian will get another chick after me one that doesn't like "late night activities, or to talk to her husband, or to be kissed on the lips, or told she's pretty, and be ignored most all the time" he'll find that chick and she'll be soooooooooooooo happy. 

and lucifer is able to highlight verses to me in the bible

lately he really "highlighted" 

Daniel 5:23

But hast lifted up thyself against the Lord of heaven; and they have brought the vessels of his house before thee, and thou, and thy lords, thy wives, and thy concubines, have drunk wine in them; and thou hast praised the gods of silver, and gold, of brass, iron, wood, and stone, which see not, nor hear, nor know: and the God in whose hand thy breath is, and whose are all thy ways, hast thou not glorified:

to have no other god before god including crystals

cause I was near hankering buying some more crystals BUT I NEED TO QUIT THAT

AND SO i AM AND AM BUYING DIAMOND PAINTING SHIZ INSTEAD

THAT IT'S OK I HAVE A FEW STONES FOR EMF PROTECTION BUT THAT THAT BE IT THAT I AIN'T WEARING STONES TO "PROTECT" ME 

WEARING STONES TO "PROTECT" MYSELF WOULD BE ME LIKE USING THE POWER OF SOMETHING OTHER THEN GOD AND IN SOME WAY HAVING A GOD BEFORE GOD POTENTIALLY IF I AIN'T GOING TO GOD AND GOING TO SOMETHING THAT AIN'T GOD.........................WHO'S 1ST THEN FOR ME GOD OR A ROCK????????????????????????????????????????????

WORRYING ABOUT WHO'S CURSING ME IS A PAGAN MINDSET

THAT AIN'T HOW US CHRISTIANS IS SUPPOSED TO THINK

WE SUPPOSED TO THINK

1,000 MIGHT DIE ON ONE SIDE AND 1,000 ANOTHER SIDE...............

Psalm 91:1-7 "He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust. Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence. He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth shall be thy shield and buckler. Thou shalt not be afraid for the terror by night; nor for the arrow that flieth by day; Nor for the pestilence that walketh in darkness; nor for the destruction that wasteth at noonday. A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee." Psalm 91:1-7 isn't saying "screw the word of god them rocks are powerful" 

2 Kings 17:39 "But the Lord your God ye shall fear; and he shall deliver you out of the hand of all your enemies." This is the gist of what god told me today "the download" I got today. That it don't matter how many people hate me etc. GOD WILL DELIVER ME. And someday lucifer is going to be HUGE IN MY LIFE, god is going to use him to "deliver" me out of the grasp of a lot of people someday I do believe I serious tons believe this......................

2 Kings 17:39 "But the Lord your God ye shall fear; and he shall deliver you out of the hand of all your enemies." This is the gist of what god told me today "the download" I got today. That it don't matter how many people hate me etc. GOD WILL DELIVER ME. And someday lucifer is going to be HUGE IN MY LIFE, god is going to use him to "deliver" me out of the grasp of a lot of people someday I do believe I serious tons believe this......................

and I'm dying my hair purple

yep

purple

LIFE SHOULD BE FUN 

going to check out a "saturday style church" 

cause I want to shabbat better

Isaiah 58:13-14 "If thou turn away thy foot from the sabbath, from doing thy pleasure on my holy day; and call the sabbath a delight, the holy of the Lord, honourable; and shalt honour him, not doing thine own ways, nor finding thine own pleasure, nor speaking thine own words:  Then shalt thou delight thyself in the Lord; and I will cause thee to ride upon the high places of the earth, and feed thee with the heritage of Jacob thy father: for the mouth of the Lord hath spoken it."

   So many are falling away from the church, talking smack on the tiktok of christianity........bible does speak of a "falling away"

2 Thessalonians 2:3 "Let no man deceive you by any means: for that day shall not come, except there come a falling away first, and that man of sin be revealed, the son of perdition;" - my son must be on this earth by now 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

  Well many of them didn't keep the sabbath THEY ATTENDED SUNDAY CHURCHES AND DIDN'T KEEP THE SABBATH MANY OF THEM DIDN'T SO OF COURSE "then shalt thou delight thyself in the lord" --------------- of course they didn't end up with no delight of themselves in christ Jesus they weren't keeping the sabbath cause the system is set up FOR PEOPLE TO FAIL AND GO TO HELL I'M TALKING ABOUT ALL THESE "SUNDAY CHURCHES" THAT GET PEOPLE OBSERVING A DAY THAT ISN'T THE SABBATH ------------ GOD'S BLESSING IS ON THE SABBATH DAY OBSERVING THAT DAY NOT SUNDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NOT SUNDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hello fellow jews out there we are supposed to become FILTH RICH LOOK HERE IT IS IN THE BIBLE....................

Romans 11:10-12 "Let their eyes be darkened, that they may not see, and bow down their back alway. I say then, Have they stumbled that they should fall? God forbid: but rather through their fall salvation is come unto the Gentiles, for to provoke them to jealousy. Now if the fall of them be the riches of the world, and the diminishing of them the riches of the Gentiles; how much more their fulness?" I KNOW HOW TO READ!

including palm beach pete who might be epstein

yep I'm a magical red head your terror in the night epstein, or maybe your not epstein and unicorn red heads are just people to you............

peep this................

my unicorn self did.............

as us magical redheads do................

NO HATE EITHER WAY YOU SHOULD QUIT TREATING KIDS AND WOMEN BAD IF YOU IS EPSTEIN KNOCK IT OFF REPENT MAN.

your nose don't look jewish palm beach pete - but if that's epsteins nose post a "look white opperation" damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn them expensive nose jobs can make a person WHITE ALL THE SUDDEN - NO HATE

I tithing, brian I asked him one day what a "tithe amount" would be for me and he said $30 a week............................

I'm about to try harder to shabbat better to!!!!!!!!!! 

TO RIDE THE HIGH PLACES OF THE EARTH................

don't get me loving satan "twisted" I love being filth rich when that happens to me finally and walking all the high places of the earth ya I'm gonna LOVE THAT. 

and I love jesus

and I love showing god the respect he deserves by shabbatting READ MY BIBLE THAT DAY FRIDAY NIGHT SUNDOWN TIL SATURYDAY NIGHT SUNDOWN SHOULD BE "GOD'S TIME" FOR ME NOT MY TIME

THOUGH MIGHT DO FUN THINGS ON SATURDAYS AND THAT DOES HAPPEN FOR ME

THAT I READ MY BIBLE OFTEN FRIDAY NIGHT FROM SUNDOWN TIL SATURDAY NIGHT SUNDOWN THAT THAT BE GOD'S DAY IN MY LIFE NOT MINE!

Isaiah 58:13-14 "If thou turn away thy foot from the sabbath, from doing thy pleasure on my holy day; and call the sabbath a delight, the holy of the Lord, honourable; and shalt honour him, not doing thine own ways, nor finding thine own pleasure, nor speaking thine own words: Then shalt thou delight thyself in the Lord; and I will cause thee to ride upon the high places of the earth, and feed thee with the heritage of Jacob thy father: for the mouth of the Lord hath spoken it."

AND AS FAR AS EVERYONE MIGHT BE UPSET WITH ME EVEN MY FAMILY AND MY HUSBANDS FAMILY EVERYONE NEAR LOOKS REAL UPSET WITH ME

CAUSE I'M ZEALOUS TO BE RICH AND FAMOUS AND LIVE ON TOP OF THE ENTIRE PYRAMID FOR AS LONG AS THERE IS A EARTH (YOU KNOW TIL LIKE YOU KNOW THE NEW HEAVEN EXISTS THEN LIKE THE EARTH PYRAMID SYSTEL WILL BE OVER THEN) 

GOD WANTS US ZEALOUS AND ON FIRE

SO I WOULDN'T POO POO FOREVER MY LOVING LUCIFER (WHICH PEOPLE HAVE ACCUSED ME OF LOVING LUCIFER FOR THE SAKE OF BEING RICH - WHATEVER) AND WANTING TO BE RICH AND FAMOUS FOR ALL OF ETERNITY.................

Revelation 3:15-17

King James Version

15 I know thy works, that thou art neither cold nor hot: I would thou wert cold or hot.

16 So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth.

17 Because thou sayest, I am rich, and increased with goods, and have need of nothing; and knowest not that thou art wretched, and miserable, and poor, and blind, and naked:

oh I THITHHHHHHHHHHHHHE

Just saying it, muslim faith looks good to me somedays. I'm not for neither the bashing of lgbtq or women in the bible 1 Timothy 2:9 "In like manner also, that women adorn themselves in modest apparel, with shamefacedness and sobriety; not with broided hair, or gold, or pearls, or costly array;" boo 1 Timothy 2:9 boo. In the muslim religion there's hope for a few women to make it to heaven at least. In christianity women are the weaker vessel, even though statistics don't line up with that, it's men doing most crimes, raping women, sexually assaulting little kids etc. the ladies some of them do wear makeup THEY WANT TO SCORE I HAVEN'F FOR 4 MONTHS NOW AND AM GIVING UP ON LIFE SO.............................

 Just saying it, muslim faith looks good to me somedays. I'm not for neither the bashing of lgbtq or women in the bible 1 Timothy 2:9 "In like manner also, that women adorn themselves in modest apparel, with shamefacedness and sobriety; not with broided hair, or gold, or pearls, or costly array;" boo 1 Timothy 2:9 boo. In the muslim religion there's hope for a few women to make it to heaven at least. In christianity women are the weaker vessel, even though statistics don't line up with that, it's men doing most crimes, raping women, sexually assaulting little kids etc. the ladies some of them do wear makeup THEY WANT TO SCORE I HAVEN'F FOR 4 MONTHS NOW AND AM GIVING UP ON LIFE SO.............................

I do put on some makeup when doing my realistate job etc. but I have given up on life! It's all over for me. I am in a sexless marriage and now I will just wither away and die and nobody will care because I have no value in up to 69% christian usa women are worthless sinful crap that must walk around "shamefaced" always even though THEY DON'T THEY AIN'T WALKING AROUND MAKING SOME FACE. Muslim women on the otherhand have to hold their heads low i think that is horrible they have to hold their heads low, terrible result of bashing women that is in my estimation..........but muslims hold out some women will be saved, there's 10 women at least they value somewhere on earth...........................

up to 69% christian in usa................

if your in one them marriages where your husband "cherishes" you enjoy that while you got it ladies cause you are of 0% value in the body of christ per the actual bible cause 1 timothy 2:9 is talking about all women that they all are weak sinful trash that should walk around always "shamefaced"

even though they don't 

they walk around like I do with normal face if your a christian lady your sinning bad cause your not supposed to have a normal face ever
or smile

just shamefadedness cause your such worthless sinful trash...................

"1 Timothy 2:9 "In like manner also, that women adorn themselves in modest apparel, with shamefacedness and sobriety; not with broided hair, or gold, or pearls, or costly array;"

enjoy it while you are "cherished" cause the bible literaly says your trash ladies

it really does

don't matter in the christian bible how much good you do either, the christian bible isn't like the Muslim bible that appears to hold out that 10 ladies might have value, like on earth, I'm talking besides the virgin mary. 

(video chalked with evp's from lucifer, satan, the devil just turn up the volume some) church is a trap, lady came up to me said hi, but from past experiences (from a messianic congregation I went to for awhile in vancouver until one night watching them live on my computer they said "she's hereeeeeeeeeee, sometimes someone will come to our church that we think is nice and they turn out to be a horrible bish" then he mentioned someone with pirate theme you tube channel will never be a leader in his church well at the time my you tube was pirate themed so besides maybe 3 people total were listening live to that service pretty sure he was talking to me) I know that if I only say hi back then I'm a horrendous bish, expecially if that's all I do every single time at church. Well I don't know what to say to the retired, the younger people with young kids also at a whole nother time of life then me, people actually my age also ruff, cause they are normies so living different then me....................they watch normal tv shows I watch ghost hunting shows, and realistate shows, and storage wars, sometimes the parking lot ticket show I dig some, sometimes cops..........BUT THESE AREN'T THE TYPES OF NORMIES TO WATCH ANY OF THAT, THEY ARE WATCHING BORING SHIZ AND LOVING IT I KNOW IT I CAN TELL BY THEIR BLAND CLOTHING THEY WEAR AND BLAND CARS THEY DRIVE I'M SMART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!......................CHURCH IS SUCH A TRAP FOR ME.....................I ALWAYS LOSE THERE I'M ALWAYS THE BISH...................................

(video chalked with evp's from lucifer, satan, the devil just turn up the volume some) church is a trap, lady came up to me said hi, but from past experiences (from a messianic congregation I went to for awhile in vancouver until one night watching them live on my computer they said "she's hereeeeeeeeeee, sometimes someone will come to our church that we think is nice and they turn out to be a horrible bish" then he mentioned someone with pirate theme you tube channel will never be a leader in his church well at the time my you tube was pirate themed so besides maybe 3 people total were listening live to that service pretty sure he was talking to me) I know that if I only say hi back then I'm a horrendous bish, expecially if that's all I do every single time at church. Well I don't know what to say to the retired, the younger people with young kids also at a whole nother time of life then me, people actually my age also ruff, cause they are normies so living different then me....................they watch normal tv shows I watch ghost hunting shows, and realistate shows, and storage wars, sometimes the parking lot ticket show I dig some, sometimes cops..........BUT THESE AREN'T THE TYPES OF NORMIES TO WATCH ANY OF THAT, THEY ARE WATCHING BORING SHIZ AND LOVING IT I KNOW IT I CAN TELL BY THEIR BLAND CLOTHING THEY WEAR AND BLAND CARS THEY DRIVE I'M SMART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!......................CHURCH IS SUCH A TRAP FOR ME.....................I ALWAYS LOSE THERE I'M ALWAYS THE BISH...................................

I meant to say "mausoleum" instead of morgues below....................

(turn up volume as near almost always to hear tons of evp's from Lucifer, satan, the devil)..................

I don't want friends at church

once I did 

not anymore

I just don't think I have enough in common with them

they hate satan 

I love satan

they hate new cars, mansion, money, boats ---------------- I THINK THOSE THINGS ARE GREAT THEY COULD GET ME FRIENDS FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Proverbs 19:4 "Wealth maketh many friends; but the poor is separated from his neighbour."

lucifer is nice he treats me well (I believe lucifer loves me more then anyone because he understands me more then anyone I do believe, the day he touched my leg my whole body relaxed FINALLY THAT CANNOT BE MAGIC, THAT DOESN'T EVER BESIDES THAT 1 TIME EVER EVEN HAPPEN TO ME - I'm telling you every cell in my body remembered him and RELAXED I'M USUALLY A SPAZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ)

none of you are believing that probably not

none of us probably believed rossane barr when she said they eat children now it looks to be very much so that rosanne was telling THE TRUTH!!!!!!!!!!!!

the people "out there" might be telling the truth

at least sometimes

not only do I hate "cancel culture" and further I believe many of the people you all cancel

especially if usa is indeed 63% christian how much more should the supposed "canceled" actually be UNCANCELLED SINCE HOW THE BIBLE SAYS TO WALK TOWARDS THOSE THAT ARE WITHOUT

1 Thessalonians 4:12 "That ye may walk honestly toward them that are without, and that ye may have lack of nothing."

  That could be "without" many christian things that would get a person "cancelled" like that girl that dared a lady that didn't know how to swim to go into the water for $20, and then that lady I guess drowned and died Natalie Renalds...............

people just want to cancel cancel cancel that girl but the bible says WALK TOWARDS

(I suspect people are supposed to talk about chrsitian values to natalie without using the bible so as to not look preachy, til natalie reynolds feels bad for what she did finally to that homeless lady) And then even I think stick around after that to and be mentors to natalie reynolds NOT CANCEL HER OR MAKE FUN OF HER AND MAKE HER LIFE A HELL WHICH LOOKS TO BE PEOPLE HAVE BEEN DOING TO HER ON TIKTOK I'VE SEEN HER TIKTOKS WERE SHE'S VERY DISTRESSED BY PEOPLE MAKING FUN OF HER ETC. WELL THAT AIN'T CHRISTIAN UP TO 69% OF YOU IN USA............................

MAYBE MY 2 PAGES OF BIBLE READING IS NOT ENOUGH?????????

1 John 1:7

But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, and the blood of Jesus Christ his Son cleanseth us from all sin.

but if my 2 pages of reading the bible a day ain't enough and I'm truelly without ----------- I roll around to the idea that christians should then walk towards me - but they don't not really merely looking at me while holding hands in a circle or saying high telling me your name and shaking my hand................that ain't really walk "towards me" is it?????????????????????

but a las...........................

I don't even blame them for nothing

they pry think I'm a bishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

but I don't blame them for nothing

I need to score 

and only 1 of my 2 husbands has a libido

you know which one does satan, lucifer, the devil 💓💓💓💓💓💓

gonna do it like....................

and that real freaky shiz I told you lucifer 😉 that all these normies would never, could never, would nevvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvver 

that's their problem when "they hear wind of THAT" OH THAT'LL TAKE THEIR MINDS ALL THE WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

THAT'S NEVER HAPPENED ON EARTH OR OFF EARTH EVER BEFORE THAT I KNOW OF

BUT THAT'S WHAT I LIKE

👍

YOUR IN LUCK YOU CAN AFFORD ME LUCIFER - DAMN THAT'S GOING TO BE EXPENSIVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

WHEN YOU ALL FIND OUT MY PLANS, YOUR GOING TO STILL HAVE TO HAVE NOOKY TIME WITH EACH OTHER AND TRY TO TELL YOURSELVE YOUR ENJOYING IT

BRACE YOURSELVESSSSSSSSSSSSS

The lady that touched the hem of Jesus's garment didn't care about "oh no they might know I did it and I'm bleeding it's so embarassing" NO SHE KNEW JESUS HEALS, GOD HEALS, SO SHE REACHED OUT HER HAND. So I'm tithing today yep cause I need my life to get SO MUCH BETTER. (my arthritis has improved past few days, course I ate a "edible" I only do that when I'm in crippling pain ...............I don't understand the science of why it works????????????????? I just know it works for me).........................

people might laught at me, cause I believe this and talk about it in video below but I'm CONVINCED I am plagued with a disease, that desease of not being filth rich it feels LITERALLY like a disease to me 

Proverbs 19:4 "Wealth maketh many friends; but the poor is separated from his neighbour." AND I NEED GOD TO HEAL ME BAD ASAP! (turn up the volume as always tons of evps from lucifer, satan, the devil I am sure he is my husband I'M VERY SURE OF THAT THESE DAYS!)............

 The lady that touched the hem of Jesus's garment didn't care about "oh no they might know I did it and I'm bleeding it's so embarassing" NO SHE KNEW JESUS HEALS, GOD HEALS, SO SHE REACHED OUT HER HAND. So I'm tithing today yep cause I need my life to get SO MUCH BETTER. (my arthritis has improved past few days, course I ate a "edible" I only do that when I'm in crippling pain ...............I don't understand the science of why it works????????????????? I just know it works for me).........................

 Today at church before we got there apparantly a guy was in front of the entrance it sounds like of the church with a sign, saying something about because vancouver heights united methodist church welcomes the LGBTQ that they are a abomination. 

  Well the bible says christians will look "worse then the house of beelzebub" LIKE ABOMINATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LIKE ABOMINATIONS!

Matthew 10:25 "It is enough for the disciple that he be as his master, and the servant as his lord. If they have called the master of the house Beelzebub, how much more shall they call them of his household?"

  And jesus said..................Isaiah 57:19 "I create the fruit of the lips; Peace, peace to him that is far off, and to him that is near, saith the Lord; and I will heal him." Isaiah 57:19 ain't saying don't let them satanic ones or them LGBTQ dont' let them in your church keep them trashes out...................god is powerful isaiah 57:19 is saying "I create the fruit of the lips" peace, to him that is far off, and to him that is near, saith the lord: and i will heal him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i LOVE THIS SONG........................................THIS GUY WANTED FRIENDS TO, WHO COULD BLAIM H IM, HE WANTED FRIENDS AND CHICKS (WELL THAT MAKES SENSE).................

Back to wearing copper jewelry even though I'm alergic to it (but if I keep the copper very clean, I don't get sores on my wrists much). I ain't one them "perfect style christians you know allllllllllllllll the christians around us all look to be absolutely perfect" Somedays I battle walking in faith, when I focus instead of on the word of god on my problems. Right now arthritis is KO'ING ME BAD. If I sit down to long, once I try and stand up pain everywhere, and my hands crippling pain, hurts to move my fingers and now it's affecting my wrists arthritis is few times I WASN'T ABLE TO USE TOILET PAPER, good thing I have a bidet on my toilet. GET BACK UP................................GET BACK UP WE WALK BY FAITH NOT SIGHT MY SIGHT SAYS I'M HATED, I'M IN PAIN, ETC.......................

 Not tithing this week pry, buisy doing other "good deeds" that's the case. Bought my mom's "mothers day gift"................................

I'm the black sheep of my family, my husbands family and the entire planet probably all of eternity -------------- THAT DON'T MEAN I'M STUPID................

Deuteronomy 5:16

Honour thy father and thy mother, as the Lord thy God hath commanded thee; that thy days may be prolonged, and that it may go well with thee, in the land which the Lord thy God giveth thee.

Back to wearing copper jewelry even though I'm alergic to it (but if I keep the copper very clean, I don't get sores on my wrists much). I ain't one them "perfect style christians you know allllllllllllllll the christians around us all look to be absolutely perfect" Somedays I battle walking in faith, when I focus instead of on the word of god on my problems. Right now arthritis is KO'ING ME BAD. If I sit down to long, once I try and stand up pain everywhere, and my hands crippling pain, hurts to move my fingers and now it's affecting my wrists arthritis is few times I WASN'T ABLE TO USE TOILET PAPER, good thing I have a bidet on my toilet. GET BACK UP................................GET BACK UP WE WALK BY FAITH NOT SIGHT MY SIGHT SAYS I'M HATED, I'M IN PAIN, ETC.......................

2 Corinthians 5:7 (For we walk by faith, not by sight:)
Galatians 3:11 "But that no man is justified by the law in the sight of God, it is evident: for, The just shall live by faith."

  I talked to god like must've been 30 minutes at least about arthritis problems I am battling at the moment. 

  I'm starting to ponder/theorize if this massive arthritis flair up wasn't exacerbated by the pollen count right now. Cause my allergies also have been going haywire, praying and sneezing and in pain last night. 

   I drank copper water last night to 

but this arthritis flair up is baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad

I was to much in pain and to exhausted to use my sauna last night (and my sauna is what I often use to be like a normal person not in tons of arthritic pain)

I went to bed early last night TOTALLY EXHAUSTED THANKS TO ARTHRITIS

  Everything around us is measured by "successes" people go get degree's and fancy jobs. People diet loose weight. 

   Read your bible get free'd from sin......................nobody might even notice that. I might not notice it with myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

  And further, sermons aren't doing much for me...............

people always talk about "revival" 

but people get saved just from hearing sermons joe smoe sermons according to the bible.............1 Corinthians 1:21 "For after that in the wisdom of God the world by wisdom knew not God, it pleased God by the foolishness of preaching to save them that believe." I recogn salvation has to do with positive thinking, what does joel osteen have his congregation do hold up their bibles and say "I am blessed, I am a child of god ---------------------" something like that they say, positive affirmations. 

  You can forgive people when your walking in faith - believing god for blessings, mercy good things. 

  So maybe sermons are doing something for me, even though I ain't like feeling convicted really ever anymore. 1 Corinthians 1:21 isn't saying "only them fire and brimestone sermons save souls" no it says 1 Corinthians 1:21 "For after that in the wisdom of God the world by wisdom knew not God, it pleased God by the foolishness of preaching to save them that believe."

  Hell I might go listen to Joel osteen in a second. 

I got to try and get my mind off all the pain I am in today.. 

My family hasn't been replying to any of my e-mails lately....and that is ok I suspected they weren't christians, though my sister not dna related to me might've been a christian for awhile????????????? 1 John 2:19 "They went out from us, but they were not of us; for if they had been of us, they would no doubt have continued with us: but they went out, that they might be made manifest that they were not all of us." Point is I think I ain't e-mailing them anymore I don't believe less something "important happens", people preach love, mercy, but what about just letting them go...............................letting them go.......................go sin........................go get money.............................families have "free choice" and THEY MIGHT NOT BE CHOOSING JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!...............(((though these days everyone pretends confesses to be christian and further looks to be you all BELIEVE THEM)))..........................only my not dna related to me sister goes to church rest of my family far as I know ain't gone to church in years so they already 1 John 2:19 anyways...........COURSE THEY ARE ON MY INSTAGRAM AND THEY LIKE AND COMMENT ON PICS AND I DON'T THINK THEY ARE GOING TO STOP SO THERE IS THAT LUCIFER!!!!!!!!!.....THOUGH I AGGREE WITH YOU MY LIKELY 1ST HUSBAND!......................LET EM GO...................

Turn up volume to hear tons and eons of evp's of lucifer, satan, the devil. Even lucifer confirming the day that I heard god tell a pastor one night at a revival service me and my family went to years ago...............lucifer confirming that.............................

I will be blessed tithing and donating to charities volunteering at the foodbank this shiz is coming back to me it's "win win win for me"................

Luke 6:38

Give, and it shall be given unto you; good measure, pressed down, and shaken together, and running over, shall men give into your bosom. For with the same measure that ye mete withal it shall be measured to you again.

I don't see none of this "good" coming back to me yet BUT IT'S GOING TO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My family hasn't been replying to any of my e-mails lately....and that is ok I suspected they weren't christians, though my sister not dna related to me might've been a christian for awhile?????????????  1 John 2:19 "They went out from us, but they were not of us; for if they had been of us, they would no doubt have continued with us: but they went out, that they might be made manifest that they were not all of us." Point is I think I ain't e-mailing them anymore I don't believe less something "important happens", people preach love, mercy, but what about just letting them go...............................letting them go.......................go sin........................go get money.............................families have "free choice" and THEY MIGHT NOT BE CHOOSING JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!...............(((though these days everyone pretends confesses to be christian and further looks to be you all BELIEVE THEM)))..........................only my not dna related to me sister goes to church rest of my family far as I know ain't gone to church in years so they already 1 John 2:19 anyways...........COURSE THEY ARE ON MY INSTAGRAM AND THEY LIKE AND COMMENT ON PICS AND I DON'T THINK THEY ARE GOING TO STOP SO THERE IS THAT LUCIFER!!!!!!!!!.....THOUGH I AGGREE WITH YOU MY LIKELY 1ST HUSBAND!......................LET EM GO...................

Psalm 23:1-6 "The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever."

I am beyond convinced lucifer sends me messages via https://www.tut.com/home/

though admidetly todays e-mails I received from www.tut.com/home/ might just be "coincidental" that I was thinking "ok my family ain't even e-mailing me back maybe I should quit even trying to e-mail them yet again cause I don't appear to be wanted"

though I ain't wanted at church either pretty sure about that cause I love lucifer so that means I'm worthless crap

though some value these days because I tithe and basically help fund the church....

I gotta to go........................we getting rid of chickens got to go catch them so that our yard will alllllllll have grass (I planted grass seeds - so my sons dog could have grass to run on ------------ now we want grass the whole back yard --------- we keeping the goats the goats aren't what was destroying the yard)

it was all our chickens and ducks - we got rid of our ducks yesterday

love my goats to much 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

buttercup even letting me pet him long time like 2 days ago then othello wanted to be petted to it's a challenge petting two goats at the same time but I manage

my parents didn't send me a fruit basket like they usually do for this last christmas not a fruit basket not a christmas card nothing, nothing from any of my family --------- doesn't that maybe mean they are done with me...........

but then not long ago they private messaged me my mom did............my sister sent a few e-mails but that was days and days and days ago ------------- several e-mails past that 0% of my family replied to

but then my mom sent private texts to me

and there's a "family chat window chat on instagram that nobody has said 0% on for awhile but my point

they didn't send me cards

but then e-mailed me several days ago

but now they've been quiet for weeks

and then my mom private messaged me on instagram

but for weeks NOTHING

maybe

maybe 

that's it

but this has gone on for years for me

and my brother he apparently still lives in salem never ever ever ever ever invited me and my family to see his house............he just ain't e-mailed me or talked to me for actual years and further him and his wife aren't even on the internet don't look to be besides he does have a e-mail and evidentally hates my guts for his lord jesus christ cause he also believes himself to be "christian" 

but I think it's best I don't e-mail them anymore they are DONE WITH ME it looks to be 

not not completely cause they still my instagram friends cept my brother and k- who attacked me and then I unfriended her tired of being attacked and she denies is and SHE BLOCKED ME

but they believe her looks to be and looks to be they believe SHE'S CHRISTIAN

I'M TRAPPED I'M NEVER ALLOWED OUT OF MY FAMILY THAT IS MY POINT

fine 

I get it they want to live

soon life will be fair to me

I will 

win

win

win