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Thursday, August 20, 2026

Confession I am more happily married then I sound like on my blog. USA is a country looks to be where all the women here are abused and beaten etc. And I'm already hated here, I try and blend in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT'S THE TRUTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But anyways I stand with Lindsay Clancy - OH I KNOW SHE'S INNOCENT THERE'S SO MUCH EVIDENCE POINTING TO HER INNOCENCE................if her husband and his new wife don't go to jail both of them and Lindsay isn't free at the end of this trial - SHAME ON AMERICA IF THAT HAPPENS SHAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!.........................

 Confession I am more happily married then I sound like on my blog. USA is a country looks to be where all the women here are abused and beaten etc. And I'm already hated here, I try and blend in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT'S THE TRUTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But anyways I stand with Lindsay Clancy - OH I KNOW SHE'S INNOCENT THERE'S SO MUCH EVIDENCE POINTING TO HER INNOCENCE................if her husband and his new wife don't go to jail both of them and Lindsay isn't free at the end of this trial - SHAME ON AMERICA IF THAT HAPPENS SHAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!.........................

Her case though has got me thinking more about how to be safer in this severelly dangerous country the USA where women are stolen, raped and killed all the time. 

Had brian find the best for the best price one them fitness style watches

cause some the evidence in Lindsay Clancy's trial that has came in her favour was that fitness watch THEY GOT FOOTAGE PEOPLE OF HER EX HUSBAND LIKE I THINK SLIGHTLY BEFORE THE MURDERS HAPPENED ------------ HOLDING HER FITNESS WATCH AT A STORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

(because at that point in time she was drugged up by her killer ex-husband and wasn't moving around) 

with that evidence alone -------------- her husband did it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 Court over! (for real) He did it!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyways I got to thinking well dang that is a real item that could help a lady just wearing a fitness watch. 

  But it's past if your husband is a murderer (I don't think brian is a murderer, I just bug out of my mind sometimes I'm not "popular" in his family etc. makes my worry about being murderer I LIVE IN A COUNTRY WHERE ALL THE WOMEN ARE BEING BEATEN, RAPED, AND KILLED) 

 The fitness watch brian bought me, battery lasts 30 days, you can make phone calls with it, takes photo's (photo's are evidence) --------------- if I were kidnapped, that's a watch potentially with photo's

if you take a few picks and then throw the watch somewhere for police to find -------------- bamn evidence, maybe your dead by then.................but maybe you took enough pics to get a killer in jail AND THAT'S A WIN! 

or if you were tied up thrown in a car, still write your name inside the watch band right.............

WRITE YOUR NAME INSIDE THE WATCH BAND USA LADIES

throw watch on ground after attempting to take "evidence picks" when they take you out the car to rape and kill you

hopefully then 

when cops find that watch 

a. they know you been there

b. maybe they can catch a killer

or

if anything they'll know where you died and can notify family of where you died and your body might be easier to find and recover - probably not though - you probably were dismembered and eaten ----------- but maybe they might find  your body??????????????????

And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
ps ladies in usa..............................I WANT TO LIVE AND I WANT YOU TO LIVE SO THIS INFO IS USEFUL TO.....................
IF YOU CAN FLEE FOR YOUR LIVES TO ANY OF THESE COUNTRIES THAT'D PRY BE GOOD PLAN..............I'M TRAPPED HERE........
I copy and past AI Overview..................
""""""AI Overview

""""Denmark consistently ranks as the number one safest country in the world for women, according to the Women, Peace, and Security Index. Other top-ranking nations with exceptional legal inclusion, low violence rates, and high societal safety for women include Iceland, Norway, Switzerland, and Finland. [1, 2, 3, 4, 5]

Top Safest Nations
Denmark: Leads global metrics for women's inclusion, justice, and security.
Iceland: Renowned for high gender equality and low violent crime rates.
Norway & Switzerland: Score highest for women feeling secure walking alone at night.
Features robust legal protections and social trust. [1, 2, 6]""""""""
and ps I don't want to go to church
and might not tithe not cause I don't believe in the eventually blessing power of god (right before I want to kill myself) Galatians 6:9 "And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not." - I do I believe in the blessing power of god right before just before I suicide myself. 
  This week I bought a giant face care kit thing, it's nice, witch hazel and some other ingrients my face is really liking. I'm taking a moment for "self care" this week. 
They say if you love yourself people will love you - I'm not sure all these saying are true people. It's hard out there...........especially if you a lady in usa america. Women do NOT have it good in america. Well these abrahamic religions really do cause men to often treat women bad............it's not a maybe.........................is it all men - no - but a lot of them
a lot of them read the bible
and decide "ep that's it I'm treating all women like 2nd class pieces of trash" and that's what happens AND NOBODY CARES IN THE BODY OF CHRIST IN AMERICA THIS ISN'T A COUNTRY THAT CARES ABOUT WOMEN
it cares about how many babies can we make 13-18 year old teens
FOX NEWS FOOTAGE BELOW, complaining about falling teen pregnancy rates which is something republicans are severelly concerned about and it's really upsetting them................
https://www.youtube.com/shorts/toBC5f7oFFs



Tuesday, August 18, 2026

Everything around us is FAKE LITERALLY THE BIBLE TELLS US EVERYTHING AROUND US IS FAKE only God, and Lucifer is real....................and we know now I deal with lucifer everyday though I trying to be saved and jesus does live in me. Proverbs 14:20 "The poor is hated even of his own neighbour: but the rich hath many friends."........................

though pets are often real.........this dog. reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllllllllllllllllllllll...............I have a hard time getting a day did, this corgie is so nice.....................he bites my pet goats often I forgive him daily, sweatest little loving maniac corgie 💓💓💓.......................
Everything around us is FAKE LITERALLY THE BIBLE TELLS US EVERYTHING AROUND US IS FAKE only God, and Lucifer is real....................and we know now I deal with lucifer everyday though I trying to be saved and jesus does live in me. Proverbs 14:20 "The poor is hated even of his own neighbour: but the rich hath many friends."........................
https://www.tut.com/
I really believe Lucifer created a portal to e-mail me via tut.com..................
Isaiah 14:12 "How art thou fallen from heaven, O Lucifer, son of the morning! how art thou cut down to the ground, which didst weaken the nations!"
lucifer is real ok, real. You might think he is a piece of trash most you do it do look to be NOT ME I THINK HE IS VERY VALUABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
the goodness of god is real to - but if your cut off it's over......................per the bible............
Behold therefore the goodness and severity of God: on them which fell, severity; but toward thee, goodness, if thou continue in his goodness: otherwise thou also shalt be cut off.
everybody dies that's real to........................even if for some that are immortal and never dieing it's a death inside the death that there is anything real out there besides god and satan......................it's all fake everywhere always........................................
dreams might as well die if you have some....................fake everywhere.......................................fake and evil...............everywhere.............people fake waiting wanting lusting fiending to screw you over........and they pry will.................AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN
BUT THE BIBLE SAYS BE HAPPY GO PRAISE GOD
LEAD TO SLAUHGTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.............................DAILY..........................
Romans 8:35-37 "Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter. Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us." - have a horrible day then I guess so you can keep on experiencing "the goodness of god" 👍
crystals are pry fake to but somedays they feel like my hommies - let a girl have hope!





Monday, August 17, 2026

Last night I heard sneezing and giggles outside around 10:30 p.m., so I go walk past the front door and it's wide open and brian is sitting there and I ask him "what you doing" he says it was to hot inside and he was enjoying the fresh air - SINCE WHEN - I'M ABOUT TO BE MURDER PROBABLY AND NOBODY CARES...........AND I THINK I REALLY AM LIKE DEMON POSSESSED AND NOBODY CARES.........................BUT ALSO I'M ABOUT TO BE PROBABLY MURDERED AND NOBODY CARES........................

My latest diamond painting : )...................

this pic is "zoomed back" for full effect..................

 as always nearly turn up the volume to hear evp's from Satan, Lucifer, the Devil (oh it's him trust and know that  - that is the devil 1 billion percent, he is nice to me................sure I don't have anything on earth to proove that he's nice to me, just my word)

(brian's best friend only said him and his wife were loners and didn't want friendds, but they basically don't want to be friends with me, and then there has to be a reason............he also mentioned jews in a severelly negative way was alluding more then alluding that they were to blaim for everything that has gone bad everywhere on earth -------- so he could be hating me hard MERELY FOR MY RACE) But also I believe those two snubbed me because they don't think I'm satanic enough even though guarantee'd I speak to satan much more then they do, I speak to satan 24/7
------- I'm basically always snubbed and people always are sure they are better then me
fine be better then me
but my beef has always been I SHOULD HAVE A CHANCE AT LIFE TO (just because you don't deem me as good as you - I should have a chance at life TO)

My mom thinks nobody wants brian but that isn't the case! He goes with me to church always, WOMEN WANT A CHRISTIAN GUY. And he told me that he don't have jesus living in him, he don't have no "personal relationship with the lord" he has never felt the precense of the holy spirit he told me he don't need jesus christ or the bible that he is sinless and awesome and to great and awesome to even need a savior or the bible that that is he tells me for weak lowly people like myself. 

fine if that's all the case and he's sinless and awesome always he don't buy me flowers, kiss me on the lips but maybe 10 times a year tops, only wants "late night activities" about 1 time every 3 months is the current average, he don't take me on dates (our son is always with us when we go out and do shiz). NOTHING HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO FEEL SECURE?????????

AND THEN LAST NIGHT I HEAR A YOUNG LADY GIGGLING OUTSIDE AND THEN SEE BRIAN SITTING OUTSIDE NO PHONE HE WAS JUST SITTING THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

and i'm supposed to feel great about life and safe??????????????????

(day before heard a lady talking, and as I walk past brian he shuts off whatever this lady was speaking through - like instantly - like "oops my wife is walking past gotta shut this off")

Brian only kisses me on the lips maybe 10 times a year, I know I sound crazy this blog post........I am aware that everyone wants to label me off a harlot of 0 value, satanic, a bish, and dimiss me. Especially people want to label me as crazy..................but this shiz is hard on my mental health that happens to me, THAT DOES HAPPEN TO ME. 

things aren't going good in my life

they aren't looking good things ain't in my life - besides my "mystery future career" I ain't wanting to jinx. 

We label women all to often as crazy - meanwhile a lot of women are being kidnapped, and killed, etc. etc. IT COULD BE SOME WOMEN ARE GOING THROUGH SHIZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I like to hope lucifer is my 1st husband 

that there's some hope for me to feel safe in the future

but maybe I'm not safe

maybe I never was????????

I am the "man in the box" theough I am a born girl but people spit on me, and they bash me...................................I don't deny jesus as my lord and savior that bit of the song I don't relate to the rest of it I do...............




Friday, August 14, 2026

I want to be a feminist I really do, it's just I've always thought like a cheetah, cougar, leopard, lion - those just go and grab meals. If your a "meal grabber" YOUR GOING TO GET THAT MEAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!........................ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE FOR HE WHO BELIEVETH - BELIEVE LADIES BELIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEVE................................Mark 9:23 "Jesus said unto him, If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth."......................

 I want to be a feminist I really do, it's just I've always thought like a cheetah, cougar, leopard, lion - those just go and grab meals. If your a "meal grabber" YOUR GOING TO GET THAT MEAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!........................ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE FOR HE WHO BELIEVETH - BELIEVE LADIES BELIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEVE................................Mark 9:23 "Jesus said unto him, If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth."......................

I stink following jesus today (it's a typical day for me)..........................

but will read the bible and am rather "poor in spirit" these days yes. We gots us poor in spiritians, we gots to read our bibles or listen to a sermon -------- try and get our "daily bread" 

Matthew 5:3 "Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven."
Matthew 6:11 "Give us this day our daily bread."
Luke 11:3 "Give us day by day our daily bread."

  Pry just a slice of bread to, but we gots to relish the slice. yes, relish that nice slice of bread. Our daily bread 💓💓💓💓
in my estimation the greatest thing about following jesus
is the slice of breaders make it to heaven 
everyone around me so "big time" or trying seem so "big time" 
"""""""blessed are the poor in spirit; for theirs is the kingdom of heaven"""""""""""" - them ones, the slice of bread ones
my hair these days.................................................
um....................
might should become a hairstylist at this point ummmmmmmmmmmm..................
I DID THIS TO MY HAIR YA I DID THIS.............ALL IT.................(I freaking love it)...................
off to get a piece of bread 
but just a nibble 




  

Wednesday, August 12, 2026

Jesus did come that we have life more abundantly DRUGS ARE BAD (I mean alcohol and marijuanna etc.) most of them harm people's brain power. Recently I DID GET SMARTER.........and I pinpointed how. HARATAKI...................jesus wanted us to have more brain power, you life is more abundant more smarter!!!!!!!!!!! John 10:10 "The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly." I'm more zealous then ever to not do any drugs anymore (except occasional wine bibbing maybe if at a fancy party)......................

drugs there still is this whatever - this "if you do drugs your cool" - thing out there
but being smart if that wasn't cooler being smart
it might end up being cooler in thr long run
or at least tie with drugs cause if you were a drug dealer you would maybe make as much money as someone who was very smart
but most people that drink alcohol and do marijuana AREN'T DRUG DEALERS! (they just getting ripped off - loosing brain power)
Jesus did come that we have life more abundantly DRUGS ARE BAD (I mean alcohol and marijuanna etc.) most of them harm people's brain power. Recently I DID GET SMARTER.........and I pinpointed how. HARATAKI...................jesus wanted us to have more brain power, you life is more abundant more smarter!!!!!!!!!!! John 10:10 "The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly." I'm more zealous then ever to not do any drugs anymore (except occasional wine bibbing maybe if at a fancy party)......................
(evp's turn up the volume from Satan, Lucifer, the Devil below as near usual ---------- I thank god I'm a mystic.................I haven't though I don't think gotten any downloads from god lately..................I'll be all holy spirit filled and have "special dreams" somedays and wake up with entire blog posts run to my computer and type it all down.............bible verses I didn't even know about I'll type in the keywords on bible gateway and there they are sure enough) 
yes I did do a few marijuana edibles in the past (brian bought them for me, and 1 time it was due to extreme seatbelt pain post a car accident we were in so I think that's "justifiable", and the other 1-2 times was extreme spinal arthritis flair ups which as most people know on my blog I now deal with those via ice baths, ice baths turns out work the best for all kinds of arthritis in my estimation)
but I'm over drugs and alcohol - I might drink some wine in the future to be polite
but have more brains IS BETTER
harataki helps your pineal gland work better which regulates melatonin 
melatonin............
""""AI Overview

Melatonin does not directly boost general daily intelligence or cognitive performance in healthy people. Instead, it acts as a hormone that regulates sleep cycles and provides antioxidant and anti-inflammatory protection to brain cells. By improving sleep and reducing cellular stress, it indirectly supports overall brain"""""
"""Well sheri if you have so many brains why are you bff's with lucifer then he wants to eat all of us for lunch haven't you read the bible??????????""" 
um usually that logic would be 100%........................
for 1
perfect love casteth out fear that #1
#2................all things are possible for he who believeth that's #2
so that's #1 and #2 whether my memories are real or not
for 
#3 well if you heard #3 you'd want to smack me so I bestest not talk
honest I don't know why the rest of the body of christ is such satanic panic chickens for

Psalm 23:3-5 "He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over." Come on down lucifer lets get the party started, the music has been prepared 👍👍👍
""""boooooooooooo sheri your supposed to be all cowering in terror like the rest of the body of christ, and satanic panicing 24/7 harrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrd"""" hahahahahhahahah I must confess, my favorite part of the movie Edward Scissorhands is the part where the church lady is playing the organ satanic panicking for her liffffffffffffffffffffffffe I LOVE THAT PART OF THAT MOVIE BAD AND I HAVE EVER SINCE IT CAME OUT IN THE LIKE 80'S 💓💓💓💓💓💓 ALL THE ORGAN LADY SCENES I LOVE IT......................

1 Peter 5:8
Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:
"ok sheri you have to be at least a little bit of a comedian even to this day and you comedy time has gotten very skilled" - I do love the devil and that isn't part of my comedy act. But more brain power is "life more abundantly" 
the job I ain't saying what it is - takes math skills it sure does. I'm going slow with my studies......................memorizing everything real good......................







Tuesday, August 11, 2026

"Thou shalt suffer a witch no to live" is OLD TESTIMENT. New testiment is about loving people definately including LGBTQ. It definately looks to be the Vancouver Heights United Methodist Church believes I am cursing all their church members ill and dead looks about 3-4 of them a week. But I AIN'T. They ain't going to believe me but I ain't I don't wish death on anyone that was OLD ME WHEN I WAS IN THE OCCULT THIS IS NEW IN CHRIST ME RIGHT NOW. Ephesians 6:12 "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places." """sheri it doesn't even matter us christians know your way buddy buddy with Lucifer, Satan, the Devil and for that we hate your guts and you must die"""".......................

 I tried to grow moringa tree's before and failed, because I didn't have enough days of like 85% heat they need to grow some "heat zone" well now I have 2 growing from seed...........(maybe 3 but the other one not pictured might just be a weed)...........these two though are 100% moringa tree's.................they are staying in the greenhouse pry for a long time I gots to replicate the weather conditions of africa as much as possible!!!!!!!!!!!!!........................I'm about to baby these tree's a heap.........................

"Thou shalt suffer a witch no to live" is OLD TESTIMENT. New testiment is about loving people definately including LGBTQ. It definately looks to be the Vancouver Heights United Methodist Church believes I am cursing all their church members ill and dead looks about 3-4 of them a week. But I AIN'T. They ain't going to believe me but I ain't I don't wish death on anyone that was OLD ME WHEN I WAS IN THE OCCULT THIS IS NEW IN CHRIST ME RIGHT NOW. Ephesians 6:12 "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places." """sheri it doesn't even matter us christians know your way buddy buddy with Lucifer, Satan, the Devil and for that we hate your guts and you must die"""".......................

sure you are more holy vancouver heights united methodist church then me, and so is the rest of the body of christ if that is the thing that will make you not want to kill me?????????????

Vancouver Heights United Methodist church has a you tube channel, they hardly get any traffic at all WHICH IS GOOD, CHRISTIANS ARE SUPPOSED TO BE SEVERELLY LOWLY ON EARTH. (hated) Look I'll even try and get you some traffic.................

https://www.youtube.com/@vancouverheightsumc7682

("""""""oh sheri this is rich now""""""""""""") hahahahhahahahahahah

  This here is satan's world. (((2 Corinthians 4:4 "In whom the god of this world hath blinded the minds of them which believe not, lest the light of the glorious gospel of Christ, who is the image of God, should shine unto them.")))))) Hardly nobody ESPECIALLY NOT CHRISTIANS, get up high "for no reason at all" ----------- it's plenty possible to "get up high on this earth" though 

tithe

keep the shabbat

traffic to my blog right now
not me saying "great things" about myself in a way cause this is lucifer's world and I am bff's with lucifer, satan, the devil (turn up volume for video above safe to say tons of EVP's from satan, lucifer, the devil - oh for real people : ) 
A lot more then the hate for lgbtq needs to end in the body of christ, hate for witches, hate for satan worshippers etc. ALL THEM SOULS THAT NEED SAVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M TELLING THE TRUTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
  If they go to church they there for a reason bible says............John 6:44 “No one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws them, and I will raise them up at the last day." And if Vancouver Heights United Methodist comes to my house, I let them in if they is playing nice.........otherwise this song applies..............................
💓💓💓💓💓💓Lucifer💓💓💓💓💓💓
tithe for this week might rob god next week who knows????????????
(brian says if I tithe $30 dollars a week, that's makes up my total tithe amount for the month $120 per how much money I make doing realistate sign job).................
Malachi 3:7-9 "Even from the days of your fathers ye are gone away from mine ordinances, and have not kept them. Return unto me, and I will return unto you, saith the Lord of hosts. But ye said, Wherein shall we return? Will a man rob God? Yet ye have robbed me. But ye say, Wherein have we robbed thee? In tithes and offerings. Ye are cursed with a curse: for ye have robbed me, even this whole nation."
I'm not cursed this week 😁👍


Monday, August 10, 2026

Sorry for almost sounding like I'm miserable following christ (even though I am at the moment very miserable scale of 1-10 we 10ing- Jesus Christ is lord and I accept him as lord...........but for me following jesus hasn't been the "fun times" the rest of the body of christ makes it out to be). I have no pr team and no helium to inhale 24/7 to be accurately mega chippery to make everyone happy.....................and I quit the marijuanna edibles and alcohol (might wine bib in future) cause it messes with my brainpower..............200 drugs I need both the name brand and the generic brand names memorized pretty soon............memorized for good at that........................

Sorry for almost sounding like I'm miserable following christ (even though I am at the moment very miserable scale of 1-10 we 10ing- Jesus Christ is lord and I accept him as lord...........but for me following jesus hasn't been the "fun times" the rest of the body of christ makes it out to be). I have no pr team and no helium to inhale 24/7 to be accurately mega chippery to make everyone happy.....................and I quit the marijuanna edibles and alcohol (might wine bib in future) cause it messes with my brainpower..............200 drugs I need both the name brand and the generic brand names memorized pretty soon............memorized for good at that........................

The skirt I sewed last night 😊...........................

"you’ve never really asked for much.    What’s up with that?" I'm not allowed to ask for anything James 4:3 "Ye ask, and receive not, because ye ask amiss, that ye may consume it upon your lusts." Besides for salvation for people, and myself that's all I'm allowed to pray for PER THE BIBLE.....................and then the bible tells me and humans that I'm supposed to be deliriously happy all the time (it's a sign of complete damnation evidentally if the bible is to be believed and is true if a christian ever is "grumpy") Galatians 5:22 "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith," So with "food and raiment" be contenet happy happy happy 24/7 oh and I'll be hated by all men especially my family according to the bible HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY............................

Matthew 10:33-35 "But whosoever shall deny me before men, him will I also deny before my Father which is in heaven. Think not that I am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword. For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law."
E-mail I swear it's lucifer, satan, the devil e-mailing me from this site https://www.tut.com/
turn up volume, as near usual this is full of evp's of Satan, Lucifer, the Devil - oh it's him ok whom I thoroughly believe is my 1st husband...................................(when I married brian I had amnesia - then I did pray lucifer back into my life 2013 and a bit after that regained my memories)..............
the elder of the apostolic christian church of america said I'm the "worst ever" many times while I was crying on the church floor. 
I'm a desperate sinful bish born that way at birth according to the bible and christianity
THAT IS WHAT WE ARE TOLD IN CHURCH (we're born with sinful natures and basically born sinners)
I can't pray for no items on earth that would be my "worst ever" desperate bish self asking amiss
and I will receive not then nothing like I am now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EVEN THOUGH I DON'T ASK BECAUSE MY SOUL IS SO DEPRAVED AND IN THE LAND OF SINFUL DESPERATION FROM BIRTH. 
US CHRISTIANS are supposed to be happy with "food and raiment" DELIRIOUSLY HAPPY
Galatians 5:22 "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith,"
ASK FOR NOTHING FROM GOD BESIDES SALVATION AND SALVATION FOR PEOPLE WE KNOW ELSE WE ARE "ASKING AMISS" BECAUSE ACCORDING TO CHRISTIANITY PROBABLY --- NAME EDITED OUT --- MOST OF US ARE DESPERATE HORRIBLE SINNERS with me being "the worst ever"
1 Timothy 6:8 "And having food and raiment let us be therewith content."
we are supposed to be mega happy 
being lead up as sheep to the slaughter DAILY.....................
Romans 8:35-37  "Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us."
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY AND THAT IS LIFE "MORE ABUNDANTLY" FOR OUR DESPERATE SINNERS FROM BIRTH LUSTFUL SO LUSTFUL WE CAN'T NONE OF US IT DON'T LOOK TO BE GOING BY WHAT THE BIBLE SAYS PRAY FOR NOTHING BUT SALVATION FOR OURSELVES AND OTHER PEOPLE SINCE IF WE PRAY FOR ANYTHING ELSE THEN THAT WE ARE ASKING AMISS ---------- WE ARE SUCH DESPERATE SINNERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! James 4:3 "Ye ask, and receive not, because ye ask amiss, that ye may consume it upon your lusts."
--- But I do pray something every prayer nearly. That me and lucifer do all the "requireth" and have many friends, family, mansions and live a happy life and eternity together forever. I do pray that near every prayer. Even though that is me "going to far"
got to have money to have friends that's why I pray me and lucifer have many mansions he's so hated and I'm so hated it'll take maybe 10 mansions!
The poor is hated even of his own neighbour: but the rich hath many friends.
got stung bad by a bee few minutes ago have ice one it in agony don't think he liked my song choice...............so this one then..............
nice safe song lucifer can't be upset about.............in jumanji ya jumanji..................I'M IN JUMANJI IT JUST HASN'T HAPPENED TO ME YET.................
brian says he goes through everything I go through
well I need friends I haven't had friends for years now
and I need family and my family also isn't around I get likes on pictures and small e-mails from them every now and then
sure they want to talk on the phone to me (I loath talking on the telephone they know why, cause one my friends from high school used to refuse to hang up the phone, and repeatedly I was like ------- I'm done talking we done talked about every topic there is yo) Many times I had to hang up the phone, I didn't enjoy it, I like being polite. 
so talking on the phone became torture to me in my brains
lucifer is my hope!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my hope for a happy future
and then brian will get his family back, and his friends back
and things will hopefully be great for us BOTH!!!!!!!!!!! but hopefully especially me cause I done BEEN THROUGH ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT AND IT'S ALL MY FAULT I'M TOLD BY SOCIETY BECAUSE I AM A NO VALUE BABY HAVING BABY HAVER THAT ISN'T SUPPOSED TO SPEAK EVER
even though the bible done says....................
Having a good conscience; that, whereas they speak evil of you, as of evildoers, they may be ashamed that falsely accuse your good conversation in Christ.
us christians are supposed to prediminately have "good conversation in christ" PER THE BIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
Seeing then that all these things shall be dissolved, what manner of persons ought ye to be in all holy conversation and godliness,
MY BLOG part ministry at times, but more then that JUST HOW I LIVE AND DO LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cause my whole life I done read 1 peter 3:16 and 2 peter 3:11
hopefully tithe coming soon.................................................