"Thoughts become things hugh"????????? Thinking about lucifer and his men raining down from heaven soon real good then....................................real like 100% mennnnnnnnnnnnnn, THEY EXIST LADIES, with libido's they WANT TO DO LATE NIGHT ACTIVITIES (you won't even need lingerie with these guys ladies THEY REAL 100% MENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN)!!!! THEY MOW LAWNS LADIES!!!! NOT JUST WHAM BAMN THANK YOU MAM EITHER!!! THEY HAVE TESTOSTERONE IN THEIR BODIES STILL THE FULL AMOUNT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....................now I ain't saying there ain't men on earth with testosterone in their bodies and real libido's on earth cause one day when I was a sigh spinner a entire firetruck of men drove real slow past me shirtless they were shirtless doing strip tease dancing for me all over the back of that firetruck shirtless firemen doing full magic mike strip show, must've been easy 30 shirtless firemen........................then went home that night to brian his "low libido" self he thinks that's great thing and is happy with 1 time a month at most maybe twice a month if he's feeling frisky............

LADIES WOMEN GIRLS THAT LOOK LIKE JEZEBELS WEARING MAKEUP JEWELRY TAKING LOTS OF SELFIES ------- maybe they like me. Just wanting attention, needing attention cause they neglected bad and the horror if you call them trash, sluts, jezebels...........THEY MIGHT BE LIKE ME MANY OF THEM NEGLECTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHEN YOU MADE TO FEEL UNPRETTY ALL THE TIME WHAT IS THE NATURAL THING TO DO - TO ME THAT IS PUT ON JEWELS, PUT ON MAKEUP LOOK NICE YOUR PRETTY MYSELF AND TELL MYSELF THAT EVERYDAY HOPEFULLY I BELIEVE THAT SOMEDAY.

- I had to henna my hair my hair's thinned out and the hair parting was wide (now it's normal looking now that I henna'd my hair) but I was looking BALD

- and there's one line left side of my face at my lip..................it ages me bad I can hide it ya I can but only a little bit

- I feel mostly old and discarded..............because I am old and discarded pretty much

 "Thoughts become things hugh"????????? Thinking about lucifer and his men raining down from heaven soon real good then....................................real like 100% mennnnnnnnnnnnnn, THEY EXIST LADIES, with libido's they WANT TO DO LATE NIGHT ACTIVITIES (you won't even need lingerie with these guys ladies THEY REAL 100% MENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN)!!!! THEY MOW LAWNS LADIES!!!! NOT JUST WHAM BAMN THANK YOU MAM EITHER!!! THEY HAVE TESTOSTERONE IN THEIR BODIES STILL THE FULL AMOUNT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....................now I ain't saying there ain't men on earth with testosterone in their bodies and real libido's on earth cause one day when I was a sigh spinner a entire firetruck of men drove real slow past me shirtless they were shirtless doing strip tease dancing for me all over the back of that firetruck shirtless firemen doing full magic mike strip show, must've been easy 30 shirtless firemen........................then went home that night to brian his "low libido" self he thinks that's great thing and is happy with 1 time a month at most maybe twice a month if he's feeling frisky............

my e-mail today from https://www.tut.com/

(which I believe for me, maybe me alone, I been receiving e-mails from lucifer, satan, the devil that this is a portal) I think some the e-mails I get the generic ones, but some them I strongly believe are being just sent to me via lucifer. I don't have proof.............just it's more then coincidence many a day thoughts in my brains will end up in the tut.com e-mail for the day.....................wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy to much to be "coincidence" in my estimation........................

my "earlier insistence" Lucifer is referring to (and using the words "earlier insistence" wouldn't that be odd wordage to use for a e-mail mailed out to the masses??????????????????) But for me that wordage MAKES GOOD SENSE CAUSE I DO INSIST FOR MONTHS THIS HAS BEEN ON THE FEATURED POSTS LINK...................................LINK I MADE TO A SONG I MADE THIS TITLE IT BEEN UP FOR MONTHS ON MY BLOG.......................

LOOK look like I said brian will get the chicks, there are chicks out there that don't want to be told they are pretty or kissed on the lips

or taken to fancy dates

or bought flowers, or jewelry

and only want nooky time once every month or so they can't be bothered with being treated well by a guy that would be RIDICULOUS. 

and those ladies will love the hell out of brian

I need more tlc then what brian has given me the past 26 years

T - L - C

I'm talkin

T - L - CCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCC

I need to go to fancy restaurants and eat foods I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT THEY ARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND I NEED TO DO THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I need to walk into tiffany's in portland and just buy something! I NEED TO DO THAT. 

THINKING

THINKING

THINKING

brian he's nice

it's not that he ain't nice (he is a grouch often - but nice if that makes sense) 

he just has like he says no libido and he's happy about that

and he knows even he said he knows I'M THE OPPOSITE OF NO LIBIDO he knows that

he don't have it in him to meet my needs

he don't have it in him to meet my needs and he ain't about to try to do that

did he abandon me??????????

no he's living right here

he just made me breakfast

but lucifer

lucifer

is a real libido guy

he is the same equal to a firetruck of 30-40 shirtless guys HE CAN GET SHIZ DIDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

lucifer your people like want you to 

you ONLY HAVE REASON AND INCENTIVE TO COME TO EARTH

THOUGHTS.............................................................................

THOUGHTS...................................................................................................................

THOUGHTS............................................................

Giant confession and copy and paste a e-mail I sent my family few minutes ago: I don't try and serve people at church, I like don't even try, cause I have severely what I call "jew logic" I AM ADMITTING THIS AND CONFESSING THIS BOTH. I can read the bible verses Galatians 5:13 "For, brethren, ye have been called unto liberty; only use not liberty for an occasion to the flesh, but by love serve one another." Jew logic is oh I'll keep the shabbat harrrrrrrrrrrrd, and then I even then pray to god like "dear god, in case you didn't notice I kept the shabbat this weekend you know know what that means, in jesus name we pray amen" - but hear me out, hear me out you to could have "jew logic" """"""sheri that sounds aweful"""""" but it ain't cause if you keep the shabbat you will "delight yourself in the lord" and AND "feed thee with the heritage of Jacob thy father" LET ME PUT YOU ALL ON TEAAAAAAAAAAAA "feed thee with the heritage of Jacob thy father" IS THE SWANK BOMB --------- SHIZ OF THE EARTH THAT'S WHERE IT'S AT YO'SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.................................

(The book behind the front one I ain't started reading that one yet, but the front book ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo I'm almost done with chapter one and that THING IS GETTING GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD 👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍) I pry about to study for a bit, and then read that more 😁💓💓💓💓💓💓

Giant confession and copy and paste a e-mail I sent my family few minutes ago: I don't try and serve people at church, I like don't even try, cause I have severely what I call "jew logic" I AM ADMITTING THIS AND CONFESSING THIS BOTH. I can read the bible verses Galatians 5:13 "For, brethren, ye have been called unto liberty; only use not liberty for an occasion to the flesh, but by love serve one another." Jew logic is oh I'll keep the shabbat harrrrrrrrrrrrd, and then I even then pray to god like "dear god, in case you didn't notice I kept the shabbat this weekend you know know what that means, in jesus name we pray amen" - but hear me out, hear me out you to could have "jew logic" """"""sheri that sounds aweful"""""" but it ain't cause if you keep the shabbat you will "delight yourself in the lord" and AND "feed thee with the heritage of Jacob thy father" LET ME PUT YOU ALL ON TEAAAAAAAAAAAA "feed thee with the heritage of Jacob thy father" IS THE SWANK BOMB --------- SHIZ OF THE EARTH THAT'S WHERE IT'S AT YO'SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.................................
e-mail I just sent my family......................I just copy and paste..............................(did add to this e-mail though I didn't e-mail my family quite all of this).......................
    Today was church picture day at vancouver heights united methodist church, they made sure I was staying for picture time...............they played the pretty bell music when I got out the car to they know I likes the pretty bell music................
the elder pastor like said the doctor told him he don't have long to live
so he like dubbed the main pastor um like "the" pastor or whatever um, and gave him a jewish prayer shawl they called tallit's - that a jewish couple that had passed away that the elder pastor was good friends with gave him before they passed away like their main tallit
And they had the catholic candles they know I likes that THEY KNOW IT, they bought them recently after I was going on and on and on about the catholic church on my blog. Some people lighted prayer candles at the catholic prayer candle thingy today to!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's really pretty candle thingy they bought. Adds to the atmosphere I believe! Which the bible says that churches should be houses of prayer. Matthew 21:13 "And said unto them, It is written, My house shall be called the house of prayer; but ye have made it a den of thieves." I honest believe it would be in the BEST INTEREST for all churches that are christian to have prayer candles or at least kneeling things to pray...............prayer should be something happening at churches a lot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Then went to the bookstore nearby and I bought 2 romance novels $1 each : ) (they have a dollar book rack)
When we went to barnes and noble what 2 days ago.............there were so many $18-20 dollar books in the romance novel area.......................I ended up buying a $8 romance novel at barnes and noble and that was a cheap book there..............inflation has done inflated to much that's crazy money.
But started reading one the dollar books cause brian went into harbor freight to look for better like sanding supplies for the boat they didn't have what he wanted..................well dannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng I bought a good $1 book!!!!!!!!!!! I was quickly like - what this was only $1?????????????????????????????????????
And that bookstore has a bookstore cat me and brian got to pet : )
I don't know if I posting up a blog post today or will let it marinate?????????????? But today at church they talked about serving one another. And I literally often like I can read right, I can read the bible verses Galatians 5:13
"For, brethren, ye have been called unto liberty; only use not liberty for an occasion to the flesh, but by love serve one another."
But I have "jew logic" I'M ABOUT TO CONFESS THAT ON MY BLOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Jew logic is oh I'll keep the shabbat harrrrrrrrrrrrd, and then I even then pray to god like "dear god, in case you didn't notice I kept the shabbat this weekend you know know what that means, in jesus name we pray amen"
"sheri you do not" ---------- yes I do I'll say a prayer just like that
pry copy and paste this just blog this : )
but this time I added that I gave a "tithe amount" to for the week..........make sure god's keeping track real good : )
but the tithe isn't so much a part of my "jew logic" as much as keeping the shabbat is
cause you keep the shabbat the bible promises you going to love praising god, going to church pry, and walk all the high places of the earth well that's it THAT'S IT
WHICH MIGHT === MONEY BUT MAYBE NOT???????????????
EITHER WAY THE HIGH PLACES OF THE EARTH - THAT'S THE PLOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I DON'T WANT TO JUST "VOTE" VIA A BALLAT...............NO........................I WANT TO CONTROL THE BALLOT WITH MY THOUGHTS I TELL PEOPLE ABOUT BEFORE THE BALLOTS ARE EVEN MADE OR VOTING EVEN BEGINS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (that's what can happen for people walking the high places of the earth I am saying)
So many they not heard - they invisible nearly ------------ THEY VOTE THAT'S IT THAT'S THEIR BIG MOMENT TO BE HEARD, I WOULD GO LOCOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO IF I WAS ONE OF THEM PEOPLE MY WHOLE LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I NEED TO BE HEARDDDDDDDD

Isaiah 58:13-14 "If thou turn away thy foot from the sabbath, from doing thy pleasure on my holy day; and call the sabbath a delight, the holy of the Lord, honourable; and shalt honour him, not doing thine own ways, nor finding thine own pleasure, nor speaking thine own words: Then shalt thou delight thyself in the Lord; and I will cause thee to ride upon the high places of the earth, and feed thee with the heritage of Jacob thy father: for the mouth of the Lord hath spoken it."

and often on saturday we do go to "fun stuff" but moment I get home especially this weekend, it was church church church church time online for me - THANK GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tootles

that's pry a blog post to

ps though I don't know if weird al has "jew logic" at all.........this is my song choice.................

the idea is in this song to roll with the gansters............

""sheri your literally not going to say that out loud and literally type that on your blog "" 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

hey there's high places on the earth

and they rolllllllllllllllllllllllllll

"Serve" here don't mean never do good to one another for the bible says to wash one anothers feet. But if my memories are real DON'T WORSHIP ME, DON'T SERVE ME INSTEAD OF GOD (do some good to me in the future for jesus THAT WOULD SHOCK ME CAUSE THAT DON'T HAPPEN TO ME but that'd be ok) Luke 4:8 "And Jesus answered and said unto him, Get thee behind me, Satan: for it is written, Thou shalt worship the Lord thy God, and him only shalt thou serve." We supposed to wash each others feet, but serving god THAT'S THE MAIN POINT THERE.......................

 "Serve" here don't mean never do good to one another for the bible says to wash one anothers feet. But if my memories are real DON'T WORSHIP ME, DON'T SERVE ME INSTEAD OF GOD (do some good to me in the future for jesus THAT WOULD SHOCK ME CAUSE THAT DON'T HAPPEN TO ME but that'd be ok) Luke 4:8 "And Jesus answered and said unto him, Get thee behind me, Satan: for it is written, Thou shalt worship the Lord thy God, and him only shalt thou serve." We supposed to wash each others feet, but serving god THAT'S THE MAIN POINT THERE.......................

video that inspired this post....................
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dJFk-WZzH0E
Bible says in the end days people will be lovers of self, well what do people that love themselves want ====== WORSHIP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WORSHIP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!2 Timothy 3:2 "For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy,"

Melanie Martinez I do believe is making a point in this song

that people are worshipping pastors out there

it's more then just Kathryn Krick.......................AND YOU ALL SHOULDN'T WANT TO DO THAT don't matter how many good deeds they do or great things they say..............

And Melanie wants to be treated well  ---------- same melanie, same....................

besides I take way to many selfies for you to "worship" me 😁

for days now (except 1) I been like 15-20 minutes using a swing board don't know what they called with the arm attachments IT'S WORKING I'M GETTING SKINNY.................(mostly it's working cause I can do it with ease while watching fluffy shows on netflix though going to have to click hulu soon).............

Donated my "tithe amount" (brian says my tithe amount would be $120 for the whole month, and I break that up in installments of $30 per week when I am tithing) To Vancouver Heights United Methodist church because I WANT TO LOVE AND SUPPORT THE LGBTQ "in deed and in truth" People are getting tattoo's and everyone is ok with that in the body of christ - well why would be LGBTQ be any different.......it ain't...............IF JESUS INSIDE YOU YOU A NEW CREATION THE BIBLE SAYS 2 Corinthians 5:17 "Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new." A new creation that loves people and cares about the planet WHETHER GAY OR STRAIGHT!!!!!!!!! Galatians 3:28"There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither bond nor free, there is neither male nor female: for ye are all one in Christ Jesus." Galatians 3:28 doesn't say "ep we can't have them gays, lesbians or trans as saved christians" NO IT DON'TTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT...................................................

 Donated my "tithe amount" (brian says my tithe amount would be $120 for the whole month, and I break that up in installments of $30 per week when I am tithing)  To Vancouver Heights United Methodist church because I WANT TO LOVE AND SUPPORT THE LGBTQ "in deed and in truth" People are getting tattoo's and everyone is ok with that in the body of christ - well why would be LGBTQ be any different.......it ain't...............IF JESUS INSIDE YOU YOU A NEW CREATION THE BIBLE SAYS 2 Corinthians 5:17 "Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new." A new creation that loves people and cares about the planet WHETHER GAY OR STRAIGHT!!!!!!!!! Galatians 3:28"There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither bond nor free, there is neither male nor female: for ye are all one in Christ Jesus." Galatians 3:28 doesn't say "ep we can't have them gays, lesbians or trans as saved christians" NO IT DON'TTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT...................................................

Video me reafirming that I am going with lucifer, satan, the devil when he gets here. And brian I love both my husbands but brian he be ok, he will get plenty chicks pry ones with "low libido" like him and only want nooky time once every 2-3 months and don't want to be told they is pretty, or kissed on the lips but maybe 1 time a year etc. (as almost always turn up the volume to hear evp's from Satan, Lucifer, the devil)........................................and I had just woke up when I filmed this no makeup on, hair is a mess...............................

Matthew 16:23

But he turned, and said unto Peter, Get thee behind me, Satan: thou art an offence unto me: for thou savourest not the things that be of God, but those that be of men.

and I do hope that god will because I tithed this week will give me mental strength to memorize all the 40+ medical terms I need to memorize by the end of next week (I can't stay on module 1 forever). 

I don't want to rip off god

why

cause I wouldn't want god to rip off me

but that said 

the flesh is weak

THE FLESH IS WEAK

Matthew 26:41 "Watch and pray, that ye enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak."
THE FLESH IS WEAK, THERE ARE MANY ITEMS ALL THE TIME ON OUR TV'S, our instagram, our tiktok inticing us to buy things
there are sales often at stores often
often lately
and
and
to top it off I'M A SCATTER BRAIN OFTEN

but also time

it takes time to tithe to click the donate button

Luke 8:14

And that which fell among thorns are they, which, when they have heard, go forth, and are choked with cares and riches and pleasures of this life, and bring no fruit to perfection.

we can get "choked with the cares and riches and leasures of this life" luke 8:14 isn't a verse that only happens I believe to only a "few people" I suspect it happens to MOST CHRISTIANS. 

BUISY WORLD

LOT GOING ON

I'm just so beyond puzzled about the "goings on on earth" in the body of christ how much everyone that isn't me pretty well hates lucifer and his men and wants harm to happen to them. I will always for all eternity love and support ESPECIALLY LUCIFER, and his men, cause on earth if we find a person that has been locked up in a basement maybe no air conditioning there, no bathrooms - we gasp. BUT THEN YOU ALL THINK PEOPLE BURNING IN HELL IS JUST THUMBS UP AND LOVING OF GOD AND JUST WONDERFUL????????????????????????????????????????????????????..........................I'll never pry have friends again cause I will always love and support the devil, lucifer satan HE CARES, HE LOVES PEOPLE, HE DOING A JOB........................

 Update 7/20/2026 my latest diamond painting, nice colors on this one................

I'm just so beyond puzzled about the "goings on on earth" in the body of christ how much everyone that isn't me pretty well hates lucifer and his men and wants harm to happen to them. I will always for all eternity love and support ESPECIALLY LUCIFER, and his men, cause on earth if we find a person that has been locked up in a basement maybe no air conditioning there, no bathrooms - we gasp. BUT THEN YOU ALL THINK PEOPLE BURNING IN HELL IS JUST THUMBS UP AND LOVING OF GOD AND JUST WONDERFUL????????????????????????????????????????????????????..........................I'll never pry have friends again cause I will always love and support the devil, lucifer satan HE CARES, HE LOVES PEOPLE, HE DOING A JOB........................

2 Corinthians 4:8 "We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair;"

  While I'm "digging a hole for myself" more then I already have hahahahahahahahha 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

  Sure there are times to "praise god" when you maybe get healed. And you know "ok that is a miracle" Cause my knee when it busted open.................it was to the like bone. Well knee's are the worst places to "bust open" if you all didn't know, I was in pain a lot for days, prayed and prayed, maybe prayed harder then I EVER HAD................just needing relief sooooooooooooooo dang bad from the pain I was feeling on my knee. Well it healed up all the sudden within 3-4 days every day I'd see more layers of skin closing up I was watching this miracle happen real time and knee's aren't supposed to heal that fast AT ALL. 

   That knee should've been healing and I should've been in pain for weeks. 

  So I'm saying there is reason to praise god right............and He is merciful. 

   so there is reason to love God right ------- that's what I'm sayin

BUT THERE IS ALSO I BELIEVE BILLIONS OF REASONS TO LOVE SATAN, LUCIFER, THE DEVIL WHO WAS THE 1ST PERSON IN ETERNITY UPSET WITH GOD'S "RULES" and as I recall I recall God made hard to keep rules for the angels of heaven and if they didn't keep them they were penalized

well

god does penalize some people that sin...............

Exodus 34:7 "Keeping mercy for thousands, forgiving iniquity and transgression and sin, and that will by no means clear the guilty; visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children, and upon the children's children, unto the third and to the fourth generation." Thirst and to the fourth generation of many grandkids potentially that did no "big sin" yet they are having to suffer the wrath of god for something their great grandpa or grandma did real bad. Well it's penalities like that that god also made (from my memories ok) for the angels of heaven and LUCIFER WASN'T FOR THAT, AND ISN'T FOR THAT. 

LUCIFER CARES ABOUT THE NEEDS OF MEN......................

Mark 8:33 "But when he had turned about and looked on his disciples, he rebuked Peter, saying, Get thee behind me, Satan: for thou savourest not the things that be of God, but the things that be of men."

understand me loud and clear

I don't hate god, somedays things are real bad for me on earth and I find myself not in the "sing christian songs mood" 

and I'm deemed a crazy pychopath looser because I love the devil and think lucifer caring about the "things that be of men" Mark 8:33 IS AWESOME YOU ALL THINK THAT IS HORRIBLE. 

if there was a lady or guy locked in a basement and found - lucifer would care

I think there is many multiple and unending reasons to love LUCIFER, SATAN THE DEVIL 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

AND THAT MOST OF YOU CHRISTIANS APPEAR TO HATE HIM SO BAD YOUR GOING TO LET YOUR PASTORS FOWL MOUTH THE DEVIL IT DO LOOK TO BE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and looks to be most you want lucifer treared limb to limb AND THAT BOGGLES ME TO NO END THE DEVIL CARES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"LADIES AND GENTLEMEN PRETEND YOU DIDN'T EVEN GO TO SHERI'S BLOG POST SHE IS SPOUTING OFF RIDICULOUSNESS US CHRISTIANS BESIDES SHERI IF SHE IS A CHRISTIAN - SUSPECT THAT IS - OF COURSE WE ONLY WANT TO HATE LUCIFER FOR ALL ETERNITY AND TEAR HIM LIMB FROM LIMB FOR OUR LORD JESUS CHRSIT BECAUSE HOW DARE HE CARE ABOUT MEN AND ANYTHING ANYTHING BUT """for thou savourest not the things that be of God, but the things that be of men."""" THAT ASSHOLE SON OF A BITCH BASTARD" ---------------- What the hell rest oaf the body of christ????????????????????? ARE YOU SERIOUS??????????????? WAIT YOU AREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Warning please do NOT read this blog post if you are either poor (and I mean anything but filth rich) or suicidal (basically all the humans that aren't filth rich cause the bible is true) Proverbs 14:20 "The poor is hated even of his own neighbour: but the rich hath many friends." Money is EVERYTHING! And I feel bad for the homeless cause some them didn't have money to go to college and/or brainpower to make it in the big $$$ careers AND THEN THEY ARE DOOMED.....................................unless scientist can figure up a way to inject more braincells into some of them CAUSE MONEY IS EVERYTHING................................if you don't have money you won't probably have friends or family and mental health requires at least friends AT LEAST FRIENDS...................

 Warning please do NOT read this blog post if you are either poor (and I mean anything but filth rich) or suicidal (basically all the humans that aren't filth rich cause the bible is true) Proverbs 14:20 "The poor is hated even of his own neighbour: but the rich hath many friends." Money is EVERYTHING! And I feel bad for the homeless cause some them didn't have money to go to college and/or brainpower to make it in the big $$$ careers AND THEN THEY ARE DOOMED.....................................unless scientist can figure up a way to inject more braincells into some of them CAUSE MONEY IS EVERYTHING................................if you don't have money you won't probably have friends or family and mental health requires at least friends AT LEAST FRIENDS...................

AND THEN ON TOP OF IT PEOPLE WALK PAST THE HOMELESS SEE THEM MANY OF THEM "OUT OF THEIR MINDS" OR OUT OF THEIR MINDS ALSO ADDICTED TO DRUGS.................AND THEY THINK them to be lesser peons they can't be bothered by. MEANWHILE THEY MERELY HAD BAD LUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ecclesiastes 9:11 "I returned, and saw under the sun, that the race is not to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, neither yet bread to the wise, nor yet riches to men of understanding, nor yet favour to men of skill; but time and chance happeneth to them all." They were not born into a rich family, or or or they didn't have the brainpower to get the high end degree's/jobs. BAD LUCK THEY GOTS BAD LUCK. 

  But I worry about myself, who will I become when I'm "rich enough to finally have friends"???????????????? Do I want to be that person???????????????????????????????? DO I EVEN WANT TO BE THAT PERSON 

BUT I HAVE NO CHOICE

BECAUSE TO STAY SANE ONE NEEDS FRIENDS OR FAMILY FAMILY IS OUT FOR ME I AIN'T BEEN INVITED TO A FAMILY GET TOGETHER EASY OVER 5 YEARS THEY JUST QUITTED HAVING FAMILY GET TOGETHERS

MUCH LIKE MY HUSBANDS sisters so refused to let me hang out with them when they went to the bars drinking together that the solution was to quit hanging out together 

they literally aren't hanging out together anymore so that they don't have to hang out with me

and I tried to tell brian "that's bad brian you should have a problem with that" ----------- he says no that's fine. 

  I getting a sailboat looks to be next week and that is something I really want to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and am starting school online hopefully soon 

and I do have the "brain power" 

I got a cna certification but decided I didn't want to wipe butts all day long for not enough money

...............I'm not saying what health care profession I'm aiming for but it makes more money then a cna cause I need to be rich to have friends finally!

am about to e-mail my parents who have gotten onto me for past gift that they didn't think was me spending enough money

my mom said "really honey only a -------------------"

she told me I should be embarassed to of bought her the gift I did

so I going to ask them what expensive gifts they want for christmas and buy them sooner so that the stress and pressure of adequately $100's of dollars of gifts isn't hanging over my head for the rest of the year I'm already stressed out it's to much stress 

man this was a edifying blog post.................

Ephesians 4:16

From whom the whole body fitly joined together and compacted by that which every joint supplieth, according to the effectual working in the measure of every part, maketh increase of the body unto the edifying of itself in love.

Good news, helping one our realistate buddies out this week and about to earn extra money just in the knick of time cause I badly need to buy a boat FOR MY SANITY. I need to get away from people I'm starting to loose my grip on sanity again, the neverending being judged because I'm to fat, or if I'm to skinny, or not "saintly enough" or maybe judged cause I look demon possessed, and I also believe I am with a fallen angel BUT I LIKE IT, and judged if I'm to pretty, or not pretty enough and IT NEVER ENDS AND PEOPLE ARE NEVER HAPPY NEVVVVVVVVVVVER (especially they aren't happy with me if they is christian, but some non-christians appear to hate me to wazuu as well)..........................................

 Good news, helping one our realistate buddies out this week and about to earn extra money just in the knick of time cause I badly need to buy a boat FOR MY SANITY. I need to get away from people I'm starting to loose my grip on sanity again, the neverending being judged because I'm to fat, or if I'm to skinny, or not "saintly enough" or maybe judged cause I look demon possessed, and I also believe I am with a fallen angel BUT I LIKE IT, and judged if I'm to pretty, or not pretty enough and IT NEVER ENDS AND PEOPLE ARE NEVER HAPPY NEVVVVVVVVVVVER (especially they aren't happy with me if they is christian, but some non-christians appear to hate me to wazuu as well)..........................................

Even if your not a men pleaser which I clearly ain't a men pleaser.........its exhuasting always being hated for jesus christ. 

Matthew 10:33-35 "But whosoever shall deny me before men, him will I also deny before my Father which is in heaven. Think not that I am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword. For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law."

we all should love each other MUCH MORE especially in usa

we have a bacteria over most usa most usa has neverending diahrea right now

we have inflation

we have people unable to afford rent THAT WORK JOBS and so they are living in cars 

data centers sucking up towns after towns after towns of water

  I need to boat it's a calling I feel

I feel lead to boat

some people don't feel when they out on the water in a boat "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh this is where I belong" 

but "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh this is where I belong" is what I feel when I'm out on the water. 

it's been like that for years for me now

maybe the "negative ions" in the air when boating charge my soul????????????????

I am over 1/4th native american counseling does 0% for my mental health

boating does everything for my mental health in my estimation 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

And facts..................

I'm native american ok over 1/4th to me 45%-50% suicide rate that makes going to counseling a worthless activity in my mind

I won't even pick a school online unless is has a 80% pass rate or higher many the online schools let you know the pass rate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you all think 45%-50% of people going to counseling of the suicide people's like dieing that that is a good rate - good value for your money??????????????????????

I suspect many a people would do better doing something OTHER THEN COUNSELING FOR THEIR MENTAL HEALTH

or maybe do counseling cause it might have 50% benefit for 50% of people??????

and do gardening

paint

maybe even become a stripper?????????????

DON'T SIT AROUND KNOWING "IT'S NOT GREAT MY HEADSPACE AIN'T" AND DO NOTHING

DO SOMETHING OTHER THEN SUICIDE ABOUT THAT IS THE PLOT I FEEL

cause even if I wasn't "saved" let's play that out in our brains still I'M USEFUL I'M GOING TO TALK SOMEONE INTO "KEEPING GOING" 

IF I TALK 1 HUMAN INTO KEEPING GOING IN LIFE THEN I HAVE PURPOSE 

YOU HAVE PURPOSE AS WELL KEEP GOING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For comfort and reassurance: "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." - Isaiah 41:10 [1]
For a promise of companionship: "Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, 'Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.'" - Hebrews 13:5 [1, 2, 3, 4, 5]
For when you feel unseen: "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." - Psalm 34:18 [1, 2]
For a prayer in isolation: "Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted." - Psalm 25:16