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Sunday, September 6, 2026

No friends, no family not really....................not feeling like a belong at church either - depressed definately depressed (a new career isn't going to "cure" me either I know the cure TRACK!!!!!!!!!!!!). But I lost myself, having kids, getting married.....really moving away from my usa olympics track friends that I had in Arizona. I'm going back to my previous self ==== track.........................................brian cleaning the garage found a old pic of me, I was a skeleton, that was just my 24/7 look back in the track days........................don't click on this blog post if you had a ed or if you had a ed......................cause I was kate moss at least thin pry thinner................

 ps though picture below isn't me with a eating disorder according my parents I am a chronic liar and I only lie and only lies come out of my worthless piece of trash mouth. My family never thought I had a eating disorder and I was never ever in any eating disorder counseling or nothing at all, CLEARLY CAUSE THEY THOUGHT I WAS NORMAL. (besides like 10 years ago I think it was, I went to a eating disorder support group and brian went with me, he sat for 2 hour or so while a bunch of young ladies talked about food battles - he chimed in to about his disordered eating, binge eating disorder). I had trouble 1 day at the dentist they refused to work on my teeth until I promised to go to eating disorder counseling whatever, they thought I had bulimia. I didn't have bulima, if they merely would've said the word annorexia I might've said ok I'll go to counseling. They worked on my teeth, cause I definitely have never been bulimic!!!!!!!!!!!!! Only have thrown up a handful of times in my life - never enjoyed that, I hate throwing up a ton. 

like most people that have battled annorexia - it comes and goes for me

often it shows up in my life when I feel my life is spiraling out of control................

Annorexia is scary for me though I'm not making fun of ed's though I have to take everything in my life a little "lightheartedly" cause honest, honest sometimes I'll get into "weird eating ruts" I don't like to use the word annorexia......................when it has happened to me in the past I didn't realize it often (or not for a LONG TIME).  My favorite meal, and it's always going to be my favorite meal, a diet cola, 1 slice of cheesecake, and m&m's (that's pry demented, that's my favorite meal) I allow myself to eat that meal a few times a year to.........cause it makes me HAPPY. That I can get away with that and the scale not move up............and then knowing everyone around me is sweating every lb on their bodies - they walking around SWEATING THEIR LIVESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. 

NEW BIG CONTENDER FOR MY FAVORITE MEAL......................I looooooooooooooooooooove going to Olive Garden 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓 I get spaghetti (and I don't care that their spaghetti is kind of fast food junk I LOVE THAT) And then I love getting a giant pot of coffee, and just drinking, drinking, drinking, drinking, driking coffee whilst eating some spaghetti.............I really enjoy that...................and I feel great after eating a plate of spaghetti and drinking a entire pot of coffee. THAT IS PROBABLY NOT NORMAL EATING BEHAVIOR - I BARELY REALIZE THAT.

No friends, no family not really....................not feeling like a belong at church either - depressed definately depressed (a new career isn't going to "cure" me either I know the cure TRACK!!!!!!!!!!!!). But I lost myself, having kids, getting married.....really moving away from my usa olympics track friends that I had in Arizona. I'm going back to my previous self ==== track.........................................brian cleaning the garage found a old pic of me, I was a skeleton, that was just my 24/7 look back in the track days........................don't click on this blog post if you had a ed or if you had a ed......................cause I was kate moss at least thin pry thinner................

I was this skinny fun person once that LOVED going for runs
lost myself
lost myself in the worst way
--- note the birkenstalk shoes the hippy shoes - I used to wear them a lot and wear hippy clothing all the time
the bible makes it out that if you loose everything your going to gain everything
but what if
sometimes
you just find yourself a loser????????????
Mark 10:29-31 "And Jesus answered and said, Verily I say unto you, There is no man that hath left house, or brethren, or sisters, or father, or mother, or wife, or children, or lands, for my sake, and the gospel's,  But he shall receive an hundredfold now in this time, houses, and brethren, and sisters, and mothers, and children, and lands, with persecutions; and in the world to come eternal life. But many that are first shall be last; and the last first."
I gotta get back to myself
decreasing so jesus increases I BELIEVE CAN BACKFIRE
John 3:29-31 "He that hath the bride is the bridegroom: but the friend of the bridegroom, which standeth and heareth him, rejoiceth greatly because of the bridegroom's voice: this my joy therefore is fulfilled. He must increase, but I must decrease. He that cometh from above is above all: he that is of the earth is earthly, and speaketh of the earth: he that cometh from heaven is above all."
you CAN run - and read your bible
you can life weights - and read your bible
etc. 
bible, bible, bible style people have no friends
And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake: but he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved.
hobbies are good
hobbies are awesome they are the best
so what if I quickly end up looking annorexic again (maybe end up annoriexic again???????). If I ain't running fast the wind hitting me hard due to how fast I am running for miles and miles and miles often --------- WHAT AM I EVEN DOING THEN?????????????????????????????
all the suffering of the flesh - that's just misery
damn myself let the wind hit your face again whilst running fast AT LEAST!
NOBODY WANTS TO BE AROUND SOMEONE SAD. NOBODY. Why would though, I even want to be around myself sad? No I need to run again, like I used to....................fast, often, and very skinny!
read my bible to - sure, sure, sure



Saturday, September 5, 2026

If I'm bearing good fruit why witch hunt me why even do that then? Matthew 7:20 "Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them." Forget my race, forget what races I am or what races you are THAT DON'T MATTER, OR WHAT SEX I AM OR SEX YOU ARE ALSO DOESN'T MATTER (I'M A GIRL, BUT ALSO LGBTQ CAN BE SAVED YOU ALL GET HUNG UP ON THAT FOR NO GOOD REASON) BY THEIR FRUIT YOU SHALL KNOW THEM -------------------------- THAT'S IT WITCH HUNT OVER WHAT WITCH HUNT YOU ALL THINK YOU DOING I DONATE TO CHARITIES ALWAYS AND LOVE PEOPLE SURE DO - I FULL OUT ADVOCATE FOR LGBTQ, WOMENS RIGHTS, etc....................

 If I'm bearing good fruit why witch hunt me why even do that then? Matthew 7:20 "Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them." Forget my race, forget what races I am or what races you are THAT DON'T MATTER, OR WHAT SEX I AM OR SEX YOU ARE ALSO DOESN'T MATTER (I'M A GIRL, BUT ALSO LGBTQ CAN BE SAVED YOU ALL GET HUNG UP ON THAT FOR NO GOOD REASON) BY THEIR FRUIT YOU SHALL KNOW THEM -------------------------- THAT'S IT WITCH HUNT OVER WHAT WITCH HUNT YOU ALL THINK YOU DOING I DONATE TO CHARITIES ALWAYS AND LOVE PEOPLE SURE DO - I FULL OUT ADVOCATE FOR LGBTQ, WOMENS RIGHTS, etc....................

https://givingittogod.blogspot.com/2022/10/what-if-hijab-isnt-all-bad-in-iran-iraq.html

Matthew 5:9
Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God.
lot of you all look to be need sage and to sit and hear some singing bowls at a buddhist um convent and I hope you all go do that to. Hates bad that's bad for your cortisol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Wednesday, September 2, 2026

Nevermind it's alright to be married (though verbal and physical abuse is bad)..........I just got to become rich so I can finally have a friend that's all. Brian does cook me breakfast, but I've also heard from brian's sisters that I'm treated "like a princess" one family beach vacation I put a plate in the sink when people were supposed to hand wash each plate and put it in the dishwasher and I didn't know that rule had happened in the last 30 minutes or whatever so 2 them chewed me out to helllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll - and brian defended me and they told him that he treated me like a princess........................so evidentally women are treated bad out there bad bad. I ACTUALLY JUST NEED TO BECOME RICH.................................SO I CAN FINALLY HAVE SOME FAKE FRIENDS.........SOME FRIENDS I'M SAYING BUT FAKE CAUSE NOBODIES REAL OUT THERE...................we got christians pretending to worship satan, and satan worshippers pretending to be christiand THE MASCARADE IS OUT OF HAND. And most importantly christians claiming to love people but then when it comes time for the church potluck NOBODY EVEN WANTS TO TALK TO ME.............running to the tables and food, I sitting there like "this is it" "this is one the greatest most loving churches"? Some real, some maybe happy to see me. I wish more real!!!!!!!!!! Ladies men do blame us for everything it don't work for us to turn around and then blame men for everything..............if you married to them 20+ years they must be doing something good!!!!!! LET'S QUIT THE BASH EACH OTHER, LOVE EACH OTHER INSTEAD (unless your being physically or verbally abused and fear for your life and have a safe place to flee)...............................

ps..........I nothing but love republicans, the republicans of my family appear to hate me. I just merely have a "strong opinion" over republicans many of thems idea that women should be forced to have babies (which is what happened with roe v. wade being overturned 2022) so that they can still get social security benefits. I hear them talk!!!!!!!!!

like I hear them talk! All the traffic post this blog post is tremendously down right now (people getting offended by fumes in the air at this point for their lord "jesus christ")................I don't think forcing women to have babies is holy like the republicans most of them deem that holy - I have a entirelly different viewpoint about that. If they going to have their women should always be forced to have babies and raped little girls opinion and tell me and other people cause that's holy cause "life is holy" --------- then I should be allowed also to have my own opinion that is opposite of their opinion cause I believe living life should be more #1 concern ----------- then unborn lives. If a lady or girls health or they about to die if they have a child --------- ABORTIONT THAT'S THE HOLY THING TO DO ABSOLUTELY IN MY FULL ESTIMATION. (and most republicans would disagree with me since they loves women most of them do being forced to have babies)................the whole idea of roe v. wade being overturned I deem unholy though as I discuss below AND PEOPLE LOOK MAD AT ME................(WELL THEM BEING MAD ISN'T CHRISTIANITY)...................

them being mad at me isn't a "fruit of the spirit" Galatians 5:22 "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith," Hubba Bubba Galatians 5:22 want to date me, yes, cool, what day are we wearing pink to support Lindsay Clancy?????????????

the ikea shelves are now in the computer room, garage junk isn't in them yet, but dang this is looking nice already 😁👍👍👍👍💓💓💓💓 IKEA💓💓💓💓

(brian's getting me tinnitus relief over the counter pills - I have bad cold, and my ears are ringing loud, and one ear is plugged up.............I think some the wax has loosened a bit)

 Nevermind it's alright to be married (though verbal and physical abuse is bad)..........I just got to become rich so I can finally have a friend that's all. Brian does cook me breakfast, but I've also heard from brian's sisters that I'm treated "like a princess" one family beach vacation I put a plate in the sink when people were supposed to hand wash each plate and put it in the dishwasher and I didn't know that rule had happened in the last 30 minutes or whatever so 2 them chewed me out to helllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll - and brian defended me and they told him that he treated me like a princess........................so evidentally women are treated bad out there bad bad. I ACTUALLY JUST NEED TO BECOME RICH.................................SO I CAN FINALLY HAVE SOME FAKE FRIENDS.........SOME FRIENDS I'M SAYING BUT FAKE CAUSE NOBODIES REAL OUT THERE...................we got christians pretending to worship satan, and satan worshippers pretending to be christiand THE MASCARADE IS OUT OF HAND. And most importantly christians claiming to love people but then when it comes time for the church potluck NOBODY EVEN WANTS TO TALK TO ME.............running to the tables and food, I sitting there like "this is it" "this is one the greatest most loving churches"? Some real, some maybe happy to see me. I wish more real!!!!!!!!!! Ladies men do blame us for everything it don't work for us to turn around and then blame men for everything..............if you married to them 20+ years they must be doing something good!!!!!! LET'S QUIT THE BASH EACH OTHER, LOVE EACH OTHER INSTEAD (unless your being physically or verbally abused and fear for your life and have a safe place to flee)...............................

but I am in some respects the looks to be 1 and only exception to a rule

this "pick a side" rule

cause I'll always try and follow jesus christ the lord - be saved

and 

love Lucifer, Satan, the Devil

I get to do that. 

you all get to hate the devil - I DON'T LIKE YOU DOING THAT AT ALL AND I WILL FIGHT FOR THE RIGHTS OF LUCIFER! 

Many christians are anti LGBTQ

I refuse to be anti LGBTQ as well

I also don't agree with abortions being illegial - abortions are terrible but people should have free choice................forcing women to have babies shouldn't be viewed as "holy" less you are also buying them cars, houses, like every single one of them ----------- CAUSE HAVING BABIES IS EXPENSIVE

I knew someone that had 2-3 kids and she worked full time and then all her paycheck went to childcare...................................that happens out there in the USA. 

babies are expensive it isn't holy to force women to have babies and then be put in very poor and/or dangerious situations all because you want more babies born in the usa so that your social security benefits don't die out

Matthew 5:47-48 "And if ye salute your brethren only, what do ye more than others? do not even the publicans so? Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect." Ep my parents won't be saluting me - they don't even want to hear from me anymore. 
that's so tragic for them two they are obsessed my mom and dad are of not only being "perfect" they are obsessed and get very angry very pissed off if someone - someone being me cause they mad at me most their lives - dares to recall talk about family members owning slaves (real memory I had I AIN'T A LIAR LIKE MY MOM SAYS I AM, memories aren't lies ------- I might've remembered wrong that might of happened..............but memories and lies are NOT THE SAME THING) 
but alas they lost their perfect look - I salute my parents on my blog they NO SALUTE ME AT ALL CASUE THEY DON'T WANT TO HEAR FROM ME ANYMORE
BUT I SALUTE THEM ON MY BLOG 👍
but "be ye therefore perfect" is present tense
that's present tense
present tense salute the lgbtq love them, love all races of people I'm talking present tense salute
salute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(I'm saying you can salute people by loving them that's what I'm saying) 
Matthew 5:47-48 "And if ye salute your brethren only, what do ye more than others? do not even the publicans so? Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect." 
if the muslims hate us in usa
LET'S PRAY FOR THEM AND LOVE THEM THE BEST WE CAN IF THEY DO REALLY WANT TO KILL AMERICA WHICH I'VE SEEN MANY A VIDEO OF THEM CHANTING DEATH TO AMERICAN...........................
Matthew 5:46 "For if ye love them which love you, what reward have ye? do not even the publicans the same?"
 And I believe we need to pray and in praying love these immoral republicans that are forcing women to have babies and in forcing them to have babies - they are forcing them to re-live trama of being rapped, forcing poverty upon them and their children cause having kids is expensive, etc. (republicans really do look to be heartless sob's) THEY NEED JESUS CHRIST CPR BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - no hate
man they hate women republicans do (women republicans hate women to they want abortion to stay illegial they hate women then THEY HATE WOMENNNNNNNNNNNN) 
Things are just things
in the end what's going to matter most is LOVE
(TO MANY TO OFTEN GOING BROKE HATING
WHEN WE ALL REALLY NEED TO GO RICH LOVING EACH OTHER) 

Matthew 25:44-46 "Then shall they also answer him, saying, Lord, when saw we thee an hungred, or athirst, or a stranger, or naked, or sick, or in prison, and did not minister unto thee? Then shall he answer them, saying, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye did it not to one of the least of these, ye did it not to me. And these shall go away into everlasting punishment: but the righteous into life eternal."
- I pry donate to charity later, my ear still bugging me..............gotta go do something about it.
ps...........my parents, and my brother are republicans
my brother has left the internet looks to be
and he never invited me over to his place - and he lived there done what 4-5 years or more
he hates me
as do my parents
over polictal beliefs 
I don't hate them like they do me
but I do want to say 
while not hating kirk cameron
"get behing me kirk cameron" - he's also republican
But when he had turned about and looked on his disciples, he rebuked Peter, saying, Get thee behind me, Satan: for thou savourest not the things that be of God, but the things that be of men.
god cares about women all em
he don't want them being forced to have babies they can't afford and then them having to live desperate lives OF PROSTITION AND YA PROSTITUTION THAT'S IT

GOD DON'T WANT DESPERATE LIVES OF PROSTITUTION FOR WOMEN
DROPS MIC
🎤
PSCHE I KEEP BLOGGING : ) 
YES THERE ARE WOMEN THAT REGRET THEIR ABORTIONS - IT IS A EVIL OF THE COUNTRY TO NOT HAVE ABORTION COUNSELING
ABORTION COUNSELING SHOULD BE MANDATORY
FOR SUCH A BIG DECISION ALL THE OPTIONS SHOULD BE SPOKEN TO A GIRL/LADY THAT SHOULD BE MANDATORY
so evidentally what I believe in which isn't what the republicans believe in.................is more overall care for women
for republicans it's just all about babies so social security keeps going (framed under the idea that "abortions are evil") 
---------------------
womens lives need to matter!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

womens lives need to matter!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And little girls that might be being rapped out there!!!!!!!!!!


Tuesday, September 1, 2026

Just got back from IKEA one thing I've learned in life (and my life has been hard, not the hardest but hard very hard). Positivity is powerful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I went on ikea website (wanted to move garage junk into youngest young adult child's old room that is my computer room as well right now) ikea had what we need, only $230 pics of our garage right now it's a mess below. THE POWER OF POSITIVITY IS REAL! Philippians 4:8 "Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.".................

Just got back from IKEA one thing I've learned in life (and my life has been hard, not the hardest but hard very hard). Positivity is powerful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I went on ikea website (wanted to move garage junk into youngest young adult child's old room that is my computer room as well right now) ikea had what we need, only $230 pics of our garage right now it's a mess below. THE POWER OF POSITIVITY IS REAL! Philippians 4:8 "Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.".................

This is the wall we are about to put the garage storage type shelving above at.............it's a wall that could have better storage..............this plan will work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.................
When our oldest young adult child moved back home from college, our garage ended up a gigantic mess..............now I realize that's more shiz then what can fit on the ikea shelving above.........but I recogn some things will get donated, that chair and table pry will stay in the garage and be part of the "finished garage living space".........................it's going to work out I GOTS A PLAN!..................
going to build walls with insulation, and there's as you can see a rug on the floor - pry get rid of that or get a carpet steamer cause it needs to be carpet steamed badly...............which we could do. 
tiles or wood flooring on all the floor in the garage
then the rest of the plot
is to get a carport a metal real carport in front the garage (we never parked our cars in this garage that never happened)
a carport near does it all (we have a camera recording 24/7 so there's safety to our cars being parked outside from theft) carport protects the car! 
people that are suicidal
they pry at least some of them - went into the "downward brain spiral" to much pry bad things did happen to the suicidal, suicided, and/or people with bipolar etc. I theorize.................the depressed.................not saying positive thinking could cure everything
BUT POSITIVE THINKING PRY WOULD HELP MOST
👍👍👍👍 ikea 
their vegan hot dogs are tasty to




Monday, August 31, 2026

I want it to be known I am not mocking god, I have already listened to the bible today (sure somedays I have gotten to buisy AND EVEN NEGLECTFUL to god and his word) BUT NOT TODAY GOD NOT TODAY I NEED THESE "GENERATIONAL CURSES" BROKE which is called "generation curses" PLURAL, this isn't as christian of a nation as people pretend it is usa ain't -------------- I NEED FRIENDS I NEED FAMILY THAT LIVES NEARBY THAT WANTS TO HAVE ME OVER TO THEIR HOUSE TO HANG OUT WITH I NEED BLESSED ASAP GOD!...............................OR AS FAST AS POSSIBLE PUT A FEDEX ON THAT GOD WITH THE FAST SHIPPING PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...................

another door painting 

(I'm going with lucifer when he get's here) but this'll be nice for brian's ladies after me.............or men if he decides to go that way...............it ain't about brian either - I NEED TO GET BLESSED BY GOD - BLESSED. It ain't about brian, or my church or any churches in the past or anybody on this planet besides me and god and GOD NEEDS TO BLESS ME!

(brian likes being low income he digs that per his words he likes being "a cog in the wheel") - that's great for him

not what he was saying the 1st few years of our marriage when we both were hanging out with big time writers, and he was talking to them about the books he plans to write. He used to talk about some big plans. 

 I want it to be known I am not mocking god, I have already listened to the bible today (sure somedays I have gotten to buisy AND EVEN NEGLECTFUL to god and his word) BUT NOT TODAY GOD NOT TODAY I NEED THESE "GENERATIONAL CURSES" BROKE which is called "generation curses" PLURAL, this isn't as christian of a nation as people pretend it is usa ain't -------------- I NEED FRIENDS I NEED FAMILY THAT LIVES NEARBY THAT WANTS TO HAVE ME OVER TO THEIR HOUSE TO HANG OUT WITH I NEED BLESSED ASAP GOD!...............................OR AS FAST AS POSSIBLE PUT A FEDEX ON THAT GOD WITH THE FAST SHIPPING PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...................

for those not knowing what's been happening in my life I have tithed for months out of desperation for god to bless me. 

 I recalled some my family at my mom's native america families main home talking about slaves, theorized that might be the "generational curse" - my mom don't want to speak to me again now

and she theorizes curses upon me, my brother and sister because they moved away from us 24 or so years ago...............

But that isn't what the bible mentions will bring curses upon a person........it's family members in the past or recent past HATING GOD.................
Numbers 14:18 "The Lord is longsuffering, and of great mercy, forgiving iniquity and transgression, and by no means clearing the guilty, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children unto the third and fourth generation."
  But also in my current consideration of why I feel know more then feel know I'm cursed of god right now............................
Galatians 6:6-8 "Let him that is taught in the word communicate unto him that teacheth in all good things. Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap. For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting." If I want/need to be blessed by god BIG TIME, I need to be in his word, especially probably if I'm trying to the "big landslide blessings of god" WHICH I AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Malachi 3:10
Bring ye all the tithes into the storehouse, that there may be meat in mine house, and prove me now herewith, saith the Lord of hosts, if I will not open you the windows of heaven, and pour you out a blessing, that there shall not be room enough to receive it.
JUDGE ME ALL YOU WANT I'M TIRED OF BEING POOR
I'M TIRED OF SCRAPING BY MONTH TO MONTH AS IS THE TYPICAL AMERICAN USA WAY OF LIFE
I WANT/NEED GOD TO BLESS ME SO BAD THERE AIN'T ROOM TO RECEIVE THE BLESSING OF GOD POURING DOWN ON ME!!!!!!!!!! 
AND I NEED A YACHT..................
the water is calling me
I need to boat
real boating
not tee hee style
but right now we fixing up a trampoline style sailboat and learning sailboating
but what I need is a SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIP
AMEN CHRIS JANSON
off to eat some potatoes





Sunday, August 30, 2026

It's amazing that my mom got so mad at me she told me to never speak to her again basically (kicking me out of the family again - a few people in my family enjoy kicking me out of the family for their lord jesus christ A LOT) for merely surmising that maybe I'm cursed of god (tithing hasn't been working for me - I've tithed FOR MONTHS) that maybe a memory hearing what I thought I heard them talking about my mom's great grandma and grandma owning a slave plantation that that would indeed cause me to be cursed of god (per Numbers 14:18). That ain't even their "big secret"....................I DON'T WANT TO DIE I STAY QUIET ABOUT THAT.................not only what happened on you and dad's move to florida a few years ago (they don't live in florida anymore though) - but how that ties into what I saw at the age of 2-3 years old I AIN'T TALKING. But lucifer saw, jesus christ the lord ALSO SAW......................evp video time below lucifer you can hear him talk mom and dad let's see if he's going to tell the world "the truth"....................I replayed the video lucifer's evping galore, but quiet when I ask if he's going to "spill the beans"...................BUT YOU BETTER TURN UP THE VOLUME HIGH MOM AND DAD TO MAKE SURE LUCIFER ISN'T GOING TO "SPILL THE BEANS".........................LISTEN TO IT A FEW TIMES MOM AND DAD TO KNOW YOUR SAFE.............FROM "THE BEANS" BEING SPILLED........................

(but I noticed your still instagram friends with me mom and dad - good plot you wouldn't want to look to suspicious ; )
God will bless me I believe He will...........................it's only a matter of time...............

 It's amazing that my mom got so mad at me she told me to never speak to her again basically (kicking me out of the family again - a few people in my family enjoy kicking me out of the family for their lord jesus christ A LOT) for merely surmising that maybe I'm cursed of god (tithing hasn't been working for me - I've tithed FOR MONTHS) that maybe a memory hearing what I thought I heard them talking about my mom's great grandma and grandma owning a slave plantation that that would indeed cause me to be cursed of god (per Numbers 14:18). That ain't even their "big secret"....................I DON'T WANT TO DIE I STAY QUIET ABOUT THAT.................not only what happened on you and dad's move to florida a few years ago (they don't live in florida anymore though) - but how that ties into what I saw at the age of 2-3 years old I AIN'T TALKING. But lucifer saw, jesus christ the lord ALSO SAW......................evp video time below lucifer you can hear him talk mom and dad let's see if he's going to tell the world "the truth"....................I replayed the video lucifer's evping galore, but quiet when I ask if he's going to "spill the beans"...................BUT YOU BETTER TURN UP THE VOLUME HIGH MOM AND DAD TO MAKE SURE LUCIFER ISN'T GOING TO "SPILL THE BEANS".........................LISTEN TO IT A FEW TIMES MOM AND DAD TO KNOW YOUR SAFE.............FROM "THE BEANS" BEING SPILLED........................

I agree though on what happened mom on your and dad's "move to florida" your accessment of that

bestest never tell kevin, or aimee, or amber any of that mom and dad

tell kevin and aimee and amber I'm even more evil then you already have, and more of a liar really build that up for aimee and kevin  and amber nevermind that I'm tithing, volunteered at the foodbank last week, and also the coming week and probably the week after that as well at least if not more weeks...................we don't need the truth do we mom and dad..............no not at allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll

that wouldn't hide "secrets"

pursue peace and holiness with all men without which no one can see god one day
I stay quiet 
my parents "big secret"
Follow peace with all men, and holiness, without which no man shall see the Lord:
no stopping Jesus Christ and/or Lucifer from blabbing someday ---------------- if they wanted to. 
  Looks like your lucky mom and dad, that lucifer also is going to stay quiet. 
man that's so much luck
until judgement day then
that's be a ruff day for you 2
brian's treating me much better
lucifer has only improved my life and he ain't even here yet
looked at old pics of myself and family pics
I was fat
but I was in "survival mode" still am, still like most americans scrapping by paycheck to paycheck takes a tole often on people's bodies that does, the stress of that............then you add the stress of being judged and hated by most people that's stressful to
.......................got a steam sauna machine for my sauna to try and unclog my ear (my current sauna was infrared) my ear feels better, and I can breathe better
I think I like steam sauna's the best - I add aromatherapy drops to the steam it's relaxing
--------- might steam sauna 2x's today though...............my ear is badly off


Saturday, August 29, 2026

(Video post I am feeling like a "ascended master" today I don't feel rage or hatred or anything for my family it's some them burning with rage and anger towards me, I'm over here chill at peace my family needs prayer bad but so does this world it's full of angry people and we all know that ain't a "fruit of the spirit") HEAPING FIERY COALS UPON MY MOM'S HEAD AS THE BIBLE SAYS TO DO................Romans 12:20 "Therefore if thine enemy hunger, feed him; if he thirst, give him drink: for in so doing thou shalt heap coals of fire on his head." Memories and lies are not the same thing, even if I "mis-remembered" and let's say they were talking about some other friend of theirs that had slaves - TO ME I REMEMBERED IT THEM SAYING IT WAS GREAT GRANDMA AND GRANPA to as far as my actual "memory of what was said" goes I AIN'T LIEING.................but according to my mom I'm the most worst horrible lieing sack of shit to ever live on the earth..............according to her all I do is lie and that I'm the worst piece of shit...............and she never wants to speak to be again for her lord jesus christ and my families lord according to them jesus christ...............

I tell  you what it feels damn great to be embodying full today Galatians 5:22 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓
Galatians 5:22 "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith," I hope you all can also someday fully experience Galatians 5:22 and experience then the "ascended master experience" it's niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiice 👍👍👍👍👍👍💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓
(Video post I am feeling like a "ascended master" today I don't feel rage or hatred or anything for my family it's some them burning with rage and anger towards me, I'm over here chill at peace my family needs prayer bad but so does this world it's full of angry people and we all know that ain't a "fruit of the spirit") HEAPING FIERY COALS UPON MY MOM'S HEAD AS THE BIBLE SAYS TO DO................Romans 12:20 "Therefore if thine enemy hunger, feed him; if he thirst, give him drink: for in so doing thou shalt heap coals of fire on his head." Memories and lies are not the same thing, even if I "mis-remembered" and let's say they were talking about some other friend of theirs  that had slaves - TO ME I REMEMBERED IT THEM SAYING IT WAS GREAT GRANDMA AND GRANPA to as far as my actual "memory of what was said" goes I AIN'T LIEING.................but according to my mom I'm the most worst horrible lieing sack of shit to ever live on the earth..............according to her all I do is lie and that I'm the worst piece of shit...............and she never wants to speak to be again for her lord jesus christ and my families lord according to them jesus christ...............
I will message my mom I sent her this item and then fuck off from my family as they want me to do for their lord Jesus Christ.........because according to them unless I am in a vegtable state every memory I have is a lie and I am a desperate liar according to them. 
EVEN THOUGH THEY CLAIM THEY AREN'T JEWS NONE OF THEM AND I HAVE A JEW NOSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AND ALSO I BELIEVE THERE IS PROOF 
I'M 3RD - 4TH GENERATION CURSED OF GOD CAUSE I HAVE FACTS TITHED FOR MONTHS THE HEAVENS SHOULD'VE CRACKED OPEN FOR ME BY NOW OVERFLOWING WITH BLESSING - NOTHING HAS HAPPENED

Bring ye all the tithes into the storehouse, that there may be meat in mine house, and prove me now herewith, saith the Lord of hosts, if I will not open you the windows of heaven, and pour you out a blessing, that there shall not be room enough to receive it.
besides my christian mom who don't go to church has told me to please quit emailing her for her lord jesus christ because according to her I'm a lieing sack of shit
COME TO MY AID SATAN LUCIFER THE DEVIL
I AM OUT NUMBERED
MY ATTACKING CHRISTIAN ATTACKERS THAT HATE ME ARE ALL AROUND ME
I AM SURROUNDED WITH PEOPLE HATING ME AND ATTACKING ME ALL DAY AND NIGHT FOR THEIR LORD
OR AT LEAST CONSPIRING WAYS I MIGHT DIE TO PLEASE THEIR SOULS FOR JESUS
MEMORIES AREN'T LIES MY MOM ISN'T CORRECT, EVEN IF I REMEMBER "WRONG" AS I STATED ME HAVING A MEMORY OR SEVERAL AIN'T ME LIEING 
I AIN'T LIAR
come lucifer please