It's ok I'm not "valued" it don't look to be by other christians Luke 17:21 "Neither shall they say, Lo here! or, lo there! for, behold, the kingdom of God is within you." IT'S WITHIN MAN IT'S WITHIN. (I'm saying I don't have to fear being hated by maybe absolutely everyone, I'm not going to spiritually ko and die over, I PRAY, I READ THE BIBLE, most the time I merely listen to sermons - THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN IS WITHIN US)...............

ps.................likely not tithing this week, due to us spending $100 on bunco night fundraiser for daycare/school thing related to methodist church we go to..................that's a chunk of change.

It's ok I'm not "valued" it don't look to be by other christians Luke 17:21 "Neither shall they say, Lo here! or, lo there! for, behold, the kingdom of God is within you."  IT'S WITHIN MAN IT'S WITHIN. (I'm saying I don't have to fear being hated by maybe absolutely everyone, I'm not going to spiritually ko and die over, I PRAY, I READ THE BIBLE, most the time I merely listen to sermons - THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN IS WITHIN US)............... 

   Just got back from watching "wildwood" very good movie - my take away from that movie as far as "the moral" is "the good" is worth fighting for, the good of keeping your family unit together........the good of keeping your community together that to............THOUGH AT TIMES THE WAR IS FIERCE......................(especially if your trans right now)..........................many people came recently to my trans sons defense/aid the heart of portland is still strong xoxoxoxoxoxo...................................
Luke 17:20-22 "And when he was demanded of the Pharisees, when the kingdom of God should come, he answered them and said, The kingdom of God cometh not with observation: Neither shall they say, Lo here! or, lo there! for, behold, the kingdom of God is within you. And he said unto the disciples, The days will come, when ye shall desire to see one of the days of the Son of man, and ye shall not see it."

"The days will come, when ye shall desire to see one of the days of the Son of man, and ye shall not see it" -------------------- we there IT'S DARK IN THE BODY OF CHRIST THAT THING HAS GONE PITCH BLACK FROM MY PERSPECTIVE

......IT'S SO DARK RIGHT NOW

1 our new neighbors we ain't said hi to them they ain't said hi to us never see them to say hi to them --------- they've lived next door to us a few months now............I think the days are dark. 

(our new neighbor is probably safe to say plenty nice just buisy people are buisy --------- but buisyness is a sort of darkness upon the earth in my estimation).......................

Ephesians 5:16 "Redeeming the time, because the days are evil."

I love you christians, and non-christians (they sang a if you don't have love you tingle like a cymbal song at church today and didn't ring the bells again when I got out the car ((what they used to do all the time)) --------- I feel alone and neglected more then ever...................brian always sits with old people at the post church lunch time and I was polite while they showed their family and vacation pics to each other) does it sound aweful? Ya for me it's aweful.....................donating money to vancouver heights united methodist church in doing that "loving in deed and in truth" NOT A CLANG CYMBAL.........................they have a lot of old people that vacation a lot I can't relate to them at all me and brian maybe go on 1-2 vacations a year that's it and they aren't ever the "relaxing kind"...................and the younger people there in their minds I'm likely to old for them it's a real "scenario" not in my favour and then it looks to be I get blaimed for not loving them.............................

 me at church proof I was at church indeed...............I'm big on "receipts" while everyone is hating on me for their lord jesus christ.................

I love you christians, and non-christians (they sang a if you don't have love you tingle like a cymbal song at church today and didn't ring the bells again when I got out the car ((what they used to do all the time)) --------- I feel alone and neglected more then ever...................brian always sits with old people at the post church lunch time and I was polite while they showed their family and vacation pics to each other) does it sound aweful? Ya for me it's aweful.....................donating money to vancouver heights united methodist church in doing that "loving in deed and in truth" NOT A CLANG CYMBAL.........................they have a lot of old people that vacation a lot I can't relate to them at all me and brian maybe go on 1-2 vacations a year that's it and they aren't ever the "relaxing kind"...................and the younger people there in their minds I'm likely to old for them it's a real "scenario" not in my favour and then it looks to be I get blaimed for not loving them.............................

(turn up volume to hear evp's from Lucifer, Satan, the Devil ---- but you don't have to turn up the volume at all really) 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓...............................

yep this is not enough traffic to my blog to have any "worth" to the united methodist church it looks to be.................I'm just a piece of crap they need to pray that I finally die or leave their church so that they won't be bothered by my presence.....................

"they love you when your on all the covers when your not then they love another" - Marilyn Manson 

I'll be ok, this just isn't my time "to win"

it's so sad most the body of christ thinks they going to live

they think they are going to dine with lucifers people

it's probably a very small amount of christians that will experience that

a small

very merciful group of christians

a RARE group of christians

I'm not talking "word of mouth mercy" for many churches speak about being merciful

I'm talking about the real thing

gotta go

I am fake chippery around brian all the time and I'm unable to stop I was brain washed to be that way (I'm literally unable to stop it, so brainwashed that if I was unessesarily grumpy to many days or to often, I am full brainwashed that god would smite me dead or harm me somehow, my whole life told fear god fear god fear god and in that also being told be the chipper wife baby voice always real good) I nauseate myself with it. And I been watching "fundies" fundamental fundy christians on tiktok and I CAN RELATE TO ALL THAT. Even though I wear pants most the time, modest way, but pants most days, usually long shirts and pants. Off current topic but - I turns out got to be "plant based" but you know I shouldn't be "so bummed out about it" plant based eating still means I care about the animals..................

 I am fake chippery around brian all the time and I'm unable to stop I was brain washed to be that way (I'm literally unable to stop it, so brainwashed that if I was unessesarily grumpy to many days or to often, I am full brainwashed that god would smite me dead or harm me somehow, my whole life told fear god fear god fear god and in that also being told be the chipper wife baby voice always real good) I nauseate myself with it. And I been watching "fundies" fundamental fundy christians on tiktok and I CAN RELATE TO ALL THAT. Even though I wear pants most the time, modest way, but pants most days, usually long shirts and pants.  Off current topic but - I turns out got to be "plant based" but you know I shouldn't be "so bummed out about it" plant based eating still means I care about the animals..................

isn't every christian a fundie though??????????????..........................

1 Corinthians 6:20 "For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God's."

  Even if they don't do the chippery baby voice..............aren't they all fundies though, like allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll the body of christ???????????????????????

how can I hate all their fake fake happy butts --------- THEY ARE ALL BRAINWASHED TO WAZUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU TO BE MORMONS (ALL CHRISTIANS ARE I'M SAYING) They gots to be 1 Corinthians 6:20

"sheri we know your the freak amongst us" "you like a few coach purses hugh?????"

my work boots to 💓💓💓💓💓💓

be content with food and rament, well these items are part of my real joy (I'M F'D UP FOR SURE).............1 Timothy 6:8 "And having food and raiment let us be therewith content.".....................

those boots long as you have your small toe trimmed real well, those boots have THE MOST greatest arch in them (my feet have extreme arches to them ------ not so much that I look weird or nothing but like my feet have a real arch the bottom of my feet do)............so comfy those boots.

everyday I put on a show

every 

single 

day

so for me to put on a show of sorts on my blog

or you tube

or some other social media

or real life

............it ain't hard for me

I though have went off script

I love the devil

I've pissed everyone off

lucfer just wants me to be happy

well to me that's loving me the most

I'm not saying god ain't love I'LL KEEP UP THE BABY VOICE OK CAUSE I FEAR GOD OK

I can't say if lucifer eats "plant based" cause I don't remember

but he does wear leather pants - they look really good on him to

love both my husbands I really do

but I get to be myself more around lucifer ---------------- I really like that..............the baby voice thing it's hard when I'm tired out that's what it mostly is

diabeties

hot flashes

I'm so tired

it's real hard also putting on the baby voice fundamental christian show I'm supposed to be putting on 24/7

People making fun of the LGBTQ christians on tiktok today (I did comment and defend the LGBTQ christians and churches). My trans son and my husband..............I never see them read their bibles, or pray...........................but I saw them BEAR FRUIT. I saw them go to the grocery store buy groceries for one of ian's best friends and then I was in the car when they drove to this best friends apartment which they need ada accessability and this new apartment is WAY BETTER then their old one, better location, it literally has elevators. I stayed in the car playing pokemon...........my point is THEY BEARED FRUIT. We don't know who's saved out there that's the point (sure the bible says you'll know them by their fruit) but also the bible says Matthew 13:30 "Let both grow together until the harvest: and in the time of harvest I will say to the reapers, Gather ye together first the tares, and bind them in bundles to burn them: but gather the wheat into my barn." LOVE HOPETH ALL THINGS anybody can give their lives to jesus, lgbtq can be saved, are I believe many of them being saved...............................(my attempt to defend lgbtq christians won't stop people from making fun of them though probably not)...........................but I do have a "unique perspective" in that I have a trans son.........................

 Ornaments I made with my son today (well added bat wings and eyeballs and glitter to some of them) Ian wanted to decorate/make halloween christmas tree ornaments and put up a halloween christmas tree - we doing that..................I bought these ornaments in a little baggy taped to a tin to put them in at a garage sale for 50 cents...................the two circled I didn't do anything to at all cause I like them two as is.........................

some the ornaments my son made today................he likes making shiz with felt. He also enjoys doing embroidery.......................

People making fun of the LGBTQ christians on tiktok today (I did comment and defend the LGBTQ christians and churches). My trans son and my husband..............I never see them read their bibles, or pray...........................but I saw them BEAR FRUIT. I saw them go to the grocery store buy groceries for one of ian's best friends and then I was in the car when they drove to this best friends apartment which they need ada accessability and this new apartment is WAY BETTER then their old one, better location, it literally has elevators.  I stayed in the car playing pokemon...........my point is THEY BEARED FRUIT. We don't know who's saved out there that's the point (sure the bible says you'll know them by their fruit) but also the bible says  Matthew 13:30 "Let both grow together until the harvest: and in the time of harvest I will say to the reapers, Gather ye together first the tares, and bind them in bundles to burn them: but gather the wheat into my barn." LOVE HOPETH ALL THINGS anybody can give their lives to jesus, lgbtq can be saved, are I believe many of them being saved...............................(my attempt to defend lgbtq christians won't stop people from making fun of them though probably not)...........................but I do have a "unique perspective" in that I have a trans son.........................

1 Corinthians 13:6-8 "Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth; Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things. Charity never faileth: but whether there be prophecies, they shall fail; whether there be tongues, they shall cease; whether there be knowledge, it shall vanish away."

 Love "charity" """"hopeth all things""""

gotta go making with my son halloween ornaments for a halloween christmas tree (ian's idea) I making just bat ornaments putting googly eyes on my bats, brian just went to the dollar tree and bought me googly eye's 😂💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓 - maybe post ornament later with this blog post...................................

tootles

ps..............youngest daughter also seen her bear fruit, loving people "in deed and in truth" 

and my husband and kids take communion

though

they could be great actors I guess

but the idea is about loving people

and love that hopes

that endures

- if lgbtq are praising god, helping their communities chrsitian lgbtq I'm talking about at the moment ---------- where's the joke in that????????? that's legit in my mind I realize though the people making fun of lgbtq on tiktok I probably won't be able to convince them

------ myself you don't have to freaking list off all the community service you know even more lgbtq people are doing that are chrisitans they get the idea

I have I believe stated before that I deem myself a cain and not a able (not the killing type). I look around and every christian around me seems super involved in their churches having a great time with that. God told Cain if you do good you'll be accepted............................................well what I never understood is how was he doing bad???????? He just wasn't giving 100% like able. And also of great pondersomedness to me is the body of christ is with rabbies about us being saved by grace and not works well then wasn't cains offering enough???????????? Cause he did have WORKS. But back to my take away ------ cain his heart must've not bee right with god --------- but my takeaway is ------------- be in my lane, don't envy these perfect sinless able's all around me -------------- let them tire themselves out til they die...................................SURE THEY HAVE MORE FRIENDS.......................let them bask in that don't even envy them they killing themselves fast aging bad right in front my face....................

 I have I believe stated before that I deem myself a cain and not a able (not the killing type). I look around and every christian around me seems super involved in their churches having a great time with that. God told Cain if you do good you'll be accepted............................................well what I never understood is how was he doing bad???????? He just wasn't giving 100% like able. And also of great pondersomedness to me is the body of christ is with rabbies about us being saved by grace and not works well then wasn't cains offering enough???????????? Cause he did have WORKS. But back to my take away ------ cain his heart must've not bee right with god --------- but my takeaway is ------------- be in my lane, don't envy these perfect sinless able's all around me -------------- let them tire themselves out til they die...................................SURE THEY HAVE MORE FRIENDS.......................let them bask in that don't even envy them they killing themselves fast aging bad right in front my face....................

sure I could look better in my 50's but (I could've also of look worse in my 50's). What if "life more abundantly" isn't always "life more abundantly" 

that song "live fast die young"............................them ables with all their friends in the body of christ pry living reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaal fast....................NO HATE.......................

Genesis 4:1-5 "And Adam knew Eve his wife; and she conceived, and bare Cain, and said, I have gotten a man from the Lord. And she again bare his brother Abel. And Abel was a keeper of sheep, but Cain was a tiller of the ground. And in process of time it came to pass, that Cain brought of the fruit of the ground an offering unto the Lord.And Abel, he also brought of the firstlings of his flock and of the fat thereof. And the Lord had respect unto Abel and to his offering: But unto Cain and to his offering he had not respect. And Cain was very wroth, and his countenance fell."

  The whole body of christ besides me decided the cain is a piece of c--p and all the ones like him - but not me I'VE SEEN THE LIGHT................Cain needed to be able to see god mad his brother more happy to serve god and to be happy for able. And if cain could've just be ok with god being not so happy with him and kept going AND DIDN'T MURDER OR ENVY ABLE RIGHT......................THOSE THAT ENDURE TO THE END THE SAME SHALL BE SAVED................cains offering was actually a effort

so don't let ables hating on you fellow cains get you down

NEVER GIVE UP

Mark 13:13 "And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake: but he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved."

THIS BLOG POST EXISTS BECAUSE SO MUCH TRAFFIC TO MY BLOG

I been in bed for days ear problem so bad prop my head up to help ears drain out

have to massage my ears on and off all day long to alleviate pain and unblock them

ps I only donated $1 below it won't please god either it'll piss him off ------ and that's ok!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Back to entirelly plant based diet, this time feels like forever I hope so I'm done being SICK, I've dabbled in cheese and meat as I say in video below. It's not working for me. I became a member of peta, I'm going to indoctrinate myself in the whole peta thing, it'll motivate me to stay vegan (with the bonus of my health). I love cows, pic below of me petting my favorite cow 2 towns away ((((((((I am serious)))))))))))))..........................what you all don't have a favorite cow 2 towns away you like to visit??????????????.....................................I do have double ear infection, now have ear drops and on my way to feeling better.....................we went shopping vegan style but I told brian he could put all the "killing him" processed foods in his cart that he wants...............all he put in the cart all we put in the cart was vegan shiz IT WAS AWESOME.......................

(I'm about to read the current peta newsletter in a minute)

Back to entirelly plant based diet, this time feels like forever I hope so I'm done being SICK, I've dabbled in cheese and meat as I say in video below. It's not working for me. I became a member of peta, I'm going to indoctrinate myself in the whole peta thing, it'll motivate me to stay vegan (with the bonus of my health). I love cows, pic below of me petting my favorite cow 2 towns away ((((((((I am serious)))))))))))))..........................what you all don't have a favorite cow 2 towns away you like to visit??????????????.....................................I do have double ear infection, now have ear drops and on my way to feeling better.....................we went shopping vegan style but I told brian he could put all the "killing him" processed foods in his cart that he wants...............all he put in the cart all we put in the cart was vegan shiz IT WAS AWESOME....................... 

ps.........I'll eat half a steak and 5 beans for dinner at a fat camp -------- this is emergency shiz then go to veganism forever is the plot. SHIZ IS BAD RIGHT NOW. 

I love that cow 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓 

3 John 1:2 "Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health, even as thy soul prospereth."

  Processed foods are killing people there's no maybe about it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jiqqdzuY07Y

CHEESE IS TAKING PEOPLE IN INDIA OUT..........FOR REAL MAN........WATCH THE VIDEO BELOW MAN.................(most of use now mad at kaiser permanente for telling sheri her A1C and now she's went and got VEGETARIAN'S DIEING BAD OF DIABETIES IN MASS IN INDIA FACTS...........................................)..........................................the cheese is taking them out I'm pretty sure about that............................IT'S KILLING THEM...............THEY AIN'T COWS COWS ARE COWS.....................

eat what you want people

I need to go vegan

my health is baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad

dabbling in cheese or meat either DON'T WORK FOR ME

lucifer wrote me a real nice e-mail today (whether you believe it or not) today's was about my dread locks, so nice of a e-mail 💓💓💓💓💓

keeping that one to myself that e-mail

but weight loss dang this is a real issue in obese america

and it's been such a battle

but whether your going vegan, or vegetarian WHICHEVER PALEO, KETO, KEEP AT TRYING TO GET HEALTHY 

cause dang "life more abundantly" isn't a pile of medication (sometimes many of us need medications ------- but I'm just saying "life more abundantly" isn't piles of medications IT AINT)

John 10:10 "The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly."

I'm over diabeties, I'm over high blood pressure, I'm over that shiz. 

I don't think I'll eat cornbread maybe never again in my life

CORNBREAD AIN'T WORTH IT

according to AI Overview.................

7.6% of meat eaters are diabetic OVERWEIGHT THAT'S PROBABLY WHAT THAT MEANS ON BLOOD PRESSURE MEDICATION BAD. 

the vegans the 2.9% diabetic they got to be healthier those diabetics do the vegan ones facts and statistics are real!

I realize most the earth will continue eating a burger and fries.........telling themselves those fries are them "being healthy" ---------- your probably lieing to yourself less that burger is vegan af

Not donating for awhile got to confident "in the flesh" real humility isn't sitting around being like a pharisee look at all I do god. Philippians 3:3 "For we are the circumcision, which worship God in the spirit, and rejoice in Christ Jesus, and have no confidence in the flesh." Multiple video's this blog post - I'm very sick need all the prayers for my ears both of them YIKES to heal, filmed how bad one my ears is to BAD....................pry going to the doctor though I still am not feeling good with a fever, going to wear mask, my ears are falling off a cliff right now it's real bad...........................

 Not donating for awhile got to confident "in the flesh" real humility isn't sitting around being like a pharisee look at all I do god. Philippians 3:3 "For we are the circumcision, which worship God in the spirit, and rejoice in Christ Jesus, and have no confidence in the flesh." Multiple video's this blog post - I'm very sick need all the prayers for my ears both of them YIKES to heal, filmed how bad one my ears is to BAD....................pry going to the doctor though I still am not feeling good with a fever, going to wear mask, my ears are falling off a cliff right now it's real bad...........................

Bible verses spoken about in video above.................

Philippians 3:3 "For we are the circumcision, which worship God in the spirit, and rejoice in Christ Jesus, and have no confidence in the flesh."
  Luke 18:11-14 "The Pharisee stood and prayed thus with himself, God, I thank thee, that I am not as other men are, extortioners, unjust, adulterers, or even as this publican. I fast twice in the week, I give tithes of all that I possess. And the publican, standing afar off, would not lift up so much as his eyes unto heaven, but smote upon his breast, saying, God be merciful to me a sinner. I tell you, this man went down to his house justified rather than the other: for every one that exalteth himself shall be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted."

Matthew 5:3 "Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven."

  Link to video that inspired this blog post.......................................

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sxn3sdYW2Y4

most pastors are concerned about "Jezebel spirit" but in my estimation the "pharisee spirit" has taken over most the body of christ the church isn't full of people pounding their chests says "god forgive me I'm a sinner" it's crammed full of safe to say more "good deed doing" by far then me at my greatest "good deed athon" cause I'm considered the worst of the worst I was told by elder of the apostolic christian church of america while crying on the floor again and again good 15 minutes him just telling me I'm "the worst ever"

here's the thing

if you doing tons of good deeds

looking good

.........................YOU COULD'VE COMPLETELY OF LEFT BEING "POOR IN SPIRIT"

Matthew 5:3 "Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven."

I'm not saying most of you don't look real good you look damn good better then me

I'm a mess

I look a messsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

I am a mess

"god forgive me a sinner"

To bad the 1st video I made not the one above was to long lucifer was very audibly agreeing with me. I like that - he does know the bible. (lately miserable a bit being me, but often fun thanks to lucifer 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓)