Today my fortune cookie from Panda Express said "Those who have hope, have everything" I AGREE WITH THAT FORTUNE COOKIE. Things have been real bad in my marriage with brian's health, he likes to tell people he has "low libido" that that is what's going on, but it's so much more worse thanks to both him getting covid 19 baaaaaaaaaaaad and a hemmoroid a few years ago eatting through his spincter muscle in his butt and he still don't usually eat while out in public (so the problem isn't solved, he says he's happy and he's going to live with it) he also says he's happy with a low libido but we going no action for 3-4 months now.....................BUT I HAVE HOPE..................AND THEREFORE I HAVE EVERYTHING......................
I EVEN HAVE "HOPE OF GLORY" am I despised right now - safe to say yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Saturday, May 9, 2026
Today my fortune cookie from Panda Express said "Those who have hope, have everything" I AGREE WITH THAT FORTUNE COOKIE. Things have been real bad in my marriage with brian's health, he likes to tell people he has "low libido" that that is what's going on, but it's so much more worse thanks to both him getting covid 19 baaaaaaaaaaaad and a hemmoroid a few years ago eatting through his spincter muscle in his butt and he still don't usually eat while out in public (so the problem isn't solved, he says he's happy and he's going to live with it) he also says he's happy with a low libido but we going no action for 3-4 months now.....................BUT I HAVE HOPE..................AND THEREFORE I HAVE EVERYTHING......................
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Tuesday, May 5, 2026
I'm not feeling good today, and it takes more bravery then ever for me to not only go to church, just to do a day anymore I've been so beat down for so long. A few times praised and worshipped and told them please don't do that I ain't god...........but mostly beat down. Bible is true it's not a war against "flesh and blood" though it's flesh and blood speaking badly about me OFTEN TO MY FACE............it's flesh and blood beating me down every now and then attacking me on my blog (hasn't happened for awhile I'm sure it's about to happen again for jesus of course it's always christians trying to destroy me into a bloody pulp to oblivion)............................
I'm not feeling good today, and it takes more bravery then ever for me to not only go to church, just to do a day anymore I've been so beat down for so long. A few times praised and worshipped and told them please don't do that I ain't god...........but mostly beat down. Bible is true it's not a war against "flesh and blood" though it's flesh and blood speaking badly about me OFTEN TO MY FACE............it's flesh and blood beating me down every now and then attacking me on my blog (hasn't happened for awhile I'm sure it's about to happen again for jesus of course it's always christians trying to destroy me into a bloody pulp to oblivion)............................
but why
because they feel threatened by me
not the humans
------------------ not the humans
but I quit lucifer in some sense I done fighting
I fitting to listen to some probably joel osteen diamond paint
after napping again cause I feel right now that I'm on the brink of death actually
.....................room spinning
drank some water with salt in it cause maybe saunaing last night wasn't the plan and all the electrolights have left my body???????????????????
and bad diahrea which often also happens to me when I'm experiencing "heat exhaustion"
I DON'T KNOW MUCH WHAT TO DO ABOUT IT
i DON'T EVEN SPEAK ABOUT YOUR "SECRETS" ON MY BLOG ANYMORE LUCIFER
but the reality is worse then they know
cause most em are trapped
they think they free - they trapped
trapped "debtors to the flesh"
Romans 8:11-13 "But if the Spirit of him that raised up Jesus from the dead dwell in you, he that raised up Christ from the dead shall also quicken your mortal bodies by his Spirit that dwelleth in you. Therefore, brethren, we are debtors, not to the flesh, to live after the flesh. For if ye live after the flesh, ye shall die: but if ye through the Spirit do mortify the deeds of the body, ye shall live."I needs to never again do marijuanna, not be drinking but small glass of wine only wine bibbing!!!!!!!!!!!! I can do parties lucifer, I can wear fancy gowns, I can own mansions and yachts etc and even enjoy those things...................
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actively loving a church that hates me badly.......................heeding the bible. Got to post this to be able to use a photo.......................don't worry it's ok for everyone to hate me because I love satan SAYS NO BIBLE VERSE ANYWHERE IN THE BIBLE BUT THAT SEEMS TO BE THE GENERAL CONSENSUS ON EARTH.............................because I'm "a bish" so or whatever so it's ok everyone hate me especially christians seems to literally be the consensious.....................
actively loving a church that hates me badly.......................heeding the bible. Got to post this to be able to use a photo.......................don't worry it's ok for everyone to hate me because I love satan SAYS NO BIBLE VERSE ANYWHERE IN THE BIBLE BUT THAT SEEMS TO BE THE GENERAL CONSENSUS ON EARTH.............................because I'm "a bish" so or whatever so it's ok everyone hate me especially christians seems to literally be the consensious.....................
Luke 6:27 "But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you,"Matthew 5:38-40 "Ye have heard that it hath been said, An eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth: But I say unto you, That ye resist not evil: but whosoever shall smite thee on thy right cheek, turn to him the other also. And if any man will sue thee at the law, and take away thy coat, let him have thy cloak also." I mega don't want to be sued ever, but if I church hates me........................I need to love them. THAT'S WHAT I NEED TO DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Saturday, May 2, 2026
Another day of me being thumbs up pro lgbtq ------------ this won't get me popularity or a medal or nothing. I GOT TO KEEP GOING IN LIFE! 1 Corinthians 5:11 "But now I have written unto you not to keep company, if any man that is called a brother be a fornicator, or covetous, or an idolator, or a railer, or a drunkard, or an extortioner; with such an one no not to eat." I know a few lgbtq, my son is trans, gay nephew, and also trans nephew, lgbtq are normal people lot of them ain't out there "fornicating" they have boy friends girlfriends that they are committed to......................this "stigma" still upon the lgbtq isn't fair, my trans son says they mostly after the trans and the hispanic immigrant population these days HE'S RIGHT. They aren't unholy filth the lgbtq ain't (unless they were indeed covetous, or idoltators, or railers, or drunkards, or extortioners then I guess they'd be filth in that event" MOST OF THEM AREN'T FILTH LIKE THAT! AT ALL!.....................me and brian going to the united methodist church the pro lgbtq church we usually go to tommorow I EATING WITH THEM!!!!!!!!!!!.....................SURE AM!!!!!!!!!!!....................
Another day of me being thumbs up pro lgbtq ------------ this won't get me popularity or a medal or nothing. I GOT TO KEEP GOING IN LIFE! 1 Corinthians 5:11 "But now I have written unto you not to keep company, if any man that is called a brother be a fornicator, or covetous, or an idolator, or a railer, or a drunkard, or an extortioner; with such an one no not to eat." I know a few lgbtq, my son is trans, gay nephew, and also trans nephew, lgbtq are normal people lot of them ain't out there "fornicating" they have boy friends girlfriends that they are committed to......................this "stigma" still upon the lgbtq isn't fair, my trans son says they mostly after the trans and the hispanic immigrant population these days HE'S RIGHT. They aren't unholy filth the lgbtq ain't (unless they were indeed covetous, or idoltators, or railers, or drunkards, or extortioners then I guess they'd be filth in that event" MOST OF THEM AREN'T FILTH LIKE THAT! AT ALL!.....................me and brian going to the united methodist church the pro lgbtq church we usually go to tommorow I EATING WITH THEM!!!!!!!!!!!.....................SURE AM!!!!!!!!!!!....................
I stuck at home today in pain
every now and then I'm experiencing like intense radiating pain in my spine,
nobody going to enjoy reading this but I might need to injest a marijuanna edible today
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I'm miserable right now
ice baths do work to
but that would entail brian going buying a back of ice, and then I got to add the right amount of ice, you don't want it to cold cause then you'll just be miserablererer
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honest I don't think I actually like edibles or ice baths - they both ruff
more saintly to do a ice bath
I pry should do a ice bath.........................
that's ruff...............
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Friday, May 1, 2026
Confess your faults one to another so that christians can pray for you and you'll be healed bible says - ok. I'm "the bish" of the entire planet and eternity I'M CONFESSING THIS TO YOU. There's days I near pine away that usa will be nuclear bombed bad and everyone will die just so all the "OH THEY ARE SO BETTER THEN ME THEY CAN'T EVEN SPEAK TO ME THEY ARE SO SINLESS AND AWESOME FOR THEIR LORD JESUS CHRIST" bishes here finally GET IT SOCKED TO THEM. Video confession below..........................of course it's chalked full of evp's from lucifer, satan the devil I LOVE SATAN AND JESUS AND GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD HATES INQUITY TO HIGH FIVE GOD ✋ Proverbs 10:29 "The way of the Lord is strength to the upright: but destruction shall be to the workers of iniquity." AND I LOVE JESUS CHRIST HE'S PRO WOMEN HE WANTED ALL THE MEN BLIND HIGH FIVE JESUS ✋Matthew 5:29 "And if thy right eye offend thee, pluck it out, and cast it from thee: for it is profitable for thee that one of thy members should perish, and not that thy whole body should be cast into hell." All these guys though don't heed your word god, cause I watch them giving me the "sexytime" look all the time AND THEY HAVE EYEBALLS BASICALLY ALL THESE GUYS DO, IN ACCORDING TO AI 62% CHRISTIAN USA!!!!!!!!!!!!!.................................
Confess your faults one to another so that christians can pray for you and you'll be healed bible says - ok. I'm "the bish" of the entire planet and eternity I'M CONFESSING THIS TO YOU. There's days I near pine away that usa will be nuclear bombed bad and everyone will die just so all the "OH THEY ARE SO BETTER THEN ME THEY CAN'T EVEN SPEAK TO ME THEY ARE SO SINLESS AND AWESOME FOR THEIR LORD JESUS CHRIST" bishes here finally GET IT SOCKED TO THEM. Video confession below..........................of course it's chalked full of evp's from lucifer, satan the devil I LOVE SATAN AND JESUS AND GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD HATES INQUITY TO HIGH FIVE GOD ✋ Proverbs 10:29 "The way of the Lord is strength to the upright: but destruction shall be to the workers of iniquity." AND I LOVE JESUS CHRIST HE'S PRO WOMEN HE WANTED ALL THE MEN BLIND HIGH FIVE JESUS ✋Matthew 5:29 "And if thy right eye offend thee, pluck it out, and cast it from thee: for it is profitable for thee that one of thy members should perish, and not that thy whole body should be cast into hell." All these guys though don't heed your word god, cause I watch them giving me the "sexytime" look all the time AND THEY HAVE EYEBALLS BASICALLY ALL THESE GUYS DO, IN ACCORDING TO AI 62% CHRISTIAN USA!!!!!!!!!!!!!.................................
SURE IT'D BE SAD IF MY KIDS DIED, BRIAN DIED ETC. ETC. BUT IF EVERYONE DIED IN USA I WOULD MOSTLY BE CHECKING OFF A VERY LARGE "BURN BOOK" LIST IN MY BRAINS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPILY WHILE ALSO DIEING WHICH THAT WOULD BE A HORRIBLE DEATHBUT I'D DIE SOME HAPPY IF THAT HAPPENED TO USA AMERICA CAUSE I'M THE BISH OF THIS PLANET
YOU ALL NEED TO PRAY FOR ME TO NOW SO THAT I GET "HEALED"
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The earthly mind "earthly things" yes. Philippians 3:19 "Whose end is destruction, whose God is their belly, and whose glory is in their shame, who mind earthly things.)" And lucifer I know you are watching my space alien butt type this and I know you know I know what that means..................common fun...............................just a little bit. I would imagine I'd enjoy reading my bible MUCH MORE while on a fancy island vacation I'M JUST SAYING...................BEING THE "GREATEST" CHRISTIAN AIN'T WORTH IT, most you all don't even go worship the apostolic christian church of america they over there suffering galore AND YOU ALL DON'T EVEN GO WORSHIP THEM!.............................your supposed to be going over to the apostolic christian church of america and getting on the ground and bowing to them DIDN'T YOU KNOW THAT??????????? CAUSE THEY ARE THE MOST SINLESS AWESOME PEOPLE ON EARTH..................THATS WHY THEN THE ELDER WAS SAYING I'M THE "WORST EVER" RATHER LOUDLY AND I WAS CRYING ON THE CHURCH FLOOR NOBODY CARED CAUSE THEY ARE SO SINLESS AND AWESOME AND NEEDING YOU TO GO WORSHIP THEM DUHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.........................
The earthly mind "earthly things" yes. Philippians 3:19 "Whose end is destruction, whose God is their belly, and whose glory is in their shame, who mind earthly things.)" And lucifer I know you are watching my space alien butt type this and I know you know I know what that means..................common fun...............................just a little bit. I would imagine I'd enjoy reading my bible MUCH MORE while on a fancy island vacation I'M JUST SAYING...................BEING THE "GREATEST" CHRISTIAN AIN'T WORTH IT, most you all don't even go worship the apostolic christian church of america they over there suffering galore AND YOU ALL DON'T EVEN GO WORSHIP THEM!.............................your supposed to be going over to the apostolic christian church of america and getting on the ground and bowing to them DIDN'T YOU KNOW THAT??????????? CAUSE THEY ARE THE MOST SINLESS AWESOME PEOPLE ON EARTH..................THATS WHY THEN THE ELDER WAS SAYING I'M THE "WORST EVER" RATHER LOUDLY AND I WAS CRYING ON THE CHURCH FLOOR NOBODY CARED CAUSE THEY ARE SO SINLESS AND AWESOME AND NEEDING YOU TO GO WORSHIP THEM DUHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.........................
................they told me I'm a freak cause I'm "childlike" young and they said that at their church people only become childlike when they old
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Sunday, April 26, 2026
Honest I'm to tired to fight a war against the principalities of darkness and I'm a hippy so that's really against my own 'life philosophy". My hippy butt right now is dyeing my hair with tumeric again, i look like the most foolish oompah loompah on earth and you know what I'm glad about it and am buying more tumeric today............................Ephesians 6:12 "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places." That is to exhausting...................if I can just not hot flash in a day...................................
Honest I'm to tired to fight a war against the principalities of darkness and I'm a hippy so that's really against my own 'life philosophy". My hippy butt right now is dyeing my hair with tumeric again, i look like the most foolish oompah loompah on earth and you know what I'm glad about it and am buying more tumeric today............................Ephesians 6:12 "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places." That is to exhausting...................if I can just not hot flash in a day...................................
Yesterday for real
for real
I was battling IBS (irratable bowel syndrome) so damn bad I even googled what could help this..................the internet repeatedly suggested doing yoga and you know what sometimes I have did yoga AND I DO NOTICE I FEEL BETTER
but for real
yesterday like cramping up, feeling like I have diahrea but knowing I probably didn't need to go to the bathroom -------------- just breath wait a minute the feeling of having diahrea bad goes away oftentimes for me before becoming reality
a constant switch off diahrea.................constipation.........................diahrea................constipation
I was thinkin
how am I supposed to make time to fight any ANY "principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places"???????????
if it ain't IBS I'm fighting it's arthritis, though recently been drinking palo azul tea and that has near gotten rid of arthritis symptoms (((((almost))))))))))
I ain't rinsed it out yet...................................
I create the fruit of the lips; Peace, peace to him that is far off, and to him that is near, saith the Lord; and I will heal him.
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