More then brian having a "low libido" is going on......why we ain't had late night activities for around 4 months I FEAR FOR MY LIFE. I really do. Cause last time it was very bad. I told him months and months ago that is sexual assault he said he didn't know that was sexual assault and said he was going to get counseling, and supposedly he went counseling 2 times, well for something like that I'd imagine one would have to go to counseling more then 2 times, but he says that's all the times he needed to go and then he was "cured" but then AFTER counseling he did it again, in a way more worse more violent then ever, even though I didn't bleed for days on end like I usually do after that.....................

brian is "non-demonstrational" no kissing me on the lips hugging me or touching me, or telling me I'm pretty non of that and that is our marriage and has been besides "the honeymoon" era at the beginning this entire time.................maybe I'm completely normal and this is the norm for ladies in 61%-69% christian usa. 

going to a different church tonight.............not that I have any hope

this is 4/15/2026 when I'm typing this "update of sorts" drank bodybuilding protein shake cause only way to have value is to be skinny and look great if you is a girl in 61%-69% christian usa (per my life experience) and even then you value is low. 

but try for low value at least ladies!

I am a success

I am the successful of women in usa 61%-69% christian

everyone envies me

brian sisters say brian treats me like a princess and got very mad at me for putting a plate in the kitchen sink when we were at a family beach vacation time and then brian defended me

I had no idea that people were supposed to wash their plates at that point in time, nobody told me I just got chewed out!

pincess treatment the best in usa america...........................

 I have pondered "well maybe brian watched to many porno's and thought doing all that to his wife or ladies in general is ok" ----------- but I never see guys getting "that ruff" with women on porno's hardly ever and if they do it's in a "different way" 

  I could be stupid, there could be women bleeding everywhere regularly after doing late night activities and that is just a normal marriage and normal life - PEOPLE HAVE INDEED TOLD ME I'M A STUPID BISH MOST OF MY LIFE. 

only reason I'm maybe going to survive is cause I'm so demon possessed

lucifer and his men will defend my life if need be

THEY WILL

I ain't doing witch craft anymore but am a natural born witch - I repent

but they won't let "that" happen to me not again, NOT ANYMORE

(FOR MY SAFETY I UPLAOD MANY VIDEO'S OF LUCIFER EVPING, BUT ALSO HE IS MY HUSBAND LUCIFER IS I REALLY BELIEVE HE IS)

 More then brian having a "low libido" is going on......why we ain't had late night activities for around 4 months I FEAR FOR MY LIFE. I really do. Cause last time it was very bad. I told him months and months ago that is sexual assault he said he didn't know that was sexual assault and said he was going to get counseling, and supposedly he went counseling 2 times, well for something like that I'd imagine one would have to go to counseling more then 2 times, but he says that's all the times he needed to go and then he was "cured" but then AFTER counseling he did it again, in a way more worse more violent then ever, even though I didn't bleed for days on end like I usually do after that.....................

off to go volunteer at a foodbank in a few minutes 

I usually don't say "ep I'm not going to be home" 

but this time I am

I feel much safer not having "late night activities" I don't feel safe. 

I'm saying he might not be even trying to have sex with me anymore knowing he's caused me to fear for my life.

don't worry I'm pry safe cause he is christian, a lutheran candle lighting alter boy for years and years their main one at the biggest lutheran church I do believe in the town of vancouver washington

guy before him 

"wanted to see what it was like" against my will me crying stop stop stop

he was the top of the christian science church wrote many articles that went nation wide often or worldwide pry

well no wonder all this bad shiz has happened to me how badly women are spoken of in the bible.............1 Timothy 2:9

In like manner also, that women adorn themselves in modest apparel, with shamefacedness and sobriety; not with broided hair, or gold, or pearls, or costly array;

if I get killed I desreve it im a worthless bish like all women everywhere per 1 timothy 2:9

THIS IS THE PATRIARCHY WOMEN ARE TRASH 2ND CLASS CITIZENS BUT REALLY NO VALUE THEY SHOULD ALL WALK SHAMEFACED ALWAYS THEY ARE SUCH SAD SINNING CRAPS

Just saying it, muslim faith looks good to me somedays. I'm not for neither the bashing of lgbtq or women in the bible 1 Timothy 2:9 "In like manner also, that women adorn themselves in modest apparel, with shamefacedness and sobriety; not with broided hair, or gold, or pearls, or costly array;" boo 1 Timothy 2:9 boo. In the muslim religion there's hope for a few women to make it to heaven at least. In christianity women are the weaker vessel, even though statistics don't line up with that, it's men doing most crimes, raping women, sexually assaulting little kids etc. the ladies some of them do wear makeup THEY WANT TO SCORE I HAVEN'F FOR 4 MONTHS NOW AND AM GIVING UP ON LIFE SO.............................

 Just saying it, muslim faith looks good to me somedays. I'm not for neither the bashing of lgbtq or women in the bible 1 Timothy 2:9 "In like manner also, that women adorn themselves in modest apparel, with shamefacedness and sobriety; not with broided hair, or gold, or pearls, or costly array;" boo 1 Timothy 2:9 boo. In the muslim religion there's hope for a few women to make it to heaven at least. In christianity women are the weaker vessel, even though statistics don't line up with that, it's men doing most crimes, raping women, sexually assaulting little kids etc. the ladies some of them do wear makeup THEY WANT TO SCORE I HAVEN'F FOR 4 MONTHS NOW AND AM GIVING UP ON LIFE SO.............................

I do put on some makeup when doing my realistate job etc. but I have given up on life! It's all over for me. I am in a sexless marriage and now I will just wither away and die and nobody will care because I have no value in up to 69% christian usa women are worthless sinful crap that must walk around "shamefaced" always even though THEY DON'T THEY AIN'T WALKING AROUND MAKING SOME FACE. Muslim women on the otherhand have to hold their heads low i think that is horrible they have to hold their heads low, terrible result of bashing women that is in my estimation..........but muslims hold out some women will be saved, there's 10 women at least they value somewhere on earth...........................

up to 69% christian in usa................

if your in one them marriages where your husband "cherishes" you enjoy that while you got it ladies cause you are of 0% value in the body of christ per the actual bible cause 1 timothy 2:9 is talking about all women that they all are weak sinful trash that should walk around always "shamefaced"

even though they don't 

they walk around like I do with normal face if your a christian lady your sinning bad cause your not supposed to have a normal face ever
or smile

just shamefadedness cause your such worthless sinful trash...................

"1 Timothy 2:9 "In like manner also, that women adorn themselves in modest apparel, with shamefacedness and sobriety; not with broided hair, or gold, or pearls, or costly array;"

enjoy it while you are "cherished" cause the bible literaly says your trash ladies

it really does

don't matter in the christian bible how much good you do either, the christian bible isn't like the Muslim bible that appears to hold out that 10 ladies might have value, like on earth, I'm talking besides the virgin mary. 

(video chalked with evp's from lucifer, satan, the devil just turn up the volume some) church is a trap, lady came up to me said hi, but from past experiences (from a messianic congregation I went to for awhile in vancouver until one night watching them live on my computer they said "she's hereeeeeeeeeee, sometimes someone will come to our church that we think is nice and they turn out to be a horrible bish" then he mentioned someone with pirate theme you tube channel will never be a leader in his church well at the time my you tube was pirate themed so besides maybe 3 people total were listening live to that service pretty sure he was talking to me) I know that if I only say hi back then I'm a horrendous bish, expecially if that's all I do every single time at church. Well I don't know what to say to the retired, the younger people with young kids also at a whole nother time of life then me, people actually my age also ruff, cause they are normies so living different then me....................they watch normal tv shows I watch ghost hunting shows, and realistate shows, and storage wars, sometimes the parking lot ticket show I dig some, sometimes cops..........BUT THESE AREN'T THE TYPES OF NORMIES TO WATCH ANY OF THAT, THEY ARE WATCHING BORING SHIZ AND LOVING IT I KNOW IT I CAN TELL BY THEIR BLAND CLOTHING THEY WEAR AND BLAND CARS THEY DRIVE I'M SMART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!......................CHURCH IS SUCH A TRAP FOR ME.....................I ALWAYS LOSE THERE I'M ALWAYS THE BISH...................................

(video chalked with evp's from lucifer, satan, the devil just turn up the volume some) church is a trap, lady came up to me said hi, but from past experiences (from a messianic congregation I went to for awhile in vancouver until one night watching them live on my computer they said "she's hereeeeeeeeeee, sometimes someone will come to our church that we think is nice and they turn out to be a horrible bish" then he mentioned someone with pirate theme you tube channel will never be a leader in his church well at the time my you tube was pirate themed so besides maybe 3 people total were listening live to that service pretty sure he was talking to me) I know that if I only say hi back then I'm a horrendous bish, expecially if that's all I do every single time at church. Well I don't know what to say to the retired, the younger people with young kids also at a whole nother time of life then me, people actually my age also ruff, cause they are normies so living different then me....................they watch normal tv shows I watch ghost hunting shows, and realistate shows, and storage wars, sometimes the parking lot ticket show I dig some, sometimes cops..........BUT THESE AREN'T THE TYPES OF NORMIES TO WATCH ANY OF THAT, THEY ARE WATCHING BORING SHIZ AND LOVING IT I KNOW IT I CAN TELL BY THEIR BLAND CLOTHING THEY WEAR AND BLAND CARS THEY DRIVE I'M SMART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!......................CHURCH IS SUCH A TRAP FOR ME.....................I ALWAYS LOSE THERE I'M ALWAYS THE BISH...................................

I meant to say "mausoleum" instead of morgues below....................

(turn up volume as near almost always to hear tons of evp's from Lucifer, satan, the devil)..................

I don't want friends at church

once I did 

not anymore

I just don't think I have enough in common with them

they hate satan 

I love satan

they hate new cars, mansion, money, boats ---------------- I THINK THOSE THINGS ARE GREAT THEY COULD GET ME FRIENDS FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Proverbs 19:4 "Wealth maketh many friends; but the poor is separated from his neighbour."

lucifer is nice he treats me well (I believe lucifer loves me more then anyone because he understands me more then anyone I do believe, the day he touched my leg my whole body relaxed FINALLY THAT CANNOT BE MAGIC, THAT DOESN'T EVER BESIDES THAT 1 TIME EVER EVEN HAPPEN TO ME - I'm telling you every cell in my body remembered him and RELAXED I'M USUALLY A SPAZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ)

none of you are believing that probably not

none of us probably believed rossane barr when she said they eat children now it looks to be very much so that rosanne was telling THE TRUTH!!!!!!!!!!!!

the people "out there" might be telling the truth

at least sometimes

not only do I hate "cancel culture" and further I believe many of the people you all cancel

especially if usa is indeed 63% christian how much more should the supposed "canceled" actually be UNCANCELLED SINCE HOW THE BIBLE SAYS TO WALK TOWARDS THOSE THAT ARE WITHOUT

1 Thessalonians 4:12 "That ye may walk honestly toward them that are without, and that ye may have lack of nothing."

  That could be "without" many christian things that would get a person "cancelled" like that girl that dared a lady that didn't know how to swim to go into the water for $20, and then that lady I guess drowned and died Natalie Renalds...............

people just want to cancel cancel cancel that girl but the bible says WALK TOWARDS

(I suspect people are supposed to talk about chrsitian values to natalie without using the bible so as to not look preachy, til natalie reynolds feels bad for what she did finally to that homeless lady) And then even I think stick around after that to and be mentors to natalie reynolds NOT CANCEL HER OR MAKE FUN OF HER AND MAKE HER LIFE A HELL WHICH LOOKS TO BE PEOPLE HAVE BEEN DOING TO HER ON TIKTOK I'VE SEEN HER TIKTOKS WERE SHE'S VERY DISTRESSED BY PEOPLE MAKING FUN OF HER ETC. WELL THAT AIN'T CHRISTIAN UP TO 69% OF YOU IN USA............................

MAYBE MY 2 PAGES OF BIBLE READING IS NOT ENOUGH?????????

1 John 1:7

But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, and the blood of Jesus Christ his Son cleanseth us from all sin.

but if my 2 pages of reading the bible a day ain't enough and I'm truelly without ----------- I roll around to the idea that christians should then walk towards me - but they don't not really merely looking at me while holding hands in a circle or saying high telling me your name and shaking my hand................that ain't really walk "towards me" is it?????????????????????

but a las...........................

I don't even blame them for nothing

they pry think I'm a bishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

but I don't blame them for nothing

I need to score 

and only 1 of my 2 husbands has a libido

you know which one does satan, lucifer, the devil 💓💓💓💓💓💓

gonna do it like....................

and that real freaky shiz I told you lucifer 😉 that all these normies would never, could never, would nevvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvver 

that's their problem when "they hear wind of THAT" OH THAT'LL TAKE THEIR MINDS ALL THE WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

THAT'S NEVER HAPPENED ON EARTH OR OFF EARTH EVER BEFORE THAT I KNOW OF

BUT THAT'S WHAT I LIKE

👍

YOUR IN LUCK YOU CAN AFFORD ME LUCIFER - DAMN THAT'S GOING TO BE EXPENSIVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

WHEN YOU ALL FIND OUT MY PLANS, YOUR GOING TO STILL HAVE TO HAVE NOOKY TIME WITH EACH OTHER AND TRY TO TELL YOURSELVE YOUR ENJOYING IT

BRACE YOURSELVESSSSSSSSSSSSS

The lady that touched the hem of Jesus's garment didn't care about "oh no they might know I did it and I'm bleeding it's so embarassing" NO SHE KNEW JESUS HEALS, GOD HEALS, SO SHE REACHED OUT HER HAND. So I'm tithing today yep cause I need my life to get SO MUCH BETTER. (my arthritis has improved past few days, course I ate a "edible" I only do that when I'm in crippling pain ...............I don't understand the science of why it works????????????????? I just know it works for me).........................

people might laught at me, cause I believe this and talk about it in video below but I'm CONVINCED I am plagued with a disease, that desease of not being filth rich it feels LITERALLY like a disease to me 

Proverbs 19:4 "Wealth maketh many friends; but the poor is separated from his neighbour." AND I NEED GOD TO HEAL ME BAD ASAP! (turn up the volume as always tons of evps from lucifer, satan, the devil I am sure he is my husband I'M VERY SURE OF THAT THESE DAYS!)............

 The lady that touched the hem of Jesus's garment didn't care about "oh no they might know I did it and I'm bleeding it's so embarassing" NO SHE KNEW JESUS HEALS, GOD HEALS, SO SHE REACHED OUT HER HAND. So I'm tithing today yep cause I need my life to get SO MUCH BETTER. (my arthritis has improved past few days, course I ate a "edible" I only do that when I'm in crippling pain ...............I don't understand the science of why it works????????????????? I just know it works for me).........................

 Today at church before we got there apparantly a guy was in front of the entrance it sounds like of the church with a sign, saying something about because vancouver heights united methodist church welcomes the LGBTQ that they are a abomination. 

  Well the bible says christians will look "worse then the house of beelzebub" LIKE ABOMINATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LIKE ABOMINATIONS!

Matthew 10:25 "It is enough for the disciple that he be as his master, and the servant as his lord. If they have called the master of the house Beelzebub, how much more shall they call them of his household?"

  And jesus said..................Isaiah 57:19 "I create the fruit of the lips; Peace, peace to him that is far off, and to him that is near, saith the Lord; and I will heal him." Isaiah 57:19 ain't saying don't let them satanic ones or them LGBTQ dont' let them in your church keep them trashes out...................god is powerful isaiah 57:19 is saying "I create the fruit of the lips" peace, to him that is far off, and to him that is near, saith the lord: and i will heal him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i LOVE THIS SONG........................................THIS GUY WANTED FRIENDS TO, WHO COULD BLAIM H IM, HE WANTED FRIENDS AND CHICKS (WELL THAT MAKES SENSE).................

Back to wearing copper jewelry even though I'm alergic to it (but if I keep the copper very clean, I don't get sores on my wrists much). I ain't one them "perfect style christians you know allllllllllllllll the christians around us all look to be absolutely perfect" Somedays I battle walking in faith, when I focus instead of on the word of god on my problems. Right now arthritis is KO'ING ME BAD. If I sit down to long, once I try and stand up pain everywhere, and my hands crippling pain, hurts to move my fingers and now it's affecting my wrists arthritis is few times I WASN'T ABLE TO USE TOILET PAPER, good thing I have a bidet on my toilet. GET BACK UP................................GET BACK UP WE WALK BY FAITH NOT SIGHT MY SIGHT SAYS I'M HATED, I'M IN PAIN, ETC.......................

 Not tithing this week pry, buisy doing other "good deeds" that's the case. Bought my mom's "mothers day gift"................................

I'm the black sheep of my family, my husbands family and the entire planet probably all of eternity -------------- THAT DON'T MEAN I'M STUPID................

Deuteronomy 5:16

Honour thy father and thy mother, as the Lord thy God hath commanded thee; that thy days may be prolonged, and that it may go well with thee, in the land which the Lord thy God giveth thee.

Back to wearing copper jewelry even though I'm alergic to it (but if I keep the copper very clean, I don't get sores on my wrists much). I ain't one them "perfect style christians you know allllllllllllllll the christians around us all look to be absolutely perfect" Somedays I battle walking in faith, when I focus instead of on the word of god on my problems. Right now arthritis is KO'ING ME BAD. If I sit down to long, once I try and stand up pain everywhere, and my hands crippling pain, hurts to move my fingers and now it's affecting my wrists arthritis is few times I WASN'T ABLE TO USE TOILET PAPER, good thing I have a bidet on my toilet. GET BACK UP................................GET BACK UP WE WALK BY FAITH NOT SIGHT MY SIGHT SAYS I'M HATED, I'M IN PAIN, ETC.......................

2 Corinthians 5:7 (For we walk by faith, not by sight:)
Galatians 3:11 "But that no man is justified by the law in the sight of God, it is evident: for, The just shall live by faith."

  I talked to god like must've been 30 minutes at least about arthritis problems I am battling at the moment. 

  I'm starting to ponder/theorize if this massive arthritis flair up wasn't exacerbated by the pollen count right now. Cause my allergies also have been going haywire, praying and sneezing and in pain last night. 

   I drank copper water last night to 

but this arthritis flair up is baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad

I was to much in pain and to exhausted to use my sauna last night (and my sauna is what I often use to be like a normal person not in tons of arthritic pain)

I went to bed early last night TOTALLY EXHAUSTED THANKS TO ARTHRITIS

  Everything around us is measured by "successes" people go get degree's and fancy jobs. People diet loose weight. 

   Read your bible get free'd from sin......................nobody might even notice that. I might not notice it with myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

  And further, sermons aren't doing much for me...............

people always talk about "revival" 

but people get saved just from hearing sermons joe smoe sermons according to the bible.............1 Corinthians 1:21 "For after that in the wisdom of God the world by wisdom knew not God, it pleased God by the foolishness of preaching to save them that believe." I recogn salvation has to do with positive thinking, what does joel osteen have his congregation do hold up their bibles and say "I am blessed, I am a child of god ---------------------" something like that they say, positive affirmations. 

  You can forgive people when your walking in faith - believing god for blessings, mercy good things. 

  So maybe sermons are doing something for me, even though I ain't like feeling convicted really ever anymore. 1 Corinthians 1:21 isn't saying "only them fire and brimestone sermons save souls" no it says 1 Corinthians 1:21 "For after that in the wisdom of God the world by wisdom knew not God, it pleased God by the foolishness of preaching to save them that believe."

  Hell I might go listen to Joel osteen in a second. 

I got to try and get my mind off all the pain I am in today.. 

My family hasn't been replying to any of my e-mails lately....and that is ok I suspected they weren't christians, though my sister not dna related to me might've been a christian for awhile????????????? 1 John 2:19 "They went out from us, but they were not of us; for if they had been of us, they would no doubt have continued with us: but they went out, that they might be made manifest that they were not all of us." Point is I think I ain't e-mailing them anymore I don't believe less something "important happens", people preach love, mercy, but what about just letting them go...............................letting them go.......................go sin........................go get money.............................families have "free choice" and THEY MIGHT NOT BE CHOOSING JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!...............(((though these days everyone pretends confesses to be christian and further looks to be you all BELIEVE THEM)))..........................only my not dna related to me sister goes to church rest of my family far as I know ain't gone to church in years so they already 1 John 2:19 anyways...........COURSE THEY ARE ON MY INSTAGRAM AND THEY LIKE AND COMMENT ON PICS AND I DON'T THINK THEY ARE GOING TO STOP SO THERE IS THAT LUCIFER!!!!!!!!!.....THOUGH I AGGREE WITH YOU MY LIKELY 1ST HUSBAND!......................LET EM GO...................

Turn up volume to hear tons and eons of evp's of lucifer, satan, the devil. Even lucifer confirming the day that I heard god tell a pastor one night at a revival service me and my family went to years ago...............lucifer confirming that.............................

I will be blessed tithing and donating to charities volunteering at the foodbank this shiz is coming back to me it's "win win win for me"................

Luke 6:38

Give, and it shall be given unto you; good measure, pressed down, and shaken together, and running over, shall men give into your bosom. For with the same measure that ye mete withal it shall be measured to you again.

I don't see none of this "good" coming back to me yet BUT IT'S GOING TO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My family hasn't been replying to any of my e-mails lately....and that is ok I suspected they weren't christians, though my sister not dna related to me might've been a christian for awhile?????????????  1 John 2:19 "They went out from us, but they were not of us; for if they had been of us, they would no doubt have continued with us: but they went out, that they might be made manifest that they were not all of us." Point is I think I ain't e-mailing them anymore I don't believe less something "important happens", people preach love, mercy, but what about just letting them go...............................letting them go.......................go sin........................go get money.............................families have "free choice" and THEY MIGHT NOT BE CHOOSING JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!...............(((though these days everyone pretends confesses to be christian and further looks to be you all BELIEVE THEM)))..........................only my not dna related to me sister goes to church rest of my family far as I know ain't gone to church in years so they already 1 John 2:19 anyways...........COURSE THEY ARE ON MY INSTAGRAM AND THEY LIKE AND COMMENT ON PICS AND I DON'T THINK THEY ARE GOING TO STOP SO THERE IS THAT LUCIFER!!!!!!!!!.....THOUGH I AGGREE WITH YOU MY LIKELY 1ST HUSBAND!......................LET EM GO...................

Psalm 23:1-6 "The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever."

I am beyond convinced lucifer sends me messages via https://www.tut.com/home/

though admidetly todays e-mails I received from www.tut.com/home/ might just be "coincidental" that I was thinking "ok my family ain't even e-mailing me back maybe I should quit even trying to e-mail them yet again cause I don't appear to be wanted"

though I ain't wanted at church either pretty sure about that cause I love lucifer so that means I'm worthless crap

though some value these days because I tithe and basically help fund the church....

I gotta to go........................we getting rid of chickens got to go catch them so that our yard will alllllllll have grass (I planted grass seeds - so my sons dog could have grass to run on ------------ now we want grass the whole back yard --------- we keeping the goats the goats aren't what was destroying the yard)

it was all our chickens and ducks - we got rid of our ducks yesterday

love my goats to much 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

buttercup even letting me pet him long time like 2 days ago then othello wanted to be petted to it's a challenge petting two goats at the same time but I manage

my parents didn't send me a fruit basket like they usually do for this last christmas not a fruit basket not a christmas card nothing, nothing from any of my family --------- doesn't that maybe mean they are done with me...........

but then not long ago they private messaged me my mom did............my sister sent a few e-mails but that was days and days and days ago ------------- several e-mails past that 0% of my family replied to

but then my mom sent private texts to me

and there's a "family chat window chat on instagram that nobody has said 0% on for awhile but my point

they didn't send me cards

but then e-mailed me several days ago

but now they've been quiet for weeks

and then my mom private messaged me on instagram

but for weeks NOTHING

maybe

maybe 

that's it

but this has gone on for years for me

and my brother he apparently still lives in salem never ever ever ever ever invited me and my family to see his house............he just ain't e-mailed me or talked to me for actual years and further him and his wife aren't even on the internet don't look to be besides he does have a e-mail and evidentally hates my guts for his lord jesus christ cause he also believes himself to be "christian" 

but I think it's best I don't e-mail them anymore they are DONE WITH ME it looks to be 

not not completely cause they still my instagram friends cept my brother and k- who attacked me and then I unfriended her tired of being attacked and she denies is and SHE BLOCKED ME

but they believe her looks to be and looks to be they believe SHE'S CHRISTIAN

I'M TRAPPED I'M NEVER ALLOWED OUT OF MY FAMILY THAT IS MY POINT

fine 

I get it they want to live

soon life will be fair to me

I will 

win

win

win

I'm on a break from church this sunday - I think "church breaks" are actually good for me........whether christians are doing good or evil, and most the time I CAN'T EVEN TELL (I don't see them doing good, according to AI on google only 5% in usa tithe regularly for actual reals, so the rest ain't even giving god 10%.............and then who knows if they do good??? It's all dicey ain't it if you rob god!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need a break from church sometimes, they are poor, usa is a dirt poor country that pretends to look rich, with big houses many people have that they can't afford, new cars they can't afford ....................I got to keep in mind that all the perfect sinless chrsitians that I see everywhere LOOKING GOOD, they are all near homeless, it's a near total facade usa is....................THAT'S SAD THAT MOST OF YOU ARE NEAR HOMELESS THAT IS SAD I GOT TO KEEP THAT IN MY BRAINS.......................YOU'LL ALL FIGHTING TO EAT MEALS AND BE ALIVE IN USA....................people can't do good deeds or tithe when they fighting to stay alive and eat meals!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....................

I'm on a break from church this sunday - I think "church breaks" are actually good for me........whether christians are doing good or evil, and most the time I CAN'T EVEN TELL (I don't see them doing good, according to AI on google only 5% in usa tithe regularly for actual reals, so the rest ain't even giving god 10%.............and then who knows if they do good??? It's all dicey ain't it if you rob god!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need a break from church sometimes, they are poor, usa is a dirt poor country that pretends to look rich, with big houses many people have that they can't afford, new cars they can't afford ....................I got to keep in mind that all the perfect sinless chrsitians that I see everywhere LOOKING GOOD, they are all near homeless, it's a near total facade usa is....................THAT'S SAD THAT MOST OF YOU ARE NEAR HOMELESS THAT IS SAD I GOT TO KEEP THAT IN MY BRAINS.......................YOU'LL ALL FIGHTING TO EAT MEALS AND BE ALIVE IN USA....................people can't do good deeds or tithe when they fighting to stay alive and eat meals!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....................

  It's sad for the usa not wanting to tithe because the jews that are about to all of us are about to tithe for real regularly Malachi 3:12 "And all nations shall call you blessed: for ye shall be a delighsome land, saith the Lord of hosts"  It's tragic that the rest of the usa truelly is unable to tithe because they are fighting for their lives to eat food, and keep a roof over their heads FOR REAL THOUGH THEY CAN'T TITHE THEY TO POOR EVEN THE ONES IN BIG HOMES CAUSE WHAT COUNTRY WOULD NOT WANT TO BE BLESSED BY GOD????????????

Malachi 3:7-12  "Even from the days of your fathers ye are gone away from mine ordinances, and have not kept them. Return unto me, and I will return unto you, saith the Lord of hosts. But ye said, Wherein shall we return? Will a man rob God? Yet ye have robbed me. But ye say, Wherein have we robbed thee? In tithes and offerings. Ye are cursed with a curse: for ye have robbed me, even this whole nation. Bring ye all the tithes into the storehouse, that there may be meat in mine house, and prove me now herewith, saith the Lord of hosts, if I will not open you the windows of heaven, and pour you out a blessing, that there shall not be room enough to receive it. And I will rebuke the devourer for your sakes, and he shall not destroy the fruits of your ground; neither shall your vine cast her fruit before the time in the field, saith the Lord of hosts. And all nations shall call you blessed: for ye shall be a delightsome land, saith the Lord of hosts."

 And traffic still going to my blog - fine

fine

  If anyone attacks me again.....other people's hatred towards me would be a reflection on them. They wouldn't look good attacking me - they wouldn't. I've volunteered at foodbanks for to many years, donating to charities for to many years, for any attackers to ever look good or be winning. 

I'm different in that I love the devil

I love both my husbands

these days brian is really helpful ("sheri that's because he literally believes you are the wife of lucifer, satan the devil") - well that is "all things working together for my good" then PRAISE JESUS (for real) 

Romans 8:28

And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

It's ok that I be a little different

I've lived a different life then most people - most people aren't speaking to satan, lucifer the devil 24/7 like I often am - well you know I AM ABLE TO BE A YACK

just sayin

blog traffic lately....................

god wants me to go with lucifer when he get's here - which I am and I'm keeping the promise I made with lucifer the handshake with him 😊

the more people I can forgive, love, try and understand, THE BETTER

THE BETTER

THE MORE PEOPLE I CAN LOVE, AND SERVE, AND BE THERE FOR THE BETTER

GOD WANTS US TO BEAR MORE FRUIT I'M TALKING TO THE 30% FRUIT BEARERS..........................

John 15:2

Every branch in me that beareth not fruit he taketh away: and every branch that beareth fruit, he purgeth it, that it may bring forth more fruit.

NOT LESS FRUIT

NOT HOLDING GRUDGES - BEING UNMERCIFUL

MORE FRUIT

I can afford to show mercy

I can

because I AM GOING TO WIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!