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Wednesday, March 30, 2011

hell is so real to me it's like ridiculous..........you know hell has been caught on tape....oh ya.............

(UPDATE 2015 - ya I am no longer demon possessed. And I enjoy following jesus these days, his yolk is easy his burden is light! Matthew 11:30 "For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.") the original post though left in it's entirety..................
Enter ye fellow worms into the jesus christ worm guillitine (aka god's word) ------ no worms were harmed in the making of this photo heck no I love worms! The bible well it'll be ok hahahahahaahahahahahaahahahahahaah funky town people f u n k y t o w n
hell is so real to me it's like ridiculous..........you know hell has been caught on tape....oh ya.............scroll down end of this page, you can hear hell on tape...........
http://www.av1611.org/hell.html
Some people dug down to well almost hell and stuck a microphone down in hell bible says.............Amos 9:2 "Though they dig into hell, thence shall mine hand take them; though they climb up to heaven, thence will I bring them down:" I believe not only that it's completely possible to dig to hell, that it has really happened!
I've like visited with satan, I've visited with many demons this stuffs is so real to me, man I tell you all what, I hate following jesus yep, I absolutely hate following jesus, I hate it every day, but listen to this tape at above website, play it a few times, listen good - hell is real! And that's where you go, not following jesus in dead with christ land, you go to wooo ha haaaaaaaaaaa demon land, you can hear the demons in that tape their the louder voices, I've had so much to do with demons I can tell you those are real genuine demons on that there tape, you can't exactly hire vincent ass price to duplicate those vocals! Sorry hollywood you ain't there yet!
My sheri your very morbid, all this death and demons and hell talk, hey bestest we all think about this stuffs now and get saved, get to being dead with christ, then find out later, oops the wooooooo ha haaaaaaaaaaaa demon land is real!!!!!!!
But I do hate following jesus, I really do, somedays it is like the worstest thing ever and to me it is somedays a total hell, when all I want to do is......................................fill in the fleshy blanks : )
Thank god for beer, have my evening beer, after all my TOTALLY not fun taking up my cross and following jesus for the day ----------- whoooooooooo ha ha land don't want to go there no way. That tape creeps me out a bit...........hell is like a demon possessed horror house 24/7...........worse then anything any you can really imagine it is really bad. That's just the tape of it.........gives me the heeby geebies!

poem - There's no peace with you satan....................................

there's no peace with you satan
there's no peace with you
I tried to walk on your road
in the black night I once thought it was alright
the demons kept me warm at night
gazing through the looking glass
I saw us walking by
the clear stream in the noon day sun
almost grabbed a gun
they wouldn't miss us afterall
those that rise
they rise to fall
in this world of fools and saints
I traveled around in circles
kicking in the dust
waiting for some wind
to light these sails
where did ya lead me satan?
Where's your pathway to glory?
Naw there's no peace for the wicked!
In this sand blown town
we all fffffffff around
not caring where it leads us
don't try to convert me
I'm already saved
it's the pain that bleeds us
to the guilitine jesus leads us
ya I'll bleed your death
I'll bleed your death
so I can find peace at last!
Isaiah 48:22 "There is no peace, saith the LORD, unto the wicked."
Isaiah 53:5 "But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed."

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

I'm big on perservering.......those that endure unto the end the same shall be saved.............


 Blessed Be Apostolic Christian Church of America 
may Jesus Christ our Lord accept your repentances 
and usher you into his beloved and may you dwell in green pastures for all the days of your lives. 
(I'm jack white obsessed, which is pry like a bad thing I guess? I like this song anyways, cause I do use the word "the level" a lot, jesus was on "the level" and if ya don't know what the level is I can't help ya out!)
I'm big on perservering.........Matthew 24:13 "But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved"................John 8:31 "Then said Jesus to those Jews which believed on him, If ye continue in my word, then are ye my disciples indeed;"
It doesn't matter how many times I biff it (long as I ain't biffing it on purpose which I'm like totally not) get back up keep trying keep Luke 9:23 "And he said to them all, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me." Keep on denying yourself and taking up your cross daily that's my advice!
Though my idea of following jesus (still a sad idiot effort I make everyday but that I MAKE THAT EFFORT) these days involves, coffee, sitting and watching my chickens, saunaing, working out on my nordic track, mostly just keeping myself buisy so satan doesn't have such a chance. Still not watching tv, not missing it either. (besides I watch the christian tv stations while working out on my nordic track)
We are closer to jesus's return then ever.........all the earthquakes all the upheavals........it's gotten to a kooky level these days............Luke 21:28
"And when these things begin to come to pass, then look up, and lift up your heads; for your redemption draweth nigh."
I want to hang out with my main church in heaven someday (apostolic christian church of america) some real characters at my aunts church : ) I actually fit in! A church of characters like myself............who would of thought it'd even exist but it does : )
A church will like save your soul, but uh the effort still has to be made James 1:22 "But be ye doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving your own selves." I've figured out I can't just sit in my aunts church and just hear the word, I gotta put it in action, though my action is sad and the saddest of patheticedness of following jesus on the earth..............but you want to be a "doer of the word" "If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me" hup hup get to being dead in jesus already! The good death ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh And also don't watch the tv people common! THE WORLD IS IN THE TV James 4:4 "Ye adulterers and adulteresses, know ye not that the friendship of the world is enmity with God? whosoever therefore will be a friend of the world is the enemy of God."
Join me in dead land.........ya apparently it can involve sauna's, playing my electric guitar, watching my chickens, walking my chihuahua's, (my all this taking up my cross and following jesus I'm going to start losing so much weight I'm going to end up looking like a annorexic - YIKES)
put the word in action..........action very well may equal salvation! At any rate, it just doesn't work out to just sit in church and listen to the soul saving buisiness and like not put it to use!
And I'm trying to like you know not be demon possessed - YIKES! YIKES! YIKES! More jesus - less demons - YIKES! Less me more jesus! I die jesus lives more. John 3:30
"He must increase, but I must decrease." Then like demons scoot somewhere else - ya that's the plan : )
hey a fool with a plan, is a fool with a plan, if said fool sticks to plan this'll work out : )

Sunday, March 27, 2011

I had to delete last blog post I couldn't handle it........going to work much harder to take jesus yoke on myself..............................

 Blessed Be Apostolic Christian Church of America 
may Jesus Christ our Lord accept your repentances 

and usher you into his beloved and may you dwell in green pastures for all the days of your lives. 
(apostolic christian church of america xoxoxox - geez I'm lucky lucky lucky beyond lucky to be a part of this church, their really good at getting me to walk in the right direction as a sheep in god's sheepfold or whatever I'm a stupid idiot crossed eye's sheep that likes to go run off the cliff regularly) I had to delete last blog post I couldn't handle it........going to work much harder to take jesus yoke on myself..............................Matthew 11:30 "For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." It's a super heavy burden to be battling demonic forces that much.................don't follow jesus that's what happens to me! My husband hasn't viewed the video and he don't believe me, but I'm me and if I be's saying sometime's I'm a bit demon possessed I think there'd be some truth to that!
Today at my aunts church, one the leading brothers mentioned Galatians 6:10
"As we have therefore opportunity, let us do good unto all men, especially unto them who are of the household of faith." It's something to work on for me anyways........I feel very unequipped though, ridiculously unequipped............I mess things up all the time - it kills me look at my blog what a mess! The smith's friends, it's a miracle they put up with me for as long as they did!
Good thing my aunts church loves me so much, though I wouldn't love me, hell no! Today one the sisters that teaches sunday school asked me if Illyana would be there easter sunday "palm sunday" and I was like yep............intense the love I felt from this sister, and geez you'd never seen somebody so happy to hear that I'd be returning to their church and I WAS CLEAN HOLY SPIRIT FILLED and that has never happened to me before like that, where I was holy spirit filled over just someone loving me and being happy that I'm returning like that............I just sat there in some kind of awe, not just over the light in this sister to have that kind of a heart for me and my family, but the power of god that I would be holy spirit filled in that moment - god was telling me something there...........look I'm real, I'm here, good things I desire for you. Moments like those as HORRIBLE as I have done following jesus to this date, which is the most MONUMENTALLY RIDICULOUS STUPID IDIOT ASS attempts to follow jesus, the effort I have made to this date, even with all the battles all the 5 billion spiritual battles I have fought seems I win one and another one starts right up satan just won't take a break already! But back to my point moments like that, make all the effort worth it!
The efforts worth it, when I walk into my aunts church and feel the love like that on sundays! It's a war, it's a galatic war, but one I deem worth fighting, to have fellowship, to hopefully man get this heavy heavy heavy heavy heavy yoke off myself! And put on jesus's light and easy yoke............this yoke on me right now is HEAVY!
I'm really messed in the head to, somedays I really esteem right ESTEEM dark $#^%$#^%^%^% and sometimes I love the dark - just so messed up............when I have it so good at my aunts church! What on earth would I want to ever jepardize that?????? No man I need to hate and flee and be done with all darkness, going to do all I can to deny myself and take up my cross, not be listening to the occult music no more, be in god's word more do all I can to ahhhh make things as right as I can.
I don't know if this "peace with god and man" thing is really really possible - there ain't no peace for the wicked I can full out testify to that NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PEACE! Isaiah 48:22 "There is no peace, saith the LORD, unto the wicked." It's not a peaceful place to be, in wicked evil dark land, not peaceful, heavy yoke.
This verse caught my eye Proverbs 16:7 "When a man's ways please the LORD, he maketh even his enemies to be at peace with him." Man I tell you what I could use to have some enemies be at peace with me!!!!!!!!!!!!! FOR REALS!
That's my spilling of my guts for today. Have a great week earth!
------------ ya gotta hand it to god (I mean he's really a character, really s...p...e....c...i...a....l) I already was feeling like THE CRAP OF THE EARTH this morning, to not be satisfied nooooooooo that wouldn't be s..p......e.........c........i.......a......l oh ya let's have the leading brother speaking bring up Galatians 6:10 "As we have therefore opportunity, let us do good unto all men, especially unto them who are of the household of faith." Oh ya god ; ) I caught that there moment of specialness! It's a good way to play it though god, I'm really giving ya some props here - that's the time to remind me what I should be doing ok, right when I'm in the most GALATICALLY MASSIVE pile of flaming shit ON THE EARTH!
I'm giving ya props here god. (remember I am currently fully calling myself "funky town" down is up for me often, up is down) God though he wants me to go for the gusto just go for it, just dive right in. THE GUSTO! Don't ya god? : ) Ya you want me to start all doing good to the household of faith...........ya I'm onto your 411 ; ) blowing ya some kisses even. You know I love that s...p........e.......c.........i.......a........l stuffs.
It was a good play on god's part.

Thursday, March 24, 2011

I've decided there are 2 ways to die while on this earth, and your going to die while on this earth one way or another..............

I've decided there are 2 ways to die while on this earth, and your going to die while on this earth one way or another..............

The Dead Weather - Die By The Drop (Official video) from Maya M on Vimeo.


Sometimes I'm enthralled by a topic..........hmmmmmmmmm let's see what kind of spiritual topics would I be enthralled by hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm 2 Corinthians 7:10
"For godly sorrow worketh repentance to salvation not to be repented of: but the sorrow of the world worketh death." death oh ya. See some people just die a little.............
"Some people die just a little
Sometimes you die by the drop
Some people die in the middle
I live just fine on the top"
when "the dead weather" singer is saying she "live just fine on the top" that's black magic......not sorcery, not witchcraft............black magic. But you know sorcery and witchcraft is pry involved to!
But don't think if you die just a little that you didn't just die..........galatians 5
7Ye did run well; who did hinder you that ye should not obey the truth?

8This persuasion cometh not of him that calleth you.

9A little leaven leaveneth the whole lump.
THE WHOLE LUMP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU DIED THEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT'S A DEATH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Then there's the other death.....................
Colossians 2:20 "Wherefore if ye be dead with Christ from the rudiments of the world, why, as though living in the world, are ye subject to ordinances,"
Colossians 3:3 "For ye are dead, and your life is hid with Christ in God." in blessed bible land, prayer land.
Either way see we all going to die while on this earth, you have no choice, one these 2 deaths is going to happen to you, oh ya, pry today! Yep pry today!
Except the death weather band, have funked out logic, cause you die that death guess what it ain't going to down down well for you and I think the band knows it..........
"I’m gonna take you for worse or better
I’m gonna make you for worse or better
I’m gonna take you for worse or better
to my little grave"
Ya "the dead weather" knows all the black mass people's know ----------- hells comin. HELLS COMIN! Ya you can take that "to my little grave" you want to do that black magic one ya you can do that..........then HELLS GONNA SNATCH YOUR SOUL!
We all die. Some people do die just a little, some people die just a drop it's SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO TRUE it's still a death!
So like uh the moral of the story is ----------- dead with jesus good, dead without jesus bad! Prayer bible land all day good!
Yep gonna get to cracka lackin more at that there tozer christian book I'm readin : ) dead dead dead dead with jesus that my pick : ) to my little grave!
(when you watch this video, after jack white breaks the mirror with his rod thing, he does this wave of his hands in front of his face -------- hit the pause right around there you'll see a white flash in front of his face smack juuuuuuust before he waves his hands across his face....................good thing lot you don't know that that's all about!)

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

have you died yet? Colossians 3:3 "For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God."................


 Blessed Be Apostolic Christian Church of America 
may Jesus Christ our Lord accept your repentances 
and usher you into his beloved and may you dwell in green pastures for all the days of your lives. 
(apostolic christian church of america and the brunstad christian church xoxoxo both them - I'm a weakling takes a whole town to hold me up) I added this song cause even if you rise up above the entire earth as some big preacher or evangelist - gotta take heed to the doctrine, 1 Corinthians 10:12 "Wherefore let him that thinketh he standeth take heed lest he fall." Without that house being built on jesus you can just topple like a domino just like this guy is singing about in this song -------- don't matter how high you rise in the ranks of christianity you ain't heeding the stuff you will topple like a domino someday I believe that!
have you died yet? Colossians 3:3 "For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God." This verse spoke to me very powerfully today finally...........that after you have laid down your life for the brethren..........."your life is now hidden with christ in god" in prayer, in being in god's word, that's where your life is now hid! That's how that verse finally came across to me today.
This verse also way super glued on my heart lately............Genesis 4:7
"If you do what is right, will you not be accepted? But if you do not do what is right, sin is crouching at your door; it desires to have you, but you must rule over it.” even the fool of fool of fool of fools on the earth (aka myself) if you do what is right, WILL YOU NOT BE ACCEPTED? YES YES YOU WILL!!!!!!!!! But if you do not do what is right (aka from my current understanding lay down your life, be in god's word, be praying in the day, be "hidden with christ in god") SIN IS CROUCHING AT YOUR DOOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (aka works of the flesh, and you know I loathe them!!!!!!!!!! stupid stupid works of the flesh that lead people to HELL galatians chapter 5 its on my heart lately what ya going to do........19Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are these; Adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness,

20Idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies,

21Envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God. -------- stupid stupid stupid works of the flesh "THEY WHICH DO SUCH THINGS SHALL NOT INHERIT THE KINGDOM OF GOD")
SOS SOS SOS SOS the world is off course it all is...........it's going down the stupid works of the flesh lane Ephesians 2:2 "Wherein in time past ye walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that now worketh in the children of disobedience:"
I look like a women but I cut like a buffalo : ) Have another great day earth : )

Sunday, March 20, 2011

ya totally don't walk in the flesh earth!...............


this duran duran video's pertinence makes sense at end of this blog post, enjoy the duran duran goodness : )
Today at church Galatians chapter 5 stood out to me. verse 9 spoke to me in a whole new way today............
7Ye did run well; who did hinder you that ye should not obey the truth?

8This persuasion cometh not of him that calleth you.

9A little leaven leaveneth the whole lump.
Here's some person that whichever apostle in galatians is speaking? (I don't know??) This person all the sudden wasn't heeding god's word..........then verse 9 happens........."A LITTLE leaven leaveneth the whole lump" that if I love the things of the earth a little bit that little bit of leaven can leaven the whole lump that's how this verse finally spoke to me today at church. That I need to not think with myself that I can take it easy today, and give into the lusts of the flesh a bit ------ just a bit of leaven that that is all it takes to leaven the whole lump! That I need to be steadfast and sober minded, like always!
16This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfil the lust of the flesh.

17For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that ye cannot do the things that ye would.
I told my mom today, I don't know what this "things that ye would" is..........what these magical good works is????????? But that I want to do them, be desirous to do them, not be giving my flesh a inch a centimeter! So uh like walk in the spirit n'stuff I'm reading some book by uh that big name christian historical I think guy uh tozer something --------- so far it's a really good read : ) ya read christian stuffs that's my advice, it's a easy way to be getting to walking in the spirit. And also I recommend, really talking about bible verses to each other etc. too!
While the pastor of my aunt's church was reading this bit I was like uh uh oh.........cause I don't think I got this list like in the waistebasket yet..........
19Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are these; Adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness,

20Idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies,

21Envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God.
Sometime's I still battle some this list. Anyways the idea I think is you want to walk in the spirit and not the flesh, to someday eliminate all this list in your life entirelly.............this list is why you don't want to walk in the flesh these are the "WORKS OF THE FLESH" horrible stuffs on this list! And AND "they which do such things shall NOT inherit the kingdom of god" WALK IN THE SPIRIT! YA GET TO CRACKIN OPEN SOME CHRISTIAN LITERATURE TALK TO EACH OTHER ABOUT BIBLE VERSES ASAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SOS HELLO the flesh leads to bad #@$%#$^#$^%^$%^%$^ that leads you to HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Freakin RETHINK that gucci bag for reals!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And crack open some christian literature for reals, and or read my blog : ) that works to : )
22But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith,

23Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law.
We want that right, I want those things!
The last verse also spoke to me much.........
26Let us not be desirous of vain glory, provoking one another, envying one another.
Sometime's I am a bit "desirous of vain glory" I'll have to work on that one. Pastor said satan would like us all to be in the church of me, like me then me, then like people, and then god last. But that it should be god, then people, and then me last. Duran Duran has a song about that!!!! Called "new religion" or think that's the title of it, the religion of me, I know of that religion a bit to well.........uh oh.
It's not that I don't care about people, sometime's I just love myself so danged much...............ya prioties gotta change for me............it's a slow going process..................well gotta get crackin at my christian literature athon. HAve a great day earth!

Saturday, March 19, 2011

review "our daily salvation" by Tom Harris................

 Blessed Be Apostolic Christian Church of America 
may Jesus Christ our Lord accept your repentances 
and usher you into his beloved and may you dwell in green pastures for all the days of your lives. 
http://www.brunstad.org/en/Edification/Insight/Our-daily-salvation/
I really liked "our daily salvation" by Tom Harris. Even if you've followed jesus on the straight and narrow for a long time it is good I find to be reminded why we need to die daily!2 Corinthians 4:10, “always carrying about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our body.”
I always make my best effort everyday to lay down my life, apostolic christian church of america also on same vein believing salvation to be a process, not instantaneous but jesus he indeed is John 14:6 "Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me." Weird stuff bible verse have been super glued to my heart lately, that jesus is the door John 10:1
"Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that entereth not by the door into the sheepfold, but climbeth up some other way, the same is a thief and a robber." The door right........jesus.............the way he paved, through the veil that is his flesh..........much denying yourself and taking up your cross and following jesus daily..............but also "into the sheepfold" going to church regularly...........but moreso even a theif has to go through the door that is christ..........even the shady theif way I was going before I had to go through the door that is jesus and the way he paved. Hebrews 10:20 "By a new and living way, which he hath consecrated for us, through the veil, that is to say, his flesh;"
There is only 1 way to heaven.......jesus! I AM THE WAY, THE TRUTH, AND THE LIFE, """"""""NO MAN""""""""" COMETH UNTO THE FATHER BUT BY ME hope you alls eyeballs glued in right and reading john 14:6 in technicolor there. That there is only 1 way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's a straight and narrow path, this way jesus consecrated through the veil that is his flesh - the only way!
Oh and it's been 3 weeks of no tv for me woot woot woot : ) ahhhhhhhhhhh yep this being in the sheepfold and not being friends with the world (the boob tube) is workin out for me : )
I'm a rebel, nobody more a rebel then me, I didn't just put wild boys song freakin on my blog post a few posts ago for the fun of it, and the smith's friends totally either a ain't reading my blog or are b dense in the head and didn't get what I was saying to them..........people. But I be's freakin, laying down my rebel ass life.........freakin not my will be done but gods. I want to be a mo fo gansta in heaven yo! That's why!
My swagger even came back today, ahhhhhhhhhhhh loves it! It's fun to be me, sometime's it's altogether delightful : )
have a great day earth : )

Thursday, March 17, 2011

I really want to do a big time repent bring that good fruit Matthew 3:8 "Bring forth therefore fruits meet for repentance:"

 Blessed Be Apostolic Christian Church of America 
may Jesus Christ our Lord accept your repentances 

and usher you into his beloved and may you dwell in green pastures for all the days of your lives. 
Fresh edit the year 2020 I've been accused of being a malicious attacker of the Apostolic Christian church of America so many times by members of their church I now add this verse..........Ephesians 4:15  "But speaking the truth in love, may grow up into him in all things, which is the head, even Christ:"

(I'm cutting t-shirts and trimming them w/inkle to turn them into shrug like spring jackets, notice the chinese button style : ) need more pics on my blog if I'm going to yack like this I figure : )
(apostolic christian church of america xoxoxoxoxoxoxo) I really want to do a big time repent bring that good fruit Matthew 3:8 "Bring forth therefore fruits meet for repentance:" My whole idea of repentance has changed, the word repentance in of itself to me speaks of a ongoing status of being, that is so entire that your entire life changes course due to the repentance due to being in this state. And your fruit changes in this status, from cuss words to, like uh I can't give a example I just know it happens!
The next verse speaks to me much to........Matthew 3:9 "And think not to say within yourselves, We have Abraham to our father: for I say unto you, that God is able of these stones to raise up children unto Abraham." Don't think you don't have to repent, be in this repentance state................don't think you can go off in your party party la la la land............"god is able of these stones to raise up children unto Abraham"
I got it all figured out, the repentance happens and then the works happen Acts 26:20 "But shewed first unto them of Damascus, and at Jerusalem, and throughout all the coasts of Judaea, and then to the Gentiles, that they should repent and turn to God, and do works meet for repentance." But I've also figured out a person can jump out of repentance, it's a continual state to continually be working to be in in my estimation repentance is.
2 Peter 3:9 "The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance." YA ALL ALL ALL "ALL should come to repentance"
I've never wanted to repent more in my entire life. I'm fascinated by this repentance stuffs, I've seen people's fruit BAM change (also seen people leave "repentance") the power to save a person is in repenting! 2 Corinthians 7:10
"For godly sorrow worketh repentance to salvation not to be repented of: but the sorrow of the world worketh death."
I pray now daily that I repent! That I be in repentance land...........not party party land! repentance land, that's the land to be at.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

love scares me......anyone else afraid of love?.............

 Blessed Be Apostolic Christian Church of America 
may Jesus Christ our Lord accept your repentances 

and usher you into his beloved and may you dwell in green pastures for all the days of your lives. 
Fresh edit the year 2020 I've been accused of being a malicious attacker of the Apostolic Christian church of America so many times by members of their church I now add this verse..........Ephesians 4:15  "But speaking the truth in love, may grow up into him in all things, which is the head, even Christ:" (please forgive mini christian me from several years ago with this sad blog post) Little mini christian me from several years ago didn't know Proverbs 17:19 "He loveth transgression that loveth strife: and he that exalteth his gate seeketh destruction." That sin is what ==='s up strife (not watching tv...........plenty of nice decent shows on tv that are just fine to watch............especially christian shows that would not only be ok to watch but pleasing to god).
  Love scares me......anyone else afraid of love? I just don't know what to do with the stuff?
After church this sunday the pastors of the apostolic christian church say hi to me - I was chatting with them, all the sudden I felt so loved - terror hit me - flee my brain said - run for yer life! Abondon ship! Abondon ship! What the hell does a person do with love?????? I look over at the family next to me, also felt the love...........well that was it......I had to call it a day!
I know how to be angry at people and I'm especially skilled at..............like any..............is. Yep surely I am sailing into uncharted territory at my aunts apostolic christian church of america.
Part the reason I stayed with the smith's friends (this is "f'd" up but I'm telling you all the truth here) they didn't like me much (I a bit work hard to be a unpleasant $#%$#^$ so nobody cracks in........a lot of it just comes naturally though : ).........and I thrive some off of hate (I even enjoy being the bad guy, oh ya I like that : ). I know what to do with hate. I don't know what to do with love! Love is terrifying to me!
Yet I'm glutton for more, oh ya, you all know I ain't watched tv for 3 weeks now (well besides 1-2 hours of news)! Cause I figured out, if I don't watch tv, I get to go to my aunts church (I can't always I ain't been always able to get in my car and step on the gas pedal and go to my aunts church ------- I'm sayin kooky land stuffs here ---------- even though I wanted to go to the apostolic christian church of america ---------- extra kooky land buisiness I'm sayin here) So I don't watch tv, it's simple! : )
I don't care that this is a odd blog post. Unlike ozzy I think my mental wounds did heal - YIKES! YIKES! YIKES! uh oh. hahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahaahah
I told you all this before smith's friends Proverbs 27:5 "Open rebuke is better than secret love." You'd be better off openly rebuking me then this secret love you hold for me!

Sunday, March 13, 2011

I've noticed a coming and going phenomina in churches well uh in my area of america : )"........there's a few pilliars to I think out there..........

 Blessed Be Apostolic Christian Church of America 
may Jesus Christ our Lord accept your repentances 

and usher you into his beloved and may you dwell in green pastures for all the days of your lives. 
Fresh edit the year 2020 I've been accused of being a malicious attacker of the Apostolic Christian church of America so many times by members of their church I now add this verse..........Ephesians 4:15  "But speaking the truth in love, may grow up into him in all things, which is the head, even Christ:"
(apostolic christian church of america xoxoxoxoxoo - my ongoing valentine : ) I've noticed a "coming and going" phenomina in churches well uh in my area of america : )........there's a few pilliars to I think out there..........Revelation 3:12 "The one who is victorious I will make a pillar in the temple of my God. Never again will they leave it. I will write on them the name of my God and the name of the city of my God, the new Jerusalem, which is coming down out of heaven from my God; and I will also write on them my new name."
I think it's unevitable this flow of people's coming and going and coming and going in churches (nomadder how much we pray for people's though I think praying for people is not a waiste of time anyways)...........PRAY PRAY PRAY 1 Thessalonians 5:17 "Pray without ceasing."
These days I pray every night that I can go to church next sunday - I really do - so far this pray athon is working out : ) which ROCKS! : )
I had a dream last night...........this off the pillar idea I think...........being faithful.........being around..........being in your church involved..............having a active ministry (if that be in your church or like me blog itis : ) Matthew 25:26-27 "His lord answered and said unto him, Thou wicked and slothful servant, thou knewest that I reap where I sowed not, and gather where I have not strawed: Thou oughtest therefore to have put my money to the exchangers, and then at my coming I should have received mine own with usury." Idea that to do this one has to be faithful I think, faithful to whatever god's called you to, and faithful in sharing god's word so that the money exchangers can uh get that bit of wisdom or revelation god laid on your heart and send that back out to the world and make a profit in the kingdom of heaven off of it.
People often tell me I should be doing something with my art, that that is some talent god gave me and I'm supposed to be using it for the kingdom of heaven - could be maybe some. But I think my faithfulness to god's word and testimonies that spring from that is the #1 importantedness item..........that I be constantly giving the money changers something. For the profit of more souls in heaven and that's some good profit there!
1 Timothy 4:16 "Take heed unto thyself, and unto the doctrine; continue in them: for in doing this thou shalt both save thyself, and them that hear thee." I am starting to get real zealous to heed god's word...........that when I sew god's word..........salvations stuff starts growing in the garden!!!!!!!!!! Isaiah 66:22
"For as the new heavens and the new earth, which I will make, shall remain before me, saith the LORD, so shall your seed and your name remain." I want myself saved, and I want to take a few people up to heaven, I want it all : )
Satan he wins just to much on this earth! It's high noon us christians have some wins!!!!!!!!!!!! I mean souls to jesus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just itching to quote charlie sheen here "winning duh"

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

I'm determined to stick it out on the narrow way here's why...................

I'm determined to stick it out on the narrow way here's why...................(and really I am writing this in my blog to remind myself at a future date........I have a journal I write good things I notice in ---- could be in the church out the church just good things I notice..........for when the day looks black as night I can think back)
Galatians 6:9 "And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not." I'm currently reading "the devil and how to resist him" by gerald vann, pg 156 ish he starts talking about how god's people often aren't rich, it really is the devil worshippers that have the big statuses all to often on this earth. A person could go a long time in jesus who knows how long and reap like seemingly nothing............shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I may not reap til I'm freakin 99! It could happen.........I don't know when the hell this "in due season" is but sure seems to be taking awhile - YIKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hebrews 12:3 "For consider him that endured such contradiction of sinners against himself, lest ye be wearied and faint in your minds."
But I do have a verse that is somehow uhhhhhhhhh comforting to me these days...........I know this a weird verse to be comforted by (do I look like the typical sort?) John 10:1 "Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that entereth not by the door into the sheepfold, but climbeth up some other way, the same is a thief and a robber." I see it as a climb up that can take place for me "into the sheepfold" being going to church every sunday which I am currently much about doing...........maybe it's a slow climb.............somedays seems I'm getting absolutely nowhere................people don't seem to like me any more or less..........don't appear to be any more or less blessed by god (that's how I measure the climb which may be the idiot way I won't argue with that! : ) Well isn't that though how we all are????????? We measure our success by how liked we are..........by the car we drive............by the job we have ----------- isn't that how it is for all us???????????????????
In my estimation it's a slow climb indeed this climb inside the sheepfold, agonizingly slow. All I can do is sit in church stew awhile there and see what happens : ) hahahahahahahahaah such is the plan : ) hahahahahahahahah
time and chance happeneth to all, well it sure is likely going to happeneth to ya better in the sheepfold! That's what I recogn! Though I would love being a rock star, dang I'd love it, I'm getting a electric guitar, god'll not mind a little band gigging I'm sure, like I'm going to be a rockstar you have to sell your soul to satan to do that clearly!!!!!!!!!!!!!
still bahing ; )

choose the narrow path, choose the light, choose what's of god............it's not to late to choose this..................



choose the narrow path, choose the light, choose what's of god............it's not to late to choose this. I been watching this series on "reptilian" part demon part people people's (I'm not saying 100% I believe they exist, but I'm surely a open minded person, one to way out all sorts of possibilities, in old testiment it talks about people that uh you know with angels and had giants, well if that can happen with god's angels why not the demons as well???????????? I'm possing this question for you all to consider earth) But this particular video really resonates with me and my beliefs, that there is good in all men somewhere...........that the dark road that so many of you love it's not worth it, whatever fame, whatever whatever you are obtaining it isn't worth being in the dark! John 3:19
"And this is the condemnation, that light is come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil."
Come out of the darkness! James 4:8 "Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, ye double minded." Obi one kanobi is telling you, cleanse YOUR HANDS YE SINNERS PURIFY YOUR HEARTS YE DOUBLE MINDED --------- DRAW NIGHT TO GOD AND HE WILL DRAW NIGH TO YOU!!!!!!!! Don't even worry about what you going to eat today...........don't worry about what will happen if you choose the path of light in this land of darkness...........god he'll make a way in the valley of the shadow of death for you if you draw near to him...............Luke 12:31 "But rather seek ye the kingdom of God; and all these things shall be added unto you."
There's light in you believe it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BELIEVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!! (I don't really care how many people you've ................... ................ .............. there's light in you believe that!) There's been some odd verses on my heart lately a slew, about being a opposer..........I to have opposed myself...........ya loving darkness I'll just come out and say that! But where does that path lead - to death!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Acts 18:6
"And when they opposed themselves, and blasphemed, he shook his raiment, and said unto them, Your blood be upon your own heads; I am clean; from henceforth I will go unto the Gentiles."
2 Timothy 2:25 "In meekness instructing those that oppose themselves; if God peradventure will give them repentance to the acknowledging of the truth;"
Wishing the earth, peace, love and light.

Friday, March 4, 2011

Women if you wear makeup you following the footsteps of Jezebel........................came across these bible verses this sunday.............

Women if you wear makeup you following the footsteps of Jezebel........................came across these bible verses this sunday.............
2 Kings 9
30And when Jehu was come to Jezreel, Jezebel heard of it; and she painted her face, and tired her head, and looked out at a window.

31And as Jehu entered in at the gate, she said, Had Zimri peace, who slew his master?

32And he lifted up his face to the window, and said, Who is on my side? who? And there looked out to him two or three eunuchs.

33And he said, Throw her down. So they threw her down: and some of her blood was sprinkled on the wall, and on the horses: and he trode her under foot.

34And when he was come in, he did eat and drink, and said, Go, see now this cursed woman, and bury her: for she is a king's daughter.
---------------- jezebel all painted her face to look all pretty, hanged her head to look even more pretty I'm sure she was a sight!!!!!!!!! What did the makeup profit her? She was tossed down and trampled to death!!!!!!!!!
Been real convicted not to wear makeup lately..........when I wear makeup I'm just conforming myself to this world!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Romans 12:2 "And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God."
Does it really even add any beauty to me????????? I don't think it does! Not the sort of beauty I really really want at any rate..........I do not want to be in no company with jezebel!
Yep I'm a makeup less doily wearer these days : ) hahahahahahahahahaahahahahahah haven't watched tv for 6 days now WOOT! : ) though am a bit getting addicted to the twitter - yikes it's always something I guess.