Was at like full out crisis point today - god showed up so big for me today I know He loves me....................Sheri 2011 was more trusting of people and in a "goofy mood" Sheri 2024 has "been through it" now I prefer being alone, being hated, and hanging out with goats and listening to music but I might for real become a entire different person cause I just bought a collection of 100 cds and it's not the type of music I usually listen to a ton (not goth music, goth music is expensive to buy a lot of it is)....................

Was at like full out crisis point today - god showed up so big for me today I know He loves me....................Sheri 2011 was more trusting of people and in a "goofy mood" Sheri 2024 has "been through it" now I prefer being alone, being hated, and hanging out with goats and listening to music but I might for real become a entire different person cause I just bought a collection of 100 cds and it's not the type of music I usually listen to a ton (not goth music, goth music is expensive to buy a lot of it is)....................

loving god that's the most important thing though nomadder how many "versions of you" exist over time - Mark 12:30 "And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all thy strength: this is the first commandment."

  When putting these cd's in the cd holder I was like "oh this all might turn me into a whole nother person" and I don't think that's a exaggeration. "It can't be that drastic sheri what you listening to right now" -------------  ROD STEWART CD "Vagabond heart"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..........................

 I didn't buy like some randomn cd pack either

I bought a "themed" cd pack..........

 This is still sheri 10/24/2024 typing this, it was a different time in 2011..............more compasionate time. Nowdays it's ice at least were I live mostly. (not completely but mostly in my estimation) 

Matthew 24:12 "And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold."

But even in the coldest winter ice

hope exists

1 Corinthians 13:7 "Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things."

Was at like full out crisis point today (domino effect happens with me, one bad thing, then another, and another and eventually I CRACK) - god showed up so big for me today I know He loves me....................I went to bible study (my estimating with myself it'd help to "get my head together") god was in me so much tonight, He really knew I was big time having a crisis and was determined to reach out and touch me. People hugged me a lot tonight, and the lady running the whole thing rubbed my back which is a miracle cause there are 250+ women at this serious coffee bible study thing.
   Like everyone else in this world I worry about so much, I worry about what's going to happen with me, what's my future look like I worry about it.................knowing I'm that loved at living hope, that I'm that loved - my aunts church to loves me much I know they do...........makes a huge difference for me in my life. And especially that god showed up so big for me tonight.
   Really mind blowing how much god was with me tonight. He's really getting to me lately.............He's cracked in...................He's cracked into my heart. And I'm left wondering with myself - why did I ever sin in the 1st place? Why did I ever distance myself from god in the 1st place? This love HIS love is what I needed all along!
 ---------- I'm going to fess up to something, sometimes I sit and listen to other christians testify thinking to myself it all is so cheese. But man maybe I'm a cheese to god/jesus/holy spirit makes all the difference in the world for me --------------- anything could happen to me and I know long as I got god/jesus/holy spirit I's going to be ok. God showing up big for me tonight letting me know how much He loves me - it's all good! Let the cheese roll : ) it's holy cheese hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahaahahahaahahahah (sheri dang you have to much fun being a christian hahahahaahahahahahaaha)

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have you died yet? Colossians 3:3 "For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God."................

Update 8/11/2024 brian stressed me out so bad this morning spilled boiling hot water onto my foot - he was there stressing me out and I needed to make my "body butter" before I take a shower so after I shower I can body budder myself. And I can't avoid him stressing me out in the morning either, cause even the few times he does sleep next to me as soon as I wake up THAT'S IT HE'S UP. And I tell him "no go ahead sleep in, get some sleep" - he refuses soon as I'm awake bamn he's awake listing off either what all he has planned for us to do for the day hint it's often causing me stress the list!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Or more often then not, which if our young adult college attending kids he's taking here there everything picking up, picking up their friends, dropping their friends off at airports or train station etc. etc. etc. etc...................................

 burned myself bad

because he was stressing me that bad this morning

I've also slitted a finger bad STRESS I WAS SO STRESSED OUT OF MY MIND STRESSED HAD TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL THAT DAY

I CAN'T SURVIVE ALL THIS STRESS

IT'S KILLING ME

I'M NOT GOING TO LIVE

BODY BUTTER I MADE DIDN'T MAKE A BIG ENOUGH BATCH THOUGH

EP

TRIAL AND ERROR

NOW I NEED TO TAKE A SHOWER

HOW AM I EVEN GOING TO SHOWER WITH THIS 4TH-5TH DEGREE BURN ON MY FOOT?????????????????????????????????

I CAN'T DO ALL THIS STRESS 

AND IT NEVER ENDS

few days before all "stress wounded" myself I was so stressed out when I walked into a 3-4 foot tall boulder

my "son" was going on and on and on freaking out not knowing where the bus is 

cause brian had to drop us off at the fair because the bus station we tried to go to was closed due to work being done on a street

so we didn't even take the bus to the fair

and I'm all looking for the bus stressed all the way out while my "son" is going on and on and on and onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

walked into a boulder

wasn't a lighted street much far away light from the rocks near pitch black with boulders in the middle

my legs aren't shaved in this picture - people do annalyze me to death

and 100% all the time

post their annalyation they come to the same conclusion that I'm a worthless pycho bish at least it's healing up fast and well 👍 

it was horrible a few days ago as you can imagine

  Sheri 2011 actually thought she was a apostle because many brunstad christian church sisters told her she was and laid hands on her and prayed over her about it.......................
(apostolic christian church of america and the brunstad christian church xoxoxo both them - I'm a weakling takes a whole town to hold me up) I added this song cause even if you rise up above the entire earth as some big preacher or evangelist - gotta take heed to the doctrine, 1 Corinthians 10:12 "Wherefore let him that thinketh he standeth take heed lest he fall." Without that house being built on jesus you can just topple like a domino just like this guy is singing about in this song -------- don't matter how high you rise in the ranks of christianity you ain't heeding the stuff you will topple like a domino someday I believe that!
have you died yet? Colossians 3:3 "For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God." This verse spoke to me very powerfully today finally...........that after you have laid down your life for the brethren..........."your life is now hidden with christ in god" in prayer, in being in god's word, that's where your life is now hid! That's how that verse finally came across to me today.
This verse also way super glued on my heart lately............Genesis 4:7
"If you do what is right, will you not be accepted? But if you do not do what is right, sin is crouching at your door; it desires to have you, but you must rule over it.” even the fool of fool of fool of fools on the earth (aka myself) if you do what is right, WILL YOU NOT BE ACCEPTED? YES YES YOU WILL!!!!!!!!! But if you do not do what is right (aka from my current understanding lay down your life, be in god's word, be praying in the day, be "hidden with christ in god") SIN IS CROUCHING AT YOUR DOOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (aka works of the flesh, and you know I loathe them!!!!!!!!!! stupid stupid works of the flesh that lead people to HELL galatians chapter 5 its on my heart lately what ya going to do........19Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are these; Adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness,

20Idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies,

21Envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God. -------- stupid stupid stupid works of the flesh "THEY WHICH DO SUCH THINGS SHALL NOT INHERIT THE KINGDOM OF GOD")
SOS SOS SOS SOS the world is off course it all is...........it's going down the stupid works of the flesh lane Ephesians 2:2 "Wherein in time past ye walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that now worketh in the children of disobedience:"
I look like a women but I cut like a buffalo : ) Have another great day earth : )

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The secrets of salvation......................HAVE OIL IN YOUR LAMP not just a lamp w/light but oil ZEAL AND FIRE..........................

Update 7/18/2024 evidentally around this time I was talking about the "smiths friends" look they helped me a ton ok. But it wasn't the church for me, cause to long of a drive away. 

  Zeal and fire has 0% to do with how you look, BUT EVERYTHING TO DO WITH HOW YOU LIVE! I'm the sole and only christian in christianity that likes a little makeup from time to time, feel pretty then. I am in a sexless marriage, it is important for me to "feel pretty" lot of the time I feel ugly, especially how attacked on the internet I am so often.................and badly people all but stab me to death................it's either that or they just don't speak to me "for jesus"...................

zeal and fire is going to look different for everyone to

some are zealous to serve at hospitals for instance

my "lane" right now is classroom fundraisers

bible says................

Ecclesiastes 9:10 Amplified Bible (AMP)Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might; for there is no activity or planning or knowledge or wisdom in Sheol (the nether world, the place of the dead) where you are going.

The secrets of salvation......................HAVE OIL IN YOUR LAMP not just a lamp w/light but oil ZEAL AND FIRE..........................the 5 foolish virgins, were also virgins they weren't part of this world/earth but their oil in their lamps went out the zeal and fire for god's word went caput! But you know they also woke up from their slumber and trimmed their lamps...........they had lamps they had slews of good works-----lamps (or as in my case not a massive slew : ) hahahahah but I have a lamp............it could go out!
Matthew 25
2And five of them were wise, and five were foolish.

3They that were foolish took their lamps, and took no oil with them:

4But the wise took oil in their vessels with their lamps.

5While the bridegroom tarried, they all slumbered and slept.

6And at midnight there was a cry made, Behold, the bridegroom cometh; go ye out to meet him.

7Then all those virgins arose, and trimmed their lamps.

8And the foolish said unto the wise, Give us of your oil; for our lamps are gone out.
I always try to have zeal and fire for crucifying my flesh, have fire for something have some oil in this here lamp!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's a awesome thing to be more then a overcomer in christ jesus! MORE then a overcomer that's a overcomer and then some! Overcoming all the lusts of my flesh ALL THEM.......and on top of that taking new land! I'm super gripped for this bible verse these days and the idea of being more then a overcomer not settling for just overcoming my flesh entirelly and my self will............no WAY MORE then a overcomer!............Matthew 17:20
"He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”" NOTHING WILL BE IMPOSSIBLE FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! HELLO christians of the earth we are supposed to be MORE THEN OVERCOMERS IN CHRIST JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (I'm so gripped I have to put all this in caps) Romans 8:37 "Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us."
The smith's friends often talked about the fat land, and um those like jews that like spied the promise land in the bible..........2 them or uh some number of them : ) didn't have faith that they could take the land big giants all in the land, 2 them did have faith............................what is impossible for me if I have faith............Matthew 17:20 "He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”" I've let the giants of the land in my life stop me to much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm not one to think all christians like deserve or need to be or whatever slews of wealthy, but I think we all should be able to be more then conquerors in christ jesus ------------ that's more then just a conqueror! Right now I'm just focusing on like 2 things making happen in my life or like 3 --------------------- shhhhhhhhhhhhhh you better be believing those 3 things going to be happenin for me!!!!!!!!!!!! Cause I'm more MORE then a conqueror in christ jesus - that's a conqueror and then some snap snap snappity snap snap snap snap amen
Satans had to step aside and I be's getting on the hallelujah bus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ya there'll still be hardships or whatever, but geez some mountains are going to move for me! I also want to thank jesus tonight for this verse Romans 8:36 "As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter." I also noted tonight that this verse is right above the "Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us" even being lead to the slaughter daily --------- killed all the day long that don't take away our praise!!!!!!!!!! WE are in ALL THESE THINGS "more than conquerors through him that love us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I praise god that I'm able everyday to be killed all the day long..........to follow jesus Hebrews 2:10 "In bringing many sons and daughters to glory, it was fitting that God, for whom and through whom everything exists, should make the pioneer of their salvation perfect through what he suffered" jesus like us he suffered pry had to deal with misbehaving kids pry had to have patience then! many the sorts of instances where all us have to have patience in a day, via idiotic workers, etc. etc. jesus he for sure went through those things, he for sure suffered and was made "perfect through what he suffered"!!!!!!!!!!
I want to be much more zealous and on fire to follow jesus everyday, be made perfect through what I suffer.........which can mean forgiving, I've forgiven the smith's friends cult I still don't agree with what they are doing with their "buisinesses". I was hurt I'm still in pain a lot! But my future never was in a particular church, though I do go to a church, but my future/present is in jesus! I would't have it any other way!
I've learned to take everything as from the hand of god. It's all all all going to work for my good, all the situations I'm in everything ever thing I have to suffer in this life is going to work towards my salvation..........with my cross fully up follow jesus like this all things are new it's a new life! One where no thing is impossible for me! This jesus gig is good : )

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I decided I need to suffer in the flesh..........

this is literally what I typed in 2008 - I didn't edit 0 of it..........................

💓little 2008 mini me so bad................

I have a flesh, and somedays I'm like why? Why follow jesus? Why all this suffering in the flesh - for sure jesus wants me to suffer in the flesh I'm 100% about that much......Luke 9:23 "And he said to them all, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me." I end have ended up w/0 life in all this denying myself and following jesus athon I have like no life.......Matthew 10:39 "He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it." I guess that's the silver lining, I find my life losing it. It sucks for me somedays, somedays I want to just like bar hop and like geez I don't even know whatever all it is people w/lives do : ) And the world don't like me much and it bothers me.....John 17:14 "I have given them thy word; and the world hath hated them, because they are not of the world, even as I am not of the world" But I want to endure, I want to keep on keeping on heeding god's word ---- though there is a part of me that would like to party party and etc etc. whatever it is all the people's of this earth who have "found" their lives do - I envy them a lot.......in many ways it totally bites to be me that's like beyond sucks, I have 0 life right and then I just work to deny myself and take up my cross everyday....wow fun (I'm being sooooo sarcastic) all so jesus has some pleasure in me.....Hebrews 10:38 "Now the just shall live by faith: but if any man draw back, my soul shall have no pleasure in him." I'm about to suffer in the flesh a slew ----- I don't even want to suffer in the flesh ----- like heeding the word of god, the word of god is sadistic in my opinion a) a person is supposed to lose their lives entirelly and become big fat 0's like myself b) they are then supposed to deny themselves and take up their crosses daily and follow jesus oh and by the way if you ever draw back jesus won't have no pleasure in you So it's loose your life suffer suffer suffer suffer in the flesh, no give into no lusts of the flesh ----- or if you will no be no debtor to the flesh, just heaps of deny myself and take up my cross and follow jesus daily...........so jesus can have some sadistic pleasure in me. I'm going to do it!!!!!!!!! I'm going to suffer in the flesh a eon!!!!!!! That's a long time, and stick w/having 0 life, and deny myself and take up my cross and follow jesus daily.......but I don't know if I'm ever going to enjoy this none. I enjoy dragon boating though : ) rest my day all this follow jesus stuff kinda bites. No turning back for me though, my flesh is just going to have to suffer and live w/it!!!!!!! Better be some awesome awesome room in a mansion jesus preparing for me, it should have art supplies, it should have video games ------ it's all of eternity I going to loose my mind if I am just in a garden what watching ducks?????? it better be good!!!!!!!!!! Cause I am not enjoying following jesus none, it sucks!!!!!!! Following jesus hard work, it's hard to not love none the things of the earth, man I need to, sure helps to have my flesh "crucified" Galatians 5:24 "And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts." This off the topic my vein for this entry but Galatians 2:20 "I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me." My life right that I live "in the flesh" I don't live in like this world lives in we are no longer "debtor's to the flesh" Romans 8:12 "Therefore, brethren, we are debtors, not to the flesh, to live after the flesh." NOT TO THE FLESH TO LIVE AFTER THE FLESH!!!!!!!!! ".......the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of god........." Not to live after the flesh that's the idea! YA I know this jesus following stuffs sucks, trust me I know! But he is christ, he will make a nice room in a mansion for you if you deny yourself and take up your cross daily and follow him, hopefully he'll have a big ole plate of nacho's in that room ready to! So I can get to eating nacho's and playing what pac man : ) ya that sounds about right : )

Psalm 82:5 "......they walk on in darkness: all the foundations of the earth are out of course."

Psalm 82:5 "They know not, neither will they understand; they walk on in darkness: all the foundations of the earth are out of course." This earth it is all about things, getting things, having a spendy house, having it all coordinated, bling, flash, this fashion that fashion, etc. etc. ........HELLO out there......."THEY WALK ON IN DARKNESS: ALL THE FOUNDATIONS OF THE EARTH ARE OUT OF COURSE" For reals.
1 John 2:16 "For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world."
My testimony for today is simple that I believe this world is out of course, I believe it!
1 Corinthians 9:24 "Know ye not that they which run in a race run all, but one receiveth the prize? So run, that ye may obtain." They run to they do good things for people to! ALL RUN!!!!! ALL even those of this earth who "know not, neither will they understand; they walk on in darkness......" those of this earth they run to........SO RUN THAT YE MAY OBTAIN! I want to get much more serious about this race, running that I may obtain, love my enemies.....Matthew 5:44-45 "But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you; That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust." Really speaks to me part that verse that says "That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he matheth the sun to rise on the evil and on the good......" That we may be the children of our Father which is in heaven!
It's not enough to just do a good deed here and there I don't think! Nope we need to love our enemies, very well "do good to them that hate you" like our father in heaven who rains on the just and on the unjust! THAT YE MAY BE the children of your Father which is in heaven!
Run that ye may obtain!!!!!!!!!