Going to salem fellowship went well today : ) aka www.brunstad.org "smith's friends"................

Update 4/4/2024 (if people are going to this blog post a ton, on some search to "find proof" that I am a horrible worthless b word like my attackers call me often enough over the years on my blog without saying the b-word but that's basically what they are calling me.................that's sad) I literally donate on my blog near everyday to help fund schools - YOU CAN'T CARE ABOUT THE KIDS AND BE A TOTAL B'WORD YOU CAN'T!

This is the church where I 1st got understanding of the bible and the narrow way. Since then though I've decided the "narrow way" isn't 100% about how you look - aka costume jewelry but how you live. I got proof of some sort....................

Matthew 7:20 "Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them."

If every chick that weared makeup and jewelry was headed to the pits of hell then MATTHEW 7:20 WOULDN'T NEED TO EXIST.........BUT IT DOES. And I know none of you will believe me that Matthew 7:20 exists becuase you alllllllllllll like to hate on makeup wearing jewelry wearing ladies and label them jezebel trash. 

also

Mark 9:23

Jesus said unto him, If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth.

 When guys go to work do they often wear trashy clothing - no they don't -

well guess what

I work in the realistate industry have for years

the jewelry and the makeup is part of my professional "work look"

Going to salem fellowship went well today : )  aka www.brunstad.org "smith's friends"................pic is of the inside their main meeting hall and their band........my daughter said that she was having a hard time hearing the people sing to know what words they were singing ---------- I noticed that to............they got a lot of people playing music up there and it's kinda overpowering  everyone singing in the church (I think they just need a few sisters or brothers to sing into the microphone for every song ----------- I can sing -------- just sayin!!!!!!!!!!!)
   Definately felt the love today : ) Brian accidentally ordered me a snickers candy bar coffee ---------- it wasn't as good as the milky way candy bar coffees they have!
  Definately a step in the right direction for me going to salem fellowship today and working on loving them.
   Sat and chated with yelena, she remembered that I requested their cement turtle to be left in their playground, it's still there : ) I still like the thing : )
   I feel like I need a bible verse to make this blog post all official --- John 13:35 "By this shall all men know that ye are my disciples, if ye have love one to another." Love one another that's my exhortation for the entire body of christ.............I have a lot of love for a lot a lot a lot of christians from like many churches out there I'm glad I do.
  1 Thessalonians 3:12 "And the Lord make you to increase and abound in love one toward another, and toward all men, even as we do toward you:" That's all I got for today............got a cold it's ruff, sore throat. Have a great day earth!

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YA I'M CRAP..........................if you want to deem a person that rather would be rich as crap ya I'm the crappest...........

I don't fit in at any church ok

none

and I never have

and I used to try making people like me

I since gave up that

- I go to a church where I know I don't stand a chance in hell - cause I never do and worse one church on their live video and they could see I was watching the live feed they said "she's here" "we a few times have thought someone would be nice but they turned out to be a b- word" but the pastor didn't say b-word but basically said that

they expect me to be super chippery all the church people do

while I don't have any friends on earth

my family left me 20+ years ago - left me

things are bad for me

I WENT TO THIS CHURCH MADE PEACE WITH THEM...........I just didn't delete all these types of posts. And now people that clearly probably hate me badly, are digging them up getting ready to attack me for their lord "Jesus Christ"

Instead of deleting this post, I'm going to say I once was maybe a "trouble maker" these days I DON'T WANT TO FIGHT ANYBODY. 

I'M TIRED

I'M TIRED OF EVERYONE DEEMING ME A WORTHLESS B-WORD - I realize that will not end until lucifer get's to this earth and comes and get's me 

THIS IS THE OLD ME

I AM NOT THIS PERSON ANYMORE

YA I'M CRAP..........................if you want to deem a person that rather would be rich as crap ya I'm the crappest.....................I've been poor my whole life, I can't afford to donate this much but you all are forcing my hand, cause I feel the need to defend myself...............A WHOLE LIFE OF LOOKING AT ITEMS ONLY ON "CLEARANCE" GET'S TIRING - I WANT TO EXPERIENCE WHAT THE RICH EXPERIENCE. I WANT TO EXPERIENCE NOT HAVING TO GO TO THE CLEARANCE AISLE.......and I know to you all that makes me crap and you must chew me out soon go ahead! Chew me out for your lord "jesus christ" 

I WOULD LIKE RATHER TO LIVE IN A MANSION OR A FEW MANSION THAT MAKES ME WORTHLESS GARBAGE IN MOST OF YOUR MINDS I REALIZE

I DIDN'T GO TO COLLEGE AND GET A BACHELORS IN SCIENCE OF THE ARTS DEGREE TO BE POOR FOREVER

YOU WANT TO BE POOR FOREVER AND BE SUPREME TO ME - GO AHEAD

I GUESS READ THIS BLOG POST AND HATE ON ME FOR YOUR LORD "JESUS CHRIST" WHILE YOUR POOR TO BE "BETTER THEN ME"

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this is the old me I am not this person anymore

Are you christians salem fellowship then show up to the court I'm waiting! 

(ok sheri you are Serena Williams right now god is right)

At this point either salem fellowship has the worst fruit in the earth, or they all just to buisy "fundraising" to read their e-mails. I e-mailed their main macleay e-mail address.........................
god told me I'm Serena williams (basically john macenroe but god used a girl tennis player example).............He told me, I'm right I'm still plenty playing tennis, He said though that I'm the sort that if I'm playing against a player and I view the ball as hitting out of bounds ----------------- it don't matter if the ref (god) tries to tell me that the ball hit inbounds ---------------- I saw it hit out of bounds from where I'm standing it looked to of hit out of bounds -------------- and as a dedicated tennis player that has trained much and has sweated blood (oh geez god was right hahahahahahahahah) I will stomp around the court telling the ref (god) all about it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL ABOUT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!

    I'm playing tennis here people............your continually not replying to my e-mails..............you ball is continually hitting out of bounds!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know how to play tennis.............http://givingittogod.blogspot.com/2011/09/brunstad-christian-church-this-is-how.html

   Don't tell me I don't know how to play tennis, to tell me I'm confused. S--- B-----........when he gave me that "talk" and told me I was no longer welcome --- he said it was "brazen" of me to show up after what I posted online which is another way of saying I ain't welcome no more..............he tried to tell me your my "friends" well then if you my "friends" then reply to one e-mail is that to much to ask to hit ONE STINKING BALL IN THE COURT!!!!!!!!!!!! 

I like john macenroe, and I like Serena williams, I know many you don't, but when you put that much into your faith and then that ball refuses to hit in the court again and again and again and YOUR people is saying it's my fault (yelena told me it's all my fault -------- though I have given her my e-mail repeatedly she could e-mail me ------------- no I been sending her postcards and she ain't replying the wall is up that you all have and somehow I'M GUILTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) I was guilty. But I don't think I'm guilty so much these days -------- am I not trying?????????????????? Am I not e-mailing you?????????????? Is this really some big ummmmmmmmmm war to your church e-mail NO. It ain't no big war to your church e-mail to be asking ----------- hey give me the secret passwords to your secret password protected website for the church so I can know the church times ------------ though I don't think your using ireq for that that seems to just have conferences on it looks to be not sure that's the place http://www.macleaychristianretreat.com/ireg/live/events/

  But I know it exists, surely it exists per your phone message machines answering system...................asking for the passwords that's it....................(said a few foolish things also um uh)

-------------- my beef is not with brunstad.org no, I'm fellowshipping with the norwegians of their church some them said "thank you for attending our church" that's more like it : ) some service : ) 

"""""cause I need a support system""""" - sheri 2024 in her permanent villian era has decided this is the title of this blog post.......................

Update 8/20/2024 pic of bug I took at the zoo.........................

(what I painted today, it's on a giant poster board it's of boating buoys..............jesus is the ultimate buoy in my estimation...........Matthew 7:25 "And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell not: for it was founded upon a rock.")

edit 2015.....(the original post of this was me going on and on about being locked out of salem fellowships church at macleay christian retreat ----------------- I always could've phoned them the good ol' fashion way................I don't need the passwords to their log in site, is it a hassle for me having to call in - ya, but I didn't need to go on the rant I did about it) I might attend a meeting or two there in the future. Ya they read literature of the brothers in front of the church............but not so much on especially their wednesday night services....................I think I can work a way out to be able to go there sometime and not idolize none the brothers no more. Mark 9:23 "Jesus said unto him, If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth." I think the skies well the sky ain't even the limit there's no end to what is "possible" for me........

ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE TO HIM THAT BELIEVETH!

  I am unable to comply with the apostolic christian church of america's "commandments of men" I do not believe in adding to god's word. The elder of the church when he told me I could not become a member of their church right now cause of my behavior he said.......................he was trying to say it wasn't because of the commandments of men, but when he dragged my husband in the room, hoping my husband would take his side and not mine, and my husband took my side, my husband told him "but it is about the commandments of men" Cause the elder of the church was talking much about the "commandments of men" in their church.........it was a issue greately being brought up in that very moment by him --------- I had a whole nother topic to talk with him about that had nothing to do with that churches "commandments of men". I had a benign topic to talk about and he blew it up into something else.
  (((((((I'm supposed to Hebrews 12:14 "Follow peace with all men, and holiness, without which no man shall see the Lord:" I was kicked out of their yahoo group, I was kicked out of their facebook group..............attacked so much I am in gripping terror of them.......only way I'm going to be able to pursue peace and holiness with the apostolic christian church of america is pray for them))))))))))
A. people done know they need to show mercy out there
B. I am a person that deserves mercy like full out I believe
 ...............and moreso I believe showing mercy I will receive mercy it is about to happen!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank god! 

Matthew 5 

7 Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy.

8 Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God.

9 Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God.

10 Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness' sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

11 Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.

12 Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great is your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you.

13 Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men.

14 Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid.

I painted a good painting today pursued some peace, some holiness today............counting today a success for myself. Life it's like a painting, you make bad brush strokes on accident sometimes, but as long as your still alive you have a chance to make the right brush strokes.................and you make enough right brush strokes you pry end up with a masterpiece of some sort by the time you are dead..............that's how I hope my life will end up like. That the "bad circumstances" of life, that they won't destroy me..........2 Corinthians 4:8-10 "We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed; Always bearing about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our body." ---------- I'm perplexed by the apostolic christian church of america right now, they have at least one person this month claiming 'peace with god and man" ----------- how you have peace with god and man if I am currently terrified of your church???????????????????? But supposedly at least 1 of them does???????????? Perplexing to me how that could be the case. I don't feel like they are at peace with me...........I ain't sure how any of them can claim "peace with god and men" but they are.

Have a great week earth!

LOVE

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God looks towards the inward man if we are EVER going to love each other...............I believe we gotta stop hating each other over our "differences"...............

Original title "I am not a expert on many things, but I know jesus consecrated a new living way through the veil that is his flesh.................."

  Original blog post..........better new as of 1/11/2021 blog post at the end of this post................

  If I am afflicted to I have to sit and pretend to enjoy it??? Isaiah 48:10 "Behold, I have refined you, but not as silver; I have tested you in the furnace of affliction." Acts 14:22 "Confirming the souls of the disciples, and exhorting them to continue in the faith, and that we must through much tribulation enter into the kingdom of God." Tribulation/affliction same thing to me these days, been experiences extreme amounts of those items. I don't know if I have some point????? But that there is a battle to be waged, we do not fight against flesh and blood, it is a war we are all in whether we know it or not..............Ephesians 6:12 "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places." I don't take affliction/tribulation well somedays --------- I let my affliction get my eye's off the war we are in. I also have those hippy jesus days, where I'm all having a light light light light yoke, and my burdens are ever so easy and I'm like ahhhhhh ya that is great, how awesome it is to be a christian ------------ then tribulation/affliction happens to me all to often after that sometime ------------- it's a war, it's a war, it's a war, there will be tribulation " that we must through much tribulation enter into the kingdom of God" I need to hold onto the joy of the lord in that tribulation!!!!!!!!!! The joy of the lord is my strength!!!!!!!!!! Nehemiah 8:10 "Then he said unto them, Go your way, eat the fat, and drink the sweet, and send portions unto them for whom nothing is prepared: for this day is holy unto our LORD: neither be ye sorry; for the joy of the LORD is your strength." What a awesome thing to be able to follow jesus like this and crucify my flesh to it's lusts and desires and in that to be able to have jesus's light burden's and easy yoke!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (for those you that don't know ---------- jesus came to this earth in the flesh full out, and consecrated and new and living way.................Hebrews 10:20 "By a new and living way, which he hath consecrated for us, through the veil, that is to say, his flesh;" ---------- aka jesus crucified his flesh it it's lusts and desires -------- he had a flesh like us just like us!!!!!!!!!! Hebrews 4:15 "For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin." I swear it jesus had a real 100% flesh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1 John 4:2 "Hereby know ye the Spirit of God: Every spirit that confesseth that Jesus Christ is come in the flesh is of God:" I mean full out totally jesus came in the flesh)
Romans 8:7-9 "Because the carnal mind is enmity against God: for it is not subject to the law of God, neither indeed can be. So then they that are in the flesh cannot please God. But ye are not in the flesh, but in the Spirit, if so be that the Spirit of God dwell in you. Now if any man have not the Spirit of Christ, he is none of his."
  Powerfully speaks to me romans 8:8 that "they that are IN the FLESH cannot please god." Are you in the flesh? You walking in the lusts of your flesh right now? YOU can't please god doing that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wait few more exclamation points!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Let this sister bring it......... 1 Peter 4:2 "That he no longer should live the rest of his time in the flesh to the lusts of men, but to the will of God."
   2 Corinthians 7:1 "Having therefore these promises, dearly beloved, let us cleanse ourselves from all filthiness of the flesh and spirit, perfecting holiness in the fear of God." It's a filthy thing the flesh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There is "filthiness of the flesh and spirit" we need to cleanse ourselves from!!!!!!!! The flesh is filthy w/it's lusts and desires!!!!!!!!! FILTHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! "they that are IN the FLESH cannot please god." (somedays I'm not as good at making my point as I wish I'd be, the "filthiness of the flesh" is way bigger issue then I'm making it) cause........"they that are IN the FLESH cannot please god."
Psalm 31:6-8 "I hate those who cling to worthless idols; I trust in the LORD.  I will be glad and rejoice in your love, for you saw my affliction and knew the anguish of my soul. You have not handed me over to the enemy but have set my feet in a spacious place."
   "they that are IN the FLESH cannot please god." case you didn't read that bible verse enough.
    I got a american idol dance mat for christmas : ) (ya it's a kids toy) somehow my husband was able to figure out I really wanted that.........been having such a good time dancing w/mp3 player hooked up to it playin snoop dog -------- my husbands family laughed when I said I'm the white chick version of snoop dog, but I am I am a jesus christ ganster. Who needs to get my groove on : ) hahahahahah ---------- keep your fleshes down god likes that stuff!!!!!!!!!! peace out

(my rendition above of "You're Somebody Else" - by Flora Cash)

Sometimes it isn't the "outside" in fact despite how much the USA looks like it just got off the mayflower 15 seconds ago (everyone dresses so "prim and proper here") that god is always always after our hearts.................Ezekiel 11:19 "And I will give them one heart, and I will put a new spirit within you; and I will take the stony heart out of their flesh, and will give them an heart of flesh:" You can be goth, you can be country, you can be into rap music............................it's do you bear fruit or no?????????????????? Luke 6:44 "For every tree is known by his own fruit. For of thorns men do not gather figs, nor of a bramble bush gather they grapes." The heart, that is what God desires...........go ahead, listen to goth music, or country or rap, or christian music...............it's the heart god wants. 

   I choose the song above cause this blog post from 2008 of me I was "outwardly" meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeegggggggggggggggggga looking like "a saint" but inside......................inside wasn't doing to well back then in my estimation. I do not feel I was back then loving people as much as god wants me to basically. 

  ps.............you CAN..................be famous and bear good fruit..........("all things are possible for he who believeth" Mark 9:23 that a person can plentily be rich and/or famous and still have the life jesus came to bring...........my theory do you love people? WE WILL KNOW THEM BY THEIR FRUIT not how many millions of dollars and/or fame they either have or don't have Matthew 7:20 "Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them."

  God looks towards the inward man if we are EVER going to love each other...............I believe we gotta stop hating each other over our "differences" 

1 Samuel 16:7 "But the Lord said unto Samuel, Look not on his countenance, or on the height of his stature; because I have refused him: for the Lord seeth not as man seeth; for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the Lord looketh on the heart."

  2 Corinthians 10:6-8 "And having in a readiness to revenge all disobedience, when your obedience is fulfilled. Do ye look on things after the outward appearance? if any man trust to himself that he is Christ's, let him of himself think this again, that, as he is Christ's, even so are we Christ's. For though I should boast somewhat more of our authority, which the Lord hath given us for edification, and not for your destruction, I should not be ashamed:"

  I include a cute selfie from 1/11/2021 as well.....................

Luke 6:27 "But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you,"............................

Jesus consecrated a new and living way through the veil that is his flesh!.......................

So uh went to one the 2 mainstream christian churches I frequent (I have love for the mainstream christians I just don't think I'm one of them at all - sheri year 2020 injerjecting bzzzzzzzz wrong little mini me from 2008 your a CHRISTIAN IS'T ONE BODY YO!!!!!!!!!!! ONE Romans 12:5 "So we, being many, are one body in Christ, and every one members one of another.") I sat there I'm like wow I'm a smith's friend I really am a member of "brunstad christian church" www.brunstad.org jesus he really did pave a way to go..............Hebrews 10:19-20 "Having therefore, brethren, boldness to enter into the holiest by the blood of Jesus, By a new and living way, which he hath consecrated for us, through the veil, that is to say, his flesh;" I have a brand spanking new going theory, that mainstream christians just focus of where it says "by the blood of jesus" and totally ignore "by a new and living way, which he hath consecrated for us, through the veil, that is to say his flesh" that's my new theory, cause they want to get people in the door -------- well after you through the door and want to really be saved I recommend going directly to www.brunstad.org!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cause there you'll hear about the way jesus consecrated for us to go through the veil that is his flesh as I was telling my husband John 14:6 "Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me." THE WAY!!!!!!!!! The way the new and living way jesus consecrated for us ---- "through the veil, that is to say his flesh" the truth and THE LIFE the way he went he is THE LIFE he who was made perfect in the things he suffered!!!!!!!!!!! Hebrews 2:10 "For it became him, for whom are all things, and by whom are all things, in bringing many sons unto glory, to make the captain of their salvation perfect through sufferings." 1 Peter 5:10 "But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you." First I got to be willing to suffer in the flesh!!!!!!!!!!! And crucify my flesh to it's lusts and desires!!!!!!!!! Galatians 5:24-25 "And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts. If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit." First I must suffer in the flesh then I to like jesus after I have "suffered a while" god will "make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you" Real way jesus paved, and it was through the veil that is his flesh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm maybe really a smith's friend. No use being in the closet about it.

Luke 6:27 "But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you,"............................

I meant to say at the end I'm only attacked lately by the apostolic christian church of america on my you tube these days, because I'm giving money to the apostolic christian church of america every week on my blog that === them not attacking me for you know as long as I give them money pry. 

Revelation 3:2 "........strengthen the things which remain, that are ready to die......".................

Update 10/15/2024 yes sheri hasn't been to church for 3-4 weeks stuff keeps coming up on the weekends. What can I do????????????? I think one weekend my youngest was in town for orthdonist appt. and one weekend there was a birthday party...............it's out of my hands...........if I can't make it to church I can't make it...........

 I'm listening to the June 2008 sister's meeting at brunstad mp3 this the bible verse that spoke to me much tonight........Revelation 3:2 "Be watchful, and strengthen the things which remain, that are ready to die: for I have not found thy works perfect before God." To strengthen the things which remain THAT ARE READY TO DIE! Man that speaks to me, strengthen those brother's and sister which remain -------- that are ready to die!!!!!!!!!! All the people not scared off in your church after hearing that those who are christ's have crucified their fleshes to it's lusts and desires Galatians 5:24 "And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts." THAT REMAIN RIGHT.......and are READY TO DIE!!!!!!!! Man that speaks to me part were it says the people "that are ready to die" like a fire of zeal shoots through me over that! What a fabulous thing that there would be left, there would be some remaining people ............"that are ready to die" Ya strengthen us! I'm ready to die!!!!!! Man I'm ready! They were talking much about love, how important it is to love, that god is love, to love nomadder what, to be fervent in love, unmoveable from love. Matthew 24:12 "And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold." My take on this verse : ) to not let my love for the church (where iniquity will be abounding) grow cold.........they said those that "endure unto the end" aka remain in love........the same shall be saved, to remain, to remain in the church even when iniquity is abounding.......to remain in love w/love for the church. They are right to the smith's friends, it's the very next verse that says......13 "But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved." Since that is the very next verse in Mathew 24, that speaks to me much, that enduring in love is extremely important! 2 Corinthians 12:15 "And I will very gladly spend and be spent for you; though the more abundantly I love you, the less I be loved." They brought up this verse to, speaks to me the same sort of gist least today, even if my ministry causes people to love me less, to remain in love, keep love for the church! By some miracle, I still have love for the church : ) ------- it's pry some honking miracle!!!!!!!!!!!! Much love for christians in general, I have remained in love, though iniquity surely has abounded!!!!!!!!

Luke 6:27 "But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you,"............................

I've been told my whole life "actions speak louder then words" so I'm including some Bodybuilding progress pics these are from 11/2/2020. If people are right and "actions speak louder then words" put on your ear buds for protection then 😂....................................................hahahahahahah

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Genesis 12:3 "And I will bless them that bless thee, and curse him that curseth thee: and in thee shall all families of the earth be blessed."

The things of this world are dung compared to jesus!.........

I am determined to continue and fight the good fight of faith unto the end! Smith's friends
at salem fellowship not long ago raised a ridiculously large amount of money in the past I'd
maybe been sweating it thinking to myself "geez these people are soooo serious about jesus how
can I even compare" Not so much these days : ) 1 Corinthians 15:58 "Therefore, my beloved brethren, be ye stedfast, unmoveable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, forasmuch as ye know that your labour is not in vain in the Lord." I've been so denying myself and taking up my cross and following jesus so much crucifying my flesh to it's lusts and desires follow jesus so much I am I do believe "unmoveable" and there is such a thing as "unmoveable" it's good to be unmoveable, cause you never know when a church is going to give $200,000 or $300,000 maybe start giving away their jewelry and cars and ????? For jesus's sake.......and that could happen. I'm not sweating it none at all Galatians 5:24 "And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts." I can do that, for sure, and I can keep on doing that!
   I'm gunning big time for the prize : ) There was a time it was hard to not give into the lusts of the flesh but over time I've started to not love the things of the earth anymore even I don't even love jewelry anymore - imagine that.
   I am young and I could have many many many years left to follow jesus but who knows?
And time goes fast I think it's best to run this race to win the prize sooner then later so later on in life, my flesh will be extra dead I imagine, I'll be extra buried w/christ, it'll be better when I'm older if I live a long time, having run the race to win the prize clean from my youth like this. That ahhhhhhhhh feeling of yes I am christ's!!!!!!
   Galatians 5:24 "And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts."
   That's going to be nice I imagine super just waking up in the morning and being able to know w/myself ahhhhh I'm jesus's. I kind of feel a bit the ahhhhhhhhh I'm jesus's already : ) but I imagine that'll be extra solidified when I really old and have suffered in the flesh for many many many years like this... it'll be nice. Just so much better to not give into the lusts of the flesh, I can die going the straight and narrow without fear.......sting of death is gone following jesus..........
1 Corinthians 15
55 O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory?

56The sting of death is sin; and the strength of sin is the law.

57But thanks be to God, which giveth us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.

58Therefore, my beloved brethren, be ye stedfast, unmoveable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, forasmuch as ye know that your labour is not in vain in the Lord.

Luke 6:27 "But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you,"............................

To the pastor's of America and the world......

I asked my mom when does she ever hear about christ being crucified? She told me that on Easter she hears "Christ crucified" being preached. 1 Corinthians 2:2 "For I determined not to know any thing among you, save Jesus Christ, and him crucified." That's it that's all paul wanted to know, pastor at the mainstream christian church of which I am a sunday school teacher gave sermon this last week on money ------- paul didn't want to know about 8 billion ways to be blessed from the use of his finances all he wanted "for I determined NOT to know ANY thing among you, save jesus christ, and him crucified" This verse is concerning so much more then jesus dieing on a cross cause surely no church could preach about jesus dieing on the cross every service that would drive people battty...........this cross jesus had up everyday.......denying his own self!!!!!!!..........he who the bible says was tempted in all points like us crucifying his flesh to it's lusts and desire's cause it is a way jesus paved...............Hebrews 10:20 "By a new and living way, which he hath consecrated for us, through the veil, that is to say, his flesh;" Jesus was tempted in all points like us and he had his cross up and he went through the veil that is his flesh and we are to do that to........... Galatians 5:24 "And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts." This bible verse doesn't oh and by the way those people that kind of give into the lusts of the flesh every now and then they are jesus's to ---- NO it don't say that, cause that is not the "new and living way" "which he hath consecrated for us".........it's THROUGH THE VEIL through his flesh he consecrated this way. Those that are jesus's HAVE crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts .........have followed jesus on this "new and living way" through the veil through the flesh, by crucifying it to it's lusts and desires as jesus did himself he was like us tempted in all points!!!!!!!!! Jesus christ crucified his flesh to it's lusts and desires. 1 Corinthians 1:23 "But we preach Christ crucified, unto the Jews a stumblingblock, and unto the Greeks foolishness;" To the pastor of america are you preaching this stuff, or is it only at easter time? If you ain't preaching this stuff, might want to tweak your sermon for next weekend. People need to follow jesus to become one of his, Galatians 5:24 "And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts." Best to let your congregations know that!

I decided I need to suffer in the flesh..........

this is literally what I typed in 2008 - I didn't edit 0 of it..........................

💓little 2008 mini me so bad................

I have a flesh, and somedays I'm like why? Why follow jesus? Why all this suffering in the flesh - for sure jesus wants me to suffer in the flesh I'm 100% about that much......Luke 9:23 "And he said to them all, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me." I end have ended up w/0 life in all this denying myself and following jesus athon I have like no life.......Matthew 10:39 "He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it." I guess that's the silver lining, I find my life losing it. It sucks for me somedays, somedays I want to just like bar hop and like geez I don't even know whatever all it is people w/lives do : ) And the world don't like me much and it bothers me.....John 17:14 "I have given them thy word; and the world hath hated them, because they are not of the world, even as I am not of the world" But I want to endure, I want to keep on keeping on heeding god's word ---- though there is a part of me that would like to party party and etc etc. whatever it is all the people's of this earth who have "found" their lives do - I envy them a lot.......in many ways it totally bites to be me that's like beyond sucks, I have 0 life right and then I just work to deny myself and take up my cross everyday....wow fun (I'm being sooooo sarcastic) all so jesus has some pleasure in me.....Hebrews 10:38 "Now the just shall live by faith: but if any man draw back, my soul shall have no pleasure in him." I'm about to suffer in the flesh a slew ----- I don't even want to suffer in the flesh ----- like heeding the word of god, the word of god is sadistic in my opinion a) a person is supposed to lose their lives entirelly and become big fat 0's like myself b) they are then supposed to deny themselves and take up their crosses daily and follow jesus oh and by the way if you ever draw back jesus won't have no pleasure in you So it's loose your life suffer suffer suffer suffer in the flesh, no give into no lusts of the flesh ----- or if you will no be no debtor to the flesh, just heaps of deny myself and take up my cross and follow jesus daily...........so jesus can have some sadistic pleasure in me. I'm going to do it!!!!!!!!! I'm going to suffer in the flesh a eon!!!!!!! That's a long time, and stick w/having 0 life, and deny myself and take up my cross and follow jesus daily.......but I don't know if I'm ever going to enjoy this none. I enjoy dragon boating though : ) rest my day all this follow jesus stuff kinda bites. No turning back for me though, my flesh is just going to have to suffer and live w/it!!!!!!! Better be some awesome awesome room in a mansion jesus preparing for me, it should have art supplies, it should have video games ------ it's all of eternity I going to loose my mind if I am just in a garden what watching ducks?????? it better be good!!!!!!!!!! Cause I am not enjoying following jesus none, it sucks!!!!!!! Following jesus hard work, it's hard to not love none the things of the earth, man I need to, sure helps to have my flesh "crucified" Galatians 5:24 "And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts." This off the topic my vein for this entry but Galatians 2:20 "I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me." My life right that I live "in the flesh" I don't live in like this world lives in we are no longer "debtor's to the flesh" Romans 8:12 "Therefore, brethren, we are debtors, not to the flesh, to live after the flesh." NOT TO THE FLESH TO LIVE AFTER THE FLESH!!!!!!!!! ".......the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of god........." Not to live after the flesh that's the idea! YA I know this jesus following stuffs sucks, trust me I know! But he is christ, he will make a nice room in a mansion for you if you deny yourself and take up your cross daily and follow him, hopefully he'll have a big ole plate of nacho's in that room ready to! So I can get to eating nacho's and playing what pac man : ) ya that sounds about right : )

Do you have fire??????? And zeal to live for jesus??????? Got fire?????????

Romans 8:14 "For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, they are the sons of God."

I wrote this while in the cult, or church, pry cult.........................so I was attacking the body of christ in this blog post...........that's the "sad state" I was in................................
Revelation 3:16 "So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth." I wonder w/mainstream christianity I wonder if mainstream christians have fire (jumping up and down and singing a lot and raising your hands does not equal fire really, I not sure if mainstream christians have fire???? I really aint????? ----- they aren't like the smith's friends who get up and testify and you can know of their fire and/or lack of or have some idea anyways) And where are the logs they get to stick in their fireplace to have a fire?????? Being that they all appear to believe that jesus died on the cross for their sins and presto they confess jesus is christ and boom they are saved or something to that effect. ----- If salvation is instant, w/a baptismal, or a prayer, if you all really believe salvation is instant and you are boom saved, then how you going to be on fire?????? Unless there is indeed something of my self life that needs to die!!!!!!!!!
I am thankful I believe jesus paved a way for us to go.......Hebrews 10:20 "By a new and living way, which he hath consecrated for us, through the veil, that is to say, his flesh;" There are logs I can stick in the fireplace!!!!! John 12:25 "He that loveth his life shall lose it; and he that hateth his life in this world shall keep it unto life eternal." I have been going on for months now - ok longer then that mourning that I don't have any friends to go to the mall with, and not such a fancy house ----- FOOLISHNESS that is!!!!!!!!!!!! 2 Corinthians 7:10 "For godly sorrow worketh repentance to salvation not to be repented of: but the sorrow of the world worketh death." Isn't that the "sorrow of the world" this woes me I do not have that house or that car, or those friends! Very much so I am not only to not sorrow "the sorrow of the world" but "hateth his life in this world"!!!!!! It's a very foolish thing I have sorrowed after wishing that I had friends to go with me to the mall -- so much better to "hate" my life "in this world"! Surely that is not something that brings me life sorrowing that I do not have friends to hang out with me at the mall etc. But if I hate my life in this world really hate it, I "shall keep it unto life eternal"!
1 John 2:15 "Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him." Don't sorrow cause you don't have the things they have (those that are "of the world")
I am determined to hate my life in this world more then ever, no be doing no more of that "sorrow of the world" stuff which very well there is a "sorrow" of which the world sorrows, there really is a "sorrow of the world" people in the world I find do sorrow that they don't have a hot tub, or a new car, or a whatever : ) over stuffs!!!!!!!! I believe this "sorrow of the world" I believe it truelly exists!!!!!!!!
The truth of the matter is.......1 John 2:17 "And the world passeth away, and the lust thereof: but he that doeth the will of God abideth for ever." The whole world and THE LUST THEROF it's going up in smoke it "passeth away".........."but he that doeth the will of God abideth for ever" It's a fab thing I have 0 friends to go hang out with me at the mall ----- I'm going to hate my life in this world.......and do all I can do ALL I can do to crucify my flesh to it's lusts and desires Galatians 5:24
"And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts." This "world passeth away, and the LUST THEREOF.......but he that doeth the will of god abideth for ever" it's all going up in smoke!!!!!!!!! S - M - O - K - E SMOKE!!!!!!!!!!!! The lusts of this world to, those very lusts that I have STUPIDLY lusted for jewelry for cars, etc. PASSETH AWAY..........BUT HE THAT DOETH THE WILL OF GOD ABIDETH FOR EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!! Man I'm out to hate my life in this world ya hate it, hate the lusts of this world, hate the lusts of my flesh, hate my life in this world HATE IT. Cause in doing that I will "hateth his life in this world shall keep it unto life eternal"
Especially it is on my heart that the lusts of this earth passeth away, how fruitless that is ----- the lusts of the flesh. HOw empty those lusts of the earth are!!!!!!!! They "passeth away"!!!!!!!! But that "he that doeth the will of God abideth for ever"!!!!!!!!! Jesus paved the way, it is a real way he paved........Hebrews 10:20 "By a new and living way, which he hath consecrated for us, through the veil, that is to say, his flesh;" It is god's will that my flesh be crucified to it's lusts and desires ------ it is god's will that I hate my life in this earth and thereby "keep it unto life etermal" The will of god must be that I die!!!!!!!!! To my self life!!!!! And to my flesh - all it's lusts and desires!!!!! A death I must die to my self life, to my flesh, I hope to start dieing that death much!!!!!!!!!!!...........Philippians 3:10 "That I may know him, and the power of his resurrection, and the fellowship of his sufferings, being made conformable unto his death;" DOWN WITH MY FLESH!!!!!!!