"""""cause I need a support system""""" - sheri 2024 in her permanent villian era has decided this is the title of this blog post.......................

Update 8/20/2024 pic of bug I took at the zoo.........................

(what I painted today, it's on a giant poster board it's of boating buoys..............jesus is the ultimate buoy in my estimation...........Matthew 7:25 "And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell not: for it was founded upon a rock.")

edit 2015.....(the original post of this was me going on and on about being locked out of salem fellowships church at macleay christian retreat ----------------- I always could've phoned them the good ol' fashion way................I don't need the passwords to their log in site, is it a hassle for me having to call in - ya, but I didn't need to go on the rant I did about it) I might attend a meeting or two there in the future. Ya they read literature of the brothers in front of the church............but not so much on especially their wednesday night services....................I think I can work a way out to be able to go there sometime and not idolize none the brothers no more. Mark 9:23 "Jesus said unto him, If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth." I think the skies well the sky ain't even the limit there's no end to what is "possible" for me........

ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE TO HIM THAT BELIEVETH!

  I am unable to comply with the apostolic christian church of america's "commandments of men" I do not believe in adding to god's word. The elder of the church when he told me I could not become a member of their church right now cause of my behavior he said.......................he was trying to say it wasn't because of the commandments of men, but when he dragged my husband in the room, hoping my husband would take his side and not mine, and my husband took my side, my husband told him "but it is about the commandments of men" Cause the elder of the church was talking much about the "commandments of men" in their church.........it was a issue greately being brought up in that very moment by him --------- I had a whole nother topic to talk with him about that had nothing to do with that churches "commandments of men". I had a benign topic to talk about and he blew it up into something else.
  (((((((I'm supposed to Hebrews 12:14 "Follow peace with all men, and holiness, without which no man shall see the Lord:" I was kicked out of their yahoo group, I was kicked out of their facebook group..............attacked so much I am in gripping terror of them.......only way I'm going to be able to pursue peace and holiness with the apostolic christian church of america is pray for them))))))))))
A. people done know they need to show mercy out there
B. I am a person that deserves mercy like full out I believe
 ...............and moreso I believe showing mercy I will receive mercy it is about to happen!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank god! 

Matthew 5 

7 Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy.

8 Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God.

9 Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God.

10 Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness' sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

11 Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.

12 Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great is your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you.

13 Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men.

14 Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid.

I painted a good painting today pursued some peace, some holiness today............counting today a success for myself. Life it's like a painting, you make bad brush strokes on accident sometimes, but as long as your still alive you have a chance to make the right brush strokes.................and you make enough right brush strokes you pry end up with a masterpiece of some sort by the time you are dead..............that's how I hope my life will end up like. That the "bad circumstances" of life, that they won't destroy me..........2 Corinthians 4:8-10 "We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed; Always bearing about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our body." ---------- I'm perplexed by the apostolic christian church of america right now, they have at least one person this month claiming 'peace with god and man" ----------- how you have peace with god and man if I am currently terrified of your church???????????????????? But supposedly at least 1 of them does???????????? Perplexing to me how that could be the case. I don't feel like they are at peace with me...........I ain't sure how any of them can claim "peace with god and men" but they are.

Have a great week earth!

LOVE

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That my outward man perish daily!!!!!...............

   I am gripped to not be anything but a pilgrim on this earth not be friends w/the world!!!!!!!!! James 4:4 "Ye adulterers and adulteresses, know ye not that the friendship of the world is enmity with God? whosoever therefore will be a friend of the world is the enemy of God." That my outward man perish daily!!!!!!!!!!! That I don't be walking after the flesh no more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But keep on having my inward man "renewed day by day"............2 Corinthians 4:16-17 "For which cause we faint not; but though our outward man perish, yet the inward man is renewed day by day. For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory;"

   I'm working super hard lately to die daily, have that outward man perishing, listening to brunstad mp3's every day now -------- that my inward man be renewed day by day (I get tired of reading the bible everyday sometime's) We should all ask ourselves ------- are you alive are you thriving in this earth is your flesh very thriving????????? Or is some real crucifying of your flesh to it's lusts and desires going on?????????? I want my outward man to perish!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! To die daily!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1 Corinthians 15:31 I protest by your rejoicing which I have in Christ Jesus our Lord, I die daily. I am super gripped to die daily ------ it's a fab thing.........that I could draw nearer to jesus!!!!!!! That I could be his bride someday!!!!!!!!!!!!

Luke 6:27 "But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you,"............................

Just finished listening to one of DKM "brunstad christian church's" mp3s talking about the need for humility........

Matthew 6:16 "Moreover when ye fast, be not, as the hypocrites, of a sad countenance: for they disfigure their faces, that they may appear unto men to fast. Verily I say unto you, They have their reward." The pharisee's in matthew 6:16 they worked hard to make themselves look humble.............but it wasn't a real humility at all...............it was a show!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

   Just got done listening to one of DKM "brunstad christian church" mp3's were kare smith was talking about the need for humility.......I've been thinking much lately upon what god is so much against "depart from me you workers of iniquity" I've talked at nother area on the web about how god desires us to give to the poor etc. like jesus said sell all you have give to the poor take up your cross and follow me........that there be more equality......how god's will is "perfect" it is "the good and perfect will of god" that we give to the poor that their be more equality on this earth that we store up instead treasure's in heaven for ourselves.........a good a perfect will god has for us...........also this is what I'd also like to add after listening to this mp3 of DKM humility........I believe part of god's perfect will is that we be humble...........love one another...........care for one another care for the poor.Romans 12:2 "And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God." This verse stood out to me listening to the DKM mp3 tonight......Philippians 2:8 "And being found in fashion as a man, he humbled himself, and became obedient unto death, even the death of the cross." I have decided it is especially key that jesus our forerunner, that he "humbled himself, and became obedient unto death". 1 John 2:16 "For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world." Be not "conformed to this world" which is about in general......."the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and THE PRIDE OF LIFE" but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God. Humility is very important I've decided very needed. The "good, and acceptable, and perfect will of god" surely includes that I love even my enemies w/all my heart, that I don't have a high mind, a high prideful sort of view of myself. That I be like jesus.....my forerunner, who humbled himself and became obedient unto death. Humility - it is a good thing. John 3:30 "He must increase, but I must decrease." This is how it is John 3:30 jesus must increase......BUT I MUST DECREASE!!!!!! In my own thoughts about myself!!!!!!!!!!

Luke 6:27 "But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you,"............................

Fresh video edit February 26, 2020 honoring Brunstad Christian Church..................

Video edit February 26, 2020:

https://bcc.no/en/
https://activechristianity.org/about-us/brunstad-christian-church
verses mentioned in video above..................
Jude 1:9 "Yet Michael the archangel, when contending with the devil he disputed about the body of Moses, durst not bring against him a railing accusation, but said, The Lord rebuke thee."

1 Peter 2:17 "Honour all men. Love the brotherhood. Fear God. Honour the king."

1 John 4:8 "He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love."

Original post from 2011:
Hebrews 10:23 "Let us hold fast the profession of our faith without wavering; (for he is faithful that promised;)" I don't give up I don't turn back cause I sooooo believe god is faithful "he is faithful that promised"
God's word is to this day doing much a work in my both hidden and visible life I believe......Isaiah 55:11 "So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it." God's word isn't going to "return unto me void" but it "shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it" so true.
It's good to be in god's word to let god's word do a work in you, I recommend reading the bible daily much and praying daily, pray without ceasing.........Acts 2:21 "And it shall come to pass, that whosoever shall call on the name of the Lord shall be saved." I don't pray everyday but I'm shooting to do that going to work much harder to do that ----- "whosoever shall call on the name of the Lord shall be saved". (maybe cause god'll give all the people that pray the sense in their heads to open their bibles and read em so god's word will do a work in them --- my going theory : ) For god's word is powerful.........Hebrews 4:12 "For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart."
When you feel tempted to give into a lust of the flesh remember (and if your me it's too often a event, but I'm determined man I'm determined to not give into the lusts of the flesh ever again - be made fully conformable to jesus's death -- really working to let that death to the lusts of my flesh super sink in I want to be good and dead and buried w/christ) Galatians 5:24
"And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts." ..... may the lusts of my flesh be forever crucified, may I be for good buried w/christ Romans 6:4 "Therefore we are buried with him by baptism into death: that like as Christ was raised up from the dead by the glory of the Father, even so we also should walk in newness of life." It's pry a good stench the stench of my rotting lusts of my flesh : )
I do much believe as my outer man perishes, my inner man grows. I recommend to anyone reading this blog to attend the apostolic christian church cause well their fleshes do appear to me anyways to be good and dead. Think they work hard to keep their fleshes down, it's good to crucify your flesh to it's lusts and desires. To this day I know for a fact people go to church and do the whole church I'm a christian thing and some people both don't crucify their fleshes to it's lusts and desires and don't plan on doing that either..........1 Corinthians 15:36 "Thou fool, that which thou sowest is not quickened, except it die:"
1 Corinthians 15:47-48 "The first man is of the earth, earthy; the second man is the Lord from heaven. As is the earthy, such are they also that are earthy: and as is the heavenly, such are they also that are heavenly."
1 John 2:16 "For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world."If you are wondering yep I do enjoy being some radical for jesus : ) satan has like 8 billion followers that isn't so unique, the whole who hooo I'm going to be some rebel and worship satan, whatever draw appeal that might've existed once, it's gone I think, plenty people worship satan, plenty of people go out partying and giving into the lusts of the flesh.
I prefer to keep my flesh down - being a radical for jesus in my opinion is the extreme radical thing to do these days ----- maybe not a rebel thing I'll admit ---- I see angels from time to time that's pretty cool : )
Satan's boring, satan bores me - anybody can have a puffed out ego like him and walk around whew hoo look at me I'm so gorgeous ----- It's way harder in my opinion for a person to humble themselves under the mighty hand of god that he will what raise them in due time. I wouldn't say satan is trifling ---- he just bores me ------ you bore me satan. (satan pry isn't sad though to hear this from me - he has a lot of followers you know! they are being ripped off they don't know it but they are all being utterly ripped off)
This blog post won't piss satan off though pry - hopefully my next blog post will or the one after that when my flesh is good and dead, extra get to living for jesus : ) I might even do a lot of good things ------ look out satan I might even do a lot of good things........at the very least I am absolutely hell vent to not give into the lusts of my flesh no more at all I will fellowship in christ's sufferings and be made conformable unto his death.......and pry even do a bit more even past that : )
Smith's friends believe that heeding all god's word you can crush satan under your feet ---- they so right fact, don't know if there's anything at all in all of the smith's friends doctrine I disagree w/at all? If there is I don't know about it? Romans 16:20 "And the God of peace shall bruise Satan under your feet shortly. The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. Amen." I really on this blog post want to say "oooo little baby satan you need a bottle" but I ain't going to taunt satan like that - he is our adversary and he is a formiddable adversary, he got a lot of people following him or just heading to hell in general. But I want to taunt satan I do : ) it's bad, I should'nt want to say to satan "little baby satan want a bottle" satan's pretty thouroughly becoming crushed under my feet. He can be crushed under your feet on the way of life! "bruise satan under your feet shortly" crushed! Under your feet!
I think you know satan can only have power over people that give satan like some chance to uh have power over them - by giving into the lusts of the flesh, by partying, or drinking much alcohol, or doing drugs, gambling, pry even add gossiping to that list, gossiping, pride. Heeding word of god, satan get's less and less and less and less and less chances to tempt you or have any sort of power over your life and eventually heeding god's word......Romans 16:19-21 "For your obedience is come abroad unto all men. I am glad therefore on your behalf: but yet I would have you wise unto that which is good, and simple concerning evil. And the God of peace shall bruise Satan under your feet shortly. The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. Amen. "
Luke 6:27 "But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you,"............................

gossip I've decided is like dogs sniffing other dogs poop.............

I was walking my dog, and man dogs love to sniff other dogs poop, the trail we were walking on I know many dogs have trod so there was no doubt a large array of dog scents for my dog to sniff, and my dog appeared to be extremely determined to sniff every single one of those 8 billion dog scents along the trail! I sat there thinking why, why, why do dogs like sniffing the scent from each other's poop so much? Why is this such a beloved activity of dogs? -- I have not the answer to this mystery of the cosmos : ) but I decided that is what gossip is like.......dogs sniffing other dogs poop.....people on this earth are fasinated with gossip I think, it's all over the tabloids gossip is. I did a topical search on "gossip" at biblegateway.com this pretty good verse.......Leviticus 19:16 "Do not go about spreading slander among your people. Do not do anything that endangers your neighbor's life. I am the LORD." I need to do this verse like for good 1 Corinthians 4:13 "when we are slandered, we answer kindly. Up to this moment we have become the scum of the earth, the refuse of the world." Think on the good instead or just not stew on the negative in general, just "answer kindly". Ephesians 2:6 "And hath raised us up together, and made us sit together in heavenly places in Christ Jesus:" Gossip it is like a dog sniffing another dog's poop whether you or I am reading gossip and all enjoying it or "spreading slander" gossiping myself, speaking evil about anyone anywhere! Sitting in the "heavenly places" speaks to me to of thinking on the things that are above! Colossians 3:1 "If ye then be risen with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ sitteth on the right hand of God." IF YE THEN BE RISEN WITH CHRIST (not in the dogs sniffing other dog's poop gossip land) SEEK THOSE THINGS WHICH ARE ABOVE I recommend not reading the tabloids at all, best when you at the magazine rack of your local grocery store to choose like "family circle" uhhhhh "fitness" magazine magazines that aren't filled to the brim w/gossip. I'm going to work much much harder to just love people and be forgiving of people - not to slander nobody in any way shape or form no more ----- love your enemies - be raised w/christ!

Luke 6:27 "But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you,"............................

1 Corinthians 11:5-15 "But every woman that prayeth or prophesieth with her head uncovered dishonoureth her head: for that is even all one as if she were shaven. For if the woman be not covered, let her also be shorn: but if it be a shame for a woman to be shorn or shaven, let her be covered. For a man indeed ought not to cover his head, forasmuch as he is the image and glory of God: but the woman is the glory of the man. For the man is not of the woman: but the woman of the man. Neither was the man created for the woman; but the woman for the man. For this cause ought the woman to have power on her head because of the angels. Nevertheless neither is the man without the woman, neither the woman without the man, in the Lord. For as the woman is of the man, even so is the man also by the woman; but all things of God. Judge in yourselves: is it comely that a woman pray unto God uncovered? Doth not even nature itself teach you, that, if a man have long hair, it is a shame unto him But if a woman have long hair, it is a glory to her: for her hair is given her for a covering."

  I've had a hard time over the years vocalizing my stance on hair, because I'm on "both sides of the fence" and most 99% of the women out there look to be either hard core on the "never headcover" side of the fence................or most them are on the "headcover all of the time" side of the fence. And I'm neither.........................

I believe it's "the thing" to headcover when you pray, including at church. And the rest of the time if you want your hair down 👍

The things of this world are dung compared to jesus!.........

I am determined to continue and fight the good fight of faith unto the end! Smith's friends
at salem fellowship not long ago raised a ridiculously large amount of money in the past I'd
maybe been sweating it thinking to myself "geez these people are soooo serious about jesus how
can I even compare" Not so much these days : ) 1 Corinthians 15:58 "Therefore, my beloved brethren, be ye stedfast, unmoveable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, forasmuch as ye know that your labour is not in vain in the Lord." I've been so denying myself and taking up my cross and following jesus so much crucifying my flesh to it's lusts and desires follow jesus so much I am I do believe "unmoveable" and there is such a thing as "unmoveable" it's good to be unmoveable, cause you never know when a church is going to give $200,000 or $300,000 maybe start giving away their jewelry and cars and ????? For jesus's sake.......and that could happen. I'm not sweating it none at all Galatians 5:24 "And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts." I can do that, for sure, and I can keep on doing that!
   I'm gunning big time for the prize : ) There was a time it was hard to not give into the lusts of the flesh but over time I've started to not love the things of the earth anymore even I don't even love jewelry anymore - imagine that.
   I am young and I could have many many many years left to follow jesus but who knows?
And time goes fast I think it's best to run this race to win the prize sooner then later so later on in life, my flesh will be extra dead I imagine, I'll be extra buried w/christ, it'll be better when I'm older if I live a long time, having run the race to win the prize clean from my youth like this. That ahhhhhhhhh feeling of yes I am christ's!!!!!!
   Galatians 5:24 "And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts."
   That's going to be nice I imagine super just waking up in the morning and being able to know w/myself ahhhhh I'm jesus's. I kind of feel a bit the ahhhhhhhhh I'm jesus's already : ) but I imagine that'll be extra solidified when I really old and have suffered in the flesh for many many many years like this... it'll be nice. Just so much better to not give into the lusts of the flesh, I can die going the straight and narrow without fear.......sting of death is gone following jesus..........
1 Corinthians 15
55 O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory?

56The sting of death is sin; and the strength of sin is the law.

57But thanks be to God, which giveth us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.

58Therefore, my beloved brethren, be ye stedfast, unmoveable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, forasmuch as ye know that your labour is not in vain in the Lord.

Luke 6:27 "But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you,"............................

psalm 65:4 "Blessed is the man whom thou choosest,........"........

Matthew 12:36 "But I say unto you, That every idle word that men shall speak, they shall give account thereof in the day of judgment."

Psalm 65:4 "Blessed is the man whom thou choosest, and causest to approach unto thee, that he may dwell in thy courts: we shall be satisfied with the goodness of thy house, even of thy holy temple." I love this verse so much. Good stuffs to have a longing to draw near to god......"we shall be satisfied with the goodness of thy house, even of thy holy temple" That's how it is for me when I draw near to god, I find I'm satisfied "with the goodness of thy house....." Ezra 8:22 "For I was ashamed to require of the king a band of soldiers and horsemen to help us against the enemy in the way: because we had spoken unto the king, saying, The hand of our God is upon all them for good that seek him; but his power and his wrath is against all them that forsake him." "......The hand of our god is upon all them for good that seek him........" SEEK GOD!!!!! Draw near to Him. His hand is upon all them for good that seek him!!!!!!! I believe that much. You want to be blessed of god?????? Seek HIM! Pray! Draw near unto god! And he will draw near unto you!! James 4:8 "Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, ye double minded." I myself am going to pray much! Pray without ceasing, draw near to god.....he will draw near to me! His hand will be upon me for good........".....The hand of our God is upon all them for good that seek him........" I've noticed a definate trend in the old testiment, that when the jews in the old testiment really got it in their hearts to seek god, things started going good for them again. 2 Chronicles 19:3 "Nevertheless there are good things found in thee, in that thou hast taken away the groves out of the land, and hast prepared thine heart to seek God." This verse speaks much to me too.....2 Chronicles 12:14 "And he did evil, because he prepared not his heart to seek the LORD." I believe it's important to have a heart prepared to seek god.....pray, pray, pray, pray without ceasing! 1 Thessalonians 5:17 "Pray without ceasing." Psalm 37:25 "I have been young, and now am old; yet have I not seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging bread." It's very likely, my children, and my children's children's children's, will be blessed of god cause I have decided to pray without ceasing and heed god's word. There is blessings to be had from god, (not sure it's like how some pastor's hint, that one will become so very rich) still there's blessing to be had from god I am sure of it, I am sure it is far better to have god's hand on you for the good cause your seeking Him in much prayer.....then like not. There some verse somewhere god talks about trying him....something about see if he won't crack open the heavens......I think god can do a whole lot of good for all us if we just seek Him! Deuteronomy 4:24 "For the LORD thy God is a consuming fire, even a jealous God." He wants you to pray to Him, He wants to to seek Him out, love him w/all your heart all your soul all your mind, and strength.

Why I don't talk smack about the smith's friends no more.......

Sheri 6/12/2025 I bought this shirt cause I thought it was a good "realtor" look (because I work in the realistate industry........I do try when I'm on the job to look like a realtor to really really really have "the look") but I often hate the shiz I buy to look like a realtor. But now that I sewed a new bottom to this shirt 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓........................

Anyone who saw my old blog, will notice I don't talk smack about the smith's friends no more, to pursue peace and holiness w/all men.......and........psalm 50:20-23 "Thou sittest and speakest against thy brother; thou slanderest thine own mother's son These things hast thou done, and I kept silence; thou thoughtest that I was altogether such an one as thyself: but I will reprove thee, and them in order before thine eyes. Now consider this, ye that forget God, lest I tear you in pieces, and there be none to deliver. Whoso offereth praise glorifieth me: and to him that ordereth his conversation aright will I show the salvation of god" "............and to him that ordereth his conversation aright will I show the salvation of god"....yep motivation enough for me : ) "Aright" conversation I really believe is like to not talk smack about nobody........even if the smack exist's that I could talk about and in some cases on this earth it sure does : ) but not to speak that stuffs! Cause those who "............and to him that ordereth his conversation aright will I show the salvation of god" It's good to not talk smack about nobody, to order your conversation aright, I believe jeez psalm 50:23 far as I can tell is god saying hey you order your conversation aright "I'll" god will "show the salvation of god" to that person! I think God can do that!!!!!!!!!! Also verse 22 of psalm 50 I think is so the case when we speak any sort of smack about anyone "now consider this, ye that forget god.........." I don't think none us are thinking about god much when we are talking smack about someone ------ I know in the past when I've talked smack about somebody I wasn't thinking about god at all! And I think also people can talk smack and I think even think to themselves that god is just like them just like that like it says in psalms 50:21 "........thou thoughtest that I was altogether such an one as thyself........" god ain't like that.......god is not a smack talker I'm 100 billion percent sure of that gossip is absolutely not god's gig! Think it's a good idea to fear god and order our conversation aright, not be talking smack, not think to ourselves that god is "...........I was altogether such an one as thyself........" some smack talker to cause He ain't! I think it's something to be zealous for to order my conversation aright, it's a exciting verse verse 23.......".......and to him that ordereth his conversation aright will I show the salvation of god." I'm ordering my conversation aright : )

To the pastor's of America and the world......

I asked my mom when does she ever hear about christ being crucified? She told me that on Easter she hears "Christ crucified" being preached. 1 Corinthians 2:2 "For I determined not to know any thing among you, save Jesus Christ, and him crucified." That's it that's all paul wanted to know, pastor at the mainstream christian church of which I am a sunday school teacher gave sermon this last week on money ------- paul didn't want to know about 8 billion ways to be blessed from the use of his finances all he wanted "for I determined NOT to know ANY thing among you, save jesus christ, and him crucified" This verse is concerning so much more then jesus dieing on a cross cause surely no church could preach about jesus dieing on the cross every service that would drive people battty...........this cross jesus had up everyday.......denying his own self!!!!!!!..........he who the bible says was tempted in all points like us crucifying his flesh to it's lusts and desire's cause it is a way jesus paved...............Hebrews 10:20 "By a new and living way, which he hath consecrated for us, through the veil, that is to say, his flesh;" Jesus was tempted in all points like us and he had his cross up and he went through the veil that is his flesh and we are to do that to........... Galatians 5:24 "And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts." This bible verse doesn't oh and by the way those people that kind of give into the lusts of the flesh every now and then they are jesus's to ---- NO it don't say that, cause that is not the "new and living way" "which he hath consecrated for us".........it's THROUGH THE VEIL through his flesh he consecrated this way. Those that are jesus's HAVE crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts .........have followed jesus on this "new and living way" through the veil through the flesh, by crucifying it to it's lusts and desires as jesus did himself he was like us tempted in all points!!!!!!!!! Jesus christ crucified his flesh to it's lusts and desires. 1 Corinthians 1:23 "But we preach Christ crucified, unto the Jews a stumblingblock, and unto the Greeks foolishness;" To the pastor of america are you preaching this stuff, or is it only at easter time? If you ain't preaching this stuff, might want to tweak your sermon for next weekend. People need to follow jesus to become one of his, Galatians 5:24 "And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts." Best to let your congregations know that!

I decided I need to suffer in the flesh..........

this is literally what I typed in 2008 - I didn't edit 0 of it..........................

💓little 2008 mini me so bad................

I have a flesh, and somedays I'm like why? Why follow jesus? Why all this suffering in the flesh - for sure jesus wants me to suffer in the flesh I'm 100% about that much......Luke 9:23 "And he said to them all, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me." I end have ended up w/0 life in all this denying myself and following jesus athon I have like no life.......Matthew 10:39 "He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it." I guess that's the silver lining, I find my life losing it. It sucks for me somedays, somedays I want to just like bar hop and like geez I don't even know whatever all it is people w/lives do : ) And the world don't like me much and it bothers me.....John 17:14 "I have given them thy word; and the world hath hated them, because they are not of the world, even as I am not of the world" But I want to endure, I want to keep on keeping on heeding god's word ---- though there is a part of me that would like to party party and etc etc. whatever it is all the people's of this earth who have "found" their lives do - I envy them a lot.......in many ways it totally bites to be me that's like beyond sucks, I have 0 life right and then I just work to deny myself and take up my cross everyday....wow fun (I'm being sooooo sarcastic) all so jesus has some pleasure in me.....Hebrews 10:38 "Now the just shall live by faith: but if any man draw back, my soul shall have no pleasure in him." I'm about to suffer in the flesh a slew ----- I don't even want to suffer in the flesh ----- like heeding the word of god, the word of god is sadistic in my opinion a) a person is supposed to lose their lives entirelly and become big fat 0's like myself b) they are then supposed to deny themselves and take up their crosses daily and follow jesus oh and by the way if you ever draw back jesus won't have no pleasure in you So it's loose your life suffer suffer suffer suffer in the flesh, no give into no lusts of the flesh ----- or if you will no be no debtor to the flesh, just heaps of deny myself and take up my cross and follow jesus daily...........so jesus can have some sadistic pleasure in me. I'm going to do it!!!!!!!!! I'm going to suffer in the flesh a eon!!!!!!! That's a long time, and stick w/having 0 life, and deny myself and take up my cross and follow jesus daily.......but I don't know if I'm ever going to enjoy this none. I enjoy dragon boating though : ) rest my day all this follow jesus stuff kinda bites. No turning back for me though, my flesh is just going to have to suffer and live w/it!!!!!!! Better be some awesome awesome room in a mansion jesus preparing for me, it should have art supplies, it should have video games ------ it's all of eternity I going to loose my mind if I am just in a garden what watching ducks?????? it better be good!!!!!!!!!! Cause I am not enjoying following jesus none, it sucks!!!!!!! Following jesus hard work, it's hard to not love none the things of the earth, man I need to, sure helps to have my flesh "crucified" Galatians 5:24 "And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts." This off the topic my vein for this entry but Galatians 2:20 "I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me." My life right that I live "in the flesh" I don't live in like this world lives in we are no longer "debtor's to the flesh" Romans 8:12 "Therefore, brethren, we are debtors, not to the flesh, to live after the flesh." NOT TO THE FLESH TO LIVE AFTER THE FLESH!!!!!!!!! ".......the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of god........." Not to live after the flesh that's the idea! YA I know this jesus following stuffs sucks, trust me I know! But he is christ, he will make a nice room in a mansion for you if you deny yourself and take up your cross daily and follow him, hopefully he'll have a big ole plate of nacho's in that room ready to! So I can get to eating nacho's and playing what pac man : ) ya that sounds about right : )

Ever make follow jesus into some grueling task?...........

Matthew 11:29-30 "Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." Somedays I have made following jesus into some gianormous daunting task...thinking to myself ok I need to do x number of good works etc. etc. Worrying about "works" about something that I don't think I should be worrying about like that, doing good works is great, and it's fab to do some but jesus yoke is easy, and his "burden is light" 2 Corinthians 11:3 "But I fear, lest by any means, as the serpent beguiled Eve through his subtilty, so your minds should be corrupted from the simplicity that is in Christ."

What I need to do everyday I think is hate my life in this world John 12:25 "He that loveth his life shall lose it; and he that hateth his life in this world shall keep it unto life eternal." Love not this earth or the things in it 1 John 2:15 "Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him." That's my mission these days : ) good works I might do some those to : ) but I think it's not good when I sweat over the idea worry much if I have enough good works or no, get heeding John 12:25 down pat and 1 John 2:15 down pat is my goal, fact it's pry extremely good that I don't have such a fab list of good works, that sure does help w/my being meek and lowly of heart ---- that and man I'm scarcely saved it's ridiculous, scarcely at best! It's a real battle for me to not love this world or the things in it.......but worth it, I need that light yoke jesus had. I need to no more be no sort of friend with this world, not love the things of this world or this world no more! 1 John 4:17 "Herein is our love made perfect, that we may have boldness in the day of judgment: because as he is, so are we in this world." Jesus christ was meek and "lowly in heart" I think he didn't own much, I think he lived a very simple life ----- this just my theory. From all I can gather about jesus, he cared for others, was very giving of his time and whatever he could give to help people in anyway........he layed his life down I believe to do the will of god.....such is my going theory : ) If I give into the lusts of the flesh........I'm not doing the will of god!!!!!!! But besides that I think god desire for me us/to be as jesus is........."because as he is, so are we in this world" and that is meek and lowly in heart - humble, humble humble. Humble myself and pray for my enemies, and love them and do good to them. Jesus looking at jesus's life on this earth really think he cared about people a lot.....Deuteronomy 15:11
"For the poor shall never cease out of the land: therefore I command thee, saying, Thou shalt open thine hand wide unto thy brother, to thy poor, and to thy needy, in thy land." Not just for my salvation sake do I need to "crucify my flesh to it's lust's and desires" but to be able to "open thine hand wide" that's not just a tiny somewhat open hand really speaks to me that that is a hand opened "wide" jesus I believe he wasn't just humble and meek "lowling in heart" he was extremely giving, he hits me as having his hand opened wide while he was on this earth ---- and he was lowly and meek while doing it......his heart was there his heart was for people, people's needs, more then just for people to be saved I think, for their health, for their well being. Proverbs 13:7 "There is that maketh himself rich, yet hath nothing: there is that maketh himself poor, yet hath great riches." I'm determined to be the type that "maketh himself poor, yet hath great riches" that's fab way to be I think! It's good to give, it's good to have your hand opened as wide as you can give as much as your can "....unto thy brother, to thy poor, and to thy needy, in thy land" you know whichever of that list you decide to give to a heap I think is fine : )