I've gotten to sick it's a crisis already.....................

Switchfoot is THE band I'm all about them. Last night at bible study, it was demented the joke I made, so sick I've gotten, and worse worse oh ya there's worse we have this daily bible study devotional do dad thingy mabob that's how living hopes serious coffee's work w/workbooks. I'm all writing insane buisiness to god in the thing...............crude at this rate..........not only will I not share any my thoughts, opening up the bible study workbook is aye. man. not so a go, not so a green light there. I used a highlighter and a red pen cause I'm demented like that! Hell I might even go buy some extra s p e c i a l highlighters for the occasion and glitter I feel I need glitter
   I made a mess of me ok, just like this song says..........and there ain't no drug, there ain't no drug. It's jesus or freaking caos for me. Freaking caos.
   I've gotten to good at lieing to myself............
I've told myself it's plenty ok to pray to satan I'm just being his buddy afterall
and if per say you are spiritually struggling a bunch and satan is in you ROCK AND ROLL


But this is messed up, I'm sure of it. This is messed up. Up is Up! Why would any us want satan? Why? I think satan if you going to go that route wouldn't that count as a "work of the flesh:" will that ain't going to lead a person to heaven. Galatians 5:19-20 "Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are these; Adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness, Idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies," Listening to http://www.bnapostolicchristian.com/index.php?option=com_wrapper&view=wrapper&Itemid=110
well that link should lead ya to it : ) hahahahah pastor said, to look for a person with a hole.........................so maybe this crisis ok! Gotta have a crisis to have a need to draw near to jesus I think.........course I'm defcon 5........don't worry earth if your crisises are littlier I'm DEFCON 5.  I greately suspect the lead singer of switchfoot to of also been at defcon 5 at one point. Defcon 5 apparently makes some good music : )
  Have a great week earth : ) 
  

I do want to have a clean inside of my cup!....................

  Blessed Be Apostolic Christian Church of America 

may Jesus Christ our Lord accept your repentances 

and usher you into his beloved and may you dwell in green pastures for all the days of your lives. 

(apostolic christian church of america and living hope church and the rest of the body of christ xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo valentine ON) As you can see on this package it says "feel light and clean inside" ya isn't that what most us want? I want that! Luke 11:39 "And the Lord said unto him, Now do ye Pharisees make clean the outside of the cup and the platter; but your inward part is full of ravening and wickedness." These words been man on me, "full of ravening and wickedness" I told one the leading brother's of my aunts apostolic christian church of america today................I need inside my cup to get clean, it just does no good to be in a huff everytime I don't get my way. And it's just horrible in general the idea of having ones inward part "FULL of ravening and wickedness" --------- I want to "feel light and clean inside" : ) light and clean!
  This verse also super spoke to me lately, was just good to hear and on the topic.........John 3:20 "For every one that doeth evil hateth the light, neither cometh to the light, lest his deeds should be reproved." Thank god I don't hate the light!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank god I'm willing to go to His word, and pray...............confess my sins, which is a long tally - YIKES! speaks to me "least his deeds should be reproved" REPROVE MY DEEDS PLEASE JESUS! I want my cup clean and light!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not full of ravening and wickedness NO MORE!
  Love people, pray for people, no more walking off in no huff cause things didn't work out as I planned!!!!!!! I hope that happens no more. I hope I can humble myself. Be like where I need to be to be saved! Not think myself to be something greater then I am no more! For I recogn we all are but DUST! That's what I recogn anyways : ) Isaiah 66:2 "For all those things hath mine hand made, and all those things have been, saith the LORD: but to this man will I look, even to him that is poor and of a contrite spirit, and trembleth at my word." well one thing at a time myself one thing at a time!
   uhhhhhhhhhh, ya um, so like this weekend...............I didn't do my usual mo, I actually sat by a sister, she was glad I could tell glad I sat by her ------------------ I was glad she was glad. I wish the mush fest stopped there..............I gave my aunt a hug after church and a brother gave me one those apostolic christian farewell thingies which I enjoyed : ) and one sister put her arm around me.............all the warm and toasty I was enjoying much this weekend : ) Oh and at living hope a brother also put his hand on my back and blessed me..........the mush fest follows me with both the churches : ) and I enjoy it at both them : )
   ummmm so uh, follow jesus n'stuff cause uh man this ravening and wickedness stuffs aye, it'll like bite a person in the ..........................sooner or later truuuuuuuuuuuuussssssssst me. More warm and toasty, less ravening and wickedness : )
   Have a great week earth : )

A plea from a misfit to christianity...................

Please please please, let the misfits attend your churches! I get why the smith's friends despise me so, me and timotheus ayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm oh more code myself, ah you've gotten very good at that. They have eyeballs after all, yelena told me "we saw you face to face" ooooooooooooo snap!
   Which it's horrible it's horrible that I've struggled so long so much that I've been kicked out of a church (well technically I've been locked out of their church). But my plea to the rest of christianity which will hopefully listen to me is to let the rag tag bunch go to your church ---------- jesus was after us after all! Mark 2:17 "When Jesus heard it, he saith unto them, They that are whole have no need of the physician, but they that are sick: I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance."
  Nobody needs jesus more then me, I'm sick! It's SICK to EVER have up be down and down be up like that! But good news : ) next time "the green light starts pulsing" I'm going against (which is for, up is down down is up) myself and I'm going to drop everything and pray! And I already know when the next time it's going to happen, it's going to be when I get lazy, when I'm not in god's word so much - which I hope to not get that way - heck I'm maybe so weak that'd be a real bad thing! But anyways my point is jesus came to save the MISFITS! You know I choke up when I watch that christmas movie, the one with the misfit toys..............every christmas I watch that movie..................I hid my tears. Thankfully somebody loved the misfit toys - JESUS! Thankfully somebody wanted to rescue us. It's horrible being one the misfit toys nobody wants hardly the misfit toys no, and why would they, no they want the fancy pretty beverely hills barbie - oh but wait jesus wants to save you to beverely hills barbie (I juuuuuuuust needed a example toy, ahhhhhhh work with me here god) So I choke up, and tear up every time I watch that christmas movie, one part of that movie gets me every single time!
  Also I'd like to remind god and christianity, that I want jesus more then anything, he's the one I love, he's my hearts desire. He's what I'm working to live for.
  I've gotten tired of being so despised, but if I fully give my life to jesus it's extremely hopeful for me (which I'm fully working hard at doing)  1 Corinthians 1:28 "And base things of the world, and things which are despised, hath God chosen, yea, and things which are not, to bring to nought things that are:"
  Yelena told me not to treat the church like a hospital and I get what she's saying, not to like not try all week and then like just show up to like be cpr'd...................but some weeks seriously, I'm struggling so much to go to church for some cpr IS MY ONLY OPTION I'm saying sometimes I'm struggling THAT MUCH..........if your sick right...........makes sense to go where you can be healed. I'm sick! Real sick! real real real real sick. And there's only 1 person that can heal me and that is jesus! People should let me go to church!
  If that means put out the medic cots then put em out! I'm SICK! Jesus came for me! That's why many churches have people walk up to the front to be prayed for thank god many you do that - the sick we need prayer sometimes! Some cpr some sundays!
   I ain't always healthy, I ain't always well, ya I should be always healthy, I should eat sleep and breath god's word..........so I never fall, so I never hit a bad time..........but sometime's bad times happen, people die, you car breaks down I don't know? Your a stupid weak ass prideful fool like me off in stupid idiot fool land........and jump off the fool cliff! IT HAPPENS! Well go get you some CPR then!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 

God I know he see's me he's always watching what I do, I'm never alone, I'm being followed...........

I looked up to god this sunday, twice at my aunts church.............I'm never alone, I'm being followed, someone's always watching what I do, never alone.................................GOD'S WATCHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  How I relate to this song.................
"As I'm falling
Bloody roaring
Still I'm calling out
I'm calling out"
More lyrics: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/d/duran+duran/#share

See the lead singer of duran duran, he knows god's watching him all the freaking TIME. Still I'm calling out, I'm calling out --------------- he's still praying. Well that's my interpretation of the song, and I think it would likely be accurate, I have spoken in code myself to so! Me and timotheus uh uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh uh..........which by the way is me talking in code..........ya crack out yer bible calculators now if you wish ; )

  Well geez, you know jesus has made a utter fool of me, when little kids are on to me now - little kids. But anyways, god's always, always, always, always, watching! Just letting ya all know!
   I wish I could blind god really, lovingly blind him, it'd only take a second god, I'd make it as painless for ya as possible. Alas none us I think can blind god, all we can do is do our bestest today I think.
  And don't all be thinking with yourselves, we I'm not doing that sort of stuffs ever, I only fib every now and then or lust for a worldly good every now and then ------------ GOD'S WATCHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  And AND AND he really is no respector of persons, which means any fool that repents ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh : ) Acts 10:34-35 "Then Peter opened his mouth, and said, Of a truth I perceive that God is no respecter of persons: But in every nation he that feareth him, and worketh righteousness, is accepted with him." CHOP CHOP TIME TO GO AND "WORKETH RIGHTEOUSNESS" AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
((originally I had a little sidenote at the end this post.........aka a few minutes ago............god's got me fearing Him so much right now)) OK god, OK! You win!
  

Me the executioner, executing me the worm!.....................

me the executioner: Any last words worm?


me the worm: I love the darkness so much I've clean ran from god and now I see my fool ways, for I hid the truth from myself that's why god told me to tell the apostolic christian church what was said of timotheus........1 Corinthians 16:9-11 "For a great door and effectual is opened unto me, and there are many adversaries. Now if Timotheus come, see that he may be with you without fear: for he worketh the work of the Lord, as I also do. Let no man therefore despise him: but conduct him forth in peace, that he may come unto me: for I look for him with the brethren."

me the executioner: so uh wait there what you and timotheus been up to?

me the worm: fun, I mean micheif!

me the executioner: So that means you plead guilty?

Me the worm: RIDICULOUSLY guilty sir.

me the executioner: ok then, pulling the noose release uh thingy mabob

Me the worm the final hours: ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh lord I love you more then ALL THE DARKNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

See when you work for god, ya satan can come and attack ok but................. Job 42:2 “I know that you can do all things; no purpose of yours can be thwarted.
  to quote the beyonce song on the previous post jesus............."your kiss got me hoping you save me right now" Right now lord please. I want you!

edit 2015...........going to try and go back to salem fellowship cause I need a support system. I am unable to comply with the apostolic christian church of america's "commandments of men" I do not believe in adding to god's word.............

  Blessed Be Apostolic Christian Church of America 

may Jesus Christ our Lord accept your repentances 

and usher you into his beloved and may you dwell in green pastures for all the days of your lives. 

(what I painted today, it's on a giant poster board it's of boating buoys..............jesus is the ultimate buoy in my estimation...........Matthew 7:25 "And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell not: for it was founded upon a rock.")

edit 2015.....(the original post of this was me going on and on about being locked out of salem fellowships church at macleay christian retreat ----------------- I always could've phoned them the good ol' fashion way................I don't need the passwords to their log in site, is it a hassle for me having to call in - ya, but I didn't need to go on the rant I did about it) I might attend a meeting or two there in the future. Ya they read literature of the brothers in front of the church............but not so much on especially their wednesday night services....................I think I can work a way out to be able to go there sometime and not idolize none the brothers no more. Mark 9:23 "Jesus said unto him, If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth." I think the skies well the sky ain't even the limit there's no end to what is "possible" for me........

ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE TO HIM THAT BELIEVETH!

  I am unable to comply with the apostolic christian church of america's "commandments of men" I do not believe in adding to god's word. The elder of the church when he told me I could not become a member of their church right now cause of my behavior he said.......................he was trying to say it wasn't because of the commandments of men, but when he dragged my husband in the room, hoping my husband would take his side and not mine, and my husband took my side, my husband told him "but it is about the commandments of men" Cause the elder of the church was talking much about the "commandments of men" in their church.........it was a issue greately being brought up in that very moment by him --------- I had a whole nother topic to talk with him about that had nothing to do with that churches "commandments of men". I had a benign topic to talk about and he blew it up into something else.
  (((((((I'm supposed to Hebrews 12:14 "Follow peace with all men, and holiness, without which no man shall see the Lord:" I was kicked out of their yahoo group, I was kicked out of their facebook group..............attacked so much I am in gripping terror of them.......only way I'm going to be able to pursue peace and holiness with the apostolic christian church of america is pray for them))))))))))
A. people done know they need to show mercy out there
B. I am a person that deserves mercy like full out I believe
 ...............and moreso I believe showing mercy I will receive mercy it is about to happen!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank god! 

Matthew 5 

7 Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy.

8 Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God.

9 Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God.

10 Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness' sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

11 Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.

12 Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great is your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you.

13 Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men.

14 Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid.

I painted a good painting today pursued some peace, some holiness today............counting today a success for myself. Life it's like a painting, you make bad brush strokes on accident sometimes, but as long as your still alive you have a chance to make the right brush strokes.................and you make enough right brush strokes you pry end up with a masterpiece of some sort by the time you are dead..............that's how I hope my life will end up like. That the "bad circumstances" of life, that they won't destroy me..........2 Corinthians 4:8-10 "We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed; Always bearing about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our body." ---------- I'm perplexed by the apostolic christian church of america right now, they have at least one person this month claiming 'peace with god and man" ----------- how you have peace with god and man if I am currently terrified of your church???????????????????? But supposedly at least 1 of them does???????????? Perplexing to me how that could be the case. I don't feel like they are at peace with me...........I ain't sure how any of them can claim "peace with god and men" but they are.

Have a great week earth!

LOVE

I've been talking about a dream in my sleep - "we're awakening"...................

Alright I'm buying some christian music asap, some this buisiness not so bad. I can way relate to this song,, been talking in my sleep, we're awakening!
  Know ya know what you are walking away from when you walk away from the flesh! YA DEATH! Romans 8:13 "For if ye live after the flesh, ye shall die: but if ye through the Spirit do mortify the deeds of the body, ye shall live."
Hebrews 12:4 "Ye have not yet resisted unto blood, striving against sin." No coincidink that I favour the songs about pain and agony. I'm on a death vein these days on my blog, this might even be permanent............our worms must DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Our fleshes the lusts of them must DIE Romans 6:8 "Now if we be dead with Christ, we believe that we shall also live with him:"
  What ya going to do? Ya going to keep walking in the lusts of the flesh til ya die??????????????? Is that the plan???????????? Agony on either side of the fence, better bleed jesus's death! Jesus sure a lot better to have in yourself then demons and I do speak from experience!
  As I proved in like 4 posts ago, we all going to die one these 2 deaths, going to die anyways! Bestest die the good death in jesus, like while you's on earth, I'm talking about while we are on earth! That we not walk in the flesh no more, but be "dead with christ"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT OUR WORMS DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My flesh doesn't want to follow jesus at all............my spirit is willing most the time : ) hahahahahahahahaahahaha......................

Ahhh here's the song, you are not alone when you have jesus!

  Blessed Be Apostolic Christian Church of America 

may Jesus Christ our Lord accept your repentances 

and usher you into his beloved and may you dwell in green pastures for all the days of your lives. 

I really wanted to put a rock n'roll video up but having a hard time sifting through the heavy metal mess to find the gems.................but this up is down and down is up "the concision" has limits! Philippians 3:2
"Beware of dogs, beware of evil workers, beware of the concision." They try to glorify the flesh and it's lusts but being alone isn't glorifiable so much I find these lyrics check em http://www.lyricsfreak.com/a/amorphis/alone_20007489.html
especially the end of the song caught my eye.........
"I've got more companions
When I'm all alone
Flesh is fetching"
 uhhhhhhhhhhh hello you are saying your all alone (ya and guess what those "more companions" are????????? oh ya I know you all ain't that slow on the uptake) John 12:24 "Verily, verily, I say unto you, Except a corn of wheat fall into the ground and die, it abideth alone: but if it die, it bringeth forth much fruit." I can't put up the amorphis video for that song on my blog to x rated. Being alone and demon possessed ain't cool you can sing about it alright but it ain't cool. In the concision they are trying to make these things seem cool - I'm unconvinced. 
My flesh doesn't want to follow jesus at all............my spirit is willing most the time : ) hahahahahahahahaahahaha. I'm having a crisis still, either my flesh dies or my crisis continues, so my flesh better get to getting to being dead.
  stuff I wrote on the apostolic christian church of america's facebook page today (among other things)............I realize, that reason serving god is such a battle for me is cause I have served mammon Matthew 6:24 "No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon."

gotta knock off the serving the mammon the FLESH the FLESH.........surely I need to be dead with jesus! Romans 6:8 "Now if we be dead with Christ, we believe that we shall also live with him: " the dead with christ needs to happen, not my flesh staying alive not that!

Matthew 26:41 "Watch and pray, that ye enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak." So true so true this bible verse is, the flesh is weak, really really really really really really really really really really WEAK!

  My flesh flat out doesn't want what my spirit wants, and my spirit doesn't want what my flesh wants! Or as paul put it..........Galatians 5:16-17 "This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfil the lust of the flesh. For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that ye cannot do the things that ye would."
1 Peter 2:11 "Dearly beloved, I beseech you as strangers and pilgrims, abstain from fleshly lusts, which war against the soul;" It's a real battle, when your attempting to walk in the spirit man the flesh just ain't going for that none! But I don't see any choice but to crucify my flesh, cause if I walk in the flesh I'LL DIE Romans 8:13 "For if ye live after the flesh, ye shall die: but if ye through the Spirit do mortify the deeds of the body, ye shall live."

1 Peter 3:18 "For Christ also hath once suffered for sins, the just for the unjust, that he might bring us to God, being put to death in the flesh, but quickened by the Spirit:"

Romans 8:4 "That the righteousness of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit."

 Luke 20:18 "Whosoever shall fall upon that stone shall be broken; but on whomsoever it shall fall, it will grind him to powder."
   wow sheri that is a crisis hahahahahahahah (funky town, funky town) hahahahahaahahahahaahah I know myself! My flesh doesn't want to die, no way, no. uh no. uh. no.
   Walking in the spirit, I mean how much tbn in a day can a person watch? I like rock n'roll that's what my flesh likes, I don't know about this christian music stuffs. All the christian singers are so flowery, what about blood sweat and tears???????????? The pain! The agony! My ears bleeding in joy! What about that?? I don't even know about this flowery christian musics stuffs? Doesn't seem delightful to my flesh really. Is my spirit supposed to enjoy that music? Hello spirit? Having a good time there? vbs campire times don't forget you's signed up for that!
   Though yesterday watching joel osteen I was entertained, and I do like jan crouch a slew : ) pink hair ya that's one my people : ) anyways, man joel osteen was preaching to a entire massive football like super bowl sized stadium, maybe no bigger then super bowl size, massive, all the seats full, and I listened to what he was talking about curious, curious what could draw this mass of people...............hope. He was speaking hope towards them. People want hope!
   Not that I've attained right............but I press forward.............Philippians 3:12 "Not as though I had already attained, either were already perfect: but I follow after, if that I may apprehend that for which also I am apprehended of Christ Jesus."
  Either the worm dies, or the worm FRIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Philippians 3:10 "That I may know him,....." that's why to deny yourself and take up your cross and follow jesus daily that you may know him....................

  Blessed Be Apostolic Christian Church of America 

may Jesus Christ our Lord accept your repentances 

and usher you into his beloved and may you dwell in green pastures for all the days of your lives. 

This is the verse that spoke to me at church today Philippians 3:10 "That I may know him, and the power of his resurrection, and the fellowship of his sufferings, being made conformable unto his death;" Especially the words "that I may know him" that's why I deny myself and take up my cross and follow jesus everyday "that I may know him" And also the reverse is true that he may know me! Matthew 7:23 "And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity." There are going to be people jesus is going to tell them that he never knew them! Their worms didn't die!!!!!!!!!!!! Isaiah 66:24
"And they shall go forth, and look upon the carcases of the men that have transgressed against me: for their worm shall not die, neither shall their fire be quenched; and they shall be an abhorring unto all flesh."
   Also today pastors talked about haman Esther 3:5 "And when Haman saw that Mordecai bowed not, nor did him reverence, then was Haman full of wrath." Pride is a worm!!!!!!!! A worm that needs to DIE! I recommend hating pride like in yourselves like in ourselves hate that WORM that it might die while we are on this earth that we not go to hell where "their worm shall not die"  Proverbs 8:13 "The fear of the LORD is to hate evil: pride, and arrogancy, and the evil way, and the froward mouth, do I hate."
   Oh anyways, ya I've done gone the idiot haman route before : ) better to be humble! God'll hear your prayers better if you are humble it all goes so much smoother - trust me on this one.
   Anyways, today at my aunt's apostolic christian church of america (that's a mouthful : ) I enjoyed watching the brothers and sisters work in the kitchen and clean the tables after lunch time...........I've figured out that they've kept this lunch time thing going cause they so zealous to serve each other (don't be's all thinking with yourselves there ain't no saints that have kooky ideas cracked in their heads to love and serve each other on this earth - oooooooooooo they exist ok : ) Galatians 6:10 "As we have therefore opportunity, let us do good unto all men, especially unto them who are of the household of faith." I get a real kick out of watching them clean, one'll tidy up all the napkins and condiment containers, one'll inch over some the cups, nother will come by and pick up those cups ------------------ trust me it's entertaining : ) And man the brother that cleans the tables, the mc donalds employee's need to watch this brother in action (sometime's at mc donalds woefully the tables are less then stellar --------- it's always like mayonaise and buisiness and I don't want to have anything to do with somebody elses mayonaise - just sayin ------ even if you wipe the mayonaise with a napkin the trace elements of another persons mayonaisse is still on that table!) Gotta get the bleach water, do it up real good, wipe a table 2 times 3 times so it's good and clean!
   And uh have a great week earth : ) I feel bad for the smith's friends, the www.brunstad.org church in my haman athon, they didn't kiss my butt juuuuuuuuuussssssssstt right that is some of my entire reason for my entire huff - RIDICULOUSNESS on my part. I'm way better off in the lowly place. Well geez I'm the fool with the fool logic that has decided I'm my aunt's churches cookie king for the rest of my stay on this earth ------- cause fool logic fools we like to figure out and impliment the least amount of effort of saintly effort to uh you know make god happy : ) which is completely foolish of me, I should want to be all doing like many many spectacularly saintly stuffs! That'd be smart! That'd be the bestest way to play it. Who I foolin, like I'd even know how to serve god's people that much.
   A blog and some ya get cookies : ) hahahahahahah hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahaahahahahahaahah hahahahahahahaahahahahahaaha hahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahaahahahahah
   But uh you know long as my like worm dies n'stuff, dead worm is a dead worm, not a stupid idiot haman athon one, dead one, dead worm. That's the idea. yep. dead with jesus. dead with jesus. Romans 6:8
"Now if we be dead with Christ, we believe that we shall also live with him:" oh yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa oh yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa dead worm : ) dead fool worm : ) dead worm : )
  Having pizza tonight : )

This little light of mine song by myself.......my version of the original "this little light of mine" song...............

I know I have a double chin, yie, I'm working on loosing weight, it's a battle for me, everythings a battle for me, loving my demon possessed enemies loosing weight. But we press on don't we, Philippians 3:14
"I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus."

Psalm 47:6 "Sing praises to God, sing praises:
sing praises unto our King, sing praises."

 I battle loving my enemies but I recogn we should all love our enemies and definately pray for them, for surely no enemies of mine are headed to a heavenly destination - YIKES! Psalm 73:18-19; "Surely thou didst set them in slippery places: thou castedst them down into destruction. How are they brought into desolation, as in a moment! they are utterly consumed with terrors."
  Got a flat tire today, ugh, bout to get my 9 foot kite ahhhhhhhhhhh : ) (I am a parafoil kitter, soon to do kite jumping, and pry landboarding ------------ jesus came that we could have life more abundantly, sometime's that means flying a kite oh ya : )
  Have a great week earth. 

I know satan worshippers are all about being goats but uh it's a bad idea n'stuff..................

 Blessed Be Apostolic Christian Church of America 

may Jesus Christ our Lord accept your repentances 

and usher you into his beloved and may you dwell in green pastures for all the days of your lives. 

(apostolic christian church of america xoxoxoxoxo - ongoing valentine : ) I know satan worshippers are all about being goats but uh it's a bad idea n'stuff..................Matthew 25:33 "And he shall set the sheep on his right hand, but the goats on the left." Today at my aunt's church, pastor talked about fruit, I think definately that fruit is something to work to maintain in god's word. (after church I chatted with my husband curious his take on fruit : ) he agree'd with me that god's word is the main place to get the stuffs you need to bear the good fruit..........
Galatians 5:
21Envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God.

22But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith,

23Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law.
The goats they like drunk a lot and like party n'stuff I'm pretty sure about this..........the good fruit of the spirit that's the fruit we all should want anyways (I'm trying to understand the satan worshippers I'm trying hard to understand wanting to go to hell)
Cause god wants good fruit from us, if you like me and you just have a apple on your tree well hey that's something! My advice is to be in god's word everyday that you bear and continue to bear the good fruit towards all men, to be a light and a salt in this earth.
That's all I have for today to say, had a good time at my aunts church, afterwards we drove around the area see what all there is in the area to do after church in like the future. Definately today I considered more how I need to work harder to maintain the good fruit I do have which I swear is just 1 apple! And not to be doing stuffs no more that could jepardize that 1 apple to. The goats may be having fun, partying away drinking away whatever, but god is really wanting all us to be bearing the good fruit stuffs............he wants his word in our hearts always and to do uh a work in our hearts..........that we find peace with man and god, that we not be walking around mad at this person or that person, but that we could forgive that we could love all the more that god be praised in all we do all the day long everyday I think that's the idea.
Have a great day earth.

Alright god your pretty cool.....................I hailed god today on a satanic site : )..........................

(on this song it says "we lose the things we've fighted for" but think to store up treasure in heaven instead of earth and not loose what you've fought for! People that are part of this worlds system they do they buy big fancy houses big fancy cars and that's what they are running the race for for things that perish 1 Corinthians 9:24 "Know ye not that they which run in a race run all, but one receiveth the prize? So run, that ye may obtain." think to run just for earthly goods and then to loose all that stuffs! ya people that work hard for big houses and cars etc. they also shed blood they also sacrifice a lot a slew FOR STUFF THEY ARE GOING TO ONE DAY LOSE!)
HAIL GOD!On a satan worshipper page today one the kids posted up http://www.evilbible.com/ and I went there, and that really backfired on them, cause all day I've been thinking man I've understimated god he is the mother f'er SUPREME! And would any us even want to live for god if he was a girl scout mr rogers or something? Wouldn't that be annoying if god was like barney? Wouldn't ya just want to kick his........ if he was barney? He's the mother f'er of f's HAIL GOD ALL HAIL GOD! Satan's like cool and all lets be real, but gods the mack daddy!
And then one the satan worshipping kids was like oh really so your for .......... ............... ............... uh no, but uh, it's like completely STUPID to completely discount god because he did this that or the other wrong............when he sent his son to save our butts, and we all don't deserve to be saved ------------ we'll why else did he love us so much? Do the mother f'er math I did today the big math...........ya HE's a mother F'er to such is the math Revelation 22:13 "I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end, the first and the last." AND THE LAST!!!!!!!!!!! AND THE LAST!!!!!!!!!!! AND THE LAST!!!!!!!!!!!! HELL YA!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELL TO THE YA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAIL GOD!!!!!!!!!!!! HAIL JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
John 3:16 "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life."

peace, the thing that has alluded me..................................

 Blessed Be Apostolic Christian Church of America 

may Jesus Christ our Lord accept your repentances 

and usher you into his beloved and may you dwell in green pastures for all the days of your lives. 

Attention: All fellow worms we either die be dead with jesus or we FRY
Psalm 28:3 "Draw me not away with the wicked, and with the workers of iniquity, which speak peace to their neighbours, but mischief is in their hearts." It don't even matter if my enemies are having "fake peace" with me which they are!!!!!!!!! But my peace with them needs to be real, I need to be really really really really praying for them and having a heart for them, not a fako peace, a real real real peace I need to have with my enemies. Also this verse super speaks to me that that is how the wicked and the workers of iniquity have it they speak peace to their neighbors BUT MICHIEF IS IN THEIR HEARTS. What a terrible thing! To not be able to let something go really go, really forgive, to hold micheif in my heart - horrible thing that is!
See it don't even matter what my enemies say of me ---------- they can talk all the crap about me they want go right ahead ----------- it's how I have it in my heart for them that's going to matter! That's what god's looking at our hearts! Psalm 51:6 "Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom." Luke 11:39 "And the Lord said unto him, Now do ye Pharisees make clean the outside of the cup and the platter; but your inward part is full of ravening and wickedness." peace with god and man is so the thing to have in my estimation, to have it good in my heart for EVERYONE! Regardless of whatever however they have it towards me, ya while they are doing evil to me even then! To have your inward parts full of "ravening and wickedness" doesn't sound fun to me, doesn't sound like the like way to be! Isaiah 57:21 "There is no peace, saith my God, to the wicked."
I think a lot of people on this earth are content perfectly content harboring lots of bitterness and anger etc. etc. - not me! I want peace. I want the peace that surpases understanding...........Philippians 4:7 "And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."
Have a great day earth. Try not to kill each other. I know this magical peace with god and man is hard to come by, if it was easy to come by we'd all be a bunch of mellow ................. hippies. Christians are devouring each other out in this world Galatians 5:15 "But if ye bite and devour one another, take heed that ye be not consumed one of another." But the peace that "passeth all understanding" it exists I think - well according to many in the apostolic christian church of america it exists!!!!!!!!!!!
Better all us hope it exists and that we can find it before we eat each other for lunch.