Ever been in so much pain, that your struggling to even think straight?........................nothing like some good ol' fashion agony to get me thankful for the people in my life.........................

 Update 3/25/2025 Yesterday I decorated my entire house with chinese new years decorations (bought them on amazon for $11 bit pack of new years decorations). I'm leaving them up maybe whole year........likely buying more next year............

the not red lantern I made 😁 - and I'm about to pry make more 😁

The pack I bought came with many window clings - I like them a slew. Put them on a few windows. - and yes I have no privacy in my backyard at all...............or my front yard, and my goats are messy but I love them 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

Ever been in so much pain, that your struggling to even think straight?........................nothing like some good ol' fashion agony to get me thankful for the people in my life.........................(not going to say what happened today, but it was a ruff day for me.......but things were great at the messianic church I sometimes go to the rabbi came up while people were singing like special cause I hadn't been there for awhile and said hi to me......................I'm thankful for both my churches very thankful)
 I'm not supposed to mention my families names on my blog......but they like many of my facebook posts.......that's some real support. And my brother has said recently some nice things to me in text message.............don't think he's on facebook that much........but basically supportive. Or at least loving me nomadder what.
  I do not believe the baptist church or the messianic church I sometimes go to that either one would "bail on me" I'm thankful for that today. I can't bear being shut out of people's lives anymore..............the pain has grown. The pain I feel is so extreme I can't even "think straight" somedays, so intense it is at times. 
1 Corinthians 13

4 Charity suffereth long, and is kind; charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up,

5 Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil;

6 Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth;

7 Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.

8 Charity never faileth: but whether there be prophecies, they shall fail; whether there be tongues, they shall cease; whether there be knowledge, it shall vanish away.

 I've felt pain more then I know how to deal with. And pain that people don't even know about, pain that I don't even speak about. 

  Psalm 25:17-19 

17 The troubles of my heart are enlarged: O bring thou me out of my distresses.

18 Look upon mine affliction and my pain; and forgive all my sins.

19 Consider mine enemies; for they are many; and they hate me with cruel hatred.

  My song choice for today (I've always been into this sort of music,  depeche mode sorta stuffs)..................

   ------------- And I surely understand why people seek out drugs, and alcohol to numb the pain they are feeling.....................if the amount of bars everywhere is a testiment to anything.............instead of the amount of sin on this earth I believe more then that it is a testiment to the amount of pain people are feeling on this earth. 

  People abandoned, by their families, their spouses, maybe their churches, or their employers???????? Surely there is pain and agony out there, searing pain, pain that is so intense people at times feel the only help there is is beer or drugs. 

I don't think this world is horrible on a whole, 

if it was tremendously horrible

god wouldn't of "so loved the world"

John 3:16 "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life."
If you are in agony today.....................know that someone loves you -------- that someone is god!
2 Peter 3:9 "The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance."

   Someday pain will end................................if you give your life to jesus..................................

Revelation 21:4

"And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away."

   neither shall there be any more pain ------ hard to imagine it................whilst in the grips of complete agony like this........but the word of god is true! Thank god!!!!!!!!!! 

Have a great week earth! 

LOVE

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Was at like full out crisis point today - god showed up so big for me today I know He loves me....................Sheri 2011 was more trusting of people and in a "goofy mood" Sheri 2024 has "been through it" now I prefer being alone, being hated, and hanging out with goats and listening to music but I might for real become a entire different person cause I just bought a collection of 100 cds and it's not the type of music I usually listen to a ton (not goth music, goth music is expensive to buy a lot of it is)....................

Was at like full out crisis point today - god showed up so big for me today I know He loves me....................Sheri 2011 was more trusting of people and in a "goofy mood" Sheri 2024 has "been through it" now I prefer being alone, being hated, and hanging out with goats and listening to music but I might for real become a entire different person cause I just bought a collection of 100 cds and it's not the type of music I usually listen to a ton (not goth music, goth music is expensive to buy a lot of it is)....................

loving god that's the most important thing though nomadder how many "versions of you" exist over time - Mark 12:30 "And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all thy strength: this is the first commandment."

  When putting these cd's in the cd holder I was like "oh this all might turn me into a whole nother person" and I don't think that's a exaggeration. "It can't be that drastic sheri what you listening to right now" -------------  ROD STEWART CD "Vagabond heart"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..........................

 I didn't buy like some randomn cd pack either

I bought a "themed" cd pack..........

 This is still sheri 10/24/2024 typing this, it was a different time in 2011..............more compasionate time. Nowdays it's ice at least were I live mostly. (not completely but mostly in my estimation) 

Matthew 24:12 "And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold."

But even in the coldest winter ice

hope exists

1 Corinthians 13:7 "Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things."

Was at like full out crisis point today (domino effect happens with me, one bad thing, then another, and another and eventually I CRACK) - god showed up so big for me today I know He loves me....................I went to bible study (my estimating with myself it'd help to "get my head together") god was in me so much tonight, He really knew I was big time having a crisis and was determined to reach out and touch me. People hugged me a lot tonight, and the lady running the whole thing rubbed my back which is a miracle cause there are 250+ women at this serious coffee bible study thing.
   Like everyone else in this world I worry about so much, I worry about what's going to happen with me, what's my future look like I worry about it.................knowing I'm that loved at living hope, that I'm that loved - my aunts church to loves me much I know they do...........makes a huge difference for me in my life. And especially that god showed up so big for me tonight.
   Really mind blowing how much god was with me tonight. He's really getting to me lately.............He's cracked in...................He's cracked into my heart. And I'm left wondering with myself - why did I ever sin in the 1st place? Why did I ever distance myself from god in the 1st place? This love HIS love is what I needed all along!
 ---------- I'm going to fess up to something, sometimes I sit and listen to other christians testify thinking to myself it all is so cheese. But man maybe I'm a cheese to god/jesus/holy spirit makes all the difference in the world for me --------------- anything could happen to me and I know long as I got god/jesus/holy spirit I's going to be ok. God showing up big for me tonight letting me know how much He loves me - it's all good! Let the cheese roll : ) it's holy cheese hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahaahahahaahahahah (sheri dang you have to much fun being a christian hahahahaahahahahahaaha)

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