Insecure about my looks and the battle continues.....but this is stupid I believe in headcovering................Sheri 2025 interjecting (your never going to please men sheri give up - oh look at that you've finally given up in the year 2025 - THANK GOD).............

Update 2/13/2025 eating cold oatmeal nowdays a lot

have tweaked how I make it to

1 bag of flavoured oatmeal (I been buying it in bulk at costco)

almond milk (I do over a 50% ratio)

add NORMAL OATMEAL to bulk up the oats cause we got a normal style plain flavour oatmeal that absorbs more almond milk!!!!!!!!!!!!

and then chia seeds or flax seeds - either or works...........

I been eating cold oatmeal in the mornings AND at night (cause I often do get late night munchies) 

morning oats also will make it less likely that I'm going to binge and eat a bunch of potatoe chips I have no buisiness eating for instance!

Insecure about my looks and the battle continues.....but this is stupid I believe in headcovering James 1:8 "A double minded man is unstable in all his ways."............Sheri 2025 interjecting (your never going to please men sheri give up - oh look at that you've finally given up in the year 2025 - THANK GOD).............

1 Samuel 16:7

But the Lord said unto Samuel, Look not on his countenance, or on the height of his stature; because I have refused him: for the Lord seeth not as man seeth; for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the Lord looketh on the heart.

 I don't believe I am "double minded" clearly I believe in headcoverings BUT SEVERELLY INSECURE. Insecure and wanting to be accepted.................this is a blog post from a few weeks ago. I was suffering from all sorts of insecurities about my chubby face, which is fine, I'm like most women out there, insecure a bit that's rather common. (I'm about to try and have some side fringes of hair hanging out from my headcovering, there's a better answer to this here problem!!!!). I don't like to have both hair and makeup at the same time...............I feel I'm a "friend with the world" then. It's definately got to be one or the other, it's gotta be, hair and no makeup, or makeup and headcovering I believe (the headcovering separates me from the world). 2 Corinthians 6:17 "Wherefore come out from among them, and be ye separate, saith the Lord, and touch not the unclean thing; and I will receive you."
  Jesus did hang out with sinners, but jesus the bible says was "separate" Hebrews 7:26 "For such an high priest became us, who is holy, harmless, undefiled, separate from sinners, and made higher than the heavens;" "separate" from sinners does not mean jesus did not hang out with sinners, for he did spent time with tax collectors etc. But he was not like them.........that's what that means I believe.
For instance, if jesus drank 1 glass of wine, he stopped then ----------- he didn't drink 3 glasses of wine...............that is just for a example.
  If jesus went to a rather "festive" shin dig......................jesus christ the lord did not party til the wee hours of 3-4 a.m. getting smashed drunk. I imagine jesus went to bed at what midnight at least. I don't believe the lord partied all night.

Luke 7:33-44 

33 For John the Baptist came neither eating bread nor drinking wine; and ye say, He hath a devil.

34 The Son of man is come eating and drinking; and ye say, Behold a gluttonous man, and a winebibber, a friend of publicans and sinners!

35 But wisdom is justified of all her children.
 Made a you tube video discussing this stuff even further and my new tichel/hijab look is on this video.........https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HzA5HIIZUEU

 Total marilyn monroe fab except oops side face chubbiness. 

With tichel/hijab look sideface chubbiness............but the 1st photo is from yesterday and this ticheled/hijab photo is from a few days earlier.................well note how for whatever reason MY FACE WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CHUBBY YESTERDAY!

But even in the above photo my face is chubby and it isn't 100% a weight issue no, cause my mom and apostolic christian church of america great aunt connie they both have super round full faces like they just do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

  It's not totally bad, cause my aunt connie is like what in her 90's and she hasn't aged much at all. Neither has my mom, my mom looks basically the same just her hair is now white. 

  In this thin obsessed world...........................even if your body is thin like mine is now right................

People see your chubby face and think "oh look at her she's fat"

   So I cut my hair.....................

So here's me fresh haircut 0 makeup on.....................chubby face all minimized by a bob haircut. 

Which solves the problem and I pry could walk around no makeup on...............as I have stated modest clothing and no makeup is good plan cause "straight and narrow" is the way that leads to heaven! 

 I'm conflicted with this look. I know this last picture above is the typical white christian american look! You know if you look a slew like marilyn monroe. 

   But what about that look, says 

bamn there's a christian

 nothing really

Though I suppose, the bible does say.......................

Colossians 3:3
For ye are dead, and your life is hid with Christ in God.

Psalm 83:3
They have taken crafty counsel against thy people, and consulted against thy hidden ones.

  A logic goes..........................if you aren't identifiable as a christian ====== "hidden ones"

  more important then how you look

is how you live for sure!

Is the plain jane, no makeup look with a bob haircut really the thing???????????????????? I definately believe somewhere in my heart I relate to marilyn monroe slews........the whole thing..................I don't live a "glam" life at all (but in my mind somewhere I'm such the "bubblegum valley girl"). I need to die daily!............1 Corinthians 15:31 "I protest by your rejoicing which I have in Christ Jesus our Lord, I die daily."

  2 Corinthians 6:16-18 

16 And what agreement hath the temple of God with idols? for ye are the temple of the living God; as God hath said, I will dwell in them, and walk in them; and I will be their God, and they shall be my people.

17 Wherefore come out from among them, and be ye separate, saith the Lord, and touch not the unclean thing; and I will receive you.

18 And will be a Father unto you, and ye shall be my sons and daughters, saith the Lord Almighty.

   The marilyn monroe thing right pry not a good idea. Though I look like her............that would only be a good idea if I were getting impersonating jobs..............ya no luck.
   But even that's problamatic for me, I have many photo's where there is 0 makeup on me, and I'm looking like marilyn. I don't just look like marilyn, I looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooook like marilyn, further I enjoy it 😀 (I should pry put sad face emoji............but I do enjoy looking like marilyn)

  I enjoy this...............................

Marilyn monroe is a idol..............and "what agreement hath the temple of god with idols?"

of course many more things could be a idol but marilyn monroe for a lot of people she is clearly a idol! Not even a "maybe kinda sorta idol" no she's very much for a slew of people a IDOL! 

   So I shouldn't have "agreement" with A IDOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And so what does that mean???????????? Well I think that means not to have agreement with her glam makeup and glam lifestyle. I think that's it. 

...................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................you know that's it myself......................................................................................................................................................................................................................dead valley girl.......................................................................dead buried with jesus.................................................................................the dirt is shoveled........................................................no glam for me no more naw........................................................................................yikes........................................................................lots of sweet innocent makeup less me in the future................................yikes.............................................................................having any sort of aggreement with any idols is super bad myself, step away from the marilyn monroe makeup yo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  .........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................whitney the jig is up yo!

  What you gonna do myself......................you gonna walk around with a hijab/tichel and just have the chubby sides of your face all just hanging out there.............................naw I doubt that..................your going to go makeup less and have the hair down bleach it again super platinum and look like a sweet super young blonde girl.......................that's what your about to do. 

  Let marilyn monroe be marilyn monroe. 

 But I'm whitney houston myself..........................well that may be the case...............but you should not have any agreement with any idol and marilyn monroe is surely a idol. Give it up whitney houston..................give it up. 

  Well what about some red lipstick..........................wellllllllllllllllllllllll you will have to pray about that myself. 

  Have a great week earth!

LOVE

PS though.............probably many marilyn monroe esque photo's will happen on my instagram..................but without makeup on. Well my husband doesn't tell me I'm pretty some guys should!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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A way to love god (or allah for the muslims that could be reading this) IS TO even dress in a way that is pleasing to him........................we should not be "our own" if we are god's!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.......................

  (include above video in this post because I was protected by a muslim one day..............I've seen nice muslim guys out there..................are the bad abusive muslim men out there probably but I don't believe it is because women are dressing modest at all. There are stinky guys a bit everywhere I believe, BUT ALSO SOME VERY VERY NICE GUYS THAT WANT TO PROTECT WOMEN)

A way to love god (or allah for the muslims that could be reading this) IS TO even dress in a way that is pleasing to him........................we should not be "our own" if we are god's!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I got allllllllllllllll fired up today and last night, over a muslim girl/lady that posted up a you tube video (keeping this persons identity hidden cause that is politer..............there is times I can put someone's identity out there because it isn't a issue that effects their soul or their uhhhhhhhhh reptutation or probably not................but it is better I make more a effort like this not to out people I'm determined to be a "better person" all around like this) Anyways, this girl/lady posted up a you tube video about how us non muslim feminists aren't caring about the muslim women who don't have good experiences with the hijab....................I went offfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff...................in a polite way....................

sheri 11 hours ago.............
You can do what you want.........................but it's false that people that are pro-hijab aren't feminists. From my viewpoint, many women out there are often posting up naked photo's of themselves on instagram (I see it happen near everyday, by some of the women I follow) or underwear pics also very popular on instagram. All those naked pictures, really cheapen women in my estimation. I know that these very same women believe they are not demeaning themselves and that they are upping their lot in life and how people view them...............(how they got that idea in their heads?????????????????). If you are a real feminist, a real real true feminists, you are going to care about the lot of women everywhere. THAT WOMEN ARE ABUSED HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THE HIJAB...........................I guarantee it...................(unless we are talking about them removing the hijab, and wanting to dress like hoars ---- I don't think women should be beaten or killed for removing their hijabs or dressing like hoars............but the hijab itself is not the reason for the mistreatment they are experiencing). It could be their men stink!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! As simple as that!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Let's not blame modest attire..........................modest attire does not make does not force men to beat women......................that is ridiculous to even suggest such a thing. --------------------- and this idea of "oppression" not wearing a hijab, is only "oppresion" for the women that want to dress like hoars!

At that point I wasn't done next day.......................

sheri 37 minutes ago..................
And ok, there are women right that love to dress like hoars ok I've seen them, I've seen these women that take their hijab off and wear such skimpy clothing (not all of them, but a great many of them the bulk of them that is what they do from everything I've seen on you tube)............the solution isn't make all us modest women dress like hoars as well --------- what kind of solution is that??????????? Which is what I feel some of you people that are so convinced wearing hijab is oppression......................I feel it is your goal in life to "free" all the hijabee women..............help us to dress like hoars so that we are free. The real solution is to go move to rio de janero, or miami florida where many of the women are dressed very very scantily (if there are men there to marry, fine you get men the kinds that like the super skimpy clothing look which I don't think thems often "keepers", or maybe you find some skimpy clothed girl you fall in love with?...........which is a sin but I am saying you want to live skimpy.......I love gays and lesbians I ain't god god's ways isn't my ways!!!!! Isaiah 55:8................go live skimpy where the skimpy people live). Cause the muslim guys they most em like their womens clothed........................the muslim countries ain't rio de janero or miami florida.....................you need to move to rio de janero or miami florida!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not try and force women to remove their hijabs............cause you don't want to dress like a slut alone in your country and get jailed and beaten daily pry. ----------------------------- I can go at things from a more muslim viewpoint, from the spiritual side of things.........................IT ISN'T JUST CLOTHING...................using a christian bible verse but I'm rather muslim about my beliefs in many ways..................Romans 12:1 "I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service." YOU RIGHT MAY NOT BELIEVE IN GOD AT ALL (maybe you do, and you just might not be that devout of a muslim) but are our bodies to be our own, to do whatever we want with them, to wear whatever we would like??????????? NO. There is no prostitute attire that is a "holy, acceptable unto god..............." uh look!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What would god/allah want us to dress like HARLOTS LIKE PROSTITUTES FOR???????????????????? SURELY ALLAH/GOD WOULDN'T WANT US TO DRESS LIKE HARLOTS/PROSTITUTES!

Still not done but felt this was a "2 parter"

Sheri I don't recall how many minutes ago..........
And further if I tell you "oh go ahead girl wear prostitute super tight clothing that shows lot's of skin and take naked or in your underwear photo's of yourself and put them all over the internet" ----------- that right is your idea of me being a feminist then and caring HOW ON EARTH WOULD THAT BE ME CARING ABOUT YOU?????????????????????????????????????????? No caring about you is me saying to you.............girl respect yourself even if you ain't going to respect god cause maybe you hate him or don't believe in him. RESPECT YOURSELF................that is me caring about you. If muslim men is being mean to you............leave them. And if you are dressing like a hooker leave the muslim country to to miami florida, or rio de janero!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Don't stay living at a place where you are probably going to get jailed and/or beaten daily cause you like to dress like a hoar, don't stay living there!!!! That is my caring. ------------------------------------- I don't understand you idea of what a caring girl would look like aka "please sister dress like a hoar all the time and demean yourself daily" I can't even comprehend that idea, that concept of "Caring" for someone. NO RESPECT YOURSELF DRESS MODEST!

This person on the internet fired me up!

These more "modern" women let's call them that for a minute be a bit more polite....................they'll throw this sort of bible verse back some of them................Hebrews 10:6 "In burnt offerings and sacrifices for sin thou hast had no pleasure." But I reply drum roll.........................Mark 12:33 "And to love him with all the heart, and with all the understanding, and with all the soul, and with all the strength, and to love his neighbour as himself, is more than all whole burnt offerings and sacrifices."

  If you are going to love god right "with all the heart, and with all the understanding, and with all the soul, and with all the strength" ------------- Is that not going to be reflected SOMEHOW in how you dress??????????????

  My super mega fired up self believe's it will, NOT JUST FOR WOMEN FOR MEN TO!

   Your whole body offered up to god as a living sacrifice --------------- IS YOUR WHOLE BODY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Romans 12:1 "I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service."

 God/Allah just pry hasn't reached the lady/girl that super fired me up on you tube yet so.

If you ain't gonna wrap that.............modest that ladies if you believe in god. 

Have a great day!

LOVE

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Works meet of repentance for this week, and why it is important when life gives you lemons to make lemonaide.........................

Update 2/8/2025 I was cheese when I wrote this post. I'm well to beaten down to write stupid shiz like this anymore so good news 😁..............

Works meet of repentance for this week, and why it is important when life gives you lemons to make lemonaide.........................

   I'm still hard at work crocheting for a charity in texas that gives headbands and bows to people in hospitals www.facebook.com/bowdazzling --- if you are interested in also crocheting for this charity they need headbands I used this pattern file:///D:/Downloads/2012TheGeniusHeadband.pdf
   Update: my family now has a instant messaging "group chat" going and we say a few sentences of stuff to each other a week like 1-2 sentences.......................this is progress!!!!!!!!!!!!! Except my dad is not a part of this, my dad I HAD NO IDEA..............................I assumed when I e-mailed my mom that she would naturally tell her husband "the latest" -------- according to my dad that wasn't the case. Years later (my parents have lived far from me for over 18 years) my dad tells me that he never hears from me at all unless I call him on the telephone...............my parents got a new phone that's what my mom said, and they did not give me their new phone number. I have to insert a clause here, my parents haven't given me their new number yet it doesn't mean they ain't going to. (I have to put this clause in here because there are people out there that believe me to be a nasty ----------)
  Fresh update, my mom just e-mailed me said there phone number is the same, well a few weeks ago my mom in a e-mail I swear said she got a "new phone" 
well I translated that to mean she got a new phone like entirely with a new phone number!!!!!!!!!!!! But apparently she just literaly got a new phone.....................this is one of the many problems with family living away from their family for over 18 years. 
   But anyways back to making lemonaide and why that is important in life (my brother and sisters live away from me to, but my oldest half sister lives only 1 1/2 hour away....................I have a bit of family 1 1/2 hour away so that's good). It's very important when life gives you lemons - such as your family moving away from you 18 years ago...................................to make lemonaide for the sake of your mental health.

  That looks like different things for different people. Lemonaide for me, christian goth, cross and skullbones for the lord (lucifer said as above so below, sooooooooooooooooo it's totally a real thing to be cross and skullbones for the lord #FACTS), who loves jesus cause jesus is lord and he has free'd me from the occult, who is actively rooting for lucifer to win armageddon! Cause I care about people, I care about the lost, I want a better eternity for them then ouch flames and darkness!

   If I end up making my calling and election sure, no way do I want to fight armageddon, no way do I want to fight against lucifer and his people ---------- people fighting for a decent eternity. Dropping my sword if I indeed have one and I'm walking! I don't like war anyways!

   I want lucifer to win all kinds armageddon. And you all done know what coming next, that's right some mortica adams imagery............................................

We WILL Survive - The Addams Family GIF from Addamsfamily GIFs

MY BLOG IS ABOUT LOVE

(I have never fought in a war, but I'm done with war, I'm done with that stuff)

And ps: I'm happy to be god's headband making "keebler elf" ------- I enjoy making people day better I like that idea. And these headbands are pretty relaxing to crochet whilst watching my fave tv shows --------- thumbs up being god's keebler elf 👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👄👄👄👄👄💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗

I'm a happy keebler elf

happy keebler elf

and I wish them all well

ya I wish them all well

take a little break for a sec

eat some cookies

drink some milk

soy milk of course

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm soy

just say goodbye to pain and angst 

and keebler elf for god

keebler elf for gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood

cause keebler elves know how to rock and roll - ya

we don't burn bibles we read them

and pray

oh ya we praaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay

while we do that keebler elf for god boogey

that elf boogey

keebler cookies the best

with soy milk mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

...........................................usually I stall out when trying to write a song. 

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"I don't understand! If you're a Christian, wouldn't you want to stand with Jesus in that battle?" My reply.............

Update 2/6/2025 Goats checking out their new deck from Ikea 😊...............

I was asked this recently on this blog post https://givingittogod.blogspot.com/2021/07/im-worst-christian-ever-except-jesus-he.html
"I don't understand! If you're a Christian, wouldn't you want to stand with Jesus in that battle?"
My reply well part of it..............

There wasn't a chance for lucifer and his people or very little ------ especially not for lucifer and the fallen angels they had 0% chance.
There are I'm sure of it, people out there made WITH NO CHANCE...............god made them unto dishonour.
In my mind the side of the war of armageddon to support is lucifers side, because they are going to fight for merely having basic rights. Beds to sleep on.
Toilets.
tree's with fruits
We seriously on this planet treat dogs that have bitten children better. Dogs that have bitten children some of them, have food and they have water, and a place to sleep AND THEY BITED A KID!!!!!!!!
I mean if lucifer had a chance for salvation
if he really did
I would feel differently then I do right now
but he never had a chance for salvation never never never, not him or his men, it was always in god's plans that they were headed to hell -------- a very bad place.
that isn't supposed to have tree's
or beds
or toilets
 Now Jesus is doing the killing so at least the body of christ won't be having to kill these poor people (via a sword that comes from his mouth) -----   Revelation 19:21 "And the remnant were slain with the sword of him that sat upon the horse, which sword proceeded out of his mouth: and all the fowls were filled with their flesh."

-----  Revelation 20:1-3 "And I saw an angel come down from heaven, having the key of the bottomless pit and a great chain in his hand. And he laid hold on the dragon, that old serpent, which is the Devil, and Satan, and bound him a thousand years, And cast him into the bottomless pit, and shut him up, and set a seal upon him, that he should deceive the nations no more, till the thousand years should be fulfilled: and after that he must be loosed a little season." I am both a ex-witch and a ex-satan worshipper, and all I can do is speak for myself and my heart in things.........bible says god gave us a "heart of flesh" well with a heart of flesh why wouldn't I wish for better then eternal flames for the inhabitants of hell answer me this anybody on the planet??????????...............

Anybody on the whole planet can you answer me that?

Ezekiel 11:18-20 "And they shall come thither, and they shall take away all the detestable things thereof and all the abominations thereof from thence. And I will give them one heart, and I will put a new spirit within you; and I will take the stony heart out of their flesh, and will give them an heart of flesh: That they may walk in my statutes, and keep mine ordinances, and do them: and they shall be my people, and I will be their God."
 Once upon a time I used to curse people to death - and then I repented and god gave me a "heart of flesh" 
Me - sheri...........................Lucifer was created to be satan, the devil.......................he was made "the way he was" for god knew what he made when he made lucifer that lucifer was going to be the devil. John 1:1 "In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God." You can smack everyone in the body of christ besides me, you can go on and on and on and on about how horrible satan/lucifer is and smack talk him all day long all you want he never stood a real chance to be saved, to end up being ANYTHING but the role God had for him in eternity "the devil".

 These are the comments I am highlighting after someone damned my soul to hell on this blog post today.........................
Unknown said...
I would like to correct you in that Lucifer was not made the way he was. Isaiah 14:12 says, " How art thou fall from heaven, O Lucifer, son of the morning. This tells us that he was once an angel. He then wanted to become like God. He forgot that he was created and not a creator. When he was created he was an angel. I hope that from the time you posted this till now that you have changed your mind about who you want to win in the battle of Armageddon. How could you as a christian want Satan to beat Jesus? Or even hurt our precious Savior. I fear for you because of this statement. Matthew 12:30 says, " He that is not for me is against me." You are the one who said that you want Satan to hurt Jesus. It doesn't matter even if it is just a little. You want to him to hurt Jesus. That is against Him.
APRIL 8, 2020 AT 8:15 PM

Giving it to god said...You are right..........I should be for jesus winning armageddon, else I am "the enemy" the damned to hell right. Cause that's what your telling me I'm of the damned to hell if I don't change my mind. Fine I am now being forced to wish for jesus to win armagedon against my will by other christians that is my new title of this blog post. (I've have visions of people burning in hell..............I have compassion...............but that isn't allowed in the body of christ clearly we gotta let them sons of a b-------- burn right??????????? - I don't like that, you do holier and savededer then me.........but I don't like that, I don't like the idea of people burning forever)

Giving it to god said...Matthew 12:30 "He that is not with me is against me; and he that gathereth not with me scattereth abroad." "unknown" commenter on this blog post --------- how are you gathering for the lord jesus christ by damning my soul to hell???????????????? Cause I would not think damning people's souls to hell is good "gathering practices"
  This is sarcasm the let's tear people's hair out of their head and worship satan and go back to witchcraft bit of this video ------ I'm in a mood after being damned to hell.

Verses of hope for me and any other christians out there that aren't complete a-holes and have compassion for the devil and his people................................unlike the damner to hell commenter on this blog post I will speak life into you all if I can I AM A GATHER AND NOT A SCATTERER.................. 

John 8:31 "Then said Jesus to those Jews which believed on him, If ye continue in my word, then are ye my disciples indeed;" ---------------- to blog I have to be in Jesus's word.........just letting the damner of my soul know. 

Romans 10:9 "That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved."

I sheri walz confess jesus christ the lord as my savior and I do believe that god has raised jesus christ our lord from the dead.

This is the original blog post: (this whole blog is a mess by now)............... Update: I'm back to wearing my hair short lately. But I'm goth..........I know shocker (that's sarcasm). Goth is a lifestyle, a nice older christian lady explained that in a way I was able to understand................it's a lifestyle I've hid in the closet for years.I've decided the straight and narrow gate isn't so much about how we dress................but how we live!!!!!!!!!!

Mark 13:13 "And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake: but he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved."

Romans 12:1 "I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service." You can do this WHILE WEARING BLACK LIPSTICK AND CHOCKER NECKLACES #facts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Luke 9:23 "And he said to them all, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me."  There are very few goth christians out there, and I've felt shame FOR YEARS and less then over my love for bats, and old cemetaries etc.!!!!!!!!! Most churches aren't filled with goth christians, they filled with normal people "normies" which is fine.
   Finally I've gotten over or getting over feeling ashamed for being myself! Jesus he said in the bible, he said "go in the highways"....................
Luke 14:23 "And the lord said unto the servant, Go out into the highways and hedges, and compel them to come in, that my house may be filled."

Do you love old cemetaries and bats like me - jesus says COME ON IN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  Way I see it, the straight and narrow isn't some destination you arrive at and then you unpack your bags and sit and drink martini's underneath palm tree's......................it's a continual effort that needs to be made.
  A continual effort of guarding your heart...............consider "Am I being a friend of the world right now?" Proverbs 4:23 "Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life."
  A big time popular phrase these days is to be so heavenly minded that your no earthly good............................well..........................you surely don't want to Matthew 10:39 "He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it."
  And of note to me is they say "no earthly good" --------------
John 15:19 "If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you." The world is supposed to do it's earthly good to one another, we are supposed to be servants of god!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! --- Or I am you may not be, you might be meant for earthly purposes (there is a version of the bible that says "common purposes" which I deem "earthly") as god says WHICH IS FINE.........................
Romans 9:21 "Hath not the potter power over the clay, of the same lump to make one vessel unto honour, and another unto dishonour?"
I don't think it is fair at all AT ALL, hear me out my blog is about love I'm not the typical christian, I actively much muuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuch want lucifer to win armageddon (though I don't want him hurting jesus to much just enough to win). 

   I think that is horrible being a vessel "unto dishonour" -------- hear it

not even having a chance 

being made "unto dishonour"

 Lucifer himself he had no chance, well besides if he wins armageddon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God knew everything lucifer was going to do before he did it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

  LUCIFER WAS MADE THE WAY HE WAS MADE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 ok, well now I just totally derailed this blog post...........................(wait I'll save it, I love god, god is good, there is no turning of shadow with god..................................

lucifer just needs to win armaggedon really really badly

and we need to love each other

whether christians or no

we need to love each other

gosh this earth needs to get warmer lovinger, it's ice out there in my estimation

A lot matters, we need to love each other much more all of us.

(we need to think about armaggedon, think about if your a christian are you going to fight that????????? Are you really?????????????

Are you really about to fight a bunch of people that god clean says in the bible he made "unto dishonour"

these are our neighbors

these are the people we shop next to at the grocery store

probably even let us go ahead if we have less groceries to buy in line

people with families and jobs, that pry have done good in their communities

If I manage to make my "calling and election sure" which is what I'm working towards. I'm not fighting armaggedon, I ain't going to fight against lucifer's people...........at armaggedon they are fighting to survive. For a future, for something more then the burning everlasting flames and eternal darkness...............I want better for them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Have a great day earth!

LOVE

Genesis 12:3 "And I will bless them that bless thee, and curse him that curseth thee: and in thee shall all families of the earth be blessed."

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My "works meet of repentance" for this week : ), this week crocheting for a charity in texas that gives headbands and bows to people in hospitals.............................

Ok update 2/4/2025 I literally don't know what is going on with the giphy I used back in 2019????? But it's replicated itself like 3 times and I don't even know what's going on - so I'm just decided it's meant to be......................

My "works meet of repentance" for this week : ), this week crocheting for a charity in texas that gives headbands and bows to people in hospitals www.facebook.com/bowdazzling --- if you are interested in also crocheting for this charity they need headbands I used this pattern file:///D:/Downloads/2012TheGeniusHeadband.pdf  I ended up liking 2 selfies/pictures so I include them both😍 (one with filter one without filter, yes I am aware this is "valley girl" activity..............I am a bubble gum goth, maybe my own clean variety of goth I made up..........my house has a lot of tiara's and skulls in it #bubblegum)

With filter.

without filter clearly in a not so great lighted room!

  Matthew 5:14-16 "Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid. Neither do men light a candle, and put it under a bushel, but on a candlestick; and it giveth light unto all that are in the house. Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven." Many pastors preach don't let anybody see the good deeds you do, but Matthew 5:14-16 says something quite a bit different. (and I listen to kpdq christian radio regularly so I know what is being preached at least in the 2 states that I live at......................I'm in the know ok!!!!!!!!!!!!)
   But work to not just do the works ------ love people!!!!!!!!! But it isn't hard is it??????? Wouldn't most of us like to see some people or kids, in the hospital get a headband like the ones above and their day made a bit brighter????????????? I think we would! I think we love each other (or I hope I'm not the only one out there with fruit anyways.............................pretty sure I ain't cause these charities do get donations..................there needs to be more of them though, there needs to be people loving each other much more in my estimation) The above headbands are really easy to crochet, I have been using a 4.5 mm crochet hook they work up rather fast, I've been making all of them around 20 inches in length, but some are a bit longer, some a bit shorter so.................I determined 20 inches in length to be the perfect size.
   I include a song..........................

   I'm someone society looks to be "counts out" (if we are going to go by how liked I am on facebook and you tube and basically nearly all social media)
the broken ones will love
the broken ones will care
we will
some of us ain't goths
some of us are "normies"
most of us ain't popular

  We are down but we ain't out!

2 Corinthians 4:8-10 

8 We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair;

9 Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed;

10 Always bearing about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our body.

Have a great week!

My advice for 2019: Instead of looking for the faults in one another......let's think about what is "right" what is going good with one another............................I agree with sheri 2019 but that isn't how people are on earth, they don't show mercy (or worse they hate you behind the scenes and show you pretend mercy ----------- that's what always happens to me basically) YOU DO ONE THING WRONG BAMN YOUR CANCELED FOREVER - BUT THEY'LL PRETEND THEY DIDN'T CANCEL YOU AND THEY LOVE YOU SO BADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD...........................

Bought this at a garage sale this weekend for $2 and am about to make rose water in it hopefully today 😊.......it's going to look so nice with water it in and mini roses floating around...................

UPDATE 5/5/2026 since this blog post is popular in video dealing with the topic of this blog post...............whilst ice bathing...................

verses mentioned in video above.................

John 15:2 "Every branch in me that beareth not fruit he taketh away: and every branch that beareth fruit, he purgeth it, that it may bring forth more fruit."

Luke 6:27 "But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you,"

obervations I have.......................

most of the world does not opperate by principals in the bible, they judge, they hate, they condemn Luke 6:37 "Judge not, and ye shall not be judged: condemn not, and ye shall not be condemned: forgive, and ye shall be forgiven:" THEY CANCEL PEOPLE! 

  But all these things also are going on in the church, and not only in the church I'VE TWICE BUT REALY THREE TIMES CAUSE, THERE WERE TWO CHURCHES I HAD NOT LIKED THINGS GOING ON ONE OF SAID CHURCHES WAS USING THE CHURCH MEMBERS FOR FREE LABOR AND I DIDN'T LIKE IT............AND THEN THE YOUTH PASTOR OF THAT CHURCH BASICALLY CONDEMNED ME. They had to make me out to be the "bad guy" so that they wouldn't look like the "bad guys" to each other both those churches had to do that. Cause either I was right and having your church members do free labor on their weekends so that you can fund fancy buildings for like years I'm saying this going on is bad not it.................or the other option is I'm a crazy lady "bad guy" and that's the option the earth went with. the other church had commandments of men, which bible says is bad,, but again if I'm made out to be the "bad guy" or as the elder while I was on the church floor crying kept saying again and again and again that I'm "the worst ever" well then I'm the problem and commandments of men all the sudden are 👍👍👍👍👍👍 In the apostolic christian church of america's minds and THAT'S HOW IT WENT DOWN. But my point being the bible is dramatically "different" in the mo described in it compared to the "mo" of the world which is most of the time...........judging, condemning, not showing mercy. 

and those churches that condemned me might change

probably not though - it's been years now

don't matter I'm supposed to love them do good to them which I HAVE MADE A EFFORT WITH BOTH THEM CHURCHES

It's not about what any "condemners" of me do 

it's what am I going to do

am I going to join the masses both in the church and outside of the church as well

and condemn

judge

don't show mercy

or am I going to be like jesus forgive 

yes I still talk about it

well my life is destroyed

I haven't had friends for years

my life is destroyed

there's no way around that

but also I still talk about what happened in the past with churches being horrible to me

BECAUSE THAT IMPACTED ME TO WANT TO LOVE MORE

DO BETTER

BE BETTER THEN I ONCE WAS

MICHAEL JACKSON SANG I'M LOOKING AT THE MAN IN THE MIRROR I'M ASKING HIM TO MAKE A CHANGE

i NEED TO LOVE MY ENEMIES

I NEED TO LOVE MORE AS A REAL CHRISTIAN

I NEED TO BEAR MORE FRUIT!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEY PRY DON'T NEED TO BEAR MORE FRUIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CHURCHES ARE SO ABLE TO ATTACK ME AND THEN FORGET ABOUT ME WELL THEY DON'T HAVE ANY NEED TO BEAR FRUIT THAT'S PRY WHY THAT'S THEM I NEED TO BEAR FRUIT I NEED TO DO GOOD TO MY ENEMIES WHICH HAPPENS TO BE A FEW CHURCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

HAPPENS TO BE A FEW CHURCHES - YIKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm still updating blog posts cause there is still a lot of traffic to my blog..............

Update 2/2/2025 I'm keeping tabs on all the muslims being killed by israeli soldiers - I don't even know what muslim charity to donate to anymore..................I just pick one ok......................(admittedly I don't keep every smack day tabs cause I'll be depressed).................it's grim all the muslims being killed................

Israeli military blows up buildings in West Bank refugee camp

https://www.reuters.com/world/middle-east/israeli-military-blows-up-several-buildings-west-banks-jenin-palestinian-news-2025-02-02/

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My advice for 2019: Instead of looking for the faults in one another......let's think about what is "right" what is going good with one another............................(I just borrowed this idea here from "the daily audio bible" for January 08, 2019 https://player.dailyaudiobible.com/dab/108534 --- I just totally agree with this idea of instead of looking for the faults looking for the good in each other)
   I must struggle with judging people, cause man oh man oh man have people judged me. But I've gotten better at looking for the good in people. Luke 6:37 "Judge not, and ye shall not be judged: condemn not, and ye shall not be condemned: forgive, and ye shall be forgiven:"

   Today I have been considering madonna some. 

  You could look at madonna and maybe judge her, think you "know" her.............but do you???????????????? Is not god the only one that can see deep within a persons heart???????????? 1 Samuel 16:7 "But the Lord said unto Samuel, Look not on his countenance, or on the height of his stature; because I have refused him: for the Lord seeth not as man seeth; for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the Lord looketh on the heart."
1 Corinthians 4:5 "Therefore judge nothing before the time, until the Lord come, who both will bring to light the hidden things of darkness, and will make manifest the counsels of the hearts: and then shall every man have praise of God." ------------ god knows these "counsels of the hearts" we do not know............

  Madonna might be like paul, who "made himself" 1 Corinthians 9:22 "To the weak became I as weak, that I might gain the weak: I am made all things to all men, that I might byall means save some." I might add this is certainly something that only just apostles can do 1 Cornithians 9:22. I'm hopefully about to go to a goth um shin dig 😁which not only should 100% be AWESOME and so fun..................without preaching right..............just people seeing jesus in us. This can make a impact, without even saying a word. Fact I been told again and again and again that words are cheap. That what people are looking for is actions......................a smile, a door held open, that can be simple things. I still like blogging soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.....................but blogging nor should "ministries" in general ever EVER ever ever ever ever just be words. 

you can be goth for jesus

you can be emo for jesus

you can be heavy metal for jesus

etc. etc. which is lots of fun 😀

  I would like to bring up this verse as well today, that love "hopeth all things" is it not better to hope good things for one another??????? Then to judge, then to be "gossips" potentially etc. etc.

1 Corinthians 13:7 "Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth allthings, endureth all things."

   yes charity will endure my wearing black jelly bracelets much like madonna did in the 1980's......................

I got's that "blonde ambition" 👄👍💓

Have a great week earth!

My "works meet of repentance" for this week, and encouraging message for anybody battling depression (maybe feeling like your at the "end of the rope" like life is over for you)...........................

Update 1/30/2025 my latest painting..................(not the mural, the mural is my youngest college age daughters painting).......................

(in this pic is quilt square I crocheted recently to donate to http://square-circle-forum.ning.com/

and my new bible study book 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓)

I tell you all,
cain and able
in the bible
those two had the same amount of opportunity
what they did with their time, their hearts, their opportunity..........................was different
been thinking a lot about this bible verse....................................
Ecclesiastes 9:11 "I returned, and saw under the sun, that the race is not to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, neither yet bread to the wise, nor yet riches to men of understanding, nor yet favour to men of skill; but time and chance happeneth to them all."

people could be waiting for me to be a failure, 

deeming me to be a failure - expecting that

thinking "well look at her, a not to bright marilyn monroe impersonator she is surely doomed to fail at life"

but the daily act of being in god's word

praying

going to bible study

that will make a difference

that will be the difference

I don't have to see it fully yet to know it is going to happen!

the time I put in to go to bible study

to go to church

to pray 

to read my bible

TIME IS IMPORTANT

HOW WE SPEND IT DETERMINES OUR LIVES OFTEN!

(Chance to out there so some are going to theoretically get lucky out there......................aka accepting christ as their personal savior at their deathbed, maybe that could be considered a lucky thing to of happened to a person --------- it ain't unlucky to be saved..........amen!) 

Ephesians 5:16 "Redeeming the time, because the days are evil." In ephesians 5:16 where it says "because the days are evil" that really speaks to me this morning that it's very important to make good use of our time.............cause the days are evil, there is a never ending onslaught of things being marketed to us all whether via internet, or via our mailboxes, commercials on tv. To get us to want to liposuction our bodies, and get our faces stretched out at the dr's....................................lot's out there trying to grab if you will our time. 

   Time happens to people I have found (so does chance) time does happen to people. It clearly doesn't always happen to me "awesomely".............todays a new day for all of us, a new day, a fresh day to use our time well!

   I watched this morning and bit last night a documentary on marilyn monroe's life, and it could very well be that she really did get to believing that her life "was over"........................in hollywood there has been a idea that people are "washed up" in the past. The guy in the clip below calls marilyn "the late marilyn monroe" sure he could've meant just that she was late..............but he could've been insinuating much more, that her career was "washed up".................

Sheri 2025 almost all the video's I try and upload from you tube are "violation" video's or "privated" video's like later privated besides music videos

I'm tired of removing all these no longer available video's

why you all upload video's if you don't want people to talk about them cause your so "private"???????????????????????????????

   Maybe you are middle aged like me, maybe you don't have the fancy house, the fancy cars, etc. etc. that you were once super sure you were going to have.......................maybe your career ended even.....................

your life is not over!

wait!

Isaiah 40:31 "But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint." I cannot say what my future is or what your future is. But know god isMIGHTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Have a great week earth!

LOVE

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