To the pastor's of America and the world......

I asked my mom when does she ever hear about christ being crucified? She told me that on Easter she hears "Christ crucified" being preached. 1 Corinthians 2:2 "For I determined not to know any thing among you, save Jesus Christ, and him crucified." That's it that's all paul wanted to know, pastor at the mainstream christian church of which I am a sunday school teacher gave sermon this last week on money ------- paul didn't want to know about 8 billion ways to be blessed from the use of his finances all he wanted "for I determined NOT to know ANY thing among you, save jesus christ, and him crucified" This verse is concerning so much more then jesus dieing on a cross cause surely no church could preach about jesus dieing on the cross every service that would drive people battty...........this cross jesus had up everyday.......denying his own self!!!!!!!..........he who the bible says was tempted in all points like us crucifying his flesh to it's lusts and desire's cause it is a way jesus paved...............Hebrews 10:20 "By a new and living way, which he hath consecrated for us, through the veil, that is to say, his flesh;" Jesus was tempted in all points like us and he had his cross up and he went through the veil that is his flesh and we are to do that to........... Galatians 5:24 "And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts." This bible verse doesn't oh and by the way those people that kind of give into the lusts of the flesh every now and then they are jesus's to ---- NO it don't say that, cause that is not the "new and living way" "which he hath consecrated for us".........it's THROUGH THE VEIL through his flesh he consecrated this way. Those that are jesus's HAVE crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts .........have followed jesus on this "new and living way" through the veil through the flesh, by crucifying it to it's lusts and desires as jesus did himself he was like us tempted in all points!!!!!!!!! Jesus christ crucified his flesh to it's lusts and desires. 1 Corinthians 1:23 "But we preach Christ crucified, unto the Jews a stumblingblock, and unto the Greeks foolishness;" To the pastor of america are you preaching this stuff, or is it only at easter time? If you ain't preaching this stuff, might want to tweak your sermon for next weekend. People need to follow jesus to become one of his, Galatians 5:24 "And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts." Best to let your congregations know that!

I decided I need to suffer in the flesh..........

this is literally what I typed in 2008 - I didn't edit 0 of it..........................

💓little 2008 mini me so bad................

I have a flesh, and somedays I'm like why? Why follow jesus? Why all this suffering in the flesh - for sure jesus wants me to suffer in the flesh I'm 100% about that much......Luke 9:23 "And he said to them all, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me." I end have ended up w/0 life in all this denying myself and following jesus athon I have like no life.......Matthew 10:39 "He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it." I guess that's the silver lining, I find my life losing it. It sucks for me somedays, somedays I want to just like bar hop and like geez I don't even know whatever all it is people w/lives do : ) And the world don't like me much and it bothers me.....John 17:14 "I have given them thy word; and the world hath hated them, because they are not of the world, even as I am not of the world" But I want to endure, I want to keep on keeping on heeding god's word ---- though there is a part of me that would like to party party and etc etc. whatever it is all the people's of this earth who have "found" their lives do - I envy them a lot.......in many ways it totally bites to be me that's like beyond sucks, I have 0 life right and then I just work to deny myself and take up my cross everyday....wow fun (I'm being sooooo sarcastic) all so jesus has some pleasure in me.....Hebrews 10:38 "Now the just shall live by faith: but if any man draw back, my soul shall have no pleasure in him." I'm about to suffer in the flesh a slew ----- I don't even want to suffer in the flesh ----- like heeding the word of god, the word of god is sadistic in my opinion a) a person is supposed to lose their lives entirelly and become big fat 0's like myself b) they are then supposed to deny themselves and take up their crosses daily and follow jesus oh and by the way if you ever draw back jesus won't have no pleasure in you So it's loose your life suffer suffer suffer suffer in the flesh, no give into no lusts of the flesh ----- or if you will no be no debtor to the flesh, just heaps of deny myself and take up my cross and follow jesus daily...........so jesus can have some sadistic pleasure in me. I'm going to do it!!!!!!!!! I'm going to suffer in the flesh a eon!!!!!!! That's a long time, and stick w/having 0 life, and deny myself and take up my cross and follow jesus daily.......but I don't know if I'm ever going to enjoy this none. I enjoy dragon boating though : ) rest my day all this follow jesus stuff kinda bites. No turning back for me though, my flesh is just going to have to suffer and live w/it!!!!!!! Better be some awesome awesome room in a mansion jesus preparing for me, it should have art supplies, it should have video games ------ it's all of eternity I going to loose my mind if I am just in a garden what watching ducks?????? it better be good!!!!!!!!!! Cause I am not enjoying following jesus none, it sucks!!!!!!! Following jesus hard work, it's hard to not love none the things of the earth, man I need to, sure helps to have my flesh "crucified" Galatians 5:24 "And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts." This off the topic my vein for this entry but Galatians 2:20 "I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me." My life right that I live "in the flesh" I don't live in like this world lives in we are no longer "debtor's to the flesh" Romans 8:12 "Therefore, brethren, we are debtors, not to the flesh, to live after the flesh." NOT TO THE FLESH TO LIVE AFTER THE FLESH!!!!!!!!! ".......the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of god........." Not to live after the flesh that's the idea! YA I know this jesus following stuffs sucks, trust me I know! But he is christ, he will make a nice room in a mansion for you if you deny yourself and take up your cross daily and follow him, hopefully he'll have a big ole plate of nacho's in that room ready to! So I can get to eating nacho's and playing what pac man : ) ya that sounds about right : )

Hebrews 10:38 "...if any man draw back, my soul shall have no pleasure in him"...........

Hebrews 2:3 "How shall we escape, if we neglect so great salvation; which at the first began to be spoken by the Lord, and was confirmed unto us by them that heard him;" A thourough salvation.........Romans 8:37 "Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us." Save me from my tendancy to want to get mad at people and lash back, save me from envy, saving me from slews of buisiness heeding the word of god, I believe it's meant to be a "so great salvation" a immense salvation, a thourough salvation........1 Peter 4:1 "Forasmuch then as Christ hath suffered for us in the flesh, arm yourselves likewise with the same mind: for he that hath suffered in the flesh hath ceased from sin;" It's a thourough salvation it's meant to be in christ jesus. Ceasing from sin that is thourough, more then a conqueror that is thorough, so much more then just jesus died for my sins and i'm saved by grace, which is true...........but I'm to be saved, not just forgiven!!!!!!! Not a magic wave a magic wand salvation either.........Matthew 7:21 "Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven." There's something I'm to give something I'm to do w/my life, to sacrifice...be lead daily like a sheep to the slaughter!!!!!!!!! Romans 8:36 "As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter." ahhhhhhhhhhhh ya! 

  There are some people out there  that no believe that stuffs, if they did they'd for JESUS'S sake be "KILLED ALL THE DAY LONG"!!!!!!! Not loving their lives none!!!!!!!!!!!! Being made conformable to jesus's death!!!!!!!!!!! We are to be sheep "for thy sake" FOR JESUS'S SAKE AMEN "we are killed all the day long" AMEN "we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter" For jesus's sake ooooooo ya I'm stoked to be "killed all the day long" really suffer in the flesh, and take up my cross and follow jesus daily "DENYING" myself........good stuffs. Those that endure in this good fight of faith the same shall be saved.........jesus will have 0 pleasure in you if you draw back any!............Hebrews 10:38 "Now the just shall live by faith: but if any man draw back, my soul shall have no pleasure in him." (I have thought in the past geez that's sadistic of jesus taking pleasure in my suffering in the flesh much) but fact of the matter is jesus will take pleasure in us if we endure unto the end in the sufferings, in denying ourselves and taking up our crosses daily in being lead like sheep to the slaughter "killed all the day long" he's going to take pleasure in us if we do that everyday and not draw back! Those that endure unto the end in all this take up your cross and follow jesus and deny yourself athon..........the same shall be saved!!!!!!!!! Matthew 16:24 "Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me." Mark 13:13 "And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake: but he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved." I can testify you will very much be "hated of all men for my name's sake" denying yourself taking up your cross daily and following jesus.......don't draw back, when you are like me w/hardly a friend the world doesn't like me much, DON'T DRAW BACK you will be "hated of all men for my name's sake" BUT HE THAT SHALL ENDURE UNTO THE END, THE SAME SHALL BE SAVED!!!!!!!!! ENDURE!

(pic of me today 8/17/2020 and my tichel look for today 😀)

I feel like when the bible says "come out of her my people"

I mean babylon the harlot she likes her hair flowing and gorgeous I feel

-- ya I wear sheitels to blend in sometimes "fit in" if you will but does god actually want us to "fit in"????????????????????????????????????????

I definately most the time prefer tichels

I don't want to be a member of babylon the harlot

Revelation 18:4 "And I heard another voice from heaven, saying, Come out of her, my people, that ye be not partakers of her sins, and that ye receive not of her plagues."

  I don't think I really need my hair showing, I think I look cute without my hair showing. I may very well wear tichels more these days. I just ain't wanting to be a babylon harlot.

Romans 1:22 "Professing themselves to be wise, they became fools,"

I got to add some 2020 claus to this blog post: (ya if  you want to know the truth someone in my family is of the LBGTQ - which got me thinking on the topic more then I would have, and ended up a good thing, I ended up with much hope for the LBGTQ they are just like us truelly, with families, etc. etc. just the same except you know..........later on at night)

  This blog post is a prime example of me "digging a hole" for myself. I recently blogged about a bible verse talking about digging ahole for oneself and how I had did just that https://givingittogod.blogspot.com/2020/08/video-blog-post-i-was-mega-encouraged.html But I do believe LGBTQ can very much be saved (while still being lgbtq) just like people that have tattoo's can be saved, etc. (look at me undigging my hole : ) Like ok, if you think you are "born LBGTQ" which might be possible since how there are gay animals in the animal world that were clearly born that way...............still the verses spoken about in this blog post are worth all of us thinking about that follow jesus whether straight or LGBTQ..................

I listened to christian radio on the drive home from dragon boat practice, and I way way way agree'd w/all he had to say he made mention of these verses.............

Romans 1

20For the invisible things of him from the creation of the world are clearly seen, being understood by the things that are made, even his eternal power and Godhead; so that they are without excuse:

21Because that, when they knew God, they glorified him not as God, neither were thankful; but became vain in their imaginations, and their foolish heart was darkened.

22Professing themselves to be wise, they became fools,

23And changed the glory of the uncorruptible God into an image made like to corruptible man, and to birds, and fourfooted beasts, and creeping things.

24Wherefore God also gave them up to uncleanness through the lusts of their own hearts, to dishonour their own bodies between themselves:

25Who changed the truth of God into a lie, and worshipped and served the creature more than the Creator, who is blessed for ever. Amen.

26For this cause God gave them up unto vile affections: for even their women did change the natural use into that which is against nature:

27And likewise also the men, leaving the natural use of the woman, burned in their lust one toward another; men with men working that which is unseemly, and receiving in themselves that recompence of their error which was meet.

Verse 23 this pastor said on christian radio that that's what this world has done most of it "...changed the glory of the uncorruptible God into an image made like to corruptible man, and to birds, and fourfooted beasts, and creeping things." AMEN AMEN AMEN extra AMEN to that!!!!! This world has became odd to me, this world that worships celebrities, puts them up on such high pedastle's. This pastor made mention of bible verse how in last days people will be "lovers of self" that they put themselves up on some pedastle and people they can still do this stuff and "profess to be wise" they can and do I believe love themselves a slew and have god on some backburner way way way in the background somewhere and "profess to be wise".....21Because that, when they knew God, they glorified him not as God, neither were thankful; but became vain in their imaginations, and their foolish heart was darkened. 22Professing themselves to be wise, they became fools, ----- really speaks to me in verse 21 that they a) glorified him not as god b) were not thankful and especially that "they became vain in their imaginations"

Pastor on christian radio last night talked about how the lusts of the flesh giving into them doesn't lead to any freedom, but just to more bondage just worse sins ----- I soooooooo agree w/him about that, I was amening like made listening to this pastor on my drive home last night!!!!! For reals! Galatians 5:1 "Stand fast therefore in the liberty wherewith Christ hath made us free, and be not entangled again with the yoke of bondage." God allowed for these people to go on w/their lusts of the flesh athon and this verse points I believe the sort of direction this sort of buisiness leads.....26 "For this cause God gave them up unto vile affections: for even their women did change the natural use into that which is against nature:"

27 "And likewise also the men, leaving the natural use of the woman, burned in their lust one toward another.................." There's a lot of gay people today, I think they are just a product of our society, one that worships celebrities "the creature" and not so much worshipping god not that I can see, not outside christianity none??????? This pastor said you can just flick through the tv channels to see how bad things are, that the most abonimable stuff is being talked about on the talk shows etc. and it's ok now stuff that once wasn't ok to talk about like that --- I believe that to! 2 Timothy 3 "This know also, that in the last days perilous times shall come. For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy, Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good," This pastor on radio last night that I agree w/fervently mentioned how these verses don't disinclude the body of christ, how even in the body of christ......these are "perilous times" cause all this loving of themselves stuff people are doing, all this "covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, UNTHANKFUL, UNHOLY etc............. this stuff leads to BONDAGE!!!!!!!!!! This stuff leads to bad buisiness!!!!!!!! 2 Timothy 3:13 "But evil men and seducers shall wax worse and worse, deceiving, and being deceived."

All these verses more then anything speak to me how important it is that I put god first, be reading my bible, be going to church, "......Who changed the truth of God into a lie, and worshipped and served the creature more than the Creator........" be heeding god's word be about doing that!!!!!! Not living for myself! NO WAY!!!!!! I hope to god I don't do that!!!!!!! The truth and heeding that will set me free........this world and the course of it and the lusts of it would for sure just lead me into BONDAGE!!!!!!!!! John 8:32 "And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free."

Ever make follow jesus into some grueling task?...........

Matthew 11:29-30 "Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." Somedays I have made following jesus into some gianormous daunting task...thinking to myself ok I need to do x number of good works etc. etc. Worrying about "works" about something that I don't think I should be worrying about like that, doing good works is great, and it's fab to do some but jesus yoke is easy, and his "burden is light" 2 Corinthians 11:3 "But I fear, lest by any means, as the serpent beguiled Eve through his subtilty, so your minds should be corrupted from the simplicity that is in Christ."

What I need to do everyday I think is hate my life in this world John 12:25 "He that loveth his life shall lose it; and he that hateth his life in this world shall keep it unto life eternal." Love not this earth or the things in it 1 John 2:15 "Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him." That's my mission these days : ) good works I might do some those to : ) but I think it's not good when I sweat over the idea worry much if I have enough good works or no, get heeding John 12:25 down pat and 1 John 2:15 down pat is my goal, fact it's pry extremely good that I don't have such a fab list of good works, that sure does help w/my being meek and lowly of heart ---- that and man I'm scarcely saved it's ridiculous, scarcely at best! It's a real battle for me to not love this world or the things in it.......but worth it, I need that light yoke jesus had. I need to no more be no sort of friend with this world, not love the things of this world or this world no more! 1 John 4:17 "Herein is our love made perfect, that we may have boldness in the day of judgment: because as he is, so are we in this world." Jesus christ was meek and "lowly in heart" I think he didn't own much, I think he lived a very simple life ----- this just my theory. From all I can gather about jesus, he cared for others, was very giving of his time and whatever he could give to help people in anyway........he layed his life down I believe to do the will of god.....such is my going theory : ) If I give into the lusts of the flesh........I'm not doing the will of god!!!!!!! But besides that I think god desire for me us/to be as jesus is........."because as he is, so are we in this world" and that is meek and lowly in heart - humble, humble humble. Humble myself and pray for my enemies, and love them and do good to them. Jesus looking at jesus's life on this earth really think he cared about people a lot.....Deuteronomy 15:11
"For the poor shall never cease out of the land: therefore I command thee, saying, Thou shalt open thine hand wide unto thy brother, to thy poor, and to thy needy, in thy land." Not just for my salvation sake do I need to "crucify my flesh to it's lust's and desires" but to be able to "open thine hand wide" that's not just a tiny somewhat open hand really speaks to me that that is a hand opened "wide" jesus I believe he wasn't just humble and meek "lowling in heart" he was extremely giving, he hits me as having his hand opened wide while he was on this earth ---- and he was lowly and meek while doing it......his heart was there his heart was for people, people's needs, more then just for people to be saved I think, for their health, for their well being. Proverbs 13:7 "There is that maketh himself rich, yet hath nothing: there is that maketh himself poor, yet hath great riches." I'm determined to be the type that "maketh himself poor, yet hath great riches" that's fab way to be I think! It's good to give, it's good to have your hand opened as wide as you can give as much as your can "....unto thy brother, to thy poor, and to thy needy, in thy land" you know whichever of that list you decide to give to a heap I think is fine : )

Do you have fire??????? And zeal to live for jesus??????? Got fire?????????

Romans 8:14 "For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, they are the sons of God."

I wrote this while in the cult, or church, pry cult.........................so I was attacking the body of christ in this blog post...........that's the "sad state" I was in................................
Revelation 3:16 "So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth." I wonder w/mainstream christianity I wonder if mainstream christians have fire (jumping up and down and singing a lot and raising your hands does not equal fire really, I not sure if mainstream christians have fire???? I really aint????? ----- they aren't like the smith's friends who get up and testify and you can know of their fire and/or lack of or have some idea anyways) And where are the logs they get to stick in their fireplace to have a fire?????? Being that they all appear to believe that jesus died on the cross for their sins and presto they confess jesus is christ and boom they are saved or something to that effect. ----- If salvation is instant, w/a baptismal, or a prayer, if you all really believe salvation is instant and you are boom saved, then how you going to be on fire?????? Unless there is indeed something of my self life that needs to die!!!!!!!!!
I am thankful I believe jesus paved a way for us to go.......Hebrews 10:20 "By a new and living way, which he hath consecrated for us, through the veil, that is to say, his flesh;" There are logs I can stick in the fireplace!!!!! John 12:25 "He that loveth his life shall lose it; and he that hateth his life in this world shall keep it unto life eternal." I have been going on for months now - ok longer then that mourning that I don't have any friends to go to the mall with, and not such a fancy house ----- FOOLISHNESS that is!!!!!!!!!!!! 2 Corinthians 7:10 "For godly sorrow worketh repentance to salvation not to be repented of: but the sorrow of the world worketh death." Isn't that the "sorrow of the world" this woes me I do not have that house or that car, or those friends! Very much so I am not only to not sorrow "the sorrow of the world" but "hateth his life in this world"!!!!!! It's a very foolish thing I have sorrowed after wishing that I had friends to go with me to the mall -- so much better to "hate" my life "in this world"! Surely that is not something that brings me life sorrowing that I do not have friends to hang out with me at the mall etc. But if I hate my life in this world really hate it, I "shall keep it unto life eternal"!
1 John 2:15 "Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him." Don't sorrow cause you don't have the things they have (those that are "of the world")
I am determined to hate my life in this world more then ever, no be doing no more of that "sorrow of the world" stuff which very well there is a "sorrow" of which the world sorrows, there really is a "sorrow of the world" people in the world I find do sorrow that they don't have a hot tub, or a new car, or a whatever : ) over stuffs!!!!!!!! I believe this "sorrow of the world" I believe it truelly exists!!!!!!!!
The truth of the matter is.......1 John 2:17 "And the world passeth away, and the lust thereof: but he that doeth the will of God abideth for ever." The whole world and THE LUST THEROF it's going up in smoke it "passeth away".........."but he that doeth the will of God abideth for ever" It's a fab thing I have 0 friends to go hang out with me at the mall ----- I'm going to hate my life in this world.......and do all I can do ALL I can do to crucify my flesh to it's lusts and desires Galatians 5:24
"And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts." This "world passeth away, and the LUST THEREOF.......but he that doeth the will of god abideth for ever" it's all going up in smoke!!!!!!!!! S - M - O - K - E SMOKE!!!!!!!!!!!! The lusts of this world to, those very lusts that I have STUPIDLY lusted for jewelry for cars, etc. PASSETH AWAY..........BUT HE THAT DOETH THE WILL OF GOD ABIDETH FOR EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!! Man I'm out to hate my life in this world ya hate it, hate the lusts of this world, hate the lusts of my flesh, hate my life in this world HATE IT. Cause in doing that I will "hateth his life in this world shall keep it unto life eternal"
Especially it is on my heart that the lusts of this earth passeth away, how fruitless that is ----- the lusts of the flesh. HOw empty those lusts of the earth are!!!!!!!! They "passeth away"!!!!!!!! But that "he that doeth the will of God abideth for ever"!!!!!!!!! Jesus paved the way, it is a real way he paved........Hebrews 10:20 "By a new and living way, which he hath consecrated for us, through the veil, that is to say, his flesh;" It is god's will that my flesh be crucified to it's lusts and desires ------ it is god's will that I hate my life in this earth and thereby "keep it unto life etermal" The will of god must be that I die!!!!!!!!! To my self life!!!!! And to my flesh - all it's lusts and desires!!!!! A death I must die to my self life, to my flesh, I hope to start dieing that death much!!!!!!!!!!!...........Philippians 3:10 "That I may know him, and the power of his resurrection, and the fellowship of his sufferings, being made conformable unto his death;" DOWN WITH MY FLESH!!!!!!!

Psalm 82:5 "......they walk on in darkness: all the foundations of the earth are out of course."

Psalm 82:5 "They know not, neither will they understand; they walk on in darkness: all the foundations of the earth are out of course." This earth it is all about things, getting things, having a spendy house, having it all coordinated, bling, flash, this fashion that fashion, etc. etc. ........HELLO out there......."THEY WALK ON IN DARKNESS: ALL THE FOUNDATIONS OF THE EARTH ARE OUT OF COURSE" For reals.
1 John 2:16 "For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world."
My testimony for today is simple that I believe this world is out of course, I believe it!
1 Corinthians 9:24 "Know ye not that they which run in a race run all, but one receiveth the prize? So run, that ye may obtain." They run to they do good things for people to! ALL RUN!!!!! ALL even those of this earth who "know not, neither will they understand; they walk on in darkness......" those of this earth they run to........SO RUN THAT YE MAY OBTAIN! I want to get much more serious about this race, running that I may obtain, love my enemies.....Matthew 5:44-45 "But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you; That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust." Really speaks to me part that verse that says "That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he matheth the sun to rise on the evil and on the good......" That we may be the children of our Father which is in heaven!
It's not enough to just do a good deed here and there I don't think! Nope we need to love our enemies, very well "do good to them that hate you" like our father in heaven who rains on the just and on the unjust! THAT YE MAY BE the children of your Father which is in heaven!
Run that ye may obtain!!!!!!!!!