We are all one people and we are all related to one another and one people I agree with the Lacoda tribe while I'm a bit crying my eyeballs out but I'll try and get chipperier, it's the 4th of july afterall, this is supposed to be a happy day...................

ps..........I'm never ever ever going to talk about who molested me as a kid, never. It was so bad. I'm literally never going to actually talk about that. So don't bother asking. 

Lucifer though if my memories are real - he might talk

he might

We are all members of one another

but men are supreme...............

Genesis 3:6-7 "When the woman saw that the fruit of the tree was good for food and pleasing to the eye, and also desirable for gaining wisdom, she took some and ate it. She also gave some to her husband, who was with her, and he ate it".

  1 Peter 3:7 "Likewise, ye husbands, dwell with them according to knowledge, giving honour unto the wife, as unto the weaker vessel, and as being heirs together of the grace of life; that your prayers be not hindered."

  I'm just merely saying, if you a girl, lady, women, your not actually valuable except to have children I don't believe (and or "late night activities" and cooking and cleaning your valuable for that stuff to)

1 Timothy 2:15 "Notwithstanding she shall be saved in childbearing, if they continue in faith and charity and holiness with sobriety."

I ain't complaining - I know how to read

this is my fate and a "less then" worthless lady

if I have kids - did that

keep going to church or just reading my bible cause "continue in faith" doesn't necesesarily mean attending church

don't get drunk, don't do drugs (though felt I had to for a second there my arthritis actually was THAT BAD)

and keeping donating money I WILL BE SAVED

I'm probably demon possessed right now so things don't look promising for me I'm pry going to hell 

I don't think I want to go to heaven a place that has spoken so badly of women in their "holy book"

AND I'VE BEEN THROUGH HELL

I was molested as a kid (my family don't know that) 

I was date rapped

and worse oh ya worrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrse

IF I HAD VALUE I'D BE TREATED THAT WAY

I don't deserve to be treated well though I destroyed my husbands family and my family and my husbands life by blog posts. 

I have a miserable time keeping the house clean there's to much stuff in this tiny 1200 square feet house and I don't know what to do with half of it anymore????????????????

and with brian and ian home everyday all day for years like this there's more mess, it's hard

and I'm often to depressed to clean having no friends or family really alone that's depressing

being in a sexless marriage married to a guy that according thim is "non - demonstrative" so he don't tell me I'm pretty

or anything

I sit in my computer room on my computer all day everyday

clean some ideally many days I focus on a area of the house to clean

try not to feel "overwhelmed" by the mess but I do feel "overwhelmed" I asked brian please get us a maid he refuses to do that

so I gotta clean!!!!!!!!!! 

I'M THE MAID!!!!!!!!!

I'M THE MAID , and the "late night activities" when he is in the mood the rare times not often who can blaim him I'M WORTHLESS

AND OFTEN I DO SPEND A LOT OF TIME EXCERSIZING CAUSE I HOPE FOR A BETTER LIFE FOR MYSELF

A LIFE WITH LESS ARTHRITIS

and my arthritis is going away

and my asthma went away

people need hope!

We are all one people and we are all related to one another and one people I agree with the Lacoda tribe while I'm a bit crying my eyeballs out but I'll try and get chipperier, it's the 4th of july afterall, this is supposed to be a happy day...................

 My whole life ever since I was a teeny kid, I didn't like them presidents carved on that mountain................a lot of us native america little kids we don't like that I don't think.

But I don't think 0 of us native america's want that mountain harmed again. 

(I'm saying we'd rather just stare at those faces of them presidents for good)

I'll be ok

I'll get all cheered up

pry about to go swimming with my daughter in a very freezing new swimming pool. 

Ephesians 4:3-5 "Endeavouring to keep the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace. There is one body, and one Spirit, even as ye are called in one hope of your calling; One Lord, one faith, one baptism,"

 For native american people for all of us, out of all the mountains, I do believe Mount Rushmore is pretty safe to say the most painful mountain for some presidents to be carved into....................................................................................................

The Lakota in video above though they said stuffs right.

Ephesians 4:25 "Wherefore putting away lying, speak every man truth with his neighbour: for we are members one of another."

  I've been in a funk for awhile.........................what happened to George Flloyd is not cool. 

So now you all know how I feel about some presidents faces carved in Mt. Rushmore.............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

I go cheer myself up, I gotta get out of this funk.