Fresh video blog post: I am a bit of a Paula White fan. (and wish to not judge nobody not acca or accn churches etc.).....salvation is a process I believe, if your like me been hated been beat to a bloody pulp mercilessly for years and years and years and years by potentially several churches DON'T GIVE UP FOLLOWING JESUS.................god is mighty to save I can proove that...............

 Fresh video blog post: I am a bit of a Paula White fan. (and wish to not judge nobody not acca or accn churches etc.).....salvation is a process I believe, if your like me been hated been beat to a bloody pulp mercilessly for years and years and years and years by potentially several churches DON'T GIVE UP FOLLOWING JESUS.................god is mighty to save I can proove that...............

flipped my phone and messed the whole thing up but it's still a good video.

  It does not appear that neither the ACCN or the Apostolic christian church of america, understand the bible fully. They seem to actually deem themselves flawless after they repent. 1 John 1:8 "If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us." We supposed to ask god for "help" if we have a problem drinking to much for instance I just saying "for instance" many people battle something......pray to god for help........Luke 20:18 "Whosoever shall fall upon that stone shall be broken; but on whomsoever it shall fall, it will grind him to powder." 1 John 1:9 "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." I think this process is supposed to take most of a persons lifetime, it's not supposed to be instant "poof" now I am the perfect flawless saint NO..............long process pry. We need to have mercy with one another stop axes the hellllllllllllllll out of each other ------- especially me, geesh I feel anniliated to all hellllllllllllllllllllll by now. I feel annilliated and damned to hell.

  Other verses in the video above............

Romans 8:11-13" But if the Spirit of him that raised up Jesus from the dead dwell in you, he that raised up Christ from the dead shall also quicken your mortal bodies by his Spirit that dwelleth in you. Therefore, brethren, we are debtors, not to the flesh, to live after the flesh. For if ye live after the flesh, ye shall die: but if ye through the Spirit do mortify the deeds of the body, ye shall live."

and.............

1 Corinthians 1:27 "But God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty;"

 So my song choice for this blog post --------- is Shawty gon' get that paper ----------- I guess like the bible ya : ) ----------- admitedly I go to tik tok a ton lately and I loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee this song.......................

Shawty gon' get that paper - yessssssssssssssssssssssss

(my husband fully agree'd to donate this amount there was a $19 dollar donate option) 

I may donate again to this charity....................it's nice knowing your helping feed a baby for a month 😊 I like knowing I helped someone in someway each month 😊

https://www.savingmoses.org/

 And my husband bought me more yarn today to make more beanie hats 💓 I think my husband likes helping people out to, I'm pretty 100 billion percent he does. 

   I'm pretty "particular" with the type of charities I am fond of.................I'm into the charities where I know for a fact my donation will change a life for a whole month...........something about that??????

Video blog post: God blows my mind regularly with what He's been doing in my life (mini testimony)...................................

Made this turquoise bracelet last night (it's a faux turquoise but real stone from JoAnns craft store, and died lava beads etc.)...................aka 5/4/2024 people quit clicking on my highlighted blog post for the week so now I just add "updates" on whatever blog posts are popular at the time..................

1 Corinthians 12:24\"For our comely parts have no need: but God hath tempered the body together, having given more abundant honour to that part which lacked."

Deuteronomy 3:24 "O Lord God, thou hast begun to shew thy servant thy greatness, and thy mighty hand: for what God is there in heaven or in earth, that can do according to thy works, and according to thy might?" Think of the actual might of god, I know our minds are blown right now. MINE TO!

   God wants to "show up and show off" 

in your lives to!

This song choice is easy for me......................................

https://www.donorschoose.org/

Mrs. Senn's classrooms fundraiser is now fully funded 😁 But there are many more classrooms with many more needs at Donors Choose............

The future is women, take note it says that on one of the tv sets in this Justin Timberlake song - It should not be ok, the way the apostolic christian church of america has attacked me over the years you all should not be ok with that WOMEN SHOULD HAVE VALUE...........and they should NOT be kidnapped or rapped or sold into sex slavery!!!!!!!!!!!! All guys, sinner guys, non sinner guys should ALL value women more then that.............

   Update 6/26/2026 cleaned my house a ton yesterday : ) that's it. 

The future is women, take note it says that on one of the tv sets in this Justin Timberlake song - It should not be ok, the way the apostolic christian church of america has attacked me over the years you all should not be ok with that WOMEN SHOULD HAVE VALUE...........and they should NOT be kidnapped or rapped or sold into sex slavery!!!!!!!!!!!! All guys, sinner guys, non sinner guys should ALL value women more then that.............

Hate me all you want

the Illuminati has promised me a better future

I am woefully ready for this future 

for I am tired of not being valued

.26 into the justin timberlake song is a girl wearing a shirt that says "the future is female" ...............

(I include this photo of the zions harp sing......cause the ACCN even dresses like the apostolic christian church of america, there's no demarcafication line between the 2 looks wise.....ACCA also many of them wear hair down the girls do these days they've "modernised"....so that this brother titled the above video "Zions Harp Since 2017 ------ how am I just looking at this video going to know they are anything but the apostolic christian church of america?

"please don't write this here" 

aka please go away worthless piece of --------- girl

UPDATE THOUGH............this brother is trying to care at the moment. Maybe I'm not sure anymore, I'm not sure women have value ANYWHERE ANYMORE??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

   My frustration is intense at the moment. 

  Luke 12:7 "But even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not therefore: ye are of more value than many sparrows."

I have value, people should treat me as thus!

   And none 0 womens should be rapped, or killed, or freaking sold into sex slavery none 000000000000000000000000000

  

via GIPHY

 Maybe clean porn should be illegial and banned from exitance if they ain't going to treat women well!

 What is going on if you allow porns to not treat women well???????????

  women in porns, should be treated WELL

I realize most women do not take never no stand for the better treatment of women, ladies, because most women hate each other.........view each other as competition. Many of you do not like me because I am hotter then you and I realize it..............but you should care about the rights of alllllllllllll women. And women should care about each other and ask for change. Change in the porn industry - sheesh - change I don't know alllllllllllll over the place...........no guys should think in their heads ever that it's ok to rape a girl, lady, or sex slavery them NEVER WOMEN SHOULD BE VALUED. 

   And it don't matter if said girl is a porn star, or a hooker, or whatever. Women should be valued by all. 

bonus song................

I don't done even know what's going on in this world - besides sin, 

people need to knock that stuffs off for surely women should be valued BY ALL!

Isaiah 43:3-5 "For I am the Lord thy God, the Holy One of Israel, thy Saviour: I gave Egypt for thy ransom, Ethiopia and Seba for thee. Since thou wast precious in my sight, thou hast been honourable, and I have loved thee: therefore will I give men for thee, and people for thy life. Fear not: for I am with thee: I will bring thy seed from the east, and gather thee from the west;" Men and women in Isaiah 43:3-5 not just men, both precious. VALUABLE. 

 Don't worry much though the illuminati will fix this. The illuminati will somehow make women, girls and ladies valuable again. I have great confidence in the illuminati.........they are going to come through for me, hopefully soon. 

God will to. 

But you know......and the illuminati will. 

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confession/update 9/9/2025 I'M NOT PEE MY PANTS EXCITED FOR THE IMMENT RETURN OF JESUS BECAUSE I DON'T BELIEVE IN A "PRE-TRIB" RAPTURE AT ALL AND HAVE POTENTIAL BIBLE PROOF VIDEO ADDED FRESH BELOW....................

Matthew 7:22

Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works?

Update 6/26/2025 my fresh made bed today ------------ care about yourself -------------- if everyone gives up on you don't you also give up on you...........................

MAYBE I AM AWEFUL AND MAYBE YOUR AWEFUL TO - WELL GOD WANTS US SAVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

don't give up on yourself k.............

Pastor on christian radio said "if you aren't hyped for the return of the lord your soul isn't doing good" Well I think I am mega hyped for the return of the lord but my "excitement" is due to Jesus being out of his mind (or so I estimate) since how he'll be dripping with blood (I imagine him with the same crazed look in his eye's Ozzy had the day he bitted the head of a bat THAT'S EXCITING) Titus 2:13 "Looking for that blessed hope, and the glorious appearing of the great God and our Saviour Jesus Christ;" Is that why you are all "pee your pants" hyped for the return of the lord as well???????????..........

via GIPHY

   Cause like if your like hyped right to go up to heaven like "pee your pants" level else you know your soul pry isn't doing good (that's how it appears to be "out there" from what I can gather from how excited many pastors over the years have told me I should be aka "pee my pants excited" for the return of the lord. How's that work out if like you like might have to like uhhhhhhh talk about bible verses all day I imagine, and like clean buildings, and cook food..........cause you know you need to be like holy like a ton all the time. And pry like nothing else one can do...................................I mean......................besides like fencing to prepare for armageddon. I mean gasp you wouldn't want to be one of the "uncomely" parts of the body of christ GASP (that's me being sarcastic - I have to say I'm being sarcastic cause people don't have sense of humours no more out there)

    Like I recogn no fun time - cause your preparing for armageddon. So like "down time" when your not sword fighting and crawling in the mud under "trip wires" you pry have to like be like speaking the bible or cleaning, or cooking food.............I'm pretty 100% about that.........cause like Jesus is like drip blood serious about armageddon. Though he according to the bible is going to annihilate all kinds of lucifers people with a sword coming out of his mouth.....................(but if he's that crazed....................wouldn't he then have us crawling through trip wires in heaven in the mud????????????????????????????????????????? ) Have I done watched Rambo movies to many times???????.........
    Revelation 19:12-21 "His eyes were as a flame of fire, and on his head were many crowns; and he had a name written, that no man knew, but he himself. And he was clothed with a vesture dipped in blood: and his name is called The Word of God. And the armies which were in heaven followed him upon white horses, clothed in fine linen, white and clean. And out of his mouth goeth a sharp sword, that with it he should smite the nations: and he shall rule them with a rod of iron: and he treadeth the winepress of the fierceness and wrath of Almighty God. And he hath on his vesture and on his thigh a name written, King Of Kings, And Lord Of Lords. And I saw an angel standing in the sun; and he cried with a loud voice, saying to all the fowls that fly in the midst of heaven, Come and gather yourselves together unto the supper of the great God; That ye may eat the flesh of kings, and the flesh of captains, and the flesh of mighty men, and the flesh of horses, and of them that sit on them, and the flesh of all men, both free and bond, both small and great. And I saw the beast, and the kings of the earth, and their armies, gathered together to make war against him that sat on the horse, and against his army. And the beast was taken, and with him the false prophet that wrought miracles before him, with which he deceived them that had received the mark of the beast, and them that worshipped his image. These both were cast alive into a lake of fire burning with brimstone. And the remnant were slain with the sword of him that sat upon the horse, which sword proceeded out of his mouth: and all the fowls were filled with their flesh."
   And even if Jesus is done killing everyone with this sword coming out of his mouth. Wouldn't there be some "preparations" for us to minister to the people left on earth that Jesus didn't kill with the sword coming out of his mouth????????????????????????????? That pry actually entails, hours and hours and hours and hours a day of boring pastors cause most pastors are boring...............talking, talking, talking, talking, talking, talking................

  Naw that can't be it (you all can't be looking forward to boring sermons), you must all secret time be goths. 

(Above is picture of the stain glass piece of art I have in my window. I imagine daily a crazed out of his mind maniac Lord riding this horse someday...................that's exciting.)

But I prefer 0 of lucifer's people to die. I mean they gonna be at armagedon to try and defend their chance for a decent afterlife..........who could blame them for trying to have a decent afterlife?

  Peace is the best option, I feel. I think Jesus could wager something with lucifer and his people..................maybe give them building supplies for some houses in hell some decency???????????????? Something something (like bricks, bricks are fire proof and would shield people from heat, allow for them to have some decency and a good nights sleep). By "decency" you can imagine what I'm referencing...................... Houses provide "decency" do they not? 

   Really is the only option to kill them all????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

  But I do look forward to the return of the lord...............cause I do believe we will see "crazed out of his mind Jesus" and that should be at the very least be something to see. 

   I can't imagine people raptured are going to "work jesus" up that bad????????????? I'll try and steer that ship a better peaceful direction. 

   Peace even the bible says peace is the way..................

Matthew 5:9 "Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God."

   

   Maybe Lucifers people though drove the lord to it (they like drove him bats out of his mind I'm saying)? Cause he gave them so much of a chance, to repent of their sins. 

Romans 10:9
That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.

  According to Romans 10:9 confess and believe and bamn saved.......not even hard that is Romans 10:9. 

Link if you to wish to donate to the NAACP and support the betterment of Black American lives......

https://naacp.org/  

I am going nowhere today, as far as I know, and I look cute so I incude pic. 

https://www.donorschoose.org/

Ms. Glazer's classrooms fundraiser is now fully funded 😁 But there are many more classrooms with many more needs at Donors Choose................

It's good to be "comely" if it wasn't it wouldn't be mentioned in the bible 1 Corinthians 12:23 "And those members of the body, which we think to be less honourable, upon these we bestow more abundant honour; and our uncomely parts have more abundant comeliness." I don't feel society should expect people to be happy all of the time, but chipperiness is comely it is.................

 Update 6/22/2026 another summer of trying to not get skin cancer again for me..................(ps pry still thought I was a apostle this blog post I don't believe that anymore) titles are annoying anyways christians are christians........................that's how it should be

A title could work "iniquity". The apostles jesus selected didn't work iniquity because they were just CHRISTIANS. 

   I'm just a chubby whiteish person the believes jesus is lord trying to not get skin cancer again (last time was non-cancerous type but it was spreading and had to be removed YIKES)...............

It's good to be "comely" if it wasn't it wouldn't be mentioned in the bible 1 Corinthians 12:23 "And those members of the body, which we think to be less honourable, upon these we bestow more abundant honour; and our uncomely parts have more abundant comeliness." I don't feel society should expect people to be happy all of the time, but chipperiness is comely it is.................

  I'm in a good mood today..............I include pics why I in a good mood. My husband he's back from the hospital thanks for the prayers. (he had pnuemonia at the same time as covid-19 and that is why he had to go to the hospital). 

  Hindsight is 20/20 no wonder my mom wanted more expensive gifts from me this year, just look at the safe to say $50 or more she spent on me this christmas easy..............pry more like $70 including a fancy tin of chocolates that me and the kids already ate....................

(this one I have salt in it, to get rid of any "bad vibes", and a candle but I will pry add rocks in it, just take me a minute to figure out what rocks I want to put in it, maybe a little elf to??????????)

The littlier lantern in the super expensive lantern set my parents got me for christmasI put on my computer shelf.....amongts some rocks and candles 😁👍

I just included the neighboring computer shelf in this photo collage, so you can imagine the full effect.........a happy little lighted up rock land of happy time 😁

And these arrived in the mail today, they are rose quartz which supposedly is supposed to make you like love people more....and/or people to love you more. Worth a try!!!!!!!!!!

They ended up being a bit on the small side........butttttttttt...........I having my husband buy me some fish tubing.........and then I trap some in a tube, then I make net style bracelet..........incorporating several tiny rose quartz rocks per bracelet...............

Hubba Bubba Time hahahahhaha 😂

I mean get ready to love me so bad....................

Being thankful is comely to, 

l letting ya all know what's comely

me the comely expert and everything hahahahah 💓💓💓💓💓

1 Thessalonians 5:18 "In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you." When people attack me that's a chance for me to shine, shine in honouring them on my blog, and doing good to them if only in honoring them but you know I giving my enemies money each week so (or I am as of this blog post - I donate money on post in the year 2008 right now...........I have no idea how long I will keep this up?????)...................

  And humble myself. Everytime I'm attacked is a chance to humble myself. 

    I ain't the "biggest thing on this earth" afterall like many of you above me....................

I am the dink of this planet and other planets as well I am of the last! 

As it should be!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you all take the "high rooms" in life

thank god

I well sitting in the LAST ROOM YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Luke 14:10 "But when thou art bidden, go and sit down in the lowest room; that when he that bade thee cometh, he may say unto thee, Friend, go up higher: then shalt thou have worship in the presence of them that sit at meat with thee." 

  And ya Jesus didn't have any comeliness to him but clearly we are supposed to have comeliness and not like or stay like the lord in "that way" cause if we weren't comely what would anybody want to follow Jesus for???????????? Isaiah 53:2 "For he shall grow up before him as a tender plant, and as a root out of a dry ground: he hath no form nor comeliness; and when we shall see him, there is no beauty that we should desire him." We are for sure supposed to be comely cause bible done says 1 Corinthians 12:23 "And those members of the body, which we think to be less honourable, upon these we bestow more abundant honour; and our uncomely parts have more abundant comeliness." I definately though billions believe that Jesus brought a "type" of comeliness upon himself by hanging out at bars.........well to some people..........to the sinners he was on the earth to save.  But I think a "real" type of comliness eventually was upon him. Even if he didn't "look" comely. Which he for sure was while going to those bars wearing his totally not cool robe, he was definately not wearing the robes the "cool kids" were wearing..........his robe pry was like so like 2 decades ago!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Have a great day comely people's 👄

Joel Osteen said God won't move you up in life until your fully ready to be "moved up" in life..............until your at that point that you can really show mercy to your enemies and love them. Joseph was placed in a leadership role truelly because god saw that he was ready................

  Video tour no way I could show how much this room "transformed" today without giving a video tour. And it was hot today even with the air conditioning going. 

  As usual turn up the volume to hear evp's from satan, lucifer, the devil (I do believe strongly he is going to keep his word with me). 

  ----------- and I will like owning more properties and boats, the part of being "future rich" I not into is I don't know if I like socializing that much...................for me socializing is 4 out of 10 at best. Maybe 5 out of 10 if the food is good. 

  Maybe blame it on my friends from high school that had parties with live rock concerts where they got CRAZY

and also tons of booze, booze and booze and booze and not many beers the high end booze

Update 6/14/2026 pry will add to this post later cause brian is putting together our new bedframe so that brian can finally sleep in our room again (our old bedframe was veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy high up - and I worry for our corgi that if he were to not jump right off the thing he might get hurt). In a few hours we will have a bed frame in our room nice a low and safe 😊 And I like this new bedframe better, it reminds me of a sportscar 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

   Haven't ate breakfast at this point, enjoyed shabbating yesterday found a great great african american church online - was digging the music. They sang some song about how easy it is to love one another cause the "jesus in me is the jesus in you" - never heard that song before GREAT SONG! 

the finished look : ).............

before photo the before bed is from ikea and it was just to high for our sons corgi...........

 Once I was heavily about getting revenge (mostly back when I was a practicing witch - witch craft doing). But last night watching Joel Osteen he was totally right, mercy is "the thing to do" Matthew 5:7 "Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy." Like if god was ever to "move me up" in life it would be horrible for me to "exact revenge" on people all the sudden and I wouldn't want to be that way, I wouldn't want to hold onto anger etc.
   I told my parents, I view myself as a "servant of the people" (now whether I am a "quality" servant of the people or a very bad one ------ I mean I'll full out say it, people have complained on my blog that I post "worldly songs" I am open about how stinky I actually am 1 Corinthians 15:9 "For I am the least of the apostles, that am not meet to be called an apostle, because I persecuted the church of God." I'm definately NOT saying I'm a apostle at all, I'm just "down there" "way down there" waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay down there. Refer to the previous blog post where I'm talking about taking the "low room" in life and how I view being goth as one of the "low rooms" (Luke 14:10) https://givingittogod.blogspot.com/2020/12/video-blog-post-one-day-at-store-some.html
  That's allllllllllllllll people I been gunning to "serve" LGBTQ, all races of people, like all people I want to be a servant of the people. That doesn't mean I don't want to be famous...........don't get me wrong. man let me tell you all
A fool such as myself could really "have it all"
IT'S POSSIBLE!
But I don't estimate it would happen if I was "vengeful" If I was proud or highminded. 

  The will of god isn't that we exact "revenge" on each other. The will of god I truelly believe is that everyone come to repentance and be saved. 2 Peter 3:9 "The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance."

  Did Josephs brother's do joseph wrong? ya

Was Joseph so wronged he could've exacted revenge...........and maybe at least get some sympathy from some folks since how he was what thrown in a lions den.......potentially. (or some pit he was thrown in, I think there was lions there?)

  But the time for joseph to witness of the love of god to his brothers, was exactly the moment when instead of revenge, joseph choose mercy. 

Genesis 44:1-2 "And he commanded the steward of his house, saying, Fill the men's sacks with food, as much as they can carry, and put every man's money in his sack's mouth. And put my cup, the silver cup, in the sack's mouth of the youngest, and his corn money. And he did according to the word that Joseph had spoken." 

  Joel Osteen said God won't move you up in life until your fully ready to be "moved up" in life..............until  your at that point that you can really show mercy to your enemies and love them. Joseph was placed in a leadership role truelly because god saw that he was ready. 

 hmmmmmm what song for this one????????/................uhhhhhhhhh just don't listen to the lyrics uhhhhhhhhhh I'M LIKELY A TRAD GOTH (cough with vampire uhhhhh uhhhhh)....................ya let's play "master and servants"..............

THE WAY UP IN LIFE IS VIA "GOING DOWN" 

IN HUMILITY 

LIKE JESUS

Philippians 2:8 "And being found in fashion as a man, he humbled himself, and became obedient unto death, even the death of the cross."

Video blog post: I spent $30 on a very expensive gift for my mom today to honor my parents so that I live long on the earth. Cause my 1st (two) gifts I bought her her reply was I quote "fertilizer? stickers? plant spikes? I don't know. Really? Oh honey!" - she hasn't seen these gifts and I didn't fully even tell her what they were........

Update 6/12/2026 went to sons college graduation, the backdrop really reminds me of "the wizard of oz" and time and chance does happen to all! But you can tip "time and change" to get it working in your favour I believe! 1 Peter 5:6 "Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time:" Matthew 24:12 "And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold." They build themselves up big, they get "connections" a lot of people do out there, and they do succeed, they go up high on earth without god's help. But for those that humble themselves god is the BEST RAISER UPPER. 

from everything I've seen in my life most people don't go the humble route...........

I spent $30 on a very expensive gift for my mom today to honor my parents so that I live long on the earth. Cause my 1st (two) gifts I bought her her reply was I quote "fertilizer? stickers? plant spikes? I don't know. Really? Oh honey!" - she hasn't seen these gifts and I didn't fully even tell her what they were.......

  For now on out I'm just going to have to send her pics of each gift I buy her and the price tag tell that so that she can better access that it's "good enough" or not. Don't worry people she'll let me know if my gifts aren't good enough. 

  My parents aren't that much like me...........so I struggle with buying gifts for them. I told my mom far as I know all she likes is gardening, and asked her "am I wrong?"

  But I solved the problem cause I spent $30 on this.........

   My mom then e-mailed me.............." Honey, please, I don't want you spending money on me. Please stop. I love you and don't need gifts. I don't. I'm fine. I'm okay. Please stop." My reply - "it is much to late mom I clicked the purchase button."
  Bible says honour your parents else you live a short life looks to be.......................Ephesians 6:1-3" Children, obey your parents in the Lord: for this is right. Honour thy father and mother; which is the first commandment with promise; That it may be well with thee, and thou mayest live long on the earth."

   We should buy our parents "good enough" gifts to honour them.......especially if we directly hear them e-mail us laughing at the gifts we already bought them. Cause after reading my mom saying "fertilizer? stickers? plant spikes? i don't know. Really? Oh honey!" It was clear to me then that none of the gifts I had bought her thus far this christmas were remotedly "good enough" and definately not honoring my mom.............I must spend $30-50 I feel now on out to adequately honor my parents, and I should, I should spend around $200 a year on my parents for gifts for mothers day, fathers day, birthdays..........I will try harder this year. 

I'm not trying to live some short life and get cancer bad and die bad. (my condolences to those with cancer bad and dieing bad right now - that stinks for sure)

   Many people in my mom's side of the family got cancer bad and died mega bad. One of my main childhood memories is going to Mc Donalds outside of a hospital. Because one of my mom's family members was dieing of cancer so spectacularly bad, neither of my parents wanted none of us to "see that" ----------- weekends after weekends late at night...........little mini me..................on a carosel I think sitting on grimaces back I was - grimace was a part of the carosel at any rate????? Hours seemed around and around and around I went sitting on grimaces back. And little mini me, was pretty goth, pretty severely goth truth be known, and I always wanted all the details, how bad was the cancer, was she bloated??????????? Was she turning green??????????????? Was her skin peeling off?????????

   And then I was at my grandma's death bed hours before she died, and she died of cancer baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad - she smoked cigarette's for years. 

   I became determined that I wasn't about to die of cancer bad if I could help it...............that I was going to do allllllllllllllll I could do to not die of cancer bad!

  That one relative of my mom, most my life I had a image of this lady.......dieing of cancer bad.............man little mini me's imagination was something else that's what I going to say. To this day you couldn't tell me ---- one of my mom's family members wasn't like bloated and green, with like skin peeling off. And have me like believe you. Cause little mini me was soooooooooooooooooooooooo sure that was actually what was happening to one of my mom's relatives.  It totally had to of been though ACTUALLY that bad. 

  Update on my husband with covid 19 he's well on his way to recovery 😁👍 - thank you for the prayers. 

   And I filmed myself singing this song like a day or to ago.......................

My rendition of "No tears left to cry" 

by Ariana Grande.................

Have a great day!

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