Joel Osteen said God won't move you up in life until your fully ready to be "moved up" in life..............until your at that point that you can really show mercy to your enemies and love them. Joseph was placed in a leadership role truelly because god saw that he was ready................

  Video tour no way I could show how much this room "transformed" today without giving a video tour. And it was hot today even with the air conditioning going. 

  As usual turn up the volume to hear evp's from satan, lucifer, the devil (I do believe strongly he is going to keep his word with me). 

  ----------- and I will like owning more properties and boats, the part of being "future rich" I not into is I don't know if I like socializing that much...................for me socializing is 4 out of 10 at best. Maybe 5 out of 10 if the food is good. 

  Maybe blame it on my friends from high school that had parties with live rock concerts where they got CRAZY

and also tons of booze, booze and booze and booze and not many beers the high end booze

Update 6/14/2026 pry will add to this post later cause brian is putting together our new bedframe so that brian can finally sleep in our room again (our old bedframe was veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy high up - and I worry for our corgi that if he were to not jump right off the thing he might get hurt). In a few hours we will have a bed frame in our room nice a low and safe 😊 And I like this new bedframe better, it reminds me of a sportscar 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

   Haven't ate breakfast at this point, enjoyed shabbating yesterday found a great great african american church online - was digging the music. They sang some song about how easy it is to love one another cause the "jesus in me is the jesus in you" - never heard that song before GREAT SONG! 

the finished look : ).............

before photo the before bed is from ikea and it was just to high for our sons corgi...........

 Once I was heavily about getting revenge (mostly back when I was a practicing witch - witch craft doing). But last night watching Joel Osteen he was totally right, mercy is "the thing to do" Matthew 5:7 "Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy." Like if god was ever to "move me up" in life it would be horrible for me to "exact revenge" on people all the sudden and I wouldn't want to be that way, I wouldn't want to hold onto anger etc.
   I told my parents, I view myself as a "servant of the people" (now whether I am a "quality" servant of the people or a very bad one ------ I mean I'll full out say it, people have complained on my blog that I post "worldly songs" I am open about how stinky I actually am 1 Corinthians 15:9 "For I am the least of the apostles, that am not meet to be called an apostle, because I persecuted the church of God." I'm definately NOT saying I'm a apostle at all, I'm just "down there" "way down there" waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay down there. Refer to the previous blog post where I'm talking about taking the "low room" in life and how I view being goth as one of the "low rooms" (Luke 14:10) https://givingittogod.blogspot.com/2020/12/video-blog-post-one-day-at-store-some.html
  That's allllllllllllllll people I been gunning to "serve" LGBTQ, all races of people, like all people I want to be a servant of the people. That doesn't mean I don't want to be famous...........don't get me wrong. man let me tell you all
A fool such as myself could really "have it all"
IT'S POSSIBLE!
But I don't estimate it would happen if I was "vengeful" If I was proud or highminded. 

  The will of god isn't that we exact "revenge" on each other. The will of god I truelly believe is that everyone come to repentance and be saved. 2 Peter 3:9 "The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance."

  Did Josephs brother's do joseph wrong? ya

Was Joseph so wronged he could've exacted revenge...........and maybe at least get some sympathy from some folks since how he was what thrown in a lions den.......potentially. (or some pit he was thrown in, I think there was lions there?)

  But the time for joseph to witness of the love of god to his brothers, was exactly the moment when instead of revenge, joseph choose mercy. 

Genesis 44:1-2 "And he commanded the steward of his house, saying, Fill the men's sacks with food, as much as they can carry, and put every man's money in his sack's mouth. And put my cup, the silver cup, in the sack's mouth of the youngest, and his corn money. And he did according to the word that Joseph had spoken." 

  Joel Osteen said God won't move you up in life until your fully ready to be "moved up" in life..............until  your at that point that you can really show mercy to your enemies and love them. Joseph was placed in a leadership role truelly because god saw that he was ready. 

 hmmmmmm what song for this one????????/................uhhhhhhhhh just don't listen to the lyrics uhhhhhhhhhh I'M LIKELY A TRAD GOTH (cough with vampire uhhhhh uhhhhh)....................ya let's play "master and servants"..............

THE WAY UP IN LIFE IS VIA "GOING DOWN" 

IN HUMILITY 

LIKE JESUS

Philippians 2:8 "And being found in fashion as a man, he humbled himself, and became obedient unto death, even the death of the cross."