Who can you trust when everything, everything, everything you touch turns to gold, gold, gold, gold???.................

Update 11/6/2024 my latest painting.........................

Who can you trust when everything, everything, everything you touch turns to gold, gold, gold, gold??? At my church I don't know, I don't know if I can trust them????? Maybe they aren't wanting to visit with me after bible study wednesday nights because I am a apostle - I'm not saying I'm a apostle I'm just saying my plight right now.
  If I weren't a apostle, then the body of christ or at the very least the baptist churches is doing mega bad right now. But I'd go further and say the whole body of christ...........cause surely I should be able to experience ladies wanting to visit with me after bible study wednesday night at a christian church............cause that's the christian way to welcome people in is it not??????
  You could say they have bad fruit, well if they have bad fruit, then due to how many churches I've been to over the years near where I live, my whole town mostly has bad fruit in that event!
  I'm saying it could be a "vocational" issue for me. Not a "they have bad fruit" issue.........but then that begs the question "who can I trust"??????????
  If I can't know for sure...........................ahhhhhhhhhhh that one has bad fruit
or that one has bad fruit
cause I'm a earth scirge right
How can I know who to trust????????????
And I don't know, and I wish I knew.
I can't sit here and say....................ya all the baptist's are saved bunches and so holy and elect and of course going to heaven. I can't say that for 100%, I don't know who I can trust???????????????? Not that I think the baptist's are going to do anything to me really ------- I mean they are baptist's (I'm saying that in a Mr. Rogers neighborhood way, everyone knew Mr. Rogers was a nice guy like everyone).
 I recently watched this video of a lady saying apostles and all the other vocations don't exist in single people no more, that all basically are a apostle, etc. etc. etc. I commented on her video I copy paste my comment here. (this is pertinent cause the pastor of the baptist church my family goes to said in a sermon that he believe's apostles don't "exist" anymore like they once did in the bible ----------- which is him basically saying the same thing kim balogh is saying)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I6gXfucIEvI
"There is truth to what you are saying, like I'm not disagreeing with you. But I do believe that some us in the body of christ are more "located" in 1 vocation, then a whole um bunch of vocations. 1 Corinthians 12:29 "Are all apostles? are all prophets? are all teachers? are all workers of miracles?" Not all could be "apostles" not all could be 1 Corinthians 4:13 "Being defamed, we intreat: we are made as the filth of the world, and are the offscouring of all things unto this day." Or if they could they surely couldn't be that all the time...........for surely not all could be apostles, I don't think they could. From my perspective, I see a lot of people at many churches very very popular..................I'm the one usually sitting alone. (I'm saying I don't see everyone in the body of christ experiencing what I experience like all the time BUT MAYBE SOMETIMES, sometimes all are a "apostle" truelly so I'm not disagreeing with you...................I just feel that these vocations are real and exist...............not all work miracles either!!!!!!!!!!!! I AIN'T A MIRACLE WORKER!!!!!!!!!!)"
Me live this blog post again, if I do not exist as any vocation this would not be good, because it would mean that all the churches in my town are 💩 There should be much more "hospitality" then that! AND GOOD FRUIT -------- I'M SAYING IF I AM REALLY OF 0 VOCATION COMPLETELY A NORMAL PERSON CAUSE NO VOCATIONS EXIST ANYMORE SUCH AS Kim Balogh and the pastor of the baptist church my family goes to these days says.
  I'd much rather believe god has called me to a vocation and there is a bible verse talking about god calling us to a vocation so I'm not even bringing some idea out of my butt.............Ephesians 4:1 "I therefore, the prisoner of the Lord, beseech you that ye walk worthy of the vocation wherewith ye are called," Ephesians 4:1 real bible verse really exists despite what I hear other christians saying these days, implies that we are each called to a vocation, not 5 vocations, not 10 vocations...........1 vocation. """"""beseech you that ye walk worthy of the vocation wherewith ye are called""""""""
  I'm of the least of the apostles if I am a apostle (I HOPE I AM I DON'T WANT TO BE A CASTAWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
  I want to be "accounted worthy" Luke 21:36 "Watch ye therefore, and pray always, that ye may be accounted worthy to escape all these things that shall come to pass, and to stand before the Son of man."
  I have no idea if I'm at the church god wishes me to be at??????? And I don't know who I can trust on this earth, I have no idea???????????????? I hope the baptist church is upstanding and a good church for me and my family to be going to.
  ppps.............blog post before the last blog post, I said my kids aren't baptised, well my husband is a self professed "agnostic" that was baptised as a baby at a lutheran church................well he's gotten the kids thinking like him, and our kids take communion regularly. How my husband basically got our kids to become lutherans that like going to a baptist church????????????????????????? ??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
 Bible does say men run the household and not women. If I was running the household my kids would be baptised already and they sure wouldn't be allowed to take communion until they got baptised! ---------- but I don't run my house. I'm not supposed to so.

Have a great week earth!

LOVE

I choose the imagine dragons song gold for a reason, cause sometimes I want to care and I'm having trouble caring like I know I should be 1 Corinthians 12:24-25 "For our comely parts have no need: but God hath tempered the body together, having given more abundant honour to that part which lacked. That there should be no schism in the body; but that the members should have the same care one for another." At the messianic synagogue that I pretty frequently go to, I have a easier time caring for the people there, my "comliness or lack thereof" doesn't matter there at all that I can tell? There I'm just sheri that clearly extremely jewish christian with a huge rubenstein family nose 😄 I'm in my element there. Or one of my elements (some weird little mega christian jew geek zone that I thrive in).
   Do I appear "uncomely"?????????
Or am I actually extremely "comely"???????????????
 Well if I'm "comely" I'm not very popular at the baptist church my family likes a lot (I'm not like hated, but like I am like completely unpopular there!!!!!!!!) I'm on a "even plane" at the synagogue I go to..................it's a synagogue with many different races of people going there..............and I think my tichel instantly gives me "comliness" pretty sure about that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  Fact I tie on my tichels so well, I'm pry like some super comily christian jew tichel wearing mack of the world pretty safe to say. (I'm talking about tichel wearing mackdom - which is a real thing) I'm pretty sure about that.
  You need some "comliness" --------- tichel, if your a girl.

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If you ain't "been real with god" lately, it's time to get real with god - BE REAL! A life based on lies, even lies to ourselves, isn't going to work out in the end...................

Update 11/5/24 my goats this morning - so cute 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓..........

If you ain't "been real with god" lately, it's time to get real with god - BE REAL! A life based on lies, even lies to ourselves, isn't going to work out in the end...................
Matthew 7:26-28 "And every one that heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them not, shall be likened unto a foolish man, which built his house upon the sand: And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell: and great was the fall of it. And it came to pass, when Jesus had ended these sayings, the people were astonished at his doctrine:"

  It might costs us something to "be real" might cost us our career! It might moreso pry, cost us friends! That's pry it right there. Cause you (I in this instance) ain't so coooooooooooooool no more ------ potentially, highly doubtful though, theoretically. 

  Reality pry is the more we follow the lord the "cooler" we get! Doing good to people that's pry "cool" 

 How many of us think drugs is cool??????????

Or porn???????????????

Or gambling?????????????

all the kinds of stuffs people that have drifted away from following jesus could get themselves caught up in -------------- how many of those things do we really deem "cool" pry not many!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Though from my snoopy "research" on instagram if you post up semi naked photo's of yourself --------- your photo will get very liked up. And many of us peoples that try and dress modest, we don't get as many likes for our photo's. But are those even the "cool" people for reals all them that are barely clothed on instagram that have so many followers and such liked photo's on instagram.

  Are they all that is cool on this earth? - I highly doubt it! #gotthatbluesuedeshoeselvisswaggergoingforthelordyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

I quote elvis "Well you can do anything but lay off my blue suede shoes" - amen amen amen amen amen elvis amen geez amen elvis!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES YES ELVIS YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

  The bible is soooooooooooooooooooooooooo true Luke 9:25 "For what is a man advantaged, if he gain the whole world, and lose himself, or be cast away?" It is of no advantage I do not believe to "gain the whole world" and lose either youself OR BE CAST AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's my answer for Luke 9:25...............our souls should have great value!!!!!! And our person, the actual people we are should have great value. 

   --------------- Today I had a conversation with someone that either is one them facebook "catfish" accounts (someone faking being someone else) or someone had hacked one of my facebook friends account.........either way they were hard at work faking to be someone they weren't and I tried to call them out on it, and their reply was "I'm nobody, I'm nothing" (which is a mega weak reply in my estimation I TOLD FACEBOOK ABOUT IT DON'T WORRY). 

   That's my 10 cents for today. I am never sure that people around me are being real, and I worry about that. I worry people AREN'T real out there many of them...............and if they ain't real with me or other people..............they likely ain't real with god either. 

   I want to have no part with the "fake game" I wish to partake in the lords sufferings! Deny myself, deny the lusts of my flesh, and take up my cross and follow jesus daily!

Have a great week earth!

LOVE

Be a cool cat! 🐈

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UPDATE FOR THIS BLOG POST: It's not how you look at all - it's who do you live for?.............................

11/1/2024 this is my latest painting aka the apples I ate this morning 😂 This isn't done it's a "work in progress"..............

I am going to enter in some of my apple paintings into a art show hopefully soon........and then I am committing to trying to do whatever exhibit this particular gallery has next, so I'm painting a giant snake painting because this galleries showing after the one I'm currently trying to get into is about "the year of the snake" 2025. 

my belief

if I just commit to a gallery

paint some "special painting" every month for whatever "exhibit" they have going for each momth

------------------- my art career is really going then

art is like many things in life you need to show up

read your bible

maybe go to church or go to online church fellowship time if that's your "mo" be consistant is the idea I think!

UPDATE FOR THIS BLOG POST: It's not how you look at all - It's who do you live for?...........................UPDATE July 17, 2019.
   For some of you this blog post might be helpful for you, there is a time to every purpose under heaven. I'm throwing a example out here, if you get to loving your jewelry collection and loving the makeup your wearing..................time to throw away that makeup, time to song below "bet back to your roots"
Ecclesiastes 3:1-3 "To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven: A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;" Will I think less of you because you are in a get rid of all your jewelry and makeup and tv altogether "season" of life..................far from it..............for I went through that season of life myself (that's what I talk about in this blog post)

   Matthew 7:20 "Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them." ------- not by how they look, how they love, how they serve, today happens to be I'm teaching a painting class again at my church, often I do put up "works meet of repentance blog posts on my blog" lately. That how you will know "us" by our fruit, not how we look. 
  Titus 1:15 "Unto the pure all things are pure: but unto them that are defiled and unbelieving is nothing pure; but even their mind and conscience is defiled." But "seasons of life" are real, very real, real and needed. 
 Original post from 2018 completely unedited: (It's a great post, it was a real "season" in my life and a needed one at that):
Sometimes I feel ugly like I feel like I need jewelry and makeup it's been a battle for me - I believe makeup and jewelry sure enough is stuffs of "babylon the harlot" THE WORLD, determined to quit this stuffs (minus natural makeup)!
  I'll even justify both makeup and jewelry - that I'm a girl (girls wear makeup, girls wear jewelry). That ----------- Titus 1:15 "Unto the pure all things are pure: but unto them that are defiled and unbelieving is nothing pure; but even their mind and conscience is defiled."
  But if my ministry is dyeing, if I ain't so holy spirit filled when I go to church (and my daily life) SOMETHING NEEDS TO CHANGE - AMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  God does not want a lukewarm church - he wants a church on fire for the lord - amen!!!!!!!!!!!! Revelation 3:16 "So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth."
 I hate to say it, but the people around me effect me. You get seeing enough people around you in your life wearing makeup and jewelry and you can really get to thinking in your brains that that stuffs is just fine! (and maybe there is a time in ones life that god overlooks those things)
  Revelation 18:15-17 "The merchants of these things, which were made rich by her, shall stand afar off for the fear of her torment, weeping and wailing, And saying, Alas, alas that great city, that was clothed in fine linen, and purple, and scarlet, and decked with gold, and precious stones, and pearls!  For in one hour so great riches is come to nought. And every ship master, and all the company in ships, and sailors, and as many as trade by sea, stood afar off," Is it really "pure", great, good, for christians jewerly and makeup ---------------- I'm really believing not! (though I still am a big believer in "natural" looking makeup................if I can wear some natural looking makeup and feel ready to face a day...............to me that's a good thing......................foundation..................can I get some AMENS over foundation..................I still have acne scars on my chin they just won't go away)  There's a time to "quit ye like a man" 1 Corinthians 16:13 "Watch ye, stand fast in the faith, quit you like men, be strong." Nomadder what my pastor at the church my family is going to preaches or (doesn't ever get around to preaching).  I know better then to walk around blinged up like a crazed peacock um uhh hopped up on "red bull" 😹hahahahahhahaha God chooses the foolish things world.
   Yep, today I bout to go through my closet and figure up what I don't want no more, and then I am gonna donate a entire earring tree to the goodwill ----------- just get rid of the entire earring tree.........clean leave the earrings on the thing...................just chuck it in a box to give to the goodwill (someone else can walk around a blinged out peacock AMEN).
   I've been listening to this song a lot, thinking to myself, I need to "go back to my roots" - bunches of narrow way stuffs is my "roots"......................

  My kids both them are not baptised yet --------- one my daughters is 17, the other is 12............maybe I'm not a good enough example for them at the moment? I'm determined to change that! And zeal and fire to follow jesus is just the thing to have in general.

Have a great week earth!

LOVE

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Modesty why it matters......................

Update 10/29/2024 spent all day today last minute loosing pounds to win a dietbet - I won it's official now 😁🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉Often I'll hide weight, I'll hide weight under baggy clothing, with camera angles.........you can tell I lost weight in my face...............

me at the beginning of this month YIKES..............being diagnosed with diabeties 2 has got my butt in geer!!!!!!!!!!.................

UPDATE: I decided I am not giving up on trying to get a marilyn monroe impersonating career going. The bible says......................
Luke 11:9-11 "And I say unto you, Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you. For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened. If a son shall ask bread of any of you that is a father, will he give him a stone? or if he ask a fish, will he for a fish give him a serpent?"

 The odds may very well be crazy stacked against me..............I'm clean not going to give up, I gonna keep praying about it to! 

  And I've like to point out, Suzie Kennedy who is the #1 marilyn monroe impersonator, she also doesn't look 100% like marilyn monroe, I do deem myself to be about equal as suzie kennedy as far as my capacity to look like marilyn monroe goes ------------ and suzie has a career going!!!!!!!!! So I am very hopeful. Even though the odds look real stacked against me right now. 

  But in my real life, modest attire is my goals for now on out! Modest attire it is very important.
   I just watched this here video few minutes ago someone shared it on my facebook 
There chapter mentioned in above video starts out with this verse Jeremiah 4:1 "If thou wilt return, O Israel, saith the Lord, return unto me: and if thou wilt put away thine abominations out of my sight, then shalt thou not remove."

 Verse 1 talks about puitting away "thine abominations out of my sight" then it stands to reason ok...........THAT THERE ARE "ABOMINATIONS" that people could be all involved with on this here earth! (and you all might try and tell me "sheri this is legalism" ---------- I refute the this is legalism idea......cause it's the word of god!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) Is all the abominations that a person could do just drinking lots of alcohol, or fornication, etc. 

  Surely it is possible to dress I do believe in a way that is a abomination in the sight of the god!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  Now I do not know where the line is????????? But why try and even get near that -------- AMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 Jeremiah 4:30 "And when thou art spoiled, what wilt thou do? Though thou clothest thyself with crimson, though thou deckest thee with ornaments of gold, though thou rentest thy face with painting, in vain shalt thou make thyself fair; thy lovers will despise thee, they will seek thy life."

  "And when thou are spoiled" that is to me directly suggesting that risque clothing ain't for any of us ladies "good"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 1 Timothy 2:9-10 "In like manner also, that women adorn themselves in modest apparel, with shamefacedness and sobriety; not with broided hair, or gold, or pearls, or costly array;  But (which becometh women professing godliness) with good works."

   Now -------------- I like a little makeup, but I barely put on makeup..................I tellin you all the truth right now..............I don't like the dark eyeshadows.

  big ol' rockabillian confession here............ya I was plotting to buy a bunch of slinky rockabilly attire. The above video was like a complete buzzkill to my plans! 

(looking modest today rockabilly modesty on point at the moment, though I'd actually prefer to dress quiet a bit like not modest a lot!) And I sewed the hair thing - pretty cool hugh? 👄👍

*****True story, when I was a kid, there was a girl at my school, who's mom was a hooker (everyone knew she was a hooker, like it was common knowledge) and this girl who I was very good friends with I liked her clothes everyday. Well she weared her mom's clothes to school all the time. Which consisted of tube skirts and leggings - skimpy tops to. That really cemented in my brains the idea of "cool". 

   But the bible is true, and it says sure nuff in  Jeremiah 4:30 that the guys ain't going to be appreciating that skimpy attire um eventually "thy lovers will despise thee, they will seek thy life"

  I prefer my skirts just above my knee's world...............I don't like long skirts, I'm fine with skirts that are loose.........aka circle skirts love them. Skater skirts I love them to. Just gonna have to focus on them there looks, the ones that I done know is modest that I do like. 

  Lots of rockabilly dressed, if the neckline is pluging to much, I have a "hack" I button up a cardigan over it. 

Have a great week earth!

#keepitclassy

LOVE

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There are "1,306 lyrics" with my maiden last name in them "Ruby" don't you think there's a reason for that world??????................myself from 2018 you lost your mind, nobodies nothing except them non-christians that are "fancy" oh and the "fancy" style christians as well them to Matthew 24:12 "And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold."..............

There are "1,306 lyrics" with my maiden last name in them "Ruby" don't you think there's a reason for that world??????................myself from 2018 you lost your mind, nobodies nothing except them non-christians that are "fancy" oh and the "fancy" style christians as well them to Matthew 24:12 "And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold."..............

 Update 10/28/2024 my latest painting it took me longer to complete because it is a larger painting....................

love my goats 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

There are "1,306 lyrics" with my maiden last name in them "Ruby" don't you think there's a reason for that world?????? 
  You can scroll through all 1,306 lyrics right here if you want to https://www.lyrics.com/lyrics/ruby
  One song mega stands out for me..........

   Think on this people a song about a lady called "Ruby" who is a angel!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo am I really coo coo for coa coa puffs?????????????
   There is a abundance of song evidence out there to suggest I'm telling the truth.
  I don't like being called nuts, or even to look nuts, for people to think I'm nuts, my family thinks I'm completely insane ----------- probably other people do to.
  I'm warning you all right now earth. The anti christ will have "two horns like a lamb" Revelation 13:11 "And I beheld another beast coming up out of the earth; and he had two horns like a lamb, and he spake as a dragon." The anti christ is not your traditional "wolf in sheeps clothing" He will actually for reals have "two horns like a lamb" 
Matthew 7:15 "Beware of false prophets, which come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves." - he will NOT be a matthew 7:15 situation, he will actually literally have "two horns like a lamb".

  And if lucifer wins armageddon ----------- which I'm a believer "it ain't over til the fat lady sings" Mark 9:23 "Jesus said unto him, If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth." Faith is powerful for anyone, as if only us followers of christ can believe and make something happen --------- that's not the case! 

  If lucifer and his followers just believe enough, I think it's possible a armagedon win................I am considered nuts so I'm talking. 

  If armageddon is won by lucifer..........................the anti-christ would be I believe made into the "new christ" ------------- I'm talking about a real overthrow that could actually happen. 

  The anti-christ is a man with "two horns like a lamb", that will be able to call fire down from the heavens! 

Revelation 13:13-14 "And he doeth great wonders, so that he maketh fire come down from heaven on the earth in the sight of men, And deceiveth them that dwell on the earth by the means of those miracles which he had power to do in the sight of the beast; saying to them that dwell on the earth, that they should make an image to the beast, which had the wound by a sword, and did live."

  Now I don't know what is so special about this first beast, he don't have "two horns like a lamb" -------- he didn't have "the goods" in my mind. 

  He didn't even don't look like did any miracles? He was wounded and came back to life................that's it. 

  But when you are dealing with a anti christ that has "two horns like a lamb" --------------- let it be known world, your going to want to believe he is the lord. Matthew 24:24 "For there shall arise false Christs, and false prophets, and shall shew great signs and wonders; insomuch that, if it were possible, they shall deceive the very elect."

  The first beast appears to do some baaaaaaaaaaad stuffs on this earth. But the anti christ himself, he's going to do I believe some good things "two horns like a lamb" on his head!!!!!!!!! 

  This is all the "insider" info I have, that I'm about to talk about at this here moment in time. I gonna talk more when the time is right and it ain't time yet. 

  If I'm nuts, and done lost my mind...........well that is some quality 1,306 lyrics in various songs with my maiden last name in them nuts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

(somedays I try and look for wrinkles, and convince myself I'm growing crusty old.............I have a horrible time convincing myself. Now I know there are people that also look young out there, jennifer anniston, drew barrymore, etc. But their skin on their faces, is usually not the skin of a babies butt like what you see on my face. - I might could die though don't kill me please I want to live!)

   Aging is a normal part of life, you are supposed to age, though I do not believe it is a sin to try and age less, for the bible does say your body is the temple of the holy spirit. (1 Corinthians 6:19) I use vitamin E oil on my face, I lately use a teeny bit of emu oil in some cocoa butter lotion for my whole body. I drink shungite water. I don't drink alcohol (that can really age you), I lift weights which is key. 

 I really believe time froze for me...............I don't want to age. But I am pretty 100% I'm actually literally not aging anymore. Nobody believes me I don't think. 

 pppps.........................went to bible study last night had a great time.  It is good to "love the brethren" (ladies at bible study in this instance) Life it is not meant to be a "alone walk" we need each other!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

 -------- ps I love the lord, I love fellow christians a lot. I just don't like hell, I don't like the idea of people burning forever in pain and eternal torment.................I'm not into the whole hell idea. I think it'd be much better if god made giant jails, like what we have on earth. Where prisoners have nice toilets, and get meals, and maybe walks through a courtyard so their legs don't cramp up to much. I don't believe that god ever makes garbage, and in jewish language the people of hell are going to gehenna which literally translates to the garbage dump!!!!!!!!!!! http://www.patheos.com/blogs/formerlyfundie/what-jesus-talked-about-when-he-talked-about-hell/
Even if you don't think gehenna means garbage dump................what do you do with garbage all to often do you not burn it??????????????????????????

  How do you treat garbage, is it not considered something to burn?????????? I would say so! When you decide to burn a human, in my estimation you are then deeming them trash! 

-------------- so even if you think gehenna means something else then garbage dump.................it's still people being discarded into a burning inferno forever!
  ppps...............I believe god and jesus and everybody in the bible is trapped in the story!!!!!!!!!!! John 1:1 "In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God." I really believe John 1:1 a slew...............if in the beginning was god and the word and the word is god...........well god isn't going to deviate from his ownself now is He cause then He wouldn't even exist anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  And lucifer he didn't have no option to not be the devil -------------- lucifer had 0 choice but to be the devil there was nooooooooooo other option for him! And noooooooooo other option for all the angels that fell with him.................and further noooooooooooooo other option for all the people that are not writting in the lambs book of life! I do not deem it "criminal" to care about their plight. Jesus is lord, and jesus does save..............he's trapped in the story and did allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll he could do I believe.
  And I know jesus loves everybody. He's not a hateful to vindictive guy at all.......1 Peter 2:22
"Who did no sin, neither was guile found in his mouth:" The "guile" didn't come out of his mouth, cause he never let that enter into his heart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 If jesus was mega super wronged by someone he went and he prayed 1 Peter 2:23 "Who, when he was reviled, reviled not again; when he suffered, he threatened not; but committed himself to him that judgeth righteously:" My family who is calling me nuts a slew, I been praying for them!!!!!!!!
  It's fair for them to call me nuts, this isn't none of this what would be deemed "sane" ----------- unless I'm literally telling the truth! Which I believe I am!

LOVE

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My family is calling me nuts a lot, they are 100% I'm completely crazy BUT WHAT IF I'M TELLING THE TRUTH WORLD (and I believe I really am).....................

  Update 10/27/2024 I'm staying sane, ya - you know what sanity ==='s being yourself being true to all you believe

I believe there is plenty of good within lucifer and his men (some them have lost their minds - maybe for good - maybe temporarily) and if that makes me a satan worshipper in most people's minds and my mom then has to unfriend me, then friend me back then unfriend me and friend me back for the rest of her life - cause that's been the trend and send me many christian revival clips in a effort to probably draw me to Jesus - fine. 

My 3 latest paintings all together 😁💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓..............

and yes I went to church today 😁👍..............

My family is calling me nuts a lot, they are 100% I'm completely crazy BUT WHAT IF I'M TELLING THE TRUTH WORLD (and I believe I really am).
  It's not good for me my family calling me nuts all the time like this. And I told them today in a e-mail, that they don't even appear to know for sure what race they are. Nobodies mental health is going to be doing well in a family that doesn't even know what race they are!!!!!!!!!!!! I've been told to take a dna test to find out what race I am, and my mom told my brother he might be jewish and he should take a dna test. This is a pretty large family, they should know what race they are!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  This is the melting pot america is, but I was sure I had my dna profile all figured out..............irish, native american, and jewish (with a bit of swedish sprinkled in).
  I knew talking on my blog I might be called crazy but I couldn't handle not talking about who I believe is my real husband on my blog. I want to be me, the real me. All of the real me. Is what I'm saying really that far fetched???????????????
   There is a "queen of heaven" there are several bible verses about her (aka the person I believe I am). Jeremiah 7:18 "The children gather wood, and the fathers kindle the fire, and the women knead their dough, to make cakes to the queen of heaven, and to pour out drink offerings unto other gods, that they may provoke me to anger."
  Something that seems "new" is about to happen on this earth. Something that is so out of the ordinary that people are going to literally say to themselves "this is new". And it ain't new..............Ecclesiastes 3:14-16 "I know that, whatsoever God doeth, it shall be for ever: nothing can be put to it, nor any thing taken from it: and God doeth it, that men should fear before him. That which hath been is now; and that which is to be hath already been; and God requireth that which is past."
  That add's up people, finding out oh the prince of darkness has a wife, that would seem "new" wouldn't it??????? Wouldn't that seem fresh to you all?????????
   I think that would!
  Now a fallen angel I guess could've implanted memories in my head somehow?????????? I don't know how you implant a lifetime of memories in a person like that????????????? I do not know if the amount and level of memories that I have had could be "implanted in my brains"???????? Maybe if aliens abducted me and did a real good job.......................

What if I'm telling the truth though? I believe I am. I could be something "special" on this earth. I could've been abducted by aliens - sure. But I could be actually something special on the earth. I believe I'm telling the truth. 

  The bible says, speak the truth to one another. Ephesians 4:25 "Wherefore putting away lying, speak every man truth with his neighbour: for we are members one of another." I believe we all are very much so "members one of another" --------- god wants all of us saved! 

   The truth is good to hold onto! Hold onto the truth in your speech to the very best of your ability is my advice..........and in your heart! 

  You will hear "lies" in these last days, for the bible says that in the last days many false prophets shall arise. If you happen to hear a lie..............don't hold onto that. Read you bible!!!!! 

  The bible is the truth! 

2 Timothy 2:14-16 "Of these things put them in remembrance, charging them before the Lord that they strive not about words to no profit, but to the subverting of the hearers. Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth. But shun profane and vain babblings: for they will increase unto more ungodliness."

  That's how you show yourself "approved unto god" people, read the bible, study, study, study!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

  And try not to be about "profane and vain babblings" -------------- """""""""for they will increase unto more ungodliness""""""""""" 

  The bible!!!!!!!!!!!

   I guess I asked for my family to call my crazy finally talking on my blog. I think I felt like "well things are bad anyways". I told them they could end up feeling really bad soon, cause I could be telling them the truth!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  I believe lucifer is going to get in a fight that he hasn't gotten into yet. 

Revelation 12:7-9 "And there was war in heaven: Michael and his angels fought against the dragon; and the dragon fought and his angels, And prevailed not; neither was their place found any more in heaven. And the great dragon was cast out, that old serpent, called the Devil, and Satan, which deceiveth the whole world: he was cast out into the earth, and his angels were cast out with him."

  I really believe at this moment in time lucifer is up in heaven, accusing the brethen. There is a bible verse about that................Revelation 12:10 "And I heard a loud voice saying in heaven, Now is come salvation, and strength, and the kingdom of our God, and the power of his Christ: for the accuser of our brethren is cast down, which accused them before our God day and night."

  How could lucifer accuse the brethren before god "day and night" if he was clean cast down to this earth what right after jesus's death most of the body of christ appears to believe.........but that's ok that you all believe that, you are not the "queen of heaven" so you do not even have the opportunity to know some of the bible as well as I do. 

   And the bible says, in the last days this earth will be as in the days of noah...........well in the days of noah there were fallen angels on this earth, that came down and married women and had giant babies.Genesis 6:2-4 "That the sons of God saw the daughters of men that they were fair; and they took them wives of all which they chose. And the Lord said, My spirit shall not always strive with man, for that he also is flesh: yet his days shall be an hundred and twenty years. There were giants in the earth in those days; and also after that, when the sons of God came in unto the daughters of men, and they bare children to them, the same became mighty men which were of old, men of renown."

   Now you all could label me crazier then a coo coo puff like my family has. But I believe there is a huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge difference between "having memories" like I have............and being nuts. I had real memories, memories of melchesedek telling me lucifer was talking with god and that I should go make sure hubbies doing ok. And I went and hid behind I bush I remember that, I remember everything that was said (well I remember and then I black it out again cause I can't handle that memory). 

  I remember flying, up in this huge ring of angels and lucifer standing in the middle of this ring on the ground, telling us "the plans"

  I remember adam and eve. I remember I was the one that often told adam when god had made a new animal for adam to name, and then I went and got adam. 

  What if these memories are real?

(I could not be nuts world)

And if they aren't real..........then I believe I have been fantastically "demonically" attacked, and I believe I'm basically completely sane either way. My family has been mega quick to label me nuts 100% it's not nice of them. It's not nice, to have to open e-mails from my family and every time nearly they are going on about how crazy I am. 

  And I guess I need to fake being 100% white now, and I ain't sure if I can???????????? You are what you are sometimes in life. 

  And I'm 100% taking back the word "crazy" cause crazy people can get counseling, they can go on medication, they can get help. None of you should do what my family is doing aka calling someone "nuts" all the time.........that's not nice. Rather love each other. Pray for each other! 

Matthew 22:36-40 

36 Master, which is the great commandment in the law?

37 Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.

38 This is the first and great commandment.

39 And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.

  I don't think I sound like a "nut" right now I really don't. 

 Somedays I just want to fly away...................

Have a great week earth!

LOVE

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Update 10/26/2024 my latest fall leaf painting 😁............................

also today I'm planning on photographing leaves on the ground, maybe clean picking choice falls leaves off of tree's and then arranging them on parts of the ground I want to paint............😂💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

For a identity in christ jesus THAT THE GATES OF HELL CAN'T EVEN RIP AWAY!!!!!!!!!!! For those who are new to my blog, not long ago my sister got a dna test, said she was not jewish at all, then my whole family decided they are completely white. (even though my sister is a half sister, and my dad and her never got a real dna test done to see if they were really related they just assumed - the ancestry test she took is only accurate fully via a son the type she did take) My brother told me that all my "christian jew" talk was crazy, that I ain't a christian jew he says.........that I'm completely white, and am more crazy then his ex wife Randy he told me for thinkin myself to be a christian jew.
  My whole life I was told, my great grandpa was a full jew, who gave his life to jesus, changed our last name from Rubenstein to Ruby -- to me all that at least opens up the possibility for me to be a christian jew. 
  Though my family has gotten me sitting around thinking.........well am I really supposed to just be white right now??????????
  They all believe they are 100% white I guess?  My half sister recently put up a old family photo of us on her facebook..............................MAYBE IT'S ALL PROOF IN THEIR MINDS THAT WE ARE 100% WHITE PEOPLE??????????.........................

  I will alot, that when this photo was taken I was looking white. (I'm the 3rd person from the left - counting my youngest daughter who was hiding behind me in the photo). Bit after I had my daughters, and still had that post pregnancy extra flab on my body ----- I think that extra flab added to my white look. My mom is the grey haired lady to the right of me, who is actually white (native american to, but my family is obsessed with whiteness so white).
   Ya my half sister has three african american kids, in the photo above. And my cousin melinda is married to a latin man (front center of above photo) and they live in spain and have kids.
 Also in the above photo, it was very very sunny out as you can see, I know my family loves this photo right now, my sister probably just posted that up recently on her facebook for a reason. This is one of the "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh look at the ruby family so white it's so nice" ----- photo's. I'm chill with white people (I'm part white I know that, I'm just saying I'm not trying to be some white hater right now or nothing) my family is gone to extreme's with this white people are better then everyone stuffs. I like being a christian jew!

  But anyways, if you note here.....note, my skin is darker then the latin man's jose who is standing in the center front row. 

  That is a 100% latin man, who lives in spain right now................and in the above photo that I guess is my family being white all kinds my skin in the above photo is darker then a latin mans!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's a real latin man who lives in spain 100% latin!!!!!!!!! (far as I know he's full latin)

  I have almost lost my mind. My skin is darker then jose's in the above photo..................that's clear..........and that is on a mega sunny day, and me looking whiter then I had looked for a long time. Me right....................................not being in the sun when this photo was taken hardly at all..................cause I was watching 2 small kids very buisy, much to buisy to go get a tan................having darker skin then a full out latin man!

  This photo is solid proof people!

  But back to my blog post................my family has been hard at work to rip a great deal of my identity from me right. There is a identity we can have all of us that nobody can rip away in christ jesus!!!!!!!!!!!! Matthew 16:18 "And I say also unto thee, That thou art Peter, and upon this rock I will build my church; and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it."
  I have a identity as a christian, they can't take that away from me! People out there have I believe have lessened me in christ ------  the public at large has it appears decided I am a regular person just like them and popular and everyone likes me, that is the official "script" these days. But I also potentially forfeited my vocation a great deal - I needed help, if you don't feel like any humans either can help you or are qualified to help you, you sometimes ask for the help that can! (so I tried to pray real hubby with me, and he was right there turns out, waiting for me to pray.......................everyone thinks that's just crazy stuffs and I realize that plenty ------- I'm just a white girl that everyone likes real pretty "the script" if you aren't clued in that I hate the script "clues dropped").
   Worse, worse I've tried to be that, I wanted to be that, I WANTED TO BE MARILYN MONROE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Who wouldn't, who wouldn't want all the guys paying attention to you and money, money, money, and not having to work all the time and getting to sit by pools etc. etc.
  But that ain't me. And it's better, there is a better identity for me in christ jesus. (((((((doesn't involve pools, every summer our family just has a above ground pool, that is like 3-4 feet tall, it's alright.............not the lifestyles of the rich and famous at all though))))))))))))
  Why I hate the label "pretty popular white girl" ---------------- I loath any label, that would reduce me down like that. We are more then our labels. We are souls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Souls with eternities!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  But how much so many of us out there love to stick the labels on each other! "Oh he's a ------------------------" "Oh she's a ------------------------------" That's what people like everyone in their nice little files in the index card box of life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well world happens to be I sometimes like to listen to PINK!

oh yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

(cough, be a radical for jesus is bestest though 

- that's goals #goals)

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