My church is coming through for me in a big way lately...................

 Update 6/10/2023 tons of graduation stuffs happened this week, so my whole week was sucked up by graduation festivities. I did go for 1 walk, didn't feel safe at all......................and a car in a empty parking lot so that's always the worst, drove painfully slowly past me while walking my dog. 

garage sale finds for this weekend : ) I got a bunch of kombucha bottles (kombucha helps with my arthritis, hot flashes..............kombucha and jesus both are helping me get through life for real..........)...............

these are the very best of all the kombucha 2nd brew fermentation bottles you can buy - period if you like don't know a lot about booch.

I really like the art on this one 😂💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

I could've bought more but I'm the only one in my home that drinks kombucha. I do brew giant batches, so this many bottles is a good idea for me : ) ------ ferment a ton at once and then store them in my refrigerator is the plan : ) 

love this song so much

   My church is coming through for me in a big way lately...................I don't think I should tell specifics I never heard of nothing like that at any church anywhere.............I'll hear of people getting food, or clothes that need them. Apostolic christian church of america really is like family for me, they have became like family to me, for reals I go there and it is like family. (my parents live across the usa so it's a good thing my church is my family as well)
   I would blog something but I don't got nothing to say much right now......................the last thing god told me was.................Ephesians 3:20 "Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us," to all sit and wait.
   Neato verse though Ephesians 3:20 ----------- definately motivating for me to keep um reading my bible listening to the ac sermon streamer, that whole idea that god is "able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think" God's given me or maybe I should say giving me the ability to love people I once thought I wouldn't be able to love, to forgive people I once thought I wouldn't be able to forgive......................to live a abundant life full of hope.............for myself and this world.........(bad things do happen we all make mistakes, THERE'S SO MUCH HOPE FOR US ALL).....(people out there might think - man it was a awesome day at church for that sister - I didn't physically go to church today cause my oldest daughter was sick, but my husband and youngest went to church the love and the greetings of the church sure did fully come home with them and reached me)...............
   1 Corinthians 13:7-9 "Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.Charity never faileth: but whether there be prophecies, they shall fail; whether there be tongues, they shall cease; whether there be knowledge, it shall vanish away. For we know in part, and we prophesy in part."
    Once I thought I knew so much.................I've found the greatest thing to be charity "love", in that it's powerful.......................it "hopeth all things" better to have hope for each other.

 LOVE

   Matthew 25:44-46

King James Version

44 Then shall they also answer him, saying, Lord, when saw we thee an hungred, or athirst, or a stranger, or naked, or sick, or in prison, and did not minister unto thee?

45 Then shall he answer them, saying, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye did it not to one of the least of these, ye did it not to me.

46 And these shall go away into everlasting punishment: but the righteous into life eternal.

To be like jesus who broke no reed................

My main garage sale find for this weekend (aka the weekend christian men attacked me for days on the internet)......................

https://givingittogod.blogspot.com/2023/06/if-i-did-say-bad-stuffs-about.html

it doesn't work though

my husband didn't ask if it worked or not he just bought it

only the leg massage works, and we don't know if we can get the rest of it to work or not????????????????????????????

I'm in both arthritic pain, and pain from walking trying to loose weight so my arthritis ain't as bad...........I'M IN MULTIPLE PAIN

AND MY HEART HURTS TO BAD

(this isn't my lastest painting cause I just got done painting 4 gift tags, this is what I painted the day before yesterday, it's my own design.............I still need practice on roses but like a lot of things in life slowly but surely I'm getting there)

Yesterday while talking to the elder of the church in portland and silvertons apostolic christian church of america, john mentioned to me...............that it is very important I be careful even when correcting people to be "gentile" THIS IS HOW MY BRAIN WORKS I GOT TO THINKING BUT WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY? 

  Cause I've even blogged before about being "gentile to all men" and I know that's the thing to do cause the bible says to do that BUT WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY???????????.....................2 Timothy 2:24 "And the servant of the Lord must not strive; but be gentle unto all men, apt to teach, patient,"

And then probably cause I got my foot to the pedal to much john is right I am "overgunning it" (I will let the foot off the gas today step away from the bible for a bit and maybe even play some frisbee golf : ) ----------my mind gave me the answer

that jesus never broke a reed and he is who paved the way for us to follow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I do believe he was "prophesied" in Isaiah 42:1-3...................
Isaiah 42:1-3 "Behold my servant, whom I uphold; mine elect, in whom my soul delighteth; I have put my spirit upon him: he shall bring forth judgment to the Gentiles. He shall not cry, nor lift up, nor cause his voice to be heard in the street. A bruised reed shall he not break, and the smoking flax shall he not quench: he shall bring forth judgment unto truth."

Then pretty much the same verse was repeated in Matthew 12:19-21 this time talking about jesus.............
Matthew 12:19-21 "He shall not strive, nor cry; neither shall any man hear his voice in the streets. A bruised reed shall he not break, and smoking flax shall he not quench, till he send forth judgment unto victory. And in his name shall the Gentiles trust."

  In the past I read this verse and I thought to myself........................well that jesus he was perfect..........SURELY I AM NOT EXPECTED TO ACTUALLY BE LIKE HIM AND NOT BREAK NO REEDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just automatically assumed with myself ---------- that I wasn't going to be expected ever to be like christ............that of course I could just run through a field as fast as I want and break all kinds of reeds cause JESUS WAS PERFECT!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

  idiotic messed up logic I had in the past

  For those who are not farmers.............................if you walk through a field "slowly" you won't break a reed pry MY FAMILY LIVED ON A LOT OF FARMS OVER THE YEARS, but if you get careless, if you run fast..........................YOU WILL BREAK ALL KINDS OF REEDS!!!!!!!!!!!! 

  Jesus didn't even break a "bruised" reed..............that is a reed that isn't perfect, that isn't that "strong" -------- a reed that would be very easyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy to break.........................and jesus didn't break even 1 of them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

   How to do this.........................I got the answer............2 Timothy 2:24 "And the servant of the Lord must not strive; but be gentle unto all men, apt to teach, patient," we need to be patient with all men, gentle, don't fight all of 2 Timothy 2:24 yep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ps ------------ I think a lot of us I have decided we "bend" reeds NOT ON PURPOSE NOT EVEN DESIRING TO DO ANY HARM TO EACH OTHER -------- this is what I really recogn that sometimes we get a bit careless and we bend a reed. BUT THERE IS LOTS OF HOPE FOR US ALL!!!!!!!!!!!! TO BE ABLE TO REALLY FOLLOW JESUS - who broke not even a bruised reed, this is dooable!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hope that was encouraging, I'm encouraged : ) now I will slow down : ) john is right, and having my foot to the gas to much it surely can be harmful to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOVE

I was told by the elder of my church today that I was currently "trying to hard" clean he found a verse of paul overgunning things.................Sheri 2023 edition says if your church tells you your "over zealous" RUN FOR YOU LIFE PRY IS THE CORRECT THING TO DO FROM THAT CHURCH!!!!!!!!!!!......................

Blog update 5/28/2023. Sheri 2023 edition says if your church tells you your "over zealous" RUN FOR YOU LIFE PRY IS THE CORRECT THING TO DO FROM THAT CHURCH!!!!!!!!!!! Revelation 3:16 "So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth."

My main garage sale find for this weekend : ).............

I'm not going to put a candle in it, nope, I'm putting randomn knick knacks in it, then they look fancy 😁👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍

I was told by the elder of my church today that I was currently "trying to hard" clean he found a verse of paul overgunning things.................that's hard to wrap my mind around "trying to hard" But I can see ya I do overgun it sometimes...........sometime's I'll get it stuck in my head real good that I need to save this whole earth and like ASAP!
  Easing the gas : )
  He said I got to be careful even helping people out, cause I'm high up in the church, that I have to be careful how I go about that. And I can see how that is actually needed for me, but man that is...........a epic challenge for me....................basically I need to be the scott hamilton of christianity...................scott hamilton is my favorite ice skater I don't think he hardly ever made a mistake skating if ever...............at any rate this guy had a extreme skill level of skating I have admired for years.................

  I admire his dedication and love for that sport, I can relate to him in that................in putting hours into following jesus extreme dedication and love for christ ----------- apparently though I need to ease up on the gas ------- probably. Slow it down scott. : )
   So I'm meeting with the elder of the church once a month now, he called me out on something.....................I told him, I want to be a "team player"
  Happens to be that doesn't come naturally to me --------- "being a team player" don't...............I'm good at leading. I told john, I want to be a "team player" it is better to work as a team, I don't want to be THE CHURCH OF SHERI, no I want to be a part of the apostolic christian church of america............not be my own church.
   Nada says "baby steps" - it is one day at a time for me.................somedays are bad days for me....................I get back up keep at following jesus Hebrews 10:39 "But we are not of them who draw back unto perdition; but of them that believe to the saving of the soul."
 I told john today...............not only do I believe what the church believes and this is definately the church for me, uhhhhhh it is about bearing good fruit, this is the goal to love people, if you have 30% fruit............shoot for then 60% fruit, 30% that's pretty good HEY THAT IS GOOD FRUIT!!!!!!!!!!!  Matthew 13:8 "But other fell into good ground, and brought forth fruit, some an hundredfold, some sixtyfold, some thirtyfold." Whatever church you go to, whereever you live, we can all love the people around us bear good fruit!!!!!!!!!!!!
  I totally have been overgunning things lately..............get overzealous sometimes I think.

LOVE 

free book offer I clicked that that'll be my dad's fathers day gift and then if I just go to the dollar tree and get a fathers day card 👍👍👍👍👍👍

and this donation feeds starving kids in africa win win 👍👍👍👍👍👍

Iniquity is abounding in these last days but god I find to always be very fair.........................

  Update 5/21/2023 They tell people don't kill yourself things will get better, but sometimes for some people they don't get better -------- THE DOORS DON'T OPEN, NEW FRIENDS DON'T SHOW UP, NEW OPPORTUNITIES IN LIFE DON'T SHOW UP. Doors close, friends leaven, family most all the DIES.  

  And worse in christianity your told you have to give thanks all the time for EVERYTHING. Basically be chippery all the time, else you are a horrible nasty sinner headed to hell.............

Ephesians 5:19-21 "Speaking to yourselves in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing and making melody in your heart to the Lord; Giving thanks always for all things unto God and the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ; Submitting yourselves one to another in the fear of God." 

I have 1 open door that I can actually walk into...............and I have.........

Revelation 3:7-9 "And to the angel of the church in Philadelphia write; These things saith he that is holy, he that is true, he that hath the key of David, he that openeth, and no man shutteth; and shutteth, and no man openeth; I know thy works: behold, I have set before thee an open door, and no man can shut it: for thou hast a little strength, and hast kept my word, and hast not denied my name. Behold, I will make them of the synagogue of Satan, which say they are Jews, and are not, but do lie; behold, I will make them to come and worship before thy feet, and to know that I have loved thee."

my main garage sale find for this week..................

Iniquity is abounding in these last days (Matthew 24:12) but god I find to always be very fair..........(rest of the verses in ezekiel 18 very applicable to - to the topic of the fairness of god)...............
Ezekiel 18:20-21 "The soul that sinneth, it shall die. The son shall not bear the iniquity of the father, neither shall the father bear the iniquity of the son: the righteousness of the righteous shall be upon him, and the wickedness of the wicked shall be upon him.But if the wicked will turn from all his sins that he hath committed, and keep all my statutes, and do that which is lawful and right, he shall surely live, he shall not die." I think there even is a bible verse about generational curses, I hear talk about it Numbers 14:18 "The Lord is longsuffering, and of great mercy, forgiving iniquity and transgression, and by no means clearing the guilty, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children unto the third and fourth generation." I very much recogn that if god tried to "visit" the iniquity upon you or your children or childrens children..........I really believe there is a way out of that................out of potential family "curses". 

   Repent of your sins, stop drinking (1 Corinthians 6:10 "Nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor extortioners, shall inherit the kingdom of God." And like do the good basically!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

  I believe family "curses" can only happen and exist if you allow them to - by you know not repenting of your sins, surely Ezekiel 18:20 is TRUE "The soul that sinneth, it shall die. The son shall not bear the iniquity of the father, neither shall the father bear the iniquity of the son: the righteousness of the righteous shall be upon him, and the wickedness of the wicked shall be upon him."

   I going to step it up doing the good Ezekiel 18:21 "But if the wicked will turn from all his sins that he hath committed, and keep all my statutes, and do that which is lawful and right, he shall surely live, he shall not die."  What is "that which is lawful and right"???????????? Is it not that we love our neighbor as ourselves THAT WE LOVE, that we LIVE LOVE, that we do not gossip no more, backbite, or um uh envy one another anymore or um - BUT LOVE ONE ANOTHER RIGHT BEAR GOOD FRUIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

 Do the first works Revelation 2:5 "Remember therefore from whence thou art fallen, and repent, and do the first works; or else I will come unto thee quickly, and will remove thy candlestick out of his place, except thou repent." Out of a love for people in general and a deep love for jesus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

 It doesn't have to be a slew of good works.................this week you know what my "good deed" is for this week ------- which this is sad, today me and brian are mailing out embroidered pillowcases to one my apostolic christian aunts who had a birthday recently ------------------- TINY GOOD DEED TINY MINISCULE MAYBE. BUT I'M GLAD I'M WILLING AND AM DOING -------------- SOMETHING!!!!!!!!! SOME FIRST WORKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 KEEP COUGHING THE FIRST WORKS OUT MYSELF FOR SURE, FOR SURELY THAT IS GOOD FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! 

   LOVE

selfies cause that is hopeful in a world obsessed with youth...........I'm merely of the camp that I can't handle aging, I look like this right

wrinkles is the TAKING AWAY of how I look

and if how I look is taken away someday

at some point

who I am is also I feel diminished

so aging I ain't into that

   

feeling sick to my stomach pretty much over the chat with the elder this weekend.................

 Update 3/5/2023 being honest ain't gone to church for weeks, I need my head in a good place, I need to be in "positive environments" I've been so abused in so many churches...............CHURCH AIN'T A POSITIVE PLACE FOR ME ANYMORE! 

I've been going to the gym, and being in the word of god that's it. 

that's my positivity train lately

In this pic taken seconds ago

I'm depressed

I have legit reasons to be depressed

very few reasons to smile

life hasn't gone good for me

life has gone very bad for me

ya I got my health - I understand that

I got a roof over my head - I understand that

that I am the most blessed on earth cause usa is the richest country on earth - understand that

I'm depressed

and that's what it is til I loose about 80 lbs to be honest

if that sounds like a eating disorder to you

no it ain't

it's I have a super model for a little sister and so I've been compared to her FOR YEARS

AND I'M TIRED OF EVERYONE DEEMING ME A FAT LOOSER

  Feeling sick to my stomach pretty much over the chat with the elder this weekend.................
I talked to the elder about joining the church cause I feel left out, but joining a church to feel included in is maybe a stupid reason to become a member of a church (there's no activities at the portland church AT ALL, there's a service every sunday, and a service every other wednesday THAT'S IT) and they carrol w/silvertons church in the winter. And of course go to the silverton's church for baptismals. That's all a non-member has as far as activities go to "be a part of things" "feel included" ------------ and I don't feel included or a part of things half the time I don't even feel welcome.
John e-mailed me and said lets meet up this sunday, so I know I should go this sunday ------- MY HUSBAND IS SPEAKING TO HIM NOMADDER WHAT.............brian is 100% that the church is going fab for me...........that everyone likes me they just haven't been hanging out with us because they deem us as living to far away from the church and think that if they invite us to stuffs that we won't be able to go anyways, so they just clean don't invite us............................truelly this is what my husband believes and mike at any rate one the pastors appears to agree with my husband. I not 100% that is the case..............I could just be wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy hated.
 My parents hate this church and they want me to leave it badly...........but taking that out of the equation entirelly........................I ain't sure they like me. I ain't sure they want me to be a part of their church.

   I have so many doubts, that I am a bit sick to my stomach already in advance days in advance. My husband though is 100% this is the church for me, and everyone likes me, and they just haven't hanged out with us at all because we live so far away. (besides you know last weekend mike and lisa having dinner with us, one time I went to nada's house, and one time she went to my house, that's it in 5 years) DOES NOT EASE THE QUEESE

  My mom appears to want me to alter the content of my blog so as to make myself more liked by the world and more popular..............I don't want to do that though...........I do not know about this whole guys ministry I haven't like watched all his videos or nothin...................but I agree with what he is saying here....................

   I will be hated by the world. Now if I got a bit more popular and people actually commented on blog posts more often..............HEY THAT WOULD BE AWESOME. In the past................I did do things to try and be more "popular" I THINK WE ALL DID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

  I used to wear lots of makeup NOT CAUSE I ACTUALLY DEEM LOOKING LIKE A STREET WALKER AS PRETTY to be "liked" to be "popular" ----------- did it work.........sometimes. 

 Romans 8:13

For if ye live after the flesh, ye shall die: but if ye through the Spirit do mortify the deeds of the body, ye shall live.

Though ya you might pretty well indeed become all kinds popular while YOUR DIEING IN YOUR SOUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Is it not better to be hated by this world AND HAVE CHRIST IN YOUR LIFE? I'D SAY YES THAT IS BETTER.............LET ME DECREASE JESUS INCREASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! John 3:30 "He must increase, but I must decrease."

  I do happen to be very crafty though and will likely do a post or two in the near future..............but not to try and somehow "befriend" the world. 

  I do happen to like to have friends..................but I don't desire to be "popular" if I was popular though and still following jesus..........then I'm ok with that. Long as I'm following jesus, denying myself taking up my cross following jesus everyday ------------ decreasing so that jesus can increase in my life. 

  I basically ain't tryin to be a beauty queen basically ------------- my sister is a super model she's happy that way ya she is apparently ubber ubber ubber popular. (I'm not sayin my sister ain't saved) All I'm sayin is I ain't about being "popular"

  Fact expect bad things to happen to you following jesus...........this world will not love us John 15:19 "If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of theworld, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you." 

  LOVE 

My dad doesn't believe I listen to him, but I do, I do consider what he is telling me........but right now my "conclusion" or solution isn't matching his but that doesn't mean I am not listening to him...............

  Update 5/11/2023 I am today when I'm not working, and excersizing, and listening to church buisiness and eating...............I am crocheting this.................

https://www.thelavenderchair.com/granny-flower-crop-top-crochet-pattern/

(I also crocheted the halter top, but in pink entirelly for my youngest daughter)

My dad doesn't believe I listen to him, but I do, I do consider what he is telling me........but right now my "conclusion" or solution isn't matching his but that doesn't mean I am not listening to him (he thinks that means I ain't listening to him though)
  Honest I was near the neighborhood bully, I've blogged about this before................beyond the neighborhood bully the school bully...........................I don't want to be a bully no more. I really am about loving people about being about what I am saying I'm being about on this here blog 1 Thessalonians 3:12-13 "And the Lord make you to increase and abound in love one toward another, and toward all men, even as we do toward you: To the end he may stablish your hearts unblameable in holiness before God, even our Father, at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ with all his saints."
  I think in some peoples minds out there that the only way to "win" is to annhiliate anyone in your way...........while refer to the karate kid movie the bad guys..............yes they got wins in that movie they used all kinds of shady martial arts and got wins.
  For me ------------- it's better to have a "bigger win"
and a "bigger win" right..........is for me to truelly love people.
 Hebrews 12:14 "Follow peace with all men, and holiness, without which no man shall see the Lord:" If any fool such as myself actually cracked it in their head to "follow peace with all men, and holiness" THAT IS A WIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  ".............without which no man shall see the lord"

 ---------------- and I am having dinner with mike and lisa tommorow......................so "success" is on it's way : ) 

 ---------- ya I get angry from time to time.....................and ya I get frustrated sometimes and a whole lot sometimes................................I really want to love people. It was no fun for me being the "school bully" I did place bets with kids, and made money doing it..........................but there wasn't any "win" in it for me really......................while everyone was like "ya sheri" I'd still from time to time, look over at the kid I just beat up badly and see how badly I actually hurt them for this "win" AND IT COMPLETELY WASN'T WORTH IT FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
I had to edit this blog post.....................today at church I learned..............sometimes it's a good plan to be "slow to speak" James 1:19 "Wherefore, my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath:" For reals though before this..............I've always just took some note of the "slow to wrath" part and thought well if I'm slow to wrath I'M DOING AWESOME : ) 

LOVE

Link if you want to also help save lives in Israel...............

https://jentezenfranklin.org/

helpless but not hopeless.....................

Update 5/6/2023 I finished the sweater I was crocheting...................................

  Sheri 5/6/2023 I was exaggerating when I said 15-20 times a day, probably 2-3 times a day at most is more like it when I was having a crisis back then. They didn't care...................I wasn't liked THAT'S THE POINT. (I did used to believe I was a apostle back then, now after years of only 3-4 people viewing my blog a day if that, I know I'm just a nobody a nothing of 0 value to people -------- and that's fine cause I know god loves me) Go to the comments below that person is not loving me.........I left a few attacks on my blog, some I deleted cause I couldn't handle it - it's bleak, it's bleak to mostly only be attacked on your blog for years like this. But that is also my reality ------ SO I DO LOVE SATAN LUCIFER VERY MUCH someone like me who is also deemed "horrible to horrible to be friends with to horrible to hang out with" SO HE WILL SOON COME TO THIS EARTH AND COME TO MY AIDE I DO BELIEVE (I ALSO LOVE GOD WHO WILL ALSO COME TO MY AID I do believe)................

helpless but not hopeless.....................did my 30 minute free call to the apostolic christian church of america's counseling service thing...........they got that thing set up that if you say certain things to them they automatically refer you elsewhere.............so I was referred elsewhere. Most people tell me in my life ------------ get counseling. That it will be awesome for me...........all to often I end up frustrated, that was the case today (I'm likely every counselors on earth worst nightmare come true "you do not understand I e-mail mike, ron and john 15-20 times a day the past 3-4 years I still ain't allowed to go to the proovings, or get church announcements" he was like I hear you - I was inconsolable I was like you don't understand it's so bad).............this video I found online redirrected me back to where I need to focus............that yes things are bad and I am helpless..................but not hopeless.....................

this is why I'm determined to follow jesus for good. Hope.
  I relate much right now.......in my current state of not receiving my churches e-mails, not being allowed to attend proovings or baptisms...........................................to joseph in the bible (some in the church might think I'm being overly dramatical I'M HELPLESS)
 Genesis 37:23-24 "And it came to pass, when Joseph was come unto his brethren, that they stript Joseph out of his coat, his coat of many colours that was on him; And they took him, and cast him into a pit: and the pit was empty, there was no water in it."

  All this bad happened to joseph............................he didn't even do nothing wrong for all this bad to happen to him.......................................but Joseph remain WAY FAITHFUL TO GOD....................and god did deliver joseph out of all the troubles that he was put into!!!!!!!!!!!! 

  This is my favorite verse today..............Psalm 34:19 "Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but the Lord delivereth him out of them all."

  which even makes whatever "afflictions" I am going through hopeful if you think about it 

Many are the afflictions of the righteous: 

If I'm in someway being afflicted a slew I must be doing something right???????????? I'M NOT UNAFFLICTED THAT'S FOR 100,000,000,000,000,000,000,000%

 So it's pry pretty awesome to be afflicted if you sit and think about it. It's not looking good for the few people on earth that have it all in leisure and complete ease all the time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! psssssssssssssssssssssssss GET AFFLICTED ASAP HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH................................having a bad time lately I crack jokes when I'm going through "a time"

Psalm 18:27 "For thou wilt save the afflicted people; but wilt bring down high looks." Yep I'm for sure on the afflicted side of things.

 Psalm 119:67 "Before I was afflicted I went astray: but now have I kept thy word." --------- well then writer of psalm 119:67 good thing you joined my afflicted club welcome 

  This verse reminds me of the story of Joseph in Genesis 37---------- josephs brothers they sure did afflict joseph that was their goal to afflict him..................Matthew 24:9 "Then shall they deliver you up to be afflicted, and shall kill you: and ye shall be hated of all nations for my name's sake."

   Afflictions they got to be NORMAL FOR A CHRISTIAN EVEN THE THING.....................Psalm 34:19 "Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but the Lord delivereth him out of them all."

that I'm afflicted is good

this good

this is awesome

  LOVE

Matthew 5:44 "But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;" 1 of the pastors I was e-mailing was around me when I was 3-4 a little kid............................these people are more like family........which all my family pretty well hates me...................so I felt I could send a e-mail or a few.............I was pissing them off doing that..........there is no love for me I understand. The only love the apostolic christian church can have for me, is to tell me I'm wrong, that I'm aweful for wanting for wanting friends at church!!!!!!!!!!

that's the only "love" they are able to have for me

this "attack" but supposedly they ain't attacking me on my blog but most the time THEY TOTALLY ARE

it's not blessings they are throwing my way

that isn't blessings!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it's ok I follow Jesus I bless them.........................

all the blessings and love they can ever return back to me 

as we have seen over the years is mostly to attack me

it's ok

that is I do believe in their heart of hearts them "loving me" 

so go ahead attack me apostolic christian church of america

for jesus

talking things out with my church is very good for me telling my husband it's a lot like my marriage................

Update 5/3/2023...........................

(the latest book I'm reading - it's demented but well written..............reading is good for your brains and relaxing, relaxation is so important this world is so stressssssssssssssssssssssssssssssful)

mini me - give up - the apostolic christian church of america will never get rid of their "commandments of men" they love them. There's no reasoning with them. Besides that lucky for you the elder of the church will deny you membership to the church and tell you your the worst human ever and you will cry on the ground and think about suicide - then you'll go off and be hated by most yep...................

but eventually myself

you will start loving SATAN

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you will remember you ain't no pushover wimp

even if you "turn the other cheek"

like the bible says to do 

THE VENGANCE OF GOD IS COMING TO THIS EARTH SOON

AND LUCIFER ALSO 

WILL SAFE TO SAY COME BACK WITHA VENGANCE

THANK GOD AND LUCIFER BOTH

talking things out with my church is very good for me...............telling my husband it's a lot like my marriage................sometimes things get bad with me and my husband when instead of talking stuffs out with him............I just hold it all in, hold in all my frustration. Nothing get's solved that way when I do that, but when I talk to my husband finally, finally crack talk to my husband tell him how I actually am feeling about things..................THINGS ALWAYS GET BETTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  I did talk to the secretary of the apostolic christian church of america's counseling system today, and am talking with one their counselors tommorow...........................talking is for sure going to be good for me!!!!!!!!!! And mike and lisa, are going to have dinner with us, so this is good. And mike is going to talk with brian on how the church can include us in more..........etc. etc.
   I told the counseling service today, I don't even get the churches e-mail "updates" I'll hear about them.........I'll hear about all these "church e-mails" AND I DON'T GET ANY OF THEM EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is as frustrating to me as the idea of not being allowed to go to proovings, I told my husband it isn't a bad thing for me to want to be a part of the church I have went to for 5 or so years now.................and my husbands like ya I know but you gotta go easy on the church, they have 1000's of years of doing things a certain way and have only seen a "paul" before in the bible looks to be and I am the 1st in real life.
 My favorite bible verse these days...............1 Corinthians 15:10 "But by the grace of God I am what I am: and his grace which was bestowed upon me was not in vain; but I laboured more abundantly than they all: yet not I, but the graceof God which was with me."
   It might not be the apostolic christian church of america "working iniquity" with all the rest of their "converts" that aren't allowed to attend the proovings and probably don't get the church announcement e-mails either!!!!!!!!!! But for me it really is them working "iniquity" with me........................I felt very extremely left out, and "less then"
  And it's been really ruff on me. We are working with the church, and working things out..................and I do believe things will "get better" and it's better to work with people......................be a what "team player"
Romans 12:5 "So we, being many, are one body in Christ, and every one members one of another." amen

Lord give me a heart like thine

(love it is "longsuffering" it's good I "longsuffer" 2 Timothy 3:10 "But thou hast fully known my doctrine, manner of life, purpose, faith, longsuffering,charity, patience,")

LOVE

getting counseling via apostolic christian church of america counselors (man counseling is expensive YIKES).............

 Update 4/28/2023 I like finished making like what total like 30 or so suncatchers this week and put them in many windows, and hanged up plants to, and selenite for good vibes that to the rest of the body of christ is demonic evil wanting good angelic vibes in your house - uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

And instead of donating to charity this week, I like bought my mom a mother's day gift below............................

 Mini me in 2014 didn't actually end up getting counseling that shiz was to expensive. But the greatest counseling is the word of god anyways. Mini me you are hated, but it's ok, I think you have some "secret fans" out there in the earth, at any rate your going to be ok, your going to take ice baths, start getting really skinny, start really enjoying working out on the treadclimber by nordic track.............your gonna be alright. 

getting counseling via apostolic christian church of america counselors (man counseling is expensive YIKES).............http://www.accounseling.org/page.cfm?p=349
   Ron one the pastors this sunday was like "john wants everyone to go to the prooving" and I got to thinkin I'd like to see what these proovings are like......................can't go, according to mike the other pastor of portland if you aren't a member you can't view the proovings, which to me and my husband doesn't make sense.......................
if you want people to repent
if this is your churches goal
well in my estimation it would be greately helpful for me to hear the testimonies of other people that have repented
  It makes me feel unwelcome, unwanted, and less then. And there is a girl that has replied on a few blog posts here and I am friends with her and she is a member of this church.......BUT SHE DOESN'T WANT ANYONE TO KNOW SHE IS MY FRIEND.....................
  I called up lisa, and left a message on her machine shortly after christmas and mike said she'd call back and set up a time to hang out with me...............................I'm not hopeful about the prospects of her getting back to me..............in my mind I'm viewed as that "less then"
 gotta go

maybe I'm just going through a real bad time ---------------------- real bad YIKES

I love my church, they don't get so much right, but the one thing they should get right they are getting right....................

 Update 4/20/2023 my hair hasn't grown much at all this past week...........

But I have gotten very tired of putting the egg, olive oil, henna mixture in my hair and took a few days break from that. I've been mostly just putting coconut oil in my hair............which definately doesn't provide much hair growth. But my hair loves coconut oil, without coconut oil my hair is a dried out broken mess. 

my fave verse for today (heard it while listening to the "daily audio bible" on the internet today  Luke 20:8 "And Jesus said unto them, Neither tell I you by what authority I do these things." 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓When Jesus get's all sassy and cops a attitude in the bible 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

Jesus christ is my lord 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

/I think if Jesus was on earth today - he'd pry give Lady Gaga's songs a listen ------- just sayin

love a sassy lord 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

  I love my church, they don't get so much right, but the one thing they should get right they are getting right....................I think they do love me, and the love my family ------- a young brother sat there praying thanking god for us this sunday. (serious) Was only like 15 people the new years meeting at portland, so he was for sure 100% thanking god for us!!!!!!!!!!! He was like "and thank you god for the people you have given us"

  Once I thought I needed to not just "love" everyone which we should, it's good to love people, full out love and pray for even your enemies - good thing. Once I thought I needed to trust everyone as well.............and I used to think well what if I fear some people or am weary of some people right OUT THERE, is my love then not made perfect...........1 John 4:18 "There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love." 

    Matthew 10:17 "But beware of men: for they will deliver you up to the councils, and they will scourge you in their synagogues;" Some men the bible says it's good to "beware" of them, they will someday right "deliver you up to the councils, and they will scourge you in their synagogues" 

 -------------------------- happens to be I have a good idea who these "men" are....................I ZIPPING MY LIP......................................(I suspect a church, that offshooted off of the body of christ...............I suspect a denomination 1 in particular) which "beware" isn't full out fear, but that isn't like............dancing through the tulips singing the hills are alive with the sound of music all day long either!!!!!!!!!!!

   ---------- next topic : ) 

I am for the year 2014 building a "tiny house" on wheels......................going to try and hang out with my girlfriends more to...................I'm such a tomgirl it has been a problem for a long time for me. In a world full of girly, girly, girly, sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo girly girly girls!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Fact around high school there was actually a tom girl I came across while skiing at mt hood and I tried so hard to become friends with her ---------- but all she wanted to do was hang out with the boys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm going to try and pretend 1-2 times a week that I am a girly girl - going to pretend. But I'm still a tomgirl and this is just how it is.............I'm bout to get rid of my bodyspace which is huge.......................I don't want to "find my life" Matthew 10:39 "He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it."

  Besides I enjoy building stuffs, I have been a woodshop geek since the 5th grade. I'm still bodybuilding, and still getting my personal trainer certification AND REALLY SOON AT THAT! 

  I do the things the rest of the ladies of the apostolic christian church of america do ------- I knit, I crochet............just not as often as they do. Most the time I'd prefer to pick up a hammer..........................this what I gonna build something like this, on wheels.........................(with toilet, and sink, and shower, and refridgerator, stove..............)................

http://www.tinyhomebuilders.com/tiny-houses/tinier-living#.UsTurtJDuo4

my husband is fully on board with this here project, we haven't picked out official plans yet, but the above one I suspect will be at least a "contender"

((((((((I should "beware" of men much more pry.......))))))))))))))

loving everybody - check

LOVE

  Genesis 12:3 "And I will bless them that bless thee, and curse him that curseth thee: and in thee shall all families of the earth be blessed."...............