Update 5/6/2023 I finished the sweater I was crocheting...................................
Sheri 5/6/2023 I was exaggerating when I said 15-20 times a day, probably 2-3 times a day at most is more like it when I was having a crisis back then. They didn't care...................I wasn't liked THAT'S THE POINT. (I did used to believe I was a apostle back then, now after years of only 3-4 people viewing my blog a day if that, I know I'm just a nobody a nothing of 0 value to people -------- and that's fine cause I know god loves me) Go to the comments below that person is not loving me.........I left a few attacks on my blog, some I deleted cause I couldn't handle it - it's bleak, it's bleak to mostly only be attacked on your blog for years like this. But that is also my reality ------ SO I DO LOVE SATAN LUCIFER VERY MUCH someone like me who is also deemed "horrible to horrible to be friends with to horrible to hang out with" SO HE WILL SOON COME TO THIS EARTH AND COME TO MY AIDE I DO BELIEVE (I ALSO LOVE GOD WHO WILL ALSO COME TO MY AID I do believe)................
helpless but not hopeless.....................did my 30 minute free call to the apostolic christian church of america's counseling service thing...........they got that thing set up that if you say certain things to them they automatically refer you elsewhere.............so I was referred elsewhere. Most people tell me in my life ------------ get counseling. That it will be awesome for me...........all to often I end up frustrated, that was the case today (I'm likely every counselors on earth worst nightmare come true "you do not understand I e-mail mike, ron and john 15-20 times a day the past 3-4 years I still ain't allowed to go to the proovings, or get church announcements" he was like I hear you - I was inconsolable I was like you don't understand it's so bad).............this video I found online redirrected me back to where I need to focus............that yes things are bad and I am helpless..................but not hopeless.....................this is why I'm determined to follow jesus for good. Hope.
I relate much right now.......in my current state of not receiving my churches e-mails, not being allowed to attend proovings or baptisms...........................................to joseph in the bible (some in the church might think I'm being overly dramatical I'M HELPLESS)
Genesis 37:23-24 "And it came to pass, when Joseph was come unto his brethren, that they stript Joseph out of his coat, his coat of many colours that was on him; And they took him, and cast him into a pit: and the pit was empty, there was no water in it."
All this bad happened to joseph............................he didn't even do nothing wrong for all this bad to happen to him.......................................but Joseph remain WAY FAITHFUL TO GOD....................and god did deliver joseph out of all the troubles that he was put into!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is my favorite verse today..............Psalm 34:19 "Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but the Lord delivereth him out of them all."
which even makes whatever "afflictions" I am going through hopeful if you think about it
Many are the afflictions of the righteous:
If I'm in someway being afflicted a slew I must be doing something right???????????? I'M NOT UNAFFLICTED THAT'S FOR 100,000,000,000,000,000,000,000%
So it's pry pretty awesome to be afflicted if you sit and think about it. It's not looking good for the few people on earth that have it all in leisure and complete ease all the time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! psssssssssssssssssssssssss GET AFFLICTED ASAP HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH................................having a bad time lately I crack jokes when I'm going through "a time"
Psalm 18:27 "For thou wilt save the afflicted people; but wilt bring down high looks." Yep I'm for sure on the afflicted side of things.
Psalm 119:67 "Before I was afflicted I went astray: but now have I kept thy word." --------- well then writer of psalm 119:67 good thing you joined my afflicted club welcome
This verse reminds me of the story of Joseph in Genesis 37---------- josephs brothers they sure did afflict joseph that was their goal to afflict him..................Matthew 24:9 "Then shall they deliver you up to be afflicted, and shall kill you: and ye shall be hated of all nations for my name's sake."
Afflictions they got to be NORMAL FOR A CHRISTIAN EVEN THE THING.....................Psalm 34:19 "Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but the Lord delivereth him out of them all."
that I'm afflicted is good
this good
this is awesome
LOVE
Matthew 5:44 "But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;" 1 of the pastors I was e-mailing was around me when I was 3-4 a little kid............................these people are more like family........which all my family pretty well hates me...................so I felt I could send a e-mail or a few.............I was pissing them off doing that..........there is no love for me I understand. The only love the apostolic christian church can have for me, is to tell me I'm wrong, that I'm aweful for wanting for wanting friends at church!!!!!!!!!!that's the only "love" they are able to have for me
this "attack" but supposedly they ain't attacking me on my blog but most the time THEY TOTALLY ARE
it's not blessings they are throwing my way
that isn't blessings!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it's ok I follow Jesus I bless them.........................
all the blessings and love they can ever return back to me
as we have seen over the years is mostly to attack me
it's ok
that is I do believe in their heart of hearts them "loving me"
so go ahead attack me apostolic christian church of america
for jesus
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