I don't want to talk out loud about the "tribulations" I am currently going through, but to say that I can see how they ARE VALUABLE 2 Corinthians 4:17 "For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory;"

Update 1/11/2024 you all will go through "much tribulation" to follow jesus! Acts 14:22
"Confirming the souls of the disciples, and exhorting them to continue in the faith, and that we must through much tribulation enter into the kingdom of God." It is what it is. 

  What I've learned try and make the best of everyday - basically what everyone does!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my hair is like 2 tones right now but I am about to fix that, maybe later tonight. So that it is all blonde again 😁 And then later this week, I'm entirelly changing up my hairstyle, because this ponytail pulls to much on my head...............my hair is thinning, when you have thinned out hair, you don't want tight pulled greately type hairstyles. 

(My latest painting, surfing the "trending" of tumblr one day - bored - came across a painting of a light bulb super real, so I decided that was the thing to paint next a light bulb - course mine isn't super real, my "style" seeped out on this piece, but I like it : )

I don't want to talk out loud about the "tribulations" I am currently going through, but to say that I can see how they ARE VALUABLE 2 Corinthians 4:17 "For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory;" (I view tribulation and affiction as basically the same thing, pretty sure it's the same thing bible says............Acts 14:22 "Confirming the souls of the disciples, and exhorting them to continue in the faith, and that we must through much tribulation enter into the kingdom of God." affliction and tribulation wait maybe I go look that up in the dictionary both is grief causing stuffs.............pretty sure near identical definition to those two words ---------- though I guess maybe affliction is something that you feel and maybe isn't indicative of something happening to you in that event then I'm talking about tribulation but it's also affliction to me at the same time - double whammy!) I don't know what sort of tribulation you'd go through that you wouldn't be afflicted???????????????????? I quote myself from this post http://givingittogod.blogspot.com/2011/05/i-pray-for-smiths-friends.html 

you got beaten it's disturbing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  There is a tribulation in particular that has been exceedingly pressing upon my soul recently (that I completely don't want to talk about) what I'd like to say is ----------

it is light

2 Corinthians 4:17 "For our light affliction.............."

It's not only light it's immensely RIDICULOUSLY...........".......................which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory"

  If you all heard what this "affliction" is it's actually so light you all might bust out laughing at me..............you might chuckle and be like "that's it" "that's whats weighing on your soul big time?"

 ----------------------- Though it's weighing on my soul big time, I'm weary by now, oh I've prayed about it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 It is in reality light, and it will only last for a moment......here's the whole bit of verses.............
2 Corinthians 4:16-18 "For which cause we faint not; but though our outward man perish, yet the inward man is renewed day by day. For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory; While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal."

  I hope for this blog post to not be um depressing or whatever, but like undepressing, our afflictions are light and but for a moment (..............if the word of god says our afflictions are light they must be light, there must be a point where god would end a life if a disease advanced to far --------------  I choose to trust god and His word) We all will be put through "tribulations" much tribulations the bible says Acts 14:22 it's for a reason, it's for a purpose,".........worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory" I mean to be encouraging basically. 

  Stuffs can work together for our good in many ways Romans 8:28 "And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose."

  If something bad were to happen to any of us, you could realize the staff at the hospitals care, people around me care..................that is some potentially working together for the good. 

  If your homeless and someone gives you a meal, the praise to god you could have in your heart potentially IS A FANTASTICALLY GOOD THING! 

  There's many things that could happen to us following jesus that could work together for our good according the bible "all things work together for good to them that love god"

ALL THINGS!

Hope you all have a great week earth! 

LOVE

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helpless but not hopeless.....................

Update 5/6/2023 I finished the sweater I was crocheting...................................

  Sheri 5/6/2023 I was exaggerating when I said 15-20 times a day, probably 2-3 times a day at most is more like it when I was having a crisis back then. They didn't care...................I wasn't liked THAT'S THE POINT. (I did used to believe I was a apostle back then, now after years of only 3-4 people viewing my blog a day if that, I know I'm just a nobody a nothing of 0 value to people -------- and that's fine cause I know god loves me) Go to the comments below that person is not loving me.........I left a few attacks on my blog, some I deleted cause I couldn't handle it - it's bleak, it's bleak to mostly only be attacked on your blog for years like this. But that is also my reality ------ SO I DO LOVE SATAN LUCIFER VERY MUCH someone like me who is also deemed "horrible to horrible to be friends with to horrible to hang out with" SO HE WILL SOON COME TO THIS EARTH AND COME TO MY AIDE I DO BELIEVE (I ALSO LOVE GOD WHO WILL ALSO COME TO MY AID I do believe)................

helpless but not hopeless.....................did my 30 minute free call to the apostolic christian church of america's counseling service thing...........they got that thing set up that if you say certain things to them they automatically refer you elsewhere.............so I was referred elsewhere. Most people tell me in my life ------------ get counseling. That it will be awesome for me...........all to often I end up frustrated, that was the case today (I'm likely every counselors on earth worst nightmare come true "you do not understand I e-mail mike, ron and john 15-20 times a day the past 3-4 years I still ain't allowed to go to the proovings, or get church announcements" he was like I hear you - I was inconsolable I was like you don't understand it's so bad).............this video I found online redirrected me back to where I need to focus............that yes things are bad and I am helpless..................but not hopeless.....................

this is why I'm determined to follow jesus for good. Hope.
  I relate much right now.......in my current state of not receiving my churches e-mails, not being allowed to attend proovings or baptisms...........................................to joseph in the bible (some in the church might think I'm being overly dramatical I'M HELPLESS)
 Genesis 37:23-24 "And it came to pass, when Joseph was come unto his brethren, that they stript Joseph out of his coat, his coat of many colours that was on him; And they took him, and cast him into a pit: and the pit was empty, there was no water in it."

  All this bad happened to joseph............................he didn't even do nothing wrong for all this bad to happen to him.......................................but Joseph remain WAY FAITHFUL TO GOD....................and god did deliver joseph out of all the troubles that he was put into!!!!!!!!!!!! 

  This is my favorite verse today..............Psalm 34:19 "Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but the Lord delivereth him out of them all."

  which even makes whatever "afflictions" I am going through hopeful if you think about it 

Many are the afflictions of the righteous: 

If I'm in someway being afflicted a slew I must be doing something right???????????? I'M NOT UNAFFLICTED THAT'S FOR 100,000,000,000,000,000,000,000%

 So it's pry pretty awesome to be afflicted if you sit and think about it. It's not looking good for the few people on earth that have it all in leisure and complete ease all the time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! psssssssssssssssssssssssss GET AFFLICTED ASAP HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH................................having a bad time lately I crack jokes when I'm going through "a time"

Psalm 18:27 "For thou wilt save the afflicted people; but wilt bring down high looks." Yep I'm for sure on the afflicted side of things.

 Psalm 119:67 "Before I was afflicted I went astray: but now have I kept thy word." --------- well then writer of psalm 119:67 good thing you joined my afflicted club welcome 

  This verse reminds me of the story of Joseph in Genesis 37---------- josephs brothers they sure did afflict joseph that was their goal to afflict him..................Matthew 24:9 "Then shall they deliver you up to be afflicted, and shall kill you: and ye shall be hated of all nations for my name's sake."

   Afflictions they got to be NORMAL FOR A CHRISTIAN EVEN THE THING.....................Psalm 34:19 "Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but the Lord delivereth him out of them all."

that I'm afflicted is good

this good

this is awesome

  LOVE

Matthew 5:44 "But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;" 1 of the pastors I was e-mailing was around me when I was 3-4 a little kid............................these people are more like family........which all my family pretty well hates me...................so I felt I could send a e-mail or a few.............I was pissing them off doing that..........there is no love for me I understand. The only love the apostolic christian church can have for me, is to tell me I'm wrong, that I'm aweful for wanting for wanting friends at church!!!!!!!!!!

that's the only "love" they are able to have for me

this "attack" but supposedly they ain't attacking me on my blog but most the time THEY TOTALLY ARE

it's not blessings they are throwing my way

that isn't blessings!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it's ok I follow Jesus I bless them.........................

all the blessings and love they can ever return back to me 

as we have seen over the years is mostly to attack me

it's ok

that is I do believe in their heart of hearts them "loving me" 

so go ahead attack me apostolic christian church of america

for jesus

I've decided we all are in a war, and there's no getting out of it, satan and the demons aren't just going to disappear!!!!!!!! Ephesians 6:12....................

Update 10/25/2024 concerning this blog post 2013 was the "turning point" for me...............praying lucifer back into my life. 

how I related to lucifer and his men changed

to bounce thoughts and ideas off of

not "do do do do occult shiz"

the bible says "all things have became new"

2 Corinthians 5:17 "Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new."

  To most people and christians lucifer and his men are just dark dark evil, to stay away from useless basically 

but jesus christ our lord was lead by the holy spirit into the desert for 40 days on purpose to speak to the devil and hear from the devil.................

Luke 4:1-3 "And Jesus being full of the Holy Ghost returned from Jordan, and was led by the Spirit into the wilderness, Being forty days tempted of the devil. And in those days he did eat nothing: and when they were ended, he afterward hungered. And the devil said unto him, If thou be the Son of God, command this stone that it be made bread."

  Am I the sole and only christian lead to be around lucifer and his men on the regular besides Jesus christ who had a 40 day stint -------------- looks to be. 

  Also looks to be I'm the sole and only christian deemed worser then the house of beezelbub..............besides priests that molest kids...............

Matthew 10:25 "It is enough for the disciple that he be as his master, and the servant as his lord. If they have called the master of the house Beelzebub, how much more shall they call them of his household?"

Lucifer and his men 

went from bad do do do to me

to helpful potentially

(also potentially not helpful - but potentially helpful for lucifer telling jesus he could turn stones into bread WAS INDEED LUCIFER BEING HELPFUL TO THE LORD) 

fun picture I took yesterday........................

lucifer and his men HAVEN'T BECAME "NEW" to most people mot christians

they are still merely the bad bad bad guys never to speak to on purpose anyways

2 Corinthians 5:17 "Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new."

I simply have a different experience then looks to be the whole rest of the body of christ besides Jesus Christ the Lord also had similiar experience as me

old blog post............................

I've decided we all are in a war, and there's no getting out of it, satan and the demons aren't just going to disappear!!!!!!!!  Ephesians 6:12 "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places." I wish we all could have a day off to party and do all the drugs we want - I really do! Trust me I really do! We in a war! There no day offs, satan don't rest satan don't nap..............1 Peter 5:8 "Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:"

   I ain't been winning the war at all either lately.............the good news is now these days at least I can recognize when I'm kinda slipping back into the occult............I'm able to stop myself - via much going to church, much reading the word of god --------- it's a war we all in it!!!!!!!!!! I may be in the thick of things more then most, but we are all surely in this war "against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places" nobody not in this war!!!!!!! 

   I'm totally going to like living hopes living free pry this week, takes going to church 2-3 times a week for me anymore to stay in the light ------- it is what it is ------------- Ecclesiastes 2:13 "Then I saw that wisdom excelleth folly, as far as lightexcelleth darkness." I feel it's better to fight the war then just let the darkness sink in!!!!!!! My aunts church (apostolic christian church of america) man they know what to preach : ) they know they gotta remind me hell is real and often! 

   (can't just sit around and let the darkness all sink in!!!!!!!!!! there's a war to wage!!!!!!!!!!!!! god wants zeal he wants fire!!!!!!! He wants us to fight to be in the light (fight the good fight of faith)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - where there's peace...............John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.") 

  I'm not at all simple I'm pretty intensely complex but I like these verses can I claim them for myself anyways : ) cause I'd like to do that fully : ) Psalm 116:6-7 "The LORD preserveth the simple: I was brought low, and he helped me. Return unto thy rest, O my soul; for the LORD hath dealt bountifully with thee." That's what sin'll do it'll bring you low..............and pain...................PAIN...............................Psalm 116:3-4 "The sorrows of death compassed me, and the pains of hell gat hold upon me: I found trouble and sorrow. Then called I upon the name of the LORD; O LORD, I beseech thee, deliver my soul."

  ahhhhhhhhh god'll forgive ----------- don't sit in pain!!!!!!!!!!! PRAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And get to fighting the good fight of faith Psalm 116:9 "I will walk before the LORD in the land of the living." Where's the land of the living, ah ya it's walking before the LORD - we were once all dead Ephesians 2:1 "And you hath he quickened, who were dead in trespasses and sins;" DON'T BE DEAD!!!!!!!!!!! Be alive in christ Romans 6:11 "Likewise reckon ye also yourselves to be dead indeed unto sin, but alive unto God through Jesus Christ our Lord."

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