I prefer to wear modest attire these days - we are all judged by how we look, this is how it is in society!!!!!...............

Udate 7/20/2023 was attacked a ton this week more then usual................my mental health has took a real bad turn for the worse...............

https://givingittogod.blogspot.com/2023/07/i-was-attacked-more-today-keep-going-my.html

now am donating more money to the apostolic christian church of america just to have something not negative to focus on or try. (the church my parents had a pastor marry them - they weren't allowed to get married at the apostolic christian church of america due to my dad being married when they all started dating etc. - WHICH ISN'T ME BEATING DOWN OR ATTACKING MY PARENTS - it's what really happened) I'm not a attacking people bish like I'm being called..........just because I don't always agree with people doesn't mean I'm "attacking them" trying to "destroy them" like people are not only trying to destroy me THEY ARE WINNING, THEY ARE SUCCEEDING MY MENTAL HEALTH IS NOT WELL ANYMORE AND I DON'T WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE I DON'T WANT TO BE ON A EARTH WHERE THERE IS NO LOVE

pry going to acca church this is sheri 7/20/2023 which pry is a big mistake since how I'm not so liked there. But that is the only church that feels like family to me.............though I not only don't believe heed or follow or want to follow "commandments of men" I rather piss on "commandments of men" 

but I like their efforts to walk the narrow way

straight and narrow is the way to heaven

I am like marilyn monroe

nowhere to go "when the rain set in" - probably not

2 my fave skirts............good length.

I prefer to wear modest attire these days - we are all judged by how we look, this is how it is in society!!!!!! (I snooped on my old church cause it was real easy while I was on facebook yesterday - click) AND THEIR YOUTH IN A PICTURE WERE ALL WEARING jeans and short skirts!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can give the link to it without getting in no copyright trouble............click.................https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.625990717456701.1073741837.525585044163936&type=1
  Bottom pic on link above they all are wearing short skirts and jeans - it was not like that at all when I went to that church. The short skirts don't really make the whole "we are walking the narrow way right now" thing uh appear to be the case! With those short skirts those girls could be heading to the saturday night disco place about to - move and groove. I have no idea what the smith's friends believe these days.....................but what I do see because I am a touch snoopy.............is how they are dressing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
  If you are going to follow jesus everyday and put the work into that, in my opinion you want to get credit for that, be sure you are wearing modest attire..............................

   Like yesterday........................(every now and then I'll think I want to watch tv right) and I thought I wanted to watch tv.............I'd describe this phenomina like craving a snack in the refrigerator.............or better yet.............................craving a candy bar in the snack drawer YOU CLEAN KNOW THAT CANDY BAR IS REAL BAD FOR YOU! But I couldn't do it............besides I watched news..........................I wrestlllllllllllllllllled myself yesterday, turn on the tv, then I'd be like 4-5 minutes later NAW NAW turn it off. Then I'd turn it on again 4-5 minutes later NAW NAW turn it off. 

  People judge each other on how we look, that's just how it is on this earth right. As I told 3 pastors yesterday HECK YA I wear the apostolic christian church of america prayer doily everyday.........................but it's the entire image.............the long skirts (when I go to the gym I shoot for wearing a skirt that hits just below the knee - that's as far as a skirt can go and I still be able to work out on all the equipment) You don't want to put in the kind of effort to follow jesus I do.................................AND THEN BE THOUGHT OF BY THE WORLD AT LARGE AS A FRIEND OF THE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

   I am completely unable to watch tv anymore THANK GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!! because I've been telling god in prayer lately that I am completely done with idolatry, I am smart enough to know that celebrities are modern day idols. And I am of jewish heritage..........well many a time in the old testiment the jews (my ancestors) got all interested in the idolatry in the lands they were in...............it was always really bad for them in the end. Ezekiel 6:9 "And they that escape of you shall remember me among the nations whither they shall be carried captives, because I am broken with their whorish heart, which hath departed from me, and with their eyes, which go a whoring after their idols: and they shall lothe themselves for the evils which they have committed in all their abominations." IDOLATRY ===== NOT A GOOD PLAN!!!!!!!!!!!!

  Guys don't whistle at me everytime I step out of my door like they used to..............that's fine!!!!!!!!! I am happily married!!!!!!!!! 

  I know though those are young kids in that pic in the link above and those young kids they love the slinky short buisiness, I know that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But I hope they know the image that they are actually "putting across" when they are dressing like that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hope you alls week is going good. 

LOVE

I'm getting better at this bearing good fruit stuffs : )..........................

Update 7/3/2023 my main garage sale find for this week 😁👍...........the steel window thingy got it for only like $3 bucks maybe it was 4$?????? Great deal : )............

(the grey shelf was a garage sale find from the week before pretty sure we paid $3 for that - this is when you 1st walk in the house, it's looking good thanks to garage sales this area of the house is 😀👍

I passed my personal trainer certification exam - I did it!!!!!!!!!!!!

(pic of my lats these days.........I'm "leaning down" right now a lot, going to have to work on my back more - biceps are 14 inches unflexed, 16 inches flexed : )

I'm getting better at this bearing good fruit stuffs : ) I've learned a few things over time.............I've learned, to not let the sun go down on your anger (CAUSE BEING MAD IS SO BAD FOR ONES FRUIT) go pray, go have a talk with that person (cause maybe you misunderstood what they said to you which in my experience is the case often.........100% of the time I'd say) ------------- make sure the sun does not go down with you still angry at the end of the day.Ephesians 4:26-27 "Be ye angry, and sin not: let not the sun go down upon your wrath: Neither give place to the devil."

  Thinking on good things helps my bearing good fruit along, thinking on the good I do see in people around me Philippians 4:8 "Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things." (an active desicion I am making these days to not hone in on the faults and flaws I sometimes see in people in my life) Or if I do for a day for a moment - think on something bad, or as is recently the case bothered by something real bad right..........................next day got back into thinking on the good. 

   I don't recommend not watching the news  ----------- watch the news and then............go pray that's my advice. (which I need to do that myself cause there are some really bad "conflicts" out there)

   Another thing I've learned over time which ya I'm only 30 something, but somedays I feel 90. 

   Do alllllllllllllllllllll you can do to stay humble to be humble. (which links up to my last blog post be rooted and grounded in love.........Ephesians 3:17 "That Christ may dwell in your hearts by faith; that ye, being rooted and grounded in love,")

  ---------------- a few times in the past I've gotten into a real dangerous mindset of "woes me" it goes like this...............

woes me nobody hardly....................................................

and woes me nobody hardly...........................................................

When I am of that mindset I have discovered that is when there is a touch of pride somewhere in me...........when I am that covinced I am "worthy" to be served. Not that I'm saying you will be stuck serving serving serving and never reap that is the fantastical thing WE WILL REAP IF WE FAINT NOT.............Galatians 6:9 "And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not."

  The greatest in the kingdom of heaven someday will be the actual what was on this earth the least FOR REALS THE LEAST, and the servant of all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  (I find this verse to be comforting which may sound really odd???????? Mark 9:35 "And he sat down, and called the twelve, and saith unto them, If any man desire to be first, the same shall be last of all, and servant of all." the idea that I don't have to have that stress that I once had to make myself into something big - it's enough to just serve I am 100% that on this earth  I am that one person on earth that would NOT even be able to make myself into something big at such a low status I find myself on on this earth WHICH IS ACTUALLY A MASSIVE BLESSING FOR ME)

  Jesus came not as a high and mighty king demanding everyone serve him........Philippians 2:7-8 "But made himself of no reputation, and took upon him the form of a servant, and was made in the likeness of men: And being found in fashion as a man, he humbled himself, and became obedient unto death, even the death of the cross."

  The need is great out there..............there are a great deal of people that could use "a nice letter" or a "phone call"................and the "needs" I know exist in the people in my own life are greater then I even imagine I could even like "fulfill" ------------- I clean get overwhelmed by how large this earth is. 

 Deuteronomy 11:13 "And it shall come to pass, if ye shall hearken diligently unto my commandments which I command you this day, to love the Lord your God, and to serve him with all your heart and with all your soul,"

LOVE

Started some seedlings yesterday - this is just the 1st batch of seeds, this year I'm making a real go of gardening cause I found out you can make "ollies" for your garden (take milk jugs fill them w/water freeze them then poke holes in them, then bury them in the ground around your plants, and screw the lid off add water in them every day or two or whatever) pretty sure I'm about to have a really fab garden this year : )

James 1:27 "Pure religion and undefiled before God and the Father is this, To visit the fatherless and widows in their affliction, and to keep himself unspotted from the world."........................

https://oinusa.org/

(ya it's a muslim charity, muslims do plenty of good, I've learned to trust muslims)

I want to bear more good fruit John 15:2 ".....................and every branch that beareth fruit, he purgeth it, that it may bring forth more fruit......................

Pic from my swamp.

Update 8/13/2025 did you know gaza citizens aren't even allowed to fish right now it don't look to be................THEY'LL GET SHOT IF THEY FISH! 

https://www.cnn.com/2025/07/27/middleeast/gaza-sea-fish-ban-israel-intl

this is a recent order whatever - while they are starving they aren't allowed to fish!!!!!!!!!! Else they get shot!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE HORRIBLENESS ON TOP OF ALL THE HORRIBLENESS THAT HAS GONE ON.............

Gaza Soup Kitchen

Update 6/17/2023 My main garage sale find for this week this pretty native american rossette necklace..........it only costed me $5 because the beads were coming undone on the bottom as you can see I fixed that 😁👍👍👍👍👄👄👄👄👄👄 It's a really nice happy rosette like a happy native american sunshine - perfect for me 😁

you want to not be depressed anymore

read the bible but only the happy sections hahahahahhahahaah

and happy native american rosettes 👍👍👍

(I have over 1/4th native american my mom's side of the family and then my great grandma on my dad's side of the family was a full blooded native american lady)

and I spent 4 years of my childhood living by the main reservations of arizona

and spent a solid amount of my childhood hanging out with my mom's native american relatives 😁

.........and I love frybread

My mom recently told me I know the word of god well, but I'm definately still learning, tonight these verses I sat for quite sometime pondering these verses a ridiculous slew.....................
Matthew 7:15 "Beware of false prophets, which come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves."

((((((((most people aren't ravening wolves, I ain't THANK GOD..............that's got to be horrible for the people that actually are ravening wolves)))))))))
Matthew 7:16-18 "Ye shall know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes of thorns, or figs of thistles Even so every good tree bringeth forth good fruit; but a corrupt tree bringeth forth evil fruit. A good tree cannot bring forth evil fruit, neither can a corrupt tree bring forth good fruit." 

  I sat there and thought a long time tonight.......................what is "evil fruit"???????????? (I think this "evil fruit" must involve some kind of anger.........sometimes I have thought other christians to have evil fruit but you know what I've learned or am learning.............learning.................to be real slow to come to any "conclusions" like that...............I think we all have bad days every now and then I know I HAVE) Like mere like "grouchiness" isn't necessarily "evil fruit", or "frustration"...............and I think sometimes we all just "have a bad day"...............one of "those" days.........which doesn't === "evil fruit" what it equals is you had a bad day!

 Matthew 7:19-20 "Every tree that bringeth not forth good fruit is hewn down, and cast into the fire. Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them."

  I believe "good fruit" is more then just loving people.................I think it includes good deeds because you love people..............1 John 3:18 "My little children, let us not love in word, neither in tongue; but in deed and in truth."

  Well just loving people is good fruit, but loving people it often includes good deeds..................though I think for like people that are disabled that a "good deed" a showing of good fruit..............some people in wheelchairs, or blind, or impaired like.................all the good fruit you'll be "experiencing" right..............is in like visiting with them...................and I've known 1 blind girl in particular and her fruit was really GOOD. To the point that I was often holy spirit filled in her presence (without her even talking about the word of god) such a "goodness" about her.....................I really thought on that. --------- was a blind girl in the REACH training thing I did in high school (anti drugs and alchohol club, used to go to schools and talk about the effects of alcohol and drugs and why it's bestest to stay away from all that) 

   I think right now god's really working to get me to bear "more fruit" AND I WANT TO John 15:2 "Every branch in me that beareth not fruit he taketh away: and every branch thatbeareth fruit, he purgeth it, that it may bring forth more fruit." 

  ----------------------- hate, anger, that stuffs never did anything good for me, and was never good for me in general

  Also though............to the people that might have beared "evil fruit" or been or is a bit a "ravening wolve" AS LONG AS YOU HAVE BREATH IN YOUR LUNGS IT'S NOT TO LATE TO REPENT AND GIVE YOUR LIFE TO THE LORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

  Another verse tonight that so stood out to me while reading the bible Matthew 4:10 "Then saith Jesus unto him, Get thee hence, Satan: for it is written, Thou shalt worship the Lord thy God, and him only shalt thou serve." That jesus said this, really stood out to me tonight. 

LOVE

WHERE EVER GOD HAS PLACED YOU ON THIS EARTH - LOVE

  1 Thessalonians 3:12 "And the Lord make you to increase and abound in love one toward another, and toward all men, even as we do toward you:"

Genesis 12:3 "And I will bless them that bless thee, and curse him that curseth thee: and in thee shall all families of the earth be blessed."...............................

My church is coming through for me in a big way lately...................

 Update 6/10/2023 tons of graduation stuffs happened this week, so my whole week was sucked up by graduation festivities. I did go for 1 walk, didn't feel safe at all......................and a car in a empty parking lot so that's always the worst, drove painfully slowly past me while walking my dog. 

garage sale finds for this weekend : ) I got a bunch of kombucha bottles (kombucha helps with my arthritis, hot flashes..............kombucha and jesus both are helping me get through life for real..........)...............

these are the very best of all the kombucha 2nd brew fermentation bottles you can buy - period if you like don't know a lot about booch.

I really like the art on this one 😂💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

I could've bought more but I'm the only one in my home that drinks kombucha. I do brew giant batches, so this many bottles is a good idea for me : ) ------ ferment a ton at once and then store them in my refrigerator is the plan : ) 

love this song so much

   My church is coming through for me in a big way lately...................I don't think I should tell specifics I never heard of nothing like that at any church anywhere.............I'll hear of people getting food, or clothes that need them. Apostolic christian church of america really is like family for me, they have became like family to me, for reals I go there and it is like family. (my parents live across the usa so it's a good thing my church is my family as well)
   I would blog something but I don't got nothing to say much right now......................the last thing god told me was.................Ephesians 3:20 "Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us," to all sit and wait.
   Neato verse though Ephesians 3:20 ----------- definately motivating for me to keep um reading my bible listening to the ac sermon streamer, that whole idea that god is "able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think" God's given me or maybe I should say giving me the ability to love people I once thought I wouldn't be able to love, to forgive people I once thought I wouldn't be able to forgive......................to live a abundant life full of hope.............for myself and this world.........(bad things do happen we all make mistakes, THERE'S SO MUCH HOPE FOR US ALL).....(people out there might think - man it was a awesome day at church for that sister - I didn't physically go to church today cause my oldest daughter was sick, but my husband and youngest went to church the love and the greetings of the church sure did fully come home with them and reached me)...............
   1 Corinthians 13:7-9 "Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.Charity never faileth: but whether there be prophecies, they shall fail; whether there be tongues, they shall cease; whether there be knowledge, it shall vanish away. For we know in part, and we prophesy in part."
    Once I thought I knew so much.................I've found the greatest thing to be charity "love", in that it's powerful.......................it "hopeth all things" better to have hope for each other.

 LOVE

   Matthew 25:44-46

King James Version

44 Then shall they also answer him, saying, Lord, when saw we thee an hungred, or athirst, or a stranger, or naked, or sick, or in prison, and did not minister unto thee?

45 Then shall he answer them, saying, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye did it not to one of the least of these, ye did it not to me.

46 And these shall go away into everlasting punishment: but the righteous into life eternal.

In the storm I will praise jesus.............I will love, and make sure I "hath" Luke 8:18 and be merciful and more it shall be give unto me of GOOD THINGS..........

Update 3/12/2023 I'm having a good time lately making native american choker necklaces (I'm over 1/4 native american on my mom's side of the family, then my dad's side my great grandpa was a jew, and great grandma was a full blooded native american lady)........................I'm of the believe jews are native american's and native american's are jews..............think about it, jews migrated..............native american's migrated..................both migrated and lived in tents (teepee's are tents basically).........

todays "bead haul" from walmart 😀 and close up pic of my latest native american beaded necklace.

me wearing my latest native american beaded necklace 😁

  

I'm 70% sure my aunt is still alive so I said hi to her today because I love her

though I know she wants to tear my eyeballs out as does her whole church.......................

When I wrote this in the year 2013 I thought I was a apostle (at a previous church many laid hands on me and prayed for me and told me I was a apostle), I don't anymore. But back then I thought I was really "something".......................(I was not showed mercy by the Apostolic Christian church of america - I was told I could NEVER become a member of their church and that I was the worst human ever according to the main elder of oregon city and silvertons apostolic christian church of america's). I back then weared makeup and back then that was against the churches "commandments of men" and I was told I couldn't become a member if I weared mascara, or OR if I henna'd a wedding ring because I am good looking and if I didn't have a wedding ring on guys wouldn't leave me alone, I was told henna is against the churches rules "commandments of men" that henna is a tattoo - WHICH HENNA ISN'T A TATTOO. 

0% mercy they showed me ever

and it's my families church

and we still don't know if my great aunt is alive still - I wasn't invited to her husbands funeral --------- I spent a lot of time around them as a teen and going to the apostolic christian church of america for a few years anyways hanging out with them

only to be hated basically cause I hate commandments of men --------- they make other christians seem or feel "less then" and that's horrible

and they give the apostolic christian church of america the right in their own brains to treat people like me very bad many of them treated me very bad

I tried to become a member to get the heck out of that church cause I knew I wasn't about to heed their "commandments of men" FORGET THAT BS

I e-mailed this to 3 pastors a few minutes ago and deemed it blog worthy........................

Luke 8:18 "Take heed therefore how ye hear: for whosoever hath, to him shall be given; and whosoever hath not, from him shall be taken even that which he seemeth to have."

"hath" THAT IS LOVE

"hath" is also uh understanding understanding that the world is under the influence of satan like being lied to by the devil deceived, that jesus paved the way through the veil that is his flesh...................those that are christs have crucified their fleshes to their lusts and desires 

BUT ALSO LOVE

LOVE IS SOMETHING TO "HATH" 

AND IF YOU "HATH" THAT NOT

EVEN WHAT YOU "SEEMETH TO HAVE" AKA OF "UNDERSTANDING" ETC. ETC. IT WILL BE TAKEN AWAY FROM YOU
in my estimation you gots ta love if you want to receive more in this life
there is a saying
"those that show themselves friendly have friends"
I think that is very true
might not be right away
might take a awhile to make friends
but as a general rule if you keep at it keep trying be "friendly" your going to get friends sooner or later this is about to pan out
--------------- you love people you love even your enemies surely someday some people somewhere ARE GOING TO LOVE YOU A LOT YOU WILL RECEIVE "MORE"
(further I think the terrible ones are terrible because they refuse to love people Isaiah 25:5 "Thou shalt bring down the noise of strangers, as the heat in a dry place; even the heat with the shadow of a cloud: the branch of the terrible ones shall be brought low." those "terrible ones" ya they sure could point the finger, MAKE A STORM)

I'm not saying your the terrible ones I'm just saying they are stormy............Isaiah 25:4 "For thou hast been a strength to the poor, a strength to the needy in his distress, a refuge from the storm, a shadow from the heat, when the blast of the terrible ones is as a storm against the wall."

they don't want to love

THEY WILL BE BROUGHT LOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOMADDER HOW BIG A STORM THEY PUT UP NOMADDER WHAT THEY ACCUSE ME OR OTHERS OF --------- BECAUSE THEY REFUSE TO LOVE 3 PASTORS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

if you don't love me

WOE TO YOU 3

(that's what I sent 3 pastors a second ago)

 The fab thing is..............if you choose right to show mercy to people, and to love your enemies, and like love people in like general right, and keep at following jesus don't draw back keep fighting this "good fight of faith" but most importantly maybe love you will receive more of that. In loving people and showing mercy ------- you are placing yourself in the path to receive much gain of that stuffs Luke 8:18 "Take heed therefore how ye hear: for whosoever hath, to him shall be given; and whosoever hath not, from him shall be taken even that which he seemeth to have."

  People could if they wanted point alllllllllllllllll kinds of fingers at me right.............say but sheri look here you did this, or you did this or you did this or you said that...............BUT IF I "HATH" RIGHT........................."TO HIM SHALL BE GIVEN"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  And a lot of pastors out there preach about gaining material wealth (I not a pastor though I do yack a lot hahahahahah) the real gains in this world I think to be desired is that people love me, and show mercy towards me I THINK THESE ARE THE GAINS I'M AFTER THAT MOST US ARE AFTER....................money you gain that is your car, house, boat etc. going to forgive you and love you - NO.

Matthew 5:7 "Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy."

I recommend to like earth to love and show mercy, love and show mercy, love and show mercy, love and show mercy, love your enemies show them mercy, love everybody love love love love love and show mercy 

I have figured out the "lotto system" 

loooooooooooooooootttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttooooooooooooooooooo

oooooooooooooooo determined I am to love everybody!!!!!!!!!!! And show mercy lot's it ya non-stop. loooooooooottttttttttttttttttttttttttttooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo  looooooooooooooootttttttttttttttttttoooooooooooooooooo

LOVE

Matthew 5:44 "But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;"...........