Feeling unblessed by god, no need to "go off the rails on a crazy train aye, aye, aye" for jesus was himself Isaiah 53:4 "Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted."............

Update 1/9/2025 my "old money" look for today, a very nice turtleneck shirt I bought yesterday at the goodwill outlet whilst loading my shopping cart all the way up with things that follow the old money look. Natural makeup, cause old money ------- isn't into sequins, bright eyeshadow......................just me looking classy cause I want to hang out "fit in" with the classy bunch..................

also made my bed and steam clean/swept many floors cause "old money" is also clean they are a clean people usually..............I think be like the people you want to hang out with as much as possible....................

Feeling unblessed by god, no need to "go off the rails on a crazy train aye, aye, aye" for jesus was himself Isaiah 53:4 "Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted." Ya I include ozzies song......................

  I love ozzy, I hope that he finds his way back to a relationship with the lord again. (one episode of one of his shows I sensed some real love for the lord I REALLY DID.........he even said on one episode of one of his shows that he has "crucifixes around his house for a reason"). Yes there are christians out there that seem to have it all, but not having it all, can also be a sign of being uhhhhhh very diligient in following the lord ---- just as much as "having it all" could be (cause god has blessed you a slew). I've been battling that idea lately, that idea that ozzy battles in the song above, this idea that "things are going wrong for me" --------- but I've decided they ain't, not right now, not at the moment.
  I just have not been "raised up" by god yet 1 Peter 5:6 "Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time:" My mom has insisted to me that everyone likes me, and my blog is super popular AND MAYBE THAT IS EVEN THE CASE...........but is that me really "raised up" by god yet? I don't think it is.
  Though apparently when I finally mentioned my families names, they got hell according to my mom from alllllllllllllllllllllll kinds of people (it's hard to believe for me, I won't lie..........................I don't got people coming up asking me for autographs on the streets or to have photo's taken with me like I see happens to you tube celebrities etc.). But that is what my mom has told me that I am indeed "that big"
   Which now I segway into my other topic I want to address today......................comparing each other to each other, it's so important we don't do that. God definately has different people in the body of christ doing different things..............and some are missionaries and I know I KNOW many of those missionaries appear to be doing a great many mighty good deeds (my church they are some of the macks of my church, they show up and they are like micheal jordans for sure, they always far as I know everytime one them is at our church they get to give a speech).
  Everyone is valuable, everyone has worth you have worth!!!!!!!!!!
Luke 12:7 "But even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not therefore: ye are of more value than many sparrows."

  God is no respector of persons, he values everyone! And he sincerely wishes all would repent 2 Peter 3:9 "The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance."

  Whether I am "big" or "not big" bigness isn't even real...................unless we talking about god/jesus. 

GOD IS BIG!

 It's great that the missionaries are so esteemed high at my church - we should esteem each other highly. But nobodies "big" -- nobody...........but we all are valued by god. I'm saying if my blog were as big as my mom told me it is, or if I were to say become a celebrity someday, and/or a celebrity you tuber (which is a real possibility in the future)......................I am a servant of god. God is big, god is who is big, not none of us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

   It's good to always stay humble. Proverbs 16:18 "Pride goeth before destruction, and an haughty spirit before a fall."

   My works meet of repentance for this week, still making them, these preemie hats I'm sending to http://warmupamerica.org/tiny-hats-tiny-babies

One of the hats pictured above is medium sized, I just have such a hard time believing that most all the babies born in africa are preemies, I'm holding out hope for a few sorta larger sized babies (common medium hat sized babies 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏)

   That's all the latest. 

Have a great week earth!

LOVE

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I believe "prosperity preachers" might be whether knowingly or not, catering to people itchy hearing 2 Timothy 4:2-4...................

Update 7/1/2024 those worried that my eating disorder might've started back up - IT HASN'T. I am obese, I look thin above but according to the dr.'s office visit I went to last I am obese and not only that the lady dr. chewed me out for giggling about having a addiction to panda express.........she told me I'm about to die that I'm so fat. Meanwhile she was even chubbier then me!

Oh but man she chewed me out for several minutes, telling me, what a "food slob" I am for occasionally liking fast food and thinking it's funny................she said I need to quit eating fast food and don't laugh that it's not funny that I'm about to die and that things are serious cause I'm so FAT she told me. 

Then she said all I should be eating is salads, potatoes blah blah blah cause I'm so fattttttttttttttttttttttt and am about to die any second now and never laugh never laugh that this isn't funny your about to die. Is what she told me.

I'm fine, don't worry about me, I'm obese, the scale isn't pretend well right now 224 lbs THAT'S REAL THAT IS OBESITY

Do I look skinnier then many american's - yes

do I also have tons of muscle on my body so this 224lb number isn't telling the whole story in my estimation yes ------------------------- in 1 doctor at kaiser permanente no I'm just a fatty

was I chewed out for several minutes by a chubbier then me likely jealous of me several obese lady doctor she was very mean for several minutes - also yes

I do have round 50 lbs I need to loose - it's a fact

it's a literally fact

if you believe a doctor has agitated my eating disorder

go complain to kaiser permanente, cause it was a kaiser permanente doctor in portland or actually it was one them towns outside of portland think gresham - brian's drived there not me. 

THEY ALL AGITATING UP PEOPLE'S EATING DISORDERS AT KAISER PERMANENTE IF MY EXPERIENCE IS THE NORM

BUT I'M FINE

MY EATING DISORDER IS NOT HAPPENING RIGHT NOW

FACT

I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE INTERMITTENT FASTING 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

ps..........that particular day I went to the doctor for my asthma, not even for my weight ----------- but got chewed out for like 15 minutes over my weight ----- surprise not. This happens to me often but this time it was worser then usual how much I was chewed out for being fat. I don't go to the doctor's often, rather would actually die........................one day a doctor tried to tell me "please show up here, we are your friends" -------- not

 I believe "prosperity preachers" might be whether knowingly or not, catering to people itchy hearing 2 Timothy 4:2-4...................
2 Timothy 4:2-4 "Preach the word; be instant in season, out of season; reprove, rebuke, exhort with all long suffering and doctrine. For the time will come when they will not endure sound doctrine; but after their own lusts shall they heap to themselves teachers, having itching ears; And they shall turn away their ears from the truth, and shall be turned unto fables."
  I think there are as well a great deal of people out there that have gotten tired of being poor!!!!!!!!! Surely there is nothing wrong with wanting better for yourself in life (unless your going about that via means other then god!). To want god to bless you/me this is good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  Some people's ears "itch" is worrisome to me.........because we might be not living in mansions until we get to heaven.
  There isn't a verse nowhere in the bible that says any of us that follow jesus will get mansions on this earth...........much is promised though.................
Mark 10:28-30 "Then Peter began to say unto him, Lo, we have left all, and have followed thee. And Jesus answered and said, Verily I say unto you, There is no man that hath left house, or brethren, or sisters, or father, or mother, or wife, or children, or lands, for my sake, and the gospel's, But he shall receive an hundredfold now in this time, houses, and brethren, and sisters, and mothers, and children, and lands, with persecutions; and in the world to come eternal life." Told my family that doesn't necessarily mean forsake your family cause if your family is christian then you don't need to forsake but instead for me these verses speak about me forsaking my life the life I could've had in this here world for the LORD! 

  Forsaking something....................Forsaking the "broad road" that many go in this world. I haven't been forsaking that lately like I should and I'm determined to get back to forsaking that! 

  Oh here I go, talking like a "prosperity preacher" --------------- I want ""an hundredfold now in this time, houses, and brethren, and sisters, and mothers, and children, and lands, with persecutions; and in the world to come eternal life"""

   So that is much blessings, and blessings all christians and people in general should desire for god to bless them with!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Matthew 25:23 "His lord said unto him, Well done, good and faithfulservant; thou hast been faithful over a few things, I will make thee ruler over many things: enter thou into the joy of thy lord." 

You may only have a dinky job like me, and a dinky paycheck (also like me) but if you just be faithful from day to day in the "few things" god has given you and I to be faithful over

OUR MANSIONS IN HEAVEN ARE WAITING FOR US!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(((((I believe there is a "earthly trap" many get trapped in, I HAVE, comparing ourselves to one another............YOUR VALUE, YOUR WORTH ISN'T IN WHAT CARS OR MANSIONS OR HOW PRETTY YOU IS

I'M TELLIN IT LIKE IT IS

What does the word of god say..............

Matthew 10:30-32 "But the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear ye not therefore, ye are of more value than many sparrows. Whosoever therefore shall confess me before men, him will I confess also before my Father which is in heaven."

  You are valuable!!!!!!!!!!!!! There is this """"""""thing""""""""""" going on in this earth, where people have been at times made to feel of "less worth" due to their clothing, or their older cars, etc. etc. YOU ARE VALUABLE THAT IS JUST STUFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

  YOUR JOB DOESN'T DETERMINE YOUR WORTH!

 THE HOUSE YOU OWN DOESN'T DETERMINE YOUR WORTH!!!!!!!! 

  YOUR OF IMMENSE RIDICULOUS VALUE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Have a great week earth!

LOVE

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--------- and if my eating disorder is back thanks to kaiser permanente......................nobody will ever even figure that out

cause according to the weight system of the doctors offices in america I'm always morbidly obese 36% BODY FAT most the time (EXCEPT THAT 36% NUMBER IS NEVER REAL BECAUSE I'M VERY VERY BUFF)

I do have a "fat caliper" and that puts me around last I used it which was awhile ago ----------- it put me somewhere around 22-23% not great but not the 36% that I often am according to merely my height and weight at kaiser BUT THEN THESE DAYS THEY LITERALLY TREATED ME LIKE I'M OVER 700 LBS I WAS CHEWED OUT BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD

but according to literally kaiser permanente doctors I'm faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat

I'm 700lbs +++++++++++ never laugh my fat butt this is serious your about to die any second now

you actually 700+ lbs people

freaking underacheivers I'm forever fatter then you in the usa! at the kaiser permanente!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

In the storm I will praise jesus.............I will love, and make sure I "hath" Luke 8:18 and be merciful and more it shall be give unto me of GOOD THINGS..........

Update 3/12/2023 I'm having a good time lately making native american choker necklaces (I'm over 1/4 native american on my mom's side of the family, then my dad's side my great grandpa was a jew, and great grandma was a full blooded native american lady)........................I'm of the believe jews are native american's and native american's are jews..............think about it, jews migrated..............native american's migrated..................both migrated and lived in tents (teepee's are tents basically).........

todays "bead haul" from walmart 😀 and close up pic of my latest native american beaded necklace.

me wearing my latest native american beaded necklace 😁

  

I'm 70% sure my aunt is still alive so I said hi to her today because I love her

though I know she wants to tear my eyeballs out as does her whole church.......................

When I wrote this in the year 2013 I thought I was a apostle (at a previous church many laid hands on me and prayed for me and told me I was a apostle), I don't anymore. But back then I thought I was really "something".......................(I was not showed mercy by the Apostolic Christian church of america - I was told I could NEVER become a member of their church and that I was the worst human ever according to the main elder of oregon city and silvertons apostolic christian church of america's). I back then weared makeup and back then that was against the churches "commandments of men" and I was told I couldn't become a member if I weared mascara, or OR if I henna'd a wedding ring because I am good looking and if I didn't have a wedding ring on guys wouldn't leave me alone, I was told henna is against the churches rules "commandments of men" that henna is a tattoo - WHICH HENNA ISN'T A TATTOO. 

0% mercy they showed me ever

and it's my families church

and we still don't know if my great aunt is alive still - I wasn't invited to her husbands funeral --------- I spent a lot of time around them as a teen and going to the apostolic christian church of america for a few years anyways hanging out with them

only to be hated basically cause I hate commandments of men --------- they make other christians seem or feel "less then" and that's horrible

and they give the apostolic christian church of america the right in their own brains to treat people like me very bad many of them treated me very bad

I tried to become a member to get the heck out of that church cause I knew I wasn't about to heed their "commandments of men" FORGET THAT BS

I e-mailed this to 3 pastors a few minutes ago and deemed it blog worthy........................

Luke 8:18 "Take heed therefore how ye hear: for whosoever hath, to him shall be given; and whosoever hath not, from him shall be taken even that which he seemeth to have."

"hath" THAT IS LOVE

"hath" is also uh understanding understanding that the world is under the influence of satan like being lied to by the devil deceived, that jesus paved the way through the veil that is his flesh...................those that are christs have crucified their fleshes to their lusts and desires 

BUT ALSO LOVE

LOVE IS SOMETHING TO "HATH" 

AND IF YOU "HATH" THAT NOT

EVEN WHAT YOU "SEEMETH TO HAVE" AKA OF "UNDERSTANDING" ETC. ETC. IT WILL BE TAKEN AWAY FROM YOU
in my estimation you gots ta love if you want to receive more in this life
there is a saying
"those that show themselves friendly have friends"
I think that is very true
might not be right away
might take a awhile to make friends
but as a general rule if you keep at it keep trying be "friendly" your going to get friends sooner or later this is about to pan out
--------------- you love people you love even your enemies surely someday some people somewhere ARE GOING TO LOVE YOU A LOT YOU WILL RECEIVE "MORE"
(further I think the terrible ones are terrible because they refuse to love people Isaiah 25:5 "Thou shalt bring down the noise of strangers, as the heat in a dry place; even the heat with the shadow of a cloud: the branch of the terrible ones shall be brought low." those "terrible ones" ya they sure could point the finger, MAKE A STORM)

I'm not saying your the terrible ones I'm just saying they are stormy............Isaiah 25:4 "For thou hast been a strength to the poor, a strength to the needy in his distress, a refuge from the storm, a shadow from the heat, when the blast of the terrible ones is as a storm against the wall."

they don't want to love

THEY WILL BE BROUGHT LOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOMADDER HOW BIG A STORM THEY PUT UP NOMADDER WHAT THEY ACCUSE ME OR OTHERS OF --------- BECAUSE THEY REFUSE TO LOVE 3 PASTORS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

if you don't love me

WOE TO YOU 3

(that's what I sent 3 pastors a second ago)

 The fab thing is..............if you choose right to show mercy to people, and to love your enemies, and like love people in like general right, and keep at following jesus don't draw back keep fighting this "good fight of faith" but most importantly maybe love you will receive more of that. In loving people and showing mercy ------- you are placing yourself in the path to receive much gain of that stuffs Luke 8:18 "Take heed therefore how ye hear: for whosoever hath, to him shall be given; and whosoever hath not, from him shall be taken even that which he seemeth to have."

  People could if they wanted point alllllllllllllllll kinds of fingers at me right.............say but sheri look here you did this, or you did this or you did this or you said that...............BUT IF I "HATH" RIGHT........................."TO HIM SHALL BE GIVEN"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  And a lot of pastors out there preach about gaining material wealth (I not a pastor though I do yack a lot hahahahahah) the real gains in this world I think to be desired is that people love me, and show mercy towards me I THINK THESE ARE THE GAINS I'M AFTER THAT MOST US ARE AFTER....................money you gain that is your car, house, boat etc. going to forgive you and love you - NO.

Matthew 5:7 "Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy."

I recommend to like earth to love and show mercy, love and show mercy, love and show mercy, love and show mercy, love your enemies show them mercy, love everybody love love love love love and show mercy 

I have figured out the "lotto system" 

loooooooooooooooootttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttooooooooooooooooooo

oooooooooooooooo determined I am to love everybody!!!!!!!!!!! And show mercy lot's it ya non-stop. loooooooooottttttttttttttttttttttttttttooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo  looooooooooooooootttttttttttttttttttoooooooooooooooooo

LOVE

Matthew 5:44 "But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;"...........