Good news, helping one our realistate buddies out this week and about to earn extra money just in the knick of time cause I badly need to buy a boat FOR MY SANITY. I need to get away from people I'm starting to loose my grip on sanity again, the neverending being judged because I'm to fat, or if I'm to skinny, or not "saintly enough" or maybe judged cause I look demon possessed, and I also believe I am with a fallen angel BUT I LIKE IT, and judged if I'm to pretty, or not pretty enough and IT NEVER ENDS AND PEOPLE ARE NEVER HAPPY NEVVVVVVVVVVVER (especially they aren't happy with me if they is christian, but some non-christians appear to hate me to wazuu as well)..........................................

 Good news, helping one our realistate buddies out this week and about to earn extra money just in the knick of time cause I badly need to buy a boat FOR MY SANITY. I need to get away from people I'm starting to loose my grip on sanity again, the neverending being judged because I'm to fat, or if I'm to skinny, or not "saintly enough" or maybe judged cause I look demon possessed, and I also believe I am with a fallen angel BUT I LIKE IT, and judged if I'm to pretty, or not pretty enough and IT NEVER ENDS AND PEOPLE ARE NEVER HAPPY NEVVVVVVVVVVVER (especially they aren't happy with me if they is christian, but some non-christians appear to hate me to wazuu as well)..........................................

Even if your not a men pleaser which I clearly ain't a men pleaser.........its exhuasting always being hated for jesus christ. 

Matthew 10:33-35 "But whosoever shall deny me before men, him will I also deny before my Father which is in heaven. Think not that I am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword. For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law."

we all should love each other MUCH MORE especially in usa

we have a bacteria over most usa most usa has neverending diahrea right now

we have inflation

we have people unable to afford rent THAT WORK JOBS and so they are living in cars 

data centers sucking up towns after towns after towns of water

  I need to boat it's a calling I feel

I feel lead to boat

some people don't feel when they out on the water in a boat "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh this is where I belong" 

but "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh this is where I belong" is what I feel when I'm out on the water. 

it's been like that for years for me now

maybe the "negative ions" in the air when boating charge my soul????????????????

I am over 1/4th native american counseling does 0% for my mental health

boating does everything for my mental health in my estimation 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

And facts..................

I'm native american ok over 1/4th to me 45%-50% suicide rate that makes going to counseling a worthless activity in my mind

I won't even pick a school online unless is has a 80% pass rate or higher many the online schools let you know the pass rate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you all think 45%-50% of people going to counseling of the suicide people's like dieing that that is a good rate - good value for your money??????????????????????

I suspect many a people would do better doing something OTHER THEN COUNSELING FOR THEIR MENTAL HEALTH

or maybe do counseling cause it might have 50% benefit for 50% of people??????

and do gardening

paint

maybe even become a stripper?????????????

DON'T SIT AROUND KNOWING "IT'S NOT GREAT MY HEADSPACE AIN'T" AND DO NOTHING

DO SOMETHING OTHER THEN SUICIDE ABOUT THAT IS THE PLOT I FEEL

cause even if I wasn't "saved" let's play that out in our brains still I'M USEFUL I'M GOING TO TALK SOMEONE INTO "KEEPING GOING" 

IF I TALK 1 HUMAN INTO KEEPING GOING IN LIFE THEN I HAVE PURPOSE 

YOU HAVE PURPOSE AS WELL KEEP GOING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For comfort and reassurance: "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." - Isaiah 41:10 [1]
For a promise of companionship: "Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, 'Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.'" - Hebrews 13:5 [1, 2, 3, 4, 5]
For when you feel unseen: "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." - Psalm 34:18 [1, 2]
For a prayer in isolation: "Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted." - Psalm 25:16

Is retail therapy sending my soul to hell????????? Cause I don't have friends, so I shop so that I feel better about myself......and then.......I tell myself "it's ok you don't have friends you need to feel good about yourself stay sane, STAY POSITIVE" ------------- AND I'VE JUST BEEN IN THAT VISCIOUS LOOP FOREVER. I dragon boated 3 years, was in a bowling league, colored pencil club, tole painting club, belly dancing classes FOR YEARS, was even for awhile taking hip hop dancing classes with such regularity I was the most popular one there doing HIP HOP DANCE SOLO'S FOR REAL FOR REAL REAL...........................etc.......................ETC PEOPLE...........................GOT TIRED TIRED OF TRYING, STORES GOT LOOKING TO GOOD ME..................

 Is retail therapy sending my soul to hell????????? Cause I don't have friends, so I shop so that I feel better about myself......and then.......I tell myself "it's ok you don't have friends you need to feel good about yourself stay sane, STAY POSITIVE" ------------- AND I'VE JUST BEEN IN THAT VISCIOUS LOOP FOREVER. I dragon boated 3 years, was in a bowling league, colored pencil club, tole painting club, belly dancing classes FOR YEARS, was even for awhile taking hip hop dancing classes with such regularity I was the most popular one there doing HIP HOP DANCE SOLO'S FOR REAL FOR REAL REAL...........................etc.......................ETC PEOPLE...........................GOT TIRED TIRED OF TRYING, STORES GOT LOOKING TO GOOD ME..................

WHAT'S THE POINT

OF ALL THIS "TRYING TO BE SOCIAL" 

if I never get friends

or if I get friends - it's often them they'll add me to facebook types

I tired

shopping seems so much more effective then trying to make friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I MOST ALWAYS FEEL AWESOME AFTER SHOPPING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

don't worry nobody "feels for me" 

especially not christians

most them DO NOT FEEL FOR ME AT ALL

they popular

they popuilar kirk cameron's most of them are

I'm the only one on earth seems to be that this bible verse is happening to

go to churches look around

they all happy

not looking to be struggling at all (at least where I live) 

talking away to each other 

being social 100%ers

Matthew 10:22

And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake: but he that endureth to the end shall be saved.

I don't know how to not do retail therapy

it's my #1 coping skill

i know i'm not supposed to buy nothing ever................

Matthew 13:44

Again, the kingdom of heaven is like unto treasure hid in a field; the which when a man hath found, he hideth, and for joy thereof goeth and selleth all that he hath, and buyeth that field.

I'm supposed to own nothing

"for jesus"

Philippians 3:8

Yea doubtless, and I count all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord: for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and do count them but dung, that I may win Christ,

I KNOW HOW TO READ

BUT I ALSO AM TRING TO STAY SANE IN A REALLY RUFF WORLD

A REAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLY RUFF WORLD

IT'S ONLY GREAT FOR THE KIRK CAMERON STYLE CHRISTIANS IN USA WHICH GOOD NEWS

MOST CHRISTIANS IN USA ARE KIRK CAMERON STYLE

I'M WHAT'S HATED HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

https://www.donorschoose.org/

Mrs. Parker's classrooms fundraiser is now fully funded 😁 But there are many more classrooms with many more needs at Donors Choose................

My family believe's I'm being punked (and then it sounds like they have conferences about me - instead of believing me INSTEAD OF BELIEVEING ME they think I'm depressed and I need a full time job even though my current job is many hours it's not a dink part time job) But for me to be "punked" that bad, my whole house would have to be bugged and I would also then be in danger of being murdered or kidnapped soon and shouldn't they call the cops BUT THEY HAVEN'T. But it's hard on my sanity - my family not believing me. And where's the cops then??? Cause if they believe I'm being "jokered" like that THEY SHOULD CALL THE COPS TO MY HOUSE THEN CAUSE IN THAT EVENT THEY SHOULD DEEM ME ABOUT TO BE KILLED OR KIDNAPPED...................JONAH IN THE BIBLE WAS SWALLOWED BY A WHALE that seems far fetched BUT IT HAPPENED!......

 My family believe's I'm being punked (and then it sounds like they have conferences about me - instead of believing me INSTEAD OF BELIEVEING ME they think I'm depressed and I need a full time job even though my current job is many hours it's not a dink part time job)  But for me to be "punked" that bad, my whole house would have to be bugged and I would also then be in danger of being murdered or kidnapped soon and shouldn't they call the cops BUT THEY HAVEN'T. But it's hard on my sanity - my family not believing me. And where's the cops then??? Cause if they believe I'm being "jokered" like that THEY SHOULD CALL THE COPS TO MY HOUSE THEN CAUSE IN THAT EVENT THEY SHOULD DEEM ME ABOUT TO BE KILLED OR KIDNAPPED...................JONAH IN THE BIBLE WAS SWALLOWED BY A WHALE that seems far fetched BUT IT HAPPENED!......

so why can't my 1st husband e-mail me near daily "from the other side" not earth - he totally can and he DOES!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  Matthew 12:40 "For as Jonas was three days and three nights in the whale's belly; so shall the Son of man be three days and three nights in the heart of the earth."

There is no "joker"

this is real

my 1st husband from "not on this earth right now" is e-mailing me several times a week

he will not let me get another job beyond my realistate job

which is fine

he's right

I need to learn to be thankful for what I have

I HAVE PLENTY

1 Timothy 6:8 "And having food and raiment let us be therewith content."

"my celestial financial planner" 

this is NOT A JOKE

via GIPHY

and don't call me evil (I tried to tell you all how to stay alive - those of you unable to join cross and skullbones "for the lord" edition - it's a thing even if it's unofficial)

🧥 - I got the special 322 jacket on 👄

don't call me evil

but your going to (many have already)

but you shouldn't

\Matthew 10:25

It is enough for the disciple that he be as his master, and the servant as his lord. If they have called the master of the house Beelzebub, how much more shall they call them of his household?

It's horrible I'm not welcome at churches anymore AND I KNOW I'M NOT - NOT REALLY......................those buildings are full of people not deemed worser then the "house of beelzebub" I AM THOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

they look nice and homely - not jezebel like

having their --------------------------------------------------------------- with the help of some --------------------------------- cause clearly they need "aids" for that

not me

I don't even need ------------------------------------- 

airborn

I know Lucifer is going to "snap out of it" - bless his heart, he literally thinks he's a holy saint right now. Isaiah 14:14 "I will ascend above the heights of the clouds; I will be like the most High." - terrible for me because I literally am a villian. That goody goody shiz DRIIIVES US VILLIANS UP THE WALL - for real.........................

Update 5/29/2025 when your a follower of jesus your life is more abundantly because you can wear whatever you want to, your hated by everyone it don't matter............

Matthew 10:22 "And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake: but he that endureth to the end shall be saved."

  More my finds from the goodwill outlet yesterday 😁.............................................

https://www.donorschoose.org/

Mrs. Chiappetta's classrooms fundraiser is now fully funded 😁 But there are many more classrooms with many more needs at Donors Choose.................

 I know Lucifer is going to "snap out of it" - bless his heart, he literally thinks he's a holy saint right now.  Isaiah 14:14 "I will ascend above the heights of the clouds; I will be like the most High." -  terrible for me because I literally am a villian. That goody goody shiz DRIIIVES US VILLIANS UP THE WALL - for real.........................
Isaiah 14:14-16 "I will ascend above the heights of the clouds; I will be like the most High. Yet thou shalt be brought down to hell, to the sides of the pit. They that see thee shall narrowly look upon thee, and consider thee, saying, Is this the man that made the earth to tremble, that did shake kingdoms;" - sheri 2024 is really not into the entire "girl scout cookie baking scense" ugh

but the truth I know

oh ya

you want the truth I know.....................

“BUT THE CHILDREN OF THE KINGDOM SHALL BE CAST OUT INTO OUTER DARKNESS; THERE SHALL BE WEEPING AND GNASHING OF TEETH.” Matthew 8:12.

it's the "bad guys" going to heaven............

and you know what I am...............

excuse me

writing a letter to 1st hubby again.......................

|"dear holy virgin mother mary, please can you please snap out of it - your currently driving me up the like 4th wall of like another realm we don't even know where that realm is located but it evidentally has a bunch of care bears in it hugging it out a ton" 

🤮

I have a theory.......................

  it's only a theory

if your to perfect you have pride probably

us bad guys

some us

is like slugs a trail of slime behind us whereever we go --------- what pride we know either we have drinking battles, or occasional porn battles, or mine cussing battles sometimes. 

 my mom told me every one sins

but 

not all sinners are the same

some only sin a little bit

just a little bit

Romans 3:23 "For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;"

then they BECOME LITERALLY PERFECT!

PERFECTION ISN'T EVEN PERFECTION THOUGH

IT AIN'T

NEVER WAS

Luke 18:19

And Jesus said unto him, Why callest thou me good? none is good, save one, that is, God.

so have a little mercy with one another please today

#co - exist

This world is full of controlling people, WHO THINK THEY ARE RIGHT ALL THE TIME! Ephesians 5:21 "Submitting yourselves one to another in the fear of God." They want to control you, tell you your wrong ------- at least from my experience. Look --- being right or being wrong isn't always the issue, sometime's the issue is I NEED MY SANITY! So many people commit suicide out there well did they have "support" around them ------ my guess OFTEN NOT..................if your feeling suicidal, join me, be a supporter of YOURSELF...................your pry like me kicked around hugh?????? Well you have value.............YOU HAVE VALUE.....................

This world is full of controlling people, WHO THINK THEY ARE RIGHT ALL THE TIME!  Ephesians 5:21 "Submitting yourselves one to another in the fear of God." They want to control you, tell you your wrong ------- at least from my experience. Look --- being right or being wrong isn't always the issue, sometime's the issue is I NEED MY SANITY! So many people commit suicide out there well did they have "support" around them ------ my guess OFTEN NOT..................if your feeling suicidal, join me, be a supporter of YOURSELF...................your pry like me kicked around hugh?????? Well you have value.............YOU HAVE VALUE.....................

who's to say that your wearing black sends you to hell?

or all the other reasons people judge you, hate you, out there

naw

you have VALUE

real value

1 Chronicles 10:4 "Then said Saul to his armourbearer, Draw thy sword, and thrust me through therewith; lest these uncircumcised come and abuse me. But his armourbearer would not; for he was sore afraid. So Saul took a sword, and fell upon it."

If your eye be single

your whole body will be filled with light

you won't want to abuse people!!!!!!!!!!!

Matthew 6:21-23 "For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also. The light of the body is the eye: if therefore thine eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light. But if thine eye be evil, thy whole body shall be full of darkness. If therefore the light that is in thee be darkness, how great is that darkness!"

Acts 7:57-60 "Then they cried out with a loud voice, and stopped their ears, and ran upon him with one accord, And cast him out of the city, and stoned him: and the witnesses laid down their clothes at a young man's feet, whose name was Saul. And they stoned Stephen, calling upon God, and saying, Lord Jesus, receive my spirit. And he kneeled down, and cried with a loud voice, Lord, lay not this sin to their charge. And when he had said this, he fell asleep."

mental health is so important

we often look at people that have killed themselves - and maybe we do view them as "weak" or something like that

but rest assured if they felt things were so bad that they had no choice but to kill themselves...................THEY LIKELY HAD SOME ABUSIVE PEOPLE AND/OR CONTROLLING PEOPLE AROUND THEM

hard to stay sane in this world

YOU HAVE REAL VALUE

GOD HAS A PURPOSE FOR YOU WHETHER YOU'VE FOUND THAT PURPOSE YET OR NOT..................

Ephesians 2:10 "For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them."

tootles

(sheri but why won't they stone you to death like they did Stephen) --------------- cause I crossed the picket line 😁

well not officially officially yet, but it is my intent and plans to cross that picket line officially oh ya officially on this earth and then for all of eternity

don't kill yourself your needed and valuable