Warning please do NOT read this blog post if you are either poor (and I mean anything but filth rich) or suicidal (basically all the humans that aren't filth rich cause the bible is true) Proverbs 14:20 "The poor is hated even of his own neighbour: but the rich hath many friends." Money is EVERYTHING! And I feel bad for the homeless cause some them didn't have money to go to college and/or brainpower to make it in the big $$$ careers AND THEN THEY ARE DOOMED.....................................unless scientist can figure up a way to inject more braincells into some of them CAUSE MONEY IS EVERYTHING................................if you don't have money you won't probably have friends or family and mental health requires at least friends AT LEAST FRIENDS...................

 Warning please do NOT read this blog post if you are either poor (and I mean anything but filth rich) or suicidal (basically all the humans that aren't filth rich cause the bible is true) Proverbs 14:20 "The poor is hated even of his own neighbour: but the rich hath many friends." Money is EVERYTHING! And I feel bad for the homeless cause some them didn't have money to go to college and/or brainpower to make it in the big $$$ careers AND THEN THEY ARE DOOMED.....................................unless scientist can figure up a way to inject more braincells into some of them CAUSE MONEY IS EVERYTHING................................if you don't have money you won't probably have friends or family and mental health requires at least friends AT LEAST FRIENDS...................

AND THEN ON TOP OF IT PEOPLE WALK PAST THE HOMELESS SEE THEM MANY OF THEM "OUT OF THEIR MINDS" OR OUT OF THEIR MINDS ALSO ADDICTED TO DRUGS.................AND THEY THINK them to be lesser peons they can't be bothered by. MEANWHILE THEY MERELY HAD BAD LUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ecclesiastes 9:11 "I returned, and saw under the sun, that the race is not to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, neither yet bread to the wise, nor yet riches to men of understanding, nor yet favour to men of skill; but time and chance happeneth to them all." They were not born into a rich family, or or or they didn't have the brainpower to get the high end degree's/jobs. BAD LUCK THEY GOTS BAD LUCK. 

  But I worry about myself, who will I become when I'm "rich enough to finally have friends"???????????????? Do I want to be that person???????????????????????????????? DO I EVEN WANT TO BE THAT PERSON 

BUT I HAVE NO CHOICE

BECAUSE TO STAY SANE ONE NEEDS FRIENDS OR FAMILY FAMILY IS OUT FOR ME I AIN'T BEEN INVITED TO A FAMILY GET TOGETHER EASY OVER 5 YEARS THEY JUST QUITTED HAVING FAMILY GET TOGETHERS

MUCH LIKE MY HUSBANDS sisters so refused to let me hang out with them when they went to the bars drinking together that the solution was to quit hanging out together 

they literally aren't hanging out together anymore so that they don't have to hang out with me

and I tried to tell brian "that's bad brian you should have a problem with that" ----------- he says no that's fine. 

  I getting a sailboat looks to be next week and that is something I really want to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and am starting school online hopefully soon 

and I do have the "brain power" 

I got a cna certification but decided I didn't want to wipe butts all day long for not enough money

...............I'm not saying what health care profession I'm aiming for but it makes more money then a cna cause I need to be rich to have friends finally!

am about to e-mail my parents who have gotten onto me for past gift that they didn't think was me spending enough money

my mom said "really honey only a -------------------"

she told me I should be embarassed to of bought her the gift I did

so I going to ask them what expensive gifts they want for christmas and buy them sooner so that the stress and pressure of adequately $100's of dollars of gifts isn't hanging over my head for the rest of the year I'm already stressed out it's to much stress 

man this was a edifying blog post.................

Ephesians 4:16

From whom the whole body fitly joined together and compacted by that which every joint supplieth, according to the effectual working in the measure of every part, maketh increase of the body unto the edifying of itself in love.

I fear for my "mental health" talking to my mom again. One time their actions caused me to hallucinate for several months (that was a few years ago). And they identify and believe themselves to be according to my mom "mostly brittish" though my family never ate crumpets, watched bbc, were into polo, never, didn't talk about the royals much none of it. I identify as Irish, Mexican, Jew, and Native American (with a little white sprinkled in - which is probably brittish but that isn't my main "identity" of which I "identify" myself as........................I can tell you why, my skin is dark, I LOOK LIKE MARILYN MONROE EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE.......................

I fear for my "mental health" talking to my mom again. One time their actions caused me to hallucinate for several months (that was a few years ago). And they identify and believe themselves to be according to my mom "mostly brittish" though my family never ate crumpets, watched bbc, were into polo, never, didn't talk about the royals much none of it. I identify as Irish, Mexican, Jew, and Native American (with a little white sprinkled in - which is probably brittish but that isn't my main "identity" of which I "identify" myself as........................I can tell you why, my skin is dark, I LOOK LIKE MARILYN MONROE EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE.......................

this a old pic, but I'm always bearing a strong resemblance to marilyn monroe

my skin is always dark

not white is hue

my skin is always on the "dark" side of the spectrum

even my like butt that don't get sunlight --------it's not a pale white butt on me

I started having a big problem with my family

when they started insisting that they are mostly brittish people

and I don't identify as "mostly brittish" 

what race you are or believe yourself to be.........has to factor into your mental health some

if you was as black person ------- believed you were white

that'd be crazy wouldn't it be??????????????

I don't associate myself in my brains as brittish. 

I liked watching princess diana get married in the 80's

I've never ate a crumpet. 

um

and I just don't view or deem myself as brittish when I look in the mirror

I'm not seeing 

camilla bowles

I look in the mirror 

I see marilyn monroe (sorta) who was mexican a latina

with a potentially jew nose

but latina

LATINA

..............................I mean that's what I see when I look in the mirror, not Camilla Bowles NEVER. 

never

if not a jew

if my family were right and we ain't jews

I still don't see a white chick when I look in the mirror

I SEE A LATINA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT IS ALSO IRISH AND NATIVE AMERICAN!!!!!!!!!!!!

LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

And I have a cousin that lives in spain that is fully passing AS A SPANIARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and her kids

fully fully fully fully pass AS SPANIARDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!    

they don't look half white

no they don't 

NOOOOOOO THEY DON'T MY FAMILY

MELINDA'S KIDS LOOK LIKE 100% SPANIARDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

si, veo futbol

I swear there is latina in me.........only thing that can expain my love of futbol

please pray for my mental health

cause I fear my family will tax my mental health more

I am 

no way

identifying as "mostly brittish"

...............

I'd wayyyyyyyyyy faster identify as a Latina, and also I look like a latina everyday when I look in the mirror and my butt is brown!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

es marron

MARRON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I loooooooooooooooove nachos

I love nachos

I've gotten myself in trouble eating nachos

I've gained weight eating nachos

and taco's

................

currently near dead done ate to many nachos and tacos!!!!!!!!!!

I took shakira's song as near the bible........................swear I have "latina hearing" swear......................

Mark 13:13

And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake: but he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved.

I don't know if melinda my spaniard cousin identifies as a Spaniard???????

but I know she passes as a spaniard

and her kids also pass as spaniards - and they don't even look half white THEY LOOK FULL SPANIARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FULL SPANIARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the spicy life I feel is the zone I am of

............

um

have a great day!

I just took this picture, the middle of winter I never go to tanning beds............my skin isn't white..............

no sunless tanner on me either 0% sunless tanner

no tanning has gone on FOR MONTHS

brown 

brown

brown

I no be's looking in the mirror thinkin ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I'm mostly a brittish person like my family is if they believe like my mom that they are "mostly brittish" cause that's what my mom says she believe's we are that we are "mostly brittish" 

brown

marron

no es mostly brittish

no es

This world is full of controlling people, WHO THINK THEY ARE RIGHT ALL THE TIME! Ephesians 5:21 "Submitting yourselves one to another in the fear of God." They want to control you, tell you your wrong ------- at least from my experience. Look --- being right or being wrong isn't always the issue, sometime's the issue is I NEED MY SANITY! So many people commit suicide out there well did they have "support" around them ------ my guess OFTEN NOT..................if your feeling suicidal, join me, be a supporter of YOURSELF...................your pry like me kicked around hugh?????? Well you have value.............YOU HAVE VALUE.....................

This world is full of controlling people, WHO THINK THEY ARE RIGHT ALL THE TIME!  Ephesians 5:21 "Submitting yourselves one to another in the fear of God." They want to control you, tell you your wrong ------- at least from my experience. Look --- being right or being wrong isn't always the issue, sometime's the issue is I NEED MY SANITY! So many people commit suicide out there well did they have "support" around them ------ my guess OFTEN NOT..................if your feeling suicidal, join me, be a supporter of YOURSELF...................your pry like me kicked around hugh?????? Well you have value.............YOU HAVE VALUE.....................

who's to say that your wearing black sends you to hell?

or all the other reasons people judge you, hate you, out there

naw

you have VALUE

real value

1 Chronicles 10:4 "Then said Saul to his armourbearer, Draw thy sword, and thrust me through therewith; lest these uncircumcised come and abuse me. But his armourbearer would not; for he was sore afraid. So Saul took a sword, and fell upon it."

If your eye be single

your whole body will be filled with light

you won't want to abuse people!!!!!!!!!!!

Matthew 6:21-23 "For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also. The light of the body is the eye: if therefore thine eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light. But if thine eye be evil, thy whole body shall be full of darkness. If therefore the light that is in thee be darkness, how great is that darkness!"

Acts 7:57-60 "Then they cried out with a loud voice, and stopped their ears, and ran upon him with one accord, And cast him out of the city, and stoned him: and the witnesses laid down their clothes at a young man's feet, whose name was Saul. And they stoned Stephen, calling upon God, and saying, Lord Jesus, receive my spirit. And he kneeled down, and cried with a loud voice, Lord, lay not this sin to their charge. And when he had said this, he fell asleep."

mental health is so important

we often look at people that have killed themselves - and maybe we do view them as "weak" or something like that

but rest assured if they felt things were so bad that they had no choice but to kill themselves...................THEY LIKELY HAD SOME ABUSIVE PEOPLE AND/OR CONTROLLING PEOPLE AROUND THEM

hard to stay sane in this world

YOU HAVE REAL VALUE

GOD HAS A PURPOSE FOR YOU WHETHER YOU'VE FOUND THAT PURPOSE YET OR NOT..................

Ephesians 2:10 "For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them."

tootles

(sheri but why won't they stone you to death like they did Stephen) --------------- cause I crossed the picket line 😁

well not officially officially yet, but it is my intent and plans to cross that picket line officially oh ya officially on this earth and then for all of eternity

don't kill yourself your needed and valuable

(today is my 1st "ice bath" day - ps ya I went to the methodist church again : ) If your mind isn't doing well, you might buy stupid stuff. Or eat stupid stuff you shouldn't eat - often I'm sayin. Big part of Jesus coming so that we might have John 10:10 "The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly." My advice learn to slow down in the day at some point, read the bible if you can, listen to a sermon, breath.........................

Update 7/2/2026 went to seattle yesterday because my son wanted to watch fifa in seattle - it was a really good soccer game - we won. I ain't about to talk about the bible right now I'm to tired - maybe that's the devils plan to steal my soul keep me exhausted..............that's totally working! 👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍

 (today is my 1st "ice bath" day - ps ya I went to the methodist church again : ) If your mind isn't doing well, you might buy stupid stuff. Or eat stupid stuff you shouldn't eat - often I'm sayin. Big part of Jesus coming so that we might have John 10:10 "The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly." My advice learn to slow down in the day at some point, read the bible if you can, listen to a sermon, breath.........................

for years now the bible hasn't just been a book I read

it's active meditation for me

Joshua 1:8 "This book of the law shall not depart out of thy mouth; but thou shalt meditate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do according to all that is written therein: for then thou shalt make thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have good success."
 Ya probably good success cause your mind is doing good from all that active meditation is my belief anyways!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TV TO MUCH TV WILL SUCK I'M PRETTY 100% THE BRAINS RIGHT OUT OF YOUR SKULLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(JUST LETTING YOU KNOW IF YOU WERE WONDERING WHERE YOUR BRAINS WENT)

And most the methodist church me and my husband been going to

most em are of some organization that like visits sick, or lonely people

that's great

(it's a church full of mostly older people, some them, miracle they still up and walkin around)

me

ep

I think I'm like supposed to like show up to church basically

which I've rolled into a belief system the showing up to church yep..................

nobody could convince me other then what I'm convinced of..................

1 John 2:18-20 "Little children, it is the last time: and as ye have heard that antichrist shall come, even now are there many antichrists; whereby we know that it is the last time. They went out from us, but they were not of us; for if they had been of us, they would no doubt have continued with us: but they went out, that they might be made manifest that they were not all of us.  But ye have an unction from the Holy One, and ye know all things."

   My husbands family they all believe they are christians, and my family all believe they are christians (my sister appears to of at least walked inside a church recently and took a photo) 

I hope they are christians and are right! Cause hell isn't a fun place to go!

but what I know

what I know

you go to church and keep on going to church

at the very least you ain't no anti christ then!!!!!!!!!!

you leave you stop going to church

how you even done know if your a christian then???????

"They went out from us, but they were not of us; for if they had been of us, they would no doubt have continued with us: "

Do not people generally stick around the people they are "of"????????

if you are a christian

and you ain't wanting to go to church never again

what you doin??????????????

if you were a republican

and you refused to go the Donald Trump meetings

WHAT YOU DOING THEN???????????????

MAM - SIR - WHAT THE HECK THEN??????? IF YOUR A REPUBLICAN AND DONALD TRUMP IS SPEAKING IN YOUR TOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but back to what I was sayin

sauna is a "tool" in life

ice baths are a "tool" in life

gym is a "tool" in life

Jesus is a "tool" in life as is His word as is God in my estimation

many "tools" in life

many many

really helpful

so important whether you christian or no

to do what you need to do to keep your mind right!!!!!!!!!!!

Proverbs 4:23 "Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life."

your heart is connected to your brains, and if you are like thinking about caring about people around you, and not the worthless goods of the earth..........................if your mind is right YOUR PRIORITIES WILL LINE UP WITH YOUR MIND!!!!!!!!!!!! (still buy goods right, but them goods ain't your priority)

If you let this world "suck you in" get you thinking you need this this and this and this..............to even have a good life. A - lies

We all have value

we all have the ability to care for one another

all can contribute to communities

all

Acts 10:28

And he said unto them, Ye know how that it is an unlawful thing for a man that is a Jew to keep company, or come unto one of another nation; but God hath shewed me that I should not call any man common or unclean.

tootles

Most things in eternity you have to "count the cost" for them................................love is worth it....................................

Update 12/19/2024 my 1st tie tye shirt of this batch 😁 I loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee this one 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓......................it's still wet, I just took the rubberbands off it after it sat all night in a plastic bag "marinating"..................

   It might be plenty ok to be fearful right now, I have no idea??????? But eventually that fear is not going to be doing you any favours!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
   Now it could be I'm just not loved much, but I don't believe it is that at all, I tend to believe people are afraid out there, very, very afraid.
  Most things in eternity you have to "count the cost" for them................................love is worth it....................................Revelation 21:8 "But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death."
Revelation 13:9-11

9 If any man have an ear, let him hear.
10 He that leadeth into captivity shall go into captivity: he that killeth with the sword must be killed with the sword. Here is the patience and the faith of the saints.

11 And I beheld another beast coming up out of the earth; and he had two horns like a lamb, and he spake as a dragon.

Pastor of my church recently said he likes to watch animals being killed in his freetime - fine. He said if you aren't in the pack of sheep you could get killed that there is safety being in the "flock" and this is true. He then suggested that maybe the few having a hard time "fitting in" in the church..........should open up when they go to bible study (that that he suggested would solve the problem and then those few sheep all stray outside the flock would all the sudden be in the flock).........problem with that is. My own family has called me nuts......................"my truth" isn't viewed as sane.
  If I said to my bible study, ya I married lucifer at the beginning of time, and I'm renewing my wedding vows as soon as he get's here, and then once judgement day has happened I'm then going down to the pits of hell every night to our "room" (((((((((they just all going to think me nuts, and if they didn't think me nuts, I do not know how I could fare well after saying all of that?????????????)))))))))) The whole idea that I love the adversary of all us christians.....................might not make me uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh be uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh "fitting in"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Like I not sure how ANY of that could pan out for me at church.
   This is me going off topic, but my parents I have decided were convinced that I from a young age, was perfectly fullfilling the entire law. And that is why they were having a massive cow when I vowed I would never get a tattoo never and they told me many times James 2:10 "For whosoever shall keep the whole law, and yet offend in one point, he is guilty of all." If you go to my previous blog post I talk about how it is ok to not eat bacon, out of fear of god basically. Heeding some of the law is not only ok, it's good for you, it would be bad for any of us to go see pychics, or do ouija boards (if I spelled that wrong well I tried), cutting ourselves!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Many things in "the law" that we are waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay better off not doing!
  Today I assured my family, and the 4 apostolic christians (apostolic christian church of america) that I e-mail but they never e-mail back hardly. That I do indeed wear "mixed fabrics".

I be's mixing them fabrics all kinds earth!

Deuteronomy 22:11 "Thou shalt not wear a garment of divers sorts, as of woollen and linen together.

-----  I got a job, got my 1st paycheck to 👍
  I don't want to hunt nobody............but I don't want to get eaten either.......................I'm skipping being a snack!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.........................................

HAVE A GREAT DAY EARTH!

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