Good news, helping one our realistate buddies out this week and about to earn extra money just in the knick of time cause I badly need to buy a boat FOR MY SANITY. I need to get away from people I'm starting to loose my grip on sanity again, the neverending being judged because I'm to fat, or if I'm to skinny, or not "saintly enough" or maybe judged cause I look demon possessed, and I also believe I am with a fallen angel BUT I LIKE IT, and judged if I'm to pretty, or not pretty enough and IT NEVER ENDS AND PEOPLE ARE NEVER HAPPY NEVVVVVVVVVVVER (especially they aren't happy with me if they is christian, but some non-christians appear to hate me to wazuu as well)..........................................

 Good news, helping one our realistate buddies out this week and about to earn extra money just in the knick of time cause I badly need to buy a boat FOR MY SANITY. I need to get away from people I'm starting to loose my grip on sanity again, the neverending being judged because I'm to fat, or if I'm to skinny, or not "saintly enough" or maybe judged cause I look demon possessed, and I also believe I am with a fallen angel BUT I LIKE IT, and judged if I'm to pretty, or not pretty enough and IT NEVER ENDS AND PEOPLE ARE NEVER HAPPY NEVVVVVVVVVVVER (especially they aren't happy with me if they is christian, but some non-christians appear to hate me to wazuu as well)..........................................

Even if your not a men pleaser which I clearly ain't a men pleaser.........its exhuasting always being hated for jesus christ. 

Matthew 10:33-35 "But whosoever shall deny me before men, him will I also deny before my Father which is in heaven. Think not that I am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword. For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law."

we all should love each other MUCH MORE especially in usa

we have a bacteria over most usa most usa has neverending diahrea right now

we have inflation

we have people unable to afford rent THAT WORK JOBS and so they are living in cars 

data centers sucking up towns after towns after towns of water

  I need to boat it's a calling I feel

I feel lead to boat

some people don't feel when they out on the water in a boat "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh this is where I belong" 

but "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh this is where I belong" is what I feel when I'm out on the water. 

it's been like that for years for me now

maybe the "negative ions" in the air when boating charge my soul????????????????

I am over 1/4th native american counseling does 0% for my mental health

boating does everything for my mental health in my estimation 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

And facts..................

I'm native american ok over 1/4th to me 45%-50% suicide rate that makes going to counseling a worthless activity in my mind

I won't even pick a school online unless is has a 80% pass rate or higher many the online schools let you know the pass rate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you all think 45%-50% of people going to counseling of the suicide people's like dieing that that is a good rate - good value for your money??????????????????????

I suspect many a people would do better doing something OTHER THEN COUNSELING FOR THEIR MENTAL HEALTH

or maybe do counseling cause it might have 50% benefit for 50% of people??????

and do gardening

paint

maybe even become a stripper?????????????

DON'T SIT AROUND KNOWING "IT'S NOT GREAT MY HEADSPACE AIN'T" AND DO NOTHING

DO SOMETHING OTHER THEN SUICIDE ABOUT THAT IS THE PLOT I FEEL

cause even if I wasn't "saved" let's play that out in our brains still I'M USEFUL I'M GOING TO TALK SOMEONE INTO "KEEPING GOING" 

IF I TALK 1 HUMAN INTO KEEPING GOING IN LIFE THEN I HAVE PURPOSE 

YOU HAVE PURPOSE AS WELL KEEP GOING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For comfort and reassurance: "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." - Isaiah 41:10 [1]
For a promise of companionship: "Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, 'Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.'" - Hebrews 13:5 [1, 2, 3, 4, 5]
For when you feel unseen: "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." - Psalm 34:18 [1, 2]
For a prayer in isolation: "Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted." - Psalm 25:16

This world is full of controlling people, WHO THINK THEY ARE RIGHT ALL THE TIME! Ephesians 5:21 "Submitting yourselves one to another in the fear of God." They want to control you, tell you your wrong ------- at least from my experience. Look --- being right or being wrong isn't always the issue, sometime's the issue is I NEED MY SANITY! So many people commit suicide out there well did they have "support" around them ------ my guess OFTEN NOT..................if your feeling suicidal, join me, be a supporter of YOURSELF...................your pry like me kicked around hugh?????? Well you have value.............YOU HAVE VALUE.....................

This world is full of controlling people, WHO THINK THEY ARE RIGHT ALL THE TIME!  Ephesians 5:21 "Submitting yourselves one to another in the fear of God." They want to control you, tell you your wrong ------- at least from my experience. Look --- being right or being wrong isn't always the issue, sometime's the issue is I NEED MY SANITY! So many people commit suicide out there well did they have "support" around them ------ my guess OFTEN NOT..................if your feeling suicidal, join me, be a supporter of YOURSELF...................your pry like me kicked around hugh?????? Well you have value.............YOU HAVE VALUE.....................

who's to say that your wearing black sends you to hell?

or all the other reasons people judge you, hate you, out there

naw

you have VALUE

real value

1 Chronicles 10:4 "Then said Saul to his armourbearer, Draw thy sword, and thrust me through therewith; lest these uncircumcised come and abuse me. But his armourbearer would not; for he was sore afraid. So Saul took a sword, and fell upon it."

If your eye be single

your whole body will be filled with light

you won't want to abuse people!!!!!!!!!!!

Matthew 6:21-23 "For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also. The light of the body is the eye: if therefore thine eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light. But if thine eye be evil, thy whole body shall be full of darkness. If therefore the light that is in thee be darkness, how great is that darkness!"

Acts 7:57-60 "Then they cried out with a loud voice, and stopped their ears, and ran upon him with one accord, And cast him out of the city, and stoned him: and the witnesses laid down their clothes at a young man's feet, whose name was Saul. And they stoned Stephen, calling upon God, and saying, Lord Jesus, receive my spirit. And he kneeled down, and cried with a loud voice, Lord, lay not this sin to their charge. And when he had said this, he fell asleep."

mental health is so important

we often look at people that have killed themselves - and maybe we do view them as "weak" or something like that

but rest assured if they felt things were so bad that they had no choice but to kill themselves...................THEY LIKELY HAD SOME ABUSIVE PEOPLE AND/OR CONTROLLING PEOPLE AROUND THEM

hard to stay sane in this world

YOU HAVE REAL VALUE

GOD HAS A PURPOSE FOR YOU WHETHER YOU'VE FOUND THAT PURPOSE YET OR NOT..................

Ephesians 2:10 "For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them."

tootles

(sheri but why won't they stone you to death like they did Stephen) --------------- cause I crossed the picket line 😁

well not officially officially yet, but it is my intent and plans to cross that picket line officially oh ya officially on this earth and then for all of eternity

don't kill yourself your needed and valuable