Good news, helping one our realistate buddies out this week and about to earn extra money just in the knick of time cause I badly need to buy a boat FOR MY SANITY. I need to get away from people I'm starting to loose my grip on sanity again, the neverending being judged because I'm to fat, or if I'm to skinny, or not "saintly enough" or maybe judged cause I look demon possessed, and I also believe I am with a fallen angel BUT I LIKE IT, and judged if I'm to pretty, or not pretty enough and IT NEVER ENDS AND PEOPLE ARE NEVER HAPPY NEVVVVVVVVVVVER (especially they aren't happy with me if they is christian, but some non-christians appear to hate me to wazuu as well)..........................................

 Good news, helping one our realistate buddies out this week and about to earn extra money just in the knick of time cause I badly need to buy a boat FOR MY SANITY. I need to get away from people I'm starting to loose my grip on sanity again, the neverending being judged because I'm to fat, or if I'm to skinny, or not "saintly enough" or maybe judged cause I look demon possessed, and I also believe I am with a fallen angel BUT I LIKE IT, and judged if I'm to pretty, or not pretty enough and IT NEVER ENDS AND PEOPLE ARE NEVER HAPPY NEVVVVVVVVVVVER (especially they aren't happy with me if they is christian, but some non-christians appear to hate me to wazuu as well)..........................................

Even if your not a men pleaser which I clearly ain't a men pleaser.........its exhuasting always being hated for jesus christ. 

Matthew 10:33-35 "But whosoever shall deny me before men, him will I also deny before my Father which is in heaven. Think not that I am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword. For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law."

we all should love each other MUCH MORE especially in usa

we have a bacteria over most usa most usa has neverending diahrea right now

we have inflation

we have people unable to afford rent THAT WORK JOBS and so they are living in cars 

data centers sucking up towns after towns after towns of water

  I need to boat it's a calling I feel

I feel lead to boat

some people don't feel when they out on the water in a boat "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh this is where I belong" 

but "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh this is where I belong" is what I feel when I'm out on the water. 

it's been like that for years for me now

maybe the "negative ions" in the air when boating charge my soul????????????????

I am over 1/4th native american counseling does 0% for my mental health

boating does everything for my mental health in my estimation 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

And facts..................

I'm native american ok over 1/4th to me 45%-50% suicide rate that makes going to counseling a worthless activity in my mind

I won't even pick a school online unless is has a 80% pass rate or higher many the online schools let you know the pass rate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you all think 45%-50% of people going to counseling of the suicide people's like dieing that that is a good rate - good value for your money??????????????????????

I suspect many a people would do better doing something OTHER THEN COUNSELING FOR THEIR MENTAL HEALTH

or maybe do counseling cause it might have 50% benefit for 50% of people??????

and do gardening

paint

maybe even become a stripper?????????????

DON'T SIT AROUND KNOWING "IT'S NOT GREAT MY HEADSPACE AIN'T" AND DO NOTHING

DO SOMETHING OTHER THEN SUICIDE ABOUT THAT IS THE PLOT I FEEL

cause even if I wasn't "saved" let's play that out in our brains still I'M USEFUL I'M GOING TO TALK SOMEONE INTO "KEEPING GOING" 

IF I TALK 1 HUMAN INTO KEEPING GOING IN LIFE THEN I HAVE PURPOSE 

YOU HAVE PURPOSE AS WELL KEEP GOING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For comfort and reassurance: "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." - Isaiah 41:10 [1]
For a promise of companionship: "Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, 'Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.'" - Hebrews 13:5 [1, 2, 3, 4, 5]
For when you feel unseen: "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." - Psalm 34:18 [1, 2]
For a prayer in isolation: "Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted." - Psalm 25:16