I know I look bad wearing makeup and my last blog post was aweful completely terrible................Luke 18:14 "I tell you, this man went down to his house justified rather than the other: for every one that exalteth himself shall be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted."...........................

 I know I look bad wearing makeup and my last blog post was aweful completely terrible................Luke 18:14 "I tell you, this man went down to his house justified rather than the other: for every one that exalteth himself shall be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted.".......

Luke 18:13-14 "And the publican, standing afar off, would not lift up so much as his eyes unto heaven, but smote upon his breast, saying, God be merciful to me a sinner. I tell you, this man went down to his house justified rather than the other: for every one that exalteth himself shall be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted." 

 Luke 14:10-11"But when thou art bidden, go and sit down in the lowest room; that when he that bade thee cometh, he may say unto thee, Friend, go up higher: then shalt thou have worship in the presence of them that sit at meat with thee. For whosoever exalteth himself shall be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted."

Join most of my family laughing at me

telling me I can't be a christian I can only be a satan worshipper because I love lucifer (if ya want to)................

(because Lucifer thought in his mind he was doing the right thing, taking a stand for the angels in heavens "rights") He had BAD LUCK lucifer did. 

  As do all sinners that are headed to hell - they havin BAD LUCK, "time and chance happeneth to them all" BAD LUCK BASICALLY.................

Ecclesiastes 9:11 "I returned, and saw under the sun, that the race is not to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, neither yet bread to the wise, nor yet riches to men of understanding, nor yet favour to men of skill; but time and chance happeneth to them all." ------ What caused this "bad luck"????????? Maybe a sermon they didn't get to hear?????????? Maybe they died before they could give their lives to Jesus????????????????????????????? All kinds of things happen to people out there.

  Back to my point..............................

I choose to sit in the LOWEST ROOM

in the body of christ

(or I tryin to do that)

There is some celebrity christians out there

I ain't sure

if they ain't worshipped???????

I ain't sure???????

Romans 1:25 "Who changed the truth of God into a lie, and worshipped and served the creature more than the Creator, who is blessed for ever. Amen."

  I'm glad for my lowly estate

besides

I need to "Better" myself

by donating more time volunteering at the foodbank I feel

and not worrying about my "outward" appearance

Matthew 23:27-29 "Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye are like unto whited sepulchres, which indeed appear beautiful outward, but are within full of dead men's bones, and of all uncleanness. Even so ye also outwardly appear righteous unto men, but within ye are full of hypocrisy and iniquity. Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! because ye build the tombs of the prophets, and garnish the sepulchres of the righteous,"

 I do not appear "righteous unto men" 

nope

according to my family I don't even appear a christian

which is perfect

Matthew 10:25 "It is enough for the disciple that he be as his master, and the servant as his lord. If they have called the master of the house Beelzebub, how much more shall they call them of his household?"

(this blog is inspired by someone out there............I zipping my lip is what I'm doin not say who my inspiration is for this blog post

those that exalt themselves

they gonna be abased)

people have called this person out a lot on the internet

so a "abasement" of them has already began

I'm glad people like that exist

to remind me

oh ya I don't want to be a "big time" afterall

Matthew 11:29 "Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls."

There's no REST

when your trying to build yourself up

build some "empire" for yourself

Psalm 138:6 "Though the Lord be high, yet hath he respect unto the lowly: but the proud he knoweth afar off."

I'm a lowly makeup wearer 

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(the day sheri made all the makeup industries stolks go up - hahahahahahahahahah 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓)

via GIPHY

Video blog post: One day at the store some young people said "oh she is a GOTH" (they way they said goth, like it was a "less then" thing to be I really liked that - for myself I do like : ) Luke 14:10 "But when thou art bidden, go and sit down in the lowest room; that when he that bade thee cometh, he may say unto thee, Friend, go up higher: then shalt thou have worship in the presence of them that sit at meat with thee."............

  Update 6/11/2026 also I love crystals cause they are "lowly" I don't want to be looking sinless and awesome like the rest of the body of christ (no hate) 

  I've ended up enjoying well brian's at home all day and night, but peace and quiet at much as I can have - it's nice, it ain't bad at all. 

   Bought new kitchen island table surface at lowes for like around $20 that's all it costed so nice 😁.............................(didn't even have to use tile cutters on it, it fitted perfect).....................

Video blog post: One day at the store some young people said "oh she is a GOTH" (they way they said goth, like it was a "less then" thing to be I really liked that - for myself I do like : ) Luke 14:10 "But when thou art bidden, go and sit down in the lowest room; that when he that bade thee cometh, he may say unto thee, Friend, go up higher: then shalt thou have worship in the presence of them that sit at meat with thee."............

  As a goth facts you can just be a attention whore. Which I've been accused by family members and non family both of being a attention whore - ya I openly am a attention whore I took one of the "lowest rooms" in life on purpose! Luke 1:52 "He hath put down the mighty from their seats, and exalted them of low degree." The "way up" in life isn't what people think it is...............it's going down, it's humbling yourself. Philippians 2:7 "But made himself of no reputation, and took upon him the form of a servant, and was made in the likeness of men:"

 I don't know right now if I'm living my bestestest life ever as a "all star in the dope show" at the moment????????????????? I might have to get better at doing my goth makeup!

The pretty ones want to get you high

but they will leave you low and blow your mind for reals!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

They left me low "back in the day" 

Thank God I'm the crypt keeper!

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Video blog post: I thank god that life has been a struggle for me, because if everything was easy for me --- maybe in that event I wouldn't even go to church or pray or "wait upon the lord".........................

Update 1/28/2025 my goat Othello prancing around the yard this morning 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓..............................he's the sweetest little goat guy, both my goats are so nice sooooooooooooooooo nice. Little othello this morning earlier he was sitting on top of the hay feeder (his favorite spot) and right in front of him was a chicken egg, he was real careful not to crush that chicken egg (so I washed that egg off and put it in the egg bin in the fridge) - cuttest softest guy.........he loves to sit in that hay feeder it's high up and watch people 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓......................................

the water meter reading people today knocked on our door, made sure it was safe to go read the water meter that goats wouldn't get loose if they did - that was nice of them 😊👍

Video blog post: I thank god that life has been a struggle for me, because if everything was easy for me --- maybe in that event I wouldn't even go to church or pray or "wait upon the lord".
  If you are in my boat in life 1 Peter 5:6 "Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time:" You may be like me, hated to wazuuu God is mighty, and His word is true all it, including 1 Peter 5:6!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
   Your "day" may not be here yet, but if you just hang on and stay humble I do believe it's coming!!!!!!!!!

 This here in my song choice for this blog post, I'm in a mary poppins mood at the moment (which some people might judge me over, probably the same people that literally want people to sadistically burn in the everlasting flames of hell forever.........😏that's the one eyebrow cocked in the air emojii cause I think that is real bad if you want people to burn horrendously in the eternal flames of hell forever even your worst worstest worstest's enemy ever if you want that to happen to them I think that's real bad Tim).
  
  I don't believe there's no "turning of shadow" with god though naw. Bible's true all of it! James 1:17
"Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning." From my earth perspective, people burning in hell some them in pain agony, crying to god for help forever, and yes god's mercy never ends it's true. For even hell to happen in my mind, that's not good!
  I don't think like god..............Isaiah 55:8 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord." I clearly do not think like god because in my mind hell is 100% a bad idea, instead there should be nice jail complexes, with some sort of town for the "reformed" to go to that maybe isn't heaven cause they could never be holy enough to be in god's presence, I imagine like a pretty nice town.
  Lucifer ya I totally want him to win armageddon 100% (Jesus is lord, christ savior who came to save us all, I have no problems with jesus ----------- I just don't want him to win armageddon no way, lucifer needs to win 😀).

Have a great week earth!

LOVE

It is perfectly normal for everyone to want to succeed to "stay low" to appear humble THAT DON'T MAKE SENSE.............

 Update 1/29/2024 for those who've been on my blog for awhile, you'd know I speak to the devil, satan, lucifer basically daily cause I prayed him back into my life 2013 (I was feeling lonely, depressed) well that prayer solved 1 out of 2 problems. 

  Can you please please, go view this guys ASMR channel................some these foreigner guys are so nice..............they have dreams to, and I want their dreams to come true I really do..........but for that for many of them, they need "likes and subscribers"................

https://www.youtube.com/@FAZIASMROFFICIAL

 ASMR Aldi is my #1 fave ASMR but fazi almost tie. Such nice people they both are...........or look to be. (I believe they are nice guys, I know though how most people out there think EVERYONE is b---- and a---- h----- ------ I realize in "cancel culture 2024" how much most everyone hates everyone) I'm really hoping life get's better for me and these 2 asmrers! 

  My new hair look 😁..........................................

It is perfectly normal for everyone to want to succeed to "stay low" to appear humble THAT DON'T MAKE SENSE.............
1 Peter 5:6 "Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time:"

The idea isn't to stay a "nobody" for good!

Colossians 1:27 "To whom God would make known what is the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles; which is Christ in you, the hope of glory:"

"Well sheri you should give up, your blog isn't doing that great, that ""due time"" per 1 peter 5:6 it don't look like it's happening for you"

Oh it will...................for god's word is true..................

Isaiah 58:13-14 "If thou turn away thy foot from the sabbath, from doing thy pleasure on my holy day; and call the sabbath a delight, the holy of the Lord, honourable; and shalt honour him, not doing thine own ways, nor finding thine own pleasure, nor speaking thine own words: Then shalt thou delight thyself in the Lord; and I will cause thee to ride upon the high places of the earth, and feed thee with the heritage of Jacob thy father: for the mouth of the Lord hath spoken it."

AMEN!

(I make real sure to keep the sabbath day holy I go by my towns official jewish shabbat candle lighting time I don't light the candles cause that's keeping the law maybe so I stay away from that aspect of keeping the sabbath...........from sundown friday night til sundown saturday holy time for me)

 I don't want to stay "down". I don't need to god's word is true Isaiah 58:13-14 is going to happen to me, cause I'm keeping the sabbath day holy it's only a matter of when. And I'm no longer opposed to being a celebrity.................

it's bad to idolize them

but the idea of god raising me up to celebrity status is perfect........I hope he does that

I need that

I need attention, there are people that are good with being in the background of life, and that is where they are comfortable they are called "introverts" then there are "extroverts" of which I am of that classification, and us extroverts sometimes we are the class clowns in school WHICH I DEFINATELY WAS I clean got kicked out of economics in high school and put in a remedial economics class. I have a extreme case of attention deficit disorder, so it was more then one thing going on.........there was another "class clown" in that class and we both ganged up on this teacher which it's bad in retrospect bad. Somedays this kid would crack a joke, and I'd have a complementary joke to crack..................

plays like the scene from a horror movie to me by now

Teachers have hard jobs, kids should be respecting their teachers............even if as the case was with this economics teacher I didn't like him. I'm saying I went to far, and I feel bad about it. 

  I do have attention deficit disorder bad as well, so I was dealing with some triple double few whammy's there. 

   Us extroverts we thrive off of attention we need it. It makes us feel alive, we feel dead without some attention, I'm telling the truth! My mom got all upset with me few months ago called me "attention hungry" but she's a introvert, and I don't think introverts always understand us extroverts......................some you introverts view attention the need to have it as a negative. 

  Even the bible says...................

1 Thessalonians 4:11 "And that ye study to be quiet, and to do your own business, and to work with your own hands, as we commanded you;" Be a good introvert, study be quiet, work, be quiet, be a good hard working introvert thumbs up : ) 

  But at the same time ok.............nobody can tell my attention deficit disorder self...........that we shouldn't want and fully expect to be raised up by god. 1 Peter 5:6 "Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time:"

  Ok if I'm like raised up am I not speaking to you all, are you not listening to me then....................I WOULD SAY SO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHETHER I BE'S A GIRL OR NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  That's "exalt you in due time" in my mind...............or god making me into a celebrity that works to - a christian celebrity of course. 

  And further all you all not "exalted in due time" yet that are all mellow and chill, you might should be wigging out some 1 Peter 5:10 "But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you."

  Stay low???????????????????????? Stay low?????????? What is that??????????????? Logic says, at least want a day for the suns rays to hit you nice and refresh you a touch. If that means you excell at your job, hey maybe that's it??????????????????? Something!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

  Something!!!!!!!!!!!! God exalted us "in due time" SOMEHOW Ya we need to humble ourselves under the mighty hand of god for this to happen. Point I'm trying to make to all the introverts which is most the population is it's perfectly normal, sane and good, to desire to be exalted someday..............I would say to even desire some attention. If you didn't want nobody to pay attention to you, to me that's odd. To me you pry need to go to counseling some, if you don't want nobody to pay attention to you. I'm a complete extrovert though...............I had a friend that was a stripper and man I thought about becoming a stripper once, I sat there and I watched my friend make $3,000+ a month for a huge span of time, I have no qualms about nudity, it's sinful it's not the christian thing to do so I didn't do it. But I have no qualms about it. I am a extrovert

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I have to put a few selfies up for reals, I need attention. If nobody pays attention to me....................if it got bad I might loose my mind and run through the streets naked. I know it's hard for introverts to understand this, and I know that. 

  This ain't a christian song, and I know that but even the self professed highway walking kids they thinkin about being rasied up.........................so how normal is it really to want to stay "down"?.......................

This blog post could drive the body of christ cray, I have no idea???????? This is where my logic is located. The good news is, I will be raised up cause god's word is true, all I gots to do is keep that sabbath day holy all that verse Isaiah 58:13-14 "If thou turn away thy foot from the sabbath, from doing thy pleasure on my holy day; and call the sabbath a delight, the holy of the Lord, honourable; and shalt honour him, not doing thine own ways, nor finding thine own pleasure, nor speaking thine own words: Then shalt thou delight thyself in the Lord; and I will cause thee to ride upon the high places of the earth, and feed thee with the heritage of Jacob thy father: for the mouth of the Lord hath spoken it."

  Have a great week earth!

LOVE

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Video vlog post: Whether I am exalted or abased is it not god that did that to me???????????????.........................

Update 9/15/2023 the under the window area of our garage is looking extra nice now 😁........................

(my parents think I look sad in this video, I'm not sad, what I am at the moment is bit hot, bit tired out - that's all...................full of hope, and love, and hope for this here earth - bowels of mercies to ya lots them - cause I show mercy then people show me mercy so this is good! God wants us to love one another be fruitful have bowels of mercies towards one another.........Colossians 3:12 "Put on therefore, as the elect of God, holy and beloved, bowels of mercies, kindness, humbleness of mind, meekness, longsuffering;")

Things I noted yesterday at church................

I noted at one point one the pastors, Mike was talking about how the humble would be exalted and the proud would be abased this verse Luke 18:14 "I tell you, this man went down to his house justified rather than the other: for every one that exalteth himself shall be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted." The guest pastor appear to be leaning low and starring at me with

that look that said "common fool, you know you've been up to stuffs to wazuu" (as if I had tried on purpose to exalt myself -- which I have in the past, but lot the time I'm not trying to exalt myself at all..............Hebrews 13:16 "But to do good and to communicate forget not: for with such sacrifices God is well pleased.")

the mindset I'm mostly of these days concerning my status whether that be I'm abased or exalted or both at the same time (both at the same time I fully recogn).........................

who am I to exalt myself

or who am I to abase myself

whether exalted or abased is it not god that did that to me? 

Philippians 4:12 "I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need."
   If I abounded fantastically..............it was because god enabled me to. If I were abased, that's because god wants me there to, his will, will be done perfectly in my life nomadder what!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm fully trusting in god either way, nomadder what, not even worried about it really. 
  Way I see it the thing for me to work to do has always been the same and always will be the same......................1 Peter 5:5-6 "Likewise, ye younger, submit yourselves unto the elder. Yea, all of you be subject one to another, and be clothed with humility: for God resisteth the proud, and giveth grace to the humble. Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time:" Long as I humble myself under the mighty hand of god keep doin that, if I am not exalted by god yet ------------- I will be eventually I know this to be the case!
  And the grace of god being with the humble, so surely humility is the thing, which if I'm lowly to wazuu I THANK GOD FOR THAT! 
  I am weak, I am weak like paul is weak who knew how to both abound and "suffer need"
Also noted today, a brother looked at me in some kind of agony the 2nd half of the service - which I like that..................not the agony part the worry the care that brother appeared to have for me.
  A pastor from portland retired, only 1 pastor now at portland, it's weirded me out. Many the churches I went to as a kid, pastors didn't retire, they preached til they died, and then their sons took over, and then their sons took over when they died etc. Also I'm a fan of billy graham, and I clean saw him pretty well near giving a sermon while laying in bed sick, he's clean 95 (I don't know if he's giving sermons no more but I imagine billy graham hasn't fully "retired" cause he's still like alive basically)
  I don't get to retire!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1 Peter 5:8 "Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:" It's rons choice and he made it and I know that and I'm going to have to accept this he's good and "retired"!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  Clean 3 pastors have retired while I've been attending the apostolic christian church of america, at the portland church. I guess billy graham has pry retired pastors do retire, 3 though is just a lot pry, it's a lot and I'm not used to that immense of a pastor turn over in a church.

LOVE