Jesus and Lucifer have BOTH been there for me, and I don't just mean a little bit. --- It's fine humans on earth aren't really there for me most them ain't, THEY ARE TO HOLY TO HAVE TO DO WITH ME. Way to holy they is, when you walk around outside you aren't looking at sinners, no not in america, it's "little house on the prairie" perfect people time over here! (besides I feel drag queens are giving us realness ------------ I feel I'm what 80% drag queen since how I also like to do makeup some which ISN'T WHAT AMERICA'S ABOUT -- america prefers 0% of their women wearing makeup but wear dresses long dresses but have NO FUN, NO MAKEUP OR JEWELRY NO FUN NEVER ONLY MISERY FOLLOWING JESUS so they don't be "jezebels" with the "jezebel spirit" no over here in america the ladies must work full time jobs most em, and change car tires, pour oil in their cars etc.!) And do EVERY WEEK MANY MAN THINGS over here in america..................WHY CAUSE EVERYONE'S SO HOLY OVER HERE AND SINLESS AND AWESOME IN AMERICA.....................

Update 8/6/2026 (this is the most popular post at the moment so update is here) past two days over 1/2 million people have been to my blog which I don't have any great um blog post edifying shiz. My back is in pain at the moment, I'm tired but need to study some. Passed module 1 test got a 93% 😁 And sewed a few pairs of shorts from old t-shirts today (and one them man as a shirt it wasn't great, as shorts AWESOMENESS)........................my latest diamond paining this one I painted gold around the edges.....................

you guys don't have to come to my blog yet though Lucifer isn't at my house yet...................(eventually I recogn the whole planet will go to my blog, to learn how to "do the future" that's how I'm wording that : ) 

Jesus and Lucifer have BOTH been there for me, and I don't just mean a little bit. --- It's fine humans on earth aren't really there for me most them ain't, THEY ARE TO HOLY TO HAVE TO DO WITH ME. Way to holy they is, when you walk around outside you aren't looking at sinners, no not in america, it's "little house on the prairie" perfect people time over here! (besides I feel drag queens are giving us realness ------------ I feel I'm what 80% drag queen since how I also like to do makeup some which ISN'T WHAT AMERICA'S ABOUT -- america prefers 0% of their women wearing makeup but wear dresses long dresses but have NO FUN, NO MAKEUP OR JEWELRY NO FUN NEVER ONLY  MISERY FOLLOWING JESUS so they don't be "jezebels" with the "jezebel spirit" no over here in america the ladies must work full time jobs most em, and change car tires, pour oil in their cars etc.!) And do EVERY WEEK MANY MAN THINGS over here in america..................WHY CAUSE EVERYONE'S SO HOLY OVER HERE AND SINLESS AND AWESOME IN AMERICA.....................

In america

we got me

and the satan worshipping celebrities (cause that's what you all think that the celebrities worship satan - AND SO WHAT IF THEY DO????????????)

are they entertaining you providing some "value" 

some escape from your reality of bills and disease?????????????

honour all men the bible says

but how is it in perfect little house of the prarie america

that mostly fellow christians

like so much to label people as "satan worshippers" 

as "satanic" 

WHICH ISN'T YOU HONOURING THEM!!!!!!!!!!!

NO IT AIN'T LITTLE HOUSE ON THE PRAIRIE

1 Peter 2:17 "Honour all men. Love the brotherhood. Fear God. Honour the king."

what about us sheri your not honouring us the little house on the prairie of america

ya I am

your better then me and I'm telling you your better then me

cause i'm over here

friends with JESUS AND LUCIFER

Luke 14:11

For whosoever exalteth himself shall be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted.

- well go ahead and do it to me then god

go ahead

I'm your "dirty little secret" america..............

oh wait let me just sit here and not speak ever again about loving all the people fellow christians hate ---------- SO THAT I DON'T "HURT" YOU ALL ANYMORE..............

 oh wait let me just sit here and not speak ever again about loving all the people fellow christians hate ---------- SO THAT I DON'T  "HURT" YOU ALL ANYMORE..............

that's so crazy

that I am being so attacked

and if I defend myself

I'm hurting christians in my family AND ACCORDING TO MY SUPER MODEL SISTER ALL PEOPLE EVERYWHERE BY LOVING PEOPLE

that's so crazy to me

update 5/28/2024 answering why I don't put up I'm a "messianic jew" in the "about me" I didn't put I'm a messianic jew cause I don't fully qualifyall I do is attempt to keep the sabbath every week - sometimes celebrate jewish holidays but not all the time, and don't get tattoo'sbut I occasionally will eat pig meat if there is not anything else to eat which has happened before there is a restaurant where their breakfast menu is alllllllllllllllllllllllllllll sausage paddies of various types (A christian is a christian it shouldn't matter)

Matthew 23:12

And whosoever shall exalt himself shall be abased; and he that shall humble himself shall be exalted.

I said I'm the last

of the last of the body of christ

I said loving lucifer is a "of the last of the body of christ" thing to do

I said I am of the last of the body of christ

how's it ok for you all to feel 

"hurt" 

for me LOVING MY ENEMY THE DEVIL

AND ATTACK ME LIKE THIS????????????????

I'M NOT OK WITH CHRSITIANS

HATING WITCHES AND SATAN WORSHIPPERS ETC. 

I'M NOT OK WITH THAT

WHY SHOULD I HAVE TO BE OK WITH YOUR HATE SO THAT I DON'T "HURT" YOU?????????????????????????

MAKE IT MAKE SENSE

SHAWTY GOT LOW LOW LOW LOW LOW - I'M SHAWTY............

I don't want to hate satan worshippers, satan, witches, LGBTQ etc. so that I can be "high up" on the earth like the majority of the rest of christians. 

low 

low

low

lowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

and further if I did go off all the time talking about my love for lucifer
if I did that
so what?
and how is that "hurting you"?????????
how is my loving someone hurting you?????????
MAKE IT MAKE SENSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
If I go offfffffffffffff offffffffffffffffffffffffffff
about my love for witches and satan worshippers and the LGBTQ
HOW IS THAT HURTING YOU?
GREAT
GREAT THAT I LOVE SINNERS LIKE JESUS DOES!
GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ANY OF MY LOVING
ANYBODY
ON THIS EARTH OR OFF THIS EARTH
SHOULDN'T "HURT" YOU
LESS MY SUPER MODEL SISTER MEANS
she is about to be a marder for Jesus
and my loving lucifer is making her death more imminent for the lord and so I'm "hurting" her.................I DON'T UNDERSTAND HER "HURT" AT ALL
HOW HOW DOES ANYBODY LOVING ANYBODY CAUSE PEOPLE HURT??????????????????????????
IF A LESBIAN LOVES ANOTHER LADY...............
HOW ARE YOUR HURT? EXPLAIN THIS TO ME?????????? I DON'T UNDERSTAND, IT'S THEIR LIVES
THEY ARE LOVING SOMEONE
YOU CAN DISAGREE WITH THAT
BUT YOU SHOULDN'T BE "HURT" BY THAT
HURT
HURT HOW????????????????
I want to live
I don't want to be killed for the lord
I rather serve the lord alive on this earth!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know how to do that...................LOVE.

  1 Peter 4:8 "And above all things have fervent charity among yourselves: for charity shall cover the multitude of sins.

I learned

I learned it's better to love people and lucifer

FORGIVE

FORGIVE

update 5/28/2024 tried to get my family today to further clarify how they are bleeding from all their orphices in agony on the floor over my supposedly "contradicting beliefs" that are "hurting them" 

but for me

maybe me only 

loving lucifer and jesus both ain't contradicting

lucifer is my enemy bible says to love your enemies

ASKED MY FAMILY 5/28/2024 TO TRY AND UNDERSTAND THEM LAYING ON THE FLOOR BLEEDING IN AGONY RIGHT NOW...................

 and this idea that my beliefs are hurting everyonethat you all are "hurt" so desperatelyfoaming at the mouth hurting so badthat is so a mystery to me??????????????????????can you further explain how my beliefs are destroying you lives????????????????????????????????????so that I can attampt to understand how you are bashed on the ground right now bleeding from all of your orphices in dieing agony over my beliefs?????????????

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I agree with paul whether I'm abased or abound I give thanks to the lord...........I am glad!!!!!!!!.................

Upadte 3/25/2024 I'm still collecting silverware, and likely about to do more silverware art 😁👍

(the latest in my colored pencil/pencil fork series of art : )

I agree with paul whether I'm abased or abound I give thanks to the lord...........I am glad!!!!!!!!.................
Philippians 4:11-13 "Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content. I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me."

  Also on my thoughts is this group of verses lately Ephesians 5:19-21 "Speaking to yourselves in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing and making melody in your heart to the Lord; Giving thanks always for all things unto God and the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ; Submitting yourselves one to another in the fear of God."

   I been told by the pastor of the church that I'm going to (in a sermon he preached) that apostles don't exist per the bible no more....................so I may not even exist no more basically in like people's mind if I ever did exist?????????? (I feel invisible often!!!!!!!!!!!!) this blog helps me not feel invisible, I need this blog, it's horrible to feel invisible. 

    It's the people who very little are given (aka titles, rank, etc.) that not much are expected from. 

  If you give me the rank of 0 earth..........then you expect 0 from me, and as thus your about to be real pleased!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Luke 12:48 "But he that knew not, and did commit things worthy of stripes, shall be beaten with few stripes. For unto whomsoever much is given, of him shall be much required: and to whom men have committed much, of him they will ask the more."

  All you big time christians out there that are above us earth scriges with all your big timedness a lot is expected of you!!!!!!!!! (even in god's mind I'm saying a lot is expected of you, but not only god's mind, other people's minds as well) I think we should judge one another much less though, and have much more mercy with one another.....................cause we are in a great war against the lusts of our flesh. It is not easy this battle. 

  I'm also immensely praising god and thankful that I'm not that popular!!!!!!!!!! (somedays I hate it, I sit there and compare and compare myself to others on instagram and you tubes etc................THANK GOD I'M NOT POPULAR!!!!!!!!!!)

Matthew 5:11 "Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake." HAPPY DANCE TIME FOR REALS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  I'm so hated that aunt connie, and the elder and his wife of the apostolic christian church of america like never reply to my e-mails, man they must loathe me at least a little ------------ I at the very least have much hope that they loathe me!!!!

LOATHE ME PLEASE YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 Happy joy dance time for reals (I pray for them all the time, or pretty often that they give their lives to jesus if they haven't yet). 

  But being liked, like a lot, is like a horrible thing to happen to a person it's terrible I'm sure of it!

 Of course though I'm like paul, if I were to "abound" again, doesn't look like it, looks like I'm batting a solid earth scirge 1 billion right now : ) hahahahahahahha yes!!!!!!!!!!!!! But if I were to "abound" again..............I'd give praise to god, yep, I'd be content!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cause everything is for a reason when you living for jesus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 Adding a picture of my alligator in the bird feeder in my front yard that I got at the dollar store.................when your a earth scirge (or a big time character you can do stuffs like this...................................yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa)

ps my birdfeeder front yard alligator is a lion alligator - for jesus!

It's so much better to give thanks for everything, that is the greatest thing besides salvation jesus gave me. So many people in this world are so unhappy (ya, some them going through bad stuffs and surely when you going through a time you don't have to be like sunshine and happy mr. rogers neighborhood theme singing). 

  Even when I'm down I'm up following jesus!

  Paul he said he has suffered the loss of all things to win christ...............................your own status in the world it is something to suffer the loss of..............and keep like not getting that : ) 

Philippians 3:8 "Yea doubtless, and I count all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord: for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and do count them but dung, that I may win Christ,"

 I've learned to like not shoot to win with the world..........if or when I get some kind of win, lord willing that's great, but shoot to win jesus the real prize!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE REAL PRIZE ISN'T THIS WORLD!

Have a great week earth!

LOVE

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Video vlog post: Whether I am exalted or abased is it not god that did that to me???????????????.........................

Update 9/15/2023 the under the window area of our garage is looking extra nice now 😁........................

(my parents think I look sad in this video, I'm not sad, what I am at the moment is bit hot, bit tired out - that's all...................full of hope, and love, and hope for this here earth - bowels of mercies to ya lots them - cause I show mercy then people show me mercy so this is good! God wants us to love one another be fruitful have bowels of mercies towards one another.........Colossians 3:12 "Put on therefore, as the elect of God, holy and beloved, bowels of mercies, kindness, humbleness of mind, meekness, longsuffering;")

Things I noted yesterday at church................

I noted at one point one the pastors, Mike was talking about how the humble would be exalted and the proud would be abased this verse Luke 18:14 "I tell you, this man went down to his house justified rather than the other: for every one that exalteth himself shall be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted." The guest pastor appear to be leaning low and starring at me with

that look that said "common fool, you know you've been up to stuffs to wazuu" (as if I had tried on purpose to exalt myself -- which I have in the past, but lot the time I'm not trying to exalt myself at all..............Hebrews 13:16 "But to do good and to communicate forget not: for with such sacrifices God is well pleased.")

the mindset I'm mostly of these days concerning my status whether that be I'm abased or exalted or both at the same time (both at the same time I fully recogn).........................

who am I to exalt myself

or who am I to abase myself

whether exalted or abased is it not god that did that to me? 

Philippians 4:12 "I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need."
   If I abounded fantastically..............it was because god enabled me to. If I were abased, that's because god wants me there to, his will, will be done perfectly in my life nomadder what!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm fully trusting in god either way, nomadder what, not even worried about it really. 
  Way I see it the thing for me to work to do has always been the same and always will be the same......................1 Peter 5:5-6 "Likewise, ye younger, submit yourselves unto the elder. Yea, all of you be subject one to another, and be clothed with humility: for God resisteth the proud, and giveth grace to the humble. Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time:" Long as I humble myself under the mighty hand of god keep doin that, if I am not exalted by god yet ------------- I will be eventually I know this to be the case!
  And the grace of god being with the humble, so surely humility is the thing, which if I'm lowly to wazuu I THANK GOD FOR THAT! 
  I am weak, I am weak like paul is weak who knew how to both abound and "suffer need"
Also noted today, a brother looked at me in some kind of agony the 2nd half of the service - which I like that..................not the agony part the worry the care that brother appeared to have for me.
  A pastor from portland retired, only 1 pastor now at portland, it's weirded me out. Many the churches I went to as a kid, pastors didn't retire, they preached til they died, and then their sons took over, and then their sons took over when they died etc. Also I'm a fan of billy graham, and I clean saw him pretty well near giving a sermon while laying in bed sick, he's clean 95 (I don't know if he's giving sermons no more but I imagine billy graham hasn't fully "retired" cause he's still like alive basically)
  I don't get to retire!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1 Peter 5:8 "Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:" It's rons choice and he made it and I know that and I'm going to have to accept this he's good and "retired"!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  Clean 3 pastors have retired while I've been attending the apostolic christian church of america, at the portland church. I guess billy graham has pry retired pastors do retire, 3 though is just a lot pry, it's a lot and I'm not used to that immense of a pastor turn over in a church.

LOVE

Whether god has diminished me lately or man I do not know which - but it's actually ok pry better for me................

Update video 8/18/2022 looking like Rebel Wilson................................ignore super "do gooder" me from 2013. Because look the race isn't to the swift ok.............

Ecclesiastes 9:11 "I returned, and saw under the sun, that the race is not to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, neither yet bread to the wise, nor yet riches to men of understanding, nor yet favour to men of skill; but time and chance happeneth to them all."

  I mean the race is often to those who read their bibles - basically. John 8:31 "Then said Jesus to those Jews which believed on him, If ye continue in my word, then are ye my disciples indeed;"

Whether god has diminished me lately or man I do not know which - but it's actually ok pry better for me................Lately I feel like --------------------1 billion tall like minus.

I got finally a long prayer scarf though I giving liz the 10 dollars next like pry wednesday night cause brian at that point had put all his cash in the offering box already. (I just went up to liz's husband and told him I bring the 10 dollars next sunday or whatever!!!!!!!!!) 

  I was told the short one was not such the idea.................that it'd be like koby briant showing up in a marker t-shirt. I don't feel like koby briant though lately at all...........feel really really really dinky lately. It's idiotic but I think sometimes even though I know god gives me what to say on like every single blog post........................I like sometimes idiotically buy "my own hype" I buy into it a bit, tell myself I'm something big and convince myself of that sometimes.......................

I am like of the dinkiest on earth for reals 

I am convinced!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Me a the foodbank this thursday volunteering : ) 

I think I have lost weight (haven't stepped on the scale for weeks though) and finally a hair net almost looks good on me ------------------ almost. 

  And I think god knows what's bestest for all us and he always has our best in mind.............if He knew I could abound and that that would be just fine for me...........I think that is maybe what god would do with me "abound me" --------- I suspect sometimes god knows I need sometimes to be humbled...........to be abased, so He allows for that to happen when that is need to. (my going theory)

Philippians 4:11-13

King James Version (KJV)

11 Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.

12 I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.

13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

AMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hoping everyone's week is going good!

LOVE

Proverbs 19:17 "He that hath pity upon the poor lendeth unto the Lord; and that which he hath given will he pay him again.".................