Are you like me - invisible (I mean the person everyone passes by in the crowd) GREAT PERFECT THEN -------- Psalm 138:6 "Though the Lord be high, yet hath he respect unto the lowly: but the proud he knoweth afar off." This off topic but though the bible says "time and chance happeneth to all" and it does.....................I SHOOTED MY SHOT ON THIS BLOG AND THE BIBLE SAYS LITERALLY SAYS MY SHOT HITTED THE BASKET - DREAMS COME TRUE PEOPLE Ecclesiastes 1:9 "The thing that hath been, it is that which shall be; and that which is done is that which shall be done: and there is no new thing under the sun.".................

   Are you like me - invisible (I mean the person everyone passes by in the crowd) GREAT PERFECT THEN -------- Psalm 138:6 "Though the Lord be high, yet hath he respect unto the lowly: but the proud he knoweth afar off." This off topic but though the bible says "time and chance happeneth to all" and it does.....................I SHOOTED MY SHOT ON THIS BLOG AND THE BIBLE SAYS LITERALLY SAYS MY SHOT HITTED THE BASKET - DREAMS COME TRUE PEOPLE Ecclesiastes 1:9 "The thing that hath been, it is that which shall be; and that which is done is that which shall be done: and there is no new thing under the sun.".................

  This world is sooooooooooooo obsessed with success but how was the lord Jesus christ..............Matthew 11:29 "Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls." Even when Jesus FOUND SUCCESS..................he was "meek and lowly in heart" probably why he picked a donkey to ride on...................if he would've picked a fancy animal, maybe a camel people would've been like PROUD PROUD. (times haven't changed, people love to judge each other and hate each other)  

  From my personal experience, whole groups of people have some them REPEATEDLY attacked me..........ganged up on me TOGETHER.........CAUSE I'M LOWLY I'M A EASY TARGET FOR THEM.............

 Job 5:10-12 "Who giveth rain upon the earth, and sendeth waters upon the fields: To set up on high those that be low; that those which mourn may be exalted to safety. He disappointeth the devices of the crafty, so that their hands cannot perform their enterprise."

GOD WILL MOVE ME TO SAFETY!!!!!!!!

AND PROBABLY SOON!!!!!!!!!!!

Being low or brought low, brought very low AIN'T BAD GOD DELIVER'S................."purge away our sins for thy names sake" GOD CAN DO THAT......HE CAN LIFT ME AND YOU UP IF YOU LOW TO..................

Psalm 79

79 O god, the heathen are come into thine inheritance; thy holy temple have they defiled; they have laid Jerusalem on heaps.

2 The dead bodies of thy servants have they given to be meat unto the fowls of the heaven, the flesh of thy saints unto the beasts of the earth.

3 Their blood have they shed like water round about Jerusalem; and there was none to bury them.

4 We are become a reproach to our neighbours, a scorn and derision to them that are round about us.

5 How long, Lord? wilt thou be angry for ever? shall thy jealousy burn like fire?

6 Pour out thy wrath upon the heathen that have not known thee, and upon the kingdoms that have not called upon thy name.

7 For they have devoured Jacob, and laid waste his dwelling place.

8 O remember not against us former iniquities: let thy tender mercies speedily prevent us: for we are brought very low.

9 Help us, O God of our salvation, for the glory of thy name: and deliver us, and purge away our sins, for thy name's sake.

10 Wherefore should the heathen say, Where is their God? let him be known among the heathen in our sight by the revenging of the blood of thy servants which is shed.

11 Let the sighing of the prisoner come before thee; according to the greatness of thy power preserve thou those that are appointed to die;

12 And render unto our neighbours sevenfold into their bosom their reproach, wherewith they have reproached thee, O Lord.

13 So we thy people and sheep of thy pasture will give thee thanks for ever: we will shew forth thy praise to all generations.
   I do not envy my attackers that are high up above me at least in their brains cause theoretically I live better then all of my attackers or at least equal to them. They might have more social status then me - safe to say they do. God will lift me up it's going to happen. 

I have a hard time praising god on sunday right now

but someday when god raises me up

I'LL BE WANTING TO PRAISE GOD I'LL BE EAGER TO PRAISE GOD

Someday I'll sing louder then everyone!

I am not gonna sweat the people that wish harm to me

same people

they change what they say

they hide everything

to look sinless to the world

they want their attacks on me to be in private messages in e-mails that nobody can see

they want to look sinless

better then us all

but they ain't

they ain't better then us all

they ain't perfect

but they refuse to admit that - that would hurt their impeccable pride

us goths once we were jokes

maybe we still are to some people out there

we wear ridiculous makeup 

ridiculous clothing

yesterday at the mall......................................everyone was looking at me due to what all I was wearing I WAS JUST BEING MYSELF MAN

YA GOTH'D OUT GALORE

1 Corinthians 1:27

But God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty;

I'm not saying at all that normies can't be foolish - they can. I think some of us goth's all this black makeup black clothing it's for some of us our way of coping. 

   For me days everyone hates me

I dress all black

go to a cemetary - my fave cemetary hopefully (there is a cemetary I love bad 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓) I feel better. 

  and if you feel good about yourself

though imperfect - imperfect cause I don't just have only but 5 outfits like the members of the apostolic christian church of america have (I am literally serious, I used to hear them say they went shopping and bought 1 outfit or 5 outfits -------------- they always kept wearing the same stuff again and again and again................they didn't have much by the way of apparel or worldly goods

THE APOSTOLIC CHRISTIAN CHURCH OF AMERICA ARE PERFECT AND WITHOUT SIN

I'M A FOOL

I'm a foooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool

but back to what I was saying.....................

I can like go to a cemetary dressed all in black

and feel great

via GIPHY

  "sheri what the heck are you wearing to malls lately" hahahahahhahaahhahaha

My neice that disowned me forever, tried to spiritually bully me, she told me I have to stop loving lucifer, else I am breaking apart my family from like myself..........I am not stopping my family from having family get togethers, they haven't had a family get together for over a year..............GO AHEAD HAVE A FAMILY GET TOGETHER WITHOUT ME............I will refuse to stop loving lucifer I REFUSE.................I can love LGBTQ I do, lucifer, etc. etc. etc. etc.

 My neice that disowned me forever, tried to spiritually bully me, she told me I have to stop loving lucifer, else I am breaking apart my family from like myself..........I am not stopping my family from having family get togethers, they haven't had a family get together for over a year..............GO AHEAD HAVE A FAMILY GET TOGETHER WITHOUT ME............I will refuse to stop loving lucifer I REFUSE.................I can love LGBTQ I do, lucifer, etc. etc. etc. etc. 

God uses seers to this day I believe...........hate me - and hate what I'm telling you...........

go ahead I'm used to it

2 Kings 17:13 "Yet the Lord testified against Israel, and against Judah, by all the prophets, and by all the seers, saying, Turn ye from your evil ways, and keep my commandments and my statutes, according to all the law which I commanded your fathers, and which I sent to you by my servants the prophets."

   BOTH can tell you that things are going to be great WHEN THEY AREN'T.........of concern to me in the body of christ is the "transfer of wealth" from the wicked to the saints. There are people in the body of christ that think they are about to become stinking rich any minute now............like tons and tons and tons and tons of people in the body of christ probably most people reading this, have heard these sermons AND BELIEVED THEM. 

Proverbs 13:21-25 "Evil pursueth sinners: but to the righteous good shall be repayed. A good man leaveth an inheritance to his children's children: and the wealth of the sinner is laid up for the just. Much food is in the tillage of the poor: but there is that is destroyed for want of judgment. He that spareth his rod hateth his son: but he that loveth him chasteneth him betimes. The righteous eateth to the satisfying of his soul: but the belly of the wicked shall want."

  What does proverbs 13:21-25 really tell us............our souls if we are righteous shall be filled. 

  But the wicked their belly "shall want" 

   The good us "righteous" do "shall be repayed" maybe not on this earth...............I ain't sure about on this earth?????????

I'm calling bs on this "transfer of wealth" sermons that pastors have hyped most of the body of christ over with. 

what I believe will happen soon to most of the body of christ

which is very different then the massive "transfer of wealth" sermons pastors like to preach.............

Mark 13:9-26 "But take heed to yourselves: for they shall deliver you up to councils; and in the synagogues ye shall be beaten: and ye shall be brought before rulers and kings for my sake, for a testimony against them. And the gospel must first be published among all nations. But when they shall lead you, and deliver you up, take no thought beforehand what ye shall speak, neither do ye premeditate: but whatsoever shall be given you in that hour, that speak ye: for it is not ye that speak, but the Holy Ghost. Now the brother shall betray the brother to death, and the father the son; and children shall rise up against their parents, and shall cause them to be put to death. And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake: but he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved. But when ye shall see the abomination of desolation, spoken of by Daniel the prophet, standing where it ought not, (let him that readeth understand,) then let them that be in Judaea flee to the mountains: And let him that is on the housetop not go down into the house, neither enter therein, to take any thing out of his house: And let him that is in the field not turn back again for to take up his garment. But woe to them that are with child, and to them that give suck in those days!  And pray ye that your flight be not in the winter. For in those days shall be affliction, such as was not from the beginning of the creation which God created unto this time, neither shall be. And except that the Lord had shortened those days, no flesh should be saved: but for the elect's sake, whom he hath chosen, he hath shortened the days. And then if any man shall say to you, Lo, here is Christ; or, lo, he is there; believe him not: For false Christs and false prophets shall rise, and shall shew signs and wonders, to seduce, if it were possible, even the elect. But take ye heed: behold, I have foretold you all things. But in those days, after that tribulation, the sun shall be darkened, and the moon shall not give her light, And the stars of heaven shall fall, and the powers that are in heaven shall be shaken. And then shall they see the Son of man coming in the clouds with great power and glory."

   I do not wish to upsurp any pastors, at all, preach away men. But if they be's getting you mega hyped to live the lifestyles of the rich and famous ----------- when in reality tribulation is coming for most of the church............they are doing you all a dis-service.

  You need to be prepared, to be hated. To be hated by all men. I'm telling you the truth. 

I will gain popularity

and probably insane wealth.......will need to entertain a ton of people in my future, so having wealth will be needed for that reason and to do a lot of good upon the earth

um

I'm written about in the bible soooooo

thank god someday

I won't be bullied anymore

people won't try and spiritually bully me anymore

I'll be finally understood and celebrated even

the box people tried to put me in "for the lord" was not only killing me

it wasn't even what god had in the plans for me

I'm still being bullied

people trying to force me to be like them

to hate the people they hate

I don't want to live a life of hate 

to supposedly make jesus happy

I want to love people

Video blog post: You are not going to win bullies. Matthew 5:5 "Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth."..............................(update sheri 3/9/2026 THEY WON)...............................

ps............dont try calling me proud i talk to satan 24/7 I KNOW I'M OF THE LAST

BUT THAT'S OK

I LOVE LUCIFER AND I ENJOY TALKING TO HIM

many a day I've ponder in conservation with lucifer how the apostolic christian church of america and all these "sinless kirk camerons" all around me how they keep on being blessed????????

Luke 18:9-14 "And he spake this parable unto certain which trusted in themselves that they were righteous, and despised others:

I AM SEVERELLY DESPISED ON THIS EARTH AND FEW TIMES PEOPLE HAVE ATTACKED ME SO HARD THAT I WAS CONSIDERING SUICIDE WELL THAT'S WHAT THEY WANT ME TO DO KILL MYSELF CAUSE THEY DESPISE ME SO MUCH MOST PEOPLE DO I DO BELIEVE FOR THEIR LORD JESUS CHRIST

THEY GET BLESSED

they seem to be just thumbs up by god

and blessed and blessed and blessed

well lucifer should go "try them" they shouldn't be on the "easy street" most of them very much look to be on

it shouldn't be a "easy" or "light" thing to either either despise me merely in quite in your heart or ATTACK ME ON THE INTERNET AND TRY AND GET ME TO KILL MYSELF AGAIN

another flower pic I took this weekend plotting to paint some flowers 😁

Update 5/17/2026 since how this post is popular right now. Me trying to talk lucifer into doing his job more because I love the apostolic christian church of america so bad and they are so proud I do believe THEY HATE ME THEY REFUSE TO ANYTHING BUT ATTACK ME ON THE INTERNET IT DO LOOK TO BE WELL THAT'S PRIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They need lucifer to do all the "job" on these sinless flawless christians they need lucifer to kill all their children, and crops, and farm animals and kill them to so that they can finally be humble like they supposed to be as christians AND I DO CARE AND LOVE THEM.................

LOVE NOT JUST IN WORD BUT IN "deed and truth"....................1 John 3:18

My little children, let us not love in word, neither in tongue; but in deed and in truth...............

ps I ain't no job, naw elder was right about me I'm "the worst ever" I love makeup, and jewelry, and I know I'm a sinner!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm ripped on fire to be a publican for jesus RIPPED ON FUIRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRE FOR GOOD TIL JESUS MAKES ME SINLESS BASICALLY

Luke 18:9-14 "And he spake this parable unto certain which trusted in themselves that they were righteous, and despised others: Two men went up into the temple to pray; the one a Pharisee, and the other a publican. The Pharisee stood and prayed thus with himself, God, I thank thee, that I am not as other men are, extortioners, unjust, adulterers, or even as this publican. I fast twice in the week, I give tithes of all that I possess. And the publican, standing afar off, would not lift up so much as his eyes unto heaven, but smote upon his breast, saying, God be merciful to me a sinner. I tell you, this man went down to his house justified rather than the other: for every one that exalteth himself shall be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted."

 (update sheri 3/9/2026 THEY WON)...............................I am thouroughly exhausted but got to snuggle this little guy finally this morning. (all the blankets etc. in front of futon in this picture is so ian's dog can get on and off the futon by himself). Apparently max kept brian up til 3 a.m. last night - little guy likes to party 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓.............................

You are not going to win bullies. Matthew 5:5 "Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth."..............................

Psalm 37:11 "But the meek shall inherit the earth; and shall delight themselves in the abundance of peace."
Matthew 5:9 "Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God." Peacemaking is the opposite of domineering "bully tactics" so I include this verse. 2 Timothy 3:2-4 "For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy, Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good, Traitors, heady, highminded, lovers of pleasures more than lovers of God;" 2 Timothy 3:2-4 is totally not describing those currently "winning" in life.

  I including this whole section of Romans. Romans 10:9-13 "That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. For the scripture saith, Whosoever believeth on him shall not be ashamed. For there is no difference between the Jew and the Greek: for the same Lord over all is rich unto all that call upon him. For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved."

"Kathy Lee" the neighborhood bully that showed me how to love even my "enemies" --- 1 John 4:8 "He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love."..........

  Made my 1st necklace using the clasps I recently bought on amazon 😁 this is great................

 "Kathy Lee" the neighborhood bully that showed me how to love even my "enemies" --- 1 John 4:8 "He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love." Not to say that I am necessarily very good at loving my enemies. But what qualifies as good at that, could it just simply be a few nice letters???? Cause if what qualifies is a few nice letters...........I think I have the knack!
  But back to this idea........................love them!! 1 John 4:8 "He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love."
  I been thinking about Kathy Lee more lately. She really turned a part of my life around. Effected me a slew. I watched her punch out as I recall a few kids teeth, one kid she really was punching out the teeth out of him and I remember being so upset with her and yelling at the top of my lungs that she needs to stop else I was about to kick her butt...........................many explicatives as I recall I used in describing all the ways in which I was about to kick her butt and drag it through the neighborhood etc. (it's not a good thing, but she had much reason to give me the "neighborhood/school kingpin/bully crown" which she did)
  Well I got close to Kathy Lee, I don't even remember how it happened.............I really don't know?????? We were able to "drop it" as they say. Such a miracle that was.
  And then I heard about how ruff her life was (not that I'm saying punching several kids teeth out is a good thing at all...........but that whole time there was a backstory).

People out there are hurting a suffering all over the place in this world life isn't easy!!!!!!!!!

 People often view me as the girl, chick, lady that "has it all" and man I get annoyed by that.......but I facts do have it better then a lot of people. My husband cooks all the meals ----------- which might not be "real life" for most women...................I pry ain't living real life really. But I do have struggles, today for instance I have a horrible migraine headache and I've had it the whole day. 

  But back to my story...............her dad divorced, her mom was basically out of the picture, she had a older brother that she hardly ever saw, and her dad owned the bar down the street and so he was pretty much never home and I can actually vouch for that (he did not come home til 8-9-10 p.m. every night. Many nights Kathy Lee told me, she went to the bar........................not a high end great bar to be at, I heard many horrible things about that bar. 

  She became a black belt in karate the horror her actual reason for it was to feel safe being alone at her house at night and AT THE BAR. Allllllllllllll that neigbhorhood bully stuffs gave her "control" over some facet of her life, and a means to feel powerful. It gave her a lot, a lot that was completely missing in her life. 

   People hardly ever just "do bad things" for literally no reason.............not that I'm excusing horrible sins, crimes etc. Most people don't have the perfect "leave it to beaver" life! 

nomadder the perfect perfect image most people on this earth like to portray of themselves

Romans 3:23 "For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;" Leave it to Beaver tv show is mythos We all are pry either goth's or christian goth's.........basically "The Monster's" or the "Adam's Family" -------------- or both 👄 (The "Stepford Wives" movie scares me, except Bette Middler in the movie that don't scare me..........................society has that "Stepford wives" glossed look to it ---------------  that Stepford Wife perfection idea is MYTHOS) You are all goths, whether christian or not, most of you all stink at being goth I really believe that. 

   

Luke 6:26-28 

26 Woe unto you, when all men shall speak well of you! for so did their fathers to the false prophets.

27 But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you,

28 Bless them that curse you, and pray for them which despitefully use you.

 ..................praying

This 21 pilots song, sheesh is a reason to post up a blog post in of itself. I chose cause the lyric that says "You don't know the half of the abused". We often don't know the "story" of the """"crazy""""" supposedly person on the bus sitting next to us................but trust me, that story exists!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I recommend loving them, I recommend loving people!

Wishing you all a nice day!

LOVE

ps..............my life mirrored kathy lee's in many ways. My mom was sick with cancer most of my entire childhood so me and my brother and sister did most the chores as kids................my mom wasn't around much she was in bed sick. And my dad didn't come home often til pretty late in the evening (often he worked overtime). And even, even, my dad owned a bar, but he owned a bar when I was 3 1/2-4 years old, and I did spend time in the bar, hanging out with the people of the bar, they taught me how to play pool I got really good at it. I disco'd and loved shoving quarters in the jukebox to play bee gee's music, and I drank all the free cola's I wanted 👍 But you know there is the "element" of my life actually was a bit like kathy lee's. I think that's why I never forgot her, why I think on her from time to time. 

  She definately went from "horrible person that did horrible things" in my mind

to 

not well off person that deserved mercy, forgiveness, and love. 

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