It's a Heart thing.........................

Update 12/1/2025 I did think I was a apostle for a long time I don't anymore. (at one church many women talked among themselves, decided I was a apostle, told me I am a apostle and then laid hands on me and prayed for me)

women are just 2nd class trash all of us according to the bible!!!!!! the holy word of god that hasn't been corrupted at all according to billions of men all over the earth..................(it has to be billions considering how large christianity is at the moment)....................

and I look stupid talking about talking to pastors on my blog

but brian told me not to talk to him e-mail my families churches pastors so that's what I did for a long time

not anymore I left my families church

Genesis 3:6-7 "When the woman saw that the fruit of the tree was good for food and pleasing to the eye, and also desirable for gaining wisdom, she took some and ate it. She also gave some to her husband, who was with her, and he ate it".

  1 Peter 3:7 "Likewise, ye husbands, dwell with them according to knowledge, giving honour unto the wife, as unto the weaker vessel, and as being heirs together of the grace of life; that your prayers be not hindered."

1 Timothy 2:15 "Notwithstanding she shall be saved in childbearing, if they continue in faith and charity and holiness with sobriety."

(my elephant ear betta fish Mr. Fitz now has 3 maribo balls in his tank, and almost right away I noticed a difference with Mr. Fitz.......now he's happy swimming around all day 😁)

John 13:14 "If I then, your Lord and Master, have washed your feet; ye also ought to wash one another's feet." - There's many things we can do to "wash one another's feet" Playing chinese singing bowls in this stressful time we are living in is one way I do believe. Some you all maybe that's singing???????? Or art????????????? I big time recommend doing those things for the body of christ. Cause that is what Jesus wants us to do "wash one another's feet".

 Sheri 2021 - I was making the most of a bad situation the women most of them of the apostolic christian church did not want to be friends with me. I seriously was desperate to leave this church, so desperate that, that was my motivation for trying to become a member (knowing I wouldn't be allowed to become a member because I refused to heed their "commandments of men" - and I was right ------- my plan worked, it got my family fleeing that church so we could go finally somewhere where I might could be liked - maybe or not YIKES), that and I was tired of being left out of the "church meetings" -------- went to that church 5 or so years or more I loose track and then to be told I have to go home, can't hear whats going on in the church -  that was really frustrating to me. 

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Letter I just wrote 5 seconds ago to mike and john 2 pastors of the apostolic christian church of america that I am friends with...............at the end when I say "it's a heart thing" I believe that it's a heart thing............................
John 4:24 "God is a Spirit: and they that worship him must worship him in spirit and in truth." My other pastor friend one from the big uh prayer site, asked me today to tell him about one thing I'm thankful for some big miracle that happened to me in the past --------- few I could choose from have ta ponder that some. (actually really really becoming friends with this pastor - yep friends with pastors I've gone to the kooky lands for sure : ) hahahahahahahhaahahahahahahah
But anyways John 4:24 is the verse that hit me today --------- no halfheartedness, no this lukewarm stuffs, no one foot in the world, NO! God is a spirit; and they that worship him MUST worship him in spirit (aka cause they's walking in the spirit they ain't walking in the flesh none) and in truth (really really really making that daily effort to deny yourself and take up your cross and follow jesus EVEN if your daily effort is COMPLETELY PATHETIC as is my daily effort DO THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Told god how I'm annoyed sometimes - I get it - I get that the rest of the body of christ knows a bit more then me so they all got their acts more together then me - I get that!!!!!!!!!!! I got the apostle memo on the notepad there!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1 Corinthians 4:10 "We are fools for Christ's sake, but ye are wise in Christ; we are weak, but ye are strong; ye are honourable, but we are despised." MEMO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But I get frustrated I tell god, cause I think christians really think themselves to be way above me - well ok if you is you still should like esteem me higher it just makes sense to esteem you dink weakling higher then yourself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Does a fool not speak some sense here????????????????????
 I'll leave you 2 of my 3 pastor friends to ponder that, have a great day : ) paul #2 I can't change that none this weakling just gots to do my best everyday my sad effort cause god he ain't looking for halfheartedness, he ain't looking for no lukewarmness NO he is a spirit "........ and they that worship him must worship him in spirit and in truth." I tell god the body of christ should all look upon me as if I were a king for reals, that I ain't trying to be a butt or nothing, that I am that weak ------------------------- if I get any clue any idea that any christians think they's so much better then me (man I get annoyed with that) I need to stay focused n'stuff, I am 100% epic like that oh don't worry bout that none, I know mike heard the last coin drop in the pond : ) it's bad, but I stand by my whole do my best sad effort everyday idea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  Sheri -------- the annoyed meter is a little high right now - I tell god I'm like god peter think that was the apostle he was right you ain't no repector of persons and it's true I'm the weakling of the body of christ but if I'm humble, if I'm repentful, making a daily effort - it's my heart you look at...................it no matter how weak I am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It matters how I choose to live today and tommorow and the next day --------------------- do I go off and walk in the flesh and sin, or do I make my sad effort to follow jesus everyday ---------------- it's a heart thing,
Sheri

Luke 6:27 "But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you,"............................

I think I've in the past mistaken what a friend really is.................sheri 2025 in her permanent villian era "if you have to get out binoculars to figure out if someone is your friend or not - go find another friend - them ones ain't trying hard enough".....................AT CHURCH MAKING FRIENDS IS DOOMED ACTIVITY, ALSO ANY CHRISTIANS ANYWHERE MAKING FRIENDS WITH THEM IS A DOOMED ACTIVITY EVERYONE NEARLY IN USA CLAIMS TO BE CHRISTIANS DOOMED TO BE FRIENDLESS COUNTRY IF YOU CHRISTIAN IN USA...........look the bible says your doomed to be friendless, actually you'll be attacked in usa a lot.............Proverbs 17:17 "A friend loveth at all times, and a brother is born for adversity." Let me get out my villian crystal ball..............(I don't have one just havin fun) ooooh yes the great "falling away" is about to happen in usa baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad............................hahahahhahahhahahahahahha PEOPLE ARE GOING TO WANT FRIENDS EVENTUALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!........................AND TO NOT BE ATTACKED AND HATED ANYMORE........................

This is what one of the tastiest (non-alcoholic) drinks in usa looks like. And it's done only like $3.50!!!!!!!!!!!! The place has clean a drive through!!!!!!!!!!!........................

I think I've in the past mistaken what a friend really is.................sheri 2025 in her permanent villian era "if you have to get out binoculars to figure out if someone is your friend or not - go find another friend - them ones ain't trying hard enough".....................AT CHURCH MAKING FRIENDS IS DOOMED ACTIVITY, ALSO ANY CHRISTIANS ANYWHERE MAKING FRIENDS WITH THEM IS A DOOMED ACTIVITY EVERYONE NEARLY IN USA CLAIMS TO BE CHRISTIANS DOOMED TO BE FRIENDLESS COUNTRY IF YOU CHRISTIAN IN USA...........look the bible says your doomed to be friendless, actually you'll be attacked in usa a lot.............Proverbs 17:17 "A friend loveth at all times, and a brother is born for adversity." Let me get out my villian crystal ball..............(I don't have one just havin fun) ooooh yes the great "falling away" is about to happen in usa baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad............................hahahahhahahhahahahahahha PEOPLE ARE GOING TO WANT FRIENDS EVENTUALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!........................AND TO NOT BE ATTACKED AND HATED ANYMORE........................

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It's no wonder a "brother" is born for adversity. 

There are so many bible verses and people have so many ways they interpret alllllllllllllllllll them verses and then on top of that they all believe they are the "right ones" 

and then they believe they must defend their "beliefs" at all costs

and if you believe different then them

they are very upset and/or offended

Matthew 18:7 "Woe unto the world because of offences! for it must needs be that offences come; but woe to that man by whom the offence cometh!" - Watch people walking around, do they look mad and offended, or do they look happy..............................where I live people look mad and offended..................well usa is a very very very christian country and brothers are born for adversity!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a bit of a brit fan : ) 

I wood turned a foot massager today, this is the 1st in a series of em - all will be funky like this one - I being of the belief that a foot massager works better if it is like not uh "equally grooved"

I think I've in the past mistaken what a friend really is...................so set in my mind that "friend" just has to mean people that chat with me on the phone 2 hours a night, and I think I'm wrong about that. It's gotta be like the people your around, the people that are like with a heart for you ------------ isn't that what we need????? A few people with a heart for us, praying for us? I think it is.
And not being on the phone like never, has free'd up much time to crochet : ) and turn wood, and really what would I rather do be on the phone 2 hours, or turning some pretty chess pieces : )
My friends will see me when they see me : ) -------- maybe I've gone kooky now : )
I've decided online chating just isn't working out for me in general...............to many people that are online waiting to start a fight start something. All I want to start right now, is turning some chess pieces : )
Proverbs 14:20 "The poor is hated even of his own neighbour: but the rich hath many friends." Yep I'm not wealthy hahahahahahahahah not envying the rich people either, that's tiring to have like parties all the time YIE no free time to turn no wood on the lathe then!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3 John 1:14 "But I trust I shall shortly see thee, and we shall speak face to face. Peace be to thee. Our friends salute thee. Greet the friends by name." was paul all hanging out friday night with all these "friends" naw, but he was still friends with them, and they were friends to him
I've had it cracked in my head for the longest time that I need to go gallavanting around otherwise I'm a complete 0. To god I'm sure I'm not a 0. Who cares what the world thinks about me????????????

I greatly lately suspect in the humblest lowliest of places on the earth I can be the closest to god, and that my lowly spot isn't so bad afterall Isaiah 57:15 "For thus saith the high and lofty One that inhabiteth eternity, whose name is Holy; I dwell in the high and holy place, with him also that is of a contrite and humble spirit, to revive the spirit of the humble, and to revive the heart of the contrite ones."
plus I have a lot of time to turn wood, going to make chess pieces, and golf tee's if I can manage it, and christmas ornaments : ) (so far all I've turned on my lathe is wood bangle bracelets which made great christmas gifts 2 years ago : )
I trust god, trusting god that everything that is happen/happening in my life is for a reason, for my salvations sake, cause surely god cares, surely he wishes for me to be saved, surely he hasn't forgotten me. He loves you to, trust me he does, and he gave his only son that John 3:15 "That whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have eternal life"
yep pry turning some wood today : )
  ------ one more thing...........in the past I've complained a lot I don't have so many friends woes me but that isn't god's will for me...................1 Thessalonians 5:18 "In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you." It SURELY isn't god's will that I go off to the earth bellymoaning which is what I've been doing. But to give thanks, that I have all this free time open to pursue my wood turning hobby this much ------------ it's not a bad thing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

   It's all perspective.......................there's a limbless brother that talks to like all of christianity he's pretty cool THANKFUL HE IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He could be all belly moaning but he ain't he's chosen to be thankful (I give that brother extra props cause if I was in his spot.........................I'd pry be such a belly moaning baby the whole earth would pry want to go jump off a cliff) That's gotta be ruff not having arms or legs ----- but that brother I've watched him over the years talk on tv and at my own church..........he stays thankful...........he really draws people to him I think in all his thankfulness. 

 He's surely doing god's will in that! Surely god wants us to be thankful. (well I guess you know god wants us to be thankful cause it's like miserable being all grumbly and miserable and he doesn't wish for us to be like that I don't think) And it's true there is always someone that has it way worse then me!

Luke 6:27 "But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you,"............................

fastest way to overcome the earth - count the things of the earth as dung I'm sure of this....................

fastest way to overcome the earth - count the things of the earth as dung I'm sure of this. Tonight at church I was relieved to hear this verse Revelation 3:5 "He that overcometh, the same shall be clothed in white raiment; and I will not blot out his name out of the book of life, but I will confess his name before my Father, and before his angels." In the past I think I've even said on my blog (oh I'm a fool for jesus be sure of that) that I was sure that you had to have many a good deed to have white garments and make it into heaven.......but look at revelations 3:5 "He that overcometh, THE SAME shall be clothed with white raiment" that's it, that's what I need to do I've decided overcome this earth!!!!!!!!!
   I'm confessing here, this a fool 100% fool confession, this the kind of fool I am..............I've sat and I've drooled over sports cars for many a year oooooooooo look at that car, look at that car FOOLISHNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
   I keep my flesh down like paul says..............1 Corinthians 9:27 "But I keep under my body, and bring it into subjection: lest that by any means, when I have preached to others, I myself should be a castaway." Don't envy the luxuriousness that some this world has THE THINGS OF THE EARTH IS DUNG!!!!!!!!! Philippians 3:8 "Yea doubtless, and I count all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord: for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and do count them but dung, that I may win Christ" sports cars DUNG, diamond rings DUNG, penthouses in switzerland DUNG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahahahahah I'm serious though. None that stuffs will get you to heaven!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What going to get you to heaven - oh ya, overcoming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  To me it's like so a b c

a -------------- Galatians 5:16 "This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfil the lust of the flesh." Want to overcome the world WALK IN THE SPIRIT I highly recommend creflo dollar : ) YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA CREFLO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (and kirk cameron ; ) ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh ye is a fool sheri

b ---------------- count all things of this earth AS DUNG....................we are supposed to overcome the world............not be stuck in the "what's the latest fashions this week, uh oh better go to like nordstroms and take a look hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah" hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaah ahhhhhhhhh CHUCK THE FASHION MAGAZINES ALL TOGETHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! stupidness

   Fashion IS STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (though yesterday at the goodwill outlet down the street there was a lady that I wanted to like kidnap and dress a bit better - she had on jeans and they were like rolled up as if she was waiting for a flood and then she had tacky fuzzy socks on like all pulled up high and then like boots ---------------- sometime's I don't know, well guess if ya all want to hurt my eyeballs go ahead long as ye's not loving the things of the earth!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) 

   This concludes this fools ramblings for today : ) hahahahahaahahahahahahahahahah if the joy of the lord is my strength like the bible says I'M ANDREA THE GIANT RIGHT NOW take that satan I will not love the things of the earth NO WAY

few things I need in life.........................................

my chickens to watch while I'm drinking coffee (ya know jesus got a 100% fool with me : ) hahahaha

my sauna 

few good christian bands to listen to gotta get my jesus groove on! 12 STONES YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ya that about covers it 

  fashions so stupid, soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo stupid, have a great week earth : ) 

Luke 6:27 "But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you,"............................

This is bad 2021 me could "corrupt the youth" 

but you really don't need "fashion" 

I mean it's a little important to look nice. 

But you don't need fashion to have "looks to kill"........

Don't worry the apostolic christian church of america 

maybe most of the body of christ very upset with me

what happen to having fun on this earth??????

Have a great day.

ps pics above from a few days ago 2021 

   

1 Corinthians 6:16 You can't pimp yourself out to the world and think you just didn't join up with that............

   This is the song God told me to sing. My rendition of "Fell on Black Days" by Soundgarden. I was taught by the Apostolic Christian Church of America to mostly focus on the outside of my cup......Luke 11:39 "And the Lord said unto him, Now do ye Pharisees make clean the outside of the cup and the platter; but your inward part is full of ravening and wickedness." But it's the "inside of my cup" God wishes to be clean, and for me that =='s me wearing a bit of makeup etc. That I don't look down upon the makeup wearing etc. 

 Friendship with the world is something in your heart it doesn't necessarily have 0% to do with how you look - or the jewelry you wear.

I'm not loved by this world

nobody could tell me I'm loved by this world

the goth's have rejected me because I forgive Marilyn Manson

John 15:19 "If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you." - I have been rejected.

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1 Corinthians 6:16 You can't pimp yourself out to the world and think you just didn't join up with that.............naw........it don't work that way............1 Corinthians 6:16 "What? know ye not that he which is joined to an harlot is one body? for two, saith he, shall be one flesh."

  Naw you come out "from among them" AND BE YE SEPARATE don't go pimping yourself out to this world and be's thinkin with yourself you didn't just join up with THAT 2 Corinthians 6:17 "Wherefore come out from among them, and be ye separate, saith the Lord, and touch not the unclean thing; and I will receive you." See it, catch it....................come out from among them, and be ye separate..........touch not the unclean thing (aka porn, drugs, mmmmmm yummy yummy drugs, etc. of delightfulness) and then and then when you's done came out from among them and be ye's separate and not touching the unclean things no more..................AND I WILL RECEIVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

    (xoxoxoxox living hope church, apostolic christian church of america and the body of christ in general) and I need prayer, that I keep a safe distance from my "thorn in the flesh" a real good safe distance!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

   Don't be ----------------- earth, god don't want ya joined up with the harlot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He wants ya out of her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Don't be little ------------------------ (little bit to close to my "thorn in the flesh" at the moment, doing all I can to remedy this """"""""situation"""""""""")

Luke 6:27 "But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you,"............................

I've decided we all are in a war, and there's no getting out of it, satan and the demons aren't just going to disappear!!!!!!!! Ephesians 6:12....................

Update 10/25/2024 concerning this blog post 2013 was the "turning point" for me...............praying lucifer back into my life. 

how I related to lucifer and his men changed

to bounce thoughts and ideas off of

not "do do do do occult shiz"

the bible says "all things have became new"

2 Corinthians 5:17 "Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new."

  To most people and christians lucifer and his men are just dark dark evil, to stay away from useless basically 

but jesus christ our lord was lead by the holy spirit into the desert for 40 days on purpose to speak to the devil and hear from the devil.................

Luke 4:1-3 "And Jesus being full of the Holy Ghost returned from Jordan, and was led by the Spirit into the wilderness, Being forty days tempted of the devil. And in those days he did eat nothing: and when they were ended, he afterward hungered. And the devil said unto him, If thou be the Son of God, command this stone that it be made bread."

  Am I the sole and only christian lead to be around lucifer and his men on the regular besides Jesus christ who had a 40 day stint -------------- looks to be. 

  Also looks to be I'm the sole and only christian deemed worser then the house of beezelbub..............besides priests that molest kids...............

Matthew 10:25 "It is enough for the disciple that he be as his master, and the servant as his lord. If they have called the master of the house Beelzebub, how much more shall they call them of his household?"

Lucifer and his men 

went from bad do do do to me

to helpful potentially

(also potentially not helpful - but potentially helpful for lucifer telling jesus he could turn stones into bread WAS INDEED LUCIFER BEING HELPFUL TO THE LORD) 

fun picture I took yesterday........................

lucifer and his men HAVEN'T BECAME "NEW" to most people mot christians

they are still merely the bad bad bad guys never to speak to on purpose anyways

2 Corinthians 5:17 "Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new."

I simply have a different experience then looks to be the whole rest of the body of christ besides Jesus Christ the Lord also had similiar experience as me

old blog post............................

I've decided we all are in a war, and there's no getting out of it, satan and the demons aren't just going to disappear!!!!!!!!  Ephesians 6:12 "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places." I wish we all could have a day off to party and do all the drugs we want - I really do! Trust me I really do! We in a war! There no day offs, satan don't rest satan don't nap..............1 Peter 5:8 "Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:"

   I ain't been winning the war at all either lately.............the good news is now these days at least I can recognize when I'm kinda slipping back into the occult............I'm able to stop myself - via much going to church, much reading the word of god --------- it's a war we all in it!!!!!!!!!! I may be in the thick of things more then most, but we are all surely in this war "against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places" nobody not in this war!!!!!!! 

   I'm totally going to like living hopes living free pry this week, takes going to church 2-3 times a week for me anymore to stay in the light ------- it is what it is ------------- Ecclesiastes 2:13 "Then I saw that wisdom excelleth folly, as far as lightexcelleth darkness." I feel it's better to fight the war then just let the darkness sink in!!!!!!! My aunts church (apostolic christian church of america) man they know what to preach : ) they know they gotta remind me hell is real and often! 

   (can't just sit around and let the darkness all sink in!!!!!!!!!! there's a war to wage!!!!!!!!!!!!! god wants zeal he wants fire!!!!!!! He wants us to fight to be in the light (fight the good fight of faith)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - where there's peace...............John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.") 

  I'm not at all simple I'm pretty intensely complex but I like these verses can I claim them for myself anyways : ) cause I'd like to do that fully : ) Psalm 116:6-7 "The LORD preserveth the simple: I was brought low, and he helped me. Return unto thy rest, O my soul; for the LORD hath dealt bountifully with thee." That's what sin'll do it'll bring you low..............and pain...................PAIN...............................Psalm 116:3-4 "The sorrows of death compassed me, and the pains of hell gat hold upon me: I found trouble and sorrow. Then called I upon the name of the LORD; O LORD, I beseech thee, deliver my soul."

  ahhhhhhhhh god'll forgive ----------- don't sit in pain!!!!!!!!!!! PRAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And get to fighting the good fight of faith Psalm 116:9 "I will walk before the LORD in the land of the living." Where's the land of the living, ah ya it's walking before the LORD - we were once all dead Ephesians 2:1 "And you hath he quickened, who were dead in trespasses and sins;" DON'T BE DEAD!!!!!!!!!!! Be alive in christ Romans 6:11 "Likewise reckon ye also yourselves to be dead indeed unto sin, but alive unto God through Jesus Christ our Lord."

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I was once a real bound up person, to the occult, to the lusts of the flesh............

Sheri 2024 agree's with sheri 2011 -- " I don't want to do drugs, or the occult, or watch porn,  ------------ I'm done being filthy. DONE. I want to get clean and stay clean, and not be in agony not be bound no more."

bible talks about pigs in filth

2 Peter 2:22 "But it is happened unto them according to the true proverb, The dog is turned to his own vomit again; and the sow that was washed to her wallowing in the mire."

The 1st step to freedom

whether freedom from addiction

or porn addiction

or involvement in the occult

it to admit you have a problem!!!!!!!!!!!

I was once a real bound up person, to the occult, to the lusts of the flesh............finally getting it, oh that's what the bible means when it talks about jesus setting a person free (I've found it to be something that happens to you when you heed god's word for a bit)  John 8:36 "If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be freeindeed." For the longest time I told myself I had all the power and all the control in the occult but it just wasn't the case, I was really bound to that stuffs!
  This is full out my verse for today : ) Titus 3:3 "For we ourselves also were sometimes foolish, disobedient, deceived, serving divers lusts and pleasures, living in malice and envy, hateful, and hating one another." I was once so bound to all that stuffs, for so long I've carried around so much hate, so much ick! Recently I've hit this point where I'm like WHOA you have became a cesspool inside..........I don't want to be filthy NO MORE getting clean, being being in gods word in the day being in the light where jesus blood can cleanse me I'm in love with this bible verse lately 1 John 1:7 "But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, and the blood of Jesus Christ his Son cleanseth us from all sin." ARE YOU FILTHY TO OUT THERE??????????????????? You don't have to stay that way!!!!!!!!!!!!
 Instead of riding the top of the occult like I was, I've found it's better to be broken at the foot of the cross Matthew 21:44 "And whosoever shall fall on this stone shall be broken: but on whomsoever it shall fall, it will grind him to powder." where I can be healed set free by jesus
  There's 0 power here for me in this lowest of places, not such the power trip place, but I'm getting clean, it'll take awhile - I'm a little extra filthy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I finally don't want to be involved in the occult no more, I think this time it's really really really for good, that god won, jesus won, I want them to win, I don't want to be filthy no more! Things have gotten way way way way to outta hand lately - I surrendor!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm tired of being completely filthy, I'm tired of being SICK.

 Isaiah 1:18 "Come now, and let us reason together, saith the LORD: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool." Lot of crimson god, lot a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot! I'm tired of the filth good and tired. Forking myself over to jesus! I'm yours jesus! 

   I don't want to do drugs, or the occult, or watch porn,  ------------ I'm done being filthy. DONE. I want to get clean and stay clean, and not be in agony not be bound no more. 

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Was at like full out crisis point today - god showed up so big for me today I know He loves me....................Sheri 2011 was more trusting of people and in a "goofy mood" Sheri 2024 has "been through it" now I prefer being alone, being hated, and hanging out with goats and listening to music but I might for real become a entire different person cause I just bought a collection of 100 cds and it's not the type of music I usually listen to a ton (not goth music, goth music is expensive to buy a lot of it is)....................

Was at like full out crisis point today - god showed up so big for me today I know He loves me....................Sheri 2011 was more trusting of people and in a "goofy mood" Sheri 2024 has "been through it" now I prefer being alone, being hated, and hanging out with goats and listening to music but I might for real become a entire different person cause I just bought a collection of 100 cds and it's not the type of music I usually listen to a ton (not goth music, goth music is expensive to buy a lot of it is)....................

loving god that's the most important thing though nomadder how many "versions of you" exist over time - Mark 12:30 "And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all thy strength: this is the first commandment."

  When putting these cd's in the cd holder I was like "oh this all might turn me into a whole nother person" and I don't think that's a exaggeration. "It can't be that drastic sheri what you listening to right now" -------------  ROD STEWART CD "Vagabond heart"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..........................

 I didn't buy like some randomn cd pack either

I bought a "themed" cd pack..........

 This is still sheri 10/24/2024 typing this, it was a different time in 2011..............more compasionate time. Nowdays it's ice at least were I live mostly. (not completely but mostly in my estimation) 

Matthew 24:12 "And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold."

But even in the coldest winter ice

hope exists

1 Corinthians 13:7 "Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things."

Was at like full out crisis point today (domino effect happens with me, one bad thing, then another, and another and eventually I CRACK) - god showed up so big for me today I know He loves me....................I went to bible study (my estimating with myself it'd help to "get my head together") god was in me so much tonight, He really knew I was big time having a crisis and was determined to reach out and touch me. People hugged me a lot tonight, and the lady running the whole thing rubbed my back which is a miracle cause there are 250+ women at this serious coffee bible study thing.
   Like everyone else in this world I worry about so much, I worry about what's going to happen with me, what's my future look like I worry about it.................knowing I'm that loved at living hope, that I'm that loved - my aunts church to loves me much I know they do...........makes a huge difference for me in my life. And especially that god showed up so big for me tonight.
   Really mind blowing how much god was with me tonight. He's really getting to me lately.............He's cracked in...................He's cracked into my heart. And I'm left wondering with myself - why did I ever sin in the 1st place? Why did I ever distance myself from god in the 1st place? This love HIS love is what I needed all along!
 ---------- I'm going to fess up to something, sometimes I sit and listen to other christians testify thinking to myself it all is so cheese. But man maybe I'm a cheese to god/jesus/holy spirit makes all the difference in the world for me --------------- anything could happen to me and I know long as I got god/jesus/holy spirit I's going to be ok. God showing up big for me tonight letting me know how much He loves me - it's all good! Let the cheese roll : ) it's holy cheese hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahaahahahaahahahah (sheri dang you have to much fun being a christian hahahahaahahahahahaaha)

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