James 4:8 "............and purify your hearts, ye double minded"...................

Sheri 6/3/2022 adding to what sheri 2013 was sayin

you cannot serve god and mammon

you gonna serve one or the other today

it's either god

or mammon

you CAN'T SERVE THEM BOTH

Luke 16:13 "No servant can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon." - one your will hate and one you will cling to

(me at the foodbank volunteering last night had a good time : ) 

James 4:8 "Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, ye double minded." For years and years and years I WAS DOUBLE MINDED!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You know going to church on sunday, loving god, loving jesus (which I think in my mind I loved god/jesus much back then) BUT ALSO HAVING A FOOT IN THE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Galatians 6:7-8 "Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap. For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting."

Luke 16:13-14 "No servant can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon. And the Pharisees also, who were covetous, heard all these things: and they derided him.."  That speaks to me verse 14 to in luke chapter 16 that the pharisee's WHO WERE COVETOUS ---------- what did they do "and they derided him"

 I think maybe the pharisee's though weren't like visibly giving into lot's of the lusts of the flesh????? Maybe some them were just "covetous" aka double minded! Luke 16:15 "And he said unto them, Ye are they which justify yourselves before men; but God knoweth your hearts: for that which is highly esteemed among men is abomination in the sight of God."

Luke 10:27 "And he answering said, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy strength, and with all thy mind; and thy neighbour as thyself." I want to love god that much everyday not be no more double minded having one foot in the church and one foot in the world --------- the pharisee's in luke 16:14 "WHO WERE COVETOUS" ya they were highly esteemed among men the pharisee's where  

"but God knoweth your hearts: for that which is highly esteemed among men is abomination in the sight of God"

Not only is god not mocked "for whatsoever a man showeth he also shell reap. For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption....." "....................God knoweth your hearts" even if like the pharisee's everything looked good on the outside. You can repent!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Join me, join me in "...................and purify your hearts, ye double minded"

            Every christian on earth is supposed to be a virgin I'm convinced! Matthew 25:7 "Then all those virgins arose, and trimmed their lamps."

James 1:27 "Pure religion and undefiled before God and the Father is this, To visit the fatherless and widows in their affliction, and to keep himself unspotted from the world." Wholly given over to serving the lord. 

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just like people become vegetarians you can stop I believe having to do with the world and become a "virgin".............

 Small update video for 5/27/2022.........my 2nd diamond painting is finally done.........

Small update video 5/27/2022, finally finished my 2nd diamond painting...........

 Just like people become vegetarians you can stop I believe having to do with the world and become a "virgin"....................I just told my husband this to cause he's sitting right next to me right now, cleaning the computer room : ) Matthew 25:7 "Then all those virgins arose, and trimmed their lamps." I think some people potentially look at that verse and get really daunted or discouraged I KNOW I HAVE IN THE PAST "oh snap, I ain't no virgin" was the thoughts that have went through my mind in the past.
  But a meat eater ----------- didn't start out a vegetarian now did they? No they were a regular meat eating person like all the rest of the meat eating people in the world -------- well usually the vegetarians go full boar vegan.............I look at veganism as near a religion.................you ever talk to a vegan which I have known quite a few over the years IT'S LIKE A RELIGION........they believe so strongly over the benefits of what they ain't eating no more........................
isn't there benefits for us to not watch the worldly tv I THINK SO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
not listen to the worldly music anymore I THINK SO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1 Corinthians 10:23 "All things are lawful for me, but all things are not expedient: all things are lawful for me, but all things edify not." lawful all things sure but NOT EXPEDIENT NOT A GOOD IDEA............also I think that when matthew 25:7 says the virgins trimmed their lamps.........to me trimming your lamp means your getting rid of that last tv show you liked........................that last worldly album you liked to listen to....................THAT'S WHAT IT MEANS TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (that last thing of the world you liked - GET RID OF THAT)
   Don't matter either how filthy one was beforehand 2 Corinthians 7:1 "Having therefore these promises, dearly beloved, let us cleanse ourselves from all filthiness of the flesh and spirit, perfecting holiness in the fear of God."
the old man I think - WASN'T A VIRGIN RIGHT
the new man I think - at any rate I believe IS SUPPOSED TO BE A VIRGIN
LIKE WE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE VIRGINS
if we are really really really really really "christians" in my mind that is what christian is = virgin
or in the case of myself ------------ hard at work to be a virgin finally

cough sheri 2022 "goth virgin"

#lots of bauhaus and Sisters of Mercy and cemetaries for me 😀👍 

Psalm 41:1 "Blessed is he that considereth the poor: the Lord will deliver him in time of trouble.".................

most my life I have been a "non-conformist" - god's word is changing that...........................

Update video 5/21/2022, self defense tips for the ladies, etc.....................

 I use this verse as a "marker" for how far I am out of the babylon system..........Romans 1:25 "Who changed the truth of God into a lie, and worshipped and served the creature more than the Creator, who is blessed for ever. Amen." Who are you worshipping and serving????????????????? Is is god, or someone else?????????????????????

(my oldest daughter wearing the fish t-shirt this at the awards ceremony for the honour roll kids, 3.68 gpa my oldest has - but even if she didn't have that gpa I'm beyond proud of her, she recently told me and my husband and my youngest child that she was "not well behaved" my child is the exemplifary like whatever of the perfect citizen of the usa - I'm sayin the apostolic christian church of america has became real skilled at that getting people to repent stuffs) 

most my life I have been a "non-conformist" (the type to just do what I want when I want how I want to - that's how I was for a long long long long long LONG time) - god's word is changing that.
telling 3 pastors this morning.....................
It's worth it to "conform up" (to the word of god I'm saying heed that) much as I don't enjoy it...............

   you gotta realize with yourselves and even if you didn't have the bible look around and realize 

a - god is real ok

b - safe to say is holy

c - THERE ARE SOME DEMON POSSESSED SATANIC NAUGTY NAUGTY "children of disobedience out there" AND IT'S A BAD IDEA TO ALLLLLLLLLL JOIN THAT CAMP!

   Colossians 3:6 "For which things' sake the wrath of God cometh on the children of disobedience:"

Ephesians 5:6 "Let no man deceive you with vain words: for because of these things cometh the wrath of God upon the children of disobedience."

  I REALLY WOULD LIKE PURPLE HAIR THOUGH - LIGHT PURPLE 3 PASTORS BBBBBBBBBAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAADDDDDDDDDDDD

significantly better I instead stick w/the stupid bun and no makeup gig 

and like don't watch worldly tv

and watch christian tv like you know have my treasure be up in heaven 

"be rich towards god in the day" that's my thang these days I tell god in prayer all the time that I'll be rich towards him in the day

Luke 12:21 "So is he that layeth up treasure for himself, and is not rich toward God."

Galatians 6:7 "Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap.8 For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting."

now that is regardless of whether I blog or have many blogs in the week

really what I need to do 

IS "SOWETH TO THE SPIRIT" IN THE DAY

DO THAT BE "RICH TOWARDS GOD" 

NOT THIS EARTH 

NOT BEING FRIENDS WITH THAT

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Psalm 41:1 "Blessed is he that considereth the poor: the Lord will deliver him in time of trouble.".................

Servants I think really do love the most....................

Update video 5/14/2022 (the latest on my husbands health post 2nd surgery)................

I lost recently exactly 17.6 lbs : ) I ain't no where near my goal weight but it's good to celebrate whatever victories you have in life! (part my front yard in this pick it's really pretty especially this time of year, near paradise!!!!!!!!!!!!!) 

 Servants I think really do love the most. This is more then a "going theory", Jesus was a servant Philippians 2:7 "But made himself of no reputation, and took upon him the form of a servant, and was made in the likeness of men:" Matthew 11:29 "Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls." Why was Jesus "meek and lowly in heart" HE WAS A SERVANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
     The kid who I have given a ear to "maston" said today..........his website http://thedailylove.com/.............."But the stuff, the form doesn’t freakin matter! What matters is who we are. What matters is how we show up. What matters is the place that we come from in our thoughts, ideas and communications. What matters is if we are serving or not.
   What matters is crucifying our egos day in and day out (not because it’s the enemy), but so our hearts can shine through." John 15:13 "Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends."
   Satan he does come to kill and steal and destroy, for me in my life, the place he has in the past destroyed and killed the most -------- my love for people. I think a abundant life, is one where you aren't hating, or envying people, or gossiping, IT'S ONE OF LAYING DOWN YOUR LIFE OF LOVING PEOPLE. John 10:10 "The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly."
I had a friend back when I dragon boated, and he talked about his "legacy" that he wanted to leave a legacy - don't we all..........we don't want to die and be forgotten do any of us????????? Some people go about this "legacy" leaving stuffs by being a hard worker, and being dedicated to ones job WHICH IS A FAB PART OF ONES LEGACY, let's add love to that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(I have in the past been greately "me" centered - and not considering if I was loving or serving people at the time -------- it was oh that person didn't do that for me, and that person didn't do that for me --------------- jesus didn't come to this earth that way.............HE CAME TO SERVE, HE CAME TO LOVE John 3:30 "He must increase, but I must decrease."

Psalm 41:1 "Blessed is he that considereth the poor: the Lord will deliver him in time of trouble.".................

LOVE

this tole painting is so fab I MIGHT ENTER IT INTO THE STATE FAIR!!!!!!!!!!.........................

Fresh update video 5/9/2022.................

Ecclesiastes 7:4 "The heart of the wise is in the house of mourning; but the heart of fools is in the house of mirth."

Matthew 5:4 "Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted."

  My day will get a little sun shinier in a second though cause I'm about to listen to a heap of goth music. And finish drinking my 2nd coffee for the day. 

this tole painting is so fab I MIGHT ENTER IT INTO THE STATE FAIR!!!!!!!!!!.........................This is MY OWN DESIGN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I got the idea for painting hydrangea's from "Paint works" August 2008 someone painted hydrandgea's on a Adirondack chair. I thought they'd look really nice on a box - I WAS RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
   This tole painting turned out so good........................if I could I'd stick it on a parade float and tape some mechanical waving hands or you know some fake hand that waves w/movement...................HAVE IT IN A PARADE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
   man the rose festival for reals NEEDS A TOLE PAINTING FLOAT --------- that's what I'm sayin.
  I watched this you tube video this morning...........http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cQupd5SL9RI
 Like seriously living hope church a church I sometimes have went to "on the side" THEY HAD A WHOLE GANGNAM STYLE VIDEO THAT ONE THE CHURCH MEMBERS MADE! (link to above video 26 minutes into it a pastor tells his congregation about kicking a women in the face, and beating a cripples legs against some table or something AND THE CONGREGATION LAUGHING - THE HORROR)
   If you are really heeding the word of god, your going to love people, your not going to want to beat people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Luke 21:12 "But before all these, they shall lay their hands on you, and persecute you, delivering you up to the synagogues, and into prisons, being brought before kings and rulers for my name's sake." This verse actually says we'll be beaten Mark 13:9 "But take heed to yourselves: for they shall deliver you up to councils; and in thesynagogues ye shall be beaten: and ye shall be brought before rulers and kings for my sake, for a testimony against them." This stuffs is going to happen and I can't stop this stuffs from happening............but I can tell you good fruit isn't beating people.............good fruit if you ask me is loving people!!!!!!!!!!!!

Psalm 41:1 "Blessed is he that considereth the poor: the Lord will deliver him in time of trouble.".................

LOVE

There is a winner inside us all........................

Small update video 5/3/2022 with current diamond painting progress : )...............

Matthew 5:10-12 "Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness' sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake. Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great is your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you."

A lady I stumbled upon on you tube that I'm often agreeing with, being a "winner" is something you can be regardless of how much money you have.
  I agree with diane brianne fairchild about gossip to........................

   Winners don't gossip I don't think. It's better not to gossip.....more winning.
Romans 1:28-32 "And even as they did not like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a reprobate mind, to do those things which are not convenient; Being filled with all unrighteousness, fornication, wickedness, covetousness, maliciousness; full of envy, murder, debate, deceit, malignity; whisperers, Backbiters, haters of God, despiteful, proud, boasters, inventors of evil things, disobedient to parents, Without understanding, covenantbreakers, without natural affection, implacable, unmerciful: Who knowing the judgment of God, that they which commit such things are worthy of death, not only do the same, but have pleasure in them that do them."
Like Romans 1:28-32....................don't do none that stuffs! Interesting though it says "debate" pry I'm guess some debates ok?????? THOUGH NOT SURE??????????????? Uh oh if debate is bad my husband is bustedddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd!
:"whisperers" same as gossip pry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Better to like just you know love each other and pray for each other!
Also that verse above where it says "full of envy" it really isn't "convenient" to envy someone.............better to love people!!!!!!!!!! Better to instead of sitting around envying someone, to work on being the best you you can be.....................if your possitive and uhhhhhhhhhhh ummmmmmmmmm ya positive it'll work out............dianne brianne fairchild is right probably everyone has a winner inside them............maybe you've been doing the things in Romans 1:28-32 --------- THERE IS A WAY OUT FROM THAT STUFFS - JESUS!
John 10:10 "The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly."

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like satan when he comes to all steal kill and destroy.....................some the buisiness he wants to steal kill and destroy IS OUR CONFIDENCE, OUR SELF WORTH.......................................IT AIN'T GOD/JESUS OUT TO STEAL THAT STUFFS NO...................John 10:10 "The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly."
THE DEVIL WANTS US ----- DRINKING, PARTYING, GOSSIPING, DOING DRUGS, WATCHING PORN ============= FEELING LIKE WORTHLESS PILES OF ----------------------------------------------------------------------------
HE DON'T WANT US TO BE "WINNERS" Romans 8:37 "Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us."

Psalm 41:1 "Blessed is he that considereth the poor: the Lord will deliver him in time of trouble."

Fellow christians of earth god wants us to be happy truelly Nehemiah 8:10 "......the joy of the lord is your strength"............

Update video 4/25/2022...........

Actually I'll pry always be a girl. But I'll be the "last girl standing" I think I'm already that. (in the body of christ I'm saying ------- most christian ladies look not "feminine" they can't be feminine they'll be shuned hated jezebels then....like me they'll be like me then though I don't deem myself like jezebel at all NOT AT ALL)

I believe this song so much it's pry my favorite song on earth right now.....................

Nehemiah 8:10 "Then he said unto them, Go your way, eat the fat, and drink the sweet, and send portions unto them for whom nothing is prepared: for this day is holy unto our Lord: neither be ye sorry; for the joy of the Lord is your strength."

  That song is so 100% right.................."there may be pain in the night BUT JOY COMES IN THE MORNING" 

YOU STAY THE SAME THROUGH THE AGES

YOUR LOVE NEVER CHANGES

 I am going through a bit right now...............and I don't even understand why what has happened to me has happened to me..............................

but I understand what I need to know god/jesus loves me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

 edit 4/25/2022 horrible things happening to you to 

most of the time...............

1 Peter 4:12 "Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you:"

  It's allllllllllllllllllll going to work out together for my good........................I don't even have to see everything yet working together for my good TO BELIEVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!

  If  your day is going bad, I recommend just starting it with a song in your heart, paul when he was in jail.............HE PRAISED GOD NOTHING TOOK THAT BROTHERS "JOY OF THE LORD"

  And looked what happened.......................paul got of jail (even people w/life sentences in jail..................god blesses them when they give their lives to the lord)

   I shouldn't want to be all listening to like Klove christian music online, cause things have been bad for me lately....................I shouldn't be praising god like this..........but I can't help myself............... 

I LOVE JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

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Proverbs 29:7 "The righteous considereth the cause of the poor: but the wicked regardeth not to know it."..............

It is better to forgive, it is better to have mercy, to love one another..........................

Update 4/17/2022.......what I got my mom for mothers day this year.....................

(pic of one my chickens :) and some my roses that I think are so pretty this year...........the buckets in the background are my husbands)
It is better to forgive, it is better to have mercy, to love one another..........................the problem with not having mercy is MANY FOLD.............cause then you get it all in your head how """""""""bad"""""""""""" a lot this world is, AND THIS WORLD IS CHALKED FULL OF EVIL I WON'T DISPUTE THAT....................
but isn't it better to love each other??????????????????????????????????
isn't better to have hope for one another???????????????????????????????????????
I WOULD SAY SO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
then your view of the world instead of black, it's like more greenish, maybe not like bright green, but you know at least you know green! Colossians 3:14 "And above all these things put on charity, which is the bond of perfectness."
I know the world dwells in "wickedness" like the bible says...................I want to have hope for people...............I want to love people even my enemies....................look past the thorns you see in people around you look for the rose.................as axle rose sang
"every rose has it's thorn"
"just like every night has it's dawwwwwwwwwwwwwn"
"just like every cowboy sings a sad, sad, song"
All have sinned, all have fallen short of the glory of god, axle rose is right "every rose has it's thorn"..........there's a flower to on the stem of every rose!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
   People that don't forgive, that don't show mercy, THEY ENDED UP............Jude 1:13 "Raging waves of the sea, foaming out their own shame; wandering stars, to whom is reserved the blackness of darkness for ever." Maybe not to the level of what is spoken about in Jude 1:13 but they do carry that around with them, that anger....................................that view of the world through black black black lenses "whom is reserved the blackness of darkness for ever"
Jesus said.......................in the bible........................John 4:35 "Say not ye, There are yet four months, and then cometh harvest? behold, I say unto you, Lift up your eyes, and look on the fields; for they are white already to harvest." Jesus he didn't look on this earth and see NO HOPE TO SAVE NOBODY.....................he saw the fields "white already to harvest"

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I am a total guns and roses fan I AM FROM THE 80'S...............

Mama put my guns in the ground

I can't shoot them anymore

That cold black cloud is comin' down

Feels like I'm knockin' on heaven's door

Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door

Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door

Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door

Knock-knock-knockin' on heaven's door

my dad can't understand me wanting to be mericiful towards people he told me on the phone today he didn't teach me that...................

Update video 4/15/2022 - at beginning of video I thank my parents for the gift they sent me 😁..............

my dad can't understand me wanting to be mericiful towards people he told me on the phone today he didn't teach me that...................and he didn't he taught me to "stick up for myself" don't let myself be kicked around or mistreated....................here's the thing though.......................................
I think you can stick up for yourself, don't let yourself be mistreated
AND
show mercy
I told my parents, and I told mike, ron, john and my aunt connie, I had to post up the last blog post and say something........................if nobodies sitting by me and I'm actually feeling left out and unloved etc. etc. like that SPEAK UP........................my dad is telling me that's it I should completely not have mercy with the apostolic christian church of america over last sunday alone walk away from them never go back.
  This all plays into my childhood to...........................my family lived the longest in laveen arizona and there was a neighborhood bully named Kathy Lee..................and she ambushed my best friend at the time told her she was going to whoop her butt, and I had a tennis racket in my hand and I told kathy lee that if she dared touch my friend I was clean going to kill her with that tennis racket --------- SHE BACKED DOWN!
  Then she like just came up to me after I got off the bus and said I am going to fight her, like she didn't leave me no option..........so I fought her...................and as far as the neighborhood was concerned I won. So then I became the "toughest girl in school" once a week ONCE A WEEK kids were challenging me to fights wanting to take over my title..................................................here's where "sticking up for yourself" went south..............................................all that power all that whatever went right to my head..............I didn't want to hurt kids no instead I ran them all around the school yard silly til they were real good and tired and then I kicked them to the ground stuffed grass in their mouths put my feet on their chests and waved....................................
there was no winning in that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
There is no win in fighting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
people get hurt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 Kathy Lee wasn't as fortunate as me....................she died.............................in a car accident (she can't go pray to god and ask for forgiveness)...............and there are people on this earth you can know pretty well they are in hell..................I think about her sometimes burning in hell (she clean used to knock the teeth out of kids younger then her in my neighborhood ---------- I NEVER LIKED IT AND I LET HER KNOW)
  There's winning in forgiving!!!!!!!!! There's winning in having mercy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Further I think that nothing is permanent no bad "situation" is permanent....................Romans 12:21 "Be not overcome of evil, but overcome evil with good."
  I know my dad, he thinks showing mercy like on the karate kid movie is a sign of weakness I going to throw my fave karate kid song in this blog post just cause : ) showing mercy isn't a thing of weakness............................it is instead a show of immense strength. Did the karate kid loose in this movie no..................at the end of the original karate kid even the "bad guy" kid right hugs him and says YOU WON THIS DANIEL WAY TO GO! Cause daniel sun didn't sweep the leg...............he wasn't out for blood. He gained respect, HE WON AND EVEN IF HE DIDN'T WIN, HE STILL WON CAUSE HE FOUGHT FAIR HE FOUGHT RIGHT. I pretty sure I have a point? If you do the right thing you do win, EVEN IF YOU DIDN'T WIN! This ain't the exact verse I'm looking for but it'll work in a pinch......Proverbs 11:17 "The merciful man doeth good to his own soul: but he that is cruel troubleth his own flesh." And as I told my aunt and 3 pastors today I don't want to "sweep the leg" anymore, I want to be the karate kid : )

Psalm 41:1 "Blessed is he that considereth the poor: the Lord will deliver him in time of trouble." - all I've known is trouble, I ain't been delivered from none of it........there's people actively saying that I am evil right now RIGHT NOW. 

  And there's nobody stopping them from greately slandering my name FREAKING EVERYWHERE. 

(I swear to God I do swear to god that I am the Starbucks queen, 

and god ain't defending me

he ain't 

crickets)

APOSTOLIC CHRISTIAN CHURCH OF AMERICA PLEASE DON'T KILL ME................

Update video 4/10/2022 small walmart clothing haul to 😀👍.....

(my husband went to the doctor recently - he had to drive what 1 hour or so to far away town to see this doctor, only to get there and the doctor they had in the office that day didn't feel qualified to even access the "situation" and so my husband has a new doctor appt. 3 weeks from now.........meanwhile he's barely able to walk often he's in so much pain.........cause the surgery like did not work)

church was packed today and 2nd half nobody sat by me : (..........................1st half I sat by a sister. 2nd half I like walked into the meeting hall before most the sisters, and they all filled the 3 rows completely in front of me NOT 1 PERSON SITTING WITH ME ON MY ROW IN A PACKED CHURCH!
   Then at the end of the service a brother prayed "and the holy spirit hasn't completely disappeared he is still here" ---------------- if you ain't loving your brother or your sister POTENTIALLY you are a murderer the bible says.............................
1 John 3:15 "Whosoever hateth his brother is a murderer: and ye know that no murderer hath eternal life abiding in him."

WELL THE HOLY SPIRIT AIN'T GOING TO BE IN OR AROUND A MURDERER!!!!!!!!!!!!

Also I've been working real hard to not be murdered I DON'T WANT TO BE MURDERED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO LIVE!!!!!!!!!!! AND HAVE LIFE IN CHRIST MORE ABUNDANTLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND LIVE PRETTY MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 EARTH CAN YOU PLEASE TRY TO LOVE ME AND LOVE EACH OTHER A BIT MORE OR AT LEAST JUST LOVE ME CAUSE I DON'T WANT TO BE MURDERED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I DON'T WANT TO BE KILLED!!!!!!! 

Matthew 25:36 "Naked, and ye clothed me: I was sick, and ye visited me: I was in prison, and ye came unto me."

  There are things the lord wants us to care deeply about, hungry, naked, sick, prisoned etc.............he lists it out so we know.