Looking like Marliyn Monroe doppleganger past few weeks has gotten me thinking about "shamefacedness" 1 Timothy 2:9 AND WEARING MY TICHEL AGAIN.....................

I am against the bashing of all women that is in this bible verse in the year 2026 most women and men love this bible verse a ton and they want to kiss it and caress it and say sweet nothing to it................1 Timothy 2:9 "In like manner also, that women adorn themselves in modest apparel, with shamefacedness and sobriety; not with broided hair, or gold, or pearls, or costly array;"

  1 Timothy 2:9 is a attack on women ------------ it's maybe better for real all women don't get married because as soon as they do late night nooky time or get married or even date THEY GUILTY SINNER THINGS THEN OF NO VALUE BUT NOT THE MEN THE MEN CAN RAPE EVERYONE AND THEY DIDN'T EVEN SIN ACCORDING TO THE BIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEY NEVER NEED

MEN NEVER NEED "SHAMEFACEDNESS" 

PEARLS, GOLD, LACK OF CLOTHING, FORNICATING ALL THE TIME NO NEED FOR "SHAMEFACEDNESS" FOR MEN IN THOSE INSTANCES CAUSE THEY AIN'T EVEN SINNING THEY ARE THE "STRONG" SEX!!!!!!!!!!!!

ONLY WOMEN IN THIS MUSIC VIDEO WITHOUT CLOTHING......................DUH THEY FILTH SINNERS ALL OF THEM LIKE 1 TIMOTHY 2:9 SAYSSSSSSSSSSSS..................

"DAMN SHERI SURELY MUST BE FOR GAYS A LADY WITH LIP LIKE THIS......................."
 🌈 ENJOY BEING SINLESS MEN MENS

Update 1/30/2026 I bloged myself wearing blonde wig (people hate me bad and they really hate it when I look like marilyn monroe it pisses them off ---------- not only lost all the traffic to my blog but also this post is popular right now ---------- they all went to this post all mad "for their lord jesus christ" before storming off from my blog in a jesus christ fit of raggggggggggggggggggggggge (as following Jesus Christ goes for most in the USA in the year 2026 - no hate)...............................

https://givingittogod.blogspot.com/2026/01/letter-to-my-family-only-my-sister-e.html

you can see the offending me looking like marilyn monroe pic below..............that pissed the body of christ off baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad.............................

inside the control panel of my blog showing most the traffic left

though it's picked up a little bit since calling these christians that are actually satan's out..................

luke 6:27 "But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you," My "enemies" are christians they go to churches PEOPLE THAT GO TO CHURCHES AND CALL THEMSELVES CHRISTIANS.

but they aren't....................

Revelation 2:9 "I know thy works, and tribulation, and poverty, (but thou art rich) and I know the blasphemy of them which say they are Jews, and are not, but are the synagogue of Satan."
   If you right say you are a "christian" that is you basically saying your a jew - grafted in. GRAFTED IN!
BIBLE SAYS NO DIFFERENCE BETWEEN JEW AND GENTILE................Galatians 3:28 "There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither bond nor free, there is neither male nor female: for ye are all one in Christ Jesus."

  These people they don't tithe most of them that's for 1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

many pry look at that 40% number and think that's near half the entire church

no really read these statistics

it says 40-42% of "practicing christians" ------------- WHICH MEANS NOT EVEN HALF OF REAL CHRISTIANS

ARE TITHING

SO HOW MUCH SHOULD I NOT BE A JOKE IN THAT I'M TITHING RIGHT NOW!

I'm donating to the satanic temple to love my enemies

but 

I LOVE THE FOLKS AT THE SATANIC TEMPLE (and have 0% beef with the satanic temple in fact they really please me with their efforts to defend minorities of society!!!!!!!!!!)

I don't know what else to do

besides keep tithing cause most my enemies GO TO CHURCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE SATANIC TEMPLE IS HOLY

"SATANIC HOLINESS" WHICH i BELIEVE NO I KNOW IS REAL WHERE THEY EITHER FULLY HEED ANTON LEVEY OR not, CLOSE ENOUGH

Update 2/25/2024 experienced a burst of energy last night and went on a mini cleaning spree --------- love it when that happens 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

  And regarding mini me from 2016 - myself marilyn monroe look alikes exist - it's ok to be "pretty" You dress modest you don't be's taking "booty pics" -------- your doing fine, calm down.

All the rocks that are in this magical crystal world 😁 were in the tray below, but now the tray below is just holding randomn clutter - WHICH IS ME ORGANIZING. The rocks weren't working out in the little tray anymore cause I had to much clutter waiting to go in that tray............now all the clutter is in the tray #success 😁.................

Looking like Marliyn Monroe doppleganger past few weeks has gotten me thinking about "shamefacedness" 1 Timothy 2:9 AND WEARING MY TICHEL AGAIN.....................
1 Timothy 2:9 "In like manner also, that women adorn themselves in modest apparel, with shamefacedness and sobriety; not with broided hair, or gold, or pearls, or costly array;"

  The whole celebrity scene makes one believe ah glamor this is the thing. I've decided that need for "shamefacedness" comes from this very skill women seem to be much to good at............

aka being glamorous

  Man aren't as good at being glamorous, what can they do??????? Put on a tux, smoke a nice cigar, nomadder how nice their shoes are..........they are only going to look so glamorous. Women though us ladies, we can drape on jewels, faux furs, gowns We can look out of this world glam!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  God don't want us christian ladies doing that I've decided. It's hard..............in this selfie obsessed land, and I immensely feel the pressure having a super model sister, that I can't completely compare to, I'm not that skinny. And not all my selfies have that glamorous polished look to them that all her's do. But she is a supermodel and it is her job to look fabulous 24/7 and like most all super models she's really good at it.

  I'm back to wearing tichels..............I look good I think, it's a shamefaced look I believe.......(and I know not all christians is going to all start wearing tichels, I know other christian ladies have other ways to get this "shamefacedness" look going ------ via you know toning stuffs down in other ways whether that's not wearing flashy clothing etc. etc. ----------- I know you all gots skillz I'm sayin ---------- keep it up)

This world is glamour, we ain't supposed to be friends with this world that is glamour. (now my sister is a super model and that is her job and she is doing her job - if she took more homely looking selfies and put them online the modeling agencies might ding her for that). Hard for me constantly seeing all this glamour around me, and I want to look glamorous.............but the bible says don't do that. Take your selfies down a notch the bible be's sayin.......I think. 

   God don't ask none us to be faithful in a lot of things nope it's just a few everyone...................

Matthew 25:23 "His lord said unto him, Well done, good and faithful servant; thou hast been faithful over a few things, I will make thee ruler over many things: enter thou into the joy of thy lord."

  It's great ladies and gentlemen to be faithful over the few things god has given us to be faithful over, let's do this!!!!!!!!!!!!

Have a great week!

LOVE

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I'm a nerdy "McFly" from the movie "Back to the future" and I'm determined to 1 Peter 5:6 "Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time:".........

Update 2/23/2024 died my hair light pink, I am mega happy about it 😁 (It is bubblegum something hue by lime crime..............and I didn't put the whole tube of it on my head, just enough to get the shade of pink I was after 😁)....................ps I am glowing in these pics no filter........................

I'm a nerdy "McFly" from the movie "Back to the future" and I'm determined to 1 Peter 5:6 "Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time:"
  As a nerdy "McFly" from the "Back to the future" I noted, that McFly had 2 future's possible and don't we all, at least potentially have a few "future possibilities" that could happen to us?????????? Ecclesiastes 9:11 "I returned, and saw under the sun, that the race is not to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, neither yet bread to the wise, nor yet riches to men of understanding, nor yet favour to men of skill; but timeand chance happeneth to them all."
  In one future McFly was still beated up by "Biff" and biff happened to be a bully, but I think in life biff could possibly not be a bully but just someone or some people that tower over you.............or stand in the way of you reaching your potential.
  In the other future McFly was having Biff wash and buff his car. But I noted McFly was caring and compassionate towards Biff towards his ex-bully, and in that part of the movie biff was still McFly's ex-bully ------------
who biff was didn't change
who McFly was changed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
   I noted not only did McFly change via more compassion for people. I noted how now in the good future for McFly he was dressed well. And his wife hair I noticed her hair was so much better, and she was wearing some nice makeup (not done in a bad streetwalker way her makeup, in a nice very classy way).
  1 John 4:16-18 "And we have known and believed the love that God hath to us. God is love; and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him. Herein is our love made perfect, that we may have boldness in the day of judgment: because as he is, so are we in this world. There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love."
  Though you know loving people this is the real way to be a McFly and not a biff. I guess I watched "Back to the future" to many times, and/or I'm to determined to be a successful McFly. So I want to look nice. Like look nice while I'm loving people. I guess just cause?????????????
   When god finally raises us up, don't that mean looking good to?????????????????? I honestly need this whole passage of bible verses to make my full point................
Luke 12

22 And he said unto his disciples, Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat; neither for the body, what ye shall put on.

23 The life is more than meat, and the body is more than raiment.

24 Consider the ravens: for they neither sow nor reap; which neither have storehouse nor barn; and God feedeth them: how much more are ye better than the fowls?

25 And which of you with taking thought can add to his stature one cubit?

26 If ye then be not able to do that thing which is least, why take ye thought for the rest?

27 Consider the lilies how they grow: they toil not, they spin not; and yet I say unto you, that Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.

28 If then God so clothe the grass, which is to day in the field, and to morrow is cast into the oven; how much more will he clothe you, O ye of little faith?

  Per my reading of the bible, god ain't going to cloth us McFly's badly. 

love one another 

love, love, love, love, love seek god daily for surely the bible is true....................Luke 12:23 "The life is more than meat, and the body is more than raiment."

Have a great week!

Love McFly's wife

Sometimes I add a photo to make my blog a bit more interesting - or try. I've been going to the gym often, and my efforts on the elliptical have been paying off : ) I'll spend a full hour on the elliptical, few times a week anyways lately. Put in time in the bible it'll pay off, put in time at the gym it'll pay off. 

Mark 9:23 "Jesus said unto him, If thou canst believe, all things arepossible to him that believeth."

#believing : ) 

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Are you really free?

 UPDATE: As of today 2/22/2024 I'm trying to sell isopods cause I have of one breed not the breed pictured 500-1000 isopods (in a very large container, I don't have them in small containers - I've got them in giant "isopod worlds"). 

  One of my kids I mean young adult kids got me interested in isopods - man they really started something. Your not supposed to be every other day or so, I'll grab the isopod bins lift the lid and watch them walk around 😁 And I have them located by my computer - so I also watch them at various points throughout the day walking around. 

  If they don't sell ------- I have 2 hermit crabs. Which slight cringe I did give them some isopods (live ones - hence slight cringe) ummmmmmmmmmmm they seemed to of ate ATE those isopods cause I gave them a good 10-15 isopods and they don't look to be alive in the hermit crab enclosure...................................slight cringe.

tried to show how large that cool "ghost white" dairy cow isopod is, it's actually larger then the end of my finger, it's GIANT 💓💓💓💓💓💓 I have a few ghost ones 💓💓💓💓💓💓

yep I lifted a log covered in little baby isopod bugs  💓💓💓💓💓💓 💓💓💓💓💓💓 💓💓💓💓💓💓 💓💓💓💓💓💓 💓💓💓💓💓💓 💓💓💓💓💓💓 💓💓💓💓💓💓 💓💓💓💓💓💓 💓💓💓💓💓💓 💓💓💓💓💓💓

Are you really free?
  My ideas about freedom have changed. Once I thought if I kept the apostolic christian church of america's rules about wearing a bun in my head, and (well clearly I didn't follow their no bangs rule : )  but I thought that free'd me up from being a "friend of the world".
  The only bible verse about hair in the bible or one of the very few, maybe there's another?
   1 Timothy 2:9 "In like manner also, that women adorn themselves in modest apparel, with shame facedness and sobriety; not with broided hair, or gold, or pearls, or costly array;" Don't have braided hair and that is it!
  Though I'm certain there has to be "mercy of god" towards african american's braided hair because, if they keep their hair natural it needs to be braided in many cases. (if their hair wasn't braided it would likely dreadlock...........yes I have experience with this type of hair).
   So lately I been wearing a wig, I felt trapped by the bun thing............instead of free I was feeling unfree. Or maybe unfree????????? I didn't like the whiff of maybe no free--edness.

  (those that wish to judge this photo and probably hate me go ahead judge away..........I've decided I forgive you, for the very people that would judge me and hate me, are the people most "bound" on this earth)

When jesus said John 8:36 "If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed." He meant free! Though I still think it's a plenty good plan to cover you head with a headcovering if you are a girl on sunday, when praying (if you don't have a poofed out wig on your head and can manage that that is..................).
  I think this crazy hairdo actually helps motivate me to dress modest (well most girls myself included wouldn't want to be thought of as a ----------------- insert street worker word here)

  I be's wearing baggy sweaters (and enjoying it : ), long skirts, baggy pants, etc. all kindssssssssssssssssssss these days : ) 

 Freedom is a wonderful thing! And I am a american and I love it! 

The bible much alludes to the idea that you will not know a people by how they look.........Matthew 7:20 "Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them." You'll know them by how they love. 

  God wants us ladies to not wear expensive clothing 1 Timothy 2:9 "In like manner also, that women adorn themselves in modest apparel, with shame facedness and sobriety; not with broided hair, or gold, or pearls, or costly array;"

no expensive clothing

no braids in hair

no gold and pearls which is basically expensive jewelry 

and wear modest apparel

--------------------- I went for years to churches that wanted to add to 1 Timothy 2:9 and say no jewelry don't wear no jewelry...........well it doesn't say that in 1 Timothy 2:9 it says don't wear the expensive stuffs. 

  God made us to be like girls. He didn't make us into boys. We many of us like glitter for instance - well we are girls - amen!!!!!!!!! 

  To the pure all things is pure Titus 1:15 "Unto the pure all things are pure: but unto them that are defiled and unbelieving is nothing pure; but even their mind and conscience is defiled."

  If you find some cheap cute costume jewelry at claires that you just gotta have........................ya it's bestest to suffer in the flesh as much as possible 2 Corinthians 1:5 "For as the sufferings of Christ abound in us, so our consolation also aboundeth by Christ."

  For reals though, getting real with the ladies...................................if there is a cute cheap 50 cents necklace at a garage sale....................that's 50 cents that's like free. 

 Is my logic that of a idiot for jesus's sake?????????

ya

I like suffering for jesus cool beans. It's supposed to be happy time following jesus "the joy of the lord is your strength" you don't want to get to feeling like your being chinese water tortured following the lord. Nehemiah 8:10 "Then he said unto them, Go your way, eat the fat, and drink the sweet, and send portions unto them for whom nothing is prepared: for this day is holy unto our Lord: neither be ye sorry; for the joy of the Lord is your strength."

  If a 50 cent piece of jewelry at a garage sale makes following jesus a happy time - hey buy that!!!!!!!!!!!! You could tell me my logic is idiotic.....................but maybe it is genious????????????

Have a great week earth!

LOVE

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Is your love "awake"????? Song of Solomon 8:4 "I charge you, O daughters of Jerusalem, that ye stir not up, nor awake my love, until he please."...............................

Update 2/20/2024 just got done going for a walk got a rainbro at dutch brothers coffee.......................

Is your love "awake"???????????? (verse 4 below)

Song of Solomon 8

4 I charge you, O daughters of Jerusalem, that ye stir not up, nor awake my love, until he please.

5 Who is this that cometh up from the wilderness, leaning upon her beloved? I raised thee up under the apple tree: there thy mother brought thee forth: there she brought thee forth that bare thee.

6 Set me as a seal upon thine heart, as a seal upon thine arm: for love is strong as death; jealousy is cruel as the grave: the coals thereof are coals of fire, which hath a most vehement flame.

7 Many waters cannot quench love, neither can the floods drown it: if a man would give all the substance of his house for love, it would utterly be contemned.

 Once I was big on the idea of "becoming something" even the bible itself seems to point at the idea of it being a good plan to "become" something 1 Corinthians 12:29-31 "Are all apostles? are all prophets? are all teachers? are all workers of miracles? Have all the gifts of healing? do all speak with tongues? do all interpret? But covet earnestly the best gifts: and yet shew I unto you a more excellent way." It says in verse 31 "covet earnestly the best gifts" ------------- covet, desire to be something maybe a bit "larger" in the schemata of things is how I read that there bunch of verses. 

  Though I find if your the 1st of all the list of 1 Corinthians 12:29 you are the dinkest. It's not joke..........1 Corinthians 4:13 "Being defamed, we intreat: we are made as the filth of the world, and are the offscouring of all things unto this day." Though my mom says "everyone likes me" and I think there is truth to this. I'm going to pay like earth a compliment, I do think there is a great deal of good in most everyone, a great deal of capacity to love and to care for one another, and I do experience that. I am not stoned, shipwrecked, jailed, the house of horrors things that happened to paul do not happen to me not to that extent. 

 Do I have a massive instagram following um no. Am I racking up the likes big time right now? - nope. But surely I am not shipwrecked, or stoned, or jailed. So my mom is probably right everyone does like me. 

  But back to 1 Corinthians 12:31 "But covet earnestly the best gifts: and yet shew I unto you a more excellent way." I've decided this "more excellent way" jesus wants to show people............jesus wishes that people could acheive the 1 spot of apostle, so he could show them this "more excellent way". I believe this "more excellent way" is something we all can acheive. 

   This "more excellent way" is when you don't seek your own 1 Corinthians 10:24 "Let no man seek his own, but every man another's wealth."

  I tell you all, I have found to be in a lofty place means nothing.........without love it means 000000000000000000000000000000000000 Song of Solomon 8:7 "Many waters cannot quench love, neither can the floods drown it: if a man would give all the substance of his house for love, it would utterly be contemned."

  For reals right now, I know most us secretely value the "likes" on the facebook, and the instagram and for some of us our bodybuilding.com bodyspaces ---------- if we had zillions of "likes" and a high place on this earth Any kind of high place and no love, whether in our hearts or not many people genuinely loving us That would be worth 0 would it not? 

I'd rather instead of seeking these "likes" codemn my own house for loves sake from the jump!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And both love and be loved!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1 Corinthians 13:13 "And now abideth faith, hope, charity, these three; but the greatest of these is charity."

   Have a great week earth!

LOVE
We need each other..................

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I took note one day that without love a person isn't "useful" Matthew 5:13 "Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men."...........

Update 2/15/2024 peloton biked yesterday 😁 NO ASTHMA AT ALL, and NO ARTHRITIS lately. I attribute all this success to probably peloton biking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..................peloton biking could change YOUR LIFE.............

this is my hair unduffused ---------- I juuuust started wearing my natural curly hair all "natural" again. Last night I put a fair amount of coconut oil in my hair...............so today the coils should be even tighter, and today I AM DIFFUSING MY HAIR, and likely adding gel to my hair as well do the full out whole thing to my hair. So it's going to get even bigger then this 😀

poor me in 2016

least you hadn't given up on life 2016 me.........................

I took note one day that without love a person isn't "useful" Matthew 5:13 "Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men."
  My e-mails now for the elder of the apostolic christian church of america and his wife, and my aunt seem to be reaching them again, and I was instructed to love them. To not give up.
  The bible does say Galatians 6:9 "And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not." It is a means of "well doing" to love the apostolic christian church of americians is it not??????????????????????? Not all "well doing" is literally like you know going and helping wash a friends car on the weekends etc. that type of "well doing" is great to very good, but so is a simple e-mail or a letter.
   Anyways I took good note of how if you have lost salt "love" you are then "it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men" imagine that?????????
  This is me on this topic even though it'll seem like I'm getting off of it, cause I ain't always good at "segways"...........
2 Timothy 3:1-3 "This know also, that in the last days perilous times shall come. For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy, Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good," I've been thinking a lot about well how is this time "perilous"

are people dieing physically is that the peril?????

or is the "peril" the bible talking about within??????

I've decided 2 Timothy 3:1-3 is talking about a peril that could happen within. Because if everyone or most people around you truelly are ".............lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy, Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good," it is a peril, it gets harder to love does is not???????????????????

  You'd be real tempted to think "well why should I love all of these ".lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy, Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good,"????????????????????

 I was given the answer.............because people can change, because there is hope for people out there even in the worstest of times. 

  And besides that it is just good to love everyone, it's good inside your soul, 

even the idea of not loving everyone is real peril!

Luke 6:45 "A good man out of the good treasure of his heartbringeth forth that which is good; and an evil man out of the evil treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is evil: for of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaketh." I want good things coming from my mouth just mostly good things (well ok we all have bad days, and I think we should definately be "longsuffering in love" with one another) I don't want to be trampled under the foot of men one day I WANT TO BE USEFUL!

Matthew 5:13 "Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men."

  That's it that's all that's on my heart right now. 

Have a great week!

LOVE

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Ms. Lewis's classrooms fundraiser is now fully funded 😁 But there are many more classrooms with many more needs at Donors Choose..........................

Truth is Mark 10:18 "And Jesus said unto him, Why callest thou me good? there is none good but one, that is, God." We should desire to love one another, forgive one another!........................

Update 2/14/2024 which is valentine's day I do believe. (I don't actually experience valentines day - my husband is "non-demonstrative" he tells me that's a style a person can be............to the point he hardly ever kisses me on the lips)

my new hairdo.....................

  I was reading the bible yesterday and I a few verses stood out to me much Matthew 26:74-75 "Then began he to curse and to swear, saying, I know not the man. And immediately the cock crew. And Peter remembered the word of Jesus, which said unto him, Before the cock crow, thou shalt deny me thrice. And he went out, and wept bitterly." Peter was a "high end" extremely "high end" christian. And he was sure he was going to stick things out with jesus after he was betrayed, and he failed in his mission there. 

  Paul said Romans 7:18 "For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwellethno good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not." 

  On my mind how much we really should show mercy to one another. 

  There is though victory to be had in jesus very much so.........1 John 5:4-5 "For whatsoever is born of God overcometh the world: and this is the victory that overcometh the world, even our faith. Who is he that overcometh the world, but he that believeth that Jesus is the Son of God?"

   Matthew 5:7 "Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy." I do regularly e-mail the elder of the apostolic christian church of america that bashed me hard, and his wife and my apostolic christian aunt. I try and forgive, it's a way I have tried to show mercy, to be merciful...............sometimes I don't know how to show mercy??????????????????????????

  They don't e-mail me back, how do you show mercy to a people that looks like they hate you???????????????????????? 

  But sending the e-mails has helped me show mercy in my heart, where it matters the most pry. 

  For me mercy is active. It's a activity to do. 

  Whether the elder of the apostolic christian church of america by me, still thinks all that horrible stuffs about me, doesn't matter, or what people think about me in general doesn't matter (I was told I was a horrible human being, horrible friend etc. at a meeting with the elder to become a member of their church which didn't happen ------- bashed to the point I was suicidal)......it's do I love, do I forgive how is it in my heart that is the important thing. Keep your heart the bible says Proverbs 4:23 "Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are theissues of life."

  I feel rather familyless most days and that's hard for me. My parents live across the usa, my brother and sisters (well one lives a hour and a half away from me, but the other two live states away). For awhile the apostolic christian church was my family and were filling a void that needed to be filed, and now I just have that void. 

I wake up there it is. 

I go to bed there it is. 

Mark 10:29-31 "And Jesus answered and said, Verily I say unto you, There is no man that hath left house, or brethren, or sisters, or father, or mother, or wife, or children, or lands, for my sake, and the gospel's, But he shall receive an hundredfold now in this time, houses, and brethren, and sisters, and mothers, and children, and lands, with persecutions; and in the world to come eternal life. But many that are first shall be last; and the last first."

  My current job has the potential to become family, and my current church. And I have "internet family" to : ) Things are looking up. I think??????

  I plugging in this 21 pilots song yet again, because the singer sings to "not trust anyone perfect" what he means by that is to not trust the idea of anyone being perfect....................cause it don't exist besides god Mark 10:18 "And Jesus said unto him, Why callest thou me good? there is none good but one, that is, God." I've been lead or wanted to believe it existed a few times in my life, it don't.................you want to have people to look up to right??????????? Who doesn't want people to look up to. And what do you do when you look up to someone do you not put them up on some kind of pedastle.............maybe even to the point of believing they are perfect (especially if they hint that they are)

jesus I believe he loved the people crucifying him - condeming him

Luke 23:34 "Then said Jesus, Father, forgive them; for they knownot what they do. And they parted his raiment, and cast lots." The elder of the apostolic christian church of america didn't know what he was doing, he did not know how much he was actually hurting me that day, if he did I imagine he wouldn't of said all of that. OR I HOPE NOT CAUSE ALL THAT WAS HORRIBLE EVEN IF IT WAS TRUE...........................love one another, build up one another, it's terrible to verbally like stone someone to death like that........trust me I experienced it it was bad. 

Have a great week!

LOVE

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What you sew you will reap Galatians 6:8 "For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting."..............

Update 2/10/2024 bought few books even though it is the shabbat, I shabbated to today. 3 one dollar books -------------- people supposed to go do stuffs on the weekend my husband and kids they live like gentiles. 

but ironic I'm updated on this particular post

cause I was thinkin lately

how much the "narrow way" is about how WE LIVE AND NOT HOW WE LOOK

people they often judge me as one that walks in the flesh

but often I AIN'T WALKING IN THE FLESH

Galatians 6:8 "For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting."

WHAT IS THE 'narrow way" 

the straight and narrow

is reading ones bible everyday I believe

------------- the way of the world

the broad path

is one where people forget about god

Romans 1:28

Furthermore, just as they did not think it worthwhile to retain the knowledge of God, so God gave them over to a depraved mind, so that they do what ought not to be done.

I full believe one can have a very cute barbie type or goth type or barbie and goth type decor room and be on the "straight and narrow" 

this world most it - they don't retain god - they no give god time everyday

god really is to many a "sunday" thing only

straight and narrow isn;'t how  you look

it how you live

(my latest painting, painted at a friends house, it's a mermaid tail laying on concrete with water dripping off of it -------------- I made that up totally via my imagination)

What you sew you will reap Galatians 6:8 "For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting."
Don't make god/the bible jesus only a "sunday" thing!!!!!!!!!! (or only a saturday thing if you are jewish)
  If you sow to the flesh, and buy stuffs and buy stuffs and buys you "shall of the flesh reap corruption" we sow to something every single day, every single one of us this is what I have discovered. Everyday counts!
   You can't walk in the flesh everyday and ignore the word of god, and recogn oh now your going to have a nice crop in your soul Luke 16:13 "No servant can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon."
   This post was inspired by a bodybuilding inspiration video of which I am including in this blog post.........I'm still bodybuilding. Bodybuilding is so linked to how I think about my soul these days, everyday counts, everyday is a day to read my bible, to pray, to watch some christian tv, read some christian blogs. Everyday counts for my physical health as well, everyday, I need to do something near everyday I recogn whether that's a walk, or lifting a few weight --- I'm about to go to the gym and crush it at the gym. 
  It all compounds, it all adds up to something. Those that endure unto the end the same shall be saved, we won't maybe be saved enduring unto the end no WE WILL BE SAVED!!!!!!!!!!!! Matthew 24:13 "But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved."
  I can't say for sure bodybuilding is going to pay off for me though.........it's slow going. But the bible is stock that will pay off, the pay off is there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Isaiah 55:11 "So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplishthat which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it." I love Isaiah 55:11 I serious believe this verse, just reading god's word everyday is doing a fantastical work in my life.............."and is SHALL prosper in the thing whereto I sent it" Forget my blog, forget bodybuilding, forget whatever I could do in this world ----------- be saved!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BE SAVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE WORD OF GOD IS POWERFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Have a great week!

LOVE

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