I've done miriads of stupid sins but all I can do anything about, is today...........

Update 7/27/2024 yes I accept Jesus as my Lord and Savior - different style of christian hahahahhahahah 🤘🤘🤘🤘🤘🤘🤘🤘🤘

  One of the things I got at a garage sale this week. I have some large size ones to - and some small ones somewhere?????????? I find these chinese hand massage balls to be relaxing, and great for people who have arthritis. Sometimes if I knit or crochet and my hand get's stiff - I'll juggle these balls in my hands and feel great again 😁............

the other cmaller chinese balls I have are metal like these but tinier

so now I'm pretty sure ?I have chinese balls in 3 sizes

each size helps your hands in a different way

the big ones get like the outsides of your hands massaged

All I can do anything about is today...........I can't do anything about the past, it's done....................hopeful verse for me.................
2 Chronicles 15:2 "He went out to meet Asa and said to him, “Listen to me, Asa and all Judah and Benjamin. The LORD is with you when you are with him. If you seek him, he will be found by you, but if you forsake him, he will forsake you."
Can a person ever go to far away, that they couldn't turn back to jesus - NO! IF YOU SEEK HIM, HE WILL BE FOUND BY YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hopeful extremely hopeful stuffs for me
Jeremiah 8:6 "I hearkened and heard, but they spake not aright: no man repented him of his wickedness, saying, What have I done? every one turned to his course, as the horse rusheth into the battle." I asking myself these days "what have i done?"??????? What was I thinking? How is taking down a entire church that is trying to save people a good idea? Seriously some the stuffs I've been up to whoa in a bad way whoa...........I really have sat back and asked myself what the heck?
Judas iscariot I'll tell you all something about judas, he was tempted like all us!!!!!!!!!! He wasn't the devil on wheels the devil is the devil.........he was a guy tempted! And god wanted judas saved look................Mark 14:21 "The Son of man indeed goeth, as it is written of him: but woe to that man by whom the Son of man is betrayed! good were it for that man if he had never been born." I know something about god he wishes nobody would perish! He has good thoughts for us........Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end."
John 3:17 "For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved."
There's 0 turning of shadow with god he really wishes we'd turn to jesus! James 1:17 "Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning." The good comes from god! ALL IT! You want long life, you want peace, you want mercy SEEK GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Proverbs 3:1-2 "My son, forget not my law; but let thine heart keep my commandments: For length of days, and long life, and peace, shall they add to thee." This is for reals, length of days, long life, and peace! ALL THE GOOD every good gift and every perfect gift is from above!!!!!!!! Satan only comes to kill and destroy John 10:10 "The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full."
repent turn from your sins, seek god the giver of everything good! Job 42:6
"Therefore I despise myself and repent in dust and ashes.” for reals!

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Mrs. Becky Keith's classrooms fundraiser is now fully funded 😁 But there are many more classrooms with many more needs at Donors Choose..................

Jews, Muslims, Christians Work while it is day, for the night cometh WHEN NO MAN CAN WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.................................

Look you can hate the muslims - that wouldn't be christian of you - but these are real people dieing..................

https://www.reuters.com/world/middle-east/israel-steps-up-bombardment-gaza-city-kills-16-people-around-enclave-medics-say-2025-08-28/

Alliance for Middle East Peace, Inc.

https://www.paypal.com/US/fundraiser/charity/2292480

Update 7/24/2024 went to costco man people will looooooooooooooooook at a skinny vegan, guys girls tons of people full out gawked at me. Except one young maybe skinnier then me chick she just walked past me. 

 Jews, Muslims, Christians Work while it is day, for the night cometh WHEN NO MAN CAN WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.................................
John 9:4 "I must work the works of him that sent me, while it is day: the night cometh, when no man can work." This verse really spoke to me at church last night...........now I know this verse is surely talking about investing in people's lives in a spiritual sort of way...........right now while it is still day people can go to church and god's word does still do a work in them in their hearts ------------ but there'll come a day when NO MAN CAN WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (like people's hearts are going to get hardened -------- and that's NIGHT) It's going to happen clean across the board, to the jews, to the muslims, to the christians, this night is coming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(I think all the religions can see the earth getting a bit darker, people 2 Timothy 3

1This know also, that in the last days perilous times shall come.

2For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy,

3Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good,)
Work while you can!!!!!!!!! Work while it's day!!!!!!!!!!!!! Even if that's just 1 bible verse to give to a friend - DO THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!
God showed me the harvest is plentiful but the workers are few -------- (I can attest few few very few people have "worked" in my life, really invested into my life in a spiritual sort of manner giving me bible verses etc.) Matthew 9:37
"Then he said to his disciples, “The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few."
Right now it's still day, it's STILL DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WORK TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I say this to jews and muslims and christians do god's work TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! While it is still day!

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Mrs. Lee-Perez's classrooms fundraiser is now fully funded 😁 But there are many more classrooms with many more needs at Donors Choose...............

finally I get this verse...............

Update 7/23/2024 went to ikea, bought closet thing in pic that I will likely be hanging clothes on today 😁 IKEA is making me really happy right now! Cause this closet thing was only like $59 bucks and it's mega sturdy - metal and sturdy. And it goes right with the ikea gaming entertainment center, and the square cube shelf is now on the entertainment center cause it fits cause it's also from IKEA. It's just this nice happy about to be organized IKEA zone of happiness now 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

before we bought this closet organizer there were shoes all over the floor to - problem solved now 😁

1 Peter 2:23 "Who, when he was reviled, reviled not again; when he suffered, he threatened not; but committed himself to him that judgeth righteously:" People "revile" me often, but today I finally figured out..........it's best not to revile back..........I told one my friends who isn't my facebook friend anymore --------- it's ok I deserve that................instead of reviling back it was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo the way to go. If I revile back, what am I accomplishing ------------- definately not the will of god then!
Also part where it says "when he suffered, he threatened not" I'm fully prepared now, to not threaten back............whatever it is that I will suffer, and whoever many 100's want to revile me not to revile back..............cause then I'm the bad guy if I revile back.
Instead "committed himself to him that judgeth righteously" that's what I will do for now on out............this is my number 1 problem I let every last thing get to me, and then I try to saw off everyones heads ----------- it just doesn't work out, cause then I'm all angry, I'm all the bad guy then and angry..................finally I've learned just to give it to god.

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Mrs. Mirabel's classrooms fundraiser is now fully funded 😁 But there are many more classrooms with many more needs at Donors Choose................

I'm going to salem fellowship brunstad.org church this sunday.......................

Update 7/21/2024 I thought I was a apostle I am not a apostle. Blessed are the peacemakers, follow after the bible says peace and holiness with all men. Hebrews 12:14
"Follow peace with all men, and holiness, without which no man shall see the Lord:"

  Sometimes a church just ain't meant for a person. Or maybe only for some "time frame" I have no church really that I feel I belong at...........

 it's fine I'm a goth these days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love Lucifer and Jesus BOTH and I likes basking in the moonlight, and going on walks by my favorite lake at night cause the bats fly over head often and I really like that 😁

being the lone sheep if I am a sheep 

it's awesome

jesus leaves the 100 or whatever goes after that 1

win 

win

win

I'm unable to be anything but that one wandering 1

I'm told I'm like everyone else - naw I AIN'T

I am a goth though, so I do have "commonality" with some on earth

I'm back to burning frankincense......................it does take away a lot of arthritis pain. (not all of my arthritis pain - YIKES - but I know the vegan diet brings down inflammation, so I know I will have "success" eventually probably)

I'm going to salem fellowship brunstad.org church this sunday.......................which will leave the entire earth scratching their heads for sure.............I love these people to death, just cause I'm a @#%@# up their #%#@$% doesn't mean I don't love them, for me, that sometime's equals love seems to be when it comes to churches, the church who I'm up your 2#%$#@%$ the most ya special church. ---------- putting in a special clause here, I'm cleaning up this blog, aka deleting blog posts that were basically me picking one long long long fight with brunstad christian church, I'm like not done cleaning my blog up but geez the stuffs I said about this church was like ridiculous and I was completely out of hand. This peace working thing with this church, it's the thing to do in general - part of working peace is deleting some those posts I'm taking a break now though, it's tiring going through all those blog posts. --------------

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Ms. Howards classrooms fundraiser is now fully funded 😁 But there are many more classrooms with many more needs at Donors Choose.................

The secrets of salvation......................HAVE OIL IN YOUR LAMP not just a lamp w/light but oil ZEAL AND FIRE..........................

Update 7/18/2024 evidentally around this time I was talking about the "smiths friends" look they helped me a ton ok. But it wasn't the church for me, cause to long of a drive away. 

  Zeal and fire has 0% to do with how you look, BUT EVERYTHING TO DO WITH HOW YOU LIVE! I'm the sole and only christian in christianity that likes a little makeup from time to time, feel pretty then. I am in a sexless marriage, it is important for me to "feel pretty" lot of the time I feel ugly, especially how attacked on the internet I am so often.................and badly people all but stab me to death................it's either that or they just don't speak to me "for jesus"...................

zeal and fire is going to look different for everyone to

some are zealous to serve at hospitals for instance

my "lane" right now is classroom fundraisers

bible says................

Ecclesiastes 9:10 Amplified Bible (AMP)Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might; for there is no activity or planning or knowledge or wisdom in Sheol (the nether world, the place of the dead) where you are going.

The secrets of salvation......................HAVE OIL IN YOUR LAMP not just a lamp w/light but oil ZEAL AND FIRE..........................the 5 foolish virgins, were also virgins they weren't part of this world/earth but their oil in their lamps went out the zeal and fire for god's word went caput! But you know they also woke up from their slumber and trimmed their lamps...........they had lamps they had slews of good works-----lamps (or as in my case not a massive slew : ) hahahahah but I have a lamp............it could go out!
Matthew 25
2And five of them were wise, and five were foolish.

3They that were foolish took their lamps, and took no oil with them:

4But the wise took oil in their vessels with their lamps.

5While the bridegroom tarried, they all slumbered and slept.

6And at midnight there was a cry made, Behold, the bridegroom cometh; go ye out to meet him.

7Then all those virgins arose, and trimmed their lamps.

8And the foolish said unto the wise, Give us of your oil; for our lamps are gone out.
I always try to have zeal and fire for crucifying my flesh, have fire for something have some oil in this here lamp!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's a awesome thing to be more then a overcomer in christ jesus! MORE then a overcomer that's a overcomer and then some! Overcoming all the lusts of my flesh ALL THEM.......and on top of that taking new land! I'm super gripped for this bible verse these days and the idea of being more then a overcomer not settling for just overcoming my flesh entirelly and my self will............no WAY MORE then a overcomer!............Matthew 17:20
"He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”" NOTHING WILL BE IMPOSSIBLE FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! HELLO christians of the earth we are supposed to be MORE THEN OVERCOMERS IN CHRIST JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (I'm so gripped I have to put all this in caps) Romans 8:37 "Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us."
The smith's friends often talked about the fat land, and um those like jews that like spied the promise land in the bible..........2 them or uh some number of them : ) didn't have faith that they could take the land big giants all in the land, 2 them did have faith............................what is impossible for me if I have faith............Matthew 17:20 "He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”" I've let the giants of the land in my life stop me to much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm not one to think all christians like deserve or need to be or whatever slews of wealthy, but I think we all should be able to be more then conquerors in christ jesus ------------ that's more then just a conqueror! Right now I'm just focusing on like 2 things making happen in my life or like 3 --------------------- shhhhhhhhhhhhhh you better be believing those 3 things going to be happenin for me!!!!!!!!!!!! Cause I'm more MORE then a conqueror in christ jesus - that's a conqueror and then some snap snap snappity snap snap snap snap amen
Satans had to step aside and I be's getting on the hallelujah bus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ya there'll still be hardships or whatever, but geez some mountains are going to move for me! I also want to thank jesus tonight for this verse Romans 8:36 "As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter." I also noted tonight that this verse is right above the "Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us" even being lead to the slaughter daily --------- killed all the day long that don't take away our praise!!!!!!!!!! WE are in ALL THESE THINGS "more than conquerors through him that love us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I praise god that I'm able everyday to be killed all the day long..........to follow jesus Hebrews 2:10 "In bringing many sons and daughters to glory, it was fitting that God, for whom and through whom everything exists, should make the pioneer of their salvation perfect through what he suffered" jesus like us he suffered pry had to deal with misbehaving kids pry had to have patience then! many the sorts of instances where all us have to have patience in a day, via idiotic workers, etc. etc. jesus he for sure went through those things, he for sure suffered and was made "perfect through what he suffered"!!!!!!!!!!
I want to be much more zealous and on fire to follow jesus everyday, be made perfect through what I suffer.........which can mean forgiving, I've forgiven the smith's friends cult I still don't agree with what they are doing with their "buisinesses". I was hurt I'm still in pain a lot! But my future never was in a particular church, though I do go to a church, but my future/present is in jesus! I would't have it any other way!
I've learned to take everything as from the hand of god. It's all all all going to work for my good, all the situations I'm in everything ever thing I have to suffer in this life is going to work towards my salvation..........with my cross fully up follow jesus like this all things are new it's a new life! One where no thing is impossible for me! This jesus gig is good : )

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Ms. Aldana's classrooms fundraiser is now fully funded 😁 But there are many more classrooms with many more needs at Donors Choose...............

Free beach glass ball netting crocheted ornament pattern..............

Free beach glass ball netting crocheted ornament pattern..............
size H hook
(I'm not sure the exact type of yarn I used, cause I got the yarn big tub of it from a craigslist ad : ) pry look even better in a regular (lighter) weight yarn this yarn might be a bit to bulky? Less you be putting some big big orament in it then this bulky sort of hempy yarn would be the thing!

ch 30
slip st in 1st chain making a big loop
ch 100
slip st into the 30th ch from hood making another big loop tie off ends

netting.........
tie a loose knot into one the ch 30 loops (pictured above, well mostly so you get idea loose knot not quite that loose but loose) slip st into the loose knot you just made then (ch 10, crochet 1 sc into big loop) repeat 7 times for a total of 8 ch 10's, slip st into the 1st ch on the 1st loop
row 2 --- slip st into the next 5 ch's (ch 9, 1 sc into the ch 10 loop) repeat around sl st into 5th sl st
row 3 --- sl st into next 5 ch's (ch 6, sc into next ch) repeat around slip stitching into 5th sl st
row 4 --- sl st into next 4 ch's (ch 4, sc into next ch 6 loop) repeat around sl st into 4th sl st
row 5 --- sl st into next 2 ch's (ch 2, sc into next ch 4 loop) repeat around sl st into 2nd sl st
row 6 --- sl st into 1st ch (ch 1, sc into next ch 2 loop) repeat around sl st into 1st sl st
tie off
repeat on other ch 30 loop

I originally designed this to hang on my review mirror, but have found it's great to hang anywhere you want to add some beachy flavor to the decor. (I love the beach, I know I'm not the only one) Also I think it'd be cool to make this in a lightweight yarn, use a clear ornament and add glittery fairy water into the ornaments to make them into beachy fairy sun ornaments (my husbands sister has this wavy glass fairy glitter ornament she loves, some people really into that fairy buisiness) Happy crocheting.

Romans 8:29 "...............he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son..........."

Update 5/4/2026 does heat have something to do with making inflammation worse??????????? Cause yesterday it was hot out, and my arthritis not only got mega bad, but my hands all puffed out to...........that was post ice bathing, but I didn't stay in the ice bath long, I stayed in the ice bath longer today so hopefully today will be a better day for me.

traffic is still high on my blog so I am adding the content!!!!!!!!!................

I listen to kpdq before I go to bed everynight (christian radio station, I've done this for years nights that I have a hard time sleeping I at least am like edified a lot!) Last night was such a good service on kpdq, some pastor was talking about how do you know your salvation is sure, that a lot of people think they are saved and aren't out there. This verse way way way was good for me to hear last night............
Romans 8:29 "For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren." Pastor talked about how god "foreknew" us the elect before the foundations of the earth......really speaks to me to us he foreknowed........"he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his son" You mainstream christians need to get your earholes open and hear this............Hebrews 5:8-9
8Though he were a Son, yet learned he obedience by the things which he suffered;

9And being made perfect, he became the author of eternal salvation unto all them that obey him;
I'm going to work harder to suffer in the flesh! Have that ongoing sword up against my flesh...........and I'll still be on my sarong sewing athon : ) but with zeal to follow jesus and suffer in the flesh MUCH!My flesh needs to be down dead and crucified!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Nothing but a SWORD for the lusts of my flesh!!!!!!!!!! Galatians 5:24 "And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts."
And my understanding of this bible verse was lengthened last night 2 Peter 1:10
"Wherefore the rather, brethren, give diligence to make your calling and election sure: for if ye do these things, ye shall never fall:" I used to just view making my calling and election sure idea of that as having some big big fancy smanshy ministry but now I see that ain't it at all..........it's all about crucifying my flesh being crucified with christ Galatians 2:20 "I am crucified with Christ:..........."
God He can't finish the work he started in you less you/I be going about that work!!!!!!!!!!!! Romans 9:28 "For he will finish the work, and cut it short in righteousness: because a short work will the Lord make upon the earth." Whole idea of being predestined to be conformed to christ's image requires that my flesh be crucified to it's lusts and desires!!!!!!!!!!! That I be made perfect like christ in the things I suffer, not just in the flesh I've decided but the bad things that happen to me to, that I learn to forgive and love my enemies and pray for them. But also so much so so much moreso that my flesh be dead!!!!!!!!!! So I can have it in my heart to love my enemies and pray for them!
I want to get rid of all the woes me athons!!!!!!!!!! All that that STINKS in my flesh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sometime's I get on such pity parties and they really do nothing for me! The bad circumstances in my life may never change - fact I'm convinced they never will!!!!!!!!!! I want to have it right in my heart for my enemies anyways, love them, pray for them. All this woes me I've decided it comes from my flesh, from buisiness not crucified in my flesh! I hate the stink of my flesh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ready to be good and crucified with christ, that a good aroma happens!
Don't be stinky smell like jesus : ) he was made perfect via the things he suffered!!!!!!!!!!!!