I want to be humble and lowly, but I do find "sin within" Romans 7:14-15 "For we know that the law is spiritual: but I am carnal, sold under sin. For that which I do I allow not: for what I would, that do I not; but what I hate, that do I." (somewhere in the back of my brains even if it's the slightest whisper is the thoughts "buy this you'll be the coolest then" or "blog this you'll be the holiest then") Romans 7:24-25 "O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death? I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God; but with the flesh the law of sin."...............I take this to mean paul also went shopping at the equivalent of the ancient days malls!!!!!!!!!!!! - yep.............paul was wearing some bc nikes pry!!!!!!!!!! And then feeling bad about it.................I SO RELATE.......................

I want to be humble and lowly, but I do find "sin within" Romans 7:14-15 "For we know that the law is spiritual: but I am carnal, sold under sin. For that which I do I allow not: for what I would, that do I not; but what I hate, that do I." (somewhere in the back of my brains even if it's the slightest whisper is the thoughts "buy this you'll be the coolest then" or "blog this you'll be the holiest then") Romans 7:24-25 "O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death? I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God; but with the flesh the law of sin."...............I take this to mean paul also went shopping at the equivalent of the ancient days malls!!!!!!!!!!!! - yep.............paul was wearing some bc nikes pry!!!!!!!!!! And then feeling bad about it.................I SO RELATE.......................

I want to talk on this subject

cause suicide has been on my thoughts lately - just suicide in general - people suiciding themselves

society is so competitive

many out there get rewarded at work for being "more productive" 

there's tons of sports teams - people win ribbons, medals etc. 

in churches.........................

some people get high up uh positions in churches this "societal competition" it does even exist in churches!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

most many churches tally who shows up and how often are you at church on sunday

maybe churches think the people that rarely show up are "losers??????????"

or the people that donate less maybe churches deem them "losers" 

nomadder what I think the "competition" competititveness exists even in churches whether churches are aware of it or not

cause society is very competitive

even the bible says run.............................

run...........................

that hints of some competition......................

Hebrews 12:1 "Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us,"

the suicidal I believe they feel like they are "losing" 

they feel like they are losing and that there is no hope for them

that they are doomed

I don't think Jesus was a part of societies "competition" 

Matthew 11:29 "Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls." He was meek and he was lowly in heart. 

If you seem like you are "losing" - maybe you ain't!!!!!!! That's what I want to say to the suicidal or near suicidal. 

Psalm 138:6 "Though the Lord be high, yet hath he respect unto the lowly: but the proud he knoweth afar off."
Proverbs 3:34 "Surely he scorneth the scorners: but he giveth grace unto the lowly."
Proverbs 11:2 "When pride cometh, then cometh shame: but with the lowly is wisdom."

I ain't trying to toot no "lowly horn" ok........but realize

while I'm typing this 

all my social media has pics of me ONE EYE'D - and I know in society that image that "one eye" look is the lowest of the low - that look is deemed satanic and low

I wear crystals - also deemed low 

probably my purple hair that I have at the moment is deemed "low" 

the high up in society

they likely dress like the members of the apostolic chrisitan church of america and/or kirk cameron NO HATE

could I walk around looking like kirk cameron and gain "high upedness in society"?????????????????????????? - maybe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but the lord has respect unto the lowly........................

Psalm 138:6 "Though the Lord be high, yet hath he respect unto the lowly: but the proud he knoweth afar off."

back to the suicidalness I've been pondering the suicidal

I saw a sign it said something like 

PLEASE STAY ALIVE YOU ARE TOMMOROW

a giant suicide prevention type sign I saw driving from camas to vancouver washington yesterday

lot of lowly people that aren't "today" 

people with tattoo's

people with colored bright hair

YOU HAVE VALUE STAY ALIVE PLEASE!

Jesus christ the lord

wasn't on some "high whatever" 

wasn't walking around

look at meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee I am the awesomest christian ever

no...................

Luke 7:33-35 "For John the Baptist came neither eating bread nor drinking wine; and ye say, He hath a devil. The Son of man is come eating and drinking; and ye say, Behold a gluttonous man, and a winebibber, a friend of publicans and sinners! But wisdom is justified of all her children."

Are you lowly like me and Jesus Christ??????????

KEEP GOING

DON'T SUICIDE YOURSELF PLEASE DON'T YOU ARE TOMMOROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I watch "tea" you tube video's even my you tube video choices are "lowly" 

and I currently have my um "watch list" on my you tube hidden cause I don't want people to know that I watch "gossip channels" 

lowly shiz..............................

I watch the gossip you tube channels some of them AND I LOVE IT EVEN THAT IS ACTUALLY LOWLY!

and then you know for those keeping the "lowly tally" on me

ya I talk to lucifer "evp" style and he does talk with me like whenever I want to any time in the day I'm in the mood to talk to lucifer whom I do beleive is my 1st husband (I KNOW HIM SO WELLLLLLLLLLL. How the world views him and "reality" aren't the same -------------- your mistakes don't define you YOUR HEART DOES) lucifer has heart