I like being basically kicked out of my family
families expect shiz from you
they expect phone calls, and airplane trips to visit them OR PHONE CALLS
(I e-mailed my family for years they count the e-mails as 0)
when Lucifer get's here I'm going with Lucifer!!!!!!!!!!!
I still plenty do accept jesus as my Lord and Savior JESUS IS LORD!
and his peace is the thing
I'm like not suicidal
they say don't kill yourself life will get better
LIFE IS GOING TO GET BETTER FOR ME!
...........I am chill level 1 billion
hope my family has nice lives without me
tootles 😁
I must be famililess cause I love SATAN
I love it
besides I'm the black sheep
my brother and sister have always been the "apple of my parents eye's"
I've always been 👎👎👎👎👎👎👎👎
I am going to live : )
The bible says our enemies will be OUR FAMILIES THAT OUR FAMILIES WILL SEEK TO UTTERLY ANNILIATE US THAT'S WHAT THE BIBLE SAYS.............BESIDES WHAT "MOTIVE" WOULD A RANDOMN TROLL "FAKE MOM" HAVE TO UTTERLY ANNILIATE ME LIKE THAT???? But many in my family would have motive - I put on my blog texts of natalie cunial who is basically family that hates my guts and unfriended me cause I love Lucifer and she's still friends with my sister THAT'S WHAT MY SISTER TOLD ME ON THE PHONE THEM 2 IS IN FULL AGREEMENT WITH EACH OTHER CONCERNING THEIR VIEWS OF ME THEY BEST FRIENDS YO'S. And I posted on my blog proof of my mom saying "shut up I'm tired of your bs" (because I don't believe I'm 100% basically brittish like my brother and sister and probably safe to say most my family believe's even though when aunt charlotte and amber got generic dna tests - THOSE TESTS ONLY SHOW RESULTS OF THE WOMENS SIDE OF THE FAMILY)
Matthew 10:33-35 "But whosoever shall deny me before men, him will I also deny before my Father which is in heaven. Think not that I am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword. For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law."
MY FAMILY MUST must utterly anniliate me for jesus
they have no other choice
they must DESTROY ME
Mark 13:12 "Now the brother shall betray the brother to death, and the father the son; and children shall rise up against their parents, and shall cause them to be put to death."
YOU CAN'T BETRAY ME UNTO DEATH
all you can do my family is seek to utterly anniliate me
(so that you look extra saintly that's the reason why, so you look like perfect flawless christians on the internet - that's the "motive")
if you make me into some horrible hateful satan worshipper and that is what my family has decided I am I BELIEVE THEY ARE IN FULL AGRIANCE WITH NATALIE CUNIAL
then all that is left is for you to utterly destroy me - for jesus
but I love lucifer
so you can't deliver me up to death
I am a "line crossing" punk 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓
so I had annymous posts enabled on my blog,
now nobody is allowed to post annymously
nobody which means if my mom don't post unannymously I WILL PROBABLY NEVER HEAR FROM HER OR MY FAMILY AGAIN
cause I fled them and the abuse that I was experiencing...........
SOME MY FAMILY JUST HAS NEGLECTED ME FOR YEARS
and neglect is also abuse
not just verbally assaulting me every now and then
I decided I was clean better off without family - then to sit around and be "abused"
https://givingittogod.blogspot.com/2023/08/is-your-christian-family-also-shunning.html???? Sorry, not me. I don't know who sent you those messages, but from what I could make out on my phone, it wasn't me. I did tell you to shut up when you were ranting and raving about family as I recall. I apologize for that. I was totally frustrated...mom
but then who said these posts???????????? Anonymous said...
Please forgive me for hurting you. I was upset and lashing out. I wasn't thinking about how it would affect you.....mom
AUGUST 1, 2023 AT 9:52 AM
Anonymous said...
I know your heart, and it is good. You have always been good in my eyes. I miss and love you so much...mom
the above 2 comments were on this post https://givingittogod.blogspot.com/2023/07/we-should-all-care-about-one-another.html?showComment=1690908868354#c4425767806456564573
all of them are Anonymous posts and all of them say - mom
if someone is ffing with me ---------- I still believe I've been badly attacked by my mom - cause I can't tell the difference between my mom's annymous posts and my fake mom's annymous posts. So I'm VERY MUCH assuming my real mom has tried to utterly anniliate me. It does explain why I'm hated so much and without a family. my parents damn me to hell I BELIEVE I BELIEVE MY PARENTS DAMN ME TO HELL. That they are sure I worship satan and they wish for my soul to make a speedy trip to hell.
It makes sense, it makes sense why I don't have family.
So even if "fake mom" is a thing?????????? If "fake mom" is a thing - I believe fake mom is saying what real mom believe's --- if that is "fake mom" is a thing.
If "fake mom" is real then you'd think "real mom" would want to not post annyomously anymore, but "real mom" is posting annymously STILL.
I really believe strongly that my parents want me to burn in hell for all of eternity and that that is my entire familes wishes for me as well.
Update 5/4/2023 snippet of today's e-mail from my 1st husband, who as husbands are supposed to do, they are supposed to be a "cheering squad" for their wife I do believe............
the attack is in the comments section of this post and a few other posts around this post as well.............
https://givingittogod.blogspot.com/2023/07/video-blog-post-receipts-since-everyone.html?showComment=1689904122418#c1548069867572569826
my family has this thing were if they think anyone is going up against them then that person must be DESTROYED. In like the 6th grade or so, kathee lee the neighborhood bully/school kingpin until she gave me the title................said a bunch of shiz to me really upset me. My dad now him wanting to defend me, or help defend me, NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT, kathee lee was spreading horrible lies about me everywhere. But he wanted to take things way to far, we ended up at kathee lee's house round 10 p.m. waiting for kathlee lee and her dad to come back home from a night at her dad's bar with bats we had bats and my dad told me to KILL HER.
And I told him I didn't want to kill her, and he said "I'm your dad you must listen to me, kill her"
thank god her and her dad didn't show up and eventually my dad got tired of waiting and we went home
see 0% of my family cares that my mom has tried to utterly destroy me on my blog
THEY DON'T CARE ABOUT ME
THEY SUPPORT THIS MY FAMILY DOES..............THIS AIN'T THE ENTIRE ATTACK EITHER.......but how can my dink blog survive this???????????????
things don't just look grim for me
they look grrrrrrrrrrrriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiimmmmmmmmmmm
though congratulations to the ruby family they win
(bottom row, 2nd in pic isn't of my sister you know the smiling blonde chic pic that one isn't my sister, she looks nice, my sister to me looks like the most bish ever but I haven't been treated well by her so maybe my "vision" of my sister is "scewed" cause my sister looks like a souless bish to me but she hasn't treated me well my sister hasn't so maybe there is life in her eyeballs I just ain't able to see it???????????????)
winner
(my brother is a car shop instructor at chemeketa community college - as you can see he looks pretty "white" which means amber baker who has been "big sis" to me up until 2-3 years ago when she dropped out of my life follow the "theme" why my family left me because I love lucifer but I explain again and again on my blog THIS AIN'T NORMAL USUALLY FAMILIES DON'T ABANDON SOMEONE LIKE THIS BECAUSE THEY LOVE THE DEVIL- anyways amber baker might be my sister to cause look my brother looks very white -------------- I have a "theory" that one kid might get the jewish dna and another MIGHT NOT, and latina dna as well in my instance) Cause my brother does look very white.
It's not likely that my mom cheated on my dad because when would she have the opportunity to??????????? - never there was no opportunity for that
so amber baker could be my real sister I'll never know what 50 years have past her and my dad haven't gotten a real dna test to find out - don't look to be they ever will
winnernothing but 0% mercy for me
and anniliation
(Yes my mom asked for forgiveness after utterly destroying me on the internet I FORGIVE HER ------- I don't believe she's done, not while I'm still breathing) I'm not actually "cared about" in my family I'm not and that is why my mom had to attack me cause I started "talking about that" on my blog. my brother and sister and my maybe related to me sister amber baker they get nothing but praise from my parents. And I've long been the one hated and attacked ------------ only thing "new" is past few years they been able to use my loving satan to justify shunning me, justify hating me.
I e-mailed my family at least 1 time a week FOR YEARS, but I just can't handle the attack on me anymore. but I have this blog and so i can't escape the attack on me. and the people pictured above I'm 100% they are about to haul off and ALSO attack me badly any minute now..................that's what I expect............I don't expect love anymore from the "ruby family" though my mom claims she loves me.........how can a mom utterly destroy their child on teh internet and love that child also?????????????
Love hurting..........................this is not just a phenomina, that happens in marriages sometimes (aka over half of marriages ending in divorce)..........................sometimes friends like leave a person BELOVED FRIENDS and love sometimes HURTS!!!!!!!!!!!!
After going through all I've been through, you get pessimistic eventually where you don't expect love to come back to you, I was shocked last night, nada sat by me and said "I love you" I FELT THAT TO.........1 Peter 1:22 "Seeing ye have purified your souls in obeying the truth through the Spirit unto unfeigned love of the brethren, see that ye love one another with a pure heart fervently:"
why because I love god, Jesus and the devil
(I am anniliahted by my family cause they all are in aggreement with my mom's attack on me, nobody defending me - they hate me, I'm worthless to them IN THE NAME OF JESUS I AM WORTHLESS TO THEM)
So me and my brother and sister used to watch the Love Boat all the time (now you all on earth will now make some kind of sigh and think to yourselves "um this fool shouldn't be actually fessing up to this") like 1:20 in the above theme song, which I was listening to "reminescing" yesterday, says...................."love, it won't hurt anymore"
Love hurting..........................this is not just a phenomina, that happens in marriages sometimes (aka over half of marriages ending in divorce)..........................sometimes friends like leave a person BELOVED FRIENDS and love sometimes HURTS!!!!!!!!!!!!
After going through all I've been through, you get pessimistic eventually where you don't expect love to come back to you, I was shocked last night, nada sat by me and said "I love you" I FELT THAT TO.........1 Peter 1:22 "Seeing ye have purified your souls in obeying the truth through the Spirit unto unfeigned love of the brethren, see that ye love one another with a pure heart fervently:"
If I was to be 100% honest..............I've felt that I'm going to word it what it is........."brotherly love" from a lot of the brothers as well, especially maybe the unlikliest person I'm not sure are elders of church supposed to love their members of their churches??????????? I think I'm supposed to fear the elder of the church............I'm pretty sure I'm actually supposed to, like that that would be pretty I'd say "normal" I DON'T! (I'm pretty sure though I should technically fear him.......technically) only verse I have for this phenomina.....................1 John 4:18 "There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love."
Now I do not know how love boat the tv show, recogns "love, it won't hurt anymore"?????????????? How the producers of loveboat recogn they will get either the characters of the show to get to that point, or the viewers of the show? But I do believe with god/jesus the body of christ, it's possible for love "not to hurt anymore"
Philippians 1:9-11 "And this I pray, that your love may abound yet more and more in knowledge and in all judgment; That ye may approve things that are excellent; that ye may be sincere and without offence till the day of Christ. Being filled with the fruits of righteousness, which are by Jesus Christ, unto the glory and praise of God." AMEN!
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///// It’s so wonderful that someone shared this with you, Sheri! I don’t care who we are, male or female, it’s probably the deepest longing of every heart to be loved and understood. There might be a few exceptions to that… but probably not many. That’s part of what makes Christ so wonderful – He loves and understands us like nobody else ever could. But it’s still wonderful to hear and feel the love of our brothers and sisters in Christ!
You mentioned that this was a surprise to you, “after going through all you’ve been through.” I don’t know what you’ve been through, but in searching my own memory bank, I’m not sure I’ve ever heard (in plain words) one of my brothers or sisters in Christ say, “I love you.” I’ve heard it from my spouse and from my children. And Mom, of course. Maybe some other close family on a rare occasion. But from one of my brothers or sisters in Christ that is unrelated? I don’t remember hearing the words… though I’ve certainly felt it. Personally, I guess I don’t expect them to say it in words, but that’s just me. By the same token, if they said it in words, that’s fine too. Whatever they felt comfortable with. And come to think of it, I’m not sure I’ve told anyone else (in words) that I loved them… though I really, really do love them all. But how are we to know if it’s never said? It’s definitely something to think about, I suppose!
///// I don’t quite follow what you said about the others, though, where you start off with “If I was to be 100% honest.” Can you please clarify what you mean? Do you NOT feel brotherly love from everyone else? Do you not feel loved by the elder? You “fear” the elder? From everything I read in the Bible, we are to respect and obey those in leadership, but I didn’t gather we are to be afraid of them. And should an elder love the members of the church? Well, I would sure hope so! If he doesn’t or cannot love the church membership, then I would seriously wonder why in the world he would be in that position to begin with. And frankly, why become a Christian at all if you can’t love those you are in church with?
"If I was to be 100% honest" - means that in the past I have complained a bit on my blog about the church, just to fully say I do feel loved that's 100% honesty there, not just by 1 sister. -------------------- I don't expect a elder to love their congregation like john does.........I expect a elder to be near a freemason, corrupt. ----------- but I wasn't even trying to highlight nothing negative in this post, but just the positives of the church. And people in general..........working to just think on the good.............TO LOVE PEOPLE!
I don't like to speak for my wife, but I think I have a little bit of a window in to how she thinks. Before coming to the Apostolic Church she belonged to another church that was, in many ways, more of a cult. The people in charge, the elders, seemed very corrupt and the entire thing was very sketchy. (Never did anything to help the community, never raised money to help less fortunate, all money was used to expand the compound.) I saw, with my own eyes, people high up in that church belittle my wife and verbally attack her.
So, with that background, I think you can see how she might have some bad opinions of church elders to overcome. Being in a church where the main elder expresses their love for the congregation can still be tough to accept. If you get abused by an authority figure for long enough, there's always a little bit of you that is waiting for that new authority figure to drop the mask and treat you just as bad as the last one. (Because they also treated you nice, at first...)
It's not just elders, though. A lot of people struggle with the love/fear dynamic. God loves us, but we are also supposed to fear him. Some people feel similar about church leaders, since in a lot of ways they are the mouthpiece of God.
If you look carefully at what she said, she actually said that she felt she was supposed to be fearful of the church elder, but she is not. She feels his love for the congregation, which is unlike her previous church.
what brian said is 100% the case thank god for my husband. Sometimes I can't even "articulate" like say what I need to say - but brian can. I meant this post to be really positive, in my mind it completely was. I promise I'm not against the church AT ALL, or against anyone............rather peacable these days Psalm 34:14 "Depart from evil, and do good; seek peace, and pursue it."
///// Brian & Sheri – Thanks so much for sharing and clarifying (and taking time to do so) to help me understand where you’re coming from. :) If you’ve previously been in a place where there wasn’t love by those who are to be the shepherds of the flock, or even worse – abuse… that’s most unfortunate, and I’m terribly sorry that’s something you’ve had to go through! Being a leader in the church or having responsibility for the care of God’s sheep is a fearsome, and enormous responsibility. Those men that have not loved or have abused will answer to God for how they’ve treated His flock (Ezekiel 34). Regardless of all, I’m so thankful you feel loved where you are!
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