My mom e-mailing me and commenting both she did recently on my blog has stressed me out so bad. I need out of my family where I'm laughed at and a joke.................I need people in my life that are proud to know me, that I could gasp put a picture of them and myself on my blog mention their names..................OH 1ST AND LAST YA.........THAT'S WHAT I NEED...............don't exist don't look to be...........but that's what I need, being in a family where I'm a joke isn't doing my mental health good or stress levels, I'm so stressed....................

 My mom e-mailing me and commenting both she did recently on my blog has stressed me out so bad. I need out of my family where I'm laughed at and a joke.................I need people in my life that are proud to know me, that I could gasp put a picture of them and myself on my blog mention their names..................OH 1ST AND LAST YA.........THAT'S WHAT I NEED...............don't exist don't look to be...........but that's what I need, being in a family where I'm a joke isn't doing my mental health good or stress levels, I'm so stressed....................

for me that ain't the methodist church - I don't hate them - I know I'm not loved understand the difference safe to say it's cause I'm headed to hell and it ain't even them IT'S ME

still if I ain't loved that's not the place

but brian refuses to go to another denomination of church

not that there even is one for me on earth

cause all christian churches hate the devil

I'm trapped at church

trapped...........cause I don't want to be a "thief"..............

John 10:1 "Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that entereth not by the door into the sheepfold, but climbeth up some other way, the same is a thief and a robber."

I don't want to be a thief and thief god!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

or be a thief in general

I don't want to do that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

why I have to also be trapped in my family

--------- yesterday I did go to my little sisters instagram and I guess my mom "saw that" somehow????????????????????????

my little sister went on a fancy vacation

aka her normal life still going on

they fine without me

good

and leave me alone thank you you have done so much harm to my life my family

DON'T LOVE ME EITHER

YOU LAUGHED AT ME SO MUCH! I AM NOTHING BUT A JOKE TO YOU THAT YOU DON'T WANT ANYBODY TO KNOW THAT YOUR EVEN RELATED TO ME - GO LIVE YOUR LIVES THEN LEAVE ME OUT OF IT PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!! 

I'M GOING WITH LUCIFER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND I LOVE THE COLOR

BLACK

black

black

black

black

blackkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

I repent give my life to jesus 

and will keep torturing myself by going to church

but keep your "praise jesus" 

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I likes black

blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack