If you want to make a difference in this world - let your flaws, show, a super "white washed facade" is not going to help many people (I'm alotting that it could help a few people cause the bible says to listen to the sermons of the pharisee's just don't do what they do)....................

If you want to make a difference in this world - let your flaws, show, a super "white washed facade" is not going to help many people (I'm alotting that it could help a few people cause the bible says to listen to the sermons of the pharisee's just don't do what they do)....................Matthew 23:3 "So you must be careful to do everything they tell you. But do not do what they do, for they do not practice what they preach." That's why I never worried much about if the apostolic christian church of america were or aren't pharisee's (there's people out there that appear to firmly believe that the apostolic christian church of america members are pharisee's --------- there is potential for that going on at that church..............I'm hoping for many of them still myself), I always knew it was ok to listen to the apostolic christian church of america even if they were/are pharisee's cause their sermons is good. But you know my point is, pharisee's could be helpful.
  But jesus appears to be pretty against this "white washed" be obsessed with having a super clean outside cup idea in my estimation. The bible says......................James 5:16 "Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much." I think that's what jesus wants for the whole body of christ for us to indeed confess our faults to one another (which for me happens often on my blog, it counts). NOT CRACK OUT THE WHITE PAINT AND PAINT AND PAINT AND PAINT IT ALL PRETTY AND PERFECT ALWAYS! 
  My dad wants me to delete the previous blog post, my family is super concerned that they must look perfect..........and my mom is convinced that my blog is "super big" on this earth........it is.................but I am struggling to get them to understand that they could have flaws AND IT'S OK! ------ they ain't getting it.
  It's so weird to, cause I'll talk, they'll see me talk...........am I the worse for confessing my faults????????? Am I?????????? Naw I don't believe I am ever. People want that, they want to care about each other for one!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  And to care about each other............does it not help if we confess our faults, and struggles etc. etc. etc. to one another (say if I battled a eating disorder....................for example) so that they could pray for me, or try and give me I don't know web links to help get victory over my eating disorder (just a example........well kind of..............technically I do battle a eating disorder "binge eating disorder" is what it is called. People want to hear these kinds of things both in the body of christ and outside of it, they want to care! 
Often I'll blog about going to the foodbank and helping out, or buying stuffs at https://thehungersite.greatergood.com/clicktogive/ths/home
I am not a fluke item out there! Many people both in the body of christ and outside of it, care for one another.........................I'm talking about neighbors caring about neighbors I've experienced it in my own cul - de - sac.................(one of our neighbors one day was concerned, that we were maybe struggling to pay some bills and said if we ever needed help to just ask.............so nice).
""""""sheri that isn't even reality, people are aweful out there and if you say one thing that makes you look bad someway THEY WILL SCEWER YOU ALIVE" ------- naw they pry won't, actually they have lives buisy lives I find, they ain't like all with some list of enemies they must scewer alive most people like don't have such a list I'm saying. The world is actually pretty good a lot of it. And everytime something ugly does happen out there.............this truth shines again and again, with the countless people that help after natural disasters etc.
  I take back this song, it is only "evil" if you chose to make it "evil".....................

  John Lennon was a chill dude, I just don't think he had "disbolical plans" with this song at all.........fact I think this song is rather nice. 

Micah 4:3 "And he shall judge among many people, and rebuke strong nations afar off; and they shall beat their swords into plowshares, and their spears into pruninghooks: nation shall not lift up a sword against nation, neither shall they learn war any more."

  My hippy self is getting off topic though................................it's ok to not be perfect. And further think upon the above song..................john lennon he wasn't a perfect guy, singing all them "sinner songs" (I don't know much about john lennon......trying) my point he wasn't """""""""pristine"""""""""""""" but he didn't need to be did he?????????????

  No all he needed...........was heart! 

 Thumbs up John Lennon 👍

I believe the apostolic christian church loves me, I believe it a lot to.........................

I believe the apostolic christian church loves me, I believe it a lot to.........................maybe it don't matter...............they gonna maybe hold tight to their last remaining commandment of men til they die????????????? But maybe, just maybe, it's good to hold out that little bit of hope that someday.................they will change. 

  Love the bible says..............hopeth all things.....................well why not hope good things for one another????????????????

1 Corinthians 13:4-7 "Charity suffereth long, and is kind; charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up, Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil; Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth; Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things."

   And I'm even confessing on this here blog post, I did e-mail the 4 apostolic christian church of america members I e-mail and told them half joking (half I really believe it..............which might make me a idiot................) I told them to fear for their lives that I wield "the power of Marilyn Monroe" --------- which I for reals believe in, but I was/am very mindful of how ridiculous that sounds...........................complete with a picture of me looking smack like marilyn Giant photo I e-mailed them 💓💓💓💓💓💓

  Well that was me trying to "cry power" but you all know pry where real power is........oh ya it's in loving one another.....................

Let the revolution of love begin earth!!!!!! 

LOVE

Just heard the Aleinu (messianic jewish um thing we read) reminding me why my identity (which isn't hingent upon what race I am) is SO IMPORTANT........................

Just heard the Aleinu (messianic jewish um thing we read) reminding me why my identity (which isn't hingent upon what race I am) is SO IMPORTANT. Back story for anyone new to my blog, for my mom's sake I've recently said I'd try for awhile to walk around with out a tichel on and my mom clean said on line on like my instagram I think or maybe my blog how happy she is about that. And I'm sweating the idea of loosing MY IDENTITY!
The beginning of the Aleinu really got to me this morning...............
https://www.jewishvoice.org/read/blog/prayers-and-blessings-messianic-judaism

Aleinu 

""""It is incumbent upon us to praise the Master of all, to exalt the Creator of the world, for He has made us separate from the nations and unique among the families of the earth. Our destiny is not like theirs; our calling is our task.""""

When your, my, destiny "is not like theirs; our calling is our task" That makes a huge difference in how one lives!

   If my """"""destiny"""""""" was of this earth...................was on this planet here...............................then surely I should be spending all of my time, loosing weight.........and getting plastic surgery, and uhhhhhhh buying lots of jewelry so I can bling good, and um lots of fashionable clothing so I look just right always, and uhhhhhhhh I should wrap myself pry in clay gotta sweat those last few calories out. Going to the salon always to get my nail beds looking nice. Etc. Like all the time, I am pretty sure about this.
   There's many instances out there where people took on the habits, customs, of neighboring towns, etc. AND LOST THEIR IDENTITY!

   I'm not going to say that identity is tied to race at all either Romans 2:29 "But he is a Jew, which is one inwardly; and circumcision is that of the heart, in the spirit, and not in the letter; whose praise is not of men, but of God." That tichel means to me "ah yes I am a christian jew - whew what a relief"
   Colossians 2:20-22 "Wherefore if ye be dead with Christ from the rudiments of the world, why, as though living in the world, are ye subject to ordinances, (Touch not; taste not; handle not; Which all are to perish with the using;) after the commandments and doctrines of men?"
--  In my mind hairstyles are a "rudiment of the world"
--  so is jewelry (though my germanite bracelets are needed for arthritis reasons and I am 100% they helped my gluten allergy go away)
Pry a few more things that are the rudiments of the world I have no buisiness touching.
----------- Ya I can have my hair down and still have my identity I realize that. But that scares me. I am terrified of not only how much I look like Marilyn Monroe.............how much I enjoy impersonating her............but don't get me wrong at all I love Marilyn Monroe, I am a mega fan and I consider her family forever. 

  Without the tichel on my head............."the flames are fanned" in my mind. And maybe in reality to. those "Marilyn Monroe".......................................play some sexytime music (this my song pic cause George Micheal has some very sexytime songs and Aretha Franklin passed away recently and I am a fan of them both)...............

  Man that's hot.............................................................good news I don't need lingerie 👍 In all things give thanks that's what the bible says 👍

1 Thessalonians 5:18 

"In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you."

ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm................

Have a great week earth!

LOVE

Don't sweat it myself, listen to the lyrics of the song...............................jesus is waiting for me, and he's waiting for you to. 

  

How the devil works 101: "If you just buy that your life will be great all of the sudden"...................

How the devil works 101: "If you just buy that your life will be great all of the sudden" Ephesians 6:11 "Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil."...................
  I want to buy something right now, quite a bit..............smith's friends BCC brunstad christian church though they I think go by yet another name these days they have a song or had a song in their hymnal it went.....................(this is my giving credit for the song, of where it originates, no copryright infringement is intended though I have completely forgotten the name of their songbook it's been so many years).....................
"""that's not for me
that's not for me
all worhip of idols I'll flee
my all I have placed on god's altar to stay
I cast every idol away"""
---- One of my favorites of all their songs I love that song.
   Are there things that would indeed help my life out "out there". THAT I WOULD EVEN ENJOY TO HAVE! - yes.
  But they just ain't all for me! Luke 9:25 "For what is a man advantaged, if he gain the whole world, and lose himself, or be cast away?"
  Maybe this is what paul was talking about or at least part of it, when he said he "dies daily" 1 Corinthians 15:31 "I protest by your rejoicing which I have in Christ Jesus our Lord, I die daily."
  That doesn't mean don't buy nothing ever, I'm having my husband order me a bunch of winter fleeced lined leggings on amazon. But it's good to know or have a idea of what things aren't for us as followers of the lord.
  And yes all things are lawful  1 Corinthians 10:23 "All things are lawful for me, but all things are not expedient: all things are lawful for me, but all things edify not." But you do not want to be buying up everything your eyeballs see and probably in doing that loose the holy spirit's guidance in your life Jude 1:19 "These be they who separate themselves, sensual, having not the Spirit."
  Ps to the baptist church my family currently attends, I do not "separate" myself, my husband walks swiftly out of the church post the service and I am then expected to follow him swiftly out of the church post the service. So that there "scenario" isn't one that is my "doing" really. And the pastors wife hasn't imm'd me yet to let me know a fresh bible study has started up..............and I don't know if a fresh bible study has started up yet???? Once I hear bible study has started up, I attend to go to it.
  This is a short blog post cause I have a terrible migraine headache.
 It's time to wake up................commercials buy buy buy buy buy buy buy the system isn't rigged for none of us to be saved (by system I mean the worlds system).
Romans 12:2 "And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God."

  They woke up the lions - RAWR................

(ps that is a yellow cute sesame street cross and skullbones for the lord RAWR)

To make my mom happy I'm trying to have my hair down for a bit of time to prove a point it isn't going to make me popular all of the sudden.....I am hated by the entire planet FOR GOOD MAYBE.......................

To make my mom happy I'm trying to have my hair down for a bit of time to prove a point it isn't going to make me popular all of the sudden.....I am hated by the entire planet FOR GOOD MAYBE. Which I get it, my mom knows I have been rather alone for years and years and years now, and she lives all away across the usa from me, so what is she going to do, she is going to try and get me to do whatever it takes for me to get friends even if that means me looking like a .......................................................................

(cause I think she'd pry want me wearing skimpy clothes, she seems to be cheering on tight jeans a lot) Matthew 10:22 "And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake: but he that endureth to the end shall be saved." NOT LIKED not popular ANYWHERE!

  Am I the most hated person in my family - yes. Am I maybe of the most hated people on the planet - could very well be. 

 Its not fun being disliked in a society that is very into going to social events, and having "likes" on social media platforms. But it's not a bad thing either cause................if your way loved Luke 16:15

"And he said unto them, Ye are they which justify yourselves before men; but God knoweth your hearts: for that which is highly esteemed among men is abomination in the sight of God." You could be a abomination then. Could a abomination be saved - sure I think it's possible, just repent give you life to jesus!

  Hair removed me nicely from this world..............Revelation 18:4 "And I heard another voice from heaven, saying, Comeout of her, my people, that ye be not partakers of her sins, and that ye receive not of her plagues." You look around what do you see everywhere????????????? HAIR!

  If your hair is flowing in the wind and your a girl you blend in with everybody then!

  But a tichel or a hijab, or what I wear is a hijab/tichel hybrid often..............that says I'm gods!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

   I think the same effect can happen with hair showing, but you have to not have your hair in any "style" and have modest attire on. So it is possible! And I was plannin on having my hair down once I had grown it long......................way out into the future but my mom is currently driving me up the wall so much so. And I'm going to prove a point to her that it don't matter if my hair is even showing. 

I ain't of the world the world knows it so they don't love me!
John 15:19 "If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you." It don't even matter that I impersonate marilyn monroe pretty well and am a huge marilyn monroe fan ---------- that doesn't even matter naw. 

  To keep my viewers "in the loop" on my instagram recently my mom said............https://www.instagram.com/p/Bm83IAaHMp9/?hl=en&taken-by=colorfulpaperbird
(my mom who doesn't want me to even use her 1st name on my blog) Sigh
(my mom who doesn't want me to even use her 1st name on my blog) Hey...did I see you wear jeans? YES\
  And then there was a guy that maybe heckled me............I don't know if he heckled me but that smiley face with a tongue sticking out emojii might be a heckle 😝that he might have a sense of humor my husband tells me.............well I don't get that kind of humor. But he may have some kind of humor I do not get...........cause what else would you put a smiley face with a tongue sticking out emojii unless you weren't sincere and you thought my modest attire and headcovering looked stupid?????????????????????

Part two: today I am showing mercy to my enemies aka the apostolic christian church of america...........so I can find mercy..........it's good, it's good to be merciful BLESSED ARE THE MERCIFUL the bible says..................

Part two: today I am showing mercy to my enemies aka the apostolic christian church of america...........so I can find mercy..........it's good to be merciful BLESSED ARE THE MERCIFUL the bible says Matthew 5:7 "Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy." If you want to live a really blessed, life, a truelly blessed life, my advice is to show mercy!
  So basically this means I'm going to keep on going to the apostolic christian church of america  (randomly --- shoot for a few times a year at least) and do good to them and love them. Some them's nice to me, this is not mission impossible.

Rest in Peace Uncle Garth (not a blood relative but still this is my great uncle)

https://www.legacy.com/obituaries/dailyherald/obituary.aspx?pid=188651706

  I told the 4 apostolic christian church of america members I regularly e-mail and have for years (they hardly ever reply back). I don't understand their grudge they have against me if they indeed have one which not telling me my great uncle died seems to be they are holding a grudge (or I so don't matter to them, that though I e-mail 4 of them often they never thought to tell me my great uncle died). Everything I have said on my blog about the day the elder of silverton church told me what he thought of me..............was the complete truth from my perspective. From his perspective it could be he wasn't "yelling at me" but from my perspective he most definately was cause he raised his voice, and he was telling me that he thought I was a horrible person like a lot while having his voice raised...............so in my mind that day I was bullied, I was chewed out, I was put down.................it was a terrible day. 

   And I have went in length about my dislike of their commandments of men, which used to include no bangs allowed, and no beards allowed, and now all that is left, is you can't be a member of their church and wear a wedding ring. Nobody has to like "commandments of men" or even something that looks like it could be a commandment of men, cause at the very least, telling a congregation you can't wear wedding rings and be members to me that looks like it could be a commandment of men, and just for that reason alone I WANT TO WEAR MY WEDDING RINGS AND I DO!

Matthew 15:9 "But in vain they do worship me, teaching for doctrines the commandments of men."
Mark 7:7 "Howbeit in vain do they worship me, teaching for doctrines the commandments of men."
Colossians 2:22 "Which all are to perish with the using;) after the commandments and doctrines of men?"
Titus 1:14 "Not giving heed to Jewish fables, and commandmentsof men, that turn from the truth."

   I work real hard to be honest. 

Truelly the future is what we make it! Those that show mercy are going to find mercy, you know what that means...........my future looks fantastic ☝💓

Have a great day earth!

LOVE

Today I loved some of my "enemies" the apostolic christian church of america - though how much they are or aren't my enemies I ain't even sure??????????...................................

  Today I loved some of my "enemies" the apostolic christian church of america - though how much they are or aren't my enemies I ain't even sure?????????? I believe heeding the word of god is all about many little "baby steps" - and if you endure unto the end you will be saved according to the word of god!!!!!!!! LET'S ALL ENDURE TO THE END! Matthew 10:22 "And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake: but he that endureth to the end shall be saved." Matthew 10:22 says we will be hated of all men for jesus's name sake...................but I find it easiest when looking for some enemies to love to pinpoint a group of people that maybe more of them don't like me per capita then at other churches (I'm talking like what maybe 35% whopping percent might not like me at the apostolic christian church of america...........potentially I'm saying, cause I have elaborated GREATLY on my complete disdain of their 1 last remaining "commandment of men" aka nobody there is allowed to wear wedding rings and be members of their church at the same time.
   That "commandment of men" I feel plenty needs to be challenged to this day, because if something like that divides the body of christ...............whether that is 1 person or a few people, or even a whole church off from all of the rest of the body of christ (or a great deal of the rest of the body of christ because the apostolic christian church of america does have "sister churches" sounds plural but the only "sister church" I know that they do have is the menonites). In reality all christian churches in the body of christ should be our "sister churches"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ONE BODY!
Ephesians 4:4-6 

4 There is one body, and one Spirit, even as ye are called in one hope of your calling;

5 One Lord, one faith, one baptism,

6 One God and Father of all, who is above all, and through all, and in you all.

Heck ya Ephesians 4:4-6 I KNOW THAT'S RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

   So I am billion million trillion capillion % sure that the apostolic christian church of america's one remaining "commandment of men" of no wedding rings allowed is a mega big problem for them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

   But anyways, I find that it's hard to heed all the bible at once.....................heed a bit here and there right....................one day you might focus on one thing another the other (for instance one day I might work on being more humble). I big time believer this is big part of following jesus, it's a daily effort of working to humble oursevles, deny ourselves take up our crosses, love our enemies. And as we keep on doing these things, we may stink at being humble to begin with right, and stink at loving our enemies to begin with etc. Like the karate kid in the original karate kid movie -------- he waxed on and waxed off and stained mr. Miagi's porch etc. etc. and as he was doing these things HE WAS BUILDING THE SKILLS TO ACTUALLY SUCCEED AT KARATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

   My advice to the whole earth is don't give up. Especially not giving up following jesus, maybe there are some things in life to quit, I quited studying to become a medical biller, it just wasn't going to happen I was failing way to many of the tests!!!!!!!!!!!! But your soul is so important..................DON'T GIVE UP! 

  Said hi to the elders wife, who I'd like to hang out with again........................so that's for the record the elder of silverton...................I have I believe driven him completely UP THE WALL. But I like his wife, some people you just get along with. Some people you are like 

aye

aye

don't matter if they believe 100% like you really, or not for me it don't! 

  Also I e-mailed my family and the 4 members of the apostolic christian church of america I e-mail and I told them.........

  In the bible times right paul said  1 Corinthians 14:33 "For God is not the author of confusion, but of peace, as in all churches of the saints." All these "churches of the saints" they were like the churches of today in the body of christ, they each had their own little "personality" to them..............it was still even back then one faith, one lord, one baptism

ONE BODY!!

Ephesians 4:5 "One Lord, one faith, one baptism,"

Romans 12:5 "So we, being many, are one body in Christ, and every one members one of another."

1 Corinthians 10:17
For we being many are one bread, and one body: for we are all partakers of that one bread.

"for we are alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll partakers of that one bread!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

  I have noticed the baptist church likes their "baptist" """"""style"""""""" it happens to be I don't agree with their "once saved always saved" belief, but that isn't such a concern to me really, cause they still are a part of the """"""""""""whole""""""""""" to the point that baptist pastors could go to a four square church and guest preach or something???????????? etc. etc.

  They like their own "style" and churches they can have a style and like it................but if something in a church does cause a large division of a church off from most of the whole rest of the body of christ then that "something" is a problem cause it is one faith, one lord, one baptism........................................................."""""""""""ONE BODY IN CHRIST"""""""""""!

  My song choice for this blog post is relevant cause right there in this video on the pulpit are the words............."one lord, one faith, one baptistm - AMEN! Chaka Khan sang this real good to, I am really holy spirit filled after listening to her sing this, and Chaka's hair does look good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!........................

Have a great day earth!

LOVE

  pppps.................my current "cross and skullbones for the lord" personal status...........is also a "style" for I have bible verses to back myself up..............

Romans 6:4 "Therefore we are buried with him by baptism into death: that like as Christ was raised up from the dead by the glory of the Father, even so we also should walk in newness of life."
Colossians 2:12 "Buried with him in baptism, wherein also ye are risen with him through the faith of the operation of God, who hath raised him from the dead."
  I realize that Romans 6:4 and Colossians 2:12 might start out symbolism BUT THOSE TWO VERSES AREN'T SUPPOSED TO REMAIN SYMBOLISM!!!!!!!!!!!!

1 Corinthians 15:31 "I protest by your rejoicing which I have in Christ Jesus our Lord, I die daily."