I listened to extra church services yesterday - desperate for ear pain relief. Psalm 103:3 " Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases;.........." I've done this before to, this isn't even the 1st time I've went on some crazy "bible spree" to get healed. I putting tape ins in my hair I NEED TO LOOK NICE, I NEED MY SELF ESTEEM TO TRY AND GO UP 1 NOTCH...............

I don't think this is even a pack of 20 tape ins, these are left over tape ins from the last time I did my hair. I may just keep this look going...........because if I add more tape ins I'll be hot like actually hot, the weather is often in the 90's where I live right now. 

bags under eye's yep

ear infection done wiping me out

and life

I'll keep going

lucifer has got to get here sooner or later I'm going with him I'm going to be ok

with makeup you know what people hate the most.......................I look better with a little makeup on and feel better. I often am skipping mascara - going for a natural look lately...............

mascara is such a pain to take off

and us blonde us natural blondes (albeit my hair is naturally a orange blonde..........I've tonned it heavily lately with actual indigo hair powder) --------- dark eyelashes isn't even a normal thing for us natural blondes

alllllllllllllllllllll us natural blondes we naturally have invisible eyelashes like mine are

(or every blonde natural blonde that I know) 

 I listened to extra church services yesterday - desperate for ear pain relief. Psalm 103:3 " Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases;.........." I've done this before to, this isn't even the 1st time I've went on some crazy "bible spree" to get healed. I putting tape ins in my hair I NEED TO LOOK NICE, I NEED MY SELF ESTEEM TO TRY AND GO UP 1 NOTCH...............

MY SELF ESTEEM IS 0 

BASHED INTO THE CONCRETE

Psalm 103:2-5 "Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits: Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases; Who redeemeth thy life from destruction; who crowneth thee with lovingkindness and tender mercies; Who satisfieth thy mouth with good things; so that thy youth is renewed like the eagle's."

looking ugly doesn't help me

looking good doesn't help me either......................

but 1 of the 2 my self esteem might be doing 3% better

maybe god is chill with long hair flowing in the wind

how could he want women to walk around feeling ugly????????????

I ain't talkin about pride - I'm talking about feeling ugly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

.............I get hell for looking good

but my self esteem level 0 on the concrete often needs to try and look good --------- for my self esteems sake that that get bumped up to 3%

women are hated

are men hated

are they????????????????

women often are hated

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaated

and reduced to how we look

reduced

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It is not the hijab, tichel to blame for god smiting soon sounds like most all the daughters of zion (jew and non jew cause "daughters of zion" is more then jew AND MAKING THEM BALD). Or the jewelry I disagree with the apostolic christian church of america and anybody that says jewelry is 1 billion percent evil since how in this modern times we have 5G emfs that need to be fought against (maybe with copper bracelets for example) IT'S PRIDE THAT GOD IS AGAINST - NOT THE JEWELRY, NOT THE HEADCOVERINGS PRIDE THE HEART Isaiah 3:17 "Therefore the Lord will smite with a scab the crown of the head of the daughters of Zion, and the Lord will discover their secret parts.".................AND SOON MANY WILL BE BALD...........................I think ladies with hair showing will also be bald soon....................many ladies will be smited BALD BAD.....................

Update 7/21/2025 I believe in making my bed a lot. It's a small thing to tell yourself in your subconscious YOUR VALUEABLE - cause you are.................

 It is not the hijab, tichel to blame for god smiting soon sounds like most all the daughters of zion (jew and non jew cause "daughters of zion" is more then jew AND MAKING THEM BALD). Or the jewelry I disagree with the apostolic christian church of america and anybody that says jewelry is 1 billion percent evil since how in this modern times we have 5G emfs that need to be fought against (maybe with copper bracelets for example) IT'S PRIDE THAT GOD IS AGAINST - NOT THE JEWELRY, NOT THE HEADCOVERINGS PRIDE THE HEART Isaiah 3:17 "Therefore the Lord will smite with a scab the crown of the head of the daughters of Zion, and the Lord will discover their secret parts.".................AND SOON MANY WILL BE BALD...........................I think ladies with hair showing will also be bald soon....................many ladies will be smited BALD BAD.....................

Isaiah 3:15-17 "What mean ye that ye beat my people to pieces, and grind the faces of the poor? saith the Lord God of hosts.

16 Moreover the Lord saith, Because the daughters of Zion are haughty, and walk with stretched forth necks and wanton eyes, walking and mincing as they go, and making a tinkling with their feet:

17 Therefore the Lord will smite with a scab the crown of the head of the daughters of Zion, and the Lord will discover their secret parts.

the bible says

the beginning of wisdom is to FEAR GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Proverbs 9:10

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom: and the knowledge of the holy is understanding.

and god

poo poo's "stretched forth necks and wanton eye's" PRIDE PRIDE PRIDEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

1 John 2:16

For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world.

it is not the jewelry itself that is the "enemy" 

neither maybe the "hair showing"????????????????

or the headcoverings

it is pride that god is very upset about!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think hair causes pride I think it does 

I suspect greately it does for many women not just me if you had a "good hair day" 

which I hardly have any good hair days when I did have hair showing

but I think hair showing can cause pride

most ladies have real nice hair........................I'M NOTEFUL (could be causing them pride baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad)

Romans 14:13-15 "Let us not therefore judge one another any more: but judge this rather, that no man put a stumblingblock or an occasion to fall in his brother's way.  I know, and am persuaded by the Lord Jesus, that there is nothing unclean of itself: but to him that esteemeth any thing to be unclean, to him it is unclean. But if thy brother be grieved with thy meat, now walkest thou not charitably. Destroy not him with thy meat, for whom Christ died."

if you wear something or don't wear something - you might get proud and STUMBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

if you ate bacon did you stumble

maybe not 

cause bacon eating won't make you proud (I have a point, I am going off "on a tangent" for a reason) 

bacon won't make you proud

am I wrong

are there proud bacon eaters out there just oozing the pride eating bacon?????????????????????????????????????

cause last I checked bacon is a 'poor people food" - IT ISN'T LOBSTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THERE IS NO WAY BACON IS LOBSTER

FACT MAYBE I'LL EAT A REAL BACON 

CAUSE SWEAR TO GOD

IT'S PRIDE THAT GOD DON'T LIKE

PRIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and maybe you could be proud wearing a headcovering - bestest then wear ugly headcovering then....................less you think hair might be more homely for you...........and therefore you humble then

ladies whichever hairstyle or headcovering keeps you humble THAT'S THE ONE I RECOMMEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FEAR GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

James 4:6

But he giveth more grace. Wherefore he saith, God resisteth the proud, but giveth grace unto the humble.

MY EAR STILL HURTS

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I feel bad for all the usa christian womens that don't wear headcoverings, surely if you merely wear a little natural makeup from sephora for example....................ep your a hooker then (probably in people's minds in the usa - they mostly christians here in usa and mostly very judgy from my experience "no hate like christian love")..........

I feel bad for all the usa christian womens that don't wear headcoverings, surely if you merely wear a little natural makeup from sephora for example....................ep your a hooker then (probably in people's minds in the usa - they mostly christians here in usa and mostly very judgy from my experience "no hate like christian love")...............

the pressure you non-headcovering women are experiencing all the time - that's so ruff...........(ya I know Pretty Woman is one of my favorite movies).........................

I'm watching headcovering video's today

otherwise know as "walking in the spirit" IT COUNTS

Galatians 5:16 "This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfil the lust of the flesh."

look

look

the patriachy is still here

but if you work with the "system" you could win

I'm NOT SAYING ALWAYS LADIES will always win (some guys are abusive out there)

guys can't buy nothing for themselves - cause they gots to wear 5 styles of pants that's all most of them have to choose from at the stores am I lieing - no

how many times can they buy the same 5 styles of pants????????? not many times

well there's a reason for that us ladies need to spend their money!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

don't believe me

go to any walmart - fred meyer - target - and see the 5 styles of pants guys have to choose from for reals!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

.........................I find it so fascinating how headcoverings always seem to be a little popular in the body of christ...................................it's really interesting to me

long hair on ladies is popular to

but my hair is super naturally curly - which works in my favour when wearing headcoverings cause I can get "volume" no problem

but growing my hair out is hard - it's dry most of the time bad cause it's so curly and it breaks pretty often

and my hair is really thick and it's cooler for me to have shorter hair...................so misery is factored into things for me ------- I don't want to be miserable

tootles

brother trying to say women shouldn't have hair coverings just long hair...............

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gd9DJeTHzqM

my question to him....................

wait a second so your saying if a girl had say shoulder length hair then she needs to get a buzz cut????????? 1 Corinthians 11:6 "For if the woman be not covered, let her also be shorn: but if it be a shame for a woman to be shorn or shaven, let her be covered." Because if the "covering" is hair right.............and then there must be some length of hair that isn't her being covered so then she needs to be "shorn" "for if the women be not covered, let her also be shorn" so is that shoulder length hair that that chick isn't "covered" all the sudden.............................are churches going to find the shoulder length ladies and shave them bald?????????????? Are you shaving ladies bald then??????????????????? Or is it just a little below the shoulders then, that she's "not covered" what amount of hair ===='s not covered?????????????????????????????? -------------------- further if it was so important for women to have long hair.......................how come it is then churches don't have free hair extensions time for the women that are unable to get their hair past their shoulders in length due to their hair being severelly curly and therefor it breaks off easy and a lot usually..........................................should the church not then have free hair extension time??????????????? HAIR EXTENSION MINISTRIES!!!!!

----------- hair extensions are even more expensive then headcoverings

hair extensions have to be re-did that's if you have sew in, tape in, or them mico link type.

Some them have to be redid EVERY MONTH. That's very expensive and time consuming. For a christian lady to have adequate "long hair"

if the brother in video above's intrepretation is correct

for surely

long hair

must mean long hair

well you don't got's christian womens with long hair out there

many of them have shorter hair

there's a lot of older ladies out there with real short hair at churches

it's hard to grow out hair

even if your hair is stick straight -------- still your going to get breakage.............you'll get breakage and your hair surely won't be that glorious less you get some tape ins put in at least

it won't for most ladies - not all - but most

most have sad broken off sad sad sad long hair

.....................

once I got my hair near my waiste it was the saddest broken off shiz NOT GLORIOUS LOOKING

I can't get my hair somewhere past my shoulders with out it being a tragic broken mess due to how curly my hair is

I DON'T WANT TO LOOK UGLY!

BUT FURTHER IF THE BROTHER IN VIDEO'S INTREPRATION OF THE BIBLE IS CORRECT DANG THE CHURCH HAS RIPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPED ME OFF FOR SURELY THEY SHOULD HELP LADIES WITH UGLY HAIR OR HAIR THAT CAN'T GROW THAT LONG OUT AND GIVE US FREE HAIR EXTENSIONS

--------- pry should put them in our hair to WASH OUR FEET WASH OUR FEET!

this video which is more modest the beginning when this lady is doing sexy time dance wearing a headcovering, or towards the end when she lets her hair free..............

I think

I like know how to read that's #1

and #2 I think I'm actually pretty smart

Ok usa I believe you your mostly christian, cause this country is sooooooooooooooooooo tribulated Acts 14:22 "Confirming the souls of the disciples, and exhorting them to continue in the faith, and that we must through much tribulation enter into the kingdom of God." The usa is so tribulated most of them have to go to church and praise god to feel "alright".........................brian's wincing around the house in pain right now passing another kidney stone (he has a army of like i think 8 kidney stones FOR REAL he needs to pass right now) and I've spent the entire day holding a sock full of rice to my ear - finally put a pain relieving ear drop in my ear it helped - I'm headed to the doctor tommorow..............

 Ok usa I believe you your mostly christian, cause this country is sooooooooooooooooooo tribulated Acts 14:22 "Confirming the souls of the disciples, and exhorting them to continue in the faith, and that we must through much tribulation enter into the kingdom of God." The usa is so tribulated most of them have to go to church and praise god to feel "alright".........................brian's wincing around the house in pain right now passing another kidney stone (he has a army of like I think 8 kidney stones FOR REAL he needs to pass right now) and I've spent the entire day holding a sock full of rice to my ear - finally put a pain relieving ear drop in my ear it helped - I'm headed to the doctor tommorow..............

I'm like bryan johnson

into health a lot

drank beet juice today (putting in extra effort to try and up my immune system) - and I've decided I love beet juice....................I'm determined to make drinking a glass a day of beet juice my permanent mo

wheatgrass 💓💓💓💓💓💓

and bone broth I also drank today

............................after drinking all of that I am feeling better (especially the beet juice, I'm anemic and beet juice just brings me back to life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

usa is a ironic place

they put most emphasis on blessings --- pretty well all of the entirety of the usa they think that if your blessed with lots of money and cars etc. etc. that that's proof your godly

but the bible literally says below "godliness with contentment is great gain" not a thing "hingent" upon how "blessed you is".................

1 Timothy 6:5-7

5 Perverse disputings of men of corrupt minds, and destitute of the truth, supposing that gain is godliness: from such withdraw thyself.

6 But godliness with contentment is great gain.

7 For we brought nothing into this world, and it is certain we can carry nothing out.

I've witnessed people being content thankful even, living in cars, in the usa, living in storage units in the usa.............................the wealthy are "propped up" in this country - NO HATE 

but the poor man they have testimonies in this country

the bible ironic thing it is

cause you read "much tribulation" sounds horrible

but then when you live it

and you get some victory in some area in your life

and you have praise to god

you realize

ok

me picking a bible verse at randomn...............

Genesis 29:35

And she conceived again, and bare a son: and she said, Now will I praise the Lord: therefore she called his name Judah; and left bearing.

  genesis 29:25 is about a lady maybe she had problems having a kid.................but then see when she has a child --------------------------- it's even better then if she just had 20 kids easy...................cause now she's full of praise to god!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well my new hijab, tichel, headcovering arrived - turns out it wasn't one piece, but I'm feelin this style of tyeing it on 👍👍👍👍👍

Dear body of christ I know the gates of hell are coming up against you all.............and you think I have it easy. (with 2 unbaptized, not going to church 20+ year old kids, a husband with no libido he ain't concerned about that - 100% sure he believes in "semen rentention") With a ear infection so bad - it's 2 days long right now - but brian and ian think it's a allergy ear infection I ain't done sure........it's baaaaaaaaaaad..................and we won't get rid of any cats, nope and I've had many ear problems since we have 3 cats............I'm supposed to just suffer suffer suffer...................

 Dear body of christ I know the gates of hell are coming up against you all.............and you think I have it easy. (with 2 unbaptized, not going to church 20+ year old kids, a husband with no libido he ain't concerned about that - 100% sure he believes in "semen rentention") With a ear infection so bad - it's 2 days long right now - but brian and ian think it's a allergy ear infection I ain't done sure........it's baaaaaaaaaaad..................and we won't get rid of any cats, nope and I've had many ear problems since we have 3 cats............I'm supposed to just suffer suffer suffer...................

I am aware you are all naked in garages and/or basement gagged right now

I KNOW

hopefully you can get to phones and call 911

I know when lucifer get's here, your alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll going to unleash finally loooooooooooooooooooooong woes me diabtribes

but will you find mercy???????????????????????????????

will you find mercy???????????????????????

Matthew 5:7 "Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy."

I accept jesus as my lord and savior but maybe a little "hail satan" coming from me...............................

ep...............hopefully my ear will get better

I'm about to take a shower, and maybe go for a little walk maybe that'll help me the fresh air????????????????????????????

I'm getting somewhere with this..........................

we need to care about others!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO THAT WE ALSO WILL FIND MERCY........................

ALL CARE ABOUT CHRISTIANS OUR ENEMIES EVERYONE

AS WE HAVE CHANCE THE BIBLE SAYS................

Galatians 6:10

As we have therefore opportunity, let us do good unto all men, especially unto them who are of the household of faith.

Goodbye the last 100 people going to my blog everyday (cause me going back to headcovering will upset everyone) - I am going back to wearing headcoverings, I don't know how long this will last?????? But what I do know, is that one day I weared full hijab...................GOD'S PRESENCE WAS WITH ME THICK...................usually I don't feel him like nearby less you count jesus...................draw near to god bible says James 4:8 "Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, ye double minded." I just ordered like a hijab, one them one piece hijabs cause I won't look like my mom then it's driving me crazy looking like my mom is...........I WANT TO LOOK LIKE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (or marilyn monroe) and I don't want to fool with putting my hair back etc. etc. I want to stick the headcovering on BAMN.............THEN GOD COME CLOSE 👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍 I HAVE A PLAN.......................

Goodbye the last 100 people going to my blog everyday (cause me going back to headcovering will upset everyone) - I am going back to wearing headcoverings, I don't know how long this will last?????? But what I do know, is that one day I weared full hijab...................GOD'S PRESENCE WAS WITH ME THICK...................usually I don't feel him like nearby less you count jesus...................draw near to god bible says James 4:8 "Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, ye double minded." I just ordered like a hijab, one them one piece hijabs cause I won't look like my mom then it's driving me crazy looking like my mom is...........I WANT TO LOOK LIKE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (or marilyn monroe) and I don't want to fool with putting my hair back etc. etc. I want to stick the headcovering on BAMN.............THEN GOD COME CLOSE 👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍 I HAVE A PLAN.......................

I gots something different out of this bit of the bible then what the apostolic christian church of america got out of it.....................(they go the no makeup and jewelry mode including wedding rings unless their pastors if them a ok to wear a wedding ring)....................

or I got the same thing out of this bit of the bible they did BUT IN A MUSLIM, TICHEL WEARING JEW WAY................

1 Peter 3:3-5 "Whose adorning let it not be that outward adorning of plaiting the hair, and of wearing of gold, or of putting on of apparel; But let it be the hidden man of the heart, in that which is not corruptible, even the ornament of a meek and quiet spirit, which is in the sight of God of great price. For after this manner in the old time the holy women also, who trusted in God, adorned themselves, being in subjection unto their own husbands:"

 I believe headcoverings and tichels and hijabs are "the ornament of a meek and quiet spirit" 

you can still wear makeup and jewelry I believe

I'm talking about the power of the hijab

and you can talk a lot and have a "quiet spirit" that is "meek" 

but when...............

when.................................

when..............................................

you have makeup and jewelry and hair down...............are you not conforming yourself up to the world at least VISUALLY???????????????

Romans 12:2

And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.

we all know or most of us, romans 12:2 is talking about being not conformed to the world - in your heart

you can have a headcovering and wear some cute makeup and have your heart right

I guess ladies with hair down could also do the same but I feel they are walking "a dicey road" cause they just 10 centimeters and a scoot away from being conformed to the world, already have hairstyles out in the open hitting the wind like that

right now in usa

unless a christian is wearing a cross necklace YOU CAN'T TELL IF THEY ARE CHRISTIANS THEY ALL LOOK THE SAME

ps if i didn't donate to help the people of gaza today I pry will tommorow, I loose track....................am tired hot weather and me don't work out and I bout to take a nap.................

I will mess up headcovering modesty ya

I often wear short sleeve shirts

and shorts

but I believe in the headcovering quite a bit

because of that one day at the theme park!!!!!!!!!!!! 

many women never experienced what I did - so they don't know they never been that close to god before I HAVE ----------- it's a good place to be!

Brian just went to the hospital in intense pain - I know most guys in usa in particular are doing "semen retention" they might some of them I theorize be like brian saying he has "low libido" and he isn't concerned about that at all either. I think he ain't concerned about that and many guys aren't cause they are sure "semen retention" is going to bring them closer to god, and/or make them so healthy. IT'S NOT LOOKING GOOD FOR YOU SEMEN RETENTIONERS!!!!!!!!!!!!.......................

 Brian just went to the hospital in intense pain - I know most guys in usa in particular are doing "semen retention" they might some of them I theorize be like brian saying he has "low libido" and he isn't concerned about that at all either. I think he ain't concerned about that and many guys aren't cause they are sure "semen retention" is going to bring them closer to god, and/or make them so healthy. IT'S NOT LOOKING GOOD FOR YOU SEMEN RETENTIONERS!!!!!!!!!!!!.......................

brian don't masterbate he told me that never never never it's against his belief system

he just been mostly holding it all in like a geiser for years and years and years

and brian has a giant massive tumor on his back it's growing everyday 

his surgery for that isn't scheduled til next month and we clean don't even know if it's cancerous yet or not????????????????? Who knows if semen retention did that to him to or not??????????????????? It might've

this semen retention shiz don't look good for guys health no way

I think taking vitamins - drinking wheatgrass smoothies is going to do so much more for your health then "semen retention" your holding onto like 2 vitamins pry tops probably turning into cancer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BAD PLAN GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!