I'm going to salem fellowship brunstad.org church this sunday.......................

Update 7/21/2024 I thought I was a apostle I am not a apostle. Blessed are the peacemakers, follow after the bible says peace and holiness with all men. Hebrews 12:14
"Follow peace with all men, and holiness, without which no man shall see the Lord:"

  Sometimes a church just ain't meant for a person. Or maybe only for some "time frame" I have no church really that I feel I belong at...........

 it's fine I'm a goth these days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love Lucifer and Jesus BOTH and I likes basking in the moonlight, and going on walks by my favorite lake at night cause the bats fly over head often and I really like that 😁

being the lone sheep if I am a sheep 

it's awesome

jesus leaves the 100 or whatever goes after that 1

win 

win

win

I'm unable to be anything but that one wandering 1

I'm told I'm like everyone else - naw I AIN'T

I am a goth though, so I do have "commonality" with some on earth

I'm back to burning frankincense......................it does take away a lot of arthritis pain. (not all of my arthritis pain - YIKES - but I know the vegan diet brings down inflammation, so I know I will have "success" eventually probably)

I'm going to salem fellowship brunstad.org church this sunday.......................which will leave the entire earth scratching their heads for sure.............I love these people to death, just cause I'm a @#%@# up their #%#@$% doesn't mean I don't love them, for me, that sometime's equals love seems to be when it comes to churches, the church who I'm up your 2#%$#@%$ the most ya special church. ---------- putting in a special clause here, I'm cleaning up this blog, aka deleting blog posts that were basically me picking one long long long fight with brunstad christian church, I'm like not done cleaning my blog up but geez the stuffs I said about this church was like ridiculous and I was completely out of hand. This peace working thing with this church, it's the thing to do in general - part of working peace is deleting some those posts I'm taking a break now though, it's tiring going through all those blog posts. --------------

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Ms. Howards classrooms fundraiser is now fully funded 😁 But there are many more classrooms with many more needs at Donors Choose.................

The secrets of salvation......................HAVE OIL IN YOUR LAMP not just a lamp w/light but oil ZEAL AND FIRE..........................

Update 7/18/2024 evidentally around this time I was talking about the "smiths friends" look they helped me a ton ok. But it wasn't the church for me, cause to long of a drive away. 

  Zeal and fire has 0% to do with how you look, BUT EVERYTHING TO DO WITH HOW YOU LIVE! I'm the sole and only christian in christianity that likes a little makeup from time to time, feel pretty then. I am in a sexless marriage, it is important for me to "feel pretty" lot of the time I feel ugly, especially how attacked on the internet I am so often.................and badly people all but stab me to death................it's either that or they just don't speak to me "for jesus"...................

zeal and fire is going to look different for everyone to

some are zealous to serve at hospitals for instance

my "lane" right now is classroom fundraisers

bible says................

Ecclesiastes 9:10 Amplified Bible (AMP)Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might; for there is no activity or planning or knowledge or wisdom in Sheol (the nether world, the place of the dead) where you are going.

The secrets of salvation......................HAVE OIL IN YOUR LAMP not just a lamp w/light but oil ZEAL AND FIRE..........................the 5 foolish virgins, were also virgins they weren't part of this world/earth but their oil in their lamps went out the zeal and fire for god's word went caput! But you know they also woke up from their slumber and trimmed their lamps...........they had lamps they had slews of good works-----lamps (or as in my case not a massive slew : ) hahahahah but I have a lamp............it could go out!
Matthew 25
2And five of them were wise, and five were foolish.

3They that were foolish took their lamps, and took no oil with them:

4But the wise took oil in their vessels with their lamps.

5While the bridegroom tarried, they all slumbered and slept.

6And at midnight there was a cry made, Behold, the bridegroom cometh; go ye out to meet him.

7Then all those virgins arose, and trimmed their lamps.

8And the foolish said unto the wise, Give us of your oil; for our lamps are gone out.
I always try to have zeal and fire for crucifying my flesh, have fire for something have some oil in this here lamp!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's a awesome thing to be more then a overcomer in christ jesus! MORE then a overcomer that's a overcomer and then some! Overcoming all the lusts of my flesh ALL THEM.......and on top of that taking new land! I'm super gripped for this bible verse these days and the idea of being more then a overcomer not settling for just overcoming my flesh entirelly and my self will............no WAY MORE then a overcomer!............Matthew 17:20
"He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”" NOTHING WILL BE IMPOSSIBLE FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! HELLO christians of the earth we are supposed to be MORE THEN OVERCOMERS IN CHRIST JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (I'm so gripped I have to put all this in caps) Romans 8:37 "Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us."
The smith's friends often talked about the fat land, and um those like jews that like spied the promise land in the bible..........2 them or uh some number of them : ) didn't have faith that they could take the land big giants all in the land, 2 them did have faith............................what is impossible for me if I have faith............Matthew 17:20 "He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”" I've let the giants of the land in my life stop me to much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm not one to think all christians like deserve or need to be or whatever slews of wealthy, but I think we all should be able to be more then conquerors in christ jesus ------------ that's more then just a conqueror! Right now I'm just focusing on like 2 things making happen in my life or like 3 --------------------- shhhhhhhhhhhhhh you better be believing those 3 things going to be happenin for me!!!!!!!!!!!! Cause I'm more MORE then a conqueror in christ jesus - that's a conqueror and then some snap snap snappity snap snap snap snap amen
Satans had to step aside and I be's getting on the hallelujah bus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ya there'll still be hardships or whatever, but geez some mountains are going to move for me! I also want to thank jesus tonight for this verse Romans 8:36 "As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter." I also noted tonight that this verse is right above the "Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us" even being lead to the slaughter daily --------- killed all the day long that don't take away our praise!!!!!!!!!! WE are in ALL THESE THINGS "more than conquerors through him that love us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I praise god that I'm able everyday to be killed all the day long..........to follow jesus Hebrews 2:10 "In bringing many sons and daughters to glory, it was fitting that God, for whom and through whom everything exists, should make the pioneer of their salvation perfect through what he suffered" jesus like us he suffered pry had to deal with misbehaving kids pry had to have patience then! many the sorts of instances where all us have to have patience in a day, via idiotic workers, etc. etc. jesus he for sure went through those things, he for sure suffered and was made "perfect through what he suffered"!!!!!!!!!!
I want to be much more zealous and on fire to follow jesus everyday, be made perfect through what I suffer.........which can mean forgiving, I've forgiven the smith's friends cult I still don't agree with what they are doing with their "buisinesses". I was hurt I'm still in pain a lot! But my future never was in a particular church, though I do go to a church, but my future/present is in jesus! I would't have it any other way!
I've learned to take everything as from the hand of god. It's all all all going to work for my good, all the situations I'm in everything ever thing I have to suffer in this life is going to work towards my salvation..........with my cross fully up follow jesus like this all things are new it's a new life! One where no thing is impossible for me! This jesus gig is good : )

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Ms. Aldana's classrooms fundraiser is now fully funded 😁 But there are many more classrooms with many more needs at Donors Choose...............

Free beach glass ball netting crocheted ornament pattern..............

Free beach glass ball netting crocheted ornament pattern..............
size H hook
(I'm not sure the exact type of yarn I used, cause I got the yarn big tub of it from a craigslist ad : ) pry look even better in a regular (lighter) weight yarn this yarn might be a bit to bulky? Less you be putting some big big orament in it then this bulky sort of hempy yarn would be the thing!

ch 30
slip st in 1st chain making a big loop
ch 100
slip st into the 30th ch from hood making another big loop tie off ends

netting.........
tie a loose knot into one the ch 30 loops (pictured above, well mostly so you get idea loose knot not quite that loose but loose) slip st into the loose knot you just made then (ch 10, crochet 1 sc into big loop) repeat 7 times for a total of 8 ch 10's, slip st into the 1st ch on the 1st loop
row 2 --- slip st into the next 5 ch's (ch 9, 1 sc into the ch 10 loop) repeat around sl st into 5th sl st
row 3 --- sl st into next 5 ch's (ch 6, sc into next ch) repeat around slip stitching into 5th sl st
row 4 --- sl st into next 4 ch's (ch 4, sc into next ch 6 loop) repeat around sl st into 4th sl st
row 5 --- sl st into next 2 ch's (ch 2, sc into next ch 4 loop) repeat around sl st into 2nd sl st
row 6 --- sl st into 1st ch (ch 1, sc into next ch 2 loop) repeat around sl st into 1st sl st
tie off
repeat on other ch 30 loop

I originally designed this to hang on my review mirror, but have found it's great to hang anywhere you want to add some beachy flavor to the decor. (I love the beach, I know I'm not the only one) Also I think it'd be cool to make this in a lightweight yarn, use a clear ornament and add glittery fairy water into the ornaments to make them into beachy fairy sun ornaments (my husbands sister has this wavy glass fairy glitter ornament she loves, some people really into that fairy buisiness) Happy crocheting.

Romans 8:29 "...............he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son..........."

Update 5/4/2026 does heat have something to do with making inflammation worse??????????? Cause yesterday it was hot out, and my arthritis not only got mega bad, but my hands all puffed out to...........that was post ice bathing, but I didn't stay in the ice bath long, I stayed in the ice bath longer today so hopefully today will be a better day for me.

traffic is still high on my blog so I am adding the content!!!!!!!!!................

I listen to kpdq before I go to bed everynight (christian radio station, I've done this for years nights that I have a hard time sleeping I at least am like edified a lot!) Last night was such a good service on kpdq, some pastor was talking about how do you know your salvation is sure, that a lot of people think they are saved and aren't out there. This verse way way way was good for me to hear last night............
Romans 8:29 "For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren." Pastor talked about how god "foreknew" us the elect before the foundations of the earth......really speaks to me to us he foreknowed........"he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his son" You mainstream christians need to get your earholes open and hear this............Hebrews 5:8-9
8Though he were a Son, yet learned he obedience by the things which he suffered;

9And being made perfect, he became the author of eternal salvation unto all them that obey him;
I'm going to work harder to suffer in the flesh! Have that ongoing sword up against my flesh...........and I'll still be on my sarong sewing athon : ) but with zeal to follow jesus and suffer in the flesh MUCH!My flesh needs to be down dead and crucified!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Nothing but a SWORD for the lusts of my flesh!!!!!!!!!! Galatians 5:24 "And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts."
And my understanding of this bible verse was lengthened last night 2 Peter 1:10
"Wherefore the rather, brethren, give diligence to make your calling and election sure: for if ye do these things, ye shall never fall:" I used to just view making my calling and election sure idea of that as having some big big fancy smanshy ministry but now I see that ain't it at all..........it's all about crucifying my flesh being crucified with christ Galatians 2:20 "I am crucified with Christ:..........."
God He can't finish the work he started in you less you/I be going about that work!!!!!!!!!!!! Romans 9:28 "For he will finish the work, and cut it short in righteousness: because a short work will the Lord make upon the earth." Whole idea of being predestined to be conformed to christ's image requires that my flesh be crucified to it's lusts and desires!!!!!!!!!!! That I be made perfect like christ in the things I suffer, not just in the flesh I've decided but the bad things that happen to me to, that I learn to forgive and love my enemies and pray for them. But also so much so so much moreso that my flesh be dead!!!!!!!!!! So I can have it in my heart to love my enemies and pray for them!
I want to get rid of all the woes me athons!!!!!!!!!! All that that STINKS in my flesh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sometime's I get on such pity parties and they really do nothing for me! The bad circumstances in my life may never change - fact I'm convinced they never will!!!!!!!!!! I want to have it right in my heart for my enemies anyways, love them, pray for them. All this woes me I've decided it comes from my flesh, from buisiness not crucified in my flesh! I hate the stink of my flesh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ready to be good and crucified with christ, that a good aroma happens!
Don't be stinky smell like jesus : ) he was made perfect via the things he suffered!!!!!!!!!!!!

crocheted pom pom skinny scarf free pattern....................

crocheted pom pom skinny scarf free pattern........
(this is my 1st pattern, I was inspired by all the fur stoles marilyn monroe weared in "Gentilemen perfer blonds" - think that's the title of that movie - great movie!)
To crochet this scarf you will need........
seventeen 1 inch pom poms
crochet needle size H (I recommend going a crochet needle size higher at least if you want a long scarf, medium to heavy weight yarn works best with this pattern, the thin yarn makes for a short scarf I've found)
small skein of yarn
needle
thread

Ch 276
row 1
DC in 3rd chain from hook. DC across. Turn.
row 2
Ch 2, skip 1st space sc, *Ch 2, skip 2, 2 DC, Ch 2, skip 2, 2 Tr, Ch 2, skip 2, Sc 2* (*repeat across*). Turn.
row 3
Ch 2, skip 1st space sc, 2 Ch, skip 2, *2 Sc, 2 Ch, skip 2, 2 Dc, 2 Ch, skip 2, 2 Sc, 2 Ch, skip 2, 2 Sc, 2 Ch, skip 2* (*repeat across*) tie off and sew on pom poms at the longest points.
Copyright sheri walz

Romans 8:29 "......he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his son" he who consecrated a new and living way through the veil.........

I'm on a suffer in the flesh athon, determined not to keep back my sword from blood (Jeremiah 48:10) aka crucifying my flesh to it's lusts and desires! Jesus he could come anytime, I want to be ready. Luke 12:39-40 "And this know, that if the goodman of the house had known what hour the thief would come, he would have watched, and not have suffered his house to be broken through. Be ye therefore ready also: for the Son of man cometh at an hour when ye think not." That speaks to me much to BE READY!!!!!!!!!! I really want to be ready! I can do that I can be ready! It's not a insurmountable task to not keep back my sword from blood (aka crucifying my flesh to it's lusts and desires ------- really not give in suffer suffer in the flesh!!!!!!! I'm heck vent to suffer in the flesh ------- I'm not the idea of utter saintliness ------ BUT I CAN LEAST DO THAT RIGHT!!!!!!!! Not be lazy not sit back in comfort.......Jeremiah 48:10-11: "Cursed be he that doeth the work of the LORD deceitfully, and cursed be he that keepeth back his sword from blood. Moab hath been at ease from his youth, and he hath settled on his lees, and hath not been emptied from vessel to vessel, neither hath he gone into captivity: therefore his taste remained in him, and his scent is not changed." Sit back and relax I like most on this earth am a fan of that I want a vacation home as much as the next person (there's a 30,000 boathouse near me man if I won a game show or something man I'd buy that in a flash) but not to be at total ease and rest like spoken of in this verse so speaks to me.........what a horrible thing that would be if I "keepeth back his sword from blood" blood that speaks to me to really to suffer in the flesh that last earthly thing I love - give that up! Til it hurts!!!!!!! til blood!!!!!!!!!!
This really spoke to me listening to brunstad mp3 tonight (I'll listen to their talk of taking up ones cross and following jesus, and crucifying ones flesh to it's lusts and desire they'll talk about this stuff for hours, and for hours I'll listen to them --------- very much like I'm working myself up to jump off a jesus cliff ----------- you don't know what's at the bottom.......what the heck you'll be like after you've crufied your flesh a slew and humbled yourself a slew etc. etc. but you know I know that is a jump I NEED TO MAKE NOW! to BE READY! for jesus's return ---------- nobody I don't think is like "I want to suffer in the flesh me me" we are to be "conformed to the image of his son" who thought equality with god to be robbery and humbled himself Philippians 2
5Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus:
6Who, being in very nature[a] God,
did not consider equality with God something to be grasped,
7but made himself nothing,
taking the very nature[b] of a servant,
being made in human likeness.
8And being found in appearance as a man,
he humbled himself
and became obedient to death—
even death on a cross!
That really speaks to me that even jesus humbled himself a slew and we are "predestined to be conformed to the image of his son" WHile Romans 8:29 "For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren." I really believe that I'm to be conformed to the image of jesus WHILE ON THIS EARTH we are to follow him he who............Hebrews 10:20 "By a new and living way, which he hath consecrated for us, through the veil, that is to say, his flesh;" It is a new and living way jesus consecrated a way to go the way to life! A way to life jesus opened up "a new and living way" -------- he opened up "through the veil, that is to say, his flesh" Very much following jesus on this new and living way he consecrated through the veil that is his flesh I am being "conformed to the image of his son" conformed to christ's image! That image of denying myself and taking up my cross daily as jesus did. 1 Peter 3:18 "For Christ also hath once suffered for sins, the just for the unjust, that he might bring us to God, being put to death in the flesh, but quickened by the Spirit:"
2 Corinthians 4:11 "For we which live are always delivered unto death for Jesus' sake, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our mortal flesh." While I'm here while I'm alive on this earth "that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our mortal flesh"
peter 3:18 speaks extra much to me tonight that jesus was "put to death in the flesh" there was a death to the lusts of the flesh with jesus who was tempted like us there was a flesh in christ to crucify to it's lusts and desires. JEsus came in the flesh the same flesh we have........"being put to death in the flesh" that powerfully speaks to me.

revelations 3:15 stood out to me today "I know they works, that thou are neither cold nor hot........"

While listening to yet another brunstad mp3 -------- if I've been brainwashed by a cult I'm just hopelessly brainwashed..........this verse way stood out to me one that says "I know THY WORKS" idea that people can have lukewarm works!!!!!!!!!! I often work to maintain good works..........but also I think this verse maybe has to do with the way one lives in general...........are you on fire for jesus taking your cross up daily and following him........or are you rather ho hum about ya you christian jesus is a cool guy etc. It's a place I can have zeal and fire the works I do!
Revelation 3:14-16 (King James Version)

14And unto the angel of the church of the Laodiceans write; These things saith the Amen, the faithful and true witness, the beginning of the creation of God;

15I know thy works, that thou art neither cold nor hot: I would thou wert cold or hot.

16So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth.
Maybe us christians aren't supposed to merely do good works........but be on fire for these good works! Titus 2:14 "Who gave himself for us, that he might redeem us from all iniquity, and purify unto himself a peculiar people, zealous of good works." YA I think it's needed to be extremely zealous to do the good.
I want to work to be serving god more wholeheartedly, with much zeal. I just typed in word wholeheartedly on biblegateway.com this verse goes with the topic on hand 2 Chronicles 25:2 "He did what was right in the eyes of the LORD, but not wholeheartedly." IT's not enough to just do the good god wants us to be on fire full of zeal to serve him.
1 Kings 8:23 "and said: "O LORD, God of Israel, there is no God like you in heaven above or on earth below—you who keep your covenant of love with your servants who continue wholeheartedly in your way."