I'm a orphan basically (BASICALLY - my parents have lived away from me 24+ years, they ain't been in my life besides sending me e-mails every now and then - my kids don't want to go visit with them this month IN A FEW DAYS THEY ARE IN TOWN, because besides liking their posts on instagram that's it, that's all they been in my kids lives and my kids ain't even got christmas gifts from them for years, years we just got from them at christmas time fruit basket 1 fruit basket most years - WHICH IS FINE) I need to remind myself. I live in a family where there are in my husbands family 3 full out of the closet lgbtq's including my trans son...........and go to a church where last week the pastor weared giant pearl necklace, and he has fake fingernails these days he been going getting his nails did regularly (fine that's fine I'm just sayin). I battle almost thinking well my in menopause self can watch porns - everyone around me is doing "jesus christ caos for the lord and everyone's ok with it" NO MYSELF..................2 Corinthians 12:21 "Yes, I am afraid that when I come again, God will humble me in your presence. And I will be grieved because many of you have not given up your old sins. You have not repented of your impurity, sexual immorality, and eagerness for lustful pleasure.".........................

 I'm a orphan basically (BASICALLY - my parents have lived away from me 24+ years, they ain't been in my life besides sending me e-mails every now and then - my kids don't want to go visit with them this month IN A FEW DAYS THEY ARE IN TOWN, because besides liking their posts on instagram that's it, that's all they been in my kids lives and my kids ain't even got christmas gifts from them for years, years we just got from them at christmas time fruit basket 1 fruit basket most years - WHICH IS FINE) I need to remind myself. I live in a family where there are in my husbands family 3 full out of the closet lgbtq's including my trans son...........and go to a church where last week the pastor weared giant pearl necklace, and he has fake fingernails these days he been going getting his nails did regularly (fine that's fine I'm just sayin). I battle almost thinking well my in menopause self can watch porns - everyone around me is doing "jesus christ caos for the lord and everyone's ok with it" NO MYSELF..................2 Corinthians 12:21 "Yes, I am afraid that when I come again, God will humble me in your presence. And I will be grieved because many of you have not given up your old sins. You have not repented of your impurity, sexual immorality, and eagerness for lustful pleasure.".........................

thank god I read my bible yesterday and read 2 Corninthians 12:21

menopause is no joke

the massive hot flashes are hitting me now

(...........and without talking about it but talking about it - I DON'T WANT TO BE UNCOMFORTABLE) 

but you can't do it myself - NOWAY

porn and chaste virgin to christ - is not the same thing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Matthew 25

Then shall the kingdom of heaven be likened unto ten virgins, which took their lamps, and went forth to meet the bridegroom. And five of them were wise, and five were foolish. They that were foolish took their lamps, and took no oil with them: ...

I'm about to go clean for halloween or near halloween to a lgbtq event, I hope it is "clean" like the last one I went to..................................

the last one I went to was alright. It was just a bunch of lgbtq people and/or supporters having fun. No nooooooooooooooooo there was nooooooooooooooooo weird "sexual content" that's how I'm wording that --------- the whole thing was focused on fashion and music, and comedy to but clean comedy it really was a clean show. (me being honest I usually see this particular lgbtq member anyways once a year for their christmas special).................

  But thissssssssssss event I'm going to merely has some of the person who's christmas special I see - likely some of his friends. One of them, might be a little feisty??????????????????????????????????? - no hate

nomadder what you might see 1 feisty lgbtq member if I merely mentioned his name eyeballs would roll...........

nomadder 

monkey see monkey no do myself

2 Corinthians 12:21 "Yes, I am afraid that when I come again, God will humble me in your presence. And I will be grieved because many of you have not given up your old sins. You have not repented of your impurity, sexual immorality, and eagerness for lustful pleasure."

it's called suffering with christ

christ's sufferings

your doing that in menopause YIKES

2 Corinthians 1:5

For as the sufferings of Christ abound in us, so our consolation also aboundeth by Christ.

does 2 corinthians 1:5 mean women that go through menopause and are christians are more saved then men........................I do believe so according to 2 Corinthians 1:5 cause men ain't 0% of them in the body of christ going through menopause - yet not watching porns for to help them "get relief" 

#life is ruff but winning 👍

2 Corinthians 11:2

For I am jealous over you with godly jealousy: for I have espoused you to one husband, that I may present you as a chaste virgin to Christ.