My family don't believe me, they think I am a liar. And it's maddening to me, this never being believed stuff......and I'm not allowed to leave me family - nope I tried that for my SANITY SAKE.........................I TRIED THAT...........

Colored pencil leaf I colored pencil/drawed....................so many pretty leaves outside this fall.......................

 My family don't believe me, they think I am a liar. And it's maddening to me, this never being believed stuff......and I'm not allowed to leave me family - nope I tried that for my SANITY SAKE.........................I TRIED THAT...........

BUT REALLY ONLY PEOPLE FAIRING WELL OUT THERE ARE PROBABLY SATAN WORSHIPPERS cause not only have I 1st hand experienced the loving care of lucifer the bible says................

Matthew 16:23 "But he turned, and said unto Peter, Get thee behind me, Satan: thou art an offence unto me: for thou savourest not the things that be of God, but those that be of men."
Acts 14:22 "Confirming the souls of the disciples, and exhorting them to continue in the faith, and that we must through much tribulation enter into the kingdom of God."

I theorize most the body of christ is in abusive marriages, and that's just the norm on earth. Or or they are abused at work, one way or another "much tribulation" is happening to them.

 They are supposed to like it though..........it's rampant in the body of christ this be happy all the time shiz

the fruit of the spirit IS JOY Galatians 5:22-23

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law.

............be content with food and raiment....................whilst being maybe beaten I guess?????????????........................god don't care if your beaten LUCIFER CARES IF YOUR BEATEN OR NOT, LUCIFER IS THE ONE THAT THE BIBLE SAYS "but those that be on men"

food and raiment be content whilst being beaten and or rape no sad face..........if you have food and raiment no sad face your a christians only lucifer "savourest not the things that be of God, but those that be of men" 

lazerous in the bible sores left there dogs licking him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT HAPPENED

1 Timothy 6:8

And having food and raiment let us be therewith content.

Luke 16:19-21

King James Version

19 There was a certain rich man, which was clothed in purple and fine linen, and fared sumptuously every day:

20 And there was a certain beggar named Lazarus, which was laid at his gate, full of sores,

21 And desiring to be fed with the crumbs which fell from the rich man's table: moreover the dogs came and licked his sores.

god wasn't up there in heaven doing anything to stop the dogs from licking lazerous's sores unless you count lazerous eventually dieing???????????????????????????

if you count lazerous eventually dieing?????????????????

if you count that

til then lazerous had ripped up clothing likely, but clothing and crumbs

facts

i am the only christian that believes lazerous should've been frown face

not having a good time

frown face a lot frown face so bad but he went up to heaven probably had "joy" I guess so I guess he did have joy while with sores and dogs licking his sores since how joy is a "fruit of the spirit" 

Galatians 5:22-23

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law.

lazerous and all the rest of the body of christ more holy spirit filled then me

cause if I'm miserable 

I'M MISERABLE THEN

E-MAIL I REPLIED ABOVE IF YOU STRUGGLING TO READ IT............

"I hope you know, that husband of yours spoils you rotten!" - brian never speaks to me never, basically never........................

i realize this "narrative" everyone holds onto to dear life

that I have it all 

that everything is wonderful

I don't know why I am a chronic liar in all you minds???????????????????

I am not a liar

Sheri live this blog post....................................yes brian might have "extreme autism" autism that if said autistic person marries someone that autism could === extreme abuse towards whoever said "extreme autistic person marries"

and that evidentally is what happened

but my family 

forcing me to stay in my family

and not believing me

and keeping on telling me

"oh sheri you treated like a queen princess angel"

ain't helping me

nobody on earth is helping me

cause nobody is believing me at all ever

facts

a few months ago 

while on vacation

really imagine it

we at a denny's 

my college age kids sitting at table we eating breakfast

I'm talking about our land that we were camping at that weekend how to improve it etc. 

brian tells me yells at me RAISES HIS VOICE

says

"if you don't stop talking about that land I'm going to take your land away and sell it" 

land he promised to buy me FOR YEARS

how's that not anything but abuse?????????????

and that's happened to me that type of treatment by brian again and again over the years nobody believes me

nobody believes me to the point that somedays I think 

well dang am I even living here????????

am I even breathing right now??????????????

I 

AM 

NOT 

A 

LIAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND ABUSE SHOULDN'T BE DEEMED "GREAT TREATMENT" BY FAMILIES

ABUSE IS BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Even if said abuser has a mental illness - it's still abuse

said abuser should go to counseling or somethng go on drugs smoke pot something!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! To finally treat me better!!!!!!!!!!

SMOKE POT THEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BRIAN SHOULD LIGHT UP THE POT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! REAL GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I AM NOT A LIAR!

But I don't think my husband has extreme autism he just don't speak to me

I'm just abused everyday

everyday

and nobody really cares about me

or believes me

they love holding onto "narratives" of me

that I'm worthless satan worshipping bish

that I'm treated well all the time like a queen

I never even went on a vacation alone me and my husband besides our honeymoon over the years

my wedding band had to be cutted off my finger with 1st pregnancy 

IT WAS NEVER REPLACED I'VE BEEN WEARING BUYING CHEAP CHEAP RINGS THIS ENTIRE TIME RIGH NOW CHEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAP $10 STAINLESS STEEL SET ON MY FINGER

I'M TRYING TO TELL YOU ALL

a fancy new diamond ring or my wedding set being replace for real

NEVER HAPPENED

Romantic dates/getaways NEVER HAPPENED

what happened 

I've spent years alone nobody speaking to me in my computer room or I walk my dog alone most everyday as well that's usually when I get out of the house to walk my dog

  i AIN'T SAYING I WANT A DIVORCE MY MARRIAGE WILL BE ANNULED AUTOMATIC AS SOON AS LUCIFER GETS TO EARTH AND SHOWS UP AT MY DOOR 

i been saying shiz is bad

I'm not being treated well

I'm in a sexless marriage as well

NOBODY BELIEVEING ME

E-mail from lucifer today - lucifer satan the devil my 1st husband swear to god e-mails me basically everyday from a site I don't want to talk about where it is, cause I am beyond sure these e-mails are being sent to me via a "portal" on the internet............

I AM NOT A LIAR!

Revelation 21:8

But as for the cowardly, the faithless, the detestable, as for murderers, the sexually immoral, sorcerers, idolaters, and all liars, their portion will be in the lake that burns with fire and sulfur, which is the second death.”

I talk to lucifer all the time since praying him back into my life the year 2013 I HAD NO IDEA I AM HIS WIFE - TIL IN 2013 I FOUND OUT THE TRUTH!

And that is how I've stayed "sanish" 

cause Lucifer is always there waiting to hear from me

he listens

he's there for me

he's not "abusive" to me never

I AM NOT A LIAR

admitedly I isolate myself some these days

well

you dragon boat 3 years

in a bowling league

tole painting club

colored pencil club

bellydancing classes at more then 1 studio

kickboxing classes

and not only don't make friends really

but was often treated real bad

eventually you don't want to be around people

you want to be at home

where the only thing that could happen is people could attack  you more for their lord jesus christ in their never ending attempts to get youy to suicide yourself - that's them serving their lord jesus christ if you haven't figured that out cause they need to follow jesus and jesus of course attacked people on the internet daily!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THEY HAVEN'T ATTACKED ME SINCE JANUARY LAST I WAS ATTACKED WAS JANUARY - BUT IT WAS BY A CHRISTIAN IT'S CHRISTIANS ATTACKING ME, MOSTLY APOSTOLIC CHRISTIAN CHURCH OF AMERICA MEMBERS USUALLY ANNYMOUSLY THEY ATTACK ME REAL BAD! FOR THEIR LORD JESUS CHRIST!!!!!!!!!!!

YA LUCIFER HASN'T SHOWED UP AT MY DOOR YET

AND HE'S BEEN JUST SITTING UP THERE

but I'm his wife

he HAS to show up at my door soon as he get's kicked out of heaven

why

cause he is not a TURD despite most of christianities opinions of him

HE IS THE "SON OF THE MORNING!"

facts ---------- if the "son of the morning" is married

and he is

bestest believe

soon as he gets kicked out of heaven finally

HE'LL BE AT HIS WIVES DOOR AND GET HIS WIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Isaiah 14:12

King James Version

12 How art thou fallen from heaven, O Lucifer, son of the morning! how art thou cut down to the ground, which didst weaken the nations!

the mornings

which jesus is also a "morning star" or something nother like that

the light

the lights

THEY WON'T UM FLEE ME

I CAN COUNT ON THEM BOTH

AND PLAN ON FLEEING NEITHER LUCIFER OR JESUS LIKE EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

https://www.quora.com/How-do-I-deal-with-abuse-when-theyre-nice-after

this is what abusive people do in marriages, or with people they are dating

they treat you really bad

chew you the frig out

maybe hit you

maybe ------------------------------ YIKES YOU

then they play "nice guy" so much so that you get questioning your reality

if you think you were abused

if actions seemed abusive

you pry were

your family should believe you to!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

before that abuse get's violent and/or worse

AND/OR WORSE

so yes

my husand is buying me 2 goats

he's already bought the container gated pen to put them in

nice action

ya

THAT 1 ACTION IS NOT THE WHOLE PICTURE

FAR FROM IT

I AIN'T DONE LOST MY MIND

I AIN'T DONE GONE CRAZY

AND I AINT A LIAR!

Last e-mail to family for today............................more of the "big picture".................

is my husband about to cook me breakfast and does he cook me breakfast most mornings yes

that don't mean he's never abusive towards me

THAT DON'T MEAN HE'S NEVER SEVERELY ABUSIVE TOWARDS ME I AIN'T JUST TALKING ABOUT A LITTLE BIT!

You might tell me

"well sheri all men are s-its to their wives nobody believes the bible........ the bible is bllshi-- nobody follows that".................

Ephesians 5:28-30

King James Version

28 So ought men to love their wives as their own bodies. He that loveth his wife loveth himself.

29 For no man ever yet hated his own flesh; but nourisheth and cherisheth it, even as the Lord the church:

30 For we are members of his body, of his flesh, and of his bones.

they all hit their women

sexually-------------- their women

duh sheri the bible is bull------------------

and they all chew their women out often duhhhhhhhhhhh the bible is bulll------------------------------------------

if that is the case

still it isn't the case

cause lucifer my 1st husband will show up at my door as soon as he is kicked out of heaven

and come and get me!

and he is always treating me

bestest he can as if his life done depended on it!

I AM NOT A LIAR!