There really isn't such a thing as a "christian jew" I have came to this conclusion.......................

I have to put this up front cause I so viciously attacked on my blog (when people do attack me they try TO ANNILIATE ME "for jesus" oh ya "for jesus")......................

(some christians out there have gotten way to good at serving the lord - YIKES)

Update 9/1/2023 used to have plants hanging on this clothing rack, and I gave them all to my youngest child who has now went off to college. Anyways yesterday I was workign out on the treadmill in the garage by where these plants are - these are the new plants new plant holders I fresh crocheted most them yesterday I crocheted..........

crochet pattern here this is my fave plant holder pattern............

https://www.youshouldcraft.com/boho-plant-hanger-crochet-pattern/

Anyways I COULDN'T BREATH HARDLY yesterday, well it was at that time pouring down rain.......................I didn't think there could be a "red alert" air pollution scenario going on right then. So I'm all puffing puffing puffing off my salt inhaler every 5 minutes try hard to breath. Later that day my husband asks "how was your breathing today" and I tell him HORRIBLE, and then he tells me there was a "air pollution red alert" thing. So I decided that's it, I'm crocheting the rest of them plant holders, cause I know I have more plants indoors, that ====='s me being able to breathe better. (we also have 2 dehumidifiers cause YIKES if the air get's to humid from having lots of plants - HEADS UP THAT CAN IMPACT YOUR BREATHING AS WELL - YIKES - YIKES - YIKES AND MORE YIKES) 

There really isn't such a thing as a "christian jew" I have came to this conclusion.......................if you can prove me wrong - you could try. 

  There is such a thing as being of jewish lineage - that is christian though. 

 Somedays I feel bit you know "special" - that's all in my head I'm sure of it............... 

Romans 11:24 "For if thou wert cut out of the olive tree which is wild by nature, and wert grafted contrary to nature into a good olive tree: how much more shall these, which be the natural branches, be grafted into their own olive tree?" realizing that doesn't make me like so much "special" or something. 
   It's ok..................I am a joe smoe christian. Hello fellow joe smoe christians! I say that with love (and a sense of humour) Acts 11:9 "But the voice answered me again from heaven, What God hath cleansed, that call not thou common."
Ephesians 2:13-15 "But now in Christ Jesus ye who sometimes were far off are made nigh by the blood of Christ. For he is our peace, who hath made both one, and hath broken down the middle wall of partition between us; Having abolished in his flesh the enmity, even the law of commandments contained in ordinances; for to make in himself of twain one new man, so making peace;"
 (this isn't some randomn blog post for me, there's a few verses in the book of leviticus I'm having to stop heeding cause it not good, I need to forgive people LOVE PEOPLE Leviticus 24:19-21) The people that pratice Leviticus 24:19-21 in my family..........(not naming names SO MY IMMEDIATE FAMILY I CAN'T BE BUSTED RIGHT NOW) LEVITICUS 24:19-21 WAS JUST HOW PEOPLE IN MY FAMILY LIVED FOR 1000'S OF YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (rubenstein family)
  At least pry what um ok pry like 2000 years..............................I'm guessing at least 2000 years bc like bc at least if not 3000 bc!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! People that are still practicing Leviticus 24:19-21 in my family well besides my few complete full out jewish family members in tennesee AREN'T LIKELY COGNISANT THAT THEY'S EVEN HEEDING THE LAW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 Or maybe that isn't the law - is it??????????????? What I know.....................JOE SMOE CHRISTIAN : ) Which is for the better anyways so. 
  My unicorn dreams though are still alive : ) Psalm 92:10 "But my horn shalt thou exalt like the horn of an unicorn: I shall be anointed with fresh oil."

LOVE

Video blog post - Told few people in my church some foolish buisiness about being a unicorn for jesus (they could've laughed at me, instead all I saw/experienced was jesus and love).......................

Update 8/26/2023 slow garage sale weekend, but I usually find a item or two......this weeks garage sale deals......................the roller was 50 cents, and the movie was $1...............😊👍

I'm using the roller thing on my stomach to get rid of the remaining cellulite on my stomach (I never get cellulite on my butt or my thighs like ever.............naw ------- every "fat item" is always around my stomach)

wearing my new ionic air purifier - it is definately helping right now there is canada smoke where I live that you can see in the air. I was able to walk around and breathe. 

So funny at the end I hit the wrong button right when I was about to film the garden : )...................

 

Psalm 92:10 "But my horn shalt thou exalt like the horn of an unicorn: I shall be anointed with fresh oil." I like unicorns pry to much, and you all might sit there and be's thinking to yourselves "wait unicorns aren't on this earth anymore" --------- ya that completely doesn't stop me from being a complete fan of unicorns hahahahahahahhaha UNICORNS ARE AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Colossians 3:12 "Put on therefore, as the elect of God, holy and beloved, bowels of mercies, kindness, humbleness of mind, meekness, longsuffering;" I want to do that much more!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Matthew 5:7 "Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy." 

Romans 13:14 "But put ye on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make not provision for the flesh, to fulfil the lusts thereof." Don't put on the world aka don't be a friend with the world BUT RATHER PUT ON CHRIST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! James 4:4 "Ye adulterers and adulteresses, know ye not that the friendship of the world is enmity with God? whosoever therefore will be a friend of the world is the enemy of God."

John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."

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---- update ------- still talking to the elder about becoming a member of the apostolic christian church of america, I told him though I like our monthly talks and he can take his time : ) I do want to get baptised again I actually do, for my own personal reasons........................I got baptised at the age of 13, because I was really really really demon possessed at the age of 13 (sleep walking at night and I clean snaped out of it one night as saw my arms moving and my mouth was moving but I wasn't the one talking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this went on for at least a year near nightly) they didn't want to pay the money to get a exorcist - so they really pressured me a lot to get baptised.
  I want to get baptised again and have it be completely my decision this time! Mark 10:39 "And they said unto him, We can. And Jesus said unto them, Ye shall indeed drink of the cup that I drink of; and with the baptism that I am baptized withal shall ye be baptized:"
    I believed jesus was christ back then, was I actually planning on following him back then ----------- I don't think I was.
  But now I know how much better it is to live for jesus!!!!!!!!!!!!! Romans 6:23 "For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord."

LOVE

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James 1:27 "Pure religion and undefiled before God and the Father is this, To visit the fatherless and widows in their affliction, and to keep himself unspotted from the world.".....................

I "visit" the oropans with my wallet 😁👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍

ENDED: Hand painted shell painting giveaway..............................

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The painting has a notch built in on the back of it, to hang it on the wall (it's a "ready to hang" piece of art)

Repenting it is important............I sat and thought well what is repentance to me???????????????????????

Update 8/23/2023 volunteered at a nearby foodbank today 😁 (the empty box pile behind me, it was really large at the end). I'm still having trouble breathing but ordered 2 more things to help me breath..........

a sea salt inhaler..............it's a thing fellow asthmatics some them inhale a seasalt inhaler in the morning and then again in the evening which is what I'm about to also do

and a air purifying necklace, that some say zaps people --------- I'm totally risking being repeatedly electrocuted all day long to breath better. Might be worth it for me.

Galatians 6:10 "As we have therefore opportunity, let us do good unto all men, especially unto them who are of the household of faith."......................................

 (me and my youngest at the apostolic christian church of america of silvertons beach house - for all you have haven't completed the solar system puzzle downstairs......slackers hahahahahahhaha)

(on 2nd floor of the churches beachhouse is this fireplace - few of the rocks my grandpa found collected like 1 at least maybe 2-3 are on this fireplace..........I think that's pretty cool : ) I always have few rocks at my house have many fond memories of hanging out with my grandpa, watching him make bookends......everytime I'd visit him he was always excited to show off his new rocks : ) 

Repenting it is important.........................I sat and thought well what is repentance to me??????????????????????? 

  Is repentance, repenting from wronging a lot of people ------------------ I think that isn't primarily what repenting/repentance is for me. 

 Repentance, is me repenting right of WRONGING GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Ephesians 2:2 "Wherein in time past ye walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that now worketh in the children of disobedience:" When I was in the occult clearly that was me wronging god, but THAT WASN'T THE ONLY WAY IN WHICH I WAS WRONGING GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

  When I was "walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air......" I WAS GREATELY WRONGING GOD THEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

  I don't know if people realize that these verses in the old testiment are still applicable or not BUT THEY ARE.................Ezekiel 16:36 "Thus saith the Lord God; Because thy filthiness was poured out, and thy nakedness discovered through thy whoredoms with thy lovers, and with all the idols of thy abominations, and by the blood of thy children, which thou didst give unto them;" Egypt back in the old testiment days WAS THE WORLD.................Ezekiel 16:26 "Thou hast also committed fornication with the Egyptians thy neighbours, great of flesh; and hast increased thy whoredoms, to provoke me to anger."

  God didn't want the jews to go and partake in all that stuffs with the egyptians...................many places in the bible things eventually got bad for the jews and they cried out to god for help ------------ I DON'T WANT TO WAIT TIL THINGS ARE BAD TO REPENT AND PRAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

   Apostolic christian church of america has this saying "at peace with god and man" ONCE I WASN'T AT PEACE WITH GOD AT ALL..................for awhile I blamed Him for everything bad that happened to me......................Luke 13:34 "O Jerusalem, Jerusalem, which killest the prophets, and stonest them that are sent unto thee; how often would I have gathered thy children together, as a hen doth gather her brood under her wings, and ye would not!" HE LOVES US...........LIKE THIS SONG SAYS..............OH HOW HE LOVES US..............................................................GOD WANTS TO GATHER YOU TO "as a hen doth gather her brood under her wings............."..................

2 Peter 3:9 "The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance."
  Hope everyone's week is going good!

LOVE

Good news : ) turned out to be non-cancerous golf ball sized ovarian cyst that caused all the problems -- and I have a fatty liver and need to excersize a slew asap................

Update 8/20/2023 my main garage sale find for this week 😊...........

It was $3 and all it needed was a fresh lightbulb. (I'm still having "extreme asthma" problems - started drinking peppermint water and that is clearing up my lungs. I believe these rock salt lamps clean the air some) The eifle tower I got at a garage sale a previous weekend for I think 25 cents, might've been a dollar though? That garage sale was a few weekends ago.

Good news : ) turned out to be non-cancerous golf ball sized ovarian cyst that caused all the problems -- and I have a fatty liver and need to excersize a slew asap................the cyst got so big (some golf ball thing filled with fluid) that IT TRICKED MY BODY INTO THINKING IT WAS PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday after the ultrasound and I found out I wasn't pregnant I ran 6 miles.  And nordic walked 3 miles this morning............already have gotten my waiste back down..............for two weeks I had to just "assume" I was pregnant.............cause I didn't know if I was or not???????
    If you are this big or larger.....................................I recommend excersize, my dr. said if I didn't get in better shape, eventually I would have fatty schlerosis of the liver ------------------- ya I'm going to excersize a lot : )
  The pain is subsiding.............running tonight nother 3 miles.
Thankful sums up what I am right now....................
Psalm 30:11-12 "Thou hast turned for me my mourning into dancing: thou hast put off my sackcloth, and girded me with gladness; To the end that my glory may sing praise to thee, and not be silent. O Lord my God, I will give thanks unto thee for ever."

  Hope everyone's week is going good! 

Stuck with me "lord willing" for long time apostolic christian church of america

LOVE

Genesis 12:3 "And I will bless them that bless thee, and curse him that curseth thee: and in thee shall all families of the earth be blessed." - PEOPLE IN 2023 HAVE NOTHING BUT CURSED ME (mostly people especially in private text messages but also annymously on my blog love to try and entirelly anniliate me for Jesus), GOOD THING I AIN'T AFTER MEN/WOMEN "BLESSING ME"..................................(PREVIOUS FEW YEARS ALL I WAS WAS CURSED TO BY PEOPLE - LOST MY FAMILY TO - CAUSE I LOVE GOD/JESUS AND SATAN) but i feel all that hate for me "for the lord" was there all along, my saying I love lucifer just brought all that "pre-existing hate" out to the forefront. Something about telling people you love god/jesus and the devil evidentally gives them the entire thumbs up to anniliate you and hate you and SEPARATE COMPANY WITH YOU...................

Matthew 5:11-13

Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake. Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great is your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you. Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men.

  Matthew 5:11-13 wasn't really happening to me until I said on my blog and everywhere openly that I love lucifer and his men. I explain why in detail on my blog in a few posts. Forgiveness - is the best - I was in the occult right but hurt, but hurt for awhile over stuffs I brought on myself. People gonna hate to read this but these days I have a healthy relationship with lucifer and his men and Jesus/God etc. Taking accountability for your own actions is so important! 

  AND DON'T THINK I'M A TOTAL ODDITY. Having lucifer and his men at peace with me..........................Proverbs 16:7 "When a man's ways please the Lord, he maketh even his enemies to be at peace with him." I am a goth...........................but I am not a freak I do not believe I am a freak. In my mind I am 100% normal, doing good 👍👍👍👍👍👍👍 I understand normies usually hate lucifer and his men ------------ don't get why?????????????????? 

men/womens blessings mean nothing anyways!!!!!!!!!!! - they love most them only in word

when god's blesses on the other hand HE REALLY BLESSES!!!!!!!

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Video blog post Ephesians 4:3 "Endeavouring to keep the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace.".................

Update 8/16/2023 I'm like donating money to my husbands church (my church being the Apostolic Christian church of america - though my husband says we can only attend that church once a month, rest the time we are supposedly going to attend his church which is a methodist church that supports the LGBTQ WHICH I DO SHARE THEIR IDEAS ABOUT LOVING EVERYONE) But all this narrow way shiz below -------- guess where I was hearing that back in what 2014 when this blog post was typed up..............yeppo the apostolic christian church of america (and before that brunstad.org back in like what man uh 1994...............1994.............I STARTED HEARING THE ACTUAL WAY TO HEAVEN YA THE STRAIGHT AND NARROW WAY).....................................(MARILYN MONROE SELFIES MAKEUP AND JEWELRYLESS CAUSE STRAIGHT IS THE WAY THAT LEADS TO HEAVEN AT BOTTOM OF THIS BLOG POST YOU KNOW SHERI 2023..................I AIN'T WANTING TO BE THE 1ST OF THE BODY OF CHRIST - I LIKE BEING OF THE LAST : )....................

Ephesians 4:3 "Endeavouring to keep the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace."
Romans 8:13 "For if ye live after the flesh, ye shall die: but if ye through the Spirit do mortify the deeds of the body, ye shall live." Your battleships will sink if you live after the flesh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Pastors of my church talked about "winds of doctrine" today............................that is my #1 motivating factor to work peace with the apostolic christian church of america..................that and it says to do that in ephesians 4:3 if a bible verse says do something like that then that's what I'm going to work to do!
I know with the apostolic chrisitan church of america ------- I won't hear no "winds of doctrine" no "sleight of hand" Ephesians 4:14 "That we henceforth be no more children, tossed to and fro, and carried about with every wind of doctrine, by the sleight of men, and cunning craftiness, whereby they lie in wait to deceive;"
I like to that all everyone uses at the apostolic christian church of america is the king james bible..........other churches lot them USE ALL KINDS OF TRANSLATIONS OF THE BIBLE...............problem with that is IT'S REAL EASY PROBABLY TO GET SOME "SLEIGHT OF MEN" SOME "CUNNING CRAFTINESS" RIGHT ACROSS THE TABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Even using though the king james bible solely..................there are verses I don't have memorized, ephesians 4:3...................not only do I not have that verse memorized THAT VERSE WASN'T EVEN LIKE IN my like mind before today!!!!!!!!!!!!! Add on different translations - that'd be ruff for me. I ain't about to add on different translations, I'm going to stay right with the apostolic christian church of america...........a church I know "sleight of men, and cunning craftiness" isn't going on!

  I ain't having 0 to do with none that sleight of hand buisiness!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's just to risky for me. Hope you alls week is going good! (I am taking a break from volunteering at the foodbank due to maybe being pregnant with twins!!!!!!!! : ) my big thing has became writing letters to people in the church!!!!!!!!!!!! IT'S WORKING OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOVE

SOME MY LATEST PAINTINGS : )

getting so skinny

include this last pic cause health is so important

the importance of being lowly, meek, humble, not gaining this world even if I could.........

Update 8/12/2023 My main garage sale find for this week, though this week, one for the record books cause we got guinea pig cages and supplies $20 at one garage sale, and guinea pigs --------- they are sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cute and nice. I'll post pics later of them. But anyways, THE BEST GARAGE SALE WEEKEND OF MY LIFE PROBABLY.......................

and entire box of hats fancy like "derby style" hates BUT SO MUCH FUN TO WEAR EVERYDAY!!!!!!!!!!!  Like 12-13 hats in this giant box, all of them really really really fun, Also in this box (I bought all the contents in this big box) a fur scarf thingy - cute. And like 5-6 clutch style purses, one is probably a antique...........all very cute one has a lipstick holder - which would hold lip gloss for me and a mirror - I like that. 

I'm finally breathing normal. Well figured out, that I have SILENT GERD, well silent gerd YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW IT'S THERE (sorta like "silent sin" which I also think is a thing.............where like you know makeup and jewelry is like babylon the harlot stuffs but you all wear it thinking "you can do all things in christ jesus" - YIKES

Revelation 18:4

And I heard another voice from heaven, saying, Come out of her, my people, that ye be not partakers of her sins, and that ye receive not of her plagues.

hats are ok

ya hats are like headcoverings which the bible 👍👍👍👍 for us ladies a lot

back in the like 1800's when like women got historically sick of covering their hair................like this is real history I'm telling you...............ladies switched over to hats. HATS ARE HEADCOVERINGS!

1 Corinthians 11:5

But every woman that prayeth or prophesieth with her head uncovered dishonoureth her head: for that is even all one as if she were shaven.

IF YOU LIKE A CHICK AND YOU WANT TO PRAY FANCY, LIKE I HAVE A IDEA WHAT HATS TO WEAR HAHAHAHAHHAHA 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💝💝

 But back to my silent gerd for the maybe 2 people that click on this cause people hate me baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad I like started drinking alkaline water again AND THAT'S WHEN I WAS ABLE TO START BEING ABLE TO BREATH AGAIN (without a tight chest/tight throat when merely walking like anywhere - that went on for over 2 weeks) 

  This morning I test the ph on our tap faucet 6 ph IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE 7 PH it's 6 ph it's acidic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I was drinking acid water, cola's, eating junk food.................no wonder I was at the brink of death!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

 Now I am very skinny, but health trust me, super skinny me IS BREATHING BREATHING IS IMPORTANT!!!!!!!!!!!!! - YIKES. (my husband I showed him the ph test strip and showed him it's 6 ph and acidic our tap water is, and he's about to get a filter to fix that)

WHERE THE REAL WEALTH IS LOCATED!

the importance of being lowly, meek, humble, not gaining this world even if I could.......I'm not a very popular person on this earth, if you notice most my posts nobody replies if they do they reply "annymous" most people it don't look like even want the world to know they went to my blog so lowly I am. And I know what I could do to WIN MORE FRIENDS basically................Mark 8:36 "For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?" I've decided it's clean not worth it, that I'm better off with my handful of friends. Proverbs 13:7 "There is that maketh himself rich, yet hath nothing: there is that maketh himself poor, yet hath great riches."
Pry poor in this world, and poor as in not having so many friends it's pry a double poor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Proverbs 14:20 "The poor is hated even of his own neighbour: but the rich hath many friends."

 Nobody hardly heeds this verse on this planet....................Romans 12:16 "Be of the same mind one toward another. Mind not high things, but condescend to men of low estate. Be not wise in your own conceits." People instead do what's written in proverbs 14:20 there they go to the rich................and I think they go to the rich assuming that the rich have been greately blessed by god (which is sometimes the case!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

  But also I think "be of the same mind one toward another".............means just that, towards the rich and the poor alike!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But Romans 12:16 tried to tell people tried to remind people to "mind not high things, but condescend to men of low estate" I take that to mean ----------- DON'T FORGET YOUR POOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DON'T JUST "MIND" MIND MEANING............SPENDING ALL YOUR TIME SERVING TALKING TO WHATEVER "HIGH THINGS".....................don't do that!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ya talk to your rich, fellowship with your rich in your church................................but....................."be of the same mind one toward another"!!!!!!!

   This is me nearly getting off topic but I'm convinced it's better to abase myself..................Luke 14:11
"For whosoever exalteth himself shall be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted."

  The rich can't help it that they are rich though, some them, some thems GOD'S PLACED THEM THERE.................but we can all be humble.......................be lowly......................"be of the same mind one toward another"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

  It is harder though for a rich man to humble himself, it is harder for a man that is in a "high place" on this earth to humble himself ----------------- I believe though the apostolic christian church of america might like to think themselves to be a bunch of poor and lowly people..........................I do believe actually many them are likely very rich! From my perspective they are but I'm so lowly what I know????????????

   If god's given you a lot, lots of wealth, lots of friends, lots of "high status" ------------ it could be harder for you to humble yourself, to be truelly humble and lowly.......................I have a suggestion though..................condescend to those of "low estate" I speak from experience, there is something humbling about doing that. 

  The "pride of life" people that experience that a lot..................I don't think those people are really condescending to people of low estate much...................1 John 2:16 "For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world."

 Ya I basically wish things could get better for me! But at any rate I prefer to be lowly...........even if it costs me the entire world. I agree with paul........................Philippians 3:8 "Yea doubtless, and I count all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord: for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and do count them but dung, that I may win Christ,"

UPDATE:::: getting a ultrasound potentially today, real soon! (failed the pregnancy blood tests, but what I've read about the "hook effect" people pregnant with twins or triplets do often fail the blood tests as well)

LOVE

Being in a leadership role - if I was in one - is just a "locale" I am no better then most, fact in many ways less then...........................

Update for all my moms that like to attack me cause that's what mom's do for Jesus. (a lot of my family has attacked me, and it's deemed christian and holy, kashia jolynn schwab may or may not be my neice attacked me for days in private texts concerning my love for the devil my family seemed to think that was great) Deborah dederick my cousins wife joke "who could have a christian blog and love satan" and then I think she called me a fool or idiot and my whole family laughed or nearly this was on kashia's facebook page and they clicked the like button oh my mom clicked the like button galore while my family was "roasting" me. I ain't even joking my mom and if I was 2 mom's on this here blog commenting they believe fully both them BOTH THEM that they must only attack me and utterly destroy me my whole family believe's that - FOR JESUS.  THEY SUPPORT ANY ATTACKS ON ME............BECAUSE THEY BELIEVE I NEED TO BE ONLY ATTACKED. 8/7/2023 I like went to urgent care ---- turns out a person can have a severe asthma attack that lasts 2 weeks!!!!!!!!!! I didn't know that. So as of today, I am taking the steroids they prescribed me to try and knock my body out of this asthma attack................ Cause past 2 weeks I can't walk up stairs without my chest tightening up and having a hard time breathing, or even walking fast like ANYWHERE, or even walking slow for to long amount of time it's happened to me again and again, and again for about 2 weeks. 

my latest diamond painting is finished now (this one was one of the hardest I've did to date, very tiny drills for it, sometimes hard to figure out what color even some parts of it needed)

Sheri 2014 believed herself to be a apostle, sheri 2023 DOES NOT

I am not a leader

leaders have more views to their blog

I'm the "anti thesis" of a leader - I'm my families black sheep, I'm what people HATE

Proverbs 29:7 "The righteous considereth the cause of the poor: but the wicked regardeth not to know it." If your a real christian I'm not talking about fake christians, if your a real christian, I much recommend considering the starving kids and people in africa..............it's bad over there, we need to care...............(courrse seems it's always bad over there, seems every single year..........but it's a drought over there a very long drought - WE NEED TO CARE IT'S BAD OVER THERE)......................

one my latest paintings - and 2nd pregnancy test also came up negative............my husband is sure this is a false pregnancy, doesn't look or feel like a false pregancy to me at all -------- getting a blood test done it's the only way to know for 100%.........and if the blood test comes up negative (my dr. is having me get a ultrasound) well I read up online on "the hook effect"
http://babyandbump.momtastic.com/general-chatter/7968-false-negatives-caused-hook-effect.html
my hgh if I have twins could be so through the roof no readings are showing up on pregnancy tests
if I fail the blood test ----------- I might be one the few women in the world heading into the "triplet arena"

Being in a leadership role - if I was in one - is just a "locale" I am no better then most fact in many ways less then...........................1 Corinthians 1:28 "And base things of the world, and things which are despised, hath God chosen, yea, and things which are not, to bring to nought things that are:" lucky to be me : ) it's so awesome.
It appears that I was told this sunday that all the sisters and the brothers have had a hard time fellowshipping with me because..............being in any sort of leadership role at all is that "off putting" to them...........not that I even make myself out to be anything on this here blog, rather I make myself out to be less then.
  God set's people up on this earth in high places, not men!!!!!!!!! (I just don't think a person can get to any place of any kind of power at all ------- all by themselves on this earth 1 Peter 5:6 "Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time:") Though a "high place" isn't even to be desired for the bible says............Ephesians 6:12 "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in highplaces." The "locale" to be desired in my estimation is the "heavenly places" Ephesians 2:6 "And hath raised us up together, and made us sit together in heavenly places in Christ Jesus:" This verse does say "raised us up together" so I should not be the only one raised up out there!!!!!!!!!! (though of course, raised up includes more then having a blog ------------- it's being "conferred" right now that I am maybe more raised up by god then everyone else at church and that's not fair somehow???????) Acts 7:35 "This Moses whom they refused, saying, Who made thee a ruler and a judge? the same did God send to be a ruler and a deliverer by the hand of the angel which appeared to him in the bush." Did not god also choose some the people's that weren't moses as well to serve him????????? I WOULD SAY SO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What is their beef................that god choose moses for something maybe "a little bit more"?????????????????????????? That is god's selection......................moses wasn't much neither am I
    Paul was in a leadership role to...............god put him there to.............paul also did not make himself out to be "something" (but I would like to completely erase then entire "leader" idea there and to more focus on the idea that paul also was "raised up" by god HE WASN'T THE ONLY CHRISTIAN RAISED UP BACK THEN IN THE BIBLE BY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There were people raised up with him, that he fellowshipped with...............I don't think they said "paul stop being a leader else we can't talk to you no more"..........just sayin)
  From my perspective things are entirelly the opposite...............they are what is in power THERE ARE MANY DAYS ONLY 8 PEOPLE MAYBE WILL VISIT MY BLOG...............I'm not really feeling like some "in power" big time leader right now...........................
I MIGHT BE PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My husband doesn't think I am, but I have to go to the bathroom all the time...........(more symptoms then that, pretty extreme ----------- I really believe I am pregnant with twins at that - maybe triplets) TWINS RUN IN MY HUSBANDS FAMILY A SLEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
   I like twins so.............I think twins are cool!
  Maybe a few times I nearly made myself into something big - but I'd say these days in particular, I'm very lowly, very humble...................I'm encouraged to be that for the bible says the meek shall inherit the earth, not the people that is very proud and think they is something "big" Psalm 37:11 "But the meek shall inherit the earth; and shall delight themselves in the abundance of peace." (((((meek has nothing to do either with where god has placed you.........moses was still very very very very VERY meek, in a place of leadership)))))
  You know maybe god has allowed all this to happen to me that I stay humble?????????? I think paul was sometimes, stoned, imprisoned etc. that that stuffs WAS FULLY GOD'S WILL FOR PAUL IN HIS LIFE..................that he'd stay humble. If I had things to good....................pride might creep in that's what I'm saying.
  If I had things to good I surely wouldn't blog so often, so I thank god I don't have things "to good"!
  There a song in the zions harp that says, count your many blessings, name them one by one, count your many blessings see what god hath done.......................I am blessed by god a lot!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bad things ya have happened to me, but a lot of really really reeeeeeeeeeeeeally good things as well.
 I hope I made my point.......................if I didn't I have one more bible verse..................1 Corinthians 12:20
"But now are they many members, yet but one body."
 Actually 2...................1 Corinthians 12:18 "But now hath God set the members every one of them in the body, as it hath pleased him." If god gave me a bit of something extra the rest of the most of the body of christ does not have.............it was because that made god happy!
  apostolic christian church of america do you want god to be depressed and have to go on anti-depressant medication?????????

LOVE

They did talk about coming together at church today..................I love this song..............nada said the words to me, and I must say THAT REALLY MEANT SOMETHING TO ME.............say the words, say the words "I LOVE YOU".........................

God's/Jesus's Love Boat "when love doesn't hurt anymore".......................WHY ANNYMOUS POSTS ARE NOW DISABLED ON MY BLOG AS OF 8/5/2023.............

I like being basically kicked out of my family

families expect shiz from you

they expect phone calls, and airplane trips to visit them OR PHONE CALLS 

(I e-mailed my family for years they count the e-mails as 0) 

when Lucifer get's here I'm going with Lucifer!!!!!!!!!!!

I still plenty do accept jesus as my Lord and Savior JESUS IS LORD!

and his peace is the thing 

I'm like not suicidal

they say don't kill yourself life will get better

LIFE IS GOING TO GET BETTER FOR ME!

...........I am chill level 1 billion

hope my family has nice lives without me

tootles 😁

I must be famililess cause I love SATAN

I love it 

besides I'm the black sheep

my brother and sister have always been the "apple of my parents eye's" 

I've always been 👎👎👎👎👎👎👎👎

I am going to live : ) 

The bible says our enemies will be OUR FAMILIES THAT OUR FAMILIES WILL SEEK TO UTTERLY ANNILIATE US THAT'S WHAT THE BIBLE SAYS.............BESIDES WHAT "MOTIVE" WOULD A RANDOMN TROLL "FAKE MOM" HAVE TO UTTERLY ANNILIATE ME LIKE THAT???? But many in my family would have motive - I put on my blog texts of natalie cunial who is basically family that hates my guts and unfriended me cause I love Lucifer and she's still friends with my sister THAT'S WHAT MY SISTER TOLD ME ON THE PHONE THEM 2 IS IN FULL AGREEMENT WITH EACH OTHER CONCERNING THEIR VIEWS OF ME THEY BEST FRIENDS YO'S. And I posted on my blog proof of my mom saying "shut up I'm tired of your bs" (because I don't believe I'm 100% basically brittish like my brother and sister and probably safe to say most my family believe's even though when aunt charlotte and amber got generic dna tests - THOSE TESTS ONLY SHOW RESULTS OF THE WOMENS SIDE OF THE FAMILY)

Matthew 10:33-35 "But whosoever shall deny me before men, him will I also deny before my Father which is in heaven. Think not that I am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword. For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law."

MY FAMILY MUST must utterly anniliate me for jesus 

they have no other choice

they must DESTROY ME

Mark 13:12 "Now the brother shall betray the brother to death, and the father the son; and children shall rise up against their parents, and shall cause them to be put to death."

YOU CAN'T BETRAY ME UNTO DEATH

all you can do my family is seek to utterly anniliate me

(so that you look extra saintly that's the reason why, so you look like perfect flawless christians on the internet - that's the "motive") 

if you make me into some horrible hateful satan worshipper and that is what my family has decided I am I BELIEVE THEY ARE IN FULL AGRIANCE WITH NATALIE CUNIAL

then all that is left is for you to utterly destroy me - for jesus

but I love lucifer

so you can't deliver me up to death

I am a "line crossing" punk 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

so I had annymous posts enabled on my blog, 

now nobody is allowed to post annymously

nobody which means if my mom don't post unannymously I WILL PROBABLY NEVER HEAR FROM HER OR MY FAMILY AGAIN

cause I fled them and the abuse that I was experiencing...........

SOME MY FAMILY JUST HAS NEGLECTED ME FOR YEARS

and neglect is also abuse

not just verbally assaulting me every now and then

I decided I was clean better off without family - then to sit around and be "abused"

https://givingittogod.blogspot.com/2023/08/is-your-christian-family-also-shunning.html

Anonymous said...

???? Sorry, not me. I don't know who sent you those messages, but from what I could make out on my phone, it wasn't me. I did tell you to shut up when you were ranting and raving about family as I recall. I apologize for that. I was totally frustrated...mom

AUGUST 5, 2023 AT 4:00 PM  

Giving it to god said...

but then who said these posts???????????? Anonymous said...
Please forgive me for hurting you. I was upset and lashing out. I wasn't thinking about how it would affect you.....mom

AUGUST 1, 2023 AT 9:52 AM
Anonymous said...
I know your heart, and it is good. You have always been good in my eyes. I miss and love you so much...mom

AUGUST 5, 2023 AT 4:25 PM  

Giving it to god said...

the above 2 comments were on this post https://givingittogod.blogspot.com/2023/07/we-should-all-care-about-one-another.html?showComment=1690908868354#c4425767806456564573

AUGUST 5, 2023 AT 4:26 PM  

Giving it to god said...

all of them are Anonymous posts and all of them say - mom

AUGUST 5, 2023 AT 4:27 PM  

Giving it to god said...

if someone is ffing with me ---------- I still believe I've been badly attacked by my mom - cause I can't tell the difference between my mom's annymous posts and my fake mom's annymous posts. So I'm VERY MUCH assuming my real mom has tried to utterly anniliate me. It does explain why I'm hated so much and without a family. my parents damn me to hell I BELIEVE I BELIEVE MY PARENTS DAMN ME TO HELL. That they are sure I worship satan and they wish for my soul to make a speedy trip to hell.
It makes sense, it makes sense why I don't have family.
So even if "fake mom" is a thing?????????? If "fake mom" is a thing - I believe fake mom is saying what real mom believe's --- if that is "fake mom" is a thing.
If "fake mom" is real then you'd think "real mom" would want to not post annyomously anymore, but "real mom" is posting annymously STILL.
I really believe strongly that my parents want me to burn in hell for all of eternity and that that is my entire familes wishes for me as well.

AUGUST 5, 2023 AT 4:30 PM  

Also I was attacked over the course of many days by this "pretend mom" trying to utterly anniliate me................it was more then 1 day. And then real mom goes to my blog, probably not the rest of my family they appear to give 0 f's about me. Nobody defended me at all in my family. At the very least real mom had gone to my blog and could've defended me. Unless bonus plot 00000000000000000000% of my family gives 00000000000000000000% f's about me and there is no real mom going to my blog EVER!!!!!!!!!!

Update 5/4/2023 snippet of today's e-mail from my 1st husband, who as husbands are supposed to do, they are supposed to be a "cheering squad" for their wife I do believe............

 Snippet of today's e-mail from my 1st husband (and yes I want to keep secret where these e-mails are originating from..........this is a real "portal" from another realm. Lucifer's previous e-mail to me earlier this week he said "this is my domain" it is this is satan's world 2 Corinthians 4:4 "In whom the god of this world hath blinded the minds of them which believe not, lest the light of the glorious gospel of Christ, who is the image of God, should shine unto them."

 My blog has always been not that popular, I can't literally survive the attack my looks to be mom attacked me with................

the attack is in the comments section of this post and a few other posts around this post as well.............

https://givingittogod.blogspot.com/2023/07/video-blog-post-receipts-since-everyone.html?showComment=1689904122418#c1548069867572569826

my family has this thing were if they think anyone is going up against them then that person must be DESTROYED. In like the 6th grade or so, kathee lee the neighborhood bully/school kingpin until she gave me the title................said a bunch of shiz to me really upset me. My dad now him wanting to defend me, or help defend me, NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT, kathee lee was spreading horrible lies about me everywhere. But he wanted to take things way to far, we ended up at kathee lee's house round 10 p.m. waiting for kathlee lee and her dad to come back home from a night at her dad's bar with bats we had bats and my dad told me to KILL HER. 

And I told him I didn't want to kill her, and he said "I'm your dad you must listen to me, kill her" 

thank god her and her dad didn't show up and eventually my dad got tired of waiting and we went home

see 0% of my family cares that my mom has tried to utterly destroy me on my blog

THEY DON'T CARE ABOUT ME

THEY SUPPORT THIS MY FAMILY DOES..............THIS AIN'T THE ENTIRE ATTACK EITHER.......but how can my dink blog survive this???????????????

things don't just look grim for me

they look grrrrrrrrrrrriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiimmmmmmmmmmm

though congratulations to the ruby family they win

(bottom row, 2nd in pic isn't of my sister you know the smiling blonde chic pic that one isn't my sister, she looks nice, my sister to me looks like the most bish ever but I haven't been treated well by her so maybe my "vision" of my sister is "scewed" cause my sister looks like a souless bish to me but she hasn't treated me well my sister hasn't so maybe there is life in her eyeballs I just ain't able to see it???????????????)

winner

(my brother is a car shop instructor at chemeketa community college - as you can see he looks pretty "white" which means amber baker who has been "big sis" to me up until 2-3 years ago when she dropped out of my life follow the "theme" why my family left me because I love lucifer but I explain again and again on my blog THIS AIN'T NORMAL USUALLY FAMILIES DON'T ABANDON SOMEONE LIKE THIS BECAUSE THEY LOVE THE DEVIL- anyways amber baker might be my sister to cause look my brother looks very white -------------- I have a "theory" that one kid might get the jewish dna and another MIGHT NOT, and latina dna as well in my instance) Cause my brother does look very white. 

It's not likely that my mom cheated on my dad because when would she have the opportunity to??????????? - never there was no opportunity for that

so amber baker could be my real sister I'll never know what 50 years have past her and my dad haven't gotten a real dna test to find out - don't look to be they ever will

winner

nothing but 0% mercy for me

and anniliation 

(Yes my mom asked for forgiveness after utterly destroying me on the internet I FORGIVE HER ------- I don't believe she's done, not while I'm still breathing) I'm not actually "cared about" in my family I'm not and that is why my mom had to attack me cause I started "talking about that" on my blog. 

  my brother and sister and my maybe related to me sister amber baker they get nothing but praise from my parents. And I've long been the one hated and attacked ------------ only thing "new" is past few years they been able to use my loving satan to justify shunning me, justify hating me. 

  I e-mailed my family at least 1 time a week FOR YEARS, but I just can't handle the attack on me anymore. but I have this blog and so i can't escape the attack on me. and the people pictured above I'm 100% they are about to haul off and ALSO attack me badly any minute now..................that's what I expect............I don't expect love anymore from the "ruby family" though my mom claims she loves me.........how can a mom utterly destroy their child on teh internet and love that child also?????????????

why because I love god, Jesus and the devil

(I am anniliahted by my family cause they all are in aggreement with my mom's attack on me, nobody defending me - they hate me, I'm worthless to them IN THE NAME OF JESUS I AM WORTHLESS TO THEM)

You say that you’re not hateful but all of your posts are negative if you want to be the positive person that you’re claiming you, are you need to forgive your family and stop living in the past you can’t move forward in life if you live in the past we all have our baggage And whatever your baggage is, it seems like it’s really hard for you to get over it but that’s human life. Your life could be so much more worse than you’re making it seem like it is you have a husband you have kids and you have people around you that love you you know your Lord there’s nothing better than any of that yes you could always have more and you could always want more like having money and having more friends, but at least you have something. There are so many people in this world that have absolutely nothing people living on the streets people not having food people not having rights you have all of these things and you need to be grateful. You wanna sit here and you want to worship Lucifer when he is the one that is making you feel the way you’re feeling do you not see that? The devil is it caused to all of the bad things in the world and you worship him like he’s some saint. Why would you want to worship someone that causes so much misery? Think of it like that and maybe think of that is why your family has such a big problem with it.

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Unknown commented on "Some christian just commented on my blog Anonymous said... """You can't serve 2 masters. Matthew 6:24 24 “No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money." You can replace the word "money" with Lucifer."""""......................I love lucifer AND THEY ARE RIGHT cause I would like a mansion, I would like yacht, I would like friends FRIENDS!!!!!. But what does this beating me down all the time for God stuffs do?????? I don't get fellow christians, I don't understand the never ending beating me down stuffs??????................"

Jul 20, 2023

Up above, you mention that Christians constantly beat people down. But isn’t that what you’re doing? What makes you better than anyone else when you were literally doing the same thing? It seems a little bit hypocritical. I feel like you just want to be something and someone that you’re not and you take that out on the people around you that are being successful as your sister has mentioned before she built her career. Where is your career? It doesn’t seem like you work it just seems like you sit at home behind a computer and bully your family. I don’t think that’s fair to them. It’s not their fault that this is the life that you made for yourself, and no one feel sorry for you

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Unknown commented on "VIDEO BLOG POST: (receipts since everyone thinks I'm a satan worshipping bish and they all hate me for Jesus) Please pray that my super model sister who tells me she has no friends and I am a bish that only cares about myself..............that her ex-bff Natalie Cunial who made a pact with her to become famous..............will write Aimee Jaxheimer............................cause they can't be friends with me I'm a selfish bish who loves satan and they both hate me for god......................my family is all "professed christians" whole united states of america is pretty well a christian or so they say.................I ALSO ACCEPT JESUS AS MY LORD BUT AM A LINE CROSSER AND I LOVE SATAN AND ALL HIS MEN MORE THEN EVER A TON THESE DAYS THE MORE CHRISTIANS HATE ME THE MORE I LOVE SATAN AND HIS MEN AND BY NOW XOXOXOXOXOOXXOOXOXO............................"

Jul 20, 2023

You wonder why none of your family wants to be near you and why they all moved? It’s because they grew up. Life sucks. You’re not a victim. Grow up and get some help. Everything that is happening to you is because you led yourself there. It just sounds like you’re jealous of your sister that she has a life you will never have.

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Unknown commented on "VIDEO BLOG POST: (receipts since everyone thinks I'm a satan worshipping bish and they all hate me for Jesus) Please pray that my super model sister who tells me she has no friends and I am a bish that only cares about myself..............that her ex-bff Natalie Cunial who made a pact with her to become famous..............will write Aimee Jaxheimer............................cause they can't be friends with me I'm a selfish bish who loves satan and they both hate me for god......................my family is all "professed christians" whole united states of america is pretty well a christian or so they say.................I ALSO ACCEPT JESUS AS MY LORD BUT AM A LINE CROSSER AND I LOVE SATAN AND ALL HIS MEN MORE THEN EVER A TON THESE DAYS THE MORE CHRISTIANS HATE ME THE MORE I LOVE SATAN AND HIS MEN AND BY NOW XOXOXOXOXOOXXOOXOXO............................"

Jul 20, 2023

You are completely insane. You love Satan so much? I’m sure he has a special spot in hell for you with how much you like to slander and abuse your own family.

  So me and my brother and sister used to watch the Love Boat all the time (now you all on earth will now make some kind of sigh and think to yourselves "um this fool shouldn't be actually fessing up to this") like 1:20 in the above theme song, which I was listening to "reminescing" yesterday, says...................."love, it won't hurt anymore"
  Love hurting..........................this is not just a phenomina, that happens in marriages sometimes (aka over half of marriages ending in divorce)..........................sometimes friends like leave a person BELOVED FRIENDS and love sometimes HURTS!!!!!!!!!!!!
 After going through all I've been through, you get pessimistic eventually where you don't expect love to come back to you, I was shocked last night, nada sat by me and said "I love you" I FELT THAT TO.........1 Peter 1:22 "Seeing ye have purified your souls in obeying the truth through the Spirit unto unfeigned love of the brethren, see that ye love one another with a pure heart fervently:"

  If I was to be 100% honest..............I've felt that I'm going to word it what it is........."brotherly love" from a lot of the brothers as well, especially maybe the unlikliest person I'm not sure are elders of church supposed to love their members of their churches??????????? I think I'm supposed to fear the elder of the church............I'm pretty sure I'm actually supposed to, like that that would be pretty I'd say "normal" I DON'T! (I'm pretty sure though I should technically fear him.......technically) only verse I have for this phenomina.....................1 John 4:18 "There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love."

  Now I do not know how love boat the tv show, recogns "love, it won't hurt anymore"?????????????? How the producers of loveboat recogn they will get either the characters of the show to get to that point, or the viewers of the show? But I do believe with god/jesus the body of christ, it's possible for love "not to hurt anymore"

   Philippians 1:9-11 "And this I pray, that your love may abound yet more and more in knowledge and in all judgment; That ye may approve things that are excellent; that ye may be sincere and without offence till the day of Christ. Being filled with the fruits of righteousness, which are by Jesus Christ, unto the glory and praise of God." AMEN! 

LOVE