Bible says don't wear gold jewelry - but my "self esteem" is low. People have beated me down to much in life! I never recovered from the day I watched online a live church service from a messianic christian congretation that I used to go to and the rabbi said "she's herrrrrrrrrrrrrrrre" and then proceeded to tell the congregation don't worry he'll never let a person with a pirate themed you tube page run his church - my you tube page was pirate themed back then even though I never asked to run their church or mentioned nothing like that ever, and then said they thought I was nice but turned out to be a total bish. Because I ain't very vocal in real life that equals I'm a total bish according to that messanic congregation. I NEVER RECOVERED FROM THAT. And people have been real mean to me on the internet over the years, just years of me being attacked...........gold brings my self esteem back a lot if I'm wearing enough of it and today I'm feeling like I'M BACK FROM THE DEAD!!!!!!!!!........

 Bible says don't wear gold jewelry - but my "self esteem" is low. People have beated me down to much in life! I never recovered from the day I watched online a live church service from a messianic christian congretation that I used to go to and the rabbi said "she's herrrrrrrrrrrrrrrre"  and then proceeded to tell the congregation don't worry he'll never let a person with a pirate themed you tube page run his church - my you tube page was pirate themed back then even though I never asked to run their church or mentioned nothing like that ever, and then said they thought I was nice but turned out to be a total bish. Because I ain't very vocal in real life that equals I'm a total bish according to that messanic congregation. I NEVER RECOVERED FROM THAT. And people have been real mean to me on the internet over the years, just years of me being attacked...........gold brings my self esteem back a lot if I'm wearing enough of it and today I'm feeling like I'M BACK FROM THE DEAD!!!!!!!!!........

1 Peter 3:3 "Whose adorning let it not be that outward adorning of plaiting the hair, and of wearing of gold, or of putting on of apparel;"

I won't say which of or if any of this is solid gold or not. 

I made the little cross ring on my pinky finger to give jesus christ the lord props.

 I neeeeeeeeeeeeeeed gold jewelry. People respect gold jewelry, it says "hey I'm not a poor person you can beat down for your lord jesus christ" CAUSE PEOPLE ARE HORRIBLE TO THE POOR FROM MY EXPERIENCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Proverbs 19:4 "Wealth maketh many friends; but the poor is separated from his neighbour." That's the bible saying the poor are treated like crud and I know they are!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 My "cut jawline" is due to what I'm injesting lately that is going to get me skinnier then the ozempic kids probably. But I don't want to say what I'm injesting because I want to finally not be the "fatty" of my family. (people are so mean to the fat and the poor --- so mean - from my experience)

  If I talk about what I'm injesting to much you'll know what it is pry, hint, it has more glp 1's safe to say then the really expensive style of ozempic, and bonus ingredients to anniliate fat in people's bodies. TIKTOK made me do it! I saw so many success stories I was like ok. Told brian about it, he went to fred meyers and bought 2 varieties of it. THE STUFF WORKS. 

  Somedays I'm even combining this mystery ingredient with berberine, to up the glp 1 EVEN MORE. The scale is just torpedoing down for me. 

the patriachy if I'm the norm

and it looks to be I am the norm

is just CRUSHING WOMEN

our self esteems need HELP

ps though it don't matter if it's real solid gold or not I believe (I'm desperately allergic to those low end gold platings - I end breaking out in rashes fast) but I full believe the more fake gold ups ones self esteem to. 

and it's relaxing

I feel so relaxed right now

gold does way more for me then rocks/crystals 

I believe 2 things people need in 2026 in usa most of us - stress relief and jesus which is also stress relief in my estimation

stress ages people

if you look around see how old people look most of them they are stressed they really are

well no wonder, it's so expensive to live in the usa

(I think people in other countries that aren't the usa look younger often) 

The flouride in your water usa america is aging you.

I don't even believe in flouride in toothpaste. 

(I have some "go to" magical toothpaste that makes it so I don't get cavities anymore - but need it to not sell out ever, so I keep secret) 

..................back to the patriarchy harming my self esteem........................

in elementary school the boys were often most of the time treated better then I was (to the point as a little kid I NOTICED IT, like I wasn't blind)

in the workplace I wasn't treated as well as the guys usually there were job exceptions including my current job which not only do I get "men level pay" my current job my bosses feel like family to me. Me and brian both do my realistate job - it's a two person job, one person can do my job but it's much harder of a job to do solo..................WE LOVE OUR REALISTATE JOB 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

my whole life my self esteem has REALLY BEEN HACKED AT

AND THEN TO TOP IT OFF....................people online often it's guys attack me and they have for years and years and years

(maybe guys don't want to see a women with any self esteem so they must attack her online?????????????????????)

I asked brian what a "tithe amount" would be for me and he said $120 a month, so I have been giving (most weeks - besides the 1 week our refrigerator and microwave died) $30 a week....................

YOU ARE BEING SUMMONED LUCIFER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm stressed out, but "the heat" on me in life (that's what I call it "the heat" has been good for me) MY DREAMS ARE SPARKLING CLEAN NOW AT NIGHT because 1st hubby watches my dreams at night - oh ya............................if one dream tries and "be spicey" 1st hubby chimes right up..............................

  Update 4/18/2024 (these blog updates are all over the place now since how people are refusing to click lately on my "highlighted" blog post for the week - I'm pretty 100% I'm really, really, really hated). This is a pantry cabinet in the garage - WHICH CAN STILL BE FANCY...............so I added contact paper, and gold tape 😂............

the before boooooooooo..................

Hard at work!

I'm stressed out, but "the heat" on me in life (that's what I call it "the heat" has been good for me) MY DREAMS ARE SPARKLING CLEAN NOW AT NIGHT because 1st hubby watches my dreams at night - oh ya............................if one dream tries and "be spicey" 1st hubby chimes right up..............................

the words "tried by fire" ==== is the same as "the heat"

Zechariah 13:9 "And I will bring the third part through the fire, and will refine them as silver is refined, and will try them as gold is tried: they shall call on my name, and I will hear them: I will say, It is my people: and they shall say, The Lord is my God."
1 Peter 1:7 "That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ:"Revelation 3:18 "I counsel thee to buy of me gold tried in the fire, that thou mayest be rich; and white raiment, that thou mayest be clothed, and that the shame of thy nakedness do not appear; and anoint thine eyes with eyesalve, that thou mayest see."

I love lucifer

I love his men (some of them have lost their minds at the moment I do believe) 

I love my enemies

(I am clearly done and don't enjoy being attacked - but my enemies bring "the heat" to man they trying to cremate my body in the morgue but THEY BRING "THE HEAT")

But dang I been "stressed out" lately whilst having my wonderfully sparkly clean dreams at night 😂😂😂😂😂😂💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓 love it

sometimes though

you don't need to "change" so much though as look at everything differently in life

2 Corinthians 5:17 "Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new."

use the things of the earth but not abuse them is the idea

1 Corinthians 7:28-31 "But and if thou marry, thou hast not sinned; and if a virgin marry, she hath not sinned. Nevertheless such shall have trouble in the flesh: but I spare you. But this I say, brethren, the time is short: it remaineth, that both they that have wives be as though they had none; And they that weep, as though they wept not; and they that rejoice, as though they rejoiced not; and they that buy, as though they possessed not; And they that use this world, as not abusing it: for the fashion of this world passeth away."

makeup is a tool to look nice for ones hubby!!!!!!!!!!! FYI

some guys are into the makeup

they want that high glamour maybe a little bossy bish life

some guys likes that I TELLING YOU THE TRUTH

TAYLOR SANG IT TRUE MAN......................

Not all guys want a dominatrix though

but some

almost do

tootles

(heat can purify if done right)

1st hubby sheez he's eternities "heat pro"

my dreams have gotten so sparkling clean at night you have no idea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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