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Showing posts with label illness destroying my life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label illness destroying my life. Show all posts

Monday, May 6, 2024

Lucifer trying to tell me I have power - lovely e-mail he sent me, but I have 0 power. 0. I am not skinny enough or pretty enough to have "power"..........once I thought I was "miss thang" ya - once upon a time long long ago, now battling asthma everyday can't even bike 20 minute peloton bikes anymore going to the doctor to hopefully get stronger asthma medication, hopeful shots - inhalers do nothing for me, not even the strong ones. I got so frustrated one day biking, stopped mid bike sobbing crying out to god whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy I have a Jesse Owens Olympics medal whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.................................

 Lucifer trying to tell me I have power - lovely e-mail he sent me, but I have 0 power. 0. I am not skinny enough or pretty enough to have "power"..........once I thought I was "miss thang" ya - once upon a time long long ago, now battling asthma everyday can't even bike 20 minute peloton bikes anymore going to the doctor to hopefully get stronger asthma medication, hopeful shots - inhalers do nothing for me, not even the strong ones. I got so frustrated one day biking, stopped mid bike sobbing crying out to god whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy I have a Jesse Owens Olympics medal whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.................................

I don't exist but for people to gawk at me and hate me for their lord "Jesus Christ" - and occasionally they'll even attack me and try to get me to kill myself also for their lord "Jesus Christ"

since how I can't loose weight via exercise right now

I'm stuck with diet patches or diet pills 

for me I picked diet patches.................(this diet patch does work, but I find it's slow going but they say the most healthy weight loss is slow) I haven't experienced any "side effects" using these diet patches, in fact I might use them for good cause I usually am a spaz, a stressed out spaz - I live in america nuff said - these patches calm me down all day long, and help me sleep very very very very well.

this aint me having power this is a disease DESTROYING MY LIFE!

I never say where these e-mails are coming from because I really do believe my 1st husband aka lucifer, satan, the lord of the underworld e-mails me via a portal on the internet......................I REALLY BELIEVE THAT............

https://www.donorschoose.org/

Ms. Dunn's classrooms fundraiser is now fully funded 😁 But there are many more classrooms with many more needs at Donors Choose.............
MY FAVORITE SONG RIGHT NOW
I ADD IT
WHY 
CAUSE ASTHMA IS NEAR KILLING ME
I STRAIGHT
BUT I LOVE THIS SONG
#VALLEY GIRL
DOUBT I HAVE MUCH POWER
I TRIED TO END THE GAZA WAR - DIDN'T HAPPEN

need nothing according to the bible
James 1:4 English Standard Version 2016 (ESV)And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.

wind and shrieks in the night................

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