Whyyyyyyyyyyy would people (but maybe they are??????) get a e-mail like this from "the universe" just randomly on a February day all randomn WHY WOULD THEY GET THIS VERY E-MAIL??????? This is supposed to be a website keep in mind THAT HELPS PEOPLE BECOME RICH. THAT'S IT IT'S A VISUALIZATION MAKE YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE WEBSITE. My mom did 2-3 blog post call me crazy a crazy liar ---- just merely said what 3 blog posts ago that I believe I don't feel loved because I was sent to bed without dinner to many nights in around the 5th grade.....................cause you get to feeling a way often DUE TO HOW YOUR TREATED...............OH AND MY FAMILY BESIDES MY MOM THEY DON'T REPLY TO MY E-MAILS ALL THEY DOING IS LIKING MY INSTAGRAM POSTS (aimee and my mom like my instagram posts - sometimes another family member might as well - once in a blue moon)..................well how's that going to make a person feel???????????................

 

Whyyyyyyyyyyy would people (but maybe they are??????) get a e-mail like this from "the universe" just randomly on a February day all randomn WHY WOULD THEY GET THIS VERY E-MAIL??????? This is supposed to be a website keep in mind THAT HELPS PEOPLE BECOME RICH. THAT'S IT IT'S A VISUALIZATION MAKE YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE WEBSITE. My mom did 2-3 blog post call me crazy a crazy liar ---- just merely said what 3 blog posts ago that I believe I don't feel loved because I was sent to bed without dinner to many nights in around the 5th grade.....................cause you get to feeling a way often DUE TO HOW YOUR TREATED...............OH AND MY FAMILY BESIDES MY MOM THEY DON'T REPLY TO MY E-MAILS ALL THEY DOING IS LIKING MY INSTAGRAM POSTS (aimee and my mom like my instagram posts - sometimes another family member might as well - once in a blue moon)..................well how's that going to make a person feel???????????................

https://www.tut.com/

look at the "ps" 

"call me crazy" ---------------- like 3 blog posts ago my mom called me crazy that's literally what she did

is this coincidence, and lucifer isn't sending me e-mails via a portal 

even though I've now said where I believe the portal is happening????????????????

this is a coincidence??????

....................................I think I'd rather fully believe the tooth fairy is real then believe this is a coincidence

this type of thing happens to me again and again and again

brian ------------ made a special folder or soemthing that all my families e-mails go to 

I watched him do it

there's no stopping him

so I don't even see e-mails from my family anymore

cause he's so tired of being stressed out worrying the next time my family is going to attack me

lucifer on the other hand.....................above..............sweaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar his tactic is different but he see's what I CAN'T SEE OR EVEN EXPERIENCE OR FEEL SOMETIMES

CAUSE I DON'T FEEL LOVED BY MY FAMILY AT ALL

I done got 

a candle, kitchen towels guess that was the gifts for brian me and the kids for christmas from my parents

and my favorite essential oil from big sister that isn't dna related to me

THAT'S IT

no christmas cards

........................

they always be's making the least effort like that between attacking me

Matthew 10:34-36 "Think not that I am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword. For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law. And a man's foes shall be they of his own household."

What sort of "love" is attack me style love????????

what sort of love is calling me a crazy liar?????????

I don't call my parents crazy

I really aint about to call lucifer, satan, the devil my 1st husband I do more then suspect crazy no way

what kind of love is that?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

1 Corinthians 13:3-5 "And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, and have not charity, it profiteth me nothing. Charity suffereth long, and is kind; charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up, Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil;"

if you call me a liar and crazy aren't you then thinking "evil"???????????

if I say I was put to bed without dinner, and that is why I do not feel loved that isn't me thinking evil if it really happened to me and I am rationalizing why I do not feel loved by my family, that isn't me thinking evil BUT STATING FACTS

AND IT'S ALSO FACTS ONLY MY MOM E-MAILS ME AND NOT THE REST OF MY FAMILY BUT MAYBE 1 E-MAIL A YEAR OR SO FACTS

EVIL THINKING EVIL AIN'T FACTS

FACTS IS FACTS

Like rosanne barr rapped facts facts facts facts................

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nb7fAEQaJwE

......................................that's I guess great if my family loves me that I won't be seeing their e-mails cause brian he made some fancy folder all their e-mails go to and I don't know where the thing is??????????????????????????????????

FACTS

and also facts I'm going with lucifer once he get's here that's also facts it's facts and it's in the bible though nobody believessssssssssssssss me right now (besides a few people cause at a rock concert, um -------------

the singer she um sang a special song that had nothing to do with her actual concert and it wasn't her song

then they put a spot light on me

this was at the moda center

and lady leans over to me and whispers "we know who you are"

and everyone clapped for me)

......................................

I am believed some.........................................

love both my husbands

I play a small part in life truth be known

we all play a small part in life

-------- some don't play the part they were meant to

cause everyone is created for "good works" 

Ephesians 2:10

For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them.

  we are all gods "workmanship" I believe ideally "created in Christ Jesus unto good works" --------- that's don't always happen out there. 

2 Peter 3:9

The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance.

tootles

ps this blog post is heading somewhere

most love "in word" 

most christians love "in word"

in word only

I don't understand this being loved "in word" only especially if you try and use a sword against me and christians are big on sword bamn to the ground they kill you bad often according to them "out of love" 

Proverbs 27:17

Iron sharpeneth iron; so a man sharpeneth the countenance of his friend.

The apostolic christian church of america people's THEY CLAIM THEY LOVE ME

but all I've been is attacked by them for years now (though they have finally quitted it) and sent spam I gets spam from them

for those new to my blog that's my families church (great uncle garth - now deceased was pastor at the church closest to us for over like 20 years ------------- and my parents got married by a apostolic christian church of america minister just not on the church grounds my parents weren't allowed to get married on the church grounds) 

1 John 3:18

My little children, let us not love in word, neither in tongue; but in deed and in truth.

I don't ever much experience 1 John 3:18 

besides

my mom bought me a candle and some towels or those are supposed to be for the kids to for christmas??????????

and big sis not dna related to me bought me my favorite essential oil

not much compared to how much my family has according to them had phone calls talking to each other how I'm a prisoner in my own home

what is that?????????????????

what is being on the phone to each other talking about how I'm a prisoner in my own home?????????????

gossip????????????

if it's love

don't know the type

I don't feel loved

me here stating facts

not thinking evil bout nobody

facts stating

I ain't no loved in no "deed and truth" 

I DON'T FEEL LOVED

IN THIS SUPPOSEDLY EVERYONE IS CHRISTIAN COUNTRY OF USA

Oregon Food Bank
https://www.paypal.com/US/fundraiser/charity/1427607

I ain't been going to the methodist church lately cause their church service is at 10 a.m. and it's a church across town and that's to early it's near impossible to get ready to go and be at church by then - due to the distance away of that church I'm saying. 

Don't matter the church though

it's always the same

smiling faces

say hi

might pray for you but besides that don't give a flip about me

clearly this is just happening to me - I'm worthless I hate my family though I don't hate my family

I don't feel anything 

I've gone mostly numb inside

I mostly view people as robots in usa america perfect sinless looking claiming most em

kirk cameron style christians

they smile

they shake your hands when you walk into church 

but is that real??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

is that even real??????????????????????????????????????????????????????

often all that feels real to me

is jesus cause he's in me so he feels real

lucifer - talk to him often and his men

and silence ya silence feels real 

and I've ended up liking a book

all the quiet

so while you all are thinking I'm the hate rage filled worthless bish like you like to the narrative you have attacked me a few of you with on the internet

..........................I'm over here numb

with two books................

nasa

nasa

sos nasa

I lost most all the coordinates

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