Last blog post I wasn't fully "forthcoming" most the time "the bell tolls" when I get in the parking lot of the methodist church. They are sure I am a real christian (which I am) but I'm hellbound at least what 90% if I'm right and lucifer is my 1st husband, but FULL OUT HELLBOUND DOOMED TO HELL IF LUCIFER AIN'T MY 1ST HUSBAND. Cause "goodness" and mercy never chases after me........Psalm 23:6 "Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever." GOOD NEWS THOUGH I GET TO LIVE....................PROBABLY..........

Last blog post I wasn't fully "forthcoming" most the time "the bell tolls" when I get in the parking lot of the methodist church. They are sure I am a real christian (which I am) but I'm hellbound at least what 90% if I'm right and lucifer is my 1st husband, but FULL OUT HELLBOUND DOOMED TO HELL IF LUCIFER AIN'T MY 1ST HUSBAND. Cause "goodness" and mercy never chases after me........Psalm 23:6 "Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever." GOOD NEWS THOUGH I GET TO LIVE....................PROBABLY..........

I don't know if I have "handlers" per say

but my whole life I believe has been a gigantic satanic mass

I love lucifer so I'm not complaining

I just saying

when I talk about church and Ephesians 4:16 "From whom the whole body fitly joined together and compacted by that which every joint supplieth, according to the effectual working in the measure of every part, maketh increase of the body unto the edifying of itself in love." I don't actually experience Ephesians 4:16 and we all know why...............I'm headed to hell. 

Course now that I said this the bell pry won't ring when I go to the methodist church 

it's for the best

your dieing without me soon probably

your nice enough people

it's sad that you pry will be jailed and die soon.............I ain't just saying that - they are very nice plenty enough nice people at the methodist church me and brian go to.

Revelation 2:10 "Fear none of those things which thou shalt suffer: behold, the devil shall cast some of you into prison, that ye may be tried; and ye shall have tribulation ten days: be thou faithful unto death, and I will give thee a crown of life."

Nomadder what I am "for whom the bell tolls" 

I'm not planning on dieing I'm not "that type" of christian

I'm the type of christian most christians haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaate

for good reason in the past

ya

I wanted fame for a long time and mansions

I still think mansions are nice

nice cars are nice

I struggle even doing a day anymore

...........................

sad

when you realize

your what jesus came to save

but your not what the body of christ is compossed of mostly these days..................................

Mark 2:17

When Jesus heard it, he saith unto them, They that are whole have no need of the physician, but they that are sick: I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.

always I am sick

but I'm not wanting to wear makeup or try much naw or live much

life more abundantly couldn't touch me

it couldn't abundant me

jesus lives in me

cause I'm not a reprobate not because I'm not a total turd.................of utter worthlessness a sicko

I'm a sicko

I'm a worthless satan loving sicko.................

Sometimes I like eating junk food

and i know it's bad for me

I LIKE THE BADNESS OF IT!

When my spine arthritis was very bad (then I moved over to ice baths instead of drugs) but before I moved over to ice baths I did like 20 pot edibles. 

And I did one freaked out

freaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaked out

heart raced super fast freak out, freak out, freak out, freak out hours

and you'd think I woulnd't do that again

I DID

BECAUSE I'M SICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

in a country usa of sinless kirk camerons - no hate

I'm convinced they only have rollerskating rinks in my town once every few years because that's such sinful stuff of the depraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaved rollerskating is (not in my mind, in the kirks minds) CONVINCED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my husband he told me he don't need jesus

and I agree he don't need jesus

I need jesus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!