Confronting my family who believe I am "drowning in darkness" that is what my mom says. Cindy Lauper sang "oh daddy dear were not the fortunate ones" -------------- I'M NOT ONE OF THE FORTUNATE ONES THE ONES "PREFERRED IN LOVE" Romans 12:10 "Be kindly affectioned one to another with brotherly love; in honour preferring one another;"............................

 Confronting my family who believe I am "drowning in darkness" that is what my mom says. Cindy Lauper sang "oh daddy dear were not the fortunate ones" -------------- I'M NOT ONE OF THE FORTUNATE ONES THE ONES "PREFERRED IN LOVE" Romans 12:10 "Be kindly affectioned one to another with brotherly love; in honour preferring one another;"............................e-mail I sent my family cause I AIN'T THE ONLY ONE GOING "THROUGH IT".........................

 So mom you said I'm "drowning in darkness" your not "drowning in darkness as well"????????????? For you all there are many christians doing many good things to you and/or people and it's causing you to praise god/jesus everyday of your lives and your excited to go to church etc. and praise god even though only me and brian and amber go to church????????????.....................

retreat I was invited to................

https://www.signupgenius.com/go/8050848ABAD2FA7F94-52948695-retreat#/

  I don't think it's a invite from the methodist church I don't even know if they is christians???????????????????????????? They pry are everyone is christian in usa nearly, not that it matters if they are christian or not. But I don't know who they are. It was nice finally getting a invite somewhere that never happens to me. But I literally don't have no clue who these people are???????????

I might blog this, it's just something I wonder

if I'm drowning in darkness - how come it is I don't see other people anything else but also "drowning in darkness" like around me I'm saying besides amber does go to church and sounds like she's not like me, she's very popular and probably many good things are happening to her all the time since how she has gone to church for years and enjoys it a lot

so I'm going to assume amber isn't "drowning in darkness" 

but from my viewpoint

looks like most people are - "drowning in darkness" 

Nother e-mail a sent my family cause often I don't think people understand english in america................I don't often feel that I'm being heard....................

though technically I am going to hell

........but that's not the concern right now

that I'm the only one concerned about it

Romans 12:10 "Be kindly affectioned one to another with brotherly love; in honour preferring one another;"

if the people damned

if the hell bound the damned were not preferred in love

"DROWNING ALSO IN DARKNESS"

HOW'S IT FAIR FOR THEM TO BURN FOREVER

HOW ARE THEY WORTHLESS BISHES AND IT'S ALL THEIR FAULTS -------- CAUSE THAT'S WHAT PEOPLE TELL ME ALL THE TIME THAT I'M A WORTHLESS BISH AND IT'S ALL MY FAULT

Ecclesiastes 4:9-10 "Two are better than one; because they have a good reward for their labour. For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow: but woe to him that is alone when he falleth; for he hath not another to help him up."  
  I'm not allowed to speak to brian about a bible verse ever, cause he chewed me out so bad I tried to crawl out of a window I couldn't fit out of and he told me how dare I speak to him about a bible verse you piece of ------------------------
that's what he said!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so course I was running to the window trying to climb out of it!!!!!!!

my son was there to agreeing with him

he claims I was trying to preach to him

BUT I WAS MERELY EXCITED ABOUT A BIBLE VERSE