Are you really free?

 UPDATE: As of today 2/22/2024 I'm trying to sell isopods cause I have of one breed not the breed pictured 500-1000 isopods (in a very large container, I don't have them in small containers - I've got them in giant "isopod worlds"). 

  One of my kids I mean young adult kids got me interested in isopods - man they really started something. Your not supposed to be every other day or so, I'll grab the isopod bins lift the lid and watch them walk around 😁 And I have them located by my computer - so I also watch them at various points throughout the day walking around. 

  If they don't sell ------- I have 2 hermit crabs. Which slight cringe I did give them some isopods (live ones - hence slight cringe) ummmmmmmmmmmm they seemed to of ate ATE those isopods cause I gave them a good 10-15 isopods and they don't look to be alive in the hermit crab enclosure...................................slight cringe.

tried to show how large that cool "ghost white" dairy cow isopod is, it's actually larger then the end of my finger, it's GIANT 💓💓💓💓💓💓 I have a few ghost ones 💓💓💓💓💓💓

yep I lifted a log covered in little baby isopod bugs  💓💓💓💓💓💓 💓💓💓💓💓💓 💓💓💓💓💓💓 💓💓💓💓💓💓 💓💓💓💓💓💓 💓💓💓💓💓💓 💓💓💓💓💓💓 💓💓💓💓💓💓 💓💓💓💓💓💓 💓💓💓💓💓💓

Are you really free?
  My ideas about freedom have changed. Once I thought if I kept the apostolic christian church of america's rules about wearing a bun in my head, and (well clearly I didn't follow their no bangs rule : )  but I thought that free'd me up from being a "friend of the world".
  The only bible verse about hair in the bible or one of the very few, maybe there's another?
   1 Timothy 2:9 "In like manner also, that women adorn themselves in modest apparel, with shame facedness and sobriety; not with broided hair, or gold, or pearls, or costly array;" Don't have braided hair and that is it!
  Though I'm certain there has to be "mercy of god" towards african american's braided hair because, if they keep their hair natural it needs to be braided in many cases. (if their hair wasn't braided it would likely dreadlock...........yes I have experience with this type of hair).
   So lately I been wearing a wig, I felt trapped by the bun thing............instead of free I was feeling unfree. Or maybe unfree????????? I didn't like the whiff of maybe no free--edness.

  (those that wish to judge this photo and probably hate me go ahead judge away..........I've decided I forgive you, for the very people that would judge me and hate me, are the people most "bound" on this earth)

When jesus said John 8:36 "If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed." He meant free! Though I still think it's a plenty good plan to cover you head with a headcovering if you are a girl on sunday, when praying (if you don't have a poofed out wig on your head and can manage that that is..................).
  I think this crazy hairdo actually helps motivate me to dress modest (well most girls myself included wouldn't want to be thought of as a ----------------- insert street worker word here)

  I be's wearing baggy sweaters (and enjoying it : ), long skirts, baggy pants, etc. all kindssssssssssssssssssss these days : ) 

 Freedom is a wonderful thing! And I am a american and I love it! 

The bible much alludes to the idea that you will not know a people by how they look.........Matthew 7:20 "Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them." You'll know them by how they love. 

  God wants us ladies to not wear expensive clothing 1 Timothy 2:9 "In like manner also, that women adorn themselves in modest apparel, with shame facedness and sobriety; not with broided hair, or gold, or pearls, or costly array;"

no expensive clothing

no braids in hair

no gold and pearls which is basically expensive jewelry 

and wear modest apparel

--------------------- I went for years to churches that wanted to add to 1 Timothy 2:9 and say no jewelry don't wear no jewelry...........well it doesn't say that in 1 Timothy 2:9 it says don't wear the expensive stuffs. 

  God made us to be like girls. He didn't make us into boys. We many of us like glitter for instance - well we are girls - amen!!!!!!!!! 

  To the pure all things is pure Titus 1:15 "Unto the pure all things are pure: but unto them that are defiled and unbelieving is nothing pure; but even their mind and conscience is defiled."

  If you find some cheap cute costume jewelry at claires that you just gotta have........................ya it's bestest to suffer in the flesh as much as possible 2 Corinthians 1:5 "For as the sufferings of Christ abound in us, so our consolation also aboundeth by Christ."

  For reals though, getting real with the ladies...................................if there is a cute cheap 50 cents necklace at a garage sale....................that's 50 cents that's like free. 

 Is my logic that of a idiot for jesus's sake?????????

ya

I like suffering for jesus cool beans. It's supposed to be happy time following jesus "the joy of the lord is your strength" you don't want to get to feeling like your being chinese water tortured following the lord. Nehemiah 8:10 "Then he said unto them, Go your way, eat the fat, and drink the sweet, and send portions unto them for whom nothing is prepared: for this day is holy unto our Lord: neither be ye sorry; for the joy of the Lord is your strength."

  If a 50 cent piece of jewelry at a garage sale makes following jesus a happy time - hey buy that!!!!!!!!!!!! You could tell me my logic is idiotic.....................but maybe it is genious????????????

Have a great week earth!

LOVE

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Is your love "awake"????? Song of Solomon 8:4 "I charge you, O daughters of Jerusalem, that ye stir not up, nor awake my love, until he please."...............................

Update 2/20/2024 just got done going for a walk got a rainbro at dutch brothers coffee.......................

Is your love "awake"???????????? (verse 4 below)

Song of Solomon 8

4 I charge you, O daughters of Jerusalem, that ye stir not up, nor awake my love, until he please.

5 Who is this that cometh up from the wilderness, leaning upon her beloved? I raised thee up under the apple tree: there thy mother brought thee forth: there she brought thee forth that bare thee.

6 Set me as a seal upon thine heart, as a seal upon thine arm: for love is strong as death; jealousy is cruel as the grave: the coals thereof are coals of fire, which hath a most vehement flame.

7 Many waters cannot quench love, neither can the floods drown it: if a man would give all the substance of his house for love, it would utterly be contemned.

 Once I was big on the idea of "becoming something" even the bible itself seems to point at the idea of it being a good plan to "become" something 1 Corinthians 12:29-31 "Are all apostles? are all prophets? are all teachers? are all workers of miracles? Have all the gifts of healing? do all speak with tongues? do all interpret? But covet earnestly the best gifts: and yet shew I unto you a more excellent way." It says in verse 31 "covet earnestly the best gifts" ------------- covet, desire to be something maybe a bit "larger" in the schemata of things is how I read that there bunch of verses. 

  Though I find if your the 1st of all the list of 1 Corinthians 12:29 you are the dinkest. It's not joke..........1 Corinthians 4:13 "Being defamed, we intreat: we are made as the filth of the world, and are the offscouring of all things unto this day." Though my mom says "everyone likes me" and I think there is truth to this. I'm going to pay like earth a compliment, I do think there is a great deal of good in most everyone, a great deal of capacity to love and to care for one another, and I do experience that. I am not stoned, shipwrecked, jailed, the house of horrors things that happened to paul do not happen to me not to that extent. 

 Do I have a massive instagram following um no. Am I racking up the likes big time right now? - nope. But surely I am not shipwrecked, or stoned, or jailed. So my mom is probably right everyone does like me. 

  But back to 1 Corinthians 12:31 "But covet earnestly the best gifts: and yet shew I unto you a more excellent way." I've decided this "more excellent way" jesus wants to show people............jesus wishes that people could acheive the 1 spot of apostle, so he could show them this "more excellent way". I believe this "more excellent way" is something we all can acheive. 

   This "more excellent way" is when you don't seek your own 1 Corinthians 10:24 "Let no man seek his own, but every man another's wealth."

  I tell you all, I have found to be in a lofty place means nothing.........without love it means 000000000000000000000000000000000000 Song of Solomon 8:7 "Many waters cannot quench love, neither can the floods drown it: if a man would give all the substance of his house for love, it would utterly be contemned."

  For reals right now, I know most us secretely value the "likes" on the facebook, and the instagram and for some of us our bodybuilding.com bodyspaces ---------- if we had zillions of "likes" and a high place on this earth Any kind of high place and no love, whether in our hearts or not many people genuinely loving us That would be worth 0 would it not? 

I'd rather instead of seeking these "likes" codemn my own house for loves sake from the jump!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And both love and be loved!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1 Corinthians 13:13 "And now abideth faith, hope, charity, these three; but the greatest of these is charity."

   Have a great week earth!

LOVE
We need each other..................

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I took note one day that without love a person isn't "useful" Matthew 5:13 "Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men."...........

Update 2/15/2024 peloton biked yesterday 😁 NO ASTHMA AT ALL, and NO ARTHRITIS lately. I attribute all this success to probably peloton biking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..................peloton biking could change YOUR LIFE.............

this is my hair unduffused ---------- I juuuust started wearing my natural curly hair all "natural" again. Last night I put a fair amount of coconut oil in my hair...............so today the coils should be even tighter, and today I AM DIFFUSING MY HAIR, and likely adding gel to my hair as well do the full out whole thing to my hair. So it's going to get even bigger then this 😀

poor me in 2016

least you hadn't given up on life 2016 me.........................

I took note one day that without love a person isn't "useful" Matthew 5:13 "Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men."
  My e-mails now for the elder of the apostolic christian church of america and his wife, and my aunt seem to be reaching them again, and I was instructed to love them. To not give up.
  The bible does say Galatians 6:9 "And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not." It is a means of "well doing" to love the apostolic christian church of americians is it not??????????????????????? Not all "well doing" is literally like you know going and helping wash a friends car on the weekends etc. that type of "well doing" is great to very good, but so is a simple e-mail or a letter.
   Anyways I took good note of how if you have lost salt "love" you are then "it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men" imagine that?????????
  This is me on this topic even though it'll seem like I'm getting off of it, cause I ain't always good at "segways"...........
2 Timothy 3:1-3 "This know also, that in the last days perilous times shall come. For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy, Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good," I've been thinking a lot about well how is this time "perilous"

are people dieing physically is that the peril?????

or is the "peril" the bible talking about within??????

I've decided 2 Timothy 3:1-3 is talking about a peril that could happen within. Because if everyone or most people around you truelly are ".............lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy, Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good," it is a peril, it gets harder to love does is not???????????????????

  You'd be real tempted to think "well why should I love all of these ".lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy, Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good,"????????????????????

 I was given the answer.............because people can change, because there is hope for people out there even in the worstest of times. 

  And besides that it is just good to love everyone, it's good inside your soul, 

even the idea of not loving everyone is real peril!

Luke 6:45 "A good man out of the good treasure of his heartbringeth forth that which is good; and an evil man out of the evil treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is evil: for of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaketh." I want good things coming from my mouth just mostly good things (well ok we all have bad days, and I think we should definately be "longsuffering in love" with one another) I don't want to be trampled under the foot of men one day I WANT TO BE USEFUL!

Matthew 5:13 "Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men."

  That's it that's all that's on my heart right now. 

Have a great week!

LOVE

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Truth is Mark 10:18 "And Jesus said unto him, Why callest thou me good? there is none good but one, that is, God." We should desire to love one another, forgive one another!........................

Update 2/14/2024 which is valentine's day I do believe. (I don't actually experience valentines day - my husband is "non-demonstrative" he tells me that's a style a person can be............to the point he hardly ever kisses me on the lips)

my new hairdo.....................

  I was reading the bible yesterday and I a few verses stood out to me much Matthew 26:74-75 "Then began he to curse and to swear, saying, I know not the man. And immediately the cock crew. And Peter remembered the word of Jesus, which said unto him, Before the cock crow, thou shalt deny me thrice. And he went out, and wept bitterly." Peter was a "high end" extremely "high end" christian. And he was sure he was going to stick things out with jesus after he was betrayed, and he failed in his mission there. 

  Paul said Romans 7:18 "For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwellethno good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not." 

  On my mind how much we really should show mercy to one another. 

  There is though victory to be had in jesus very much so.........1 John 5:4-5 "For whatsoever is born of God overcometh the world: and this is the victory that overcometh the world, even our faith. Who is he that overcometh the world, but he that believeth that Jesus is the Son of God?"

   Matthew 5:7 "Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy." I do regularly e-mail the elder of the apostolic christian church of america that bashed me hard, and his wife and my apostolic christian aunt. I try and forgive, it's a way I have tried to show mercy, to be merciful...............sometimes I don't know how to show mercy??????????????????????????

  They don't e-mail me back, how do you show mercy to a people that looks like they hate you???????????????????????? 

  But sending the e-mails has helped me show mercy in my heart, where it matters the most pry. 

  For me mercy is active. It's a activity to do. 

  Whether the elder of the apostolic christian church of america by me, still thinks all that horrible stuffs about me, doesn't matter, or what people think about me in general doesn't matter (I was told I was a horrible human being, horrible friend etc. at a meeting with the elder to become a member of their church which didn't happen ------- bashed to the point I was suicidal)......it's do I love, do I forgive how is it in my heart that is the important thing. Keep your heart the bible says Proverbs 4:23 "Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are theissues of life."

  I feel rather familyless most days and that's hard for me. My parents live across the usa, my brother and sisters (well one lives a hour and a half away from me, but the other two live states away). For awhile the apostolic christian church was my family and were filling a void that needed to be filed, and now I just have that void. 

I wake up there it is. 

I go to bed there it is. 

Mark 10:29-31 "And Jesus answered and said, Verily I say unto you, There is no man that hath left house, or brethren, or sisters, or father, or mother, or wife, or children, or lands, for my sake, and the gospel's, But he shall receive an hundredfold now in this time, houses, and brethren, and sisters, and mothers, and children, and lands, with persecutions; and in the world to come eternal life. But many that are first shall be last; and the last first."

  My current job has the potential to become family, and my current church. And I have "internet family" to : ) Things are looking up. I think??????

  I plugging in this 21 pilots song yet again, because the singer sings to "not trust anyone perfect" what he means by that is to not trust the idea of anyone being perfect....................cause it don't exist besides god Mark 10:18 "And Jesus said unto him, Why callest thou me good? there is none good but one, that is, God." I've been lead or wanted to believe it existed a few times in my life, it don't.................you want to have people to look up to right??????????? Who doesn't want people to look up to. And what do you do when you look up to someone do you not put them up on some kind of pedastle.............maybe even to the point of believing they are perfect (especially if they hint that they are)

jesus I believe he loved the people crucifying him - condeming him

Luke 23:34 "Then said Jesus, Father, forgive them; for they knownot what they do. And they parted his raiment, and cast lots." The elder of the apostolic christian church of america didn't know what he was doing, he did not know how much he was actually hurting me that day, if he did I imagine he wouldn't of said all of that. OR I HOPE NOT CAUSE ALL THAT WAS HORRIBLE EVEN IF IT WAS TRUE...........................love one another, build up one another, it's terrible to verbally like stone someone to death like that........trust me I experienced it it was bad. 

Have a great week!

LOVE

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What you sew you will reap Galatians 6:8 "For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting."..............

Update 2/10/2024 bought few books even though it is the shabbat, I shabbated to today. 3 one dollar books -------------- people supposed to go do stuffs on the weekend my husband and kids they live like gentiles. 

but ironic I'm updated on this particular post

cause I was thinkin lately

how much the "narrow way" is about how WE LIVE AND NOT HOW WE LOOK

people they often judge me as one that walks in the flesh

but often I AIN'T WALKING IN THE FLESH

Galatians 6:8 "For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting."

WHAT IS THE 'narrow way" 

the straight and narrow

is reading ones bible everyday I believe

------------- the way of the world

the broad path

is one where people forget about god

Romans 1:28

Furthermore, just as they did not think it worthwhile to retain the knowledge of God, so God gave them over to a depraved mind, so that they do what ought not to be done.

I full believe one can have a very cute barbie type or goth type or barbie and goth type decor room and be on the "straight and narrow" 

this world most it - they don't retain god - they no give god time everyday

god really is to many a "sunday" thing only

straight and narrow isn;'t how  you look

it how you live

(my latest painting, painted at a friends house, it's a mermaid tail laying on concrete with water dripping off of it -------------- I made that up totally via my imagination)

What you sew you will reap Galatians 6:8 "For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting."
Don't make god/the bible jesus only a "sunday" thing!!!!!!!!!! (or only a saturday thing if you are jewish)
  If you sow to the flesh, and buy stuffs and buy stuffs and buys you "shall of the flesh reap corruption" we sow to something every single day, every single one of us this is what I have discovered. Everyday counts!
   You can't walk in the flesh everyday and ignore the word of god, and recogn oh now your going to have a nice crop in your soul Luke 16:13 "No servant can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon."
   This post was inspired by a bodybuilding inspiration video of which I am including in this blog post.........I'm still bodybuilding. Bodybuilding is so linked to how I think about my soul these days, everyday counts, everyday is a day to read my bible, to pray, to watch some christian tv, read some christian blogs. Everyday counts for my physical health as well, everyday, I need to do something near everyday I recogn whether that's a walk, or lifting a few weight --- I'm about to go to the gym and crush it at the gym. 
  It all compounds, it all adds up to something. Those that endure unto the end the same shall be saved, we won't maybe be saved enduring unto the end no WE WILL BE SAVED!!!!!!!!!!!! Matthew 24:13 "But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved."
  I can't say for sure bodybuilding is going to pay off for me though.........it's slow going. But the bible is stock that will pay off, the pay off is there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Isaiah 55:11 "So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplishthat which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it." I love Isaiah 55:11 I serious believe this verse, just reading god's word everyday is doing a fantastical work in my life.............."and is SHALL prosper in the thing whereto I sent it" Forget my blog, forget bodybuilding, forget whatever I could do in this world ----------- be saved!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BE SAVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE WORD OF GOD IS POWERFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Have a great week!

LOVE

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