Hate your life, don't want to be anything but jesus's John 12:25 "He that loveth his life shall lose it; and he that hateth his life in this world shall keep it unto life eternal." I'm so miserable at hating my life I've very well have appologized today to my 13 you tube followers (ya I'm epic like that)......................

Hate your life, don't want to be anything but jesus's John 12:25 "He that loveth his life shall lose it; and he that hateth his life in this world shall keep it unto life eternal." I'm so miserable at hating my life I've very well have appologized today to my 13 you tube followers (ya I'm epic like that)......................

 I'm just losing my life yo's going "down down in a earlier round, and sugar we're going down swinging" - Fall out Boy......................

It's time to stop playing the harlot.........James 4:4 "Ye adulterers and adulteresses, know ye not that the friendship of the world is enmity with God? whosoever therefore will be a friend of the world is the enemy of God."
Jeremiah 3:6 "The Lord said also unto me in the days of Josiah the king, Hast thou seen that which backsliding Israel hath done? she is gone up upon every high mountain and under every green tree, and there hath played the harlot."

Revelation 18:4 "And I heard another voice from heaven, saying, Come out of her, my people, that ye be not partakers of her sins, and that ye receive not of her plagues."

  I am miserable following jesus, this is miserable. Maybe I need to listen to some Marilyn Manson some more, I done been suffering for the lord to much, trying to keep up with the without a life christians all around me - cause they hate their lives bad (they are safe to say having a great time suffering for the lord, if they is miserable they done fooled me ------- man saturday night on KPDQ christian radio, chipperiest singers ever, seem to be having the bestestestestsetest time ever following jesus......................old style gospel music yee haw time so much). 

 Philippians 3:10 "That I may know him, and the power of his resurrection, and the fellowship of his sufferings, being made conformable unto his death;" 😬

  Somedays I even think to myself................hmmmmmmmmmmm maybe the flames of hell are better???????????? Cause so much does suffering for the lord stink in my mind. And I ain't even good at it, no, it's all the christians around me that is good at it. 

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 I used to like laying on one them "bed of nails" matts, these days I sauna which is pry in some people's minds demented torture............so I do enjoy some demented torture. But I'm very selective in the demented torture I enjoy. 

  Sometimes I enjoy getting a sunburn...........................just cause there isn't much sunlight where I live and it's hard to get a sunburn (I sometimes feel like a accomplished something..........especially if some of my skin peels). ==

I'm going to work to not impersonate marilyn no more (aka don't wear makeup cause anytime I wear makeup I look like a total dead ringer for her), god does not like it when we "play the harlot" Revelation 18:4 "And I heard another voice from heaven, saying, Come out of her, my people, that ye be not partakers of her sins, and that ye receive not of her plagues.".........

ps............my mom told me "excuse me" me and dad love brian (my husband).

I'm going to work to not impersonate marilyn no more (aka don't wear makeup cause anytime I wear makeup I look like a total dead ringer for her), god does not like it when we "play the harlot"  Revelation 18:4 "And I heard another voice from heaven, saying, Come out of her, my people, that ye be not partakers of her sins, and that ye receive not of her plagues."
   Matthew 10:38-39 "And he that taketh not his cross, and followeth after me, is not worthy of me. He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it."

  Verses about playing the harlot...........................

Genesis 38:24 "And it came to pass about three months after, that it was told Judah, saying, Tamar thy daughter in law hath played the harlot; and also, behold, she is with child by whoredom. And Judah said, Bring her forth, and let her be burnt."
Jeremiah 2:20 "For of old time I have broken thy yoke, and burst thy bands; and thou saidst, I will not transgress; when upon every high hill and under every green tree thou wanderest, playing the harlot."
Jeremiah 3:1 "They say, If a man put away his wife, and she go from him, and become another man's, shall he return unto her again? shall not that land be greatly polluted? but thou hast played the harlot with many lovers; yet return again to me, saith the Lord."
Jeremiah 3:6 "The Lord said also unto me in the days of Josiah the king, Hast thou seen that which backsliding Israel hath done? she is gone up upon every high mountain and under every green tree, and there hath played the harlot."
Jeremiah 3:8 "And I saw, when for all the causes whereby backsliding Israel committed adultery I had put her away, and given her a bill of divorce; yet her treacherous sister Judah feared not, but went and played the harlot also."
Ezekiel 16:15 "But thou didst trust in thine own beauty, and playedst the harlot because of thy renown, and pouredst out thy fornications on every one that passed by; his it was."
Ezekiel 16:16 "And of thy garments thou didst take, and deckedst thy high places with divers colours, and playedst the harlot thereupon: the like things shall not come, neither shall it be so."
Ezekiel 16:28 "Thou hast played the whore also with the Assyrians, because thou wast unsatiable; yea, thou hast played the harlot with them, and yet couldest not be satisfied."
Ezekiel 16:41 "And they shall burn thine houses with fire, and execute judgments upon thee in the sight of many women: and I will cause thee to cease from playing the harlot, and thou also shalt give no hire any more."
Ezekiel 23:5 "And Aholah played the harlot when she was mine; and she doted on her lovers, on the Assyrians her neighbours,"
Ezekiel 23:19 "Yet she multiplied her whoredoms, in calling to remembrance the days of her youth, wherein she had played the harlot in the land of Egypt."
Ezekiel 23:44 "Yet they went in unto her, as they go in unto a woman that playeth the harlot: so went they in unto Aholah and unto Aholibah, the lewd women."
Hosea 2:5 "For their mother hath played the harlot: she that conceived them hath done shamefully: for she said, I will go after my lovers, that give me my bread and my water, my wool and my flax, mine oil and my drink."
Hosea 3:3 "And I said unto her, Thou shalt abide for me many days; thou shalt not play the harlot, and thou shalt not be for another man: so will I also be for thee."
Hosea 4:15 "Though thou, Israel, play the harlot, yet let not Judah offend; and come not ye unto Gilgal, neither go ye up to Bethaven, nor swear, The Lord liveth."

Revelation 18:2 "And he cried mightily with a strong voice, saying, Babylon the great is fallen, is fallen, and is become the habitation of devils, and the hold of every foul spirit, and a cage of every unclean and hateful bird."