I'm feeling sarcastic this christmas need prayer. Went a few days ago to a christian thrift store, and there was racks of dollar clothing (used) free new dog squeek toys, free books, like a kid believes in christmas I sat there not believing it, not beliveving what I was supposed to be believing that there are christians that love me and love jesus. The employee's seemed nice though.............but none of it felt real to me, it all felt like "showmanship" like "showmanship for jesus their supposed lord" no hate to that thrift store I FEEL THAT WAY ACROSS THE BOARD RIGHT NOW TOWARDS THE ENTIRE BODY OF CHRIST IT DON'T FEEL REAL TO ME IT FEELS LIKE A SHOW PEOPLE PUT ON ON SUNDAY, OR THEY PUT IT ON WHEN VOLUNTEERING SOMEWHERE OR WORKING AT CHRISTIAN THRIFT STORE ETC. ETC. ETC......................

 I'm feeling sarcastic this christmas need prayer. Went a few days ago to a christian thrift store, and there was racks of dollar clothing (used) free new dog squeek toys, free books, like a kid believes in christmas I sat there not believing it, not beliveving what I was supposed to be believing that there are christians that love me and love jesus. The employee's seemed nice though.............but none of it felt real to me, it all felt like "showmanship" like "showmanship for jesus their supposed lord" no hate to that thrift store I FEEL THAT WAY ACROSS THE BOARD RIGHT NOW TOWARDS THE ENTIRE BODY OF CHRIST IT DON'T FEEL REAL TO ME IT FEELS LIKE A SHOW PEOPLE PUT ON ON SUNDAY, OR THEY PUT IT ON WHEN VOLUNTEERING SOMEWHERE OR WORKING AT CHRISTIAN THRIFT STORE ETC. ETC. ETC......................

I told brian about my christmas card writing inside the cards considerations above. Told him everyone's satan's anyways, they all faking it pretty well (he didn't disagree with me) 

this off topic

but we went to a witch store a few days ago

And I'll admit there is 1 witch store I like (they like have classes where they decorate creepy looking dolls haven't taken it but looks fun) 

I'm treated better wearing crystals.

but also I have a love of rocks

my grandpa collected rocks and then my great uncle also collected rocks

christians are "boo'd" in society

it's cool to be a witch

it's cool to be a sorcerer

that's what's cool

Galatians 6:17 "From henceforth let no man trouble me: for I bear in my body the marks of the Lord Jesus."

  I bear some marks on me, I'm hateddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd

hated

hattttttttttttttttttttted

And the worst type of hatred they'll smile at me on sunday, they'll go to my blog..............make it look like I'm liked/loved. Put on the "christian show" but then I'm all alone all week long every week, besides I spend well all the time with brian cause he works from home everyday and doesn't even know where his current desk is in his office like at all. And my son even when he had a job - he often went 3-4 days per week with days off. Oh and for the record nothing wrong with the people around me, no they are elect of god "this is the script" christians SAINTS.............IT'S ME THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WTIH I'M A BISH THAT LOVES THE DEVIL AND GOD/JESUS. But this well orchestrated "show" goes on everyday. 

"sheri some people are genuinely nice out there" - true probably

nonetheless my reason for having "sarcasm" is real

Matthew 24:9 "Then shall they deliver you up to be afflicted, and shall kill you: and ye shall be hated of all nations for my name's sake."
Mark 13:13 "And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake: but he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved."

  I not only love crystals I love wearing them I hated enough already!!!!!!!!!!!

I need a few less "marks of jesus" on me

I ain't trying to be paul!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT SOUNDS HORRIBLE TO BE PAUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

last year nobody in my family even sent me a christmas card - but they are all christians --------------------- and that's it that's their big time of the year cause they love jesus christ so bad with their whole heart and soul and mind. 

not even a card?????????????????????????????????????????

I've gotten sarcastic

need prayer

maybe I shouldn't send cards out - I am deeply sarcastic this year

pry be for the better I don't send out cards

but I kind of want to

 (cause they'll all know I'm being sarcastic and then I have sarcastic christian gift ideas to) 

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though

I wouldn't be harming anybody

and mailing all that out would greatly increase my christmas

it'd make me merry

SINCE HOW I'M SUPPOSED TO HAVE A HOLLY JOLLY CHRISTMAS

But which if the 3 greetings above should I pick?????????????? - it's so hard option 2 feels the most sarcastic to me

but maybe I should behave some???????????????????

but then 

I do need to be jolly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the time of year when everyone pretends to be christian (from my experience) and everyone knows everyone is faking (also from my personal experience) my whole life even when I was a little kid. 

the tree

the gifts

supposedly jesus

................I try and be a real christian I might've failed miserably 

but I'm the only one I know 
Matthew 5:16 "Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven." 

that's not just good sermons

or good blogs

or good blessed holy conversation e-mails to your friends and/or family

THAT THEY MAY SEE YOUR GOOD WORKS

so many people 

I don't see nothin

nothing

though usually usually saw something at christmas

but these days not even that holiday

so never

most people I never see no good works 0

but they going on and on they christian to wazuu whole churches of people like this with no good works that we can see SEE WITH OUR EYE'S SOME KIND OF "RECEIPTS"

supposedly vancouver heights united methodist church mows old peoples lawns I never see that though

every christmas they'll donate to some cause some fill the bin of with cans I NEVER SEE MANY CANS IN THE THING

FEW TIMES THEY DID THAT LOOKED TO BE GHOST TOWN 

mostly ghost town

I've gone sarcastic real good

---------------- look I ain't the one to talk ok I realize

I buy jewelry sometimes

I sometimes wear makeup

I'm not the perfect pristine christian that the apostolic christian church of america members

but I'll try to follow jesus

I'll try

do I hope to one day be with lucifer - yes yes I do...........................but not in the flames not like that in our room that I believe exists that's why people will only be able to view lucifer narrowly..................
Isaiah 14:16 "They that see thee shall narrowly look upon thee, and consider thee, saying, Is this the man that made the earth to tremble, that did shake kingdoms;"

I feel the most relaxed around lucifer..............I can just be myself. 

though brian also is more into me being myself I believe, HE KNOWS I LIKE CRYSTALS he ain't like the rest of the body of christ hating me because I like rocks. 

most people expect me to put up some kind of show like they put up and I never put up the show like they do, so I always upset them bad

.......................I'm off to diamond paint

relax

on this shabbat