highly edited out blog post: for years i've been made "the bad guy" for everything by everyone in my life nearly or was in my life I should say. I felt guilty for a long time after finally getting mad after being verbally assaulted for several minutes by leading elder of the apostolic christian church of america, it was several minutes but people have chewed me out and told me I'm sinner trash for so long for so long they've pounded it into me that I must be "perfect" BUT THE BIBLE SAYS "not easily provoked" well I wasn't easily provoked that day I'm actually mega hard to provoke but once you get me fired up I never quit like mic jagger. I'M A DRAGON LIKE LUCIFER XOXOXOOXO 1 Corinthians 13:5 "Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil;"...................THE APOSTOLIC CHRISTIAN CHURCH OF AMERICA DANG THEY UPSET ME BAD..................

My dining room right now though brian cleaned it some before I took this picture (he could be trying to "hide the evidence"?????) that's currently causing me much mental stress, to the point either it gets cleaned or brian needs to make a hair appointment to shave my head, go find a drug dealer buy me cocaine and hand me a umbrella!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.................

talk about battle keeping a 1200 square feet house clean and how hard it has been for me and my mental health some here...........................

Fathers day gift for my dad.................my mom and dad love Donald Trump and are 100% that he is a great christian man saving the usa...........THAT'S WHAT THEY BELIEVE THOUROUGHLY. That he is making america great again, my brother believes that to, extreme inflation on near everything we buy and crazy high gas it doesn't exist according to my mom, dad and brother no we are living the best most christian blessed time in usa history EVER THANKS TO OUR VERY CHRISITAN AND HOLY PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA DONALD TRUMP.

(I ain't talking no smacks clearly donalds trump fears god and fearing god is what god wants the most - so donald trump is "doing the thing")

am I sarcastic - yes

Ephesians 6:1-3 "Children, obey your parents in the Lord: for this is right.Honour thy father and mother; which is the first commandment with promise; That it may be well with thee, and thou mayest live long on the earth."

  I have blacked out the insults thrown at me by what was the main elder sure that's sinful that I got mad stormed out of the church angry. 

  But I ain't easily provoked

1 Corinthians 13:5 "Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil;"

I felt condemned for years because I got upset when that main elder of silverton verbally assaulted me so intensely and profusely that I was finally after months of talking with him (it went months the "become a member of the apostolic christian church of america talks" me just not wanting to go to that church anymore cause the sisters many of them the younger ones mostly were making fun of me to the point I was runnning to the bathroom crying pretty often

brian thinks I really wanted to become a member of that church even with him seeing me running crying to the bathroom often

but he had a friend there brian did and he didn't want to stop going  there and they really like him a ton at the apostolic christian church of america

but since the last time we went he is adament they don'l like him much either (they do he's their dream come true0 

but point is I'm not easily provoked it takes a lot and people know that

well god himself has been "provoked'

Psalm 78:58 "For they provoked him to anger with their high places, and moved him to jealousy with their graven images."

God is definately not evil at all when people on earth have mostly often provoked him -maybe non-stop

and he's been mostly showing mercy

WELL THAT'S A LOVING GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

According to my dad I broke up the family

(well my parents and brother and sister moved away from me 24 ish years ago ------- and my brother never invited to his house

they've stopped having family get togethers (they had one but a- denies it was a family get togther it was cause cousin from spain was there there's never been a time where cousin from spain was in town but there wasn't a family get togethre that's bs and cousin from california was also there - at the family get togther pizza joint!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

my fault everything is my fault

it's a kind of "weird violence"

cause everything just couldn't be my fault on earth

and muslims on tiktok have been very aggressive towards me to give them money 

I've had to suffer for things I DIDN'T DO

I didn't kill any gaza citizens and wall them in and make them starve to death - israel is doing that
but I've had to pay for that

ai overview - "The ongoing war in Gaza began on October 7, 2023. As of June 2026, the conflict has lasted for 2 years and nearly 8 months."

2 years and 8 months is a long time I eventually got tired of sending money to gaza

i'm in general tired by now

you will reap if you faint not according to the bible note the word faint in that verse.....................

Galatians 6:9 "And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not."

 I'm in my 50's I ain't reaped nothing yet that I can see?????????????????????? not from doing good 

and if anything I've only reaped bad things

............don't worry muslims I'll probably donate to gaza tommorow or the next day you can't expect me to not buy my dad a father's day gift! BE FAIRER WITH ME PLEASE MUSLIMS I TRY THAT SHOULD BE GOOD ENOUGH!